Nikolas Cruz's own defense team cries as Parkland victim speaks about brother's murder | LiveNOW

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  • @freelikeyve
    @freelikeyve 2 роки тому +14097

    “On the days that I don’t think about my brother, I feel guilty. On the days that I do think about my brother, I feel broken. There is no peace.” Heart-wrenching, omg.

    • @bronzebrick7729
      @bronzebrick7729 2 роки тому +152

      Dang this quote was a sad quote

    • @focusintegrity8490
      @focusintegrity8490 2 роки тому +69

      God bless her.

    • @lonie3100
      @lonie3100 2 роки тому +62

      Grief and a broken heart in one tiny bit of text. So heartbreaking and so true ❤️

    • @married-wit-childrenadog9249
      @married-wit-childrenadog9249 2 роки тому +53

      Best say to describe when a loved one passes. The reality hits hard!

    • @joeybandz
      @joeybandz 2 роки тому +4

      @@davidwilliam9451 proof?

  • @ericalagary6219
    @ericalagary6219 2 роки тому +1006

    My youngest brother died when he was 19. I was 25. I am 47 now and it still hurts every day. I pray for peace for her.

    • @jessamber5532
      @jessamber5532 2 роки тому +18

      I understand your pain and hers all to well. I lost my sister in 2020 she was 29 and my brother 2021 he was 27. I am only just now turning 24. I pray for peace and comfort for her and you.

    • @ericalagary6219
      @ericalagary6219 2 роки тому +7

      @jess amber prayers to you also. I am so sorry for your loss

    • @wadadawdawda
      @wadadawdawda Рік тому +1

      CAPPING

    • @randyorton1769
      @randyorton1769 Рік тому

      So was it ur brother or sister?

    • @ericalagary6219
      @ericalagary6219 Рік тому +6

      @@randyorton1769 I clearly said my brother. My prayers were for the girl in the video.

  • @childofthecorn94
    @childofthecorn94 2 роки тому +5299

    My youngest brother died by suicide almost a year ago, and this testimony felt like I could've written it. Sending hugs. It doesn't get easier, you just get through it.

    • @seekinggodfirst754
      @seekinggodfirst754 2 роки тому +64

      I am sorry for your loss.

    • @dewilew2137
      @dewilew2137 2 роки тому +40

      My god. I’m so, so sorry. One for you ♥️ and one for your little brother ♥️

    • @faiza515
      @faiza515 2 роки тому +24

      I'm so sorry

    • @jara9707
      @jara9707 2 роки тому +7

      What's wrong with your comprehension, this comment is not the subject to the video, it's a different commentor siting that it sounds written, of which it is; you can see her reading... Other than the idiot poster sitting the obvious, it is trying to desensitize the heartfelt response.

    • @jara9707
      @jara9707 2 роки тому +4

      Think before you post

  • @freelikeyve
    @freelikeyve 2 роки тому +5696

    She cries often. I feel so bad that she was assigned this case. I know it hurts her to even sit beside that POS and to represent him.

    • @andrimarbi
      @andrimarbi 2 роки тому +270

      Then she shouldn’t be on the case. She cries every other day, it’s unprofessional and if her client wasn’t this guy and had any chance at winning, her crying would hurt those chances. BTW I’m talking about her behavior as a lawyer not saying I support Cruz in anyway.

    • @lameshahale2990
      @lameshahale2990 2 роки тому +683

      Yes! Her empathy takes over at all times. This is a wonderful gift. Even when you have to sit by a POS you still feel for others. I can tell the way she slid that Kleenex towards herself that she doesn’t want to be in the same room with him, let alone sit next to him smh.

    • @Aaris15
      @Aaris15 2 роки тому +1260

      @@andrimarbi I think most of his legal team is comprised of public defenders, so they don't exactly have a choice who to defend. Public defenders are very much humans who feel very human emotions, its not unprofessional to have empathy.

    • @Damodred_Heiress
      @Damodred_Heiress 2 роки тому +994

      @@andrimarbi considering the case material, I don’t think it’s really fair to label her unprofessional for having an emotional reaction.

    • @Purepiscestarot
      @Purepiscestarot 2 роки тому +798

      ^^ It's unprofessional? She's a goddamn human being not a robot.

  • @stephaniecaskinette4577
    @stephaniecaskinette4577 2 роки тому +3605

    This isn’t the first time she has cried from a family member’s impact statement and one of the gentlemen who are on his defense team I’ve seen also cry.
    I feel bad that they are defending him.

    • @GirlofGlamour89
      @GirlofGlamour89 2 роки тому +79

      I wonder if the were court appointed.

    • @Kingjesus96
      @Kingjesus96 2 роки тому +570

      @@GirlofGlamour89 they are, there public defenders they dont even want to represent him but are being forced to or face losing there law license

    • @Kingjesus96
      @Kingjesus96 2 роки тому +154

      @@GirlofGlamour89 this is also like his 10th lawyer

    • @christopher399
      @christopher399 2 роки тому +401

      @@GirlofGlamour89 I think so, but even if they weren't, their job is to make sure he gets a fair trial. Doesn't mean they condone his actions and wants him released. It's also possible they are against the death penalty for moral reasons, and therefore wants to ensure he doesn't get the death sentence.
      People sometimes seem to go after lawyers as if they are heartless. It's important we have people that do what they do. Can't have fair trials if we don't have lawyers.

    • @stephaniecaskinette4577
      @stephaniecaskinette4577 2 роки тому +21

      @@GirlofGlamour89 I was gonna say, I hope so! I would not want to willingly defend that SOB!!!

  • @gribble2979
    @gribble2979 2 роки тому +3951

    As much as we might hate perpetrators, defense attorneys' responsibility is to protect the Constitution by protecting our Constitutional rights. They are a vital part of the justice portion of our criminal justice system and it's touching to see their humanity.

    • @gr8dvd
      @gr8dvd 2 роки тому +19

      @Memory True but irrelevant to thoughtful OP.

    • @ifeelbetterabouthis.louis3
      @ifeelbetterabouthis.louis3 2 роки тому +16

      I would never take up a case like this .

    • @ifeelbetterabouthis.louis3
      @ifeelbetterabouthis.louis3 2 роки тому

      @Memory let's hope the sentence is death, and it takes a long long time to carry out the sentence. So he can sit and soak in.his future.

    • @oliver-9971
      @oliver-9971 2 роки тому +113

      @@ifeelbetterabouthis.louis3 some times the state or the court automatically assigns these cases to lawyers, regardless of their own opinions on the subject. I’m willing to bet that all five of these lawyers were assigned this case. I highly doubt anyone in their right mind would easily be able to defend an inhuman object such as Nicholas. And if they do? God damn they must be a cold human being.

    • @Sillyhands1
      @Sillyhands1 2 роки тому +67

      @@ifeelbetterabouthis.louis3 sometimes you have no choice. The state assigns them and you have to take it.

  • @euphegenia
    @euphegenia 2 роки тому +782

    4:21 “On the days I don’t think about my brother, I feel guilty. On the days I do think about him, I feel broken. There is no peace.” Wow. Incredibly poignant and sharp words from this brilliant young woman.

    • @bicckedoff
      @bicckedoff 2 місяці тому

      i started sobbing i have nothing but empathy for her😢.

  • @CruceEntertainment
    @CruceEntertainment 2 роки тому +724

    “There is no peace”. Many of us know that feeling when we wrestle with losing someone in our lives without any kind of closure. It is a horrible feeling.

    • @forever5013
      @forever5013 2 роки тому +10

      No peace what so ever. Even if your brain tries to take a short break the heart will not allow it. It’s a debilitating pain that only those who have been affected, can ever feel.

    • @timothywait9457
      @timothywait9457 Рік тому

      Cruce Entertainment learn your lesson

    • @amyreynolds3619
      @amyreynolds3619 5 місяців тому

      ​@@timothywait9457😮. Gth.

  • @enterprisecreations1492
    @enterprisecreations1492 2 роки тому +1166

    I lost my 11 year old daughter a few years ago. There is no peace, no normal. Life is lived with the acute awareness that your child is missing from every aspect of your continued existence. These parents heartache is something no one can imagine. The war they wage behind their eyes will go unnoticed. And they will suffer in silence, and alone. Oh what a terrible fate life has dealt these poor parents. How I wish I could wipe away their pain.

    • @christinaskipper6338
      @christinaskipper6338 2 роки тому +32

      I'm so sorry..
      God bless..

    • @anniebeeee
      @anniebeeee 2 роки тому +32

      I'm so sad for anyone who has lost a child. Must be truly unbearable. I'm so sorry for your loss.

    • @boogie0413
      @boogie0413 2 роки тому +37

      Same here. I lost my 2 year old son in a horrible accident. You don’t heal. You change and deal with it. I’m so sorry for you loss. The pain is unexplainable. Make sure you always are honest with your feelings. 🙏🙏🙏🙏

    • @enterprisecreations1492
      @enterprisecreations1492 2 роки тому +19

      @@boogie0413 I am so sorry for your loss. Our hearts share a terrible bond. I pray you can find balance between the heartache and existence.

    • @boogie0413
      @boogie0413 2 роки тому +2

      @@enterprisecreations1492 🙏🙏🙏

  • @idafox2499
    @idafox2499 2 роки тому +402

    My sister was murdered by a man with a gun. Her words made me cry and think about my dead sister. Rest in peace to all the victims of this very sad tragedy.

    • @carlosdcovers8425
      @carlosdcovers8425 2 роки тому +8

      I am so sorry. may you and your family live in peace, that's everything she wants for you

    • @rukhsaarhussain8415
      @rukhsaarhussain8415 Рік тому +1

      May she rest is peace, so sorry that this happened to you ❤

    • @jaipaulsethi6880
      @jaipaulsethi6880 Рік тому +1

      Very sorry for you loss : (

    • @idafox2499
      @idafox2499 Рік тому +7

      Thank all of you for the condolences. I really appreciate it

  • @jmo2104
    @jmo2104 2 роки тому +112

    My heart is with you. My baby brother was murdered by a gunman 17 years ago. He was released on a technicality. We had no justice. My heart has cried for every one of you.

  • @slwilliams0717
    @slwilliams0717 2 роки тому +364

    I lost my sister in 2014. I went to therapy because I was having trouble coping with my best friend being gone & multiple therapists told me that death is something we can't cope with & don't have to. The pain stays the same. Worse when they aren't there for a milestone...

    • @SkrinkLaDa
      @SkrinkLaDa 2 роки тому +19

      This is so painfully true. My mom died of cancer when I was in my early 20s. Now that my friends and I are getting older, they're starting to lose their parents and always ask me if it will get easier, hoping for an answer to make them feel better. It breaks my heart each time I have to tell them it never does - you may think about them less but the pain is always the same. I'm sorry for your loss.

    • @nikoletahh
      @nikoletahh 2 роки тому +1

      i needed this badly. thank you.

    • @adamantium4797
      @adamantium4797 2 роки тому +1

      So ur therapist got paid to tell you the obvious ok then

    • @alexandriarobinson7733
      @alexandriarobinson7733 2 роки тому +16

      @@adamantium4797 so insensitive of you

    • @billymays1761
      @billymays1761 2 роки тому +9

      @@adamantium4797 What is obvious to you may not be to others. Try to be more understanding. For example, it is obvious to everyone that you're a tool.

  • @twiggyb8962
    @twiggyb8962 2 роки тому +1569

    If an explanation of how one feels after losing a loved one, Abby, you have put feelings into words perfectly. My heart breaks for you, your family and all the families hurting from this tragedy. May the injected poison or electrical shower that Cruz will endure bring you some comfort as you heal.

    • @peachdoesart7175
      @peachdoesart7175 2 роки тому +1

      Did you mean electric chair or is an electrical shower a actual form of execution cause I'm pretty sure an electric shower is just a way to bathe

    • @martiginebullich8934
      @martiginebullich8934 2 роки тому +25

      that's a really american point of view, thinking that murdering an extra person will solve anything😂

    • @twiggyb8962
      @twiggyb8962 2 роки тому +24

      @@martiginebullich8934 If a family member of yours was murdered, what would you want to happen to the killer?

    • @rororo1126
      @rororo1126 2 роки тому

      I’m going to be so pissed if they don’t sentence him to death.

    • @ivanvillamil2764
      @ivanvillamil2764 2 роки тому +3

      Is so hard to witness these families traumatized for years because of a mass shooting at a school. Nobody know only except them how it feels; hope and pray that she finds peace.

  • @dragonflysurgeon
    @dragonflysurgeon 2 роки тому +124

    I lost my 18 year old son in 2015 to murder. So much of what she says hits me because I feel the same. I refer to my son as being present but deceased. Nothing about my life today is normal and never will be.

    • @NZ28188
      @NZ28188 2 роки тому +2

      I’m so sorry

    • @languid-4535
      @languid-4535 Рік тому

      I’m so sorry for your loss I can’t even imagine the pain you’ve been through, but you’re very strong and it’s hard to continue after you lose someone you love.

    • @timothywait9457
      @timothywait9457 Рік тому

      dragonflysurgoen it has left a whole in your heart that will never be filled

    • @timothywait9457
      @timothywait9457 Рік тому

      @@insanelittlefangirl you should not tells porkey pies you do not love her

    • @420chuu
      @420chuu Рік тому

      @@timothywait9457love is subjective

  • @eChuckNorris
    @eChuckNorris 2 роки тому +144

    The purest words I ever spoke were as a 6 year old trying to deal with the loss of a friend. I had written in a class that "I wanted to forget him" and when my teacher asked "don't you mean remember?", I responded with "no, it's too painful to remember", and my teacher broke down in tears.

  • @biskkk12
    @biskkk12 2 роки тому +91

    I lost my little brother to brain cancer and she hit every nail on the head . It's been 3 years for me and that trauma never goes away. I pray for all these families , especially the siblings . We highlight the parents which is expected but losing a younger sibling is so unnatural as well.

    • @NennieC123
      @NennieC123 2 роки тому +2

      I’m so sorry for your loss ❤️

    • @badlander6369
      @badlander6369 2 роки тому +3

      The way I get through the loss of my loved one is to constantly remind myself that they would want me to keep going, thrive, be happy and be successful and live for both of us. I am not saying it's easy but I feel like it is the truth and what they would really want for me. It's the only way to honor someone we lose. We have to go on living and cannot die with them. Honor your brother by thriving and carrying on. I am pretty sure that is what he would want for you. Best wishes to you.

    • @NennieC123
      @NennieC123 2 роки тому +2

      @@badlander6369 this was so well said and you’re right. That is what I’m sure our loved ones want but it’s so hard. I was so struck with grief when my Dad died. I shouldn’t be here but I am. Your words hit me exactly when I needed it because I’m struggling. Thank you 🙏🏻

    • @badlander6369
      @badlander6369 2 роки тому +2

      @@NennieC123 Thank you. I believe that any negative behavior we engage in as a result of our loved one's death is dishonoring them instead of honoring them. I am sure they would not want their passing to be the catalyst for us doing anything bad or harmful to ourselves. Would we want any of our loved one's to fall apart if something were to happen to you ? There is a time for grief but there is not a time for guilt. Honor them by thriving.

    • @timothywait9457
      @timothywait9457 Рік тому

      Brianna Brown i recemend a book to you Cold Read sky in the morning by Elizabeth lead you may not under stand some of the words as its British i prusume your American but it a good book for a teenage girl

  • @Oceangirl_505
    @Oceangirl_505 2 роки тому +233

    Abby, I am so touched by your victim impact statement. You are able to articulate in a way that many of us can relate to. This is evidenced by the lead Defense Attorney for NC being brought to uncontrollable tears as you spoke. Abbey, you honor Luke in an amazing & touching way. Thank you for sharing a bit of him with us. I pray that you know God's loving arms as Luke does. 🙏

    • @timothywait9457
      @timothywait9457 Рік тому

      OceanGirl 505 i would give this girl a hug and some Extocy pills

    • @timothywait9457
      @timothywait9457 Рік тому

      OchanGirl 505 the jou from the excocy mdma will be more intence in joy then her intence in greeth

  • @Floyzl
    @Floyzl 2 роки тому +529

    As someone who tragically lost someone it is a wound that does not close and sometimes I don't understand why life is so unfair with good people 💔 I'm so sorry and karma exists for this monster.

    • @handpayquester2645
      @handpayquester2645 2 роки тому +9

      I believed we are like actors in this temporary world, we have our own roles to portray, and we have our Director somewhere whom I also believed is behind all of these. I call him our creator, our supreme being. Everything here is already scripted, we have no absolute choice, but we can do simple adlibs. It is what it is, let’s just enjoy whatever role is tasked to us, at the end of the day I believed we all go back together in one paradise when our partial role is over here

    • @focusintegrity8490
      @focusintegrity8490 2 роки тому

      Cruz took so many good people to gain self attention. I pray he is finally where he should be. Guns aren't the problem. He should never have been allowed access at any age.Many government agencies notified with no response. He should not have been allowed to attend Marjorie Stoneman Douglas HS. Clearly he did not like the challenge. Should have been put at Cross Creek forever, no challenge. Many people are responsible, only one, Nicholas Jacob Cruz pulled the trigger, cold and calculating past what most people see in a lifetime.

    • @Master_Petes_Theater
      @Master_Petes_Theater 2 роки тому +7

      ​@Jo There's a world of difference between the "sins" of occasional blasphemy or petty theft and the premeditated willful and wanton destruction of your classmates and teachers and the never-ending heartbreak dealt to their families and friends.

    • @keiron.4612
      @keiron.4612 2 роки тому +6

      @Jo there's sin and there's been a monster this guy is something else who deserves to never see the light of day again

    • @eedobee
      @eedobee 2 роки тому

      @Evan the jury.

  • @OregonCrow
    @OregonCrow 2 роки тому +283

    By the looks of her, she looks so successful, strong, pretty and doesn't have a single problem in the world. Crazy what we humans can have going on in our minds and bodies while looking perfectly okay. What a tough human.

    • @witch6in6the6womb
      @witch6in6the6womb 2 роки тому +12

      Perfectly put

    • @dewilew2137
      @dewilew2137 2 роки тому +21

      So true. You will never know by just looking at someone. It’s so important to be kind to those you encounter. You don’t know what burdens they’re carrying.

    • @tatamic2010
      @tatamic2010 2 роки тому +1

      @Steve Sherman get out of your mom’s basement steve.

    • @tatamic2010
      @tatamic2010 2 роки тому +14

      @Steve Sherman shiver me timbers

    • @angelaoh4105
      @angelaoh4105 2 роки тому +9

      @Steve Sherman oh go away

  • @kathyrama4570
    @kathyrama4570 2 роки тому +411

    It's really sad when the perps lawyer cries, defending the indefensible. I lost my only sibling, a brother. I thought I would never laugh again.

    • @BoyMama87
      @BoyMama87 2 роки тому +15

      I'm so sorry!! That's awful!! I think we underestimate the pain of losing a sibling. It's easier to see how losing a child is heart-shattering, but a sibling is also shattering.

    • @lisakay1006
      @lisakay1006 2 роки тому +4

      I’m Truly sorry!! 🙏

    • @jameys2864
      @jameys2864 2 роки тому +45

      It's important to remember the public defenders are just doing their job. They don't want to represent him

    • @BoyMama87
      @BoyMama87 2 роки тому +4

      @@jameys2864 exactly! gahhhhh what a hard job to do this.

    • @AmberKelly82
      @AmberKelly82 2 роки тому +2

      I'm so sorry you've gone through that, I too lost my brother Justin in May 2020. I lost him to cancer, I couldn't imagine losing him to violence before he reached adulthood. The pain of being a sibling to a murdered child is more than anyone that hasn't been through that is more than anyone can imagine 💔

  • @Davest420
    @Davest420 2 роки тому +239

    Reading all these comments is hard. My brother has overdosed 6 times in my life. I’m so glad he’s here and doing better. For all you who have lost someone to early I wish I could do something for but I can’t. I am so sorry for your losses and I hope that maybe one day things will get better. Much love from New Hampshire❤️

    • @boogie0413
      @boogie0413 2 роки тому +3

      I’m sorry for what you’re going through with your brother. Never apologize for not being able to help others when you’re trying to help those close to you. You’re a good person for staying by his side. 🙏🙏🙏. Remember that staying strong doesn’t mean being hard or cold. Always let your emotions run freely so you don’t lie to yourself about how you feel. You’re doing great by talking about it on here. 🙏

    • @mirrrstery
      @mirrrstery 2 роки тому +2

      ❤❤

    • @arifuretagamer
      @arifuretagamer 2 роки тому +4

      I have ADHD, OCD, and PTSD and felt like I was nothing but a burden so
      I overdosed at my school during my freshman year of high school because I had no friends and was a complete introvert. I remember waking up in the hospital and seeing how badly it affected my family. I'm almost 21 now, and I'm doing a lot better. My half-brother hung himself last year, and I nearly lost my big brother, but luckily he didn't go through with it as I did.
      So you are not alone in this.

    • @SUGAR_XYLER
      @SUGAR_XYLER 2 роки тому +2

      I'm so glad I'm not capable of getting attached to anyone.
      I just realized it's a blessing

    • @timothywait9457
      @timothywait9457 Рік тому +1

      @@boogie0413 correct life is a harsh place

  • @Mmoh96xo
    @Mmoh96xo 2 роки тому +40

    I am so heartbroken. I just can’t imagine losing my brothers to this horrible and cruel situation. I pray for my brothers now when they go off to school, hoping they still come back home all the time. I always tell them to always be careful, and I cannot imagine the pain this young lady is going through. My thoughts are with you and your family!! It is so hard to lose a sibling and as an older sister I can relate. They’re not just our siblings but our best friends who have watched us grow up and for them to see how far we have come in our lives, in hopes of paving the way and guiding them to be the best adults they can be. A sister’s love will always be the most gentle, kind, sweet and nurturing, next to the mother’s of course. Luke was so blessed to have you in his life. Stay strong. Love and blessings to you ❤️

  • @michelleruss9877
    @michelleruss9877 2 роки тому +77

    So brave, sweet girl. I'm so sorry. My heart breaks for your loss. And no, this is NOT normal.

  • @andrewpowers3697
    @andrewpowers3697 2 роки тому +46

    i just lost my brother to cancer and feel the same way she feels. the pain doesn't go away.

    • @eedobee
      @eedobee 2 роки тому

      Would you prefer to see cancer go to jail for life or be sentenced to death?

    • @opossumfpv
      @opossumfpv 2 роки тому +1

      I'm really sorry my man

  • @Starrr718
    @Starrr718 2 роки тому +161

    This has destroyed these families. When my cousin was stabbed to death 32 times my mothers sister never got over it. She was put in a psych ward and died 2 yrs later from a broken heart. I dont think anyone can ever get over burrying a child. What a piece of $hit this cruz kid is for this . 🙏🏻🙏🏽🙏🏾🙏🏿🙏

    • @Meanie74
      @Meanie74 2 роки тому +11

      Peter Wang’s entire family can’t celebrate holidays bc it hurts. I’m sorry that happened to your family too

    • @adamantium4797
      @adamantium4797 2 роки тому

      @@Meanie74 fk ur holidays

    • @mydogeatspuke
      @mydogeatspuke 2 роки тому +1

      Stabbed to death 32 times? How did they keep coming back to life again?

    • @taraavila1746
      @taraavila1746 2 роки тому +22

      @@mydogeatspuke you're rude.

    • @mydogeatspuke
      @mydogeatspuke 2 роки тому

      @@taraavila1746 you think reality is rude? Sounds like a you problem.

  • @oliviabell2233
    @oliviabell2233 2 роки тому +20

    This one hits me hard, I as well have two brothers and I couldn’t imagine not having my younger brother in our own trio. Sending all of my love and condolences to her and her family.

  • @bmckong
    @bmckong 2 роки тому +105

    As someone who lost my sister as a child, I can feel her pain. Sending her love from an unknown stranger who knows what it’s like. ❤️

    • @ritchievernon8099
      @ritchievernon8099 2 роки тому +1

      Think about how many lives that parkland shooting affected from then until now and beyond! There's going to be no mercy for this guy whatsoever he didn't show Mercy he won't receive any and that's because of his own doing!

    • @simmiesim321
      @simmiesim321 2 роки тому +2

      @@ritchievernon8099 what’s that got to do with this comment 😏

    • @Rae777
      @Rae777 2 роки тому +1

      I'm so sorry for your loss.

    • @bmckong
      @bmckong 2 роки тому

      @@Rae777 thank you 💜

    • @Nina-rn6pc
      @Nina-rn6pc 2 роки тому

      @@simmiesim321 um the fact that the video we're watching is called parkland shooting ?????

  • @toddsmith1969
    @toddsmith1969 2 роки тому +34

    Listened to this at work, tried so hard not to cry. I BAWLED my eyes out hearing their fathers statement. Just so sad, I am sorry 💔

    • @toddsmith1969
      @toddsmith1969 2 роки тому

      @Lina S I ended up going to another room to cry 😭 her words are so powerful, I can't imagine what these families are going through.

    • @toddsmith1969
      @toddsmith1969 2 роки тому

      @Lina S "going into your moms closet to grab clothes and seeing your dead brothers ashes on the shelf is not normal." She's so broken 😔

  • @leonardodalongisland
    @leonardodalongisland 2 роки тому +32

    When your attorney cries over things you've done, you are S-C-R-E-W-E-D

  • @leanneadams2549
    @leanneadams2549 Рік тому +31

    How could someone not cry at such words with the deepest of meaning !!!! 😞😢

    • @timothywait9457
      @timothywait9457 Рік тому

      Leanne Adams when your a hybrid soul or indigo or star child who was told earth is the insane asylum of the universe

  • @melissameier7907
    @melissameier7907 2 роки тому +60

    I lost my brother when I was 9 he was 11. I will always treasure the memories we had.

    • @MyPerfectGecko
      @MyPerfectGecko 2 роки тому

      Oh Melissa, treasure the memories, life is short and when it's gone love goes on and on xxxxxx x xxxxxxxxxxX xxxxxx a hug a squeeze of your hand and strength in your heart from me to you - wherever you are xxxxxxx

    • @roberttrevino62800
      @roberttrevino62800 2 роки тому

      What happened ?

    • @FootkerSnooball
      @FootkerSnooball 10 місяців тому

      ​@@roberttrevino628009/11

  • @kelseycarlile9704
    @kelseycarlile9704 2 роки тому +37

    What a beautiful statement. I pray for all of these families who were effected by this.

  • @melonmilkice2755
    @melonmilkice2755 2 роки тому +24

    I want to hug this attorney. It must be very difficult to represent someone you loath

  • @lonie3100
    @lonie3100 2 роки тому +96

    It’s good to see that the legal team cries when family and friends share statements. The lady sitting directly next to him has cried several times and I can’t help but find that beautiful to see. The pain and humanity ❤️
    I hope that Cruz feels uncomfortable with his legal team crying.

    • @Youre_dumb
      @Youre_dumb 2 роки тому +32

      Theyre human too, just doing a job that unfortunately *someone* has to do. I dont think any of them feel honored to take this case

    • @surgicaltechcrafter2169
      @surgicaltechcrafter2169 2 роки тому

      💯

    • @m3staken983
      @m3staken983 2 роки тому +9

      the sad part is i think Cruz is still enjoying everything that comes with this

    • @EdenHilton
      @EdenHilton 2 роки тому

      @@m3staken983 yep you’re right & he said it himself that he wants to see the families suffer and cry in court…. With his little Creepy ass foreshadowing - I just know he’s suffering somewhere in his heart and that helps me sleep at night. A Subhuman at best

    • @opossumfpv
      @opossumfpv 2 роки тому +5

      @@m3staken983 I think you're right. He knew it would hurt all these people.. that was the point. He loves this

  • @robbymonaco3738
    @robbymonaco3738 2 роки тому +8

    I also lost my younger brother due to a motorcycle accident. It is heart wrenching and changes the entire trajectory of your life.

    • @oliviapag3
      @oliviapag3 2 роки тому +1

      I lost my younger brother the same way about 10 months ago. He died 1 week after his 18th birthday on his way home from picking up his bike. My parents bought him new tires for his birthday. I hope you can eventually find some happiness in life, love from oregon

    • @robbymonaco3738
      @robbymonaco3738 2 роки тому +1

      @@oliviapag3 I am so sorry for your loss. It's devastating I know.

  • @gracielahernandez4978
    @gracielahernandez4978 2 роки тому +12

    This young lady is well spoken and versed. She couldn’t have describe her family’s lost any better. May she, her family and the rest of these family’s who have lost their child have peace after this. 😢❤

  • @happyclappyslappy
    @happyclappyslappy 2 роки тому +30

    What a sister. I thought you could see some comfort there on her parents' faces after that.

  • @laurasalo6160
    @laurasalo6160 2 роки тому +20

    Bless your heart, young lady. I'm so sorry your brother was taken from you and your family.
    It was heartbreaking when she said that now she only has one brother, and that her brother no longer has a brother.
    How tragic life is. How sad and tragic it is all by itself. Then man chooses to make it devastating and tragic by his actions against his very own brother.

  • @cycleSCUBA
    @cycleSCUBA 2 роки тому +35

    Their 'little trio'. That made me, a, 57 year old guy break down. This poor girl and her brother and Luke obviously thrived and loved life because they were going through life together, sharing experiences and guiding each other. That 3 has become 2 and their World has collapsed. I am certain they will pick up the pieces, carry on and make a success of their lives for the memory of Luke.

  • @maleiah8940
    @maleiah8940 2 роки тому +3

    I also have 2 little brothers and this made me cry so much. I can’t imagine one of them dying. Im so so sorry for your loss.

  • @kpcuh
    @kpcuh 2 роки тому +229

    Man…. This really breaks my heart… RIP to all the victims and their families!!!! The killer must get death penalty

    • @Mr_RaZiM
      @Mr_RaZiM 2 роки тому

      Can u execute someone twice? If so he should be revived & Executed repeatedly

    • @kaleylopez2097
      @kaleylopez2097 2 роки тому +1

      why let him suffer for a couple minutes instead of the rest of his life. he deserves to suffer for the rest of his natural life

    • @slabbinonspokezz2375
      @slabbinonspokezz2375 2 роки тому +2

      Yes

    • @lynncantrell2782
      @lynncantrell2782 2 роки тому +1

      So you want another family to go through this? I forgive you, you are just to weak to forgive.
      Forgiveness is very powerful

    • @slabbinonspokezz2375
      @slabbinonspokezz2375 2 роки тому

      @@lynncantrell2782 with all due respect you have 0 elbow room to suggest a family member of the victims or anyone else shouldn't want to put this vermin to death. If you want attention go stand in the middle of a highway

  • @mystorycontinues1003
    @mystorycontinues1003 2 роки тому +17

    Heart wrenching. This makes me cry for my little brother. I would lose it if anything ever happened to him. I usually am not one to like the death penalty just because there could be a chance of innocence, but for crimes like this. There is no innocence. No humanity. People like that don't deserve life.

  • @catherinevanommeren
    @catherinevanommeren 2 роки тому +81

    Any human that doesn’t react this way. Isn’t human

    • @ivexoxo
      @ivexoxo 2 роки тому +10

      Not everyone is emotional lmao

    • @ivexoxo
      @ivexoxo 2 роки тому +7

      @Annon_28 like I said, not everyone is emotional lmfao…you can be empathetic in other ways..

    • @buphoon1452
      @buphoon1452 2 роки тому

      any human named nikolas cruz isn't human

    • @joncarr1200
      @joncarr1200 2 роки тому +1

      Yeah, what that person ^ said.

    • @joncarr1200
      @joncarr1200 2 роки тому +9

      Just because someone doesn't cry about something sad doesn't mean they're heartless. That's something you don't understand.

  • @hashhendrexwelcome2vibesville
    @hashhendrexwelcome2vibesville 2 роки тому +33

    Has the killer even cried once other than about himself 😒

    • @TeMeister
      @TeMeister 2 роки тому +27

      Nope, he won’t even look at them

    • @aspebb
      @aspebb 2 роки тому +16

      It's not human.

    • @Kweghp
      @Kweghp 2 роки тому +7

      He has shown 0 emotion, 0 tears throughout the entire trial. How gut-wrenching.

    • @Kweghp
      @Kweghp 2 роки тому +16

      @@stephguz I’ve had a hard life and know many people who have. And guess what? Never committed a murder or had the urge.

    • @rat8356
      @rat8356 2 роки тому +1

      @@Kweghp he looks like he is showing emotion to me

  • @vonxojn3
    @vonxojn3 2 роки тому +21

    Powerful message of love and pain for her brother

  • @shAnn0n1
    @shAnn0n1 2 роки тому +45

    The defense lawyers have cried during ALL of the families impact statements, it's showing that the carnage Cruz caused was devastating.

    • @CaptainJeffMarchant
      @CaptainJeffMarchant 2 роки тому

      I was saying to myself when I saw the defense attorney break down "How do you defend him?" He already admitted guilt. You know he's guilty.
      The defense attorney might have children/kids....to think someone like him, the guilty man you are defending, could enter her own kids classroom and do the same thing?
      He deserves what he gave the 17 he murdered for the countless number of lives he has changed forever

    • @okayjules
      @okayjules 2 роки тому +14

      @@lillyrose9785 sorry. are you an attorney? if you are, have you ever or could you imagine working such an emotionally heavy case? i don’t think any of us can understand what months and years of prepping for a case like this can do to a person. so respectfully, stop

    • @amiesparkle00
      @amiesparkle00 2 роки тому +3

      The lawyers get to see ALL of the evidence and hear ALL of the statements. It’s an awful case and only the lawyers and victims know all the details. So if they are emotional, that’s why. They are privy to info that we the general public are not.

    • @jp__878
      @jp__878 2 роки тому +3

      @@lillyrose9785 Definition of professional (nice spelling btw idiot)
      1a : of, relating to, or characteristic of a profession
      b : engaged in one of the learned professions
      c(1) : characterized by or conforming to the technical or ethical standards of a profession
      (2) : exhibiting a courteous, conscientious, and generally businesslike manner in the workplace

    • @alexysscastaneda9977
      @alexysscastaneda9977 2 роки тому +4

      @@lillyrose9785 if u can’t even spell “Professional” then u shouldn’t be asking
      Others their understanding of the word 😹

  • @almasakic1148
    @almasakic1148 Рік тому +9

    I lost my big brother to a drug overdose last year and what she said about feeling guilty on the days you don't remember them is so true. Also replaying all the times you hurt them in some stupid silly way and wishing you could see them one more time and tell them you love them. My brother's death is what brought me to God, because I need to believe I will see him again in the afterlife. It's the only thing that eases the pain a bit.

  • @kellilane9508
    @kellilane9508 2 роки тому +7

    I have followed this trail for quite awhile now, and listened to all the families impact letters and well…….this one I felt on a different level💔from a only girl with brothers I felt this so much and how life would & could never be my “normal” without one of mine! I’m so so sorry any one person has to feel the level of hurt after each of these innocent lives were so, each of you remain in so many of our prayers🙏🏻

  • @alessandraleigh9919
    @alessandraleigh9919 2 роки тому +3

    After all of this, Cruz still didn’t get handed the death penalty due to one juror. Absolutely disgusting.

  • @chasemoore1216
    @chasemoore1216 2 роки тому +4

    I couldn't fathom being in the same room as the person who killed my sibling.

  • @GraceNielda
    @GraceNielda Рік тому +3

    Why are they still in the court room???? Why is this being dragged out so long. This is so traumatizing that they have to relive this over and over. Is he getting the death penalty yet or not?!

  • @nigelcarren
    @nigelcarren 2 роки тому +14

    This young woman has a fine way with words.
    The way she delivered them right at that monster showed courage... Though he himself didn't have courage enough to catch her glare!
    Nor did I expect him to either.
    Bless the memory of all the victims, and here's hoping this horrific event will springboard changes to protect the next generation., because every child should be able to go to school without fear... much less risk of gun violence.

  • @22lyric
    @22lyric 2 роки тому +10

    *My brain can't come up with words for what my heart feels for these families. AND for the loss of 17 people I would loved to have known. And for what might have been.* 🙏❤️

  • @jamesn7305
    @jamesn7305 2 роки тому +7

    Very brave of that young lady to keep her composure while talking about her brother.

  • @krismaser7354
    @krismaser7354 2 роки тому +6

    This is sad and heartbreaking. The devastation this defendant has caused is beyond horrific. She said it all. Now, may justice be served in Full. I pray for you and your family.

  • @kathleenmckeithen118
    @kathleenmckeithen118 2 роки тому +20

    I don't have words to respond to this heartbreaking loss. I am so very sorry for each person who lost a precious loved one in this senseless mass murder.

  • @Nahash5150
    @Nahash5150 2 роки тому +2

    This should not be allowed in court. A criminal trial is about evidence, not emotional anguish.

    • @masterhaterbater5927
      @masterhaterbater5927 2 роки тому

      Exactly this.

    • @enwhy7810
      @enwhy7810 2 роки тому

      It isn’t court. It’s theater. Enjoy the show 🍿

    • @Nahash5150
      @Nahash5150 2 роки тому

      @@enwhy7810 Yeah. Sorry to say but it looks like a few want to cash in on the tragedy.

    • @Pretty-m5g
      @Pretty-m5g Рік тому

      You obviously lack critical thinking

  • @shereehewings8483
    @shereehewings8483 2 роки тому +41

    Abby, I feel heartbroken for you❤️ I can't even begin to imagine what you and your family are going through every day.

  • @ca_outlaw5525
    @ca_outlaw5525 Рік тому +1

    His lawyer hates him too. Even her body language says it. She's turned away from him

  • @TT-hi1qv
    @TT-hi1qv 2 роки тому +5

    Very brave and wonderful sister! Your words are very powerful the love for your brother is very real.. so sorry for your loss.

  • @Claire21438
    @Claire21438 Рік тому +1

    What an incredible and strong young woman. I could not have spoken with such control and passion as she did.

  • @ImGreiving
    @ImGreiving 2 роки тому +7

    When I saw this one it hit me for a different reason. I struggle with depression daily. Hourly. By the minute at times. And a lot of my thoughts are about after I’m dead. Like will I cause my family to become more distant? Or could it force them to come together and appreciate the importance of family.
    But then I think of my sister. I think of her being the one to stop my mom and dad from blaming each other. I see her being stronger than most. But I can see her break down like she did. Idk. It actually made me cry for multiple reasons but that was the main one.
    I truly haven’t cried in years. And pls don’t worry or feel the need to say I’ll be okay. Those sort of comments make me only feel worse because I don’t really like attention. But if you feel the need to say it, I totally understand. Just know I’ve taken the steps to get help and I’m as optimistic as I can be!
    I guess I’m saying this as a reminder to realize at crucial times - it all can be over. This goes to siblings who may be mad at each other over something so small. Parents who may have kids acting out (find out why). Anyone who hasn’t spoke to family in years. Or friends who may be distant over a disagreement.
    Idk I feel what I said sounds kinda corny and dumb but felt the need to.

    • @Artitude88
      @Artitude88 2 роки тому

      Thank you for sharing your message. Your words are important and so are you. Life’s not fun at times. I struggle with depression too, but the world needs one of you. Keep up the great work! ❤️

  • @BillG29
    @BillG29 2 роки тому +2

    Every young person who spoke showed us adults how much we lose over our older years. The strength I have seen here warms my heart because I see hope in our future again. You all are such an inspiration and example of what so many of us have lost sight of in ourselves and others. I thank u for showing me what I feared didn't exist anymore. You are all my heroes. I pray u all stay strong in ur lives and God guides you every step of the way. I'm humbled. Ty

  • @ashley5368
    @ashley5368 2 роки тому +51

    We should all, not only be praying for the victims, but for the murder’s lawyers - you know they are struggling, you can see it in their body language

    • @nelsonllediastrujillo8689
      @nelsonllediastrujillo8689 2 роки тому

      Are you drunk ?

    • @ashley5368
      @ashley5368 2 роки тому

      @@nelsonllediastrujillo8689 cause my typos? Yea, my bad…I was cooking, watching, and typing. I fixed it

    • @stevorobo692
      @stevorobo692 2 роки тому

      @@ashley5368 I think it's about the praying stuff.... Maybe should have prayed for all those kids not to get massacred instead 💁‍♂

    • @ashley5368
      @ashley5368 2 роки тому +9

      @@stevorobo692 Oh ok, idk. Religion, praying, and being spiritual is different for everyone. Others don’t have to follow my vibe or like my comment, it’s all good here.

    • @justicepeople8819
      @justicepeople8819 2 роки тому +2

      @@stevorobo692 how you gonna answer a question about a next person comment

  • @sillyz9578
    @sillyz9578 2 роки тому +1

    So powerful. So emotional. I have a 14 month old and just the thought of losing her brings tears.

  • @RaptorInNewMexico
    @RaptorInNewMexico 2 роки тому +12

    so sad 😞

  • @Eddie-tn2om
    @Eddie-tn2om 2 роки тому +37

    Your life is not normal Abby but the world shares your pain and knows who made it abnormal ,if there is any justice in this world and although it will not bring Luke back. That justice will be served.

  • @sekiro_god5689
    @sekiro_god5689 2 роки тому +7

    I lost my father recently after having a falling out with him and not speaking to him for awhile I'll always always blame myself and wish it was me that went or that I was there to try and save him be careful out there everyone

  • @aesthetiqlyella255
    @aesthetiqlyella255 Рік тому +1

    I personally don’t think I could ever defend this kind of person as an attorney. I would just be so disgusted hearing what he did to all of those children and to be on the side of him would absolutely disgust me.

  • @Spookybozo
    @Spookybozo Рік тому +2

    This hurts insanely to listen to, absolutely heartbreaking. Now imagine the pain of this poor girl, her family, and ALL of the families and friends of the victims. Dear God help them all

  • @maryd7081
    @maryd7081 2 роки тому +3

    I’m sooo sorry to all the families 😢 this is heart breaking 💔

  • @mjevans3259
    @mjevans3259 2 роки тому +2

    I should not have clicked on this. I'm bawling my eyes out. My goodness this is so heartbreaking. God bless those victims families!!!

  • @nicolelarson7829
    @nicolelarson7829 2 роки тому +7

    His attorneys have cried when listening to each and everyone of the victim impact statements! Only an evil heartless bastard like Nick Cruz could listen and NOT cry!

  • @Ditarose2222
    @Ditarose2222 Рік тому +1

    Losing your loved one can effect your life, I lost a loved one 2 years ago, and developed an illness and depression, still fighting through it each day. Poor girl is living through it and it's not easy.

  • @ABCDEF-no1cv
    @ABCDEF-no1cv 2 роки тому +3

    I lost my older brother to car accident and I understand the pain of loosing your sibling. I bet loosing your sibling to senseless school shooting is worse pain because it shouldn't have happened at all.

  • @lissalives1
    @lissalives1 Рік тому +2

    Only ONE person from his defense team cried. The woman closest to the court camera.

  • @philipwirch4984
    @philipwirch4984 2 роки тому +20

    Listening to her made my heart hurt.

  • @cuteness51308
    @cuteness51308 2 роки тому +11

    There’s a quote I keep seeing and it goes “ and now I will have to love you for longer than I’ve known you” this quote really hits deep and I feel it’s relevant for many of these family’s. Rest In Peace Luke. 🤍

  • @someoneout-there2165
    @someoneout-there2165 2 роки тому +82

    I don't know how someone could just go out and hurt so many people. I get a lot of bullying, even as an adult but I don't think of going out and hurting a bunch of people. However, with that said, it should be obvious that not everyone reacts the same way. People should really try to be nicer to each other. If you don't like someone don't try and be friends, don't try and hangout, fine. But to just bully someone makes them part of the problem as well. There is no justification for what he did but you have to step back and think.. if he had not been bullied would this have still happened? Maybe.. maybe not.. but regardless, it wouldn't have made things worse.

    • @ahill4642
      @ahill4642 2 роки тому +15

      I can't stand hearing that you get bullied even as an adult. I wish you could find a way to get away from those people. I hope you have very caring people in your life, too, and if you don't, please find some. Volunteer somewhere where good people are, anything.
      I care. ❤️

    • @Username34823
      @Username34823 2 роки тому

      psychopathic narcissist. selfish people who have zero empathy. yes they exist.

    • @antscorpio1030
      @antscorpio1030 2 роки тому +12

      Yeah if you'd look back at his videos and text messages you'd feel less sorry for him. Simply put, he was an awkward annoyance to a girl in a text.

    • @tonyvelasquez6776
      @tonyvelasquez6776 2 роки тому

      I totally agree, but this kid was mentally screwed, and I don't think bullying would've changed anything.
      His own mother hated him. He was violent since childhood.

    • @guineapigluver10
      @guineapigluver10 2 роки тому +3

      Cruz was not bullied

  • @nerdwithswag5282
    @nerdwithswag5282 2 роки тому +4

    My baby brother was murdered on February 26,2000 he was 26 yrs old. 22 years later I still miss him and tear up thinking about him.

    • @enwhy7810
      @enwhy7810 2 роки тому

      Gay

    • @GrinGrim87
      @GrinGrim87 2 роки тому +1

      @@enwhy7810 You're not cool

    • @enwhy7810
      @enwhy7810 2 роки тому

      @@GrinGrim87 can’t beat me faaaaaaaaaaa. Get.

    • @purestone10
      @purestone10 Рік тому

      @@enwhy7810lol. The miserable existence you must have in everyday life

    • @enwhy7810
      @enwhy7810 Рік тому

      @@purestone10 lol I’ve figured out God knowledge in this life. To say that I love being me is to make a massive understatement, peasant 😊

  • @Dddd.6754
    @Dddd.6754 2 роки тому +2

    This is really heartbreaking . Rip Luke .

  • @Savagery21
    @Savagery21 Рік тому +2

    How this girl spoke about her brother and how he was so special to her made everyone realize that an amazing human being was taken from the world by this monster.

  • @MrRobertito17
    @MrRobertito17 2 роки тому +13

    May the soul of our beloved Luke Hoyer rest in peace with the Lord and let perpetual light shine upon him. Amen.

  • @rainbowsupernova
    @rainbowsupernova 2 роки тому +2

    This is heartbreaking 💔

  • @michaelgold4489
    @michaelgold4489 2 роки тому +8

    Its so easy for us to turn this off and go on with our lives.We have no idea how lucky we are and how these families are so ruined because of this.

  • @sherilynridgeway8984
    @sherilynridgeway8984 2 роки тому +1

    I hav 2 brothers too, not normal is right!!! My brother died in a four wheeler accident in 2011! I know my family also is never the same!! I wish ALL the parkland parents, siblings & friends peace & love & justice ❤️‍🩹

  • @ericmsandoval
    @ericmsandoval 2 роки тому +9

    One of the most powerful statements I’ve ever heard

  • @Freedom-kp9jc
    @Freedom-kp9jc 2 роки тому +7

    Why waste tax money on him

  • @rodriguezrodriguez9392
    @rodriguezrodriguez9392 2 роки тому +2

    To all the people writing in the comments just know that all your lost loved ones are now in a happy and safe place, God bless you all

  • @peniparker7968
    @peniparker7968 2 роки тому +9

    *A reminder to those scrolling through the comments below* : DONT FEED THE TROLLS!
    You just acknowledge the dumb ignorant comment they make and they have won. That's all they want. Acknowledgment that they exist. Don't give it to them! Just ignore the comment and move on.

  • @Yes-dy3nx
    @Yes-dy3nx Рік тому +1

    I’d like to think he was standing right next to her during this giving her the strength to fight through her speech.

  • @lynnecarnivale6414
    @lynnecarnivale6414 2 роки тому +3

    GOD BLESS HER and HER FAMILY.
    Peace,
    Lynne🍃💜🍃

  • @icepick859
    @icepick859 2 роки тому +2

    This is the saddest one for me. I cried during this one

  • @Lonesome__Dove
    @Lonesome__Dove 2 роки тому +8

    Sad world we live in when young people have so much anger in their hearts to be able to do such a thing.

  • @valeriag9443
    @valeriag9443 Рік тому +1

    I’ve also lost a sibling and it’s awful but I’m so glad I didn’t lose her in what is probably the worst way

  • @LuhRen
    @LuhRen 2 роки тому +14

    You know it's over for him when his defense starts crying.

    • @rickymacqueen6690
      @rickymacqueen6690 2 роки тому +5

      He did plead guilty so it's a matter of what sentence to give him. His lawyers are human and just doing their job assigned to them. I couldn't imagine being in their position.

    • @aleesharenea1477
      @aleesharenea1477 2 роки тому

      @@rickymacqueen6690 Me either I wouldn't be able to fake how I feel. He's a Monster.

    • @rickymacqueen6690
      @rickymacqueen6690 2 роки тому

      @@aleesharenea1477 yeah. That's why they get paid the big bucks I guess

  • @Pureception
    @Pureception Рік тому +1

    Jesus Christ I was crying for 5 minutes straight. This sister has an incredible heart and is tough as nails. Thanks for sharing your story ♥

  • @WRITEMEAMELODY
    @WRITEMEAMELODY 2 роки тому +6

    Gosh this is heart breaking 💔

  • @kathyroberts9037
    @kathyroberts9037 2 роки тому +2

    I know your brother is not here physically but he is in your heart forever!!!! I know you miss your brother. He is always in your heart. My grandparents passed away & I miss them terribly. But I know I carry them in my heart. Your brother will always love you & look down from heaven and wait until you live a good long life & be successful. He wants you to be strong!!!!! My prayers are with you.... Be strong & do good in life!!! Be positive & work hard to become successful in life. That is what your brother wants you to do. May God bless you & protect you.

  • @ellagrace1576
    @ellagrace1576 2 роки тому +3

    I'm so sorry when they say the first two years after are the worst, they are right, I don't remember a lot of my past because of it. I might sound dramatic but I'm not the same person anymore, for a while there I thought I wasn't even alive.