I think when she drives into the water with her brother it shows how when someone takes their own life it also brings those closest to them down with them
“I had my first suicidal thought at 5 years old. Maybe it’s just part of my DNA” that hit me so hard. I can’t believe I’ve finally found someone else who has felt like this their whole life.
Me too, since I was 10-12, maybe before. I also wonder about the DNA, genes or just a habit that I've got so used to that I could never get rid of. I know I will always have them.
This video is everything. Finally two grown men who aren’t afraid to open up over a piece of music and connect to there audience in such a genuine way. I became a huge fan from this video.
My head is spinning.... What real men... Like overly emotional who donot brace up to life but let their hearts control every decisions..... No, I like my concrete manliness that braces my girl during her times of emotions
Billie is scared of water, when they go down, she doesn’t panic because her brother is here with and for her Edit: I wasn't expecting this to blow up this much. My comment was meant as an explanation on the video and on why Billie stays so calm as they drown. It was not intended as an analogy of the song and its meaning, more how song links to video. Hope this clarifies a few things.
@@nickj4785 uhm, yeah it means exactly that .... all people i know afraid of water doesnt know how to swim and rarely gets in the water on beaches higher that the hips
It is so refreshing to see men talking about their emotions and feelings in a natural, HUMAN way, even just about a song! Bravo, guys! I hope you inspire others to feel like they can open up like this.
Dillon (the guy) talked about his own struggles with depression sometimes. I think it's just a part of him now but hopefully working through it every day especially with Chris (the other guy)
Me too, I wish I could take it all away. It's very hard though. People that feel like this has to want to be help and believe that someone would miss them and feel terrible if they died.
They fought over writing this song, Fineas didn’t want to help her write a song about killing herself, but b/c of how close they are, he did and put in those parts of Hope/Support.
Maybe sad songs help you feel better because you can experience someone else processing these feelings and emotions and it lets you know there’s a way to do so. You can see someone finding their way and you can too.
not just this song he noticed that most of her songs have this sadness in it and in all reality she's been reflecting her real thoughts and feeling into her music . so that's why he told her she needs to stop
iiAMnina her mom and brother didn’t want her to and he didn’t want to but when she explained that this is how she gets these feelings out without actually causing herself harm they came around to the idea as this her way of dealing with those emotions. And yeah finneas added the parts about being there for her and helping her
The part she says "I tried to scream, but my head was under water" means exactly when you can't comunicate your feelings, whats you've been through, struggling bad thoughts... Have ever anyone tried to say something underwater? it's like ther's no voice, no sound...and no one can notice your changes, behavior... This is my favorite song of her... Because it's deep, emotional...
I love how Billie uses the drowning metaphor...it feels like you’re at the bottom of a deep, dark hole and can’t make out the light above you. You know it’s there, but it just feels far and like unreachable. You sink down into your depression. It often requires someone to pull you out, but if you can’t speak of it, how will anybody know? Thankfully, she has a brother. Many of us do not.
I don’t even know how I stumbled across this video, I’ve never seen the two of you before. But as I watched this and listen to two men talk about and show their feelings I though to myself, how different would my life be if I had had male figures that opened up like that to me at some point? I’m literally sitting her tears streaming down my face with the realization that there are men that can act human and explore the feelings they have and talk openly about it AND hear someone else’s feelings and actually listen and receive. Maybe some day I’ll experience that, what a powerful and fulfilling experience that would be. Thank you.
I'm sorry that you've been hurt. Some people are just so incapable of overcoming their own hurt and brokenness they don't see how they themselves are hurting others around them. There are caring humans in this world and there are wretched humans. You are not alone, you not invisible. Sending a big hug.
If someone is having suicidal thoughts or you’re in a situation where someone is about to take action to end their life, please remember not to ask them “what about your family and friends?” “what about your kids?” etc. This doesn’t help. All it does is make them feel debilitating guilt and it won’t help. Try to use other things like “Hey, you still haven’t been to Japan, you’ve always wanted to go there” or “You haven’t seen this band play live yet, they’re so good and you’ll love them”. This reinforces that there is so much more to do. Make it about them. Just a bit of advice for those wanting to help out.
That part about debilitating gilt. So true! In some cases it may stop an instant, but if a person has guilt that just compounds it just pushes you down the same rabbit hole, often times worst.
This is so true it hurts. In my experience that kind of guilt did reliably stop me from killing myself for a while but it also escalated my self-harming and suicidal ideation so I eventually tried and was hospitalized.
It’s just the classic thing people do. Undermine someone else because they want to feel “special” or different from others. It’s like “Wow look at me I don’t like this person that many other people like therefore the artist is bad and I’m so cool!”
God she’s SO unbelievably talented and it breaks my heart to heart her criticize herself before like every live performance on UA-cam. It’s so wild how ppl can see themselves in the opposite light of how others do. She’s got so much to offer & made such an impact on this world. I truly hope she does not feel this way
"If I knew it all would I do it again" I think shes talking about if she knew how her career would turn out and how people would react or treat her, would she do it again.
I agree. If she knew this path and the sometimes dark and isolated periods of it, would she do it again. She has talked at length about being unable to have a normal life and not knowing who her friends are.
Yeah she even said that is what it's about. Don't know where I read it though... She also mentioned that she wasn't really trying to become famous but Ocean Eyes blew up and from there it all went really quick. It all took her by surprise and she could not anticipate what and how big she became "overnight". She really struggled with her succes in the beginning but now she is in a good place. This song was written a while back (most of it on her tour in Germany she said). Lots of love to everyone who feels alone and overwhelmed
The whole song to me has a double meaning. One all about her success and how it felt scary... litterally driving straight into the ocean (ocean eyes) and then the other about dreaming she comitted suicide
I took it as reference to the dream. If she knew how it would all play out , if she knew what that feeling of jumping off the bridge/killing herself was like, would she do it again?
I wish my little brother knew how much I loved him. That he would of known that I saw him just like Finneas does Billie. I love this song so much, but I burst into tears every time I hear it. I lost my brother to suicide almost 25 years ago and it’s still the deepest hurt I’ve ever felt. I still miss him so much and I would do anything to be able to go back and try to save him, even though I probably couldn’t of. He had his mind made up and none of us realized it. He came and spent the weekend with us all. I had just recently had my daughter and he came to meet her and the whole family came together for that. He held her, we got pics of it and he promised he’d look after her and that he loved her so much. He hugged me so tight before he left and a few days later I got the call...he was gone. My husband had also walked out on me the day before so I was a mess already from that. I actually was so devastated that I thought about ending everything myself, but I knew I couldn’t leave my daughter by herself. Not long after everything settled down, we had a house fire that was most likely arson, but no one could prove it. My daughter and I should of died, the beds we were in were burnt to just the metal frames left. Somehow I woke up and got us out of there. I know he must of saved us because her comforter was tucked under the top of the mattress all the way around so she was completely covered and didn’t get any smoke inhalation like I did. She was a preemie, so it saved her life. I’m so glad you guys reacted to this.
I'm terribly sorry to hear about your brother's passing. And I'm glad you and your daughter are okay. 💜 I'm a single mom too and I know how hard it can be. I know the loss of your brother pains you everyday, but I truly hope it gets easier with time. I'm sending you the biggest hug! Stay strong because that precious girl needs you!
Wow, you’ve really been through a lot. You are a super strong woman to go through all of that and still be here to tell your story. Thank you for sharing, your story gives me strength to help me get through my trials.❤️❤️❤️
Jennifer Ropp I’m so glad this helped you. I was watching the video and listening to Chris & Dillion and next thing I know I’m spilling my guts. I kinda needed to I guess. Thank you for the sweet reply, it really means a lot.
I lost my best friend to suicide in December. She loved Billie.. This song was released not long before she left me. I struggle to listen to it now because the words really resonate with me! I'm slowly healing but it will take a long time to come to terms with what happened to her. Before she died she bought us tickets to go and see Billie in the UK.. It was cancelled because of coronavirus but I'll still be going once a new date is set. She will still be there with me in her own way ❤️
😔☹️😨 OMG,I'm so sorry to know that. Its really sad, it must have been hard for u to listen. Well definitely u should go ,whenever u get new dates for concert and maybe u can save that ticket she bought for u.
This was my absolute favorite reaction to this song. A lot of people skip past most of the lyrics and dont get the full picture and emotion from it. She wrote this song about a dream she had where she jumped off the golden gate bridge and no one cared but when she woke up she told her brother and he comforted her. Love this video. 💕
Finneas wanted no part in this song for the longest. They fought about it. Until the line, "As long as I'm here No one can hurt you Don't wanna lie here But you can learn to If I could change The way that you see yourself You wouldn't wonder why you hear They don't deserve you".
“Listening to sad songs makes me feel better.” I completely agree. At moments when I listen to a sad song and the lyrics it feels amazing that someone is going through what I’m going through, that I’m not alone. I’ll even sing along as if to let what I’m feeling out, I might end up crying but it’s okay, and then I just feel better like everything will be okay.
I listen to sad songs when I have to be in the hospital because it helps me deal with the fact that I can't be at home with my family. It helps me feel and process the emotions in a healthy way. I don't know what I would do if I didn't have sad music when I'm sad.
Both of you guys are loved. You are precious. We need you here, okay! Whatever you are going through, you will make it. I am so proud of you. Push through because the storm will fade. All love
Larry Lawayne You are loved more than you know. You are worthy and strong. Please don’t do it. Please talk to someone or just talk to us here! We care. I never comment on here but feel compelled to reach out. Much love to you. ❤️
My partner killed himself he left me and his son and he transfered all his pain onto me being left behind after a suicide is so so hard i then couldnt process which led to my own attemps on my life i spent a good 15 years slowly killing myself thankfully i can say maturing helped me as i came into my 40s i realising how beautiful life is and how much i do wanna live. I PRAY and hope you all find your peace.. IT DOES COME ❤️
I’m sorry for your loss. That is my biggest fear, my boyfriend who I have a daughter with has tried to kill him self multiple times, I’ve literally had to physically stop him one time and beg on my knees for him to stay. It’s so hard. My heart goes out to you and your son❤️
“Suicide doesn’t end your pain, it just passes it on to someone else.” Break the cycle, as painful as it is. Maybe we will end up saving someone in our situation if you keep fighting and talking about our experiences in life. If anyone needs me or needs to talk I am here 💜
Mic Quinn I 100% agree. The storm will eventually fade, but you just got to push through. You are an amazing person for looking out for others. God bless
Amy Fulton I’m literally just sharing what quote I found that helped me when I was going through some of the hardest times of my life. I apologize you take it the way you did and in such a negative way, you must truly be going through some stuff in your personal life to go out of your way to try to guilt someone you don’t even know and their experience. I’ll keep you in my prayers that whatever is out there brings peace to your sour heart. This quote is meant to be viewed philosophically and can mean a thousand different things depending on the mind that views them. To me I believe in reincarnation and to me it means if you want to break the cycle and not have to deal with trial by fire in the next life you have to keep going. To you it may reflect guilting or whatever you may claim but that isn’t the case for the vast majority. I’m here for you if you need to talk to get over whatever you may be going through! 💜
Arjan Singh I’m sorry I didn’t see this sooner!! I’m here if you need anything as well!! Thank you for being so kind 💜 god bless, have an amazing weekend my friend!
How refreshing to see two very masculine looking men showing their emotions and talking about them! Thank you so much, for being so real. I think you guys could touch a wide genre of people. Continue please. Much love. Peace!
Seriously this is such a dumb quote, people who repeat it like parrots only show that they have no idea 😂 "A permanent solution" yeah who wouldn't want a permanent solution to their problem? It also confirms that it's indeed a solution. "A temporary problem" what if the problem isn't temporary? Some have to suffer their whole life. This is just another one of those so called 'smart' things to say, just like "think positive, go out, exercise" etc. Makes me laugh everytime I see people say that.
RZ_SS sorry it offended you, but this quote saved my life the night I had 30 pills ready to be swallowed while I sat on the bathroom floor. Whether or not this quote seems silly to you, it could potentially help someone else, and save their life. Suicide is what suicidal people believe to be the only “solution”. Of course suicide won’t really fix anything. “Temporary” can fluctuate. The mental disorders I have will stay with me for life, but the minuscule issues I face everyday will one day ease. That was my message, not just some “dumb quote”.
The most tone-deaf shit I've ever read. ”You’re dying but give it time” 🥴 there's no WAY in hell anyone who's ever struggled will say, let alone believe this live laugh love bullshit. Like. Wow.
@@RZ_SS I agree with you. My brother had schizophrenia , a brain disease that has no cure.. Sadly he committed suicide, and even though his death took a chunk of my heart, I can understand the reasoning. He just got tired of fighting!
The moment I break in this video is the particular visual of Finneas holding his hand out and Billie taking it, then looking at each other and actually smiling,all in UNISON. It gets me every single time. Truly, love and compassion. Great reaction and raw emotions, sending all positive vibes your way
uh oh - I hope you are able to reach out and ask for help and support. I have had suicidal tendencies for many years but it has definitely lessened. Sending love 🧩
Oh definitely, a suicidal thought and suicidal ideation are so different. It’s the difference between “I wanna kill myself” and “I’m going to lull myself”. Been through a lot of both but am healing, and I hope anyone with a similar experience is healing too❤️
Billie has helped people through hard times. Reminding them they are not alone. Through depression, night terrors, anxiety, stress, even bad relationships. This is why I love her music. She keeps the emotion in the music. No filter.
Lost my brother Eric to suicide when I was 16; he was just 17. Breaks my heart every day to think of the amazing life he could have had & all the people who didn’t get to know how wonderful he was. Love to EVERYONE out there who needs love and doesn’t have someone who cares. I Care.
This made me cry, I’ve been struggling with depression off and on...I’ve been really good mentally until last week...it was a very dark place because I was at the point where I wasn’t scared to die...I’m happy to see these guys discuss depression
I feel you. Hope your doing better. Depression makes me feel like I would not be missed and that the people I hurt by doing it would be better off. It also makes the world and life seem not worth the trouble. Its all an illusion but yet so real. I tell myself that this is temporary and when I do die and not by my own hands that ill have plenty of time to be dead then.
Life is beautiful. Maybe I'll never meet your in real life, but out here are so many people like you, like me, and who all are thinking that way. However, life is worth every single bit of it. It's worth more than death. I'm glad you are trying, it takes a huge deal of strength .... I'm glad today we are here, and everything will have the sunshine someday
I was eight when I first thought "maybe I shouldn't be here" This video was so good for me to watch. It made me feel less alone. You guys are amazing. Tight hugs for everyone. ♥️♥️
It’s crazy that Billie has felt like no one would care if she died because even just me all the way from England would not know what I’d do without her I love her so so much
My favorite lyric is "if they knew what they said would go straight to my head what would they said instead" it's feels like another way of saying be careful what you say to people.. you never know how it could effect them.
I've been struggling with depression and suicidal thought since I was 15 (I'm 25 now). I had given up on everything, quit school and would not even leave my house. My family hated me for leaving school, they made me feel like a monster. I spent 3 years of my life closed in my room, I didn't want to leave my room at all. I would just cry and lie in bed. I was so ready to take my life and I thought that nobody would care because I felt like I was nothing. But you know what? I was wrong. I am not worthless or stupid and, even if nobody loved me (which is not true) I would still be thankful to have my life. A lot of people have serious diseases and they pass away even though they want to live so much and, I want to waste my life and die? I decided that even though my life is never going to be perfect and sometimes I still have those thoughts and I feel like sh*t I will always try live life to the fullest. Things do get better eventually. I went back to school even though I was way older than my classmates and got my diploma with the max. score (I was the best one in my entire school) then I went to university and last year I graduated with the maximum score and with distinction. I did everything on my own and I feel so proud. Stay strong, friends.
giovi655 Wow, what an amazing journey. Stay strong, keep growing and find your purpose (which can shift over time), and I know you will live an amazing life for you and leave your mark on the people around you. And know this, you left a mark on me, Thank you.
The thing is, nobody would care if I killed myself. I have nobody to talk to. My parents died. I go in and out of foster care. I never stay in one house for over 3 months. I'm 16 now and, I went thru a period in my life where I didnt say a word for 4 months. I didnt cry, I didnt get mad, I didnt express my feelings. Life is still hard but I'm starting to make friends and slowly coming out of depression.
The lyric, “if I knew it all then would I do it again? “ she’s talking about fame. Because of the overwhelming negative and positive input from the world that she may not have been as prepared for as she thought. Fame seems glamorous but it is also a very lonely road.
Actually their line of thought kinda makes sense. A person deep in suicidal thoughts doesn't usually think they'll hurt anybody. This is an instinctive thought, our brains are wired that way. When we're mentally sound, we can see relationships clearly and can see them through, because we feel their worth, because we're healthy. When we're healthy, we "feel" the connection. A person with depression does not see that. A person with depression does not see much at all. In the worst cases they're so enveloped in their cocoon of void feelings that living becomes boring, tiresome, and painful. They can't imagine that anything would make them happy because that kind of connection is nowhere to be found. That void is usually then filled with pain and melancholy. "If I knew what they'd say, would I do it again?" A person with depression and enough self awareness, is caught in a game of tug of war where they know they will be missed, but don't quite care enough to feel the pain they would cause by committing suicide. If this was the case with Billie, maybe she was considering suicide at one point, but was aware she would be missed. But she couldn't picture the feeling of being missed. So she didn't know what to do. Hypothetically. I don't know what went on her head back then. I'm not her. Take this with a grain of salt.
I watch a lot of reaction videos on UA-cam, this video was such a greatly handled video. Both the way it was segmented and cut, and how you handle the very sensitive topic of depression. Bravo.
I am a Certified Peer Support Specialist and I love this. It's great to see this communication about emotions and empathy bringing us all together. Not sure how I stumbled across your channel but I'm definitely glad I did!!
I understand it's not the same for everyone but for me I realized the feeling is not so much wanting to die but to shut off. I dont want to feel what I'm feeling. It's like if I had a remote, I would just hit the power button or the volume down on my emotional noise. This perspective has actually helped me tremendously when I get into those feelings. I hope this helps someone process their emotions in a more positive way. It's still hard but I no longer feel the term "suicidal" applies to me and just that sloughing off of such a negative term helps me.
It's good to open the conversation about how we feel, why we feel it, and adventure into interpreting those feelings in a less negative light. We cant help the way we feel and feeling that way shouldnt make us feel worse about ourselves.
If it helps the song and video from what I’ve heard is about how she has dreams a lot most likely fueled by depression where she kills herself and she would always wake up and talk to her brother until she felt safe or a little better.
Mental Health is real... every time I hear this song it triggers emotions of growing up and dealing and feeling under water. I can relate and have faith in hope. Much Love ❤️
Thank you so much for this video. It was so great to see two regular grown men talking about depression, suicidal ideation and mental illness. We need more of this kind of conversation and honesty.
As someone who deals with suicidal ideation and depression- hearing y’all have a candid, vulnerable conversation about it means so much more than you could ever know. Thank you for sharing yourself with us. I see you. I appreciate you.
Billy speaks to me on so many levels, from the first song I heard to this one. I think it's amazing that you're being so open and emotional. It shows great strength. I hope your dark thoughts will leave you one day and that you can see that every life on this planet is precious, yours included. Stay strong and keep fighting.
"if i knew it all then would i do it again would i do it again? if they knew what they said would go straight to my head what would they say instead?" i think the song talks a lot about the big pressure that comes with fame. the first act of the song speaks on billie's personal dream she had where she jumped off the golden gate bridge and no one cared. people even said bad things about her. she woke up and found finneas to comfort her. the second act she realized she is alive and sometimes it's a lot like a nightmare. being famous comes with expectations and demands. she had one of her worst years after having achieved said fame and has mentioned before that she wondered many times how she made it through. at the end, she recognizes herself in her present. and she thinks to herself, had she known being successful came with all of this baggage and having to experience these dark thoughts, would she still choose to continue the path? and if people knew how much their words hurt her, would they have said anything different? a just a thought. been thinking about this song a lot.
I think it speaks about suicide itself. Like if u knew it would be like this would u change something. If people knew that they words might be reason that someone commited suicide would they say those words?
@@patriciabasurto9502 I'm so sorry... thinking of you, your family, and everyone who has gone through what you have. I can't imagine... please stay strong. Love to you
The honesty in your reaction shows amazing vulnerability and strength. I hope you continue to fight the battle and never give in. I can see from the relationship the two of you have how very missed you would be missed. You are loved. Take care.
I was incredibly moved by your deep, genuine and intelligent insights and reaction. Those of us who suffer from depression can actually find solace in her spirit and honesty. She's helping a lot of people who are struggling with these issues. I'm touched by you both and the love and support you so tenderly show each other. Beautiful souls. 💜💜💜
my heart aches and goes out to everyone suffering with depression & suicidal thoughts. you're all so precious, it's unfair that yall are suffering from this. ❤
She said in an interview that her brother came up with that line because the meaning of the song is that in a dream she killed herself and no one cared. But her brother told her that and came up with the line to tell her that he loves her so very much
I have struggled with depression since I was 12. I also have anxiety and it can be extremely hard and frustrating. This song has helped me and makes me feel better after listening to it. It's a reminder that we are not alone in these thoughts and feelings. I know being a man it must be very hard because a lot of people see depression as weakness and society has a lot of us believing that men can't show their emotions. I truly think that's bull crap. We are all human with feelings and have the right to express them. Always know that you are never alone and someone always cares even if it may feel like no one does. Stay strong my friend.
Depression’s so hard to explain, seems like everyone who’s gone through it understands eachother (including me), stay strong, stay happy, positive thoughts, love urself along with the people around u! i love everyone one here!
Love how open and honest you are in your reactions. Music can be so powerful. I know it really helps me when i'm in a dark place. Sending positivity to everyone.
This video was very deep and touching. Something I have learned through my years on this earth is that just talking about the way I feel allows me to get to the bottom of things. Whether that is a five-minute chat or a 10-hour chat. Feel better guys!
I'm also from Montana. Its awesome to see you guys on here talking about depression and suicide. Yall are the real MVP's here. I'm in mental health therapy for my depression and my past. Thank you for speaking about this
I watched a video where Billy said that her brother said to her “I’m going to make you famous” and they then recorded the whole album in their family home in the bedroom. I saw that as his way of showing that she can help others with her experiences and feelings and to prove to her that everyone would notice if she did something like that ❤️
We need more people like those of us, who speak out and say we’ve been there and we get it. It’s ok to be vulnerable and to ask for help, and it’s high time the world starts listening!! Thank you for letting people in to what you’ve been going through, and please know you’re never alone! Any of you who may be struggling.... I’ve been there, I get it completely!!! ❤️
I cant stop crying!!!! I found her (Billie) a couple months back shes amazing and I take her lyrics to heart and everything you said is exactly how i feel almost all my life. :,(
I lost one of my best friends to suicide and didn't even know she was going through pain. Sometimes we have to reach out ourselves and ask our loved ones if they are okay, even if they seem that they are 💔❤ communicate always. Judge never. Love always ❤ thank you for this guys 🤙
God, this reaction made me cry so hard. I’ve also felt that alone and like nobody would notice if I were gone. But I’ve also had enough experience losing people to suicide to know how wrong that is. I’m so glad you guys are talking about this openly, because I’m convinced that’s the key to surviving it: knowing you’re not alone.
For anyone who needs to read this: Every person has his ups and downs and please, don't ever understimate you or don't think that you don't matter for anyone. Fill your life with REAL friends and do what you like and you'll start to feel better! Hugs
It’s so refreshing seeing these two seemingly “manly” men having such an open conversation about their feelings and this topic. This song and music video made me cry as well- depression and suicidal thoughts are two things I wouldn’t wish upon anyone, even my worst enemy (which is me lmao). I hope you find peace man 🖤 5:53 so true man
she said she’s happy now in an interview and when someone who’s been depressed af, they mean it. it takes such a long time to get to that point of happiness. it’s all you want. i was going through a depressive episode for a few months abd now recently started being *happy* and it’s great.
By both of you being honest about depression and how it could go, allows us as the viewer to not feel alone in this world. You will save lives because of this. I loved this song and never watched the video until now. Thank you for posting.
This song hit me hard when I first heard it and really listened to the lyrics. I've had dark thoughts in the past but I was able to drag myself back after spiraling into those dark places. Reminding yourself that you matter when everything seems to be out of control... That the feeling of hopelessness will end and things will be better tomorrow. There should always be a tomorrow.
I have been there myself, when I was coming out mostly! Got through it, I believe it was my late sister who helped me. I couldn't help but remembering what my sisters death from cancer did to my parents! I couldnt do that to them again! Just remember, suicide doesn't end pain , it just passes it on to someone else, (those that you love the most)! Thanks for sharing!
She talks about how she got worse when she became famous, how she would go on tour she would be left behind from her friends when she got back. I think she was talking about the fame, and would she deal with the fame as a trade off of depression and suicidal thoughts.
This song is so simplistically stunning. When you said you had your first suicidal thought when you were 5, I didn't even register my tears. How scary. No body can run from their own mind. Sometimes you just have to trust that one day you will find peace. I have, and am stronger for it, I wish the same for you.
Russ and Chris...I can really feel a deep and unconditional bond between you both! As a person that suffers from depression, it is SO important that you have a loving, caring and understanding person in your life that GETS what you are going through!!! It takes a split second to act on your suicidal thoughts and as you mentioned, it would take away your pain away but, cause the people who love you, SO much grief! I am a huge fan of Billie and Finneas' music! Thank you, Russ and Chris for your narrative and sharing...it takes courage! xoxo
I have never had this issue but my daughter does and it is so hard to watch when I want to keep all Pain away but I cannot! Billie makes it easier to understand!
“if i knew it all then would i do it again” i always heard this line as, if billie knew how fame would change her life, would she still choose this life path, or would she decide that the negatives outweigh the positives and it isn’t worth it. i never saw it how you all see it. all the different interpretations of her lyrics is one of the most power parts of billie’s music. another great line that i love is “if they knew what they said would go straight to my head what would they say instead?” one major cause of suicide is due to bullying. i think that billie wrote this more geared at what the general public has to say about her, but this line can be applied in so many ways. i would love to hear your thoughts on it!
When I was 15 I attempted suicide by overdose twice. I’ve been through hell all throughout my life. Now I’m 18 and I’m doing better, but I definitely still have my moments. I can’t say that it goes away or gets “easier” but I can feel you that you do find ways of dealing with your thoughts/emotions. It’s been hard, and I’m far from perfect, but I’m okay with that now. I hope you find strength to keep pushing forward through this hard time. Please don’t ever do what I did. When I attempted it hurt so many people and I’m still dealing with those consequences to this day. I wish I could take it all back but it’s a part of who I am. Just know that you have so many people who care about you, even if you haven’t met. Stay strong. You’ve got this :)
The biggest struggle is to understand that it is ok to not be ok, and to seek help if you need it. There are people who can help you and I hope you reach out to them to get help.
I think when she drives into the water with her brother it shows how when someone takes their own life it also brings those closest to them down with them
Wow, that's so true
Also how hes there with her no matter what - to the end.
Wow....🤯 beautifully said ❤️
Sheesh, heavy af.
wow I cant believe how this is so true.
“I had my first suicidal thought at 5 years old. Maybe it’s just part of my DNA” that hit me so hard. I can’t believe I’ve finally found someone else who has felt like this their whole life.
I have too. I've got BPD from childhood abandonment issues and I've never felt like being here.
I'm sending you lots of love and virtual hugs.
I really felt that part and it brought tears to my eyes...
Me too, since I was 10-12, maybe before. I also wonder about the DNA, genes or just a habit that I've got so used to that I could never get rid of. I know I will always have them.
Hilla Sinkkonen same.
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Lots of love and hugs to everyone that needs it right now.
Thank you 🙂
Renzo Mauricio Chavez thank you 🥺
thanks men
@@imtatianapellegrini Are you ok Tatiana?
Thank you 🥺
This video is everything. Finally two grown men who aren’t afraid to open up over a piece of music and connect to there audience in such a genuine way. I became a huge fan from this video.
💯 me too!
Idk why y’all popped up on my recommendations, but I’m not disappointed. Not even a little.
Same!
same
Same here
Same
I’ve been watching LG, maybe that’s why. Mental health, stop the stigma. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
The struggle is real. We all combat our darkness. . . love to you both.
You guys are setting an amazing example of what it means to be a “real man”. Thank you!
Excellent point! Real men, indeed! ♥️
Beautiful comment ❤️
What?
My head is spinning.... What real men...
Like overly emotional who donot brace up to life but let their hearts control every decisions..... No, I like my concrete manliness that braces my girl during her times of emotions
Micheal Okpara nobody ask
Billie is scared of water, when they go down, she doesn’t panic because her brother is here with and for her
Edit: I wasn't expecting this to blow up this much. My comment was meant as an explanation on the video and on why Billie stays so calm as they drown. It was not intended as an analogy of the song and its meaning, more how song links to video. Hope this clarifies a few things.
I see it more as she's drowning in her own emotions but as long as he's there she will get through it with him
Afraid of water, but swims a lot when on vacation, interesting
@@vladimirjeger just because you are afraid of water doesnt mean that you dont enjoy taking a swim..
@@nickj4785 uhm, yeah it means exactly that .... all people i know afraid of water doesnt know how to swim and rarely gets in the water on beaches higher that the hips
Vladimir Jeger like the ocean dude
It is so refreshing to see men talking about their emotions and feelings in a natural, HUMAN way, even just about a song! Bravo, guys! I hope you inspire others to feel like they can open up like this.
This guy in the plaid shirt really affects me. I can feel his pain. I wish I could take it away.
Awe man me too
Dillon (the guy) talked about his own struggles with depression sometimes. I think it's just a part of him now but hopefully working through it every day especially with Chris (the other guy)
Me too, I wish I could take it all away. It's very hard though. People that feel like this has to want to be help and believe that someone would miss them and feel terrible if they died.
They fought over writing this song, Fineas didn’t want to help her write a song about killing herself, but b/c of how close they are, he did and put in those parts of Hope/Support.
Maybe sad songs help you feel better because you can experience someone else processing these feelings and emotions and it lets you know there’s a way to do so. You can see someone finding their way and you can too.
not just this song he noticed that most of her songs have this sadness in it and in all reality she's been reflecting her real thoughts and feeling into her music . so that's why he told her she needs to stop
did he tell u that ?
iiAMnina her mom and brother didn’t want her to and he didn’t want to but when she explained that this is how she gets these feelings out without actually causing herself harm they came around to the idea as this her way of dealing with those emotions. And yeah finneas added the parts about being there for her and helping her
If you see in bury a friend she says " I wanna end me" she admitted that she was talking about herself and that she was su*cidal
The part she says "I tried to scream, but my head was under water" means exactly when you can't comunicate your feelings, whats you've been through, struggling bad thoughts... Have ever anyone tried to say something underwater? it's like ther's no voice, no sound...and no one can notice your changes, behavior... This is my favorite song of her... Because it's deep, emotional...
Did she say that in the interview
Did she say that in the interview
Especially when you're choking with your own tears :/ you can't say a word
I love how Billie uses the drowning metaphor...it feels like you’re at the bottom of a deep, dark hole and can’t make out the light above you. You know it’s there, but it just feels far and like unreachable. You sink down into your depression. It often requires someone to pull you out, but if you can’t speak of it, how will anybody know? Thankfully, she has a brother. Many of us do not.
@@smartmarketing173 or even If the person has a brother or sister It doesn't mean he or she is your partner, is there for you... Like he is to Billie.
I don’t even know how I stumbled across this video, I’ve never seen the two of you before. But as I watched this and listen to two men talk about and show their feelings I though to myself, how different would my life be if I had had male figures that opened up like that to me at some point? I’m literally sitting her tears streaming down my face with the realization that there are men that can act human and explore the feelings they have and talk openly about it AND hear someone else’s feelings and actually listen and receive. Maybe some day I’ll experience that, what a powerful and fulfilling experience that would be. Thank you.
I know!!! I cried too!!!😭😭😭💗💗💗
Same... I hope you have good day 👍
I subscribed within the first couple of minutes as they really struck a chord just how open and honest they are x
I'm sorry that you've been hurt. Some people are just so incapable of overcoming their own hurt and brokenness they don't see how they themselves are hurting others around them. There are caring humans in this world and there are wretched humans. You are not alone, you not invisible. Sending a big hug.
Hurt people, hurt people. You might have to think about it for a little bit, but it does make sense.
“I think everybody should get rich and famous and do everything they ever dreamed of so they can see that it's not the answer.”
― Jim Carrey
Jackie Burhans wow🥺
This is partially true. It’s better to be rich and miserable, than miserable and poor.
You could still be rich and famous and still have the suicidal thoughts. Being rich and famous doesn't solve anything.
Tania Aitogi yeah but i would rather be depressed in a ferrari than in a pontiac aztec
Whatever. Money would solve 99.999% of my issues.
If someone is having suicidal thoughts or you’re in a situation where someone is about to take action to end their life, please remember not to ask them “what about your family and friends?” “what about your kids?” etc. This doesn’t help. All it does is make them feel debilitating guilt and it won’t help. Try to use other things like “Hey, you still haven’t been to Japan, you’ve always wanted to go there” or “You haven’t seen this band play live yet, they’re so good and you’ll love them”. This reinforces that there is so much more to do. Make it about them. Just a bit of advice for those wanting to help out.
Thank you for posting this. It is wise, compassionate, and accurate.
This is so smart
That part about debilitating gilt. So true! In some cases it may stop an instant, but if a person has guilt that just compounds it just pushes you down the same rabbit hole, often times worst.
This is so true it hurts. In my experience that kind of guilt did reliably stop me from killing myself for a while but it also escalated my self-harming and suicidal ideation so I eventually tried and was hospitalized.
@@dawngrrrl I hope you’re doing better now, sending you all my love!
No judgment here, just hugs from someone who understands. *huge hugs*
Thank you, i felt this🙂😢
Same here 💛💛💛💛💛
And people say she is "untalented" "cant sing" "cant write music" Far from the truth!
@M 40 true
It’s just the classic thing people do. Undermine someone else because they want to feel “special” or different from others. It’s like “Wow look at me I don’t like this person that many other people like therefore the artist is bad and I’m so cool!”
They are both immensely talented.
God she’s SO unbelievably talented and it breaks my heart to heart her criticize herself before like every live performance on UA-cam. It’s so wild how ppl can see themselves in the opposite light of how others do. She’s got so much to offer & made such an impact on this world. I truly hope she does not feel this way
show me someone that says this and you'll show me no one
"If I knew it all would I do it again" I think shes talking about if she knew how her career would turn out and how people would react or treat her, would she do it again.
I agree. If she knew this path and the sometimes dark and isolated periods of it, would she do it again. She has talked at length about being unable to have a normal life and not knowing who her friends are.
Yeah she even said that is what it's about. Don't know where I read it though... She also mentioned that she wasn't really trying to become famous but Ocean Eyes blew up and from there it all went really quick. It all took her by surprise and she could not anticipate what and how big she became "overnight". She really struggled with her succes in the beginning but now she is in a good place. This song was written a while back (most of it on her tour in Germany she said). Lots of love to everyone who feels alone and overwhelmed
Exactly!
The whole song to me has a double meaning. One all about her success and how it felt scary... litterally driving straight into the ocean (ocean eyes) and then the other about dreaming she comitted suicide
I took it as reference to the dream. If she knew how it would all play out , if she knew what that feeling of jumping off the bridge/killing herself was like, would she do it again?
Without fail every time I hear the line “as long as I’m here no one can hurt you” it makes me tear up, and wanna cry.
came here by accident, but stayed for that amazing convo. respect my dudes. keep on pushin through
I wish my little brother knew how much I loved him. That he would of known that I saw him just like Finneas does Billie. I love this song so much, but I burst into tears every time I hear it. I lost my brother to suicide almost 25 years ago and it’s still the deepest hurt I’ve ever felt. I still miss him so much and I would do anything to be able to go back and try to save him, even though I probably couldn’t of. He had his mind made up and none of us realized it. He came and spent the weekend with us all. I had just recently had my daughter and he came to meet her and the whole family came together for that. He held her, we got pics of it and he promised he’d look after her and that he loved her so much. He hugged me so tight before he left and a few days later I got the call...he was gone. My husband had also walked out on me the day before so I was a mess already from that. I actually was so devastated that I thought about ending everything myself, but I knew I couldn’t leave my daughter by herself. Not long after everything settled down, we had a house fire that was most likely arson, but no one could prove it. My daughter and I should of died, the beds we were in were burnt to just the metal frames left. Somehow I woke up and got us out of there. I know he must of saved us because her comforter was tucked under the top of the mattress all the way around so she was completely covered and didn’t get any smoke inhalation like I did. She was a preemie, so it saved her life. I’m so glad you guys reacted to this.
I'm terribly sorry to hear about your brother's passing. And I'm glad you and your daughter are okay. 💜 I'm a single mom too and I know how hard it can be. I know the loss of your brother pains you everyday, but I truly hope it gets easier with time. I'm sending you the biggest hug! Stay strong because that precious girl needs you!
Wow, you’ve really been through a lot. You are a super strong woman to go through all of that and still be here to tell your story. Thank you for sharing, your story gives me strength to help me get through my trials.❤️❤️❤️
Miss Faith Thank you so much! That really means a lot. We moms need to stick together and stick up for each other.
Jennifer Ropp I’m so glad this helped you. I was watching the video and listening to Chris & Dillion and next thing I know I’m spilling my guts. I kinda needed to I guess. Thank you for the sweet reply, it really means a lot.
So sorry for the loss of your brother and everything you've been through. I hope life smiles on you now.
I really hope you feel better soon and that the "situation" you refer to clears up. Hugs from Sweden.
Svedennn
I didn’t expect this type of conversation when I clicked on the video. Thank you for opening up on such a sensitive topic. Bless
I lost my best friend to suicide in December. She loved Billie.. This song was released not long before she left me. I struggle to listen to it now because the words really resonate with me! I'm slowly healing but it will take a long time to come to terms with what happened to her. Before she died she bought us tickets to go and see Billie in the UK.. It was cancelled because of coronavirus but I'll still be going once a new date is set. She will still be there with me in her own way ❤️
😔☹️😨 OMG,I'm so sorry to know that.
Its really sad, it must have been hard for u to listen. Well definitely u should go ,whenever u get new dates for concert and maybe u can save that ticket she bought for u.
I'm so sorry that happened T-T
I just lost 2 friends to suicide. Within 3 weeks of each other...🤷🏼♀️😔
@@lydiagrey thank you, I appreciate that ❤️ I'll definitely still go, it's what she would have wanted 😊
@@bonthebunnycat667 me too, I miss her so much. She was the purest person I've ever met!
The first time he paused it I started crying the things he said were so dark and deep anyone else did too or just me?
Me too.
Weeping
A lot of us here
This was my absolute favorite reaction to this song. A lot of people skip past most of the lyrics and dont get the full picture and emotion from it. She wrote this song about a dream she had where she jumped off the golden gate bridge and no one cared but when she woke up she told her brother and he comforted her. Love this video. 💕
Finneas wanted no part in this song for the longest. They fought about it. Until the line, "As long as I'm here
No one can hurt you
Don't wanna lie here
But you can learn to
If I could change
The way that you see yourself
You wouldn't wonder why you hear They don't deserve you".
“Listening to sad songs makes me feel better.” I completely agree. At moments when I listen to a sad song and the lyrics it feels amazing that someone is going through what I’m going through, that I’m not alone. I’ll even sing along as if to let what I’m feeling out, I might end up crying but it’s okay, and then I just feel better like everything will be okay.
I listen to sad songs when I have to be in the hospital because it helps me deal with the fact that I can't be at home with my family. It helps me feel and process the emotions in a healthy way. I don't know what I would do if I didn't have sad music when I'm sad.
Exactly ❤🤗
Couldn’t have expressed it any better ❤️
I was in a group therapy,when I lived in SF. In this group was one of the rare survivors from Jumping off the Golden Gate.
Larry Lawayne please don’t. Please 💙
Both of you guys are loved. You are precious. We need you here, okay! Whatever you are going through, you will make it. I am so proud of you. Push through because the storm will fade. All love
Larry Lawayne just don’t. i know life is shitty sometimes (or most of the time) but you can do it.
Larry Lawayne don’t do it u matter & we can stay strong together
Larry Lawayne You are loved more than you know. You are worthy and strong. Please don’t do it. Please talk to someone or just talk to us here! We care. I never comment on here but feel compelled to reach out. Much love to you. ❤️
The subtle detail of the Everything I want piano in the background them talking
My partner killed himself he left me and his son and he transfered all his pain onto me being left behind after a suicide is so so hard i then couldnt process which led to my own attemps on my life i spent a good 15 years slowly killing myself thankfully i can say maturing helped me as i came into my 40s i realising how beautiful life is and how much i do wanna live. I PRAY and hope you all find your peace.. IT DOES COME ❤️
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My first love killed their selves too. It took me 20 years to move on
I love u he was selfish to hurt u leave u in.pain...he was loved..u are loved by me...
I’m sorry for your loss. That is my biggest fear, my boyfriend who I have a daughter with has tried to kill him self multiple times, I’ve literally had to physically stop him one time and beg on my knees for him to stay. It’s so hard. My heart goes out to you and your son❤️
stay strong💘
“Suicide doesn’t end your pain, it just passes it on to someone else.” Break the cycle, as painful as it is. Maybe we will end up saving someone in our situation if you keep fighting and talking about our experiences in life. If anyone needs me or needs to talk I am here 💜
Mic Quinn I 100% agree. The storm will eventually fade, but you just got to push through. You are an amazing person for looking out for others. God bless
That’s such a profound statement!
So you're passing blame to the person who committed for the hurt the survivors feel. Nice.
Amy Fulton I’m literally just sharing what quote I found that helped me when I was going through some of the hardest times of my life. I apologize you take it the way you did and in such a negative way, you must truly be going through some stuff in your personal life to go out of your way to try to guilt someone you don’t even know and their experience. I’ll keep you in my prayers that whatever is out there brings peace to your sour heart. This quote is meant to be viewed philosophically and can mean a thousand different things depending on the mind that views them. To me I believe in reincarnation and to me it means if you want to break the cycle and not have to deal with trial by fire in the next life you have to keep going. To you it may reflect guilting or whatever you may claim but that isn’t the case for the vast majority. I’m here for you if you need to talk to get over whatever you may be going through! 💜
Arjan Singh I’m sorry I didn’t see this sooner!! I’m here if you need anything as well!! Thank you for being so kind 💜 god bless, have an amazing weekend my friend!
"listen before i go" on "WHEN WE ALL FALL ASLEEP, WHERE DO WE GO?" was also about suicide.
Such a sad song
It was her suicide note literally
@@1nfantasy1trust Yep
isn’t when “we all fall asleep where do we go?” about sleep paralysis???
@@delfinagou2404 Half of it but the other half is about suicidal thoughts and stuff.
How refreshing to see two very masculine looking men showing their emotions and talking about them! Thank you so much, for being so real. I think you guys could touch a wide genre of people. Continue please. Much love. Peace!
“Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem”
like everything else in life, it to will pass.
Seriously this is such a dumb quote, people who repeat it like parrots only show that they have no idea 😂 "A permanent solution" yeah who wouldn't want a permanent solution to their problem? It also confirms that it's indeed a solution. "A temporary problem" what if the problem isn't temporary? Some have to suffer their whole life. This is just another one of those so called 'smart' things to say, just like "think positive, go out, exercise" etc. Makes me laugh everytime I see people say that.
It's been 29 years......WHEN????!!!!
RZ_SS sorry it offended you, but this quote saved my life the night I had 30 pills ready to be swallowed while I sat on the bathroom floor. Whether or not this quote seems silly to you, it could potentially help someone else, and save their life. Suicide is what suicidal people believe to be the only “solution”. Of course suicide won’t really fix anything. “Temporary” can fluctuate. The mental disorders I have will stay with me for life, but the minuscule issues I face everyday will one day ease. That was my message, not just some “dumb quote”.
The most tone-deaf shit I've ever read. ”You’re dying but give it time” 🥴 there's no WAY in hell anyone who's ever struggled will say, let alone believe this live laugh love bullshit. Like. Wow.
@@RZ_SS I agree with you. My brother had schizophrenia , a brain disease that has no cure.. Sadly he committed suicide, and even though his death took a chunk of my heart, I can understand the reasoning. He just got tired of fighting!
The moment I break in this video is the particular visual of Finneas holding his hand out and Billie taking it, then looking at each other and actually smiling,all in UNISON. It gets me every single time. Truly, love and compassion.
Great reaction and raw emotions, sending all positive vibes your way
Once a doctor explained to me that the difference between having suicidal thoughts and being suicidal is when you start making plans
Well fuck, that doesn't bode well for me, huh
uh oh - I hope you are able to reach out and ask for help and support. I have had suicidal tendencies for many years but it has definitely lessened. Sending love 🧩
Shit.
Oh... ig I am suicidal then.
Oh definitely, a suicidal thought and suicidal ideation are so different. It’s the difference between “I wanna kill myself” and “I’m going to lull myself”. Been through a lot of both but am healing, and I hope anyone with a similar experience is healing too❤️
Billie has helped people through hard times. Reminding them they are not alone. Through depression, night terrors, anxiety, stress, even bad relationships. This is why I love her music. She keeps the emotion in the music. No filter.
Lost my brother Eric to suicide when I was 16; he was just 17. Breaks my heart every day to think of the amazing life he could have had & all the people who didn’t get to know how wonderful he was. Love to EVERYONE out there who needs love and doesn’t have someone who cares. I Care.
I’m so sorry for your loss (idk what else to say about that). And thank you!❤️
thanks for dhating, Stephen Levine is an outstanding resource for people affected by suicide and grief❤❤
I’m sorry for your lose Terri! Thank you!! I care too!! 💖
This made me cry, I’ve been struggling with depression off and on...I’ve been really good mentally until last week...it was a very dark place because I was at the point where I wasn’t scared to die...I’m happy to see these guys discuss depression
I feel you. Hope your doing better. Depression makes me feel like I would not be missed and that the people I hurt by doing it would be better off. It also makes the world and life seem not worth the trouble. Its all an illusion but yet so real. I tell myself that this is temporary and when I do die and not by my own hands that ill have plenty of time to be dead then.
I hope you're feeling better
Life is beautiful. Maybe I'll never meet your in real life, but out here are so many people like you, like me, and who all are thinking that way. However, life is worth every single bit of it. It's worth more than death. I'm glad you are trying, it takes a huge deal of strength .... I'm glad today we are here, and everything will have the sunshine someday
I was eight when I first thought "maybe I shouldn't be here"
This video was so good for me to watch. It made me feel less alone. You guys are amazing. Tight hugs for everyone. ♥️♥️
And a hug back to you!
It’s crazy that Billie has felt like no one would care if she died because even just me all the way from England would not know what I’d do without her I love her so so much
the song was about a dream she had so this happened in her dream
Shes felt like that her whole life
My favorite lyric is "if they knew what they said would go straight to my head what would they said instead" it's feels like another way of saying be careful what you say to people.. you never know how it could effect them.
I've been struggling with depression and suicidal thought since I was 15 (I'm 25 now). I had given up on everything, quit school and would not even leave my house. My family hated me for leaving school, they made me feel like a monster. I spent 3 years of my life closed in my room, I didn't want to leave my room at all. I would just cry and lie in bed. I was so ready to take my life and I thought that nobody would care because I felt like I was nothing. But you know what? I was wrong. I am not worthless or stupid and, even if nobody loved me (which is not true) I would still be thankful to have my life. A lot of people have serious diseases and they pass away even though they want to live so much and, I want to waste my life and die? I decided that even though my life is never going to be perfect and sometimes I still have those thoughts and I feel like sh*t I will always try live life to the fullest. Things do get better eventually.
I went back to school even though I was way older than my classmates and got my diploma with the max. score (I was the best one in my entire school) then I went to university and last year I graduated with the maximum score and with distinction. I did everything on my own and I feel so proud.
Stay strong, friends.
giovi655 Respect
giovi655 Wow, what an amazing journey. Stay strong, keep growing and find your purpose (which can shift over time), and I know you will live an amazing life for you and leave your mark on the people around you. And know this, you left a mark on me, Thank you.
So happy for you,congrats! 👏👏👏
giovi655 omg I’m so proud of you
The thing is, nobody would care if I killed myself. I have nobody to talk to. My parents died. I go in and out of foster care. I never stay in one house for over 3 months. I'm 16 now and, I went thru a period in my life where I didnt say a word for 4 months. I didnt cry, I didnt get mad, I didnt express my feelings. Life is still hard but I'm starting to make friends and slowly coming out of depression.
The lyric, “if I knew it all then would I do it again? “ she’s talking about fame. Because of the overwhelming negative and positive input from the world that she may not have been as prepared for as she thought. Fame seems glamorous but it is also a very lonely road.
Actually their line of thought kinda makes sense.
A person deep in suicidal thoughts doesn't usually think they'll hurt anybody.
This is an instinctive thought, our brains are wired that way. When we're mentally sound, we can see relationships clearly and can see them through, because we feel their worth, because we're healthy. When we're healthy, we "feel" the connection.
A person with depression does not see that. A person with depression does not see much at all. In the worst cases they're so enveloped in their cocoon of void feelings that living becomes boring, tiresome, and painful. They can't imagine that anything would make them happy because that kind of connection is nowhere to be found. That void is usually then filled with pain and melancholy.
"If I knew what they'd say, would I do it again?" A person with depression and enough self awareness, is caught in a game of tug of war where they know they will be missed, but don't quite care enough to feel the pain they would cause by committing suicide. If this was the case with Billie, maybe she was considering suicide at one point, but was aware she would be missed. But she couldn't picture the feeling of being missed. So she didn't know what to do.
Hypothetically. I don't know what went on her head back then. I'm not her. Take this with a grain of salt.
i am 4 years late to this video, but I'm sending a huge hug to both of you and i hope you're both doing well. sending all of my love.
Please guys take care of each other and yourselfs. Energy and good/bad vibes exists and afects us all, no matter the distance. We love you a lot.
I watch a lot of reaction videos on UA-cam, this video was such a greatly handled video. Both the way it was segmented and cut, and how you handle the very sensitive topic of depression. Bravo.
It's so amazing to see a guy especially speak so openly about your struggles with depression. 💖
I am a Certified Peer Support Specialist and I love this. It's great to see this communication about emotions and empathy bringing us all together. Not sure how I stumbled across your channel but I'm definitely glad I did!!
I've lived my life with suicidal thoughts coming and going. This song literally had me crying the moment she starting singing. Wow
Ophelia youre not alone
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@@TheVeevinci thank you 💓💓 sending you good vibes and consenting hugs
Definitely not alone. ♥️
I understand it's not the same for everyone but for me I realized the feeling is not so much wanting to die but to shut off. I dont want to feel what I'm feeling. It's like if I had a remote, I would just hit the power button or the volume down on my emotional noise. This perspective has actually helped me tremendously when I get into those feelings. I hope this helps someone process their emotions in a more positive way. It's still hard but I no longer feel the term "suicidal" applies to me and just that sloughing off of such a negative term helps me.
Tishia Burgess i understand this totally
absolutely! That is exactly it! It's a" I just don't want to be here anymore" feeling.
I have that feeling too. Like I just don’t want to feel the pain anymore, not that I necessarily want to die.
It's good to open the conversation about how we feel, why we feel it, and adventure into interpreting those feelings in a less negative light. We cant help the way we feel and feeling that way shouldnt make us feel worse about ourselves.
I know. My worst is that no one literally notices. And they think that I am just seeking attention and I should stop.
If it helps the song and video from what I’ve heard is about how she has dreams a lot most likely fueled by depression where she kills herself and she would always wake up and talk to her brother until she felt safe or a little better.
Brittany Lee music is always personal interpretation, that’s what makes it magical and healing
How does that help?
Brittany Lee I wish I had someone to talk to like she does with Fineas
Lydia I’m lucky enough to have my mom ❤️❤️❤️
Mental Health is real... every time I hear this song it triggers emotions of growing up and dealing and feeling under water. I can relate and have faith in hope. Much Love ❤️
Thank you so much for this video. It was so great to see two regular grown men talking about depression, suicidal ideation and mental illness. We need more of this kind of conversation and honesty.
As someone who deals with suicidal ideation and depression- hearing y’all have a candid, vulnerable conversation about it means so much more than you could ever know. Thank you for sharing yourself with us. I see you. I appreciate you.
Billy speaks to me on so many levels, from the first song I heard to this one. I think it's amazing that you're being so open and emotional. It shows great strength. I hope your dark thoughts will leave you one day and that you can see that every life on this planet is precious, yours included. Stay strong and keep fighting.
"if i knew it all then
would i do it again
would i do it again?
if they knew what they said
would go straight to my head
what would they say instead?"
i think the song talks a lot about the big pressure that comes with fame. the first act of the song speaks on billie's personal dream she had where she jumped off the golden gate bridge and no one cared. people even said bad things about her. she woke up and found finneas to comfort her.
the second act she realized she is alive and sometimes it's a lot like a nightmare. being famous comes with expectations and demands. she had one of her worst years after having achieved said fame and has mentioned before that she wondered many times how she made it through.
at the end, she recognizes herself in her present. and she thinks to herself, had she known being successful came with all of this baggage and having to experience these dark thoughts, would she still choose to continue the path?
and if people knew how much their words hurt her, would they have said anything different?
a just a thought. been thinking about this song a lot.
I think it speaks about suicide itself. Like if u knew it would be like this would u change something. If people knew that they words might be reason that someone commited suicide would they say those words?
"Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" Best way I've ever heard it described, really resonated and stuck with me
Life's always gonna end in a permanent solution to suffering in one way or another.
John Horan for some people the problem isn’t temporary....
It's not temporary for many people.
I'll try to remember that my depression is only temporary the next time I wake up in a cold sweat looking for my body armor.
You guys are so supportive and thoughtful, it struck me as hard as this dark and emotional song. Thank you for your honesty
It's so important to talk about depression issues. You are for sure inspiring a lot of people!
It never goes away, it’s a life struggle. My son recently ended his life. Billie’s music is how I am surviving with this tremendous loss.💔
I'm deeply sorry 💔 I send you, your son, and family prayers..
Lezze Gonzalez 😥Thank you💔
You've got this, I'm so sorry. Stay strong.
The King Thanks💔
@@patriciabasurto9502 I'm so sorry... thinking of you, your family, and everyone who has gone through what you have. I can't imagine... please stay strong. Love to you
The honesty in your reaction shows amazing vulnerability and strength. I hope you continue to fight the battle and never give in. I can see from the relationship the two of you have how very missed you would be missed. You are loved. Take care.
They are definitely great lyricists but how Billie delivers all the emotions into her singing is also very amazing.
I was incredibly moved by your deep, genuine and intelligent insights and reaction. Those of us who suffer from depression can actually find solace in her spirit and honesty. She's helping a lot of people who are struggling with these issues. I'm touched by you both and the love and support you so tenderly show each other. Beautiful souls. 💜💜💜
Your vulnerability (both of you) is vety refreshing. There's a lot of genuine love between y'all. Good luck with your struggles rooting for you!
my heart aches and goes out to everyone suffering with depression & suicidal thoughts. you're all so precious, it's unfair that yall are suffering from this. ❤
You two take good care of eachother physically and mentally. We all love you and hate to see you hurting.
3:50 “As Lonq As I’m Here No-One Can Hurt You” ...That Part Hits Meh Hard !
Yes or the line ..If I could change the way that you see yourself...So beautiful so real.
She said in an interview that her brother came up with that line because the meaning of the song is that in a dream she killed herself and no one cared. But her brother told her that and came up with the line to tell her that he loves her so very much
I wish i had someone to tell me that...
@@milimorillo5394 I can almost guarantee that someone loves you even if they don't say there is some that will miss you.❤️
Alisa Martin Yeah That’s My Other Favorite One !
I have struggled with depression since I was 12. I also have anxiety and it can be extremely hard and frustrating. This song has helped me and makes me feel better after listening to it. It's a reminder that we are not alone in these thoughts and feelings. I know being a man it must be very hard because a lot of people see depression as weakness and society has a lot of us believing that men can't show their emotions. I truly think that's bull crap. We are all human with feelings and have the right to express them. Always know that you are never alone and someone always cares even if it may feel like no one does. Stay strong my friend.
Thank you for talking about this honestly. I’m tired of everyone judging me and telling me there’s no reason to be sad. 🖤
Depression’s so hard to explain, seems like everyone who’s gone through it understands eachother (including me), stay strong, stay happy, positive thoughts, love urself along with the people around u! i love everyone one here!
Alexis Rivera once someone I know just looked at me and said I know what you’re going through. That’s all but it helped me to know she cared.
Valerie Bays I’ve been on the other end of that, u never know when someone might be experiencing the same thing, ur never alone.
Love how open and honest you are in your reactions. Music can be so powerful. I know it really helps me when i'm in a dark place. Sending positivity to everyone.
This video was very deep and touching. Something I have learned through my years on this earth is that just talking about the way I feel allows me to get to the bottom of things. Whether that is a five-minute chat or a 10-hour chat. Feel better guys!
I'm also from Montana. Its awesome to see you guys on here talking about depression and suicide. Yall are the real MVP's here. I'm in mental health therapy for my depression and my past. Thank you for speaking about this
I watched a video where Billy said that her brother said to her “I’m going to make you famous” and they then recorded the whole album in their family home in the bedroom. I saw that as his way of showing that she can help others with her experiences and feelings and to prove to her that everyone would notice if she did something like that ❤️
“death is a part of life” that's powerful, dude
She has a very Billie Holiday sound to her voice! Just beautiful!
We need more people like those of us, who speak out and say we’ve been there and we get it. It’s ok to be vulnerable and to ask for help, and it’s high time the world starts listening!! Thank you for letting people in to what you’ve been going through, and please know you’re never alone! Any of you who may be struggling.... I’ve been there, I get it completely!!! ❤️
I cant stop crying!!!! I found her (Billie) a couple months back shes amazing and I take her lyrics to heart and everything you said is exactly how i feel almost all my life. :,(
I lost one of my best friends to suicide and didn't even know she was going through pain. Sometimes we have to reach out ourselves and ask our loved ones if they are okay, even if they seem that they are 💔❤ communicate always. Judge never. Love always ❤ thank you for this guys 🤙
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This song is so relatable. Love your reaction. I feel this song has a nostalgic feel to make you think of past things in life.
God, this reaction made me cry so hard. I’ve also felt that alone and like nobody would notice if I were gone. But I’ve also had enough experience losing people to suicide to know how wrong that is. I’m so glad you guys are talking about this openly, because I’m convinced that’s the key to surviving it: knowing you’re not alone.
For anyone who needs to read this:
Every person has his ups and downs and please, don't ever understimate you or don't think that you don't matter for anyone. Fill your life with REAL friends and do what you like and you'll start to feel better! Hugs
And that helps how?
How do I find real friends?
It’s so refreshing seeing these two seemingly “manly” men having such an open conversation about their feelings and this topic. This song and music video made me cry as well- depression and suicidal thoughts are two things I wouldn’t wish upon anyone, even my worst enemy (which is me lmao). I hope you find peace man 🖤
5:53 so true man
This is an incredibly difficult and challenging discussion to have...that needs to be had. Thank you.
Thank you for your openness about your struggles. It's important for people to understand they are not alone!
This song makes me break down crying every single time.
She was so unhappy even just the beginning of 2019...I’m so happy she’s come out of it and learned how to deal with her insane life now ❤️
she said she’s happy now in an interview and when someone who’s been depressed af, they mean it. it takes such a long time to get to that point of happiness. it’s all you want. i was going through a depressive episode for a few months abd now recently started being *happy* and it’s great.
By both of you being honest about depression and how it could go, allows us as the viewer to not feel alone in this world. You will save lives because of this. I loved this song and never watched the video until now. Thank you for posting.
This song hit me hard when I first heard it and really listened to the lyrics. I've had dark thoughts in the past but I was able to drag myself back after spiraling into those dark places. Reminding yourself that you matter when everything seems to be out of control... That the feeling of hopelessness will end and things will be better tomorrow. There should always be a tomorrow.
I have been there myself, when I was coming out mostly! Got through it, I believe it was my late sister who helped me. I couldn't help but remembering what my sisters death from cancer did to my parents! I couldnt do that to them again! Just remember, suicide doesn't end pain , it just passes it on to someone else, (those that you love the most)! Thanks for sharing!
She talks about how she got worse when she became famous, how she would go on tour she would be left behind from her friends when she got back. I think she was talking about the fame, and would she deal with the fame as a trade off of depression and suicidal thoughts.
The song hit home on a lot of points that are going on with my family
This song is so simplistically stunning. When you said you had your first suicidal thought when you were 5, I didn't even register my tears. How scary. No body can run from their own mind. Sometimes you just have to trust that one day you will find peace. I have, and am stronger for it, I wish the same for you.
Russ and Chris...I can really feel a deep and unconditional bond between you both! As a person that suffers from depression, it is SO important that you have a loving, caring and understanding person in your life that GETS what you are going through!!! It takes a split second to act on your suicidal thoughts and as you mentioned, it would take away your pain away but, cause the people who love you, SO much grief!
I am a huge fan of Billie and Finneas' music! Thank you, Russ and Chris for your narrative and sharing...it takes courage!
xoxo
I have never had this issue but my daughter does and it is so hard to watch when I want to keep all Pain away but I cannot! Billie makes it easier to understand!
“if i knew it all then would i do it again” i always heard this line as, if billie knew how fame would change her life, would she still choose this life path, or would she decide that the negatives outweigh the positives and it isn’t worth it. i never saw it how you all see it. all the different interpretations of her lyrics is one of the most power parts of billie’s music.
another great line that i love is “if they knew what they said would go straight to my head what would they say instead?” one major cause of suicide is due to bullying. i think that billie wrote this more geared at what the general public has to say about her, but this line can be applied in so many ways. i would love to hear your thoughts on it!
When I was 15 I attempted suicide by overdose twice. I’ve been through hell all throughout my life. Now I’m 18 and I’m doing better, but I definitely still have my moments. I can’t say that it goes away or gets “easier” but I can feel you that you do find ways of dealing with your thoughts/emotions. It’s been hard, and I’m far from perfect, but I’m okay with that now. I hope you find strength to keep pushing forward through this hard time. Please don’t ever do what I did. When I attempted it hurt so many people and I’m still dealing with those consequences to this day. I wish I could take it all back but it’s a part of who I am. Just know that you have so many people who care about you, even if you haven’t met. Stay strong. You’ve got this :)
Why did you that...... i did that to
I am glad you are here and that you have come up from the darkness.
LeAnna Johnson awww I’m glad you’re better now. ❤️
I’m verry happy you are better now. I’m sending my Love to you. We all are with you❤️
Love you guys. My husband and I both love your videos. He is 30 yrs my Jr. we live on a homestead in Kansas
The biggest struggle is to understand that it is ok to not be ok, and to seek help if you need it. There are people who can help you and I hope you reach out to them to get help.