Colleen, something my therapist taught me is mourning is not exclusive to death. You can mourn anything from moving to a new house to your favorite restaurant closing. Yes, those things may be smaller but that does not mean you’re not mourning the loss of the life you had before. Moving into a new house means a new era of your life, so it’s normal to walk down memory lane and mourn what you had before, especially when so many important things happened in your last era♥️♥️ just think of yourself as taylor swift! 🤣
Collen, im no doctor or therapist but im pretty sure what you are feeling is NOSTALGIA. Which can be a pretty bitter sweet feeling, which brings back beautiful memories and not necessarily making you sad but making you remember how beautiful it felt to live those moments. Ive felt this before moving to different houses and countries or even thinking about my childhood. Sending you hugs❤
I was coming down to comment this, too - Nostalgia! It's something I always feel when I re-visit places where I've spent a lot of time or experienced things with people who are important to me, and you're right, it's definitely bitter-sweet. You feel ALL the things associated with those memories, including a sadness that those times have passed, but also sometimes such a deep appreciation that they happened. It can feel very conflicting and confusing.
Hi Colleen! Grief comes in sooooo many different forms, and not all bad! It’s completely normal for you to feel “weird” visiting a place where you’ve had so many memories. Places can mean as much to us as people and relationships can, so when it’s gone it makes sense to grieve. But that doesn’t mean you’re not happy where you are now! We grieve because we love❤️ let yourself grieve and acknowledge how much love you gave to that house and how much love that house gave you
YES ERIK, there was an 80s Beauty & the Beast show that was AMAZING. ALSO, Colleen you need to read the theories that Belle's whole village is stuck in time because of the curse and is repeating every day over and over which explains a lot of the weirdness.
@@keepcalmanddanceon9128 if you look up the time loop there are a bunch of articles on it from like 5 years ago. It helps to explain why Belle and her father seem so progressive and everyone else hasn't aged.
Coleen, i think that you’re feeling something that the english doesn’t have a word to describe, so i’ll tell you how we call this in portuguese: Saudade. it’s like when you miss someone or something, but in a more sentimental and melancholic way. as a brazilian i think this word can be like a hug when you’re alone, but also can bring so many memories to fill a space or to remind yourself how things were and how they turned. saudade can be painful but also can be joyful 💖
I think part of the story of beauty and the beast is that people can change if they genuinely want to, and there's that contrast between Gaston who wants Belle to change for him and is unwilling to change his own life to accommodate having her in it, and the Beast who sees her being good and kind and is inspired to change himself to be more like her. I think if he'd stayed mean and bratty she would have stayed not into him. The imprisonment thing isn't great though
Yess agreed!! I fell like we ofter modernise everything and see it from a different perspective and try to make it realistic when it's clearly not hahhaha. And even the imprisonment thing I fell like they put it in the story as a sort of a representation that the beast is an animal and not a human, and that he doesn't "know" how to love. (idk i might be wrong) But if we see everything so literally we will ruin every fantasy :')
That feeling you’re experiencing in the house with all the memories, is gratitude. This house is a treasure box of your most special moments and memories, and your new house will become another treasure box too, and you’re creating those new memories now! Sending you lots of love ❤
I went back to our little cramped 2 bedroom apartment the night before they took the keys back & SOBBED. I still want to cry whenever I see or pass it. It’s where we brought our daughter home, I found out I was pregnant with both of our kids etc. I did the same thing with the memories flashing then sat on the ground for thirty minutes & let it sweep over me. You’re not alone haha
I’m no therapist but colleen hun I think that’s the feelings of love, memories, and having a good happy life. Take away struggles and heartache this home helped raise you, your marriage, and your family. It’s love colleen
Colleen, the emotion you felt was simply love. Every event or memory you mentioned was an expression of love. Isn’t it wonderful that wherever you go, it will follow? Your family is so very blessed to have each other. You are right where you’re supposed to be…together.
Belle has also always been my favorite Disney princess and I totally know what Colleen is talking about with watching Beauty and the Beast as an adult! She's still my fave and she always will be, but it's definitely weird to watch with an adult perspective. I guess with the Beast it's that being trapped that way has made him angry and bitter but Belle teaches him to appreciate the smaller things in life. Something There is my favorite song too!
Colleen! I wish I could give you a hug. So many comments have already beautifully articulated the feelings of mourning that you're probably feeling, but I'd also add, you might be feeling an overwhelming sense of gratitude at the same time. Being the in the place that housed and protected you and your family for so many years, where you grew into yourself and eventually grew your family, I'd imagine that you'd be remembering all the love and safety that this place offered you in an instant. You're mourning the end of that chapter in your life, but also experiencing all the gratitude for the home that let you write that chapter to beginning with. Also, remember that there's no right or wrong way to feel. Feel your feelings, Queen. And onto the next chapter.
I'm not a doctor or a therapist, but I feel like you're experiencing a form of nostalgia. It would be so strange to see a place you lived in for so long where experienced so many big life moments decorated with somebody else's belongings. It must have been so surreal!
Beauty and the Beast teaches us to look beyond the surface and to seek understanding- empathy for others. The Prince was turned into a beast because he had no love in his heart, and he became angry and defensive because he was shunned and ostracized…because people judged him. Forgiveness and redemption, Colleen. You know this.
TTQ: hi Colleen, I’m not sure if you’ve spoken about this before but do you remember a pivotal time in your career when you realised that you were making it (like an ‘i can actually do this as my job’ moment)? And how you felt during that time? I wonder if that might help others who are working on their dreams at the moment too :)) Love your videos btw💕
Nostalgia. That’s what you’re feeling. You’re also feeling how quickly time goes and how inevitable change is. But at the end of the day, it’s just a house. You made it a home. And now you’re creating new memories and making a new home and new memories. It’s also okay to cry for no reason at all. You’re brain is so quiet being alone in that house.
I love that you are a person who lovingly appreciates everything in your life and values those special memories. You have such a tender heart and your strength, vulnerability, love for people and life really makes an impact on the world. Thank you
I’m crying watching you in your previous home. That is SUCH a bizarre experience coming from someone who has been through it before. A home is so sentimental. It is so valid that it’s bittersweet and makes you cry to be there. ❤
@@ani8287 she’s a teen teen and it’s possible for it to be a fun hobby with no expectations if they want to make it that way. I think Bailey and her parents would know best if it was something she was up to doing. It could literally just be talking about musicals with her aunt and letting the adults do all the real work of a podcast.
I’m crying right there with ya girl! We’ve watched you grow up and grow a family and because an even more amazing person! It’s a lot to say goodbye to even for us!
I didn't realize how much I missed Coleen with bangs until now!! Also Tortilla Talk Question: I know you have talked about how much you love Taylor Swift's Midnights album but have you listened to any of her other albums and if so what is your favorite?? This is coming from a major swiftie myself🤩
As another major swiftie I second this!! I loved the video she made talking about midnights and I would love to hear her talk about more of Taylor Swift’s other music too
You’re so much stronger than me! We sold my childhood home 2.5 years ago and even though I pass by the neighborhood nearly every day on my way to work I still haven’t been able to even drive PAST the house because I’m not ready to see it knowing it’s not my house anymore. Change is hard, you’re awesome and very strong and I would be BAWLING if I were you. ❤
I know a lot of people are saying grief is what you're feeling, but I think the more accurate term would be gratitude. That house means so much to you and served you and your growing family well over the years. Something Marie Kondo (the "Spark Joy" lady) always did whenever she went to a client's home is take a moment with the residents to "thank" the house for everything it has provided for them. It's really a great practice to express gratitude to material things that are meaningful to you
When you described how you felt, it felt almost like you were a ghost, revisiting your life. I think you were appreciating the beauty and the love you felt in your life in that house and the great times you had there, You even appreciated the harder times, like throwing up in the bathroom because you could see where they led you, which is somewhere beautiful. I think you were crying almost happy sentimental, grateful tears.
Colleen, I have moved so many times in my life, especially in childhood. I understand your feeling COMPLETELY. It is really weird to come back to a place that is no longer yours but it is forever your home and an incredible part of your life. I teared up watching you walk through. It’s almost like bittersweet nostalgia is the best way I can describe my experience. Sending you the best ❤
I would sob too! Homes are a huge love in our lives and it is totally natural to feel emotionally connected to them. Especially since you have so many wonderful memories of creating your family there. It made me emotional as a viewer of your channel. I can only imagine what it did to you🤣! You are amazing Colleen xx
Colleen, Erik is correct. There was a live-action Beauty and the Beast in the 80s. But it wasn't a movie, it was a series that lasted for 3 seasons and started in 1987. I was in high school when it was on and I LOVED it. It starred Linda Hamilton as the Belle character (her name was Catherine in the series) and Ron Pearlman as Vincent (the Beast character) as you may imagine it is loosely based on Beauty and the Beast. But all in all, Erik was correct.
I felt the same way walking into my grandparents home they had for over 50 years. The new owners completely gutted it, and the charm and love is gone 😭😭😭
Things we love/have loved deeply can make us cry. When I think back to how vulnerable my cat was when she got horribly sick and how grateful I am that she is healthy and that she is with us and how sweet and caring she is, I often get tears in my eyes. And sometimes I cry when I look at my partner and it is just pure love that I feel in those times. Of course I cry when I think about people that I lost, but I also cry at people that I have around and love
It literally makes me so happy to hear that Colleen's favourite musical is Into the Woods, and then for her to talk about how much she loves Beauty and the Beast and that Belle is her favourite (I was literally thinking earlier about how she is my favourite princess) AND THEN TO SAY HER FAVOURITE SONG IS SOMETHING MORE?!?!? LITERALLY INCREDIBLE
I think nostalgia has always felt like death for me. It feels so good to experience the joys of the memories but the loss of the grip you had on the past. I get it 100% 😢
Colleen - I am v-e-r-y happy to hear you say you love your new home! 💗 I purchased my first home as a single woman, loved, loved, loved it, then had to sell it & move. The 1st home was perfect, it didn't need any work, etc. Then the 2nd home - it was a dreadful nightmare! So many renovations needed to be done, and it was so dirty! 🙀 I thought I made a huge mistake. 20 years later I am still in my 2nd home, and am very happy it all worked out. I hope you thanked your 1st home for all the good memories & prayed the next family would love it as much as you did !!! Both homes are truly amazing! I am happy for your family! God bless............
I think that feeling you're having is just grief! You can grieve transitions in your life even if you're moving on to something bigger and better. It's normal and totally valid
great im glad she's crying with grief over a fucking house, when I don't have a grandpa anymore and so people people lost their older family members to covid the past years. It's nostalgia huge fucking difference .
I have always been overwhelmed with memories visiting the outside of my childhood home. I’ve never went inside again even though I was invited to. I know it would bowl me over with memories! Totally get the torn feelings!
Belle was considered weird for reading because in that time period women weren’t reading. They didn’t typically have an education. It’s messed up that they thought there was something wrong with her for it, but there were LOTS of things that they judged people wrongly for in that time period, so it’s not really a surprise. They kind of try to touch on that in the Live Action movie when the people in the town get upset at Belle for trying to teach the one girl how to read.
it’s okay to be nostalgic about a house that you lived in for so long and that holds such important memories for you and your family ❤️ the place holds sentimental value so nobody’s gonna blame you for feeling a bit emotional about returning there! love you so much colleen ♡
Colleen....you were crying cause you are still in mourning hun. You may not be sad but you are grieving. It was a huge big chapter of your life that is no longer. And grief is like waves, it ebbs and flows. And IT IS OKAY!!! You may adore your new home but it is Okay to still miss what was
I think what you felt was longing(?) for the memories. Like you miss all those moments and time is flying by so fast as the kids are going up. I cried too 🥲🥲
Tortilla talk question: Have you thought about collabing with Molly Burke again? I know the pandemic hit right after you guys collabed last time and you now have twins, but I was just curious now that it seems things have settled down more. You both are my favorite UA-camrs and I would love to see you guys get together again.❤️
Colleen, I never really comment but from I've learned in my life nostalgia is something that can definitely make you cry. A place, a song, a memory. When I moved from my house, I would go back and visit it and would feel sad but also happy. The mixed emotions when life is moving so fast is overwhelming sometimes and I'm sure everyone can relate to that. Your videos always make me feel at peace and I so appreciate that.
Much love Colleen!! I don’t typically comment on videos, but i’ve watched you everyday for years. You’ve gotten me through my pregnancy and postpartum struggles. I feel like we can relate so much, I also cry alot. You always make us feel like we’re there with you and I admire that. Wishing you & your family well! ❤️
7:41 you don’t need a diagnosis for having heart felt emotions & memories come up in a place that held so much.. it’s nostalgia. You’re human, a heart based human who’s perfect 🤍
I’m no doctor Colleen, but it honestly sounds like your experiencing some intense nostalgia possibly? I understand exactly how you feel though…and if someone can define or explain exactly what you’re feeling I’d love to know just as much as you. 💕
And everyone you have memories about are with you. I think the sentiment is emotional because huge life experiences happened there. But I know you know that home is where your family is. I’m sure I’d feel the same way. It’s okay to have your memories of such wonderful events.❤️
I always feel this way when I go back to visit my childhood home in my country. It's all the memories of times you had but you know you will never get those times back again.
I have had a similar experience when I moved house, then went back a few months later to pick up some things. For me it was the feeling of re-entering a time of my life I had left behind and suddenly feeling overwhelmed (not necessarily in a bad way) with all the history I had there xx
Beauty and the Beast is about an angry selfish king realizing the error of his stubborn and vain ways, getting punished for it and then actually growing and changing with the help of Belles influence and acceptance of him in his Beast form. That’s why he ends up with the girl and not Gaston, the actual villain with horrid characteristics and unwilling to change. The beast is not all bad, he just has a hard time showing his true emotions. Belle also lives very comfortably in the palace, she is not tortured. This is a story with a message as are all fairy tales - it’s about the value of inward characteristics instead of just appearance. Vanity and selfishness are wrong. We all have a little beast inside us, it’s about not letting your bad/negative side take over. Your biggest enemy is sometimes yourself. Make good choices. Be nice to strangers. You should read a book and research the morale of a story before you shit on the entire thing.
colleen. ur a queen. when times get rough you find a way to manage your self and get through it. life’s gonna have its twists and turns but remember to take a deep breath when you need it and you are very loved. by me, your fans, and ur family. kinda random but btw we NEED more flynn content. he’s the cutest little stinker ever! ilysm.❤️❤️❤️
@@vickilaughs well she gives entertainment for people to watch but for me she always cheers me up when I need it, every time I see her post it makes me smile and feel happy.
I'm terrible on long drives by myself. I get way too introspective and in my own head and it gets unbearable but I love that you can take that same energy and turn it into something beautiful. It's totally your super power 💕
It’s extremely random but I was rewatching some of your older videos (pregnancy announcements, telling your friends and family) and when you were telling Kory you were having twins HE WAS LITERALLY HOLDING A PLUSHIE DUCK and now Maisy’s obsessed with them! It can’t be a coincidence! I loved it so much I had to share 🤍 anywaysssssss greeting from Poland! 🤍
I think Beauty and the Beast, which is also my favorite, is meant to show character development on behalf of the beast, like no matter how unpleasant you are you can always find the kindness in your heart to change. And belle is weird for reading because it wasn’t seen as appropriate for girls to become educated, they were meant to be solely housewives and mothers, and seeing that belle didn’t only occupy her time with household responsibilities she was a weird girl. I think the live action film with Emma Watson does a good job of showing that, also of making Belle braver and stronger
Colleen, what you're feeling in regards to your former home is quite legitimate. It was a BIG part of your world for quite some time, and it was a part of your evolution as a complete individual, just like your current home is. Emotions are part of that connection. With each step you're moving forward, and you're continuing to grow and further evolve. This is a GOOD thing, ma'am.
It's definitely not weird that you feel so emotional about the home you spent so much of your life in. especially when you were growing your family, those are priceless memories. I feel the same way when I think back to special places and times in my life. Even if the current situation I'm in is better or just as happy.
I think that is is really interesting to see Colleen talk about Beauty and the Beast because I am writing an essay about how princesses are not great role models for young children especially girls. Thank you for another point to make in my essay!
It’s okay Babe… you are just feeling your memories! They are bigger feelings than looking at a picture for some! You are one of the sweetest natural empaths, I’ve ever seen… it fuels your creativity and makes you so real and honest! I adore you Colleen, you biggest fan from Kentucky 💞Tere
Colleen recapping Beauty and the Beast was so funny to me 😂😂 But also, yeah. A lot of childhood faves have poor morals, especially for girls. Yet the nostalgia and pretty packaging of it still makes us like it and want to defend it, even when it probably wouldn't be defended in other contexts
Heyyy Colleen is absolutely fine to feel a little sad about leaving homes.... My family also moved to a whole different city after living for sooo many years in a home. I was born their, I grew up there... I remember the halls in which i used to run when my daddy came home from work.. it is ok to mourn, that used to be your home. The walls and the halls carry the memories. Sometimes it is tough to say goodbye to places. It is not an odd thing!!
Colleen you’re crying for the reasons you’re listing. It’s emotional to go to the places we built memories and you spent most of your adult life up until now there, 4 years of your child’s life were spent there, it was the twins first home… There isn’t a huge explanation it’s nostalgia and emotional attachment and memories… I mean even I got teary eyed just because I’ve watched you for years in that house 🥹
What a twist that Erik doesn’t know a movie after years of Colleen not knowing any at all 🤣☠️ lol Great story telling too. I’ve seen it 500 times and still wanted to hear you tell the whole movie 😂
I’m going through the something similar right now. We just moved on sunday from the house i brought my son home in and spent the whole first year of his life. It’s not that i don’t like the new place, it just seems so weird like i’m staying in someone else’s house. I am going back once more to get a few extra things that were left and then that’s goodbye forever. I keep telling myself that it’s the people that you shared the memories with, not the places they were made but it’s still such an emotional time.
Is it just me Or does everyone here feel that her new house has actually started feeling like Home and we're so so much familiar to it.. It's cozy and has this homely vibe to it.. I love it
i think because spending time in your home is such a sensory experience, the memories and nostalgia become stronger. when my grandmother moved out of her house into a retirement home i was so sad and grieved the loss of that house. she passed away just over a month ago and i still feel like i can remember every detail of being in her house with her because those sensory memories are so significant
I think tears can come from any type of overwhelming emotion. Maybe being in a place that holds so many special memories brings tears of deep appreciation & love for all of the time connecting with loved ones in that place. As someone that values spending quality time with your family together & hosting gatherings, any home you are in holds memories of the people you love most. Being physically there might also enhance the memories for you (like how they say it’s good to take a test in the same room where you learned things - the context is meant to help with memory recall). Contextual memories also came up for you when you were by the grocery store earlier. Explanation or not, it makes perfect sense to me that spaces hold energy & memories & that being in a place of so many big life changes would bring heightened emotions. Unrelated unsolicited hair opinion: Ever since you cut your bangs I’ve been thinking you would look great with some version of a “French girl bob” (maybe a longer version if the classic one feels too short). I support the bangs!
Idk when I think back to when I was younger, I saw it as this cool free spirited lady just didn’t fit in with others but was super smart and nice. It inspired me to be the same! And regarding the beast, I mainly remember oh how cool she was so nice sweet and patient and he totally changed into a better person because of her
I think you're just reminiscing but the memories you're reminiscing about in that house are so special to you that it can't help but make you emotional....love you colleen thanks for being the best
Beauty and the Best Analysis is so interesting and completely different to how I interpreted it : 1. Gaston is the villian and is meant to portray a negative male character. 2. Belle is seen to be different by others because she doesn't subscribe to the norms of the town and wants a better life. Every one is jealous of her education and beauty 3. Bella sacrifices herself in place of her dad which is very brave (similarly to Mulan) 4. The beast is cursed and to break the curse he needs to change his spoilt ways to become a better man and Belle helps him to do that. And true love always breaks curses 🤣 Hope this helps you love Beauty and the Beast again! 💛 Sorry to write an essay, Belle, Mulan and Pocahontas are my favourite princesses. I find Disney always highlights interesting issues. I love your vlogs!!!
And I’ve replied to every comment about beauty and the beast but in case you missed one of them, beast was 11 when he was cursed by a witch for not letting her (a stranger) into his home. He spent 10 years as a beast with no hope of becoming human again.
It’s the memories!! We moved out of a duplex we honestly didn’t like but when we moved I was flooded with emotion because of the memories we made while there. I don’t miss that house at all but we had some awesome memories there❤
for your bangs, theres a bunch of different ways you can style them other than just very full and straight across. as someone who has always had bangs, i feel like you would like something more like a fringe. but if you want to embrace the millennial side part you can do a side part bang which is always cute! and you can add slightly longer pieces on the side. i watch your vlogs everyday and you’re my inspiration to make my own so thank you for what you do!
you’re just feeling pure nostalgia. idk if you’re this way but i’m a very sensitive person and places hold lots of meaning to me, and i hold on to so much nostalgia. it’s warm but also so heavy and it’s almost like a longing, but in a good way. it’s just heavy nostalgia, all you can do is bask in it and the fact that you can look back on your phases of life in a positive way
This house has special place in our hearts. So I understand why your crying. I love you so much. So glad to say I grew up watching you. You have made a huge impact on my life💕
as someone who’s grown up watching you and remembers you buying that house, i also got emotional seeing it again. i think that there were so many memories that have occurred there that you were just reliving them all at the same time, which is totally normal!!
So many people have already talked about the grief and how valid your reaction is, but I also want to mention how much more difficult grief can be when you have ADHD. Because your brain tends to forget things that are out of sight, once you’re reminded of the person (or in this case, the home), you start the process all over again. Your brain had forgotten to grieve this home, and so it’s all coming up at once.
What you were feeling is the flooding of good memories that you made in the house. It’s also the first home you bought. There were a lot of important events in your life that happened in that house so you are always going to feel a twinge of sadness and nostalgia when you see it when my husband and I bought the house we live in now, and I moved out of the home that I had bought and raised my sons in for the first seven years I was in Texas, I cried for days. Eventually, you will experience many other firsts in your new home and many new wonderful memories in your new home and it won’t be so hard to look back anymore. ❤
I have heard before that you can just allow yourself to feel things without knowing what you’re feeling. Sometimes you just have to cry or laugh and experience the feeling without understanding. Love you so much!
Colleen, something my therapist taught me is mourning is not exclusive to death. You can mourn anything from moving to a new house to your favorite restaurant closing. Yes, those things may be smaller but that does not mean you’re not mourning the loss of the life you had before. Moving into a new house means a new era of your life, so it’s normal to walk down memory lane and mourn what you had before, especially when so many important things happened in your last era♥️♥️ just think of yourself as taylor swift! 🤣
Well said 👏👏
This!!!
Yup! You’re grieving! It’s super common
We mourn people in TV shows when a series ends. We feel like we’ve lost touch with those friends. 🥲
Boosting! Especially for the taylor swift part 😂 I hope she sees your comment !!
Collen, im no doctor or therapist but im pretty sure what you are feeling is NOSTALGIA. Which can be a pretty bitter sweet feeling, which brings back beautiful memories and not necessarily making you sad but making you remember how beautiful it felt to live those moments. Ive felt this before moving to different houses and countries or even thinking about my childhood. Sending you hugs❤
I was thinking nostalgia or reminiscing!
I was going to say the same thing.
yes it’s nostalgia!!!
I was coming down to comment this, too - Nostalgia! It's something I always feel when I re-visit places where I've spent a lot of time or experienced things with people who are important to me, and you're right, it's definitely bitter-sweet. You feel ALL the things associated with those memories, including a sadness that those times have passed, but also sometimes such a deep appreciation that they happened. It can feel very conflicting and confusing.
@@CaliAmandalyn1981 I was thinking Reminiscing
Hi Colleen! Grief comes in sooooo many different forms, and not all bad! It’s completely normal for you to feel “weird” visiting a place where you’ve had so many memories. Places can mean as much to us as people and relationships can, so when it’s gone it makes sense to grieve. But that doesn’t mean you’re not happy where you are now! We grieve because we love❤️ let yourself grieve and acknowledge how much love you gave to that house and how much love that house gave you
I needed this comment too, thank you ❤️
YES ERIK, there was an 80s Beauty & the Beast show that was AMAZING. ALSO, Colleen you need to read the theories that Belle's whole village is stuck in time because of the curse and is repeating every day over and over which explains a lot of the weirdness.
Starring Ron Perlman & Linda Hamilton
woahhh!! I've never heard that theory before🤯
@@keepcalmanddanceon9128 if you look up the time loop there are a bunch of articles on it from like 5 years ago. It helps to explain why Belle and her father seem so progressive and everyone else hasn't aged.
Woah! I gotta look it up too!
I haven't read the theories, but I feel like intelligent women, like Belle, aren't well received...ever.
I feel like any day now we’re going to see a video titled “MAISY’S FIRST STEPS” or “WESLEY’S FIRST STEPS”
@@pearlboyscasette ikrrr
Its gonna be M's first steps.
right?!
It’s gonna be MASIYS FIRST STEPS 😭😭😭😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Same but I think it
Will be maisy and Wesley are
Dancing , lol
Coleen, i think that you’re feeling something that the english doesn’t have a word to describe, so i’ll tell you how we call this in portuguese: Saudade. it’s like when you miss someone or something, but in a more sentimental and melancholic way. as a brazilian i think this word can be like a hug when you’re alone, but also can bring so many memories to fill a space or to remind yourself how things were and how they turned. saudade can be painful but also can be joyful 💖
Nostalgia would be the English word ❤
I think part of the story of beauty and the beast is that people can change if they genuinely want to, and there's that contrast between Gaston who wants Belle to change for him and is unwilling to change his own life to accommodate having her in it, and the Beast who sees her being good and kind and is inspired to change himself to be more like her. I think if he'd stayed mean and bratty she would have stayed not into him. The imprisonment thing isn't great though
(Not that it makes it right) He and everyone had also been cursed for so long, they were desperate and hopeful she was his chance
I was dying laughing while having this moment of realization with her at the end… like oh imprisonment = bad
i love this explanation! thank you
Yes agreed. Also don't forget this movie was made way back when. 🤷🙂
Yess agreed!! I fell like we ofter modernise everything and see it from a different perspective and try to make it realistic when it's clearly not hahhaha.
And even the imprisonment thing I fell like they put it in the story as a sort of a representation that the beast is an animal and not a human, and that he doesn't "know" how to love. (idk i might be wrong)
But if we see everything so literally we will ruin every fantasy :')
That feeling you’re experiencing in the house with all the memories, is gratitude. This house is a treasure box of your most special moments and memories, and your new house will become another treasure box too, and you’re creating those new memories now! Sending you lots of love ❤
Gratitude! I like that as the descriptor!
I went back to our little cramped 2 bedroom apartment the night before they took the keys back & SOBBED. I still want to cry whenever I see or pass it. It’s where we brought our daughter home, I found out I was pregnant with both of our kids etc. I did the same thing with the memories flashing then sat on the ground for thirty minutes & let it sweep over me. You’re not alone haha
I’m no therapist but colleen hun I think that’s the feelings of love, memories, and having a good happy life. Take away struggles and heartache this home helped raise you, your marriage, and your family. It’s love colleen
Colleen, the emotion you felt was simply love. Every event or memory you mentioned was an expression of love. Isn’t it wonderful that wherever you go, it will follow? Your family is so very blessed to have each other. You are right where you’re supposed to be…together.
Belle has also always been my favorite Disney princess and I totally know what Colleen is talking about with watching Beauty and the Beast as an adult! She's still my fave and she always will be, but it's definitely weird to watch with an adult perspective. I guess with the Beast it's that being trapped that way has made him angry and bitter but Belle teaches him to appreciate the smaller things in life. Something There is my favorite song too!
Colleen! I wish I could give you a hug. So many comments have already beautifully articulated the feelings of mourning that you're probably feeling, but I'd also add, you might be feeling an overwhelming sense of gratitude at the same time. Being the in the place that housed and protected you and your family for so many years, where you grew into yourself and eventually grew your family, I'd imagine that you'd be remembering all the love and safety that this place offered you in an instant. You're mourning the end of that chapter in your life, but also experiencing all the gratitude for the home that let you write that chapter to beginning with. Also, remember that there's no right or wrong way to feel. Feel your feelings, Queen. And onto the next chapter.
Thats how I explained it as well
I'm not a doctor or a therapist, but I feel like you're experiencing a form of nostalgia. It would be so strange to see a place you lived in for so long where experienced so many big life moments decorated with somebody else's belongings. It must have been so surreal!
It's okay to feel sentimental. Lots of special memories were made in that house. 💓
Beauty and the Beast teaches us to look beyond the surface and to seek understanding- empathy for others. The Prince was turned into a beast because he had no love in his heart, and he became angry and defensive because he was shunned and ostracized…because people judged him. Forgiveness and redemption, Colleen. You know this.
It’s nostalgia! Perfectly normal and right to have about a place that carries so much weight in your heart.❤
Watching Erik's face while Colleen was explaining the Beauty and the Beast made my entire day lmfao 🤣
Yes! I think he confused Gaston as the Beast for a second.
LOL! Thank you for this... I went back to watch Erik!
When she starts singing and says “have you ever heard this song” and his “no” just sent me 😂😂😂
That’s what I’m looking at right now 💀💀💀😂😂
he was invested lol
TTQ: hi Colleen, I’m not sure if you’ve spoken about this before but do you remember a pivotal time in your career when you realised that you were making it (like an ‘i can actually do this as my job’ moment)? And how you felt during that time?
I wonder if that might help others who are working on their dreams at the moment too :))
Love your videos btw💕
Love this question!
@@daniisaurushax thank you! I’d love to hear her talk about it
Nostalgia. That’s what you’re feeling. You’re also feeling how quickly time goes and how inevitable change is. But at the end of the day, it’s just a house. You made it a home. And now you’re creating new memories and making a new home and new memories. It’s also okay to cry for no reason at all. You’re brain is so quiet being alone in that house.
I love that you are a person who lovingly appreciates everything in your life and values those special memories. You have such a tender heart and your strength, vulnerability, love for people and life really makes an impact on the world. Thank you
I’m crying watching you in your previous home. That is SUCH a bizarre experience coming from someone who has been through it before. A home is so sentimental. It is so valid that it’s bittersweet and makes you cry to be there. ❤
I feel like Bailey and Colleen need a musical podcast
Best idea ever 🙌🏼💕
no cuz bailey is literally a preteen she should not be working in that way 🤧
@@ani8287 she’s a teen teen and it’s possible for it to be a fun hobby with no expectations if they want to make it that way. I think Bailey and her parents would know best if it was something she was up to doing. It could literally just be talking about musicals with her aunt and letting the adults do all the real work of a podcast.
I would DIE
I would SO watch that. It would be absolutely amazing!!!!!
I’m crying right there with ya girl! We’ve watched you grow up and grow a family and because an even more amazing person! It’s a lot to say goodbye to even for us!
I didn't realize how much I missed Coleen with bangs until now!! Also Tortilla Talk Question: I know you have talked about how much you love Taylor Swift's Midnights album but have you listened to any of her other albums and if so what is your favorite?? This is coming from a major swiftie myself🤩
I really hope she answers this one!!!!
As another major swiftie I second this!! I loved the video she made talking about midnights and I would love to hear her talk about more of Taylor Swift’s other music too
Third major swiftie vouch 🙋🏼♀️
You’re so much stronger than me! We sold my childhood home 2.5 years ago and even though I pass by the neighborhood nearly every day on my way to work I still haven’t been able to even drive PAST the house because I’m not ready to see it knowing it’s not my house anymore. Change is hard, you’re awesome and very strong and I would be BAWLING if I were you. ❤
you're such a wonderful person colleen
I know a lot of people are saying grief is what you're feeling, but I think the more accurate term would be gratitude. That house means so much to you and served you and your growing family well over the years. Something Marie Kondo (the "Spark Joy" lady) always did whenever she went to a client's home is take a moment with the residents to "thank" the house for everything it has provided for them. It's really a great practice to express gratitude to material things that are meaningful to you
This is a beautiful observation
When you described how you felt, it felt almost like you were a ghost, revisiting your life. I think you were appreciating the beauty and the love you felt in your life in that house and the great times you had there, You even appreciated the harder times, like throwing up in the bathroom because you could see where they led you, which is somewhere beautiful. I think you were crying almost happy sentimental, grateful tears.
Colleen, I have moved so many times in my life, especially in childhood. I understand your feeling COMPLETELY. It is really weird to come back to a place that is no longer yours but it is forever your home and an incredible part of your life. I teared up watching you walk through. It’s almost like bittersweet nostalgia is the best way I can describe my experience. Sending you the best ❤
you have no idea how emotional this just made me!! I loved that house because of all the many reasons you said, there are so many memories!
I would sob too! Homes are a huge love in our lives and it is totally natural to feel emotionally connected to them. Especially since you have so many wonderful memories of creating your family there. It made me emotional as a viewer of your channel. I can only imagine what it did to you🤣! You are amazing Colleen xx
Colleen, Erik is correct. There was a live-action Beauty and the Beast in the 80s. But it wasn't a movie, it was a series that lasted for 3 seasons and started in 1987. I was in high school when it was on and I LOVED it. It starred Linda Hamilton as the Belle character (her name was Catherine in the series) and Ron Pearlman as Vincent (the Beast character) as you may imagine it is loosely based on Beauty and the Beast. But all in all, Erik was correct.
I felt the same way walking into my grandparents home they had for over 50 years. The new owners completely gutted it, and the charm and love is gone 😭😭😭
Wasn’t that the first home you bought? It’s perfectly normal to feel the way you did when walking in there. Reminiscing is fine :) much love
And so much has happened in that house, good and bad times. Being sad is a valid feeling! Always!
@@DANNYKAMSTEEG exactly :) I’m sure Flynn will have some memories in that house :)
Things we love/have loved deeply can make us cry. When I think back to how vulnerable my cat was when she got horribly sick and how grateful I am that she is healthy and that she is with us and how sweet and caring she is, I often get tears in my eyes. And sometimes I cry when I look at my partner and it is just pure love that I feel in those times. Of course I cry when I think about people that I lost, but I also cry at people that I have around and love
Does anyone else find themselves talking back to Colleen as you watch her vlogs?! 😅 Lol almost as if we are having a conversation! 💜 live for these!
Yes thats me! Its like I'm having a conversation with her.
Yeah! I’m like agreeing and making all kinds of comments and faces when she’s speaking, as if she was in front of me! 😂
Always😂
Telling her it’s ok if she’s upset! Or that her feelings really are valid!
Yesss!!!!
It literally makes me so happy to hear that Colleen's favourite musical is Into the Woods, and then for her to talk about how much she loves Beauty and the Beast and that Belle is her favourite (I was literally thinking earlier about how she is my favourite princess) AND THEN TO SAY HER FAVOURITE SONG IS SOMETHING MORE?!?!? LITERALLY INCREDIBLE
Ima need more segments of Colleen speaking to Erik about Disney Princess story plots! My favorite is The Little Mermaid
I think nostalgia has always felt like death for me. It feels so good to experience the joys of the memories but the loss of the grip you had on the past. I get it 100% 😢
You did so much and accomplished so much in that house I’m not surprised you felt emotionally connected
Colleen - I am v-e-r-y happy to hear you say you love your new home! 💗 I purchased my first home as a single woman, loved, loved, loved it, then had to sell it & move. The 1st home was perfect, it didn't need any work, etc. Then the 2nd home - it was a dreadful nightmare! So many renovations needed to be done, and it was so dirty! 🙀 I thought I made a huge mistake. 20 years later I am still in my 2nd home, and am very happy it all worked out. I hope you thanked your 1st home for all the good memories & prayed the next family would love it as much as you did !!! Both homes are truly amazing! I am happy for your family! God bless............
I think that feeling you're having is just grief! You can grieve transitions in your life even if you're moving on to something bigger and better. It's normal and totally valid
great im glad she's crying with grief over a fucking house, when I don't have a grandpa anymore and so people people lost their older family members to covid the past years. It's nostalgia huge fucking difference .
I have always been overwhelmed with memories visiting the outside of my childhood home. I’ve never went inside again even though I was invited to. I know it would bowl me over with memories! Totally get the torn feelings!
Belle was considered weird for reading because in that time period women weren’t reading. They didn’t typically have an education. It’s messed up that they thought there was something wrong with her for it, but there were LOTS of things that they judged people wrongly for in that time period, so it’s not really a surprise. They kind of try to touch on that in the Live Action movie when the people in the town get upset at Belle for trying to teach the one girl how to read.
it’s okay to be nostalgic about a house that you lived in for so long and that holds such important memories for you and your family ❤️ the place holds sentimental value so nobody’s gonna blame you for feeling a bit emotional about returning there! love you so much colleen ♡
Colleen....you were crying cause you are still in mourning hun. You may not be sad but you are grieving. It was a huge big chapter of your life that is no longer. And grief is like waves, it ebbs and flows. And IT IS OKAY!!! You may adore your new home but it is Okay to still miss what was
I think what you felt was longing(?) for the memories. Like you miss all those moments and time is flying by so fast as the kids are going up. I cried too 🥲🥲
Tortilla talk question: Have you thought about collabing with Molly Burke again? I know the pandemic hit right after you guys collabed last time and you now have twins, but I was just curious now that it seems things have settled down more. You both are my favorite UA-camrs and I would love to see you guys get together again.❤️
Same
I love them both, but I felt like their friend chemistry was off. Must be just me. 🙊
Colleen, I never really comment but from I've learned in my life nostalgia is something that can definitely make you cry. A place, a song, a memory. When I moved from my house, I would go back and visit it and would feel sad but also happy. The mixed emotions when life is moving so fast is overwhelming sometimes and I'm sure everyone can relate to that. Your videos always make me feel at peace and I so appreciate that.
Much love Colleen!! I don’t typically comment on videos, but i’ve watched you everyday for years. You’ve gotten me through my pregnancy and postpartum struggles. I feel like we can relate so much, I also cry alot. You always make us feel like we’re there with you and I admire that. Wishing you & your family well! ❤️
7:41 you don’t need a diagnosis for having heart felt emotions & memories come up in a place that held so much.. it’s nostalgia. You’re human, a heart based human who’s perfect 🤍
I’m no doctor Colleen, but it honestly sounds like your experiencing some intense nostalgia possibly?
I understand exactly how you feel though…and if someone can define or explain exactly what you’re feeling I’d love to know just as much as you. 💕
Sending you a hug. The feeling is just Love. All the memories…just LOVE!
Colleen, I just want to tell you my cats love watching your vlogs with me during breakfast haha. Love Griffon 🐈and Orion 🐈⬛
And everyone you have memories about are with you. I think the sentiment is emotional because huge life experiences happened there. But I know you know that home is where your family is. I’m sure I’d feel the same way. It’s okay to have your memories of such wonderful events.❤️
Grief isn’t only sadness. It’s a myriad of emotions, too. ❤️
I always feel this way when I go back to visit my childhood home in my country. It's all the memories of times you had but you know you will never get those times back again.
Colleen is the older sibling for me. I learn so much from her
WORDD
Samee
I have had a similar experience when I moved house, then went back a few months later to pick up some things. For me it was the feeling of re-entering a time of my life I had left behind and suddenly feeling overwhelmed (not necessarily in a bad way) with all the history I had there xx
Beauty and the Beast is about an angry selfish king realizing the error of his stubborn and vain ways, getting punished for it and then actually growing and changing with the help of Belles influence and acceptance of him in his Beast form. That’s why he ends up with the girl and not Gaston, the actual villain with horrid characteristics and unwilling to change. The beast is not all bad, he just has a hard time showing his true emotions. Belle also lives very comfortably in the palace, she is not tortured. This is a story with a message as are all fairy tales - it’s about the value of inward characteristics instead of just appearance. Vanity and selfishness are wrong. We all have a little beast inside us, it’s about not letting your bad/negative side take over. Your biggest enemy is sometimes yourself. Make good choices. Be nice to strangers.
You should read a book and research the morale of a story before you shit on the entire thing.
100000% this
Exactly this!! Thank you!
colleen. ur a queen. when times get rough you find a way to manage your self and get through it. life’s gonna have its twists and turns but remember to take a deep breath when you need it and you are very loved. by me, your fans, and ur family. kinda random but btw we NEED more flynn content. he’s the cutest little stinker ever! ilysm.❤️❤️❤️
Thank you for everything you do🫶🏻
What does she do....?
@@vickilaughs well she gives entertainment for people to watch but for me she always cheers me up when I need it, every time I see her post it makes me smile and feel happy.
I'm terrible on long drives by myself. I get way too introspective and in my own head and it gets unbearable but I love that you can take that same energy and turn it into something beautiful. It's totally your super power 💕
It’s extremely random but I was rewatching some of your older videos (pregnancy announcements, telling your friends and family) and when you were telling Kory you were having twins HE WAS LITERALLY HOLDING A PLUSHIE DUCK and now Maisy’s obsessed with them! It can’t be a coincidence! I loved it so much I had to share 🤍 anywaysssssss greeting from Poland! 🤍
I think Beauty and the Beast, which is also my favorite, is meant to show character development on behalf of the beast, like no matter how unpleasant you are you can always find the kindness in your heart to change. And belle is weird for reading because it wasn’t seen as appropriate for girls to become educated, they were meant to be solely housewives and mothers, and seeing that belle didn’t only occupy her time with household responsibilities she was a weird girl. I think the live action film with Emma Watson does a good job of showing that, also of making Belle braver and stronger
i’m so proud of you for being on time to your appointment! it’s the little wins 🎉 so happy to see this vlog come up. your vlogs make my days better 🥰
Colleen, what you're feeling in regards to your former home is quite legitimate. It was a BIG part of your world for quite some time, and it was a part of your evolution as a complete individual, just like your current home is. Emotions are part of that connection. With each step you're moving forward, and you're continuing to grow and further evolve. This is a GOOD thing, ma'am.
Tortilla talk question!!!Did you have a crush on Erik while u were filming together? If so, what was that like?
It's definitely not weird that you feel so emotional about the home you spent so much of your life in. especially when you were growing your family, those are priceless memories. I feel the same way when I think back to special places and times in my life. Even if the current situation I'm in is better or just as happy.
TTQ🌮 Have you considered collaborating with the Try Guys? Or just Keith, and maybe is band? Y’all are so wholesome, and my favorite people on UA-cam💕
I think that is is really interesting to see Colleen talk about Beauty and the Beast because I am writing an essay about how princesses are not great role models for young children especially girls. Thank you for another point to make in my essay!
It’s okay Babe… you are just feeling your memories! They are bigger feelings than looking at a picture for some! You are one of the sweetest natural empaths, I’ve ever seen… it fuels your creativity and makes you so real and honest! I adore you Colleen, you biggest fan from Kentucky 💞Tere
Colleen recapping Beauty and the Beast was so funny to me 😂😂 But also, yeah. A lot of childhood faves have poor morals, especially for girls. Yet the nostalgia and pretty packaging of it still makes us like it and want to defend it, even when it probably wouldn't be defended in other contexts
Well said
Heyyy Colleen is absolutely fine to feel a little sad about leaving homes.... My family also moved to a whole different city after living for sooo many years in a home. I was born their, I grew up there... I remember the halls in which i used to run when my daddy came home from work.. it is ok to mourn, that used to be your home. The walls and the halls carry the memories. Sometimes it is tough to say goodbye to places. It is not an odd thing!!
Colleen takes one bite and one sip of everything then she's done
To be fair I don't think people wanna see her eat all of her food during a vlog.
Colleen you’re crying for the reasons you’re listing. It’s emotional to go to the places we built memories and you spent most of your adult life up until now there, 4 years of your child’s life were spent there, it was the twins first home… There isn’t a huge explanation it’s nostalgia and emotional attachment and memories… I mean even I got teary eyed just because I’ve watched you for years in that house 🥹
What a twist that Erik doesn’t know a movie after years of Colleen not knowing any at all 🤣☠️ lol Great story telling too. I’ve seen it 500 times and still wanted to hear you tell the whole movie 😂
I’m going through the something similar right now. We just moved on sunday from the house i brought my son home in and spent the whole first year of his life. It’s not that i don’t like the new place, it just seems so weird like i’m staying in someone else’s house. I am going back once more to get a few extra things that were left and then that’s goodbye forever. I keep telling myself that it’s the people that you shared the memories with, not the places they were made but it’s still such an emotional time.
Is it just me Or does everyone here feel that her new house has actually started feeling like Home and we're so so much familiar to it.. It's cozy and has this homely vibe to it.. I love it
i think because spending time in your home is such a sensory experience, the memories and nostalgia become stronger. when my grandmother moved out of her house into a retirement home i was so sad and grieved the loss of that house. she passed away just over a month ago and i still feel like i can remember every detail of being in her house with her because those sensory memories are so significant
It’s not too late to stop showing your kids faces
I think tears can come from any type of overwhelming emotion. Maybe being in a place that holds so many special memories brings tears of deep appreciation & love for all of the time connecting with loved ones in that place. As someone that values spending quality time with your family together & hosting gatherings, any home you are in holds memories of the people you love most. Being physically there might also enhance the memories for you (like how they say it’s good to take a test in the same room where you learned things - the context is meant to help with memory recall). Contextual memories also came up for you when you were by the grocery store earlier. Explanation or not, it makes perfect sense to me that spaces hold energy & memories & that being in a place of so many big life changes would bring heightened emotions.
Unrelated unsolicited hair opinion: Ever since you cut your bangs I’ve been thinking you would look great with some version of a “French girl bob” (maybe a longer version if the classic one feels too short). I support the bangs!
Idk when I think back to when I was younger, I saw it as this cool free spirited lady just didn’t fit in with others but was super smart and nice. It inspired me to be the same! And regarding the beast, I mainly remember oh how cool she was so nice sweet and patient and he totally changed into a better person because of her
It’s nostalgia and the beauty in the memories. I’m still not over the tiny house and farm I grew up on but my life and home now is perfect
Into The Woods is my favorite muscial too. I am OBSESSED with the new cast recording. I feel like it's such a underrated musical.
I think you're just reminiscing but the memories you're reminiscing about in that house are so special to you that it can't help but make you emotional....love you colleen thanks for being the best
Beauty and the Best Analysis is so interesting and completely different to how I interpreted it :
1. Gaston is the villian and is meant to portray a negative male character.
2. Belle is seen to be different by others because she doesn't subscribe to the norms of the town and wants a better life. Every one is jealous of her education and beauty
3. Bella sacrifices herself in place of her dad which is very brave (similarly to Mulan)
4. The beast is cursed and to break the curse he needs to change his spoilt ways to become a better man and Belle helps him to do that.
And true love always breaks curses 🤣
Hope this helps you love Beauty and the Beast again! 💛
Sorry to write an essay, Belle, Mulan and Pocahontas are my favourite princesses. I find Disney always highlights interesting issues.
I love your vlogs!!!
And I’ve replied to every comment about beauty and the beast but in case you missed one of them, beast was 11 when he was cursed by a witch for not letting her (a stranger) into his home. He spent 10 years as a beast with no hope of becoming human again.
I think what your feeling is nostalgia🤍🤍 thanks for always being so vulnerable with us. xoxo
It’s the memories!! We moved out of a duplex we honestly didn’t like but when we moved I was flooded with emotion because of the memories we made while there. I don’t miss that house at all but we had some awesome memories there❤
for your bangs, theres a bunch of different ways you can style them other than just very full and straight across. as someone who has always had bangs, i feel like you would like something more like a fringe. but if you want to embrace the millennial side part you can do a side part bang which is always cute! and you can add slightly longer pieces on the side. i watch your vlogs everyday and you’re my inspiration to make my own so thank you for what you do!
you’re just feeling pure nostalgia. idk if you’re this way but i’m a very sensitive person and places hold lots of meaning to me, and i hold on to so much nostalgia. it’s warm but also so heavy and it’s almost like a longing, but in a good way. it’s just heavy nostalgia, all you can do is bask in it and the fact that you can look back on your phases of life in a positive way
I CRIED TOO! SOOO MANY MEMORIES IN THAT HOUSE! I've watched you evolve in that house. I 100% understand why you sobbed.
This house has special place in our hearts. So I understand why your crying. I love you so much. So glad to say I grew up watching you. You have made a huge impact on my life💕
as someone who’s grown up watching you and remembers you buying that house, i also got emotional seeing it again. i think that there were so many memories that have occurred there that you were just reliving them all at the same time, which is totally normal!!
nostalgia, a pain for the past. a love for something you will never have again. its beautiful and unexplainable. love u.
So many people have already talked about the grief and how valid your reaction is, but I also want to mention how much more difficult grief can be when you have ADHD. Because your brain tends to forget things that are out of sight, once you’re reminded of the person (or in this case, the home), you start the process all over again. Your brain had forgotten to grieve this home, and so it’s all coming up at once.
What you were feeling is the flooding of good memories that you made in the house. It’s also the first home you bought. There were a lot of important events in your life that happened in that house so you are always going to feel a twinge of sadness and nostalgia when you see it when my husband and I bought the house we live in now, and I moved out of the home that I had bought and raised my sons in for the first seven years I was in Texas, I cried for days. Eventually, you will experience many other firsts in your new home and many new wonderful memories in your new home and it won’t be so hard to look back anymore. ❤
It is normal to cry when revisiting a place where you once called home and also have so many special memories that you and your family share together.
I have heard before that you can just allow yourself to feel things without knowing what you’re feeling. Sometimes you just have to cry or laugh and experience the feeling without understanding. Love you so much!