So I’m a disabled person who loves horror. Texas Chainsaw Massacre was one of the first horror movies that made me want to talk about the conversations we need to have about disability and horror. Because whoooooo boy.
If you have the time, even for a low effort video, you should make one about this. My sister-in-law and I are horror fans and she has EDS. I’m learning how much the public still doesn’t discuss disability issues, and it’s much needed to break the stigma. Could be enlightening and entertaining!
@@okyepI would argue Bubba's mental disability definitely is a major part of his character, or maybe op could be talking about Franklin and how he as a wheelchair user was used by the movie
Because they are both part of the iceberg… 😂 She doesn’t necessarily agree with the inclusion, but she went over it anyway because we are sure there is someone out there who might be disturbed by a serial killer possessing a doll. 🤷🏻♀️
These were my comfort videos on loop for MONTHS during a depressive/chronic illness episode, and playing them in the background helped me get functional enough to do some of my work instead of just lying in bed all day, I'm just entering another one, so uh... thank you 💜
Revisiting this, I’m honestly less shocked/angry that this type of stuff exists, because it always will. I’m more angry that people spread it because they think these absolutely terrible things are funny, and that people being legitimately traumatized by it is funny. That sort of parasitic behavior and indifference to suffering is reprehensible.
Disturbing side note: sade sato (the same man who directed Mai Chan’s Daily Life) also directed actual self harm fetish films similar to how Lucifer Valentine has made movies with real vomiting.
Okay so Friday the 13th disturbs me for one reason and one reason only: they actually killed that snake in the bedroom/cabin scene earlier in the film. Brutally. The story of it is extremely sad, with the snake's handler apparently screaming and begging them not to do it. Genuinely soul-crushing to learn about in a way that very few other things are. They killed that guy's pet (?) right in front of him while he begged them not to. Extremely disturbing and something that makes me feel physically ill. If I'm wrong please fucking tell me I'd love for this to not be true.
another correction you missed: Nobody was hurt or killed by the bjork stalker's bomb. It was intercepted and safely detonated before reaching bjork by police following the discovery of his body and the tapes.
@@Silhouetters cops actually do a lot of stuff like this but on a smaller scale and U.S. media is all ab starting controversy so they only report on the good stuff that is large scale (terrorist shit, bomb disarming, catching rapist/murderers, etc.) and the bad shit no matter what
There's something about May's personality as much as the topics of the videos themselves, but I'm always so happy when I see she's uploaded and I LOVE that we've gotten like 4 in past 10 days
I like how you included movies that you thought should be on the iceberg but weren't. It shows that you really know your stuff. I can't fathom how you could sit through such gruesome movies though, I get squemish at stuff like Saw.
I used to be one of those kids who would go in the horror section at Blockbuster to look at the scary pictures on the DVDs, despite deeply regretting it every single time. I guess being here watching this is just the natural progression of that. Anyway jokes aside you make great videos and I really enjoy them
I think the thing that helps Salo work and A Serbian Film doesn't work is that the guy who made it has made film adaptions before. Like, before Salo, he made a trilogy called The Trilogy Of Life, where he adapted three famous stories of the past (The Decameron, The Canterbury Tales, and A Thousand And One Nights (Arabian Nights)) to reflect the positivity and beautifulness of life. Salo was part of The Trilogy Of Death, which would show the dirtiness and negativity of life. Salo and Sodom would've been two different projects at one point, but were later combined into one. The second one (or just the next movie he wanted to make) would have been a biopic about Gilles de Rais, but was dropped when he died. Also while I was trying to look up the names for The Trilogy Of Life I had to unfortunately learn that he uh, he likes them young. Like, the "when he was 41 he met what he called "the great love of his life" when he was 15" kind of young. Really gross stuff. And to keep my note from the last time I saw this iceberg: Check out the Tetsuo The Iron Man soundtrack. It's some real good industrial metal.
gonna fall asleep to this and then rewatch it when i wake up- once because may’s voice is so soothing that even her speaking about really gruesome things is so calming and twice because i love may’s commentary and how she covers these icebergs
May, I want you to know that this iceberg analysis has helped me out. in the 00s, I was one of those edgy teens that looked this sort of stuff up. In many ways it effed my brain hole up. So to see you came out on the other side in one piece it kind of offered me a sort of closure.
I keep coming back to your iceberg videos because I like playing them just in the background lol It’s so nice to have them all in one big video. Keep up the good work, I LOVE your channel ❤️
I was recommended to you on tiktok by a creator also speaking about this iceberg. And omg you’re amazing, this entire video is just beautiful. And thank you for watching this ish and explaining it to us so I don’t have to 😭❤️
Hey so as a super normie who nevertheless is morbidly curious, I really appreciate videos like this! I get entirely too anxious from watching horror movies but I just... wanna know? And these videos help in satisfying that urge immensely. Thank you for suffering for me, May! :D
there is a corner of youtube (may included) that reviews these type of extreme horror films as someone who’s watched a few (tetsuo iron man and others) hearing someone explain most of the scenes helps you prep for the film or just not want to watch it at all
cinemas underbelly has pretty straightforward explanations of some of these films while if you want more of dramatics id say spookyrice there are a couple of others but sadly my mind blanks at the moment
Genuinely one of the worst things is that I feel like I’m into some fucked up stuff, have not personally seen anything past tier 3, and recently learned my younger sister saw that shotgun suicide tiktok video mentioned at the end of this? Like I’m genuinely more fucked up about how casual she said it like “oh yeah that shotgun suicide video haha, fucked me up!” I hate the internet. She’s a 16 year old girl.
I really hate to think about teen being exposed to real gore like that isnt good for anyone but especially not for people who have just started to live with other people
I have no idea how the Mexican film Atroz isn’t on the iceberg. I didn’t even watch the actual film.I only watched a Spookyrice breakdown of it and felt extremely nauseous. I have never felt that way watching gore ever in my life.
I saw Philosophy of a Knife when I was 14, and the gore bits fucked me up for so long. But honestly, the most horrific part of this film is the fact that it's a whole goddamn FOUR AND A HALF HOURS LONG -_-
I spent a lot of my later teens and twenties (35 now) watching most of these movies but the older I get, the lower my tolerance is for this kind of violence. Mostly the real stuff, but even some of the more intense fictional ones are harder to watch now. I guess I somehow inadvertently resensitized myself. I think that's probably a good thing though lol. I know you won't see this, but I love your videos and podcast, btw.
I see a lot of people say the same thing. The older they get the harder it becomes to watch. I think the reason is that your testosterone levels are declining when you get older.
I think it also just comes with maturing and learning empathy. As you age you have more capacity to feel empathy and draw comparisons from fiction to real life.
me and my buddy started watching nyx fears again after rediscovering her years later and she's absolutely been the spark to the gasline that is our passion for disturbing media and we love her commentary on it so much
I will always say if you want a true disturbing movie about the atrocities in the Balkans, watch The Seasoning House. A Serbian Film is just a creeper directing a movie to get off. I think he used his "message " as a means to excuse his fantasies. Just one crazy chick's opinion ❤
I think the director was sincere in his intention and accomplished it. He knew Serbian Cinema was an arm of propaganda, especially during Milosevic. And a lot of his proteges are still in office. One is the current Prime Minister. So when you use any search result to find "Serbian Films" you get "A Serbian Film" as the top search result.
@@TheDancerMacabre I think hijacking the SEO *is* a very effective way to suppress other Serbian films, thus preventing Milosevic's propaganda from having as much reach. However, A Serbian Film really doesn't give the viewer any idea about Serbia or its history. I think it would have been much more effective if the move itself said something about the war and associated atrocities.
@@4nn4h I think that line of logic assumes that A Serbian Film was made for people outside of the country that weren't aware of the things it was criticizing, and while I can't say for sure, I don't feel like that's the case.
I was just rewatching these a few days ago! The subject matter is pretty heavy, but I love hearing your take on it and your voice and commentary are very soothing. Thank you for making this ♥
You’re one of the most thoughtful creators on this platform. Thank you so much for all you do to make videos like this! The sign off on this series has stuck with me since it came out.
I love having videos playing in the background while I'm drawing, especially ones that you don't need to look at. This was a perfect way to revisit this iceberg with you! Thank you, May, for making horror so accessible to many of us!
Thanks for the video, May. You approach these subjects with a lot of care and thought that is often lacking in horror writers and reviewers, and it's a breath of fresh air. Take care of yourself: even if you've seen it all, stuff like this is still plenty harmful to think about.
Friday the 13th actually contains some real animal snuff that was achieved under some very horrifying circumstances. Funny that the top level and bottom levels have that in common.
Yeah they asked a snake handler if they could use his snake for the film he said sure and as thanks they decide to kill his fucking pet with him in set, while he begged them to not kill it and they did that shit for a mediocre horror movie
Hi, Mae! I hope its not weird that your iceberg videos are some of my favorite videos to listen to while working or doing stuff around my house. I would love to see more long form content like this.
i don't totally know how to phrase this cohesively but i used to do this thing where i purposefully looked for the most personally upsetting porn i could find and would just go into these obsessive binges where like, yknow I'd literally be dissociating and shaking pretty much the entire time bc I think my justification was that I was using it as some kind of cope? i dont really remember 90% of that experience bc i was literally so out of it throughout and my only thoughts were mostly just being constantly plagued by the media i was consuming, but basically I have some sort of deeply repressed childhood sex trauma thing happening and for some reason i thought watching porn that I knew would personally upset me in particular was a great way to deal with that. in hindsight i think it was more of a self harm addiction than a genuine coping mechanism, since it literally just further traumatized me and didn't help anything but all that to say I really appreciate you talking about how seeing some of the really bad shit can be genuinely traumatizing bc like, I'd never rlly heard anyone bring it up before and i think last yearish there was just like a solid month where literally every single night I would have nightmares sort of mashing together elements of all the shitty porn i saw so uh yeah thanks for talking abt your trauma, it's like, validating of my own trauma
We need to realize more that someone can be traumatized by things that don't happen directly to them. I saw a video on Twitter by accident of a particularly upsetting police shooting over 5 years ago and it still messes me up. I've heard stories of CSA that I can't stop thinking about for weeks. I see why you would think of watching things as a coping mechanism though. I did something similar after I was SAd, like if I just push through this fucked up stuff that I would "get used to it" and wouldn't be affected by my trauma anymore. It is/can absolutely be a form of self harm and its good that you were able to realize that!
With Midsommar, I think it's also a really good exploration of the insidious nature of far right radicalism and the desire to "go back to tradition" and how cult like the mentality is and as such, how it can easily suck someone in and how even observers might not realize what is happening.
And how it gets the viewer on the side of the cult. Or at least me but then I realised my god that jerk didn't deserve the bear suit lol. He was immature but so are a lot of people. and Dani was understandably not in a good mental place . And the guy who was so wonderful and mature was the most manipulative slick psycho all that time. That movie was brilliant
You're literally my favorite youtuber ever. I mean this in the most affectionate way possible! Your videos have helped me when I feel the worse at times and listening to you is super comforting! I mainly live for your icebergs, they are disturbing yet very interesting to listen to oooooo. XD keep going!!
just found you while working and i’m already obsessed. i really like your sense of humor and how you just carry yourself throughout the video. you seems like a good ass person down to the core.
I very much appreciate you documenting these things, May. I will be here everytime to show my support & because I don't want to be ignorant to the bad things in the world. Don't forget to take care of yourself when you feel upset by this subject matter. Also please tell Cindy we love her. Such a good kitty!
You have such a kind & genuine personality, I really enjoyed the entire experience of this iceberg. I wanted to say: I think although this video was hard to make it is SO important and you did an amazing job at providing support the entire way through. You made sure to mention multiple times not to look it up and leave it to you & provided great explanations on why someone wouldn’t want to watch it without just being dismissive. I keep thinking about how many people you probably steered away from making a bad decision by going into the iceberg alone. I might’ve researched these and even been exposed to images I didn’t want to see but didn’t have to (plus whenever I felt the need to look myself you’d soon say something about how it’ll scar us).
This is cracking me up because I keep recognizing names that are...fairly far down the list (but still well within the fictional and legal realm). Not because I watched them but because I obsessively read about them on Wiki when I was 13-14. Why...was I doing that?? What was my fascination with textual descriptions of the plots of Guinea Piggu.
As someone who read Audition before I watched the movie (both recently) I was really glad the torture of the dog wasn't included 😬 that part was particularly hard to read
I binged the hell out of the first 3 videos after watching wendigoon's series. it's so nice having them all combined into 1 :) i listen to them all the time while i do homework! thanks so much for all the hard work
I'm not even surprised how early I am watching this at this point. Good morning ❤️ ty for putting this all together!!! I can't even count how many times I've watched your iceberg videos. I find them so interesting
Also, on the note of Lucifer Valentine, I also had a similar sentiment towards him at first due to the extreme niche he was pulling off, a friend of mine even got their hands on a physical copy of slaughtered vomit dolls and I found myself a little envious haha. But he is known to be really controlling and potentially really abusive. Here is a good video on the experiences some of the girls in the trilogy! : ua-cam.com/video/hffvUtXe4Y8/v-deo.html
I think the cuteness of yourself + cat ears helps offset the most gross parts of this iceberg. A great video to listen to even instead of ever putting any of the terrifying and grotesque content mentioned into my eyeholes!
hi may!! i've been watching u since i was in middle school, i graduated high school a few weeks ago :) i cant wait to buy ur book and read it!! ur videos r the best, have a great day
What a coincidence, I literally just watched all three parts of your original iceberg yesterday. Gonna take me a bit, but I'll come back to watch this full mega video once I can get the filth out of my brain for long enough lol
One minor thing I learned regarding the KT Trilogy entry (as an additional note) is that there are actually two things it could be: The collected works of Kiyotaka Tsurisaki of Orozco the Embalmer infamy, including The Wasteland (which isn't on the iceberg for whatever reason), and a series of *extremely* intense BDSM films with a somewhat artsy bent about which very little is available on the Internet. Given how low the entry is, I think it's referring to the latter, but the former is still one hell of a thing.
Yeah. It's weird bc I see people asking for the trilogy due to their penchant for bloodletting. I assumed that was part of the hard-core BDSM art house films.
Yeah I'm consistently surprised to find that nearly nobody knows that Ed was dating a teenager, with Lorraine being apparently cool with it (technically this is alleged but using common sense, there's nothing else that could explain the situation). Even though I was never any kind of fan of them, that fact burrowed into my brain the first time I heard it and now I think about it anytime I see the stuff that spawned from their work
I enjoyed how oddly wholesome and charming the first two Conjuring films were, but learning more about the Warrens ended up kind of ruining them for me. I’d love to see a horror film about them that shows how skeezy they actually were.
@@nursemain3174 grayson's projects has a really good video on it! I'll see if youtube will let me link it in a reply. But basically Ed had a teenage girl living in the house who later alleged that he had been abusing her since she was 15. A neighbor got worried and police were called about it, she ended up getting pregnant and had an abortion, and they apparently were switching up their story between telling folks the girl was a niece or a charity case- it all looks pretty bad.
ive been rewatching a bunch of the movie/book reviews in the background while i do stuff, mainly just cause i personally like the Nyx Fears Brand™️of media review and this is such a great addition to my late night chill time rotation, thank you for the content :]
I'm a new subscriber, and I'm already so into how your brain works. You actually helped me a lot to understand the trauma I got from watching NSFL stuff, and how to deal with it. Maybe it's weird but you cleared some shit up to me more than my therapist. I feel safe here :)
I like to think about and chew on these kinds of things while im at work your videos are some of the core of my listening as well as “your take is excrement” i enjoy the takes and getting to hear about dark topics talked about in a fascinating way.
I only just recently discovered you through your nsfl iceberg video, but these videos in the background are making writing and drawing infinitely more fun! Your personality is wonderful and I love your energy. Keep up the good work!
Early gang! What's up, Mae :) Love your videos and your dedication to the disturbing and the lengths you go to in researching things are truly amazing. Hope all is well with you :)
My friend used to work at a video store in Tennessee where Harmony Korine would come in and get a butt ton of old Disney videos while he was doing the whole Trash Humper thing.
I would actually pay a lot to get one of video tapes. I actually thought Trash Humpers was hilarious, and I kind of liked it. But I saw it on UA-cam. I want the tape tho.
Not me thinking immediately "dont f with cats" at the beginning when you described how internet ppl don't appreciate and will come for you if you cross that line though... Shout out to living in the same city as Luca :$ Also your closing message was really well worded and a good way to think about it. Whether from curiosity or accident or whatever leads me to finding some things I think I handle the brain part well but it does give me pissed/vigilante esque feelings very strongly. Your note on it- more people are thinking f that which is good and the over all positive note of how it implicates us all to do our best is a lighter way of taking that feeling.
Jesus christ I didn't even know about Josh Dugger having "that" video on his computer...absolutely insane. Also honey I'm so sorry you saw that brick video...it will never leave my mind either.
I love Cannibal Holocaust but it was the first movie I ever torrented because I really wanted to see it (I LOVE 70s and 80s Italian horror) but due to the very real animal cruelty and killing, I refused to watch it in a way that meant anybody involved would get a penny of my money.
New viewer but loving the content already. In the new intro you recorded I kept thinking to myself "They look like a punk version of Emma Bunton and I love that"
Aw man, I had just watched the entire iceberg series this weekend to help me concentrate while drawing. And now this happens to be out the day after I just finished.
hey may i just wanted to say i so appreciate you not showing any graphic content in your videos like this. i am someone who is interested in learning about these subjects but Not someone who enjoys seeing them so you are my path to that good good brain rot. buying ur book now love u
as awful as shoujo tsubaki is, i will at least say it's *not* /horny/ anime bullshit (if that makes sense) and its treated with more gravity than you'd expect. i respect that, at least but since its a fairly realistic of an orphan girl going through the worst shit imaginable, its fucking miserable to sit through. and after all that, the movie literally ends with tsubaki, abused and now abandoned, wailing into the void as the camera fades out. its very effective, but jesus!
Hey, I just wanted to say that I really appreciate the positive note at the end. I think I really needed to hear that, I'm going to go do something that makes me really happy now
it is so true that this shit screws you up, I haven’t seen a lot of these but i did see the guy blowing his head off with a shotgun and I have seen that video once in my life, yet can remember it so vividly it really did mess me up a little bit, i’m just glad it didn’t really affect my daily life I just randomly remember it sometimes :,,)
I remember I picked the original Evil Dead movie to watch with friends and when Ash started chopping away bits of f l e s h one of my friends was like ew what is this like one of those snuf films!? Thats when I realized either my friends are sheltered super normies or my teenage years exposed too much to the internet has completely desensitized and jaded me
Where the Dead Go to Die is an extremely bizarre movie even apart from its nightmarish visuals. First of all, it's an anthology film that has three chapters in it. The first one's unsettling, but clearly meant to be an extremely dark comedy, since it's a parody of 50's shows like Lassy and Leave It to Beaver. The second and third parts are where the really nightmarish, trippy shit starts happening. The way the characters move looks off because all of the human animation was mocapped with a Microsoft Kinect camera. The last weird thing is that Mr. Screamerclauz, despite his status as an extremely obscure Z-grade horror film actor and director managed to get some notable actors with cult fandoms to act in it, like Linea Quigley and M Dot Strange. He later went on to make a few more animated horror movies as well as starting a series of unofficial American Guinea Pig movies.
"A Serbian Film is not queen shit" is such a great line/transition I come back just to watch May deliver it
So I’m a disabled person who loves horror. Texas Chainsaw Massacre was one of the first horror movies that made me want to talk about the conversations we need to have about disability and horror. Because whoooooo boy.
Can you elaborate what you mean? I’d love to learn more about that
I'd listen to that
If you have the time, even for a low effort video, you should make one about this. My sister-in-law and I are horror fans and she has EDS. I’m learning how much the public still doesn’t discuss disability issues, and it’s much needed to break the stigma. Could be enlightening and entertaining!
@lguenther1759 I don't think tcm is horror cause disabled people pretty sure it's the murder cannibalism but eh to each his own
@@okyepI would argue Bubba's mental disability definitely is a major part of his character, or maybe op could be talking about Franklin and how he as a wheelchair user was used by the movie
It's hilarious to me that May warns you on the content for several minutes then starts talking about the Chucky and Annabel.
Because they are both part of the iceberg… 😂 She doesn’t necessarily agree with the inclusion, but she went over it anyway because we are sure there is someone out there who might be disturbed by a serial killer possessing a doll. 🤷🏻♀️
These were my comfort videos on loop for MONTHS during a depressive/chronic illness episode, and playing them in the background helped me get functional enough to do some of my work instead of just lying in bed all day, I'm just entering another one, so uh... thank you 💜
omg i had a similar experience!
@@heart4brainzz I hope things are better nowadays 💜 the end of part 2 and 3 were such a healing thing tbh
same ik these videos r supposed to be ordeals but i love watching them lmao
I hope you're going to be okay. Glad these could help you. Sorry to hear you're having a hard time
@@ingridarmona6526 I blame May (in a positive way :))
Revisiting this, I’m honestly less shocked/angry that this type of stuff exists, because it always will. I’m more angry that people spread it because they think these absolutely terrible things are funny, and that people being legitimately traumatized by it is funny. That sort of parasitic behavior and indifference to suffering is reprehensible.
I just imagine if my mom was trying to rent a movie and got one of these instead, it just enrages me. It’s appalling and not funny.
Yea. Especially when it's grown aduls going "huehue I'm gunna recommend something very gorey and sexual to children!!!"
And when teens think it’s like edgy and cool
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Disturbing side note: sade sato (the same man who directed Mai Chan’s Daily Life) also directed actual self harm fetish films similar to how Lucifer Valentine has made movies with real vomiting.
Whoaaaa what!? Morbid curiosity is certainly kicking in. Guess I'm getting on Google after this video.
The Bloodrunner series, right?
I'm all for kink and consenting adults can do whatever they want, but as a self harm survivor myself this makes me feel.... Um.
@@AlexMartinez-nn2cm same...
Reminds me of the whole anorexia fetishist community
Okay so Friday the 13th disturbs me for one reason and one reason only: they actually killed that snake in the bedroom/cabin scene earlier in the film. Brutally. The story of it is extremely sad, with the snake's handler apparently screaming and begging them not to do it. Genuinely soul-crushing to learn about in a way that very few other things are. They killed that guy's pet (?) right in front of him while he begged them not to. Extremely disturbing and something that makes me feel physically ill.
If I'm wrong please fucking tell me I'd love for this to not be true.
Oh my god that's horrible. Where have you heard this?
Was always bored by those Jason movies but knowing that is sad
another correction you missed:
Nobody was hurt or killed by the bjork stalker's bomb. It was intercepted and safely detonated before reaching bjork by police following the discovery of his body and the tapes.
The Bjork stalker killed himself
@@b3dubbs72 yes
Holy shit, is this the one story of police actually doing something useful??
@@Silhouetters cops actually do a lot of stuff like this but on a smaller scale and U.S. media is all ab starting controversy so they only report on the good stuff that is large scale (terrorist shit, bomb disarming, catching rapist/murderers, etc.) and the bad shit no matter what
@@Silhouetters the police usually work a little harder to save and protect rich people.
There's something about May's personality as much as the topics of the videos themselves, but I'm always so happy when I see she's uploaded and I LOVE that we've gotten like 4 in past 10 days
I like how you included movies that you thought should be on the iceberg but weren't. It shows that you really know your stuff. I can't fathom how you could sit through such gruesome movies though, I get squemish at stuff like Saw.
Just here to say May's book is genuinely super good and sparked my love for reading again so y'all should legit buy it
I used to be one of those kids who would go in the horror section at Blockbuster to look at the scary pictures on the DVDs, despite deeply regretting it every single time.
I guess being here watching this is just the natural progression of that.
Anyway jokes aside you make great videos and I really enjoy them
You did that too? Huh.
Oh huh, same.
I think the thing that helps Salo work and A Serbian Film doesn't work is that the guy who made it has made film adaptions before. Like, before Salo, he made a trilogy called The Trilogy Of Life, where he adapted three famous stories of the past (The Decameron, The Canterbury Tales, and A Thousand And One Nights (Arabian Nights)) to reflect the positivity and beautifulness of life. Salo was part of The Trilogy Of Death, which would show the dirtiness and negativity of life. Salo and Sodom would've been two different projects at one point, but were later combined into one. The second one (or just the next movie he wanted to make) would have been a biopic about Gilles de Rais, but was dropped when he died.
Also while I was trying to look up the names for The Trilogy Of Life I had to unfortunately learn that he uh, he likes them young. Like, the "when he was 41 he met what he called "the great love of his life" when he was 15" kind of young. Really gross stuff.
And to keep my note from the last time I saw this iceberg: Check out the Tetsuo The Iron Man soundtrack. It's some real good industrial metal.
gonna fall asleep to this and then rewatch it when i wake up- once because may’s voice is so soothing that even her speaking about really gruesome things is so calming and twice because i love may’s commentary and how she covers these icebergs
May, I want you to know that this iceberg analysis has helped me out. in the 00s, I was one of those edgy teens that looked this sort of stuff up. In many ways it effed my brain hole up. So to see you came out on the other side in one piece it kind of offered me a sort of closure.
I’m so sorry, I’ve been there. Hope you’ve been coping well.
good to read that, Aaron. i'm here and we're all here if you ever need it homie.
I keep coming back to your iceberg videos because I like playing them just in the background lol
It’s so nice to have them all in one big video. Keep up the good work, I LOVE your channel ❤️
omg me too i always play them in the background like almost everyday for some reason
I was recommended to you on tiktok by a creator also speaking about this iceberg. And omg you’re amazing, this entire video is just beautiful. And thank you for watching this ish and explaining it to us so I don’t have to 😭❤️
Hey so as a super normie who nevertheless is morbidly curious, I really appreciate videos like this! I get entirely too anxious from watching horror movies but I just... wanna know? And these videos help in satisfying that urge immensely. Thank you for suffering for me, May! :D
I'm the same way! I watch these videos but never go out and watch the actual films lol
there is a corner of youtube (may included) that reviews these type of extreme horror films
as someone who’s watched a few (tetsuo iron man and others) hearing someone explain most of the scenes helps you prep for the film or just not want to watch it at all
cinemas underbelly has pretty straightforward explanations of some of these films while if you want more of dramatics id say spookyrice
there are a couple of others but sadly my mind blanks at the moment
tbh I don't think I should be watching this I'm only 12 but I think I'm obsessed with these kind of viedos lol
@@oluglyrass tetsuo is hilarious, not scary
Genuinely one of the worst things is that I feel like I’m into some fucked up stuff, have not personally seen anything past tier 3, and recently learned my younger sister saw that shotgun suicide tiktok video mentioned at the end of this? Like I’m genuinely more fucked up about how casual she said it like “oh yeah that shotgun suicide video haha, fucked me up!” I hate the internet. She’s a 16 year old girl.
I really hate to think about teen being exposed to real gore like that isnt good for anyone but especially not for people who have just started to live with other people
It's not even a new phenomenon. A whole generation of kids watched messed up shit like that on LiveLeak.
I have no idea how the Mexican film Atroz isn’t on the iceberg. I didn’t even watch the actual film.I only watched a Spookyrice breakdown of it and felt extremely nauseous. I have never felt that way watching gore ever in my life.
I saw Philosophy of a Knife when I was 14, and the gore bits fucked me up for so long. But honestly, the most horrific part of this film is the fact that it's a whole goddamn FOUR AND A HALF HOURS LONG -_-
Brah what, what’s it about
Would love to hear your thoughts on the most disturbing films that have little to no violence/gore
Funny games?
Oh yeah, the Sex and the City-movies.
The recent movie The Zone of Interest is this fully
I spent a lot of my later teens and twenties (35 now) watching most of these movies but the older I get, the lower my tolerance is for this kind of violence. Mostly the real stuff, but even some of the more intense fictional ones are harder to watch now. I guess I somehow inadvertently resensitized myself. I think that's probably a good thing though lol.
I know you won't see this, but I love your videos and podcast, btw.
same here, it’s nice to hear someone else sharing the experience
I see a lot of people say the same thing. The older they get the harder it becomes to watch. I think the reason is that your testosterone levels are declining when you get older.
I think it also just comes with maturing and learning empathy. As you age you have more capacity to feel empathy and draw comparisons from fiction to real life.
me and my buddy started watching nyx fears again after rediscovering her years later and she's absolutely been the spark to the gasline that is our passion for disturbing media and we love her commentary on it so much
Love the pfp
I will always say if you want a true disturbing movie about the atrocities in the Balkans, watch The Seasoning House. A Serbian Film is just a creeper directing a movie to get off. I think he used his "message " as a means to excuse his fantasies. Just one crazy chick's opinion ❤
For real, its just a straight-up bad movie. Yeah it was gross but moreover it was just annoying.
I think the director was sincere in his intention and accomplished it.
He knew Serbian Cinema was an arm of propaganda, especially during Milosevic. And a lot of his proteges are still in office. One is the current Prime Minister.
So when you use any search result to find "Serbian Films" you get "A Serbian Film" as the top search result.
crazy? no kidding
@@TheDancerMacabre I think hijacking the SEO *is* a very effective way to suppress other Serbian films, thus preventing Milosevic's propaganda from having as much reach. However, A Serbian Film really doesn't give the viewer any idea about Serbia or its history. I think it would have been much more effective if the move itself said something about the war and associated atrocities.
@@4nn4h I think that line of logic assumes that A Serbian Film was made for people outside of the country that weren't aware of the things it was criticizing, and while I can't say for sure, I don't feel like that's the case.
Thank you for making a video with all 3 parts. Here’s to your continued well being and the UA-cam algorithm.
Nostalgia Critic's "The Wall" being an addition here is so funny. Been watching through your videos lately and absolutely love them.
I was just rewatching these a few days ago! The subject matter is pretty heavy, but I love hearing your take on it and your voice and commentary are very soothing. Thank you for making this ♥
You’re one of the most thoughtful creators on this platform. Thank you so much for all you do to make videos like this! The sign off on this series has stuck with me since it came out.
I love having videos playing in the background while I'm drawing, especially ones that you don't need to look at. This was a perfect way to revisit this iceberg with you!
Thank you, May, for making horror so accessible to many of us!
Thanks for the video, May. You approach these subjects with a lot of care and thought that is often lacking in horror writers and reviewers, and it's a breath of fresh air. Take care of yourself: even if you've seen it all, stuff like this is still plenty harmful to think about.
Friday the 13th actually contains some real animal snuff that was achieved under some very horrifying circumstances. Funny that the top level and bottom levels have that in common.
Yeah they asked a snake handler if they could use his snake for the film he said sure and as thanks they decide to kill his fucking pet with him in set, while he begged them to not kill it and they did that shit for a mediocre horror movie
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Hi, Mae! I hope its not weird that your iceberg videos are some of my favorite videos to listen to while working or doing stuff around my house. I would love to see more long form content like this.
Same! I don't know why, but I always listen to May while doing housework. It's like having a really cool friend over while you're working.
ur vids were literally my comfort vids when going thru mental health episodez and being unable to sleep. so much love for u may my queen ❤️❤️
i don't totally know how to phrase this cohesively but i used to do this thing where i purposefully looked for the most personally upsetting porn i could find and would just go into these obsessive binges where like, yknow I'd literally be dissociating and shaking pretty much the entire time bc I think my justification was that I was using it as some kind of cope? i dont really remember 90% of that experience bc i was literally so out of it throughout and my only thoughts were mostly just being constantly plagued by the media i was consuming, but basically I have some sort of deeply repressed childhood sex trauma thing happening and for some reason i thought watching porn that I knew would personally upset me in particular was a great way to deal with that. in hindsight i think it was more of a self harm addiction than a genuine coping mechanism, since it literally just further traumatized me and didn't help anything but all that to say I really appreciate you talking about how seeing some of the really bad shit can be genuinely traumatizing bc like, I'd never rlly heard anyone bring it up before and i think last yearish there was just like a solid month where literally every single night I would have nightmares sort of mashing together elements of all the shitty porn i saw so uh yeah thanks for talking abt your trauma, it's like, validating of my own trauma
I’m so sorry you went through that, I’m glad you’re not doing that anymore. Hope you’re doing better now
yeah i did a similar thing. im so sorry you had to go through that x
We need to realize more that someone can be traumatized by things that don't happen directly to them. I saw a video on Twitter by accident of a particularly upsetting police shooting over 5 years ago and it still messes me up. I've heard stories of CSA that I can't stop thinking about for weeks.
I see why you would think of watching things as a coping mechanism though. I did something similar after I was SAd, like if I just push through this fucked up stuff that I would "get used to it" and wouldn't be affected by my trauma anymore. It is/can absolutely be a form of self harm and its good that you were able to realize that!
Hey, Chief mod from the subreddit here. Just want to say it's cool how a topic from the AMAs ended up in this video. I hope you appreciate May. :)
Hey May, idk if you'll see this, but how did your cameo in We're All Going To The World's Fair come about? What was that experience like?
Omg I didn't even know May was in it, I bought the blu-ray recently and been meaning to watch! Something to watch tonight I think :D
YESSS I was watching a couple of days ago and almost screamed when I saw her!
@@Sannitaurus what part was she in? i watched and didn’t even notice other characters!
@@effiecr4869 there was a montage with other people, I think she was playing a you tuber? I can't quite remember
@@jackhenderson3876 OMG i forgot about that, that’s so awesome!! thank you for explaining ❤️
With Midsommar, I think it's also a really good exploration of the insidious nature of far right radicalism and the desire to "go back to tradition" and how cult like the mentality is and as such, how it can easily suck someone in and how even observers might not realize what is happening.
And how it gets the viewer on the side of the cult. Or at least me but then I realised my god that jerk didn't deserve the bear suit lol. He was immature but so are a lot of people. and Dani was understandably not in a good mental place . And the guy who was so wonderful and mature was the most manipulative slick psycho all that time. That movie was brilliant
So many people keep telling me that racism isn't a theme but the directors cut literally highlights racism as an element of the cult 😩😩
You're literally my favorite youtuber ever. I mean this in the most affectionate way possible! Your videos have helped me when I feel the worse at times and listening to you is super comforting! I mainly live for your icebergs, they are disturbing yet very interesting to listen to oooooo. XD keep going!!
just found you while working and i’m already obsessed. i really like your sense of humor and how you just carry yourself throughout the video. you seems like a good ass person down to the core.
I very much appreciate you documenting these things, May. I will be here everytime to show my support & because I don't want to be ignorant to the bad things in the world. Don't forget to take care of yourself when you feel upset by this subject matter. Also please tell Cindy we love her. Such a good kitty!
You have such a kind & genuine personality, I really enjoyed the entire experience of this iceberg. I wanted to say: I think although this video was hard to make it is SO important and you did an amazing job at providing support the entire way through. You made sure to mention multiple times not to look it up and leave it to you & provided great explanations on why someone wouldn’t want to watch it without just being dismissive.
I keep thinking about how many people you probably steered away from making a bad decision by going into the iceberg alone. I might’ve researched these and even been exposed to images I didn’t want to see but didn’t have to (plus whenever I felt the need to look myself you’d soon say something about how it’ll scar us).
This is cracking me up because I keep recognizing names that are...fairly far down the list (but still well within the fictional and legal realm). Not because I watched them but because I obsessively read about them on Wiki when I was 13-14. Why...was I doing that?? What was my fascination with textual descriptions of the plots of Guinea Piggu.
It was the screams of the other people in the car in that brick video that were the worst thing, psychologically.
thank you for doing this, i've rewatched these vids a million times!!! now they are all in one beautiful package ~
As someone who read Audition before I watched the movie (both recently) I was really glad the torture of the dog wasn't included 😬 that part was particularly hard to read
I have enough squirm just listening to you talk about it, I can't imagine suffering through all of that.
I binged the hell out of the first 3 videos after watching wendigoon's series. it's so nice having them all combined into 1 :) i listen to them all the time while i do homework! thanks so much for all the hard work
I'm not even surprised how early I am watching this at this point. Good morning ❤️ ty for putting this all together!!! I can't even count how many times I've watched your iceberg videos. I find them so interesting
Also, on the note of Lucifer Valentine, I also had a similar sentiment towards him at first due to the extreme niche he was pulling off, a friend of mine even got their hands on a physical copy of slaughtered vomit dolls and I found myself a little envious haha. But he is known to be really controlling and potentially really abusive.
Here is a good video on the experiences some of the girls in the trilogy! :
ua-cam.com/video/hffvUtXe4Y8/v-deo.html
He literally told women that he'd give them meth if they slept with him (while high so they can't consent) and act in his movies.
I think the cuteness of yourself + cat ears helps offset the most gross parts of this iceberg. A great video to listen to even instead of ever putting any of the terrifying and grotesque content mentioned into my eyeholes!
Loving your videos lately, so glad you’re posting a lot!
hi may!! i've been watching u since i was in middle school, i graduated high school a few weeks ago :) i cant wait to buy ur book and read it!! ur videos r the best, have a great day
I'm so excited!! I actually really like your iceberg videos; I like watching these sorts of videos to fall asleep to, so this is awesome ♡♡♡
What a coincidence, I literally just watched all three parts of your original iceberg yesterday. Gonna take me a bit, but I'll come back to watch this full mega video once I can get the filth out of my brain for long enough lol
I'm happy I found your channel! I appreciate the dorky yet understandable way you explain things. Subbed!
Not only do I love your videos but I love your company via your videos. I genuinely love you as a person. 🖤
Same, I watch this video at least once a week
One minor thing I learned regarding the KT Trilogy entry (as an additional note) is that there are actually two things it could be: The collected works of Kiyotaka Tsurisaki of Orozco the Embalmer infamy, including The Wasteland (which isn't on the iceberg for whatever reason), and a series of *extremely* intense BDSM films with a somewhat artsy bent about which very little is available on the Internet. Given how low the entry is, I think it's referring to the latter, but the former is still one hell of a thing.
Yeah. It's weird bc I see people asking for the trilogy due to their penchant for bloodletting. I assumed that was part of the hard-core BDSM art house films.
it's such a treat to see so many videos recently
edit: oh right it's the disturbing movie iceberg. my condolences and thank you for your service.
The validation of the Warrens in The Conjuring films is honestly one of the most ethically questionable things in the iceberg ;-)
Yeah I'm consistently surprised to find that nearly nobody knows that Ed was dating a teenager, with Lorraine being apparently cool with it (technically this is alleged but using common sense, there's nothing else that could explain the situation). Even though I was never any kind of fan of them, that fact burrowed into my brain the first time I heard it and now I think about it anytime I see the stuff that spawned from their work
@@_gremlinboy wait what happened
I enjoyed how oddly wholesome and charming the first two Conjuring films were, but learning more about the Warrens ended up kind of ruining them for me. I’d love to see a horror film about them that shows how skeezy they actually were.
@@nursemain3174 grayson's projects has a really good video on it! I'll see if youtube will let me link it in a reply. But basically Ed had a teenage girl living in the house who later alleged that he had been abusing her since she was 15. A neighbor got worried and police were called about it, she ended up getting pregnant and had an abortion, and they apparently were switching up their story between telling folks the girl was a niece or a charity case- it all looks pretty bad.
Here's the link please let me live susan I swear I'm not a bot
ua-cam.com/video/kFiNCog6MR4/v-deo.html
Can you put time stamps on this queen? Ive been rotting my brain watchin all your suggestionz and ive been loving it!
Thank you for making this I've been coming back to the original videos and this will make it easier
ive been rewatching a bunch of the movie/book reviews in the background while i do stuff, mainly just cause i personally like the Nyx Fears Brand™️of media review and this is such a great addition to my late night chill time rotation, thank you for the content :]
I'm a new subscriber, and I'm already so into how your brain works. You actually helped me a lot to understand the trauma I got from watching NSFL stuff, and how to deal with it. Maybe it's weird but you cleared some shit up to me more than my therapist. I feel safe here :)
I LOVED how you described Midsommer. Your tone and delivery was beautiful.
I really love what you said at the end about coloring our existence. It’s so true.
Your last few videos have been very good. Keep up the good work
I love your confidence. And the still learning stuff.
this is my first time coming across your channel & im upset you haven’t shown up sooner!! luv ur channel! 💞💞
I like to think about and chew on these kinds of things while im at work your videos are some of the core of my listening as well as “your take is excrement” i enjoy the takes and getting to hear about dark topics talked about in a fascinating way.
ily nyx!!! ty for posting so much content recently
I only just recently discovered you through your nsfl iceberg video, but these videos in the background are making writing and drawing infinitely more fun! Your personality is wonderful and I love your energy. Keep up the good work!
Your skin is flawless and im loving the cats ears XD ❤️ im new and binge watching, loving every second!
Early gang! What's up, Mae :) Love your videos and your dedication to the disturbing and the lengths you go to in researching things are truly amazing. Hope all is well with you :)
I love Nyx Fears. i put her videos on while I write and draw; and eat up the raw unfiltered commentary
MAY!! I just rcvd & started reading yr book on Saturday!! So far: GREAT!!
thank you!!
💚
My friend used to work at a video store in Tennessee where Harmony Korine would come in and get a butt ton of old Disney videos while he was doing the whole Trash Humper thing.
I would actually pay a lot to get one of video tapes. I actually thought Trash Humpers was hilarious, and I kind of liked it. But I saw it on UA-cam. I want the tape tho.
Martyrs deeply disturbed me. I mean I was happy I saw it once but I neeeeeever want to see it again.
Not me thinking immediately "dont f with cats" at the beginning when you described how internet ppl don't appreciate and will come for you if you cross that line though... Shout out to living in the same city as Luca :$ Also your closing message was really well worded and a good way to think about it. Whether from curiosity or accident or whatever leads me to finding some things I think I handle the brain part well but it does give me pissed/vigilante esque feelings very strongly. Your note on it- more people are thinking f that which is good and the over all positive note of how it implicates us all to do our best is a lighter way of taking that feeling.
Jesus christ I didn't even know about Josh Dugger having "that" video on his computer...absolutely insane.
Also honey I'm so sorry you saw that brick video...it will never leave my mind either.
I love Cannibal Holocaust but it was the first movie I ever torrented because I really wanted to see it (I LOVE 70s and 80s Italian horror) but due to the very real animal cruelty and killing, I refused to watch it in a way that meant anybody involved would get a penny of my money.
Agreed. I like film history but I hope that director goes to hell, since he'd be right at home there
I've read about half of the books on your list and I'm loving them. ❤ thank you.
I think this is my third time watching this and it's nice having it all in one video :D
New viewer but loving the content already. In the new intro you recorded I kept thinking to myself "They look like a punk version of Emma Bunton and I love that"
Aw man, I had just watched the entire iceberg series this weekend to help me concentrate while drawing. And now this happens to be out the day after I just finished.
I don't think I can get across the joy I felt when you mentioned Julia, I love knowing my favorite UA-camrs know of eachother
hey may i just wanted to say i so appreciate you not showing any graphic content in your videos like this. i am someone who is interested in learning about these subjects but Not someone who enjoys seeing them so you are my path to that good good brain rot. buying ur book now love u
as awful as shoujo tsubaki is, i will at least say it's *not* /horny/ anime bullshit (if that makes sense) and its treated with more gravity than you'd expect. i respect that, at least
but since its a fairly realistic of an orphan girl going through the worst shit imaginable, its fucking miserable to sit through. and after all that, the movie literally ends with tsubaki, abused and now abandoned, wailing into the void as the camera fades out. its very effective, but jesus!
It’s one of my favorite anime, for exactly that reason. It’s miserable- as miserable as it should be, and it’s not sexualized at all.
Oh it’s a compilation. Legit thought you were doing the iceberg again.
love dis and love u. been watching u for yonks !!! im so glad i stumbled across ur channel!!! i love ur hair too❤️❤️❤️
Hey, I just wanted to say that I really appreciate the positive note at the end. I think I really needed to hear that, I'm going to go do something that makes me really happy now
it is so true that this shit screws you up, I haven’t seen a lot of these but i did see the guy blowing his head off with a shotgun and I have seen that video once in my life, yet can remember it so vividly it really did mess me up a little bit, i’m just glad it didn’t really affect my daily life I just randomly remember it sometimes :,,)
The “budding confidence” part makes me smile so much :3
I remember I picked the original Evil Dead movie to watch with friends and when Ash started chopping away bits of f l e s h one of my friends was like ew what is this like one of those snuf films!? Thats when I realized either my friends are sheltered super normies or my teenage years exposed too much to the internet has completely desensitized and jaded me
Just wanted to say that your sunny face made me smile today, and that's an almost impossible task lol
Also I love the way your mind works and I would listen to you talk about anything.
"Your body growing and changing without your consent" so puberty as a trans person
yeah sounds terrifying ngl
Your hair looks so pretty in this colour with the purple background!
I love your longer form videos~ ;w;
Where the Dead Go to Die is an extremely bizarre movie even apart from its nightmarish visuals. First of all, it's an anthology film that has three chapters in it. The first one's unsettling, but clearly meant to be an extremely dark comedy, since it's a parody of 50's shows like Lassy and Leave It to Beaver. The second and third parts are where the really nightmarish, trippy shit starts happening. The way the characters move looks off because all of the human animation was mocapped with a Microsoft Kinect camera. The last weird thing is that Mr. Screamerclauz, despite his status as an extremely obscure Z-grade horror film actor and director managed to get some notable actors with cult fandoms to act in it, like Linea Quigley and M Dot Strange. He later went on to make a few more animated horror movies as well as starting a series of unofficial American Guinea Pig movies.