I gotta stop myself from thinking like this I wanna kill the demons telling secrets I know they're not for real, but I believe 'em The more I feed my fears, the more I see them I didn't know that I was so convincing 'Till I was buying into what my brain was selling I have to put a halt on what is circling Before it's way too late and I am melting (melt, melt, melt) [Verse 2] I'm crawling out my skin and I feel sticky There's a ton of reasons why I should be fine I'm solid in my bones, just need some tuning I've gotta get it together to save my life I've drifted farther than you can imagine But I'll come back if and when the moment's right (right) There's little I remember from my journey (journey) I've metaphorically blacked out too many times [Outro] I woke up in a pool of sweat Nailed down with my hand on my chest Now I know not to mess with my head Treat my life with love and respect All we are is all we are All we are is all we are
I cried at the end. This was too meaningful. Everyone can give it the meaning they want, but to me was like she's goin' through a depersonalization process, which is hard. At the end is like she's looking herself hurt; the inocent and caring part cries and the other just suffer and struggle with the other.
I've been wondering if Elohim was part of a psyops program. Her newest video has a lot of left-eye imagery, plus cracked mirrors. This one seems as though it's straight up saying that she was psy-opped. Sad :-/
What the fuck this is so haunting It's like other version of hallucinating. There it was a more positive surreal tone, now it's a much more negative surreal tone. So amazing El and all the people involved in the video 💕
I just saw Elohim at a concert and knew nothing about her. But wow, one of my fav new artists. Its kinda funny that I just started taking xanax and had a panic attack just trying to get to that concert. All of her songs do a great job being relatable to what it's like dealing with varying mental illnesses. It's nice to see someone use their struggles and turn it into something productive. I don't know know what her intended message was behind this video, but this is how I interpreted it to my own situation. I view Elohim as anxiety/depression/whatever you want to put to it and the little girl is her. The relationship between the two starts out slow. The girl isn't that concerned yet because your mental illness doesn't just happen over night. Then shes suddenly crying and screaming so maybe some major trauma happened. She acknowledges that the illness is happening and wants to stop it before it's too late. The controlled dancing starts and shes taken for a ride at the mercy of her illness. Now shes attempting to break free and justify to herself why everything should be ok, while also talking about drifting back into whatever has a hold on her. This most likely isn't her first attempt at escaping. Picking up the pace and making a dash for it now, but only ever being allowed a small freedom before being dragged back. This is the interesting part to me because after attempting to run so many times she turns to embrace and rest on the shoulders of Elohim. They even hold hands. She's too tired to fight it anymore and the relationship is now one almost like Stockholm Syndrome. The ending is self reflection and realizing all the damage that's still being done to her. Most likely the cycle will start again. After years of depression and pills I've tried I have to say that monitoring your thinking is by far the hardest, but one of the most important parts of dealing with mental illness. Your brain is incredibly powerful by thoughts alone.
This is so beautiful. For me, I see this as the little girl is also the adult. And the struggle we have with one's self, reckoning with those struggles.
your music is making me feel understood im breaking down right now in an exposed way. im on disability for paranoid schizophrenia, PTSD, schizotypal, agoraphobia, self harm addiction and other stuff. thank you for sharing your struggle. it really does touch people, i hope you're really proud, you are so brave. thank you so much. 😰
I've listened to this song on a number of occasions and have finally got to watch the video. It is so overwhelmingly powerful and has sent my head into a spiral. I love it, I love all of your music. It's all really been helping keep me grounded these last couple of weeks. I'm only sad I didn't find your music sooner.
I feel like I am in the video as I really find myself in this emotions as a child. And I think I know exactly what this is about and thank you for that
I feel like she’s symbolizing the battle with her childhood trauma. That’s what I’m taking from it. I’m literally in tears. This is haunting and well done.
This and 'Hallucinating', too many parallels to my real life. My jaw dropped at the end and I only realized I had to close my mouth when the song was over.
I love reading everyone else’s theories behind the meaning of this video so I will share mine :) I think the child symbolizes her innocence and elohim symbolizes anxiety/mental illness. The way the child is manipulated by el to dance a certain way (to behave a certain way) is how your mental health can make you do things you don’t want to do and aren’t comfortable with doing..In the ending scene, how the child forces el’s arms around her is kinda like the fear of seeking treatment/help, it’s so scary imagining opening up to someone and changing so much, you just kinda want try and find comfort and a way of living with this thing that’s been yours for so long. when the child pulls away with blood smeared across her face I see it as the awakening-the realizing you need help and realizing your mental illness isn’t who you are. again this is just a summary of how I interpret this video that I just love soo much. thanks el, for making magic 💜
I believe this is symbolic of abuse, and the effects it has on you for the rest of your life, and it couldn’t be more accurate. Elohim is truly an artist.
So much detail in this remarkable video. Especially in the beginning and end. So many ways someone can interpret this video. 😘 Well done 💖💖💖💖💖💖 I fucking love videos that have deep meaning behind them.
This sums up my history with OCD and the struggle I still experience to be okay. The child in the video with her is like my own inner child and the person I was back then intermingling with myself now. Obviously, this is my own interpretation not trying to speak for her just sharing my experience with this piece of art
To me this is about growing up with a mentally ill parent. The child wants to understand the parent and ends up bending over backwards to accommodate/avoid the mother's issues while struggling to find who she wants to be outside of what her is and tunes her to become. At the end, the child finds out how to avoid the mother's illness by moving along with her and eventually even tries to help stabilize the mother, realising she can influence her parent too, sadly at the end she realises that her mother cannot be changed and unless she distances herself, she will continue to be hurt
It makes the most sense to me when interpreted as follows. The girl is the narrator and the woman represents her eating disorder. In the beginning, The girl runs to ED for comfort, security, and protection (laying together at 0:16, holding her hand at 1:39). But as time goes on, it starts to control her (1:52 when the woman moves her arms and jerks her around). Feeling controlled is a common experience for ED sufferers. When she tries to escape, it chases her down (2:50) - a nod to the addictive nature of disorders, as behaviors can't be quit cleanly or easily. Alternatively you could also see the running scene as a more literal thing, eating disorders can drive people to over-exercise. Despite the abuse, she returns to ED because she has such a strong emotional bond (2:47), but it doesn't love her, she has to manipulate it into loving her. She thinks she's finally made peace with it (choreography at 4:09), that she can coexist with the disorder but still be happy/healthy - she's in a state of denial, she loves her habit too much. When she finally realizes that her ED is destroying her, she pulls away, no longer able to deny that it's an abusive entity, and you can see the feelings of betrayal and conflict in her eyes (4:19, incredible acting for the record). But still, recovery is hard, and it takes one hell of a fight (4:49) to be free from an eating disorder . Now, this could also be applied to another disorder - addiction, anxiety, compulsions. But I relate it to ED because of the title and because, to be honest, this is exactly how I would portray my personal struggles with ED. like, it's extremely accurate. The complicated love/hate dynamic, turning to it for both comfort and punishment, and the fight to leave/escape. And the lyrics sound like the physical symptoms - "the more I feed my fears the more i see them", "blacked out too many times", "woke up in a pool of sweat", "i'm solid in my bones, just need some tuning", "i've gotta get it together to save my life", "nailed down with my hand on my chest"
Omg, I felt the exact same way about everything, also the screen as a representation of the media so stuck on her head, I've struggled both with anorexia and bulimia, and this video spoke to me in a lot of levels, I literally cannot stop crying, also I think that I'm having a relapse and this made me felt not so alone, it's really a piece of art.
I'm not one to comment usually, but this was a forced youtube advert on a playlist song I play daily, and after 2 minutes I was like, wait this isn't my mix but its insane. Obviously favourited that!
I interpret this as a take on pure ocd and anxiety. the child is a positive emotion or memory and the older girl is the ‘demons’ and the ending where Elohim smears blood on the girl shows that the happy part of her is being tainted and ruined, because the mental illness is making everything seem dark and twisted
youtube recommended you to me, and i've never been happier with their recommendations. you're super relatable at least to me, im so hooked on you, im having a marathon through your channel
This really is far too relatable. Waking up in the pool of sweat, fighting inner demons. This is legit me in a nutshell...: unfortunately. I can't say night terrors are a plus side to me. Great music!
Is it about child abuse? I mean.. The ending kinda gives it away. Anyhoo great track, and if it is about child abuse. Great message, keep up the good work. If u actually are Elohim. I f ur not then this is just kinda awkward.
Interesting theory! I found this song around a month and a half ago, and came up with my own conclusion that the song was actually about the life of someone with an eating disorder. "the more I feed my fears, the more I see them" (an anorexic person stops eating due to fear of gaining weight) "I've metaphorically blacked out too many times" (The person starts having dizzy spells or just flat-out fainting. At this point, they are malnourished that it becomes exhaustion, and they or someone in their life realizes that they are actually close to death.) "I'm solid in my bones, just need some tuning" (slowly, the person with anorexia starts to believe that no matter what, they are not skinny enough, even though they almost look skeletal) "I woke up in a pool of sweat" (a reference to the hours the person has put into working out, in an obsessive effort to lose every calorie they allow themselves to eat, if any at all) "Nailed down with my hand on my chest" (The person came very close to heart failure because they hadn't eaten in weeks and their immune system was close to shutting down, but at-first forced therapy eventually makes them realize how close they were to killing themselves, and they look onward to their second chance at life.) Now, looking at the music video, I am now convinced that this song could have another meaning, or perhaps multiple meanings. Maybe the lyrics, that seem to portray struggles with an eating disorder, and the video itself, which seems to show a theme of child abuse, have nothing to do with each other. In case they're connected, I've altered my original theory to theorize that said person was a child who succumbed to an eating disorder due to the "ideal" bodies portrayed in the media. I took this idea from the harsh way the woman seems to be treating the girl, and that in one scene the woman appears to be dragging the girl by her own leg (skinny...legs...haha) into what looks to be the sillouette of a mirror, symbolizing the ongoing insecurities the girl now has about her own body. ...I could go on and on and on about this. Sorry. I just like speculating the meanings behind music too much, I guess. I hope you find this explaination at least mildly interesting. Have a nice day ^^
Jayden the Broccoli whoa, just wow. That's actually, really interesting to think about, I personally believe that the music video and the song arnt connected. I think the music video, is about an abusive mother, ( the start of the video where the little girl lays on her stomach signifies pregnancy) The scenes where she is being carried portrays her as an object. But I think ur description of the lyrics are just spot on. Flip me well done for connecting all of that together!
Jayden the Broccoli or, and this is really stretching it. The music video is about things like smoking,drinking, taking drugs while pregnant, and how that will effect the baby, since the girl always seems to either mimics the mothers movements, show that what u take, like alcohol or drugs. The baby will experience too. And the little girl also always seems to be near the women's stomach. Like in the carrying scene where she's wrapped in a ball and the women is carrying her. I also think that's why at the start it's kinda peaceful, but then her eyes reflect lights n stuff. Signifying drugs, alcohol or whatever. Also the girl trying to get away and the mother holding her there. Signifies the fact that if the baby had a choice it wouldn't want to be in the whom, but the baby can't be heard, and therefore has no choice but to latch on and trust the mother. Hence the scene where she's holding on to her leg. It's actually really fun to speculate on stuff like this.
I love seeing your views on the video and song! My personal view is that Elohim in this sumbolizes the girl's thoughts, and that the thoughts are either comforting her or hurting her, and that she is trapped by her own mind. If I connect this video to Hallucinating, it gets WAY darker.
this is cool man. in between this and hallucinating i'm definitely going to be keeping an eye on elohim from now on
Conciliator agreeedddd
Same
You have to check out sleepy eyes!!!
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Same! These two for sure have amazing
Elohim dancing is my aesthetic
What does that even mean?
Hybby z his style. Pretty much
I gotta stop myself from thinking like this
I wanna kill the demons telling secrets
I know they're not for real, but I believe 'em
The more I feed my fears, the more I see them
I didn't know that I was so convincing
'Till I was buying into what my brain was selling
I have to put a halt on what is circling
Before it's way too late and I am melting (melt, melt, melt)
[Verse 2]
I'm crawling out my skin and I feel sticky
There's a ton of reasons why I should be fine
I'm solid in my bones, just need some tuning
I've gotta get it together to save my life
I've drifted farther than you can imagine
But I'll come back if and when the moment's right (right)
There's little I remember from my journey (journey)
I've metaphorically blacked out too many times
[Outro]
I woke up in a pool of sweat
Nailed down with my hand on my chest
Now I know not to mess with my head
Treat my life with love and respect
All we are is all we are
All we are is all we are
I cried at the end. This was too meaningful. Everyone can give it the meaning they want, but to me was like she's goin' through a depersonalization process, which is hard. At the end is like she's looking herself hurt; the inocent and caring part cries and the other just suffer and struggle with the other.
I was just thinking about that! How it was a war between herself and her innocence
I've been wondering if Elohim was part of a psyops program. Her newest video has a lot of left-eye imagery, plus cracked mirrors. This one seems as though it's straight up saying that she was psy-opped.
Sad :-/
I feel like this is the message as well and it’s so nice to hear it and know I’m not alone and the way she words it in the first verse is so powerful.
I've cried at the end the first time i saw it some years ago, and i keep in crying every single time
What the fuck this is so haunting
It's like other version of hallucinating. There it was a more positive surreal tone, now it's a much more negative surreal tone. So amazing El and all the people involved in the video 💕
It's really cool. I don't think hallucination was positive, though.
Artist representation of inner child. Very difficult work to go through 💞
I just saw Elohim at a concert and knew nothing about her. But wow, one of my fav new artists. Its kinda funny that I just started taking xanax and had a panic attack just trying to get to that concert. All of her songs do a great job being relatable to what it's like dealing with varying mental illnesses. It's nice to see someone use their struggles and turn it into something productive.
I don't know know what her intended message was behind this video, but this is how I interpreted it to my own situation.
I view Elohim as anxiety/depression/whatever you want to put to it and the little girl is her. The relationship between the two starts out slow. The girl isn't that concerned yet because your mental illness doesn't just happen over night. Then shes suddenly crying and screaming so maybe some major trauma happened. She acknowledges that the illness is happening and wants to stop it before it's too late. The controlled dancing starts and shes taken for a ride at the mercy of her illness.
Now shes attempting to break free and justify to herself why everything should be ok, while also talking about drifting back into whatever has a hold on her. This most likely isn't her first attempt at escaping.
Picking up the pace and making a dash for it now, but only ever being allowed a small freedom before being dragged back. This is the interesting part to me because after attempting to run so many times she turns to embrace and rest on the shoulders of Elohim. They even hold hands. She's too tired to fight it anymore and the relationship is now one almost like Stockholm Syndrome.
The ending is self reflection and realizing all the damage that's still being done to her. Most likely the cycle will start again.
After years of depression and pills I've tried I have to say that monitoring your thinking is by far the hardest, but one of the most important parts of dealing with mental illness. Your brain is incredibly powerful by thoughts alone.
This is so beautiful. For me, I see this as the little girl is also the adult. And the struggle we have with one's self, reckoning with those struggles.
I think you’re right. Indigo Children and Star Seeds are All Elohim.
We all have a hurt and broken child inside of us.
We must go inside to heal.
This.
this is a piece of art is wish I had created. I can't stop crying.
thank you Elohim.
same
“Treat my life with love and respect. All we are is all we are.” ♡
I haven't been moved this deeply on such a personal level in years. Thank you for the raw beauty, and even the tears.
i have so many questions
your music is making me feel understood im breaking down right now in an exposed way. im on disability for paranoid schizophrenia, PTSD, schizotypal, agoraphobia, self harm addiction and other stuff. thank you for sharing your struggle. it really does touch people, i hope you're really proud, you are so brave. thank you so much. 😰
i am so happy i found elohim out like oml the music is incredible and has incredible meaning
3:39 so beautiful sounds
iwaseasymeat 🤘
I've listened to this song on a number of occasions and have finally got to watch the video. It is so overwhelmingly powerful and has sent my head into a spiral. I love it, I love all of your music. It's all really been helping keep me grounded these last couple of weeks. I'm only sad I didn't find your music sooner.
Okay I don't know how I ended up here.. but holy fuck.
That was one of the coolest videos I have ever seen.
MAN THIS IS CRAZY AWESOME THE LITTLE GURL IS AN AWESOME ACTRESS
I feel like I am in the video as I really find myself in this emotions as a child. And I think I know exactly what this is about and thank you for that
I feel like she’s symbolizing the battle with her childhood trauma. That’s what I’m taking from it. I’m literally in tears. This is haunting and well done.
Love when Megan, Madeleine and you work together! You always made beautiful things together! This is art! Congrats!
This and 'Hallucinating', too many parallels to my real life. My jaw dropped at the end and I only realized I had to close my mouth when the song was over.
Elohim is the queen of vocals and visuals xx 👁💘👁
At the end when she is stricken with the blood of her mentor, when she draws tears, so do i. Wonderful work!!! Bravo!
I'm surly not Hallucinating....another great piece of art by El and Our Pretty lil Girl
Duude your dancing is so freaking hypnotic. There need to be more vids like this!
The only 10 hour video I'd ever be willing to watch would be one of her dancing...
being late to watch this video doesn't change the fact that it's the best
No doubt healing my inner child with this epic album...
Well the inner kid is back and this time there's more love. I think the healing is progressing.
This song gives me the strength to move through the dark .
I love reading everyone else’s theories behind the meaning of this video so I will share mine :)
I think the child symbolizes her innocence and elohim symbolizes anxiety/mental illness. The way the child is manipulated by el to dance a certain way (to behave a certain way) is how your mental health can make you do things you don’t want to do and aren’t comfortable with doing..In the ending scene, how the child forces el’s arms around her is kinda like the fear of seeking treatment/help, it’s so scary imagining opening up to someone and changing so much, you just kinda want try and find comfort and a way of living with this thing that’s been yours for so long. when the child pulls away with blood smeared across her face I see it as the awakening-the realizing you need help and realizing your mental illness isn’t who you are.
again this is just a summary of how I interpret this video that I just love soo much. thanks el, for making magic 💜
Really good. The kiddo did a fantastic job.
Man, the visuals are beautiful. I love whenever these videos release. Keep it up, El.
ELOHIM at her Industrial best! Rage hunty rage! 🖤😈🤘🏻
I played this over a dozen times on my radio show in Butte, MT! Thank you for what good you do in the world. 🌎🌍🖤🌻
I feel for what the video and lyrics represent.
2:41 me when I saw elohim UA-cam notification.
Grayson Smith 😂😂😂😂😂 that's uh... Interesting..
Honestly me too
i can tell you who its about..... Him
genious
If completely left unchecked, humanity devolves to something devastating.
Never lose the child in yourself
I saw this live in Portland last year!!!! Then you came and shopped at the Whole Foods my wife works at, but she was too shy to say hello ♥︎
I can't believe I'm only discovering Elohim now. You're a work of art.
This is the song I always come back to when I'm having a mixed bipolar episode. Fits so well.
I believe this is symbolic of abuse, and the effects it has on you for the rest of your life, and it couldn’t be more accurate. Elohim is truly an artist.
This is so fucking amazing, how the fuck is this not fucking trending
Hail Queen Elohim.
So much detail in this remarkable video. Especially in the beginning and end. So many ways someone can interpret this video. 😘 Well done 💖💖💖💖💖💖 I fucking love videos that have deep meaning behind them.
... can we just be Elohim together already.. or what?
Thanks to this and hallucinating and I'm inspired to write and dance again, thank you so much!!
This sums up my history with OCD and the struggle I still experience to be okay. The child in the video with her is like my own inner child and the person I was back then intermingling with myself now. Obviously, this is my own interpretation not trying to speak for her just sharing my experience with this piece of art
Loss for words. So beautiful
Beautifully haunting.
Nod to prodigy with this one. Too sick
Beautiful and amazing music video! ❤️
can't wait to meet you again soon,
love you El
👁❤️👁
To me this is about growing up with a mentally ill parent. The child wants to understand the parent and ends up bending over backwards to accommodate/avoid the mother's issues while struggling to find who she wants to be outside of what her is and tunes her to become. At the end, the child finds out how to avoid the mother's illness by moving along with her and eventually even tries to help stabilize the mother, realising she can influence her parent too, sadly at the end she realises that her mother cannot be changed and unless she distances herself, she will continue to be hurt
ground level. under 700 views. i'll remember this when this reaches millions.
Ive never been so touched by a song so much, ive never related to a song to much this just hits me on a completely different level. thank you
i finally got around to watching this one elohim. Congratulations on your career and art! So blessed to see you grow
It makes the most sense to me when interpreted as follows.
The girl is the narrator and the woman represents her eating disorder. In the beginning, The girl runs to ED for comfort, security, and protection (laying together at 0:16, holding her hand at 1:39). But as time goes on, it starts to control her (1:52 when the woman moves her arms and jerks her around). Feeling controlled is a common experience for ED sufferers. When she tries to escape, it chases her down (2:50) - a nod to the addictive nature of disorders, as behaviors can't be quit cleanly or easily. Alternatively you could also see the running scene as a more literal thing, eating disorders can drive people to over-exercise. Despite the abuse, she returns to ED because she has such a strong emotional bond (2:47), but it doesn't love her, she has to manipulate it into loving her. She thinks she's finally made peace with it (choreography at 4:09), that she can coexist with the disorder but still be happy/healthy - she's in a state of denial, she loves her habit too much. When she finally realizes that her ED is destroying her, she pulls away, no longer able to deny that it's an abusive entity, and you can see the feelings of betrayal and conflict in her eyes (4:19, incredible acting for the record). But still, recovery is hard, and it takes one hell of a fight (4:49) to be free from an eating disorder .
Now, this could also be applied to another disorder - addiction, anxiety, compulsions. But I relate it to ED because of the title and because, to be honest, this is exactly how I would portray my personal struggles with ED. like, it's extremely accurate. The complicated love/hate dynamic, turning to it for both comfort and punishment, and the fight to leave/escape. And the lyrics sound like the physical symptoms - "the more I feed my fears the more i see them", "blacked out too many times", "woke up in a pool of sweat", "i'm solid in my bones, just need some tuning", "i've gotta get it together to save my life", "nailed down with my hand on my chest"
Omg, I felt the exact same way about everything, also the screen as a representation of the media so stuck on her head, I've struggled both with anorexia and bulimia, and this video spoke to me in a lot of levels, I literally cannot stop crying, also I think that I'm having a relapse and this made me felt not so alone, it's really a piece of art.
We seem to fight to detach forever. It's coming to terms with ourselves that works.
this is enchanting
This is unreal!!! Love you El!
I'm not one to comment usually, but this was a forced youtube advert on a playlist song I play daily, and after 2 minutes I was like, wait this isn't my mix but its insane. Obviously favourited that!
This is absolute art. So fucking phenomenal. This is one of my favorite songs by you
This is lit
Heard hallucinating. 💕just had to keep listening! I'm having eargams.. 😛💕
Elohim=So good!
this is so beautiful man
You are one of the best artists ever, keep putting out great music
Incredible piece of art! You are amazing and I hope to see you again soon! 🤗 ILU!!❤
I love you and your fans...roar baby.
I interpret this as a take on pure ocd and anxiety. the child is a positive emotion or memory and the older girl is the ‘demons’ and the ending where Elohim smears blood on the girl shows that the happy part of her is being tainted and ruined, because the mental illness is making everything seem dark and twisted
Beautiful video
youtube recommended you to me, and i've never been happier with their recommendations. you're super relatable at least to me, im so hooked on you, im having a marathon through your channel
it took her quite a long time to cry ahhaha i luv it so cool ❤
ahhhhh this is absolutely incredible
Elohim should be on Warp Records, fits perfectly
And that melody at the end reminds me a lot of Mum's - "The Ghosts You Draw on my Back".
She just wants to be loved.
no dislikes yet? must be an Elohim video
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good song and Madeleine McGraw again? awesome!
Wow. This hurt. Never looked at the video before. Fantastic representations
Wow this little girl is the beautifulest acter I've ever seen keep up your work good job
glitch god
incredible
beautifully
Damm please come to berlin I really enjoy your music
Half of me wants to just keep her art in secret. Listened the first time and I fell in love. 💓
Once again...aMAZING !!!!
This song live will blow your mind. It's fucking insanely good
This really is far too relatable. Waking up in the pool of sweat, fighting inner demons. This is legit me in a nutshell...: unfortunately. I can't say night terrors are a plus side to me. Great music!
AMAZING SONG AND CLIP😍😍😍💜
What is this, about? It's really, interesting. And I don't think I need to say it's amazing
Is it about child abuse? I mean.. The ending kinda gives it away. Anyhoo great track, and if it is about child abuse. Great message, keep up the good work. If u actually are Elohim. I f ur not then this is just kinda awkward.
Interesting theory! I found this song around a month and a half ago, and came up with my own conclusion that the song was actually about the life of someone with an eating disorder.
"the more I feed my fears, the more I see them" (an anorexic person stops eating due to fear of gaining weight)
"I've metaphorically blacked out too many times" (The person starts having dizzy spells or just flat-out fainting. At this point, they are malnourished that it becomes exhaustion, and they or someone in their life realizes that they are actually close to death.)
"I'm solid in my bones, just need some tuning" (slowly, the person with anorexia starts to believe that no matter what, they are not skinny enough, even though they almost look skeletal)
"I woke up in a pool of sweat" (a reference to the hours the person has put into working out, in an obsessive effort to lose every calorie they allow themselves to eat, if any at all)
"Nailed down with my hand on my chest" (The person came very close to heart failure because they hadn't eaten in weeks and their immune system was close to shutting down, but at-first forced therapy eventually makes them realize how close they were to killing themselves, and they look onward to their second chance at life.)
Now, looking at the music video, I am now convinced that this song could have another meaning, or perhaps multiple meanings. Maybe the lyrics, that seem to portray struggles with an eating disorder, and the video itself, which seems to show a theme of child abuse, have nothing to do with each other. In case they're connected, I've altered my original theory to theorize that said person was a child who succumbed to an eating disorder due to the "ideal" bodies portrayed in the media. I took this idea from the harsh way the woman seems to be treating the girl, and that in one scene the woman appears to be dragging the girl by her own leg (skinny...legs...haha) into what looks to be the sillouette of a mirror, symbolizing the ongoing insecurities the girl now has about her own body.
...I could go on and on and on about this. Sorry. I just like speculating the meanings behind music too much, I guess. I hope you find this explaination at least mildly interesting. Have a nice day ^^
Jayden the Broccoli whoa, just wow. That's actually, really interesting to think about, I personally believe that the music video and the song arnt connected. I think the music video, is about an abusive mother, ( the start of the video where the little girl lays on her stomach signifies pregnancy)
The scenes where she is being carried portrays her as an object.
But I think ur description of the lyrics are just spot on. Flip me well done for connecting all of that together!
Jayden the Broccoli or, and this is really stretching it. The music video is about things like smoking,drinking, taking drugs while pregnant, and how that will effect the baby, since the girl always seems to either mimics the mothers movements, show that what u take, like alcohol or drugs. The baby will experience too. And the little girl also always seems to be near the women's stomach. Like in the carrying scene where she's wrapped in a ball and the women is carrying her. I also think that's why at the start it's kinda peaceful, but then her eyes reflect lights n stuff. Signifying drugs, alcohol or whatever. Also the girl trying to get away and the mother holding her there. Signifies the fact that if the baby had a choice it wouldn't want to be in the whom, but the baby can't be heard, and therefore has no choice but to latch on and trust the mother. Hence the scene where she's holding on to her leg.
It's actually really fun to speculate on stuff like this.
I love seeing your views on the video and song! My personal view is that Elohim in this sumbolizes the girl's thoughts, and that the thoughts are either comforting her or hurting her, and that she is trapped by her own mind.
If I connect this video to Hallucinating, it gets WAY darker.
I get such an MK Ultra vibe from this music video
I love that song
Visual God😩❤️
QUEEN.
Such a good video
This song can turn into so many interesting theories.
Really loving your work.
Been a fan for a while now.
Peace
This is so satisfying to watch o.o
i thought it said 'skinny legend' and i almost hollered
I love this child
This is so aestheticc💖💖ilysm
Génial
Amazing