I don't think me and my dad will ever come together nor be as close as we should be. All throughout my childhood he made me feel horrid for the way I think, The way I learn and understand the world he always compare me to other people he made me feel so bad for simply being who I am. He would always give me a look like “I don't understand why you don't understand what is going on” I even remember him yelling at me because of something I just didn't understand. I think and process things so differently he does. I don't think I could ever forgive him for that. The idea of me being alone with my dad makes me sick to my stomach. Even till this dad I dread having to call him. I only do it because my mom practically force me too but if I had it my way I would never ever call him!
I don't think me and my dad will ever come together nor be as close as we should be. All throughout my childhood he made me feel horrid for the way I think, The way I learn and understand the world he always compare me to other people he made me feel so bad for simply being who I am. He would always give me a look like “I don't understand why you don't understand what is going on” I even remember him yelling at me because of something I just didn't understand. I think and process things so differently he does. I don't think I could ever forgive him for that. The idea of me being alone with my dad makes me sick to my stomach. Even till this dad I dread having to call him. I only do it because my mom practically force me too but if I had it my way I would never ever call him!
This is very strange I was talking to my son few hours ago about trauma we all have…