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Citizen Soldier can you please make more music this style suits me and I love your whole band I would love to hear a song with some violin just a suggestion but I think it would be great
Skillet: inspired me to take no shit in the eyes of disrespect Three days grace: inspired to leave my mentally abusive ex. Citzen solider: to be proud of the life I lead and to love the one I love no matter of the outcome.
@@CitizenSoldier i sent my love interest this with no context she listened and 5 minutes later I saw her crying. She hugged me and asked if I was okay. And I had told her an issue I was having. Thanks guys. You really helped me when I needed someone 😊
1 day my child will grab 1 of ur albums up and look at me, and I'll say I was there at the beginning of those guys great career... Keep it up and make it happen guys, hard work and dedication never fails.
@@CitizenSoldier you may have saved my life. I was going to stab myself when my girl left .e to go back to her Ex drug addicted husband she divorced 4 yrs ago😭😭😭😳
As a side note, if anyone wanted to know what they mean when they say “I’m your holocaust,” a holocaust is a sacrifice, which used to be burned completely at the altar. Hopefully that sheds some light on the meaning of this verse for those unaware. They way I interpret it is them saying “I’m your sacrifice” but also hinting at cremation.
Originally found these guys when just listening to random music that came on. I can’t explain how much these guys manage to hit every point that I feel no matter where I’m at.
I just wanted to comment- I found this band while I was hitting a depressive episode and just- A lot of these songs hit home. I'm glad to see these topics handled in a way that feels real, cause it makes it feel just a little less lonely.
As a combat vet/former police officer, your music describes me when I don't have the words to explain how I feel. I keep it all inside, but through your music you have broken through that wall and I'm facing those feelings. Thank you. It's a hard road, but I can't give up.
I wish I found this while I was in high school. I never wanted anything related to suicide, I wanted to die by someone else's hand. When I wanted to die, I wanted to die doing something meaningful for someone else. I hated myself to the point of seeing myself as nothing but a demon in human skin. I thought I wasn't worth the effort of being taken care of by my family, so if I gave my life in sacrifice, my death would've meant something and people could just forget about the utter flaw I was. Being high functioning autistic and knowing how people treated people with autism in the past, I saw myself as a defect that people would lobotomize and throw into a cage in a second. I was also self abusive to the point that I thought I deserved to carry the pain of everyone's mistakes including my own.
This comment made me shed a few tears because i know how you feel like a demon in human skin and a mistake in life because for one i was a mistake i was a broken condom and failed birth control and then when i was born my dad was never there and as i grew up i noticed i looked alot like him and my mom was more affectionate towards my little brother and that she almost was scared of me and then i fell away from religion and my family is all Christians so that didn't help so they despised me for that and didn't want me near my other family and there kids and then i got into metal music that definitely didn't help because they see it as the devil's music and well through that it was heartbreak for being called weird looking because im not a good looking guy so that broke my confidence and then it became bullying for it and laughed at even my closest freinds bullied me and stabbed me in the back so i grew anger and hatred to everyone and everything but definitely towards myself because i felt i was born a mistake a waste of oxygen and resources and i wanted so badly to enlist in the u.s marines and serve my country or die trying in hope that they would say i was a great person but i was diagnosed with mental issues like severe depression bi polar and suicidal thoughts and you can't enlist with those problems because they cant trust you with a gun but now i have a beautiful girlfriend who loves me for me not my looks not my past or my mistakes or flaws so just know it gets better it may not seem like it but it does so stay fighting because you may not feel important to your family or the people around you but there's always the one that your fates will intertwine and youll fall for them and them you and happiness will be true and youll forget the past and bury it and revive the present and work on the future so stay strong 👍
Far away, there’s a place, Where the lonely go, when there’s no way home, No one knows, no one cares, why does this keep getting me to breakdown and cry.
Growing up I wish I had found a band like this. It seemed the world around me was full of the frivolous and popular and beautiful shitheads. Bullied, I was invisible to my classmates. Persona non grata. I fought back against my tormentors. I was outnumbered. This was before Columbine. While I don't condone what they did, I certainly walked in their shoes. You guys remind there are good people out there. While I still come across racists and the ignorant, I don't feel I'm alone against their vile kind of evil. Over the years my hatred for them has given way to pity. I hope one day they discover love in their hearts and realize we're in this together. Peace.
A beautiful song. There are many people that turn out to be fake in our lives. We must find ourselves, even in pain and dismiss the ones who have betrayed us... love for this band....
These guys are so under rated...as someone who understands fighting mental and emotional issues i absolutely love their songs...i hope they realize how much they've helped over the years just by sharing such amazing talent
Ive attempted suicide but it failed i tried a second time but i listen to your song would anyone care and it really made me think and it opened my eyes and the feeling of loneliness in this world was taken away and made me realize im not alone in my fight with depression and schizophrenia and ive never attempted suicide again i view life very differently its a gift and im going to live life as best as i can thank you so much for that song i wouldn't be here if it wasnt for you guys your a great band and source of encouragement your a light in this darkened world tysm!
Your music really hits down to the core. CitizenSoldier might be underrated but who know's, maybe one of this day's they will rise to their rightful place, achieving glory and fame
The pureness of this song is the key factor that stood out to me! So whole and tender. I like the message and the vocals! It compliments the instrumentation! Keep it up guys! Your getting so much better every time!!
This Song just keeps me motivated to help those in need, talk to them because I always remember this one Quote "Help them because u could be the only one that does"
Best way for that to happen is for people who like the song to share it with all their friends on social media and face to face :) glad you like the song!
I suffer from depression, it has destroyed my friendships amd relationships, i have even tried killing myself in thr past, but thanks to you guys and the things you do, it has helped me trough so much and still does, i am greatful, thank you so much for the music
yep getting called a monster despite doing nothing but trying to help everyone around you, only for them to abandon you and lie about you after. i've been called "insane, horrible person" all sorts of things. no one ever takes the time to fully understand someone going through this. they just want to pass it off as a "bad person" not take the time to understand. thats why i only believe those who have suffered the same ways are the only ones who can understand those people. god knows i've met a lot of those very people "i'm a horrible person, i've done things that i cant take back, i deserve to suffer" all they need is someone to stick by them for both good and bad. and not just leave the first sign of bad.
I'm so happy for those who are struggling and come across this channel. Your songs are so well written and communicate such an inspiring message about faith and strength when it seems like there is nothing left for a person in their life.
I have been a fan since this came out To be honest i prefer those kinds of songs over the new album Songs that talk about daily struggles they really hit Pleaaaase Citizen soldier we NEED this type of songs
@@CitizenSoldier can I use this on a UA-cam video love the song btw and I will have to listen to this during quarantine to remember the actual fun part of school+going to parks
I just found out ur band and i tought ur like a popular and appreciated band and im like wait only 3 songs and good so glad to be here from the start! love u, keep upp the good work
Yes we are just a local band from Salt Lake City, Utah! Glad you like our music and we hope to continue to grow into a poplular appreciated band someday
I’ve been binge listening to all your songs at freaking 2 am, and not regreting a second. Citizen Soldier, thank you. You guys are amazing. I might be late, but honestly, it’s been an honor. It’s sometimes harsh, but inspiring, truthful, bold, incredibly touching and emotional, and just generally such good music. Thank you.
My wife has borderline personality disorder and you guys help her through her dissociative episodes and her depressive moods and I thank you guys so much
I wish you guys would have created this back in 2012-2013 when it all started. This hell inside me that grew stronger to that day. Never stop creating music, please. Maybe you already know, but this helps many people. All the songs you've created are just too real and amazing 🖤
For someone like me that finds expression of feelings through music. This song means alot. I relate to every lyric, and can say this song solidified Citizen Soldier as a permanent resident on the list of my absolute alltime favourite bands. Thank u so much for the songs. PS I would have posted a comment like this one on "If Scars Could Speak" but I couldnt type through the tears. Thank you so much for making music that will be there for me when no one else is. It means alot Edit: Didnt know it was about suicidal thoughts. I know now and am being taken on a whole new journey of relatability. Im a suicide survivor. And This song's relatability just doubled down and is forcing me to hide my pain and tears behind a mask. Im in the car with my family. Im so glad I heard this Thank You
I hope and pray anyone who finds this song An may be in a hopeless state of mind Never Give Up! God loves YOU so much! And no matter what your going through in time things will get better just ask God to give you the strength to believe that good will come from the pain you are experiencing! God Bless 😊
Your saving lives guys. I know if it werent for Y'all I honestly would feel like no one gets it. That I didnt ask for this. I didnt want my life to be this. Thank you!
i discovered your music in november when i was going through a fairly awful time, i ended up with 'buried alive' in my playlist all of a sudden and for maybe two weeks, your music was the only thing i could listen to. honestly, i have never heard music which speaks to me the way your songs do. nothing else really captures depression and mental illness and suicidal thoughts as well as these do. everyone needs to hear these. thank you is all i can say.
First time I heard this song in the gym and fallen in love with it yet couldn't find the name of it. Now after 2 years I am here, finally found it. Great great song. Thank you for creating it.
I am absolutely AMAZED by you guys. Theres a RED, Breaking Benjamin kind of vibe going on. You guys are phenominal. This needs more views. I can't believe I stumbled upon you guys 😀 Never quit. You guys are too Beautiful.
I pretty much never comment on UA-cam, but my God I'll make a exception cus I just step by randomly and wasn't expecting such a good and emotional song
THIS SONG HIT ME HARDDDD man... I was suicidal 3 years ago. I couldn't live with myself anymore. It took a friend to make me realize life is worth living...
Also a masterpiece of a song. It´s really strange. I feel like I have heard this song a lifetime ago but I just found out about you today. Your musical talent is able to break the dimensional boundaries and create nostalgia out of nothing.
That's amazing that you felt that! We've never had a comment like this so its very interesting to read something like this. Thank you for listening to our music
My favorite part is " don't you call me a freak , I don't choose to be weak ". I feel it represents me in a way. I always feel belittled cause I'm an easy target to hurt.
I must say, this kind of music isn't always what I prefer to listen to, but the vocals in the song are astonishing. Not to mention the fact that there's actual meaning in the song (unlike many new songs that are becoming popular some how). I can definitely see you guys becoming very popular. Maybe even famous. I wish you the best of luck in climbing the charts. Keep up the wonderful work and continue making music.
You are one of the best Bands i´ve ever heard.. best lyrics, best vibes vor the feeling and i hope i will hear a lot more in the future from you. I know this is an older song but its still one of my favourites! Best wishes from Germany!
I don’t think I’ve ever heard a band put so much emotion into a song that you can relate at least one aspect of your life with a song. now that’s how you make a song that everyone will love.
I have some disappointment and resentment towards my family. They didn't understand why I was depressed. I silently battled it throughout high school and decided to tell them my senior year a decade ago. They asked. "Why?" That made me feel like shit. Like they didn't care or understood what I was going through. That moment I knew not to tell them about my depression or suicidal thoughts anymore. They didn't understand then and won't understand it now.
I listened to this masterpiece for the first time when I was at the mental hospital after my worst attempt and now listening to it for the second time and i still cry like a child
This song came across as a suggested song and when I first heard it, wow did it hit hard! It's 100% how I feel and added as the first song on my "pain" playlist (consisting of mostly Citizen Soldier and Breaking Benjamin songs). I can never put into words the hellish turmoil in my mind and this song speaks exactly what I struggle to say to others. Thank you for such relatable lyrics for those of us hurting bad mentally and emotionally.
You guys never fail to leave us speechless with your songs, not only they're awesome but they help us overcome really, really bad stuff. Love you guys, keep it up.
i think one of the greatest things about this band is the fact that they've responded to almost every comment that I've read through, and thats pretty commendable because they're actively connecting with their community. Thats awesome.
Why can't I get anyone to see that I'm right here?! Am I already gone, and I can't realize it? Does anyone remember that I existed? Have I already faded away so fast? Can no one hear my screams? Maybe it's everyone else that are the faded ... or figments of my broken psyche. My last desperate attempts to hold onto anything I can, even if it's nothing but pain, just so I won't be alone... and empty. Left with no one except my biggest failure. My ever-present reminder of the only "soul" that I can never seem to help find redemption; to feel at peace and know a purpose beyond its longing and hollowness.
After 60 days clean, I cut myself again. Your music is helping me a lot and I'm so grateful for it, your lyrics touch my soul. Almost nobody dares to sing about how suicidal people feel, or what is like to live with self-destructive thoughts. Only you have seen through me! I never found confort anywhere but in your songs.
I'm gonna choose to focus on the 60 days of strength than one moment of weakness. You should be so proud of yourself. Remember, this life is a marathon not a race. Be kind and patient with yourself and celebrate your victories. You can do this
Just found this realizing I'm in this mindset. Ive always felt like someone doesn't notice too much and I just feel like I can never get my life together. I feel like I'm bothering people if I try and talk out my true feelings or I'm just scared they will look down on me. I lost my passion for a lot of things I'm quite literally crawling through life trying to find purpose in my hardship.
What I got from this song was someone who had no one to turn to (maybe no one knew what this person was struggling with or didn’t care which is pretty messed up)-they just decide to live their last day or week on earth until they decide to take their own life. What really caught me off guard was the “Don’t you call me a freak” (I guess he’s saying just because we’re battling with these voices in our head that trigger anxiety, depression or suicidal thoughts-doesn’t mean we’re being freaks) and when he says “I didn’t choose to be weak” (I didn’t choose to have these thoughts or burdens weigh me down-sometimes I’m not able to fend them off because they keep multiplying) and when he says “Holocaust. I’m your Holocaust” (He’s not referencing to the WW2 Genocide- to me it sounds like the depression, anxiety, fear and shame-all these dark thoughts leading you to think suicide is the only option and saying to you ‘no one is gonna help you-they got their own problems to worry about’ and you feel like this is your Holocaust-all the things your facing in life makes you feel like you’re behind a barbed wire fence *metaphorically* until you just wait to die).
Wow, this is one of the most insightful comments I have ever read on this channel. Very well done. You get it. So happy we have you hear as part of our family. Love ya
I wish i could help others the same way but i have no idea how to get past my own insignificance enough to be heard...i wanna advocate for the awareness of mental and emotional issues through simple communication...loneliness can be beaten easily if we just listen whole heartedly to each other
@@CitizenSoldier im trying to get there...im learning to play guitar atm and i also want to start a pod cast to talk with others about their emotional trauma and mental issues that hold them back from being their selves again
There is more on the way. There has been discussion on scraping the idea of a 2nd EP for a full length. we will see what happens. Thanks for following us :)
You know, I've been listening to your songs for the whole day, and yet, none of them stops impressing me of how much heart you guys put into them. Every song has a powerful meaning behind, every song hits the right spots, and, some how, they gave me the inspirition to move on. It also gives me hope that you guys are good people, you give attention to your subscribers, your fans, youread every single comment and respond to them. I love u guys ✌
Do you know what it's like Just to crawl through your life? Like a ghost, like a ghost I have beauty and rage Full of love, full of pain No-one knows, no-one knows So I wrote a letter today Wrote in blood just to say I can't take this one more day Far away, there's a place Where the lonely go, where there's no way home No-one knows, no-one cares to know who I am So just take me there 'Cause now I have nothing left And I am scared to death Will they remember me? Hanging my noose this week Throw it all away, if I throw it all, all away For 15 minutes of fame Do you know how it feels No control of the wheel? I am lost, oh so lost Don't you call me a freak I don't choose to be weak Holocaust, I'm your holocaust In my last and final will I will not be standing still For once I will finally be Something worth remembering Far away, there's a place Where the lonely go, where there's no way home No-one knows, no-one cares to know who I am So just take me there 'Cause now I have nothing left And I am scared to death Will they remember me? Hanging my noose this week Throw it all away, if I throw it all, all away For 15 minutes of fame Was I just born to be broken? Is this the life I deserve? To have a voice not worth hearing Is it so absurd to want my moment of glory If it costs me my soul? A life condemned, that never was known Far away, there's a place Where the lonely go, where there's no way home No-one knows, no-one cares to know who I am So just take me there 'Cause now I have nothing left And I am scared to death Will they remember me? Hanging my noose this week Throw it all away, if I throw it all, all away For 15 minutes of fame 15 minutes of fame 15 minutes of fame
This song came out the year my father had died, wish I discovered you guys that year rather than two years ago. I hope you never stop making music any time soon! Much love.
@@ElectricalTides besides Failing out of Firefighter 1 in April I’m doing better , that was my main downfall this yr but trying to focus on my career this yr so I can get out of the auto industry before the owner sells our Clifton park store to investors by October so I’m going to the cdl school to get my class b eventually class a once I get hired with a trailer dump trucking company
Absolutely gorgeous, the voice and the music, you have more than 15 minutes of fame in my head ;) had to relisten to the others again and again after seeing you had released a new song, I am keeping my eye on you guys for sure
I just lost a friend with a 20 + years friendship and Let me tell you its really heart braking and its even worst when you struggle with mental illness
Just found this song and have been listening to it on repeat for the past 3 days. I've been in the worst place in my life recently and the lyrics of this song have been helping me through things
I gotta say one thing, I love how you guys also care about what your fans say and that you answer pretty often, It's damn nice to see and feels good :)
@@CitizenSoldier Once in my life I thought that I will never have friends because nobody from my school listened to me and that I was going to be there. Only my family listened to me when I heard this song and now I feel better because thanks to your help and my family I managed to overcome it and from now on I will continue without fear thanks to you
Such an awesome, inspirational and very emotional song. Just gives you that feeling that fame won't last forever and it doesn't make you fully happy. True happiness comes from the experiances you gathered from your past experiances and learn from those experiances so you could do better in your own future and do your best to inspire other people from doing actions that makes other people appreciate your efforts no matter how painfull the journey is. I hope someday an album of your amazing songs will be available at some point. Love your music Citizen Soldier. :)
If you're looking to get your hands on one of our CD's you can order the new EP here: igg.me/at/citizensoldier and thank you so much for the kind words! We're glad you like the music! Also if you're in the USA there's more merch options over at our website. www.citizensoldierofficial.com
Citizen Soldier, I'm liking your music here. I just wish you guys had some more songs for everyone to hear, though I'm sure you're doing your best. I think you guys are great and I'm happy I discovered you when I did. Keep up the good work. This song in particular is really inspiring to me. I'll be sure to stay tuned for anymore upcoming songs.
This is song reminds me of all the stuff I had to deal with growing up. How I keep making myself continue on anyways, even when nobody know me really. The song reminds me of that drive I used back then. Thankfully, I don't have to deal with that stuff anymore.
kidrik zagrent so glad you are out of that. Sounds like you’ve been through a lot and it’s made you stronger. Much love to you friend. Glad you connect with the music 🖤
The lyrics are such an interesting thing to hear and figure out the meaning of, they're done differently then most bands. They feel like they're talking to YOU, the listener, and for most of us, we can understand the lyrics and their meaning, and to some, they sympathize with the lyrics too. You guys are amazing and I hope you guys continue to become a while known band and can still pump out content to enjoy all types of listeners to follow you.
If I could pick just one thing I love about you guys, it's the message you embed in every song you make. Each one unique, and somehow turned into a song people can relate to.
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Citizen Soldier can you please make more music this style suits me and I love your whole band I would love to hear a song with some violin just a suggestion but I think it would be great
Thanks for the support! New music is coming out next month!
Skillet: inspired me to take no shit in the eyes of disrespect
Three days grace: inspired to leave my mentally abusive ex.
Citzen solider: to be proud of the life I lead and to love the one I love no matter of the outcome.
We're honored to be on this list
@@CitizenSoldier i sent my love interest this with no context she listened and 5 minutes later I saw her crying. She hugged me and asked if I was okay. And I had told her an issue I was having. Thanks guys. You really helped me when I needed someone 😊
@@salvagesigh9705 That's amazing
@@CitizenSoldier 8 months late to finding this masterpiece, sorry im late.
lionheart gaming my top 3 fav bands
Dear Citizen Soldier,
Please never stop making music. Promise me.
We don't have plans to stop anytime soon!
@@CitizenSoldier Not a promise :o
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We don't need a promise :)
@@thejester1039 I thought that its said please stop and I was about to complain!😅
They keeping their promise 🖤
@@maroonexx yep! 😊
Still the most underrated band of the 21st century...these songs still helping me stay in top of my emotions...forever grateful
Glad you like the songs will. Thank you for the kind words
Citizen soldier 15 miuntes of fame
You forgot the Nine Lashes
Thats true.
@@CitizenSoldier Also good luck on the road to 100k
1 day my child will grab 1 of ur albums up and look at me, and I'll say I was there at the beginning of those guys great career... Keep it up and make it happen guys, hard work and dedication never fails.
Thanks Neo Vaaku! That would be a dream come true!
Neo Vaaku me too, this guys are AWSOME, I love their music
@@CitizenSoldier I might just ask personally, but can I use this for a few videos? 😅
I do roblox Parkour and I need music
for a good run
@@CitizenSoldier you may have saved my life. I was going to stab myself when my girl left .e to go back to her Ex drug addicted husband she divorced 4 yrs ago😭😭😭😳
As a side note, if anyone wanted to know what they mean when they say “I’m your holocaust,” a holocaust is a sacrifice, which used to be burned completely at the altar. Hopefully that sheds some light on the meaning of this verse for those unaware. They way I interpret it is them saying “I’m your sacrifice” but also hinting at cremation.
Thanks for the info. I was wondering about what they actually meant.
Thank you, i didn't know what that meant. That interpretation gives more meaning to that verse.
Isn't The Holocaust something about the gas chamber that the Nazis did to those people? Like Genocide thingy?
Don’t fuck with me and my son. You can blame Lisa Ann Estes
Originally found these guys when just listening to random music that came on. I can’t explain how much these guys manage to hit every point that I feel no matter where I’m at.
So glad you found us and that the music makes you feel. Appreciate you
Dodgerunner I get it I found CS a few months ago and keep being surprised at how they hit me with every song x
Same I was just listening to my sad music and weight of the world came on and I was like " I like this ima listen to more" and now I'm obsessed
"Where does it hurt?
-here...
-here? ok.
-OUCH."
Same
"dad sing me a song from your generation" dad: (ahem) NO ONE KNOWS, NO ONE CARES, TO KNOW WHO I AM. lol
You guys are awesome another great song.
hahaha Thanks Jonathan!
FEEL THE WRIGHT OF THE WORLD, OVER ME TONIGHT
I just wanted to comment- I found this band while I was hitting a depressive episode and just- A lot of these songs hit home. I'm glad to see these topics handled in a way that feels real, cause it makes it feel just a little less lonely.
Lupo is lost that is the goal of this band. Sharing our stories and helping each other. Sending tons of love to you friend 🖤
As a combat vet/former police officer, your music describes me when I don't have the words to explain how I feel. I keep it all inside, but through your music you have broken through that wall and I'm facing those feelings. Thank you. It's a hard road, but I can't give up.
2:10 his voice is just full of emotion. Great song, keep it up
Thank you so much Riley!
I wish I found this while I was in high school. I never wanted anything related to suicide, I wanted to die by someone else's hand. When I wanted to die, I wanted to die doing something meaningful for someone else. I hated myself to the point of seeing myself as nothing but a demon in human skin. I thought I wasn't worth the effort of being taken care of by my family, so if I gave my life in sacrifice, my death would've meant something and people could just forget about the utter flaw I was.
Being high functioning autistic and knowing how people treated people with autism in the past, I saw myself as a defect that people would lobotomize and throw into a cage in a second. I was also self abusive to the point that I thought I deserved to carry the pain of everyone's mistakes including my own.
I hope you're doing better mate
This comment made me shed a few tears because i know how you feel like a demon in human skin and a mistake in life because for one i was a mistake i was a broken condom and failed birth control and then when i was born my dad was never there and as i grew up i noticed i looked alot like him and my mom was more affectionate towards my little brother and that she almost was scared of me and then i fell away from religion and my family is all Christians so that didn't help so they despised me for that and didn't want me near my other family and there kids and then i got into metal music that definitely didn't help because they see it as the devil's music and well through that it was heartbreak for being called weird looking because im not a good looking guy so that broke my confidence and then it became bullying for it and laughed at even my closest freinds bullied me and stabbed me in the back so i grew anger and hatred to everyone and everything but definitely towards myself because i felt i was born a mistake a waste of oxygen and resources and i wanted so badly to enlist in the u.s marines and serve my country or die trying in hope that they would say i was a great person but i was diagnosed with mental issues like severe depression bi polar and suicidal thoughts and you can't enlist with those problems because they cant trust you with a gun but now i have a beautiful girlfriend who loves me for me not my looks not my past or my mistakes or flaws so just know it gets better it may not seem like it but it does so stay fighting because you may not feel important to your family or the people around you but there's always the one that your fates will intertwine and youll fall for them and them you and happiness will be true and youll forget the past and bury it and revive the present and work on the future so stay strong 👍
dude, come with me to kill those dumbo annoying human who are the real demon and are juste horrible with autist !
hope you are getting better
and NOBODY Is better than you, nobody deserves happines more than you, you are amazing, please stay strong
Why is this comment just me wtf
Far away, there’s a place,
Where the lonely go, when there’s no way home,
No one knows, no one cares,
why does this keep getting me to breakdown and cry.
💜;
Same bro
Growing up I wish I had found a band like this. It seemed the world around me was full of the frivolous and popular and beautiful shitheads. Bullied, I was invisible to my classmates. Persona non grata. I fought back against my tormentors. I was outnumbered. This was before Columbine. While I don't condone what they did, I certainly walked in their shoes. You guys remind there are good people out there. While I still come across racists and the ignorant, I don't feel I'm alone against their vile kind of evil. Over the years my hatred for them has given way to pity. I hope one day they discover love in their hearts and realize we're in this together. Peace.
Appreciate those words Alan. Life can be brutal and feel like a constant battle when facing those situations. Stay strong and thanks for the support 👊
You have just described my life in my previous school mate. Hope you are having it better now .
Once "Buried Alive" came out I was hooked instantly this might be my favorite band as of now
Its an honor to be someones favorite
Did you forget you are at almost 100k subs
This song broke me down and made me cry, something I haven't done in a long time. Finally, someone understands me.
A beautiful song. There are many people that turn out to be fake in our lives. We must find ourselves, even in pain and dismiss the ones who have betrayed us... love for this band....
Jeff GUILLOD very well said friend...beautiful. Thanks for supporting us 🖤
These guys are so under rated...as someone who understands fighting mental and emotional issues i absolutely love their songs...i hope they realize how much they've helped over the years just by sharing such amazing talent
will sheppard you are so kind. Thank you so much for your kind words. Thank you friend 🖤
Ive attempted suicide but it failed i tried a second time but i listen to your song would anyone care and it really made me think and it opened my eyes and the feeling of loneliness in this world was taken away and made me realize im not alone in my fight with depression and schizophrenia and ive never attempted suicide again i view life very differently its a gift and im going to live life as best as i can thank you so much for that song i wouldn't be here if it wasnt for you guys your a great band and source of encouragement your a light in this darkened world tysm!
You're never alone.
I'm glad to read that you failed in your attempt, your life is precious and you are important, you are strong and you are not alone on this journey! ❤
Your music really hits down to the core. CitizenSoldier might be underrated but who know's, maybe one of this day's they will rise to their rightful place, achieving glory and fame
Appreciate that Jayson 🖤!
The pureness of this song is the key factor that stood out to me! So whole and tender. I like the message and the vocals! It compliments the instrumentation! Keep it up guys! Your getting so much better every time!!
Thanks Jonathan! We hope to continue to improve!
This Song just keeps me motivated to help those in need, talk to them because I always remember this one Quote "Help them because u could be the only one that does"
Love that quote! Thanks for sharing!
When people ask who my favorite artist is, I show them what helps me get through the day right here.
I wish there are more people enjoying this song. The emotion you put in this song needs more appreciation and the credits :P
Best way for that to happen is for people who like the song to share it with all their friends on social media and face to face :) glad you like the song!
@@CitizenSoldier you guys really grew big. Congrats
I suffer from depression, it has destroyed my friendships amd relationships, i have even tried killing myself in thr past, but thanks to you guys and the things you do, it has helped me trough so much and still does, i am greatful, thank you so much for the music
yep getting called a monster despite doing nothing but trying to help everyone around you,
only for them to abandon you and lie about you after.
i've been called "insane, horrible person" all sorts of things.
no one ever takes the time to fully understand someone going through this.
they just want to pass it off as a "bad person" not take the time to understand. thats why i only believe those who have suffered the same ways are the only ones who can understand those people.
god knows i've met a lot of those very people
"i'm a horrible person, i've done things that i cant take back, i deserve to suffer"
all they need is someone to stick by them for both good and bad. and not just leave the first sign of bad.
Stay strong my guy 💪
Having written at least two suicide notes... Tried to od in 2010,2014 and 2016.... This gets me... Can't help but cry
So glad you're still here.
dont stop fighting, you deserve happiness and you will get it, dont give up
wish you the best
Keep up the fight. Don't believe when someone says suicide is weak. Only survivors get how wrong that is. You matter.
I'm so happy for those who are struggling and come across this channel. Your songs are so well written and communicate such an inspiring message about faith and strength when it seems like there is nothing left for a person in their life.
I have been a fan since this came out
To be honest i prefer those kinds of songs over the new album
Songs that talk about daily struggles they really hit
Pleaaaase Citizen soldier we NEED this type of songs
your music is so powerful,, it makes me feel like I'm not going through this alone. thank you so much I cant wait to hear the songs yall put out next.
You're definitely not alone. So glad you like it
@@CitizenSoldier hi
@@CitizenSoldier can I use this on a UA-cam video love the song btw and I will have to listen to this during quarantine to remember the actual fun part of school+going to parks
Zoom classes are boring 😤😤
I just found out ur band and i tought ur like a popular and appreciated band and im like wait only 3 songs and good so glad to be here from the start! love u, keep upp the good work
Yes we are just a local band from Salt Lake City, Utah! Glad you like our music and we hope to continue to grow into a poplular appreciated band someday
Citizen Soldier Official I'm always looking for great music...thanks for what you have done keep recording...im a number one fan
I've already pre registered for your album on Spotify
@@CitizenSoldier Just keep it up like I have no subs but too many videos
The opening riffs are amazing, beautiful my friends.
Thanks Tyler Koontz! Jake not only sings but he wrote those guitar parts!
Citizen Soldier Official thats awesome, some great talent.
Thank you
I’ve been binge listening to all your songs at freaking 2 am, and not regreting a second. Citizen Soldier, thank you. You guys are amazing. I might be late, but honestly, it’s been an honor. It’s sometimes harsh, but inspiring, truthful, bold, incredibly touching and emotional, and just generally such good music. Thank you.
Katinka Lilla Horváth this comment made my day. Thank you so much. It’s incredible to see that you connect so deeply with the music. Appreciate you 🖤
This couldn't be more perfect time for this song. Thank you.
Glad we could help
My wife has borderline personality disorder and you guys help her through her dissociative episodes and her depressive moods and I thank you guys so much
I wish you guys would have created this back in 2012-2013 when it all started. This hell inside me that grew stronger to that day. Never stop creating music, please. Maybe you already know, but this helps many people. All the songs you've created are just too real and amazing 🖤
Glad you found it eventually. Much love to you. Thanks for fighting for yourself
Please never stop making music. You guys have helped me through so much, things no one will ever know because i can't talk about them to anyone.
For someone like me that finds expression of feelings through music. This song means alot. I relate to every lyric, and can say this song solidified Citizen Soldier as a permanent resident on the list of my absolute alltime favourite bands. Thank u so much for the songs. PS I would have posted a comment like this one on "If Scars Could Speak" but I couldnt type through the tears.
Thank you so much for making music that will be there for me when no one else is. It means alot
Edit: Didnt know it was about suicidal thoughts. I know now and am being taken on a whole new journey of relatability. Im a suicide survivor. And This song's relatability just doubled down and is forcing me to hide my pain and tears behind a mask. Im in the car with my family.
Im so glad I heard this
Thank You
I hope and pray anyone who finds this song An may be in a hopeless state of mind Never Give Up!
God loves YOU so much! And no matter what your going through in time things will get better just ask God to give you the strength to believe that good will come from the pain you are experiencing!
God Bless 😊
Much love 🖤🤘🏻
killer song! I love the lyrics you guys put in your songs. I cannot wait for an album from you guys! its going to be awsome!
Thanks 1983Ranger 350V8! We have been discusing a full album vs another EP in the future. We will see what happens
Your saving lives guys. I know if it werent for Y'all I honestly would feel like no one gets it. That I didnt ask for this. I didnt want my life to be this. Thank you!
i discovered your music in november when i was going through a fairly awful time, i ended up with 'buried alive' in my playlist all of a sudden and for maybe two weeks, your music was the only thing i could listen to. honestly, i have never heard music which speaks to me the way your songs do. nothing else really captures depression and mental illness and suicidal thoughts as well as these do. everyone needs to hear these. thank you is all i can say.
No, thank you for giving us a platform. We are honored to hear the music helps. So glad you found us. Sending love your way
First time I heard this song in the gym and fallen in love with it yet couldn't find the name of it.
Now after 2 years I am here, finally found it. Great great song. Thank you for creating it.
When you felt that no one comforts you..
Then Citizen Soldier came
I am absolutely AMAZED by you guys. Theres a RED, Breaking Benjamin kind of vibe going on. You guys are phenominal. This needs more views. I can't believe I stumbled upon you guys 😀 Never quit. You guys are too Beautiful.
Thanks Christian! You just named two of our biggest inspirations
I pretty much never comment on UA-cam, but my God I'll make a exception cus I just step by randomly and wasn't expecting such a good and emotional song
So glad you enjoyed it friend. Appreciate the kind words so much 🖤🤘🏻
The warbling in your voice is what makes this song so impactful. I can feel the emotion coming through, even though I can't see you. Thank you.
THIS SONG HIT ME HARDDDD man... I was suicidal 3 years ago. I couldn't live with myself anymore. It took a friend to make me realize life is worth living...
Takes one friend to save a life that's the truth
So glad you're still here
Also a masterpiece of a song.
It´s really strange. I feel like I have heard this song a lifetime ago but I just found out about you today. Your musical talent is able to break the dimensional boundaries and create nostalgia out of nothing.
That's amazing that you felt that! We've never had a comment like this so its very interesting to read something like this. Thank you for listening to our music
This was my favorite song for so long... I get emotional every time still. You guys are amazing
My favorite part is " don't you call me a freak , I don't choose to be weak ". I feel it represents me in a way. I always feel belittled cause I'm an easy target to hurt.
We've been there
@@CitizenSoldier thank you. That means alot
@@trippyalien556 Absolutely!
Random listening brought me here, now I can't wait for more. From vocals to lyrics and everything in between, this is powerful.
We're so glad you like it Jen! Be sure to share it with your friends :)
I must say, this kind of music isn't always what I prefer to listen to, but the vocals in the song are astonishing. Not to mention the fact that there's actual meaning in the song (unlike many new songs that are becoming popular some how). I can definitely see you guys becoming very popular. Maybe even famous. I wish you the best of luck in climbing the charts. Keep up the wonderful work and continue making music.
Thank you Dragon Ninja612 we're glad you like it!
You are one of the best Bands i´ve ever heard.. best lyrics, best vibes vor the feeling and i hope i will hear a lot more in the future from you. I know this is an older song but its still one of my favourites! Best wishes from Germany!
"there are just some things in this world, that not even fame can replace. Always keep your friends and family close"
When I'm depressed I listen to your music and it helps me feel happy again
Glad to hear that 🖤
I don’t think I’ve ever heard a band put so much emotion into a song that you can relate at least one aspect of your life with a song.
now that’s how you make a song that everyone will love.
I have some disappointment and resentment towards my family. They didn't understand why I was depressed. I silently battled it throughout high school and decided to tell them my senior year a decade ago. They asked. "Why?" That made me feel like shit. Like they didn't care or understood what I was going through. That moment I knew not to tell them about my depression or suicidal thoughts anymore. They didn't understand then and won't understand it now.
I listened to this masterpiece for the first time when I was at the mental hospital after my worst attempt and now listening to it for the second time and i still cry like a child
Awesome work! Lyrics, voice, rhythm... ALL IS PERFECT! ^^
Glad you like it Lara!
This song came across as a suggested song and when I first heard it, wow did it hit hard! It's 100% how I feel and added as the first song on my "pain" playlist (consisting of mostly Citizen Soldier and Breaking Benjamin songs). I can never put into words the hellish turmoil in my mind and this song speaks exactly what I struggle to say to others.
Thank you for such relatable lyrics for those of us hurting bad mentally and emotionally.
I've been singing this. It's been reaching deep down into the darkest parts of me heart's.
We love to hear that
You guys never fail to leave us speechless with your songs, not only they're awesome but they help us overcome really, really bad stuff. Love you guys, keep it up.
Appreciate that 🖤
i love it
Awe thank you random ix
i think one of the greatest things about this band is the fact that they've responded to almost every comment that I've read through, and thats pretty commendable because they're actively connecting with their community. Thats awesome.
We do our best! Thank you
I freaking love your songs because there's always such a powerful message behind them. Thank you so much for writing these amazing songs guys
Thanks for your continued support archerofwolves!
My heart aches for your music so much..
Angel WithaShotgun glad you connect with it friend. Have you heard our new album RELENTLESS yet? What did you think?
@@CitizenSoldier of course! I listen to you guys 24/7 on Pandora💙❤
Jake your voice is true bliss to listen to! :)
Thank you Dominika!
Why can't I get anyone to see that I'm right here?! Am I already gone, and I can't realize it? Does anyone remember that I existed? Have I already faded away so fast? Can no one hear my screams? Maybe it's everyone else that are the faded ... or figments of my broken psyche. My last desperate attempts to hold onto anything I can, even if it's nothing but pain, just so I won't be alone... and empty. Left with no one except my biggest failure. My ever-present reminder of the only "soul" that I can never seem to help find redemption; to feel at peace and know a purpose beyond its longing and hollowness.
Well said man. Fits this song perfectly.
After 60 days clean, I cut myself again. Your music is helping me a lot and I'm so grateful for it, your lyrics touch my soul. Almost nobody dares to sing about how suicidal people feel, or what is like to live with self-destructive thoughts. Only you have seen through me! I never found confort anywhere but in your songs.
I'm gonna choose to focus on the 60 days of strength than one moment of weakness. You should be so proud of yourself. Remember, this life is a marathon not a race. Be kind and patient with yourself and celebrate your victories. You can do this
Just found this realizing I'm in this mindset. Ive always felt like someone doesn't notice too much and I just feel like I can never get my life together. I feel like I'm bothering people if I try and talk out my true feelings or I'm just scared they will look down on me. I lost my passion for a lot of things I'm quite literally crawling through life trying to find purpose in my hardship.
Really hope things get better for you. Much love
Your voice is so comforting to listen to, thank you for all these amazing songs!❤️
Thank you for the kind words!
@Sarafina Summers Yes, exactly! It's just so amazing
U have saved my life so many times. If ut wasn't 4 ur musik, I'd have been gone. Ty 4 helping me 2 find reasons 4 fighting. My luv 2 u guys eternal.
Much love to you. Stay strong
What I got from this song was someone who had no one to turn to (maybe no one knew what this person was struggling with or didn’t care which is pretty messed up)-they just decide to live their last day or week on earth until they decide to take their own life.
What really caught me off guard was the “Don’t you call me a freak” (I guess he’s saying just because we’re battling with these voices in our head that trigger anxiety, depression or suicidal thoughts-doesn’t mean we’re being freaks) and when he says “I didn’t choose to be weak” (I didn’t choose to have these thoughts or burdens weigh me down-sometimes I’m not able to fend them off because they keep multiplying) and when he says “Holocaust. I’m your Holocaust” (He’s not referencing to the WW2 Genocide- to me it sounds like the depression, anxiety, fear and shame-all these dark thoughts leading you to think suicide is the only option and saying to you ‘no one is gonna help you-they got their own problems to worry about’ and you feel like this is your Holocaust-all the things your facing in life makes you feel like you’re behind a barbed wire fence *metaphorically* until you just wait to die).
Wow, this is one of the most insightful comments I have ever read on this channel. Very well done. You get it. So happy we have you hear as part of our family. Love ya
:)
I just can't believe how underrated you guys are.
You are too kind. Thank you so much 🖤🤘🏻
@@CitizenSoldier
Dear god why don’t more people know about this beautiful artwork that you’re producing
Our fan base is slowly growing
I wish i could help others the same way but i have no idea how to get past my own insignificance enough to be heard...i wanna advocate for the awareness of mental and emotional issues through simple communication...loneliness can be beaten easily if we just listen whole heartedly to each other
will sheppard you speaking up now...is a great start. Thank you for being a part of this community and supporting us 🖤
@@CitizenSoldier im trying to get there...im learning to play guitar atm and i also want to start a pod cast to talk with others about their emotional trauma and mental issues that hold them back from being their selves again
Me And My Brother Love Your Songs!! All Of Them Are Legendary For Us!! We Love You!!😍❤
Thanks Jeff the savior! Glad you guys like us!
+Citizen Soldier Official Keep Uploading Similar Songs And Never Stop And Run Out Of Ideas!!
There is more on the way. There has been discussion on scraping the idea of a 2nd EP for a full length. we will see what happens. Thanks for following us :)
You know, I've been listening to your songs for the whole day, and yet, none of them stops impressing me of how much heart you guys put into them. Every song has a powerful meaning behind, every song hits the right spots, and, some how, they gave me the inspirition to move on. It also gives me hope that you guys are good people, you give attention to your subscribers, your fans, youread every single comment and respond to them. I love u guys ✌
Love you back. Thank you friend 🖤🙏🏻
Do you know what it's like
Just to crawl through your life?
Like a ghost, like a ghost
I have beauty and rage
Full of love, full of pain
No-one knows, no-one knows
So I wrote a letter today
Wrote in blood just to say
I can't take this one more day
Far away, there's a place
Where the lonely go, where there's no way home
No-one knows, no-one cares to know who I am
So just take me there
'Cause now I have nothing left
And I am scared to death
Will they remember me?
Hanging my noose this week
Throw it all away, if I throw it all, all away
For 15 minutes of fame
Do you know how it feels
No control of the wheel?
I am lost, oh so lost
Don't you call me a freak
I don't choose to be weak
Holocaust, I'm your holocaust
In my last and final will
I will not be standing still
For once I will finally be
Something worth remembering
Far away, there's a place
Where the lonely go, where there's no way home
No-one knows, no-one cares to know who I am
So just take me there
'Cause now I have nothing left
And I am scared to death
Will they remember me?
Hanging my noose this week
Throw it all away, if I throw it all, all away
For 15 minutes of fame
Was I just born to be broken?
Is this the life I deserve?
To have a voice not worth hearing
Is it so absurd to want my moment of glory
If it costs me my soul?
A life condemned, that never was known
Far away, there's a place
Where the lonely go, where there's no way home
No-one knows, no-one cares to know who I am
So just take me there
'Cause now I have nothing left
And I am scared to death
Will they remember me?
Hanging my noose this week
Throw it all away, if I throw it all, all away
For 15 minutes of fame
15 minutes of fame
15 minutes of fame
This song came out the year my father had died, wish I discovered you guys that year rather than two years ago. I hope you never stop making music any time soon! Much love.
grandfather died in 2016 wish i was into this type of rock in 2016 , got into adtr in 2019 and recently into this band (like past few mths )
@@joewood1335 hope you’ve been getting through it well and are doing better from it!
@@ElectricalTides besides Failing out of Firefighter 1 in April I’m doing better , that was my main downfall this yr but trying to focus on my career this yr so I can get out of the auto industry before the owner sells our Clifton park store to investors by October so I’m going to the cdl school to get my class b eventually class a once I get hired with a trailer dump trucking company
@@joewood1335 I wish you luck man
I absolutely love your style of songs, and this one is no exception. Loving it!
That's so good to hear. We're glad you like it Yastr Pillay
"A life condemned that never was known" hits so hard. ❤
Thank you. I needed this...
You guys are AWESOME
Thank you friend! Glad it helped.
Thank you Citizen Soldier, you really understand the darkest parts of life and help so many people with your songs...never stop doing this🔥
Appreciate that 🖤 Thanks for listening
@@CitizenSoldier thank you for your reply💕
Absolutely gorgeous, the voice and the music, you have more than 15 minutes of fame in my head ;) had to relisten to the others again and again after seeing you had released a new song, I am keeping my eye on you guys for sure
Glad you like it Tailed! Thanks for sticking with us!
I just lost a friend with a 20 + years friendship and Let me tell you its really heart braking and its even worst when you struggle with mental illness
I can't stop listening to this song. It's so good!
That's awesome to hear! Be sure to check back on the 28th for the full EP and a new music video!
Just found this song and have been listening to it on repeat for the past 3 days. I've been in the worst place in my life recently and the lyrics of this song have been helping me through things
Steven! Glad you found us and so happy to hear how our music is healing. Stay strong man
Surprisingly, I found you guys on a facebook advertisement. I always enjoy finding new music and fell in love with the song
Yay! Thats why we advertise on Facebook!
once again, love from Germany. keep more music ❤❤
Glad to see you still following! Enjoy! There's more to come
I gotta say one thing, I love how you guys also care about what your fans say and that you answer pretty often, It's damn nice to see and feels good :)
Fans are the best way to see our work be appreciated. also sorry for the delayed response haha
@@CitizenSoldier Once in my life I thought that I will never have friends because nobody from my school listened to me and that I was going to be there. Only my family listened to me when I heard this song and now I feel better because thanks to your help and my family I managed to overcome it and from now on I will continue without fear thanks to you
You guys need to come around rockford il, would love to see a live performance.
Right now we're just a local band in Utah but we'd love to hit the road someday
Such an awesome, inspirational and very emotional song. Just gives you that feeling that fame won't last forever and it doesn't make you fully happy. True happiness comes from the experiances you gathered from your past experiances and learn from those experiances so you could do better in your own future and do your best to inspire other people from doing actions that makes other people appreciate your efforts no matter how painfull the journey is.
I hope someday an album of your amazing songs will be available at some point. Love your music Citizen Soldier. :)
If you're looking to get your hands on one of our CD's you can order the new EP here: igg.me/at/citizensoldier and thank you so much for the kind words! We're glad you like the music! Also if you're in the USA there's more merch options over at our website. www.citizensoldierofficial.com
Dear citizen soldier u guys have helped me through a dark time, I am so glad that God has led me to your music
Instantly put in the playlist, love it!
So glad you liked it! Thank you friend 🖤
Citizen Soldier, I'm liking your music here. I just wish you guys had some more songs for everyone to hear, though I'm sure you're doing your best. I think you guys are great and I'm happy I discovered you when I did. Keep up the good work. This song in particular is really inspiring to me. I'll be sure to stay tuned for anymore upcoming songs.
There's new stuff on the way! We're still getting in the swing of balancing live performances and studio sessions!
@@CitizenSoldier That's good to know. Thank you for the songs you've put out thus far, especially 15 Minutes of Fame.
Absolutely! We're really excited for this next one!
@@CitizenSoldier You and me both.
This is song reminds me of all the stuff I had to deal with growing up. How I keep making myself continue on anyways, even when nobody know me really. The song reminds me of that drive I used back then. Thankfully, I don't have to deal with that stuff anymore.
kidrik zagrent so glad you are out of that. Sounds like you’ve been through a lot and it’s made you stronger. Much love to you friend. Glad you connect with the music 🖤
The lyrics are such an interesting thing to hear and figure out the meaning of, they're done differently then most bands. They feel like they're talking to YOU, the listener, and for most of us, we can understand the lyrics and their meaning, and to some, they sympathize with the lyrics too. You guys are amazing and I hope you guys continue to become a while known band and can still pump out content to enjoy all types of listeners to follow you.
Thank you Michael!
Dear Citizen Soldier!!!!
You're amazing guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Axel Dreyar YOU are amazing. Thanks for the incredible support 🖤🤘🏻
If I could pick just one thing I love about you guys, it's the message you embed in every song you make. Each one unique, and somehow turned into a song people can relate to.
That's our goal! Music today can be so meaning less. Its a great way to connect with people and share our stories.
Great for you guys! I always look for good lyrics/messages in songs over the beat, although you guys nail both!
Thank you again Darth Trajan
No problem! You guys earn every compliment!
No words to describe how amazing your music is 😍😍😍 just priceless 😍😍😍
Wow! Thank you so much Ana!
Has helped me feel UNDERSTOOD after 59 yrs of abuse! Thank you Citizen Soldier! I've come SO close! Caroline multiplied 100x's!!