Dark Piano - Depression
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- Опубліковано 6 вер 2024
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Hello , Could I use this sound for a video? The credit will ifc be given to you!
From personal experience, I think the worst thing about depression is how it stops you from even wanting to overcome or get rid of it. You don't talk to anyone about it because you don't think they could understand you enough to help you, or because you feel you don't deserve to bother anyone with your issues or generally take up space. A part of you don't even want help. A part of you feel you deserve all this, to suffer and fade away, twisting everything around you to give you a reason why. That's the worst, I think
And now i know i'm not alone. Thanks..
It’s a fear of happiness Bc you are afraid to be let down like time and time again and you don’t want to feel that pain again
You found the marsh. but you clearly didnt belong.
@@Ericasiilvia yes
I talked to my dad about it. He accused me of lying for attention. Even now 6 years later and after being hospitalized from a suicide attempt he still insists it was all for attention. I finally got help 3 years ago, but only after I stopped asking and did. My grandmother is I think the only one who actually understood.
Depression is a relentless killer, a serial killer more like. It's a thing so hard to notice that it blends in to its victim far too easily, not even the victim themselves know. They're silenced, beaten and tortured by this heartless murderer yet always blame it on themselves, consequential dulling their colours, making them seem more empty by the minute.
I hate depression, it always swings around at the wrong times and stalks me as, waiting for me to punch my own ticket. More consideration needs to be shown as it ruins everything the person has, personally it's ruined my education, tainted my social life and blackened out my future. Me being me will soldier on but I worry for others, we all should.
Stay strong everyone
Something Not-So-Original this isn’t poetry class get over urself lmao
Spoken like a true weak link lol
Something Not-So-Original we are all in this together. I pretty much feel joyless sometimes too. Hate everything and everyone. Guess everyone who is here enjoying this music feels in a way very similarly. Stay strong
randummy can't realize how hurtful these words can be? Someone in need of help gets criticized? Really?
Rc Daco These words aren't hurtful. They're just words online. Someone who really has depression understands; it's better than some naive person trying to "cheer you up". I've passed my time of melancholic depression, but let's just say I'm a completely different person now.
This is beautiful Lucas, I've never seen a channel with music dedicated to mental health and human emotions, I really support this. I did alot of work with the local police force training "crises acting" and it's surprising how many people don't understand the importance of mental health. Identifying it is extremely hard, it affects everyone and anyone..some are better at hiding it than others and some want the help but have a hard time finding it. Really well done Lucas. Looking forward to more of your work.
When you play doki doki exit music...play doki doki literature club first
@6yza hey. Just cause he/she didn't understand doesn't mean you got to be so mean?
@6yza You hate stupid ppl? So you hate yourself
?
@6yza bruh u high mans on crack
@6yza
Yeehaw, you're stupid.
Depression is an ugly murky colour which you drown in. But with that colour sometimes the shade adds perspective to things you see and paint into new expressions. We have a balance and must accept and learn to be understanding of this as you can't be one side of happiness and light. You need the dark to see your way TO the light.
Sorry if this seemed a bit dark... I have had depression for four years but it feels like I don't have it anymore... It always comes back. That's why my quote up there is very important and comes from the heart. Thanks again Lucas, it's always a pleasure to hear emotions so familiar in a refreshing new tone.
edit: Honestly I didn't think I'd get this many likes... I've put my tumblr user name below in one of the comments so have a chat if you need x
Manga Cookie I absolutely can relate to this. It's really hard to fight against depression but sooner or later it will change to the better things. Thanks for your beautiful words I'm really happy that I saw your comment hehe
Manga Cookie my friend depression doesn't have color, it can come in any way, shape, or form. Some say red and pink are colors of love, some will say it makes them sad, angry, or feel void of life all together. Depression is a chameleon, a chameleon that will creep up on you and strike at any moment, without warning and suck you into despair.
You should know that, as you have dealt with it before.
Sorry I know I came off as a Dick just now but, you can never see it coming. I just don't want someone to read your comment and misunderstand it and think they can avoid it if they think they know what to look for before it latches on to them.
wow that's really sweet! hehe I didn't think my comment would effect anyone, i just felt like I needed to convey emotions :'D
that's ok um but I was just conveying what it was to me and that is what it is to you so it's okay, we both have different opinions which is completely okay! :)
Manga Cookie well if you need anyone to talk to I'm here you could cantact me on tumblr (fatmemousti) or instagram (fati_mousti) :D but you don't have to I just wanted to tell you tho
Shit man, great piece!
Thanks a lot man! Whats going on?
legend says that Lucas King is still waiting for a response from Peter Gundry, still forever waiting to know what's going on.
@@YuumaBerry 😅😂😂😂
@@YuumaBerry lmao
The part at @ 1:52 - 2:07 really got me. The music pauses and then goes into this really intense few seconds of notes that seem to suggest a certain bit of anger and with depression, that's really true. A lot of people believe depression is just a blanket of sadness or fatigue, and while it's true you can be sad with depression, the symptoms are far-reaching. The anger and the tears and the frustration are usually a precursor to, say, the inability to enjoy things, lack of emotion, inability to sleep, inability to do anything BUT sleep. There are days when ALL you can be is angry, followed by lethargy and, seriously, the absolutely inability to feel ANYTHING. So that part kinda reminded of that. Also, any time the notes became heavy, it was like that struggle of trying to pull yourself out of it, only to be pulled back down into it-- ultimately those heavy notes stopped and we were left with those soft, sad notes, as well as that background noise, which was a nice touch. I like that the background noise carried on until the end, sans piano, because depression leaves you feeling very isolated.
OATH
I, uh... Relate to this. I'm always angry, and when I'm not, I'm either sad or tired, and empty.
Just give them a warm hug...it'll make them feel better
For those of you wondering what depression is or what it feels like: screaming inside your head and the words are choked at your throat. Maybe this was just me, but after long enough you're so used to depression that it's comfort. It's your closest and only friend. (That's a lie, in the name of Jesus. But it's just your normal.) Just wanting to curl up in the shadows away from everyone else.
"How are you?"
"...fine, thanks." *HELP ME*
*no one will notice if i'm gone*
*no one cares so don't bother*
*stop talking to them, you're alone and they have their own life, you're intruding*
*i deserve this*
*numb*
One *does* actually make friends with oneselves clinical depression. To normal people that may sound insane, but it's a coping mechanism "Hello, darkness, my old friend.."
How I feel. It doesn't matter if I'm alive or not. I ll be gone, Noone will care. They will say some words after I'm gone cover all their shit. Where is justice?
I feel like i wanna scream but i hide it with a smile
My world is black and white but i pretend to know colors
No one would care if i cry or if i hurt myself they would only care when i die
Depressed people are like zombies
They are alive but *dead inside*
I’m in love what you wrote because it really defines me, thanks
As someone who is most likely suffering from dysthymia (moderate, chronic depression), I can say that you managed to capture every single trait this illness gives you. I can represent tiredness, demotivation, melancholy and tears in this piece.
Truly beautiful. I love these melodies representing the disorders not as something out of this world, but something common and stressful to deal with, the way they should be represented as.
Everyone here acting as Depression being a horrid beast. I've learned to see it as a friend. Because in the end, they were the only ones who sat by me as I cried. The only one who heard my grief and sorrows. They listened. I was always alone. They were the only one who had my back.
People say it's the monster that kept them in bed. For me, they were the wisp who put me to bed.
Same perspective bro 🙌
Dark poetry time
My Depression
My depression has me in
A heavy ball and chain;
I can hardly move an inch anywhere,
Without feeling the hidden
Aching pain.
My depression hides my joy
It keeps it locked up tight;
I try to show my friends and family
I'm happy on the outside...
But I'm crying out for help,
Wanting to see the light.
My depression steals my smile
Even trying to do so hurts;
I of't wonder if just faking one,
Is all it's worth.
My depression breaks my heart
Causing it to bleed tears of sorrow;
I cannot feel anything within,
No more hope for a brighter tomorrow.
My depression makes me feel numb
I stay inside my room wishing
It would all end;
My depression has me contemplating
Suicide,
Thinking if I just end it all myself,
I'd no longer feel this heartbreak
Ever again.
My depression's got me broken
My spirit's broken in two;
Yes, I know things will soon
Get better, I've heard it all,
But alas, there's nothing more
That I can do.
😆 (this from me outside but from inside 😡😢😳😔😭💔👻)
thanks for this. teacher wanted us to write poems about ourselves
The Summoner i could never put it in words, thank u.
Wow that was beautiful
I can't take it seriously with that animal crossing profile photo
Have you ever had one of those nights where you cry yourself to sleep, telling yourself how you don't deservse to live or don't deserve the kindness people give?
Yeah, me too.
Nope never did
I'm having one right now.
@@Asehpe mhm me too 😗
My depression was so pronounced i wasnt able to cry or feel anything.
There was only darkness, well...not even that. I couldnt even see that i was depressed cause it was all normal for me. When i started Therapy i realized that i have strong depressions. Addiction and anesthesia...well more to feel anything was normal. Now i know it was self destructive and i will never treat me like that again.
I hope everyone can find a way out of that shitty ILLNESS depression.
Please find a therapist if ur suffering very hard as long as u can still feel anything..or if u have to go some weeks in psychiatry.
Good Luck, keep in mind u only have urself, so treat urself like a best friend.
Everyday
Hey people, i.. uhm. Wrote some song lyrics.
If you wanna read it i just post it here. These are my first lyrics, and english is not my first language. Before the lyrics i wrote some poems in german so, you can basically say, my first english thing xD
So here they are
Actually no one is evil
People, come here
People, listen to me
People, hear my thoughts
That actually no one is evil
Just another broken mind
A result of something inside
Where only you see your light
And others the deepest darkness might
But there is only a shattered child
Actually no one is evil
It's only a mean sickness
Caused by broken heart and soul
Not under control
Just some greed and hate
Is enough to make them break
Don't let them wait
Cause soon it's to late
They're what we made
Like a monster under a bed
A prisoner of madness
Caged in their broken mind
Everyone got own reasons
We believe are wrong
Actually no one is evil
It's only a mean sickness
Caused by a broken heart and soul
Not under Control
And if the end is near
The mistakes become so clear
Made by the broken to broken
They say sorry for being weak
And for all hate and greed
And now it does repeat!
Oh dear, i didnt think i would get this kind of reaction >-<
Thank you very very much!
Im planning of making this a song someday, but i have to practice with my voice. I knew that i could sing for around like.. 6 Months now. If i get any better im going to try that out.
Thank you very much!
btw. Loving can be in many ways.
May take some time,
Thing is, sometimes i can pull something like this out of my mind like a already written sheet, and sometimes its just.. like a puzzle of some words that i have to arrange. And somtimes its just nothing.
Its sometimes a mood thing and sometimes a inspiration thing.
Seems like i have to ask an friend to practice singing with me some time haha
janondorf1 that sounds amazing
janondorf1 that sounds amazing
Thank you very much! :)
Depression: Exists
Gacha Life kids and 14 years old girls: *It´s free real estate*
I am really confused to why it's always "14 years old girls" and not also boys
@@JoeMama-io5fz and it is worth remembering that depression is ageless.
@@larie27 Exactly... Idk why so many people won't understand this
Being diagnosed with depression and suicidal thoughts since a young age, I find it hard to describe what I have to go through every day, how every move hurts and how every thought claws away at my brain, scratching my skin to shreds.Depression is always there, in the back of my head, limiting what I think i am capable of. It's so hard to explain to people how I think thoughts like "oh I'll throw myself under a car" or "I'll stab myself with a kitchen knife" at least a couple of times a day. There is no way for people to see what Depression is like if they don't have it. And that saddens me the most, because how much help can we really get from someone who hasn't gone through what we have? But with your music, Lucas, you have put my words into melodies. You have described it so well, I can freely show your work to a healthy person and say, "listen to what my depression sounds like". I am so happy that I found your music, because now i feel at least a little bit more understood. Thank you.
I just wanna ask. Are you living a normal life now? Did your depression go away?
Antonette Maybe yes if you live a normal life ofc depression will go away
@@anastasiasia1668 you read that wrong
I completely understand. It truly is hell having your own thoughts try EVERYTHING to make you end it all. Suicide becomes a comforting thought but actually going through with it is another story. You feel trapped in a world that is moving without you
[Beacon Autem Dolor] Sorry
"I pretend to be normal when I’m around other people, but on the inside, I feel nothing".
- Ayano Aishi
Oh
😐😑
U describe me:)
Same here.
i have felt that way since beginning elementary school and it has only continued on even into my early 20s , even when i rarely cry i feel nothing and just don't see the world for peoples illusions just the cold reality of the earth and reality itself
I can't help but be surprised every time how this series perfectly captures the feeling of the disorder. Such passion and heart go into these and I can feel every keystroke. You are a legend and your music touches everyone who hears it.
“The pain is there, and requires to feeling it.”
-Hazel Grace, “It’s the stars fault”.
Battles fought but losing.
Standing still, doing nothing.
People around smiling,
as i put my mask, grinning.
Lied living but hurting.
I haven't wrote a comment in.. what feels like ages on your channel and man.. this hit me. Thank you so much for such a wonderful masterpiece.. especially because it is portraying depression I have and still am struggling so much thanks
🌷
vayjikreuz if you wish. I could help you with this neverending feeling. I myself have gone through this phase and wish to help you out in your road to recovery .
Plague Doctor ... it's not a phase but I'm still desperate enough to ask: how?
OMG. I'm literally crying. I love your music a lot and you're my biggest inspiration as a pianist. I passed through depression (and it still visits me sometimes) and having YOU making a song about it.. well it makes me so happy.. thank you so much for making my desire come true, thank you for your passion and for your music..❤
OMc💋🤦💔🍺🚬👍
Life goes on,
when you're feeling down
Gushed endless tears
Until you drown
Life goes on,
as you scream in despair
As if as silent as a whisper
No one would care
Life goes on,
when you breath in agony
gasping for air,
ever so desperately
Life goes on,
as you lie lifeless
slowly fading
Vanishing into nothingness
Life goes on,
even when you die
nothing would ever change
even if you try
Life goes on,
but not for you
Everyone would still be happy
While you're feeling blue
End it late
or end it soon
No matter what you do,
life goes on
but not for you..
Life goes on ,that is truth , but also I dont care anymore if it goes on or not ,some people are happy some sad but for me it's all the same for I AM HOLLOW.
To me,
Friends are the prevention of lonliness, anxiety, depression, etc.
A friend is like a protective barrier.
A distraction.
A distraction that helps you turn a blind eye to what the world really is.
What the world honestly has to offer.
I don't have friends.
I don't have a friend.
I'm not loved.
I'm not cared for.
I'm not underdstood.
I'm all alone.
....
I'm scared.
I'm scared that the darkness will surround me and eat me alive. Eat me whole.
I'm afraid.
Im afraid of living in a corrupted place, a place that's filled with things.
I'm referring to people.
But they aren't really people are they?
They're something more terrifying.
Monsters? Beasts? Demons?
Yeah... Demons. That sound's about right.
Do you know what a star is?
Yes. That really bright orb in the dark night sky.
That was me once. A very bright, carefree and happy student, surrounded by all the hate i couldn't see.
All stars have to die at some point. Some turn into black wholes so that is what i am right now.
Empty
Lost
Forgotten
Dark
Confused
I'm walking around this world like a blind sheep.
I called for help back then.
I yelled and screamed and pleaded for someone to grab me out of the dark and into the light.
All i got was this...
Silence.
I wonder if the dark thoughts will go away...
I wonder if I'll be positive...
I wonder if I'll be free.
Edit: 2 years later, that blind sheep was found by it's owner. The Good Shepard. :)
Go read my comment below and be lifted up. Do not be ashamed to have hope. :)
I have a lot of friends, yet I have depression
Research shows that the more friends you have the more likely it is that you will have depression. But friends aren't the cause of depression.
Breathtaking.
Sadly is hard making them...
Wow its been so long since i wrote this....
Depression ends guys! It's not all gloomy in the rain. I'm glad i survived.
It's funny how many click on this and say "this is me everyday" or "I feel this" depression doesn't feel like a song,this piece is the beautiful side if depression, the music is the reflection of sadness,not depression itself. It's more of a "this music is how I look back on it"
Jonathan Lund exactly
There is no beautiful side of depression. Everything about it is horrible
@@de_light641 i believe he doesn't mean beautiful in a positive way but i see it as beautiful in making depression into art and music and trying to capture everything about it.
I'm only 30 seconds in & I heard elements of Chopin, Beethoven, & Bach. YOU. ARE. BRILLIANT, Sir.
Claymann71 My three favorite composers!
My cause of depression:
-family
-friends
-school
No money , no friends , family dont bother, no support
Starry night sky keep going, keep living and show them mother f######. Just like I did. I am proof that you WILL beat this. I am well over 27 now and I am experiencing life wonderful. I started brushing my hair and cleaning up, going for walks changed me. My life has changed. I started drawing and writing again met different people through this. Prayers n light from that sister and Guardian that you never had in England UK.
@@lilJennmanley fake Friends,Family dont support me,and im fighting against cigar...
@@mysecretsketchbook865 hey doing abit better realised a friend wasnt a true friend family dont really bother still but I have my son and my boyfriend so that's all that matters I have anxiety so I have bad days and good but I keep my head up and stay strong for my baby I'm from the UK too hope you are well thanks for asking how I am x
@@raphaeloliveira9175 I'm really sorry about that
It goes on and on
And on..... And on
Keeps going without stopping
Like clockwork
You can tear your hair out
But the demons and voices that
Tear you down will never leave
You can claw at your eyes
Begging them to leave
You want to be happy again but
They won't let you
Scream
Shout
That's all you can do
And it's futile
They won't leave
They tear you down and break you
In a never ending cycle
Of self loathing
Wrists, stomach and legs
Aren't always what gets hurt
We can't sleep
We feel numb and dead inside
We feel like we don't
Deserve to live
That we are useless and alone
Our mind keeps telling us that
We're ugly
Fat
Stupid
Never ending screaming
Of internal pain and no one knows
They don't know
We hid it with a smile
That disappears as soon
As we are alone
Once again left
To the voices that bring
Us into dispair
And as I said
It's like clockwork
Stuck in this vacuum
Of darkness and pain
And feelings if hopelessness
We all have our own
Personal demons that
Haunt our entire life
They linger waitng
For a moment to strike
Always
Never ending
Pain
They won't say they hurt
That everything's fine
When it's not
Sad people try to make others the happiest
So just take a moment
To observer them
Don't be intrusive
Be slow and careful
But maybe you can fix them
This is my take on depression and I wrote it in my view of it from my experience. Maybe you can help someone if they have it
Richard Gannon
Depression isn't just a disease that kills you from the inside out, its similar to the grim reaper, but instead of helping you get to the other side it causes you to go there earlier, it hurts you, it silences you, it changes you, carving you hollow and shallow, making you a husk, never to feel anything for so long, always behind you for you to never recover, once its out of control its never to stop, you can only fight for so long afterall, even in those moments it makes you see what most dont though, a different vision, the vision of a dead man letting you see and understand what most others wont, its a dark gift you never wanted, there to chase you for almost forever, its inside you there with you from birth, waiting for you to make a mistake and drop a peice of yourself for it to feed on, its a monster you never really fed that instead fed on *you* , its so complicated no matter how long you will never understand it fully, its the endless blackhole, going on for longer the more you know about it, best way to avoid knowing about it is to never know about it.
Anxiety holds my foot down.depression keeps delivering blows to the head.
Wow, you never cease to amaze me, Lucas. You really depict the stories and feelings awesomely through your music. 🖤🖤🖤
It's not his music
You can feel your heart beating but you don't feel alive.
The opening of sad music and the muffled sound of a beating heart is absolutely genius. I can relate to this track on a personal level.
"DEPRESSION IS THE KEY TO REAL HAPPYNESS" BCOZ WHEN YOU ARE IN FULL PURE DARK YOU VALUE A LITTLE SPARK OF LIGHT AS HOPE🌚🌝
Depression ain’t no key. It’s a darkness you can’t escape from. Another door you can’t break down.
when you have depression you cant see a spark of hope you see nothing even food stops tasting as good as before, when you have depression you are deep down in such a dark hole that you cant see happiness or hope, you see nothing just emptiness and then you start tempting with suicidal thoughts. If you can have hope or whatever you are not depressed you are just sad.
No light is able to beat the darkness of a depression. Hope dies at the dor to this dark world. A dor without a key
I feel like depression is a river, you can be floating along and simply trying to not drown or you can be swirled about on this tide of (mainly) unexplained anger and bouts of frustration over the tiniest things. And at the end of it all, there's always that bit of hope that it'll be better
Depression is sitting alone at night, the world silent yet your mind wide awake. It screams to not be ignored and suffocates you, breathing becomes shallow and tears start to fall. A void created in your chest cannot be filled and you'd give anything to feel whole. Depression is being around people yet being alone. Being around people who are perfectly fine when you seem to be falling into an endless pit of despair. Depression is a storm in your mind; millions of thoughts swirl around and around colliding with each other and creating monsters. Depression is the darkness reaching out to greet you and saying, "take my hand my dear" and when you naively take the hand it sucks you in and doesn't let go. Depression is not sleeping. Not eating. Not finding the motivation to do anything, so you lay in bed all day wondering if anyone would miss you if you were gone and then coming to the conclusion that, no they wouldn't. It's wanting to die everyday but still having to put on a smile and face the world, because I'm only seeking attention. Right?
I am aware this is a year old, and I sincerely hope you are doing better, I gotta say, this is horrifyingly accurate.
Listening to Richard Gannon, helped me with some issues, he has many interesting things to say.
Anxiety and Depression are like cousins. Anxiety tries to prevent us from doing everyday activities ( like going outside, meeting people), and Depression punishes and tortures us while we are trapped under the influence of Anxiety.
Hey for the people who have depression I just wanna say keep going and don’t stop . I know that everything seems hopeless and the pain is never ending but I know you guys have the hidden strength to keep pushing towards your goals and all of you guys are stronger than a mountain for living with this mental disease and still living with the rest of us and wanna say thank you to those who are still moving forward and trying there best even when they don’t want to get out of bed .
As someone suffering from depression for over 10 years now this piano play really feels like the explaination of this sickness. Its such a complicated feeling to describe but this play really captures the essence of it. I really appericiate this. ❤️
On the world exist only few hundred people who can make something amazing and beautiful. And you, you are one of them Lucas.
Makes me cry because I go through depression everyday. My first time subscribing. Thank you
Hey Lucas.
I love this song but I really hope this isn't inspired by your current feeling :).
Have a beautiful day/night.
Thank you!! No I'm happy =)
Nice to hear so :D
I am an avid #MentalHealthAwareness advocate and performer, and I love this so much. I travel the country trying to bring that awareness on stages, in classrooms, hospitals, and on my UA-cam channel, so I get excited when I see other advocates. 💙❤
You make very beautiful music. Enough to move this man to tears, thank you.
I learned by myself what's depression,and I think that this creation is perfect for this disorder,calm and after dark depressed,a piece of hope,after darkness and rage,and in the end..You know...That sensation of end of all.
You know, you never fail to surprise me with your dark piano pieces. Whenever we see the title either it be your newest piece, 'depression' or any of the others you've composed - we can, in a way, feel depressed. Now don't get me wrong, depression is a horrible thing to experience but the fact that music can inspire even the most happiest person to feel that way, is extraordinary.
The Other Side of the Glass:
Hot acidic streams melting my face
My vision only a blur of what I’m told is a perfect world
And I’m choking and I’m falling and I’m sick
This sickness swelling in me
Overwhelmingly toxic and disgusting
I’m choking over my own voice
I’m drowning in my own liquid fear burning out my eyes
Help
Someone
No
Just leave me alone
I’m so sick
Sick and diseased with these thoughts
Oh how I hate it
I hate my mind
I hate my reflection
I hate my hate
If I screamed no one would hear me
If I ran no one would hide me
And it’s growing it’s growing and I’m done
I’m done with everything
I can’t live like this anymore
Hello
Goodbye
Nice to meet you
I’ll never see you again
Help me
Leave me alone
No one
No one hears my screaming
My hand is over my own mouth and my voice is choking me
I can’t do this
And nothing nothing NOTHING
Will fix it
NOTHING will fix what was born broken
I’m not built to survive
And I’m losing control
Just losing more and more control
I hate myself so much
This broken shell is just caving in from the inside
But it’s not valid
Not right
Not enough of a problem
Not a valid scream
Help me
Leave me alone
All the regular faces remain on the other side of the glass
All the toxins still inside this shell
I feel everything
I feel nothing
You don’t hear me
You don’t hear how loud the screams are because your still on the other side of the glass
But yet you believe you are right in this home
I have no intentions of showing you reality
I’m falling and I’m falling and I know gravity gives no mercy
Back down to this trampoline that is my own madness
It catches me at the bottom filling me with artificial flight
But gravity always wins and I fall right back down again
Then again
And again
It never ends
And I’m so sick, sick sick, and it’s swelling in my stomach, my chest, my throat
And the knife keeps twisting every time I try to pull it out
And still no one can hear me
Forever, I am diseased beneath the surface of this shell
Forever shut away on the other side of the glass
Your piano music makes me feel better after a bad day ;-; :D
Ironic
I've had depression since 9 years ago by now. It really gets up to you and the people around you. It's been hard, trying to not "go" away. Sometimes is really hard to understand even myself, and I know I can be difficult sometimes.
I'm happy sometimes... I guess. But other times it all seems so... strange, like it doesn't have a purpose. It give me the chills that you could put all the confussion, the hatred to ourselves, the demons inside us that are very dangerous, and how yet we can be so gentle. I'm a new fan and I really love your music. Specially the Dark one.
Thank you a lot for this.
Ah, depression. I love this piece of art. I myself have very bad depression wich makes school pretty hard to cope with. At the moment I have no friends or anything. I've learnt to trust nobody because the friends I did have all hurt me.
This helps alot.
I liked because I understand.
My cause for depression.
The fact that getting depressed sounds like you're expanding,
but depression actually means you're being emotionally pressed, or crushed.
this matches perfectly with depression. but mine is a more sinistor faster scaryier version where one moment I could be laughing and playing and the next have a knife to my neck saying this is the end and I try to get the will to pull it across to end it all.
GodOfThe Wolves that could be bipolar depression.
Same here, that is how my bipolar is........
Bipolar.. I have it to
Same bro😭
Holy hell, I am so happy I can play the piano. The moment I’ll buy my electronic, I’ll buy all your songs just to learn and play them. So emotional and strong, I cannot even put my feelings into words. Your music speaks to me.
A summer day, humid and gay
Venturing towards the forest clearing
Glitters with many twinkling stars
Dancing around in show of such beauty
Chase them as you may
Slipping through desperate fingers
In hope of coaxing happiness to gather around you
But short-lived these lives
Floating away to the skies
As you hear the shattering of a heart
The heart of yours
You never knew the dark can be so cold
As the last remnants of light drifts away
Wow this really struck me. Thanks Lucas for describing something in music that might otherwise be hard to explain
You should do banana phobia, it is an extremely intense fear of bananas.
It needs to be done.
im waiting for it eagerly, lucas.
BANANA
@@nooora1003 AAAAAHHHHH STP
BANANA-NA-NAAA! BANNANA! BANNANA-NA-NAA!!
I love this piece. I'm a writer that suffer from depression, and I really enjoy listening to your music while writing. Keep it up!!
People are suddenly turning into philosophers left and right and come up with cringy poems on every single video... But I simply click on them for the amazing music.
Amazing work as always!
Anachronon Exactly, it's funny seeing people say stuff like "thx this song helps me deal with my depression and suicidal thoughts" just to see their username is like "Raven Crow of Dark Sadness"
It's like they think it's cool to be depressed so they tell everybody they are
Gluesniff Piff Ikr... it's just pitiful to see people who think it's cool to have negative feelings😒
Same thoughts here :'D thank god i'm not the only one!
To be fair some people are so used to feel that way, it is all they have, all they can relate to, and so they cling to it, they can listen to upbeat songs, love songs, songs about hope, but they don't get it, they just can't relate to them. Some people are just addicted to despair, or it would be more accurate to say they are in some kind of abusive relationship with it, unable to let go.
@@Somerandomguy524 You can't "let go" of clinical depression.Ever! Better to make friends with it. Fact!
Out of all the chaos in this world, your music seems to be the only thing that can bring my messy mind some silence. I loved this piece more than anything I've heard from you and it felt like you touched my soul. Thank you.
I am drunk now, and probably depressed. And I love it. The girl I love will never even look at me, I'm just a friend to her. You touched my heart with a hand. Really. I love you. Thank you for your music.❤️
depression runs through me. for years, I sought no help, no expert. yet here I am, still standing for the sake of those who care for me...and for the sake of my ultimate goal which is to settle...on a final meaning that I make for myself everyday. even if I can never truly settle on a final meaning, I will continue to make and do so...for the sake of those I will yet encounter that may help me give meaning.
we're born of no meaning. it is us who gives ourselves meaning and those that surrounds us in a world full of possibilities yet meaningless.
J'aime beaucoup je me lasserais jamais d'écouter du piano💓
Nao Chan Armyyyy ❤
Moi aussi j'adore le piano 😍 on peut transmettre tellement d'émotion ! En ce moment j'adore écoute "Moonlight sonata" de Beethoven
🇵🇰🤵👩🦲🇦🇷
I commented this under someone else’s comment, but I want people to see how I feel, I was engaged, but she lied and cheated on me multiple times.. I wrote this while listening to this because I was and still am in a deep pit of depression, I only was able to safely end the relationship yesterday, she had been threatening me with her life... she felt bad when she finally saw how broken I was, I couldn’t even smile without tears going town my face, I was broken because of what happened. She let me leave because I wasn’t the same as the person she fell for.
Part of my song, the unfinished melody: by Corey Calhoun
It makes me feel as if it’s triggering me to think deeper about what the piece meant to the writer, what the name truly represents, and how I feel in relation of the piece... like it has a deeper meaning than its meant too... just under the surface, visible, but not describable
I couldn’t tell you what a song truly means to me. Because it may not be able to be described my words alone, it’s the thoughts that fill your head and the memories that flow back to you while you listen the the entrancing melody, temporality loosing your sense-of-self and almost able to grasp at the big picture, covered in front of you. Then as you can almost reach it, the song ends, your back where you started
But feel slightly different as a melody repeats in your heart, you may forget the name, song, or how it sounds, but it’s difficult to forget how it made you feel
A song of hate and sorrow is ripping my head into shreds, so many questions, outcomes, possibilities that flow through my mind is tearing me apart into fragments of the man I used to be, I feel like the pieces left behind from the mess that wasn’t fully cleaned up.
This is just a note from my melody, an unfinished part in the song of the world, alone, I’m missed and forgotten, but when the song of my life is finished, I hope to be a melody in your heart, that won’t be easy to forgotten, even when my song is no more.
Just look at her face man !! 😿
Well depression is a silent killer.
This eyes... Like my heart
@@sviticitma9193 her eyes is like melting
Anyone know the artist?
@@85yr in the description😊
I love how this is simultaneously dark and uplifting, with every note so fast and close together it almost blends into one sound, because that is how depression (at least mine) feels. Depression tricks you into feeling like you are happy being miserable, like you are happy feeling like you have been run over by a train, and like you're happy seeing the control over your life being wrested away from you. There's also this feeling of blankness, deadness and simultaneous desperation that very few people without depression ever hear about, and that people without it could never understand. It's sort of like that feeling you get when you don't want to do anything that's an option, but you still want to do SOMETHING - only all the time, about pretty much everything, and it's not that you don't WANT to, it's that you feel like you absolutely CAN'T.
Depression is the best example of a paradox that anyone could imagine. Every emotion and its opposite are there all at once and interacting with volatility, but the one thing that is constant is that you wind up miserable and exhausted. Having anxiety with it is a nightmare, because it's like trying to hold the like poles of two magnets together, and if you lose your grip on one, they'll both bounce around the inside of your head and mash up your brain.
Or that's just mine being weird. One of those.
Tenho uma grande paixão pelas suas músicas ♡
Nearly 3 years depressed and its only getting worse... thanks for this piece, a beautiful melancholy.
So I've been playing music for almost ten years now, and as I've gotten older, and my mental health has gone down, music has always helped. And inside my own head, when my depression or anxiety started to act up, I'd hear music in my own head. It's odd, but it helped calm me down. And this is almost identical to what I'd hear. You're one talented human to put this much raw emotion into one piece. Thank you for sharing this with us, keep composing and making beautiful pieces.
You should make a dark piano named hell and make it as dark as you can make people feel like if they are falling in an abyss with all your creativity. Make sound effects that are about millions of souls inspired by Gravelord nito's theme from dark souls.
Seems dark
The art is beautiful and the song.
I just want to be loved by someone
This hit down deep in my soul.........sadness crystalized and frozen in time. ❄️🌬❄️🌪🌬❄️
tried to hurt myself everyday
but that depression
still there
depression... i remember sitting in the therapist's office being diagnosed with clinical depression some years ago. i've lost track. it rips your soul out of you, drains all of the colors from life. everything goes completely and utterly.. dull. things that were once happy and vibrant turn sad and dark. you long for that happiness again. you scream and scream inside of your head, begging to be let free from the shackles of your own mind. the light in your eyes flickers out. you become a shell of the person you were before. it makes one feel as though they've lost their mind. everything takes a dark, twisted turn. you become desperate to be set free.
you grasp the sliver of light, but it's too late.
you take the blade, you say your goodbyes. a deep red liquid paints grotesque pictures.
you’ve done it. you're free. but at what cost?
your life.
Depression is a weight on you. A heavy weight bringing you down into the darkness of an ocean. Deep down and you don't know how to get out.
Even though I have what other people call a "good life" you still don't know the emptiness I feel inside that can't be fixed no matter what I do... there's no escape for me...
today is my birthday and this is the greatest gift, finally something that describes how I feel in ways words can't. How I think of depression is an ominous eerie feeling that seems to take over the eternal emptiness from time to time and just consumes you, from my experience that is how I describe it, it's a lot more than sadness. But this made me smile for a minute, it let's me know no matter how alone I feel that somebody else understands
Why the life is so Hard
Life is hard to make us better people. Problems aren't given without the solution. We just need to look hard enough. And if we can't find, then we must submit and ask for help.
sorry
No, life is not hard , only your soul is hard
That's exactly what I asked myself.... Why live in this world.......?
The people are hard to deal with. I hate being alive and I hate 2019. I bet next year will be more horrible and people will be more cruel and lots of scamming trolls.
Because Death is so easy.
This actually feels like it would inside your mind, running, but yet you lag behind like something is pulling at your heart's strings. There is the fast high tempo of you running and then there are the deep low notes that show you trembling. And at the end everything slows because you can't take it anymore and you just stop caring and then the tempo dies. This piece really speaks to me.
It really annoys me when people mistake their sadness for depression...something way more extreme.
I just happened to stumble upon your music and this captures the feelings of the emotions. I’ve been struggling with depression lately and I feel like I’m wearing this fake mask I’m obligated to wear all day and when I’m home the emotions come out.
the worst part is when you start to like being depressed
That's because your brain knows it's the new normal
so glad you’re on spotify
Like everytime : awesome.
The pressure on heart, on head needs a relief and only death can wish you such a gift. It's true beauty.
I was happy and no I'm crying
Me too..
The music represents it very well. Depression is this greenish mud you beging to drown in and not even notice
Depressive? Yes... what can i do? Nothing... oh wait...
Yes i can smoke w e e d. :)
DaBitterSeason so fckin right)
This composition synchronizes with the constant feeling of regret, anger, guilt, dispair, greif, worthlessness, fear, and loneliness that all pours into this horrible disorder that goes by the name of Depression. Well done sir/ma'am.
Heres the synthesia tutorial for Depression ua-cam.com/video/Ts_HzW4QoGU/v-deo.html
Just came out of severe depression. I lost weeks of time. Now the mania has started.
Very nice Lucas.
some these poems in the comments are really amazing honestly
Here are the sheets! sellfy.com/p/4JNR/
Lucas King is there a cello version
Why they don't exist anymore?
Thanks to your music, I pass my dance choreograph project, I choose your music that represents depression I gone through and dance it all along with your song by using my movement as metaphor and follow your music ❤️❤️ . I will always come back to this music
Can you make one for anxiety please? I always compared it to living in a horror movie. ...
That's another breathtaking piece.I can't find the right words to explain but everytime I hear another piece of yours it feels like they're connected with something/someone I know or something I have experienced before which makes it more powerful.You're music is effective in its own way that's why I love it
This is amazing! Could you do a song about Anxiety, too?
Phèdre Ergastule Awesome! Thank you!
I've just found your channel
(I'm so glad that I have... seems like it's a good/suiting time for me to have found it just minutes ago... I mean now and not like a year ago or so)
...and I can't stop replaying this... I don't really know what I'm 'feeling'. It's like I want to cry because this is so beautiful and so touching but I can't. For me this is beyond words...
One quistion
*am i dead*
If I ever get out of this thing (depression) then it would be a glory to see the world with a natural smile in my face again
I just want everyone to know that I am here for all of you, if anyone needs to talk I'm just a message away. We can talk on here or tell me what to message you on, I'll be there for you, always.
TheExoticGamer HD hallo
evanescance lost hey, what's up
TheExoticGamer HD nice try!!!
evanescance lost Huh? What did I try? I'm confused .-.
TheExoticGamer HD u did aomething great
U R here to talk to people like me that others usually leave them
She waited on the bench in the black abyss, thinking, wishing that the bus will come, come carry her away to a better place. She knows this is not what she wanted. She was alone with no one to talk to, she was cold with no blanket to warm her, she just sits there still, silence beginning to take place in her mind, losing her thoughts, lossing who she is, waiting for the bus. The darkness crept ever close, deep in her mind, twisting her thoughts, bringing her to new concussions. She stands, she walks out onto the road where the bus will drive, and lies down, sobbing...
Ive delt with depression for half my life some times it gets so hard that i come close to killing myself i have freinds and family that care for me but sometimes i feel so alone and trapped that i cant do anything it hurts deep in my heart ive once took some pills and ive almost died i was taken to the hospital i was ok but this depression will be the death of me
What a beautiful depiction of how it feels