Intrusive Thoughts (Short Film about OCD)
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- Опубліковано 26 вер 2024
- This film was created to show how disturbing Intrusive Thoughts can be personified through a character who represents OCD. Every person who suffers from mental illness doesn't have the same experiences but this is to help bring awareness about one part of OCD some experience.
WARNING: This is a film which is meant to portray how it feels and can be disturbing for some viewers.
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That cursing in your head when praying was definitely on point
The demon does not like you to pray, you pray more now.
this is such an accurate depiction of OCD. I hope more people see this so we can break the stigma that surrounds it. its so much more than ‘keeping your surroundings clean’ and ‘being organised’. nobody ever talks about the intrusive thoughts and how exhausting it can become. this was a really good film.
yes.
I have the intrusive thoughts but not the cleanliness stuff
@@Bratzmaniac29 Same.
I love how I can relate to other people. Those types of thoughts are SO exhausting
But what can you do to help diminish the thoughts.
I am shocked at how much I related to this. I am not diagnosed but this makes me feel like I should find out for myself if what I'm dealing with could possibly be OCD.
I am happy you were able to connect but am sorry that you relate to those thoughts. It will never hurt to get diagnosed whether it be OCD or intrusive thoughts from anxiety, depression etc. , I know OCD has a very specific stigma around it so it can be hard to recognize by yourself sometimes.
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Same here. I already was diagnosed with anxiety a few years ago and i’ve had intrusive thoughts since I was a kid. I always felt crazy. I think i’m going to get checked out because I can’t even be around certain family members without these horrible thoughts. They make me physically cringe and I look & feel crazy. But this film portrayed it so well.
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me too! And its scary :(
This is pretty good. The one big thing to note for those that don't have OCD is that unlike mental illnesses such as Schizo-spectrrum disorders, OCD does not present as hallucinations or external voices, it's an internal dialogue, like your 'conscience'. It's also important to note that people with OCD don't want these thoughts and don't act on them as they go against our values and they attack the things we love and value the most.
The last scene kicked the hardest. When you finally thought the feeling is gone, you start to worry were it is, and this worrying brings it back, which you kind of crave because it has become normal, but it isn't. Great movie!
I don’t crave it, wish it was gone. (They aren’t harmful thoughts though)
I agree, your brain tells you you rather be in that state of mind
True , there are phases in the morning where i feel completely free of thoughts and feel soo good then i start thinking what a fool i was to think like that , those thoughts weren't mine , not mine ,not mine and then boom returns
@@omkardhekane6346 same bruhh 😢😢😢😢
The guilt and stress and thinking you're a terrible person for even looking at anybody else while you're in a relationship is so real. My brain tells me I have to be rude and ignore other people at times because some higher being will see my thoughts and set them into my SO's head. It's infuriating and debilitating. I've never seen somebody represent that :(
Everything here is spot on though, and I heavily relate to everything. Thank you for making this.
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I've literally broken up with a girl I loved due to my intrusive thoughts and my anxiety that led my day to day in a downward spiral, everyday, due to this exactly. Girls would even just simply be friendly to me and I would blow them off and be rude because I was scared I was cheating. Now I'm hyper fixated on her and have intrusive thoughts about her being with somebody else and it's so debilitating, because since July 2023 (this year, when I broke up with her), I can't think of a day that has gone by that I haven't had it pop into my head and disturb me. God, it's so terrible. I'm glad to see that other people have gone through the same shit I do though.
The frustrating thing is when ppl tell you it’s just stress or “OCD is over cleaning “ it irks my soul
It’s so strange seeing something that perfectly represents what I go through everyday. It’s helped me realise I’m not alone. I love this short film, thank you !
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Well done Rebecca, I experience OCD and it starts bothering me when I tried desperately to identify with any reckless idea that I had in mind. It started with doubting my sexuality to wanting to hurt other people... But none of it is true. They're simply ideas and let them flow instead of reacting to them or saying to yourself "how can u think of such thing" "u're such a psycho...". I think the key to understand OCD is by welcoming those feelings and let them go instead of judging ourselves
I have been having thoughts like this for almost my whole life, very intrusive and disturbing things that I would never do but then I over think and scare myself.
@@Emily-Rose420 Read the Bible and start asking God for help :)
@@jamescapb3795 don't recommend that crap to someone mentally unstable . That's the absolute worst thing to do!!!
I suffer from severe OCD and for years i've suffered with doubting of my sexuality and urges to hurt people which have now gone. I had to check myself into hospital due to me being so disturbed from it and to make sure i didn't do anything stupid. I kept telling nurses how ''This isn't me'' ''I don't like this'' ''Why did this happen?'' etc. I'm still battling the sexuality side of things. My mind tries to tell me that i'm gay and the thought of doing something with a man makes me cringe It feels like denial but i've only ever fallen for women and when that happens i feel happy. The intrusive side of it is so hard and i battle it most days.
@@jamescapb3795 I see no call to put your religous agenda into this thread. Respect other people enough to help them without trying to impose a doctrine on them.
This is the greatest representation of OCD. It’s always there with you no matter what and there’s nothing you could do to stop it. It’s an endless, vicious, nasty cycle bc the more you feed into it the worse it gets. This short film really shows the cruelty of OCD and it’s so accurate that it gave me goosebumps. Whoever made this is a genius.
Thank you so much, I am so glad people have been able to relate to it. OCD can be so so hard, but we will all get through it. This community really really helps just by knowing you are not alone. Thank you for taking the time to watch the film & comment, it means a lot.
Rebecca, congrats on making an awesome film about how OCD can really be. I have it myself; the intrusive thoughts, images, sensations, etc. It can be absolutely horrfic. OCD attatches to things and people you love, and having to live with it day in and day out can be exhausting as your character said in the film. Thankfully nowadays there isn't the extreme stigma about mental illness as there was decades ago. It still is out there, but peeps are becoming more aware of it. Thanks for making this video!
Thank you so much, I really appreciate your guys comments. It is so true. OCD really does attach to the things you value the most. I hope films surrounding these topics can tackle the stigma around OCD.
i suggest all ocd patients to take one spoon of honey before going to bed.
also 1 teaspoon of extra virgin olive oil daily
and eat 7 ajwa dates daily in morning before breakfast.
Hello Everyone! The feedback I have gotten is incredible, I seriously cannot believe it and am so grateful for this community. I am so glad my team and I were able to create something others can relate too. I want this to provide a space for those who suffer with OCD feel understood, and people who want to learn, to learn in a different way.
I love this video. I have OCD, and I related so much to this video. Ty
At first I was thinking I don't really think these things but as soon as the mailbox came up and so on I was like 😨 damn
well, hallucinations are not like that, not so strong that it would completely STABLY take over visual input received from the eyes.. although can be for bursts quite powerful, but it doesnt take up like a complete logical sense.
For example there may have images appearing but it behavles like a 2d projection onto the vision. or something in space however that is semi-transparent. or feel like shifted imagination like in a dream for some shorter duration, but then it is within procedural memory that now i see a complete imagination.
This video maybe thus suggestive to hallucinator people and they would get eventually (a few of them) trained to hallucinate composits so that imagining into the seen part a fully logical image (but normally as i write, the logic of seeing contradicts the logic of imagination, so it can be strong imagination but taking input and thus as it is integrated, logic as well from the visual parts so then the seen in space sorta thing becomes transparent and actually somewhat suppressed as well, thus blury and perhaps other distortions)
This way i have seen ghosts or heard ghosts, although hearing is a little bit more different because normally you dont hear anything so then there is no logic to take over from the hallucinated thing.. thus usually people who hallucinate hear voices (this was the case for me at first, and this was even more so that i would mishear some of the things people would say).
i believe intrusive thoughts would be something more general, while OCD is more specific such that OCD is a ritual to prevent bad things to happen, in a somewhat unreasonable way.
While intrusive thoughts can be such as observed violence, and then the thoughts construct violence depicted if i would do it.. violence against others and myself as well, such as jumping off a bridge, or cutting up someone with a buzzsaw.
Holy shit. This is 100% exactly my life. From the walking to the beat, and the praying and then thinking something 'bad' and then being scared that god heard that and thinks I meant it...etc. Wow.
TYTYTY! I am very happy you were able to connect with this. I am sorry you also struggle with OCD - you are not those intrusive thoughts.
I also used to have exactly this and what broke it for me was when I was wathcing harry potter and dumbledore told him it doesnt do to dwell on dreams and forget to live.
I struggle with the same thing about praying. But I don't think God cares about it much. He acknowledges it and loves us anyway.
God wouldn’t judge us for our thoughts. He knows that you can’t control it. Also ocd isn’t what you secretly think, it’s your biggest fears. so you fearing what God might think of you, tho it may not seem like it, is really just a sign of strong faith. Hopefully, we get rewarded for the pain that we go through, especially since it’s a thing that doesn’t show on the outside as scars and bruises. It’s a mental disorder between you and God, and all u can do is pray for it to end. I totally get how you’re feeling. I’d sometimes get thoughts like “what if I secretly don’t believe in God and get punished for it?” But of course me being scared of such a thing really shows faith. It’s like someone the complete opposite of u lives in your head.
exactly same
This perfectly depicts the OCD.
The intrusive thoughts like stabbing, turning car over ditch, falling of stares. Paranoid with surroundings and people.
I suffer from OCD and this is very very accurate. It’s an awful thing to suffer from and it’s definitely not cool. OCD is a bully inside of your head. To anyone else suffering from mental illnesses, I hope you get the help you need.
I struggled immensely during covid
@@Safespace4all-13 I hope ur doing better now
@@goofball2228 aww ty you too
Hi. This film made me cry. It is so relatable, and it’s so much more beyond the film. I’ve been suffering with this for years. Since I was 7 or 8, the steps, the way I walk and excessive tapping and all that started, I’m 18 now, and god it’s 100 times worse. It’s escalated terribly where I can’t even have my hands drape free. My mind tells me that I’m pointing or putting my middle finger in the direction of a funeral home, cemetery or church. My minds goes “Are you cursing at them? Do you want to end up there” and I live next to a funeral home, and I have an alter in my house, so you can imagine how stressful that is for me 24/7. I haven’t sat in my living room for 2 years because of this (alter is in my living room). The intrusive thoughts also cause me severe migraines, because when I try to take back the intrusive thoughts it’s a fight with myself and my body starts to physically hurt. I can’t even pray or live my life because my minds tells me that I mean what I say, it makes me think that what I say is coming from my true thoughts and that God knows that this is the real me. I believe in God, intrusive thoughts are just overpowering that it makes me question what thoughts are mine. Another thing is that every action I do, my mind makes me believe that there is a consequence. What cup I drink out of, what pillow I sleep with, everything. If I don’t do this or that, my mind tells me that () will get hurt, or this person would have something bad happen to them. And it could be a person I don’t even know, but idolize. I can’t even read the words relating to death, my mind goes “You want that? You want that to happen to someone else?” If I even see such words, I already know what’s coming and the mental strain I’m about to go through to take it all back. It’s only getting worse. I even think about ending it sometimes, but then I have intrusive thoughts about that as well. It’s draining and I don’t think it’ll ever get better. I try to “not care” and “ignore it” hoping I’ll get used to ignoring it. But those attempts only last for 2 minutes before my mind goes crazy trying to take back everything I didn’t even say. I’ve had a migraine about everyday this month. I’m stressed all the time and I don’t really tell anybody. I’m just helpless. But I really connected to the video. It sucks that we go through this. I wish there was a solution.
First of all thank you so much to take the time to write a comment. Getting comments that explain how they personally can connect with the film makes me feel like the time and effort we put into the film was all worth it. The purpose of creating it, was so other people struggling with OCD can relate and connect- and not feel so alone. I myself had a hard time making this because it can be very hard to be vulnerable and put these thoughts on paper or in any art form while also trying to represent other intrusive thoughts other face.
I am so sorry you are going through a hard time with your OCD, I promise it will get better and having the awareness to know what it is and the things that affect you will help a lot. Religious intrusive thoughts are extremely upsetting since we value God so much and these intrusive thoughts attack the things we care about the most. Please continue to reach out to loved ones and connect with people about it, you are not alone.
There isn’t a solution, just a way to live through it, THERAPY!!!. And I know how you feel bro. Literally about to cry
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You should definitely seek out therapy it’s gonna get better and you’re gonna get through this.
Emily I can relate to you.I had gone through this condition.when I was suffering I didn't know that I have this disease.no one helped me.even I was not able to help myself.I was helpless too like you.I used to weep trying too figure out what is going on with me. I used to asked God why I am suffering like that?what is the cause?why you don't help me?
But God is so merciful.he helped me
That time too.he gave me the shelter of his holy name.he provided me with beads,beadbag and bhagvad geeta.
Then I started chanting Hare krishna mahamantra on beads and started reading bhagvad geeta.
I started chanting with one round on beads and gradually it got increased and now I am chanting 16 rounds everyday. I don't know how but this disease vanished gradually from my life and now after 2 years of struggle I am living a normal life again and happy.
I beg you to please start chanting.This mantra(hare krishna hare krishna krishna krishna hare hare,hare rama hare rama rama rama hare hare.) is so powerful.
Please chant just one round everyday.it will only take your 8 minutes. krishna is always there to help us.we just need to ask for help.
I have suffered the worst so I don't want anyone to suffer like that. I pray that you soon be free from OCD.
I'm speechless at how accurate this was as someone with OCD and intrusive thoughts. It hurts to see it on screen so accurately. Amazing work.
Thank you so much. I am glad you were able to connect to it, it can be really hard dealing with but creating this film will hopefully help others feel a little bit less lonely living with OCD.
"So fucking exhausting"....
The snapping through the entire thing....
This was perfectly crafted, beautiful and sad and relatable. Thanks for sharing.
This is Crazy, this is the same suff I go through everyday. Very well done.
Thank you - I am glad we could portray what many people go through on a daily basis.
I had an intrusive though earlier, while I was slicing fruit, about cutting my eye with a knife. It feels so terrible.
Hey,my boyfriend had OCD and sometimes it's hard for me to understand what he feels like, especially when he opens up to me about thoughts OCD causes him to have about our relationship. This video helped me see things from his POV, so thank you very much and congratulations on your amazing work!!
In this situation I understand how hard it is, I have it myself. It's scary, just be there for him or not. Just do what he asks. But some give up on him.
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Wait what kind of thoughts does your boyfriend have? Could we talk privately about it please I have been having intrusive thoughts about my relationship for like 3 months and Im kinda interested to know if they are the same, because that could help me (knowing im not the only one) and also I could give you some tips to keep him happy and clear minded
@@miguelmrs5783 yeah of course we can. Where would you like to talk about it
@@sriku1000 hey there. i’ve been having intrusive thoughts about my partner, but i know i love him and that its not really me thinking these things. we should talk, it’ll make me feel less alone
I'm sobbing on my lunch break watching this. I've never related so much to something so horrifying and isolating. Thank you for making me feel seen.
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I hope to all people experiencing this ..I hope you get better
i am so so so sorry that you suffer from this same illness. but i’m so thankful that you’ve put to film the CLOSEST representation i have ever seen to what it’s like to have OCD, whether it’s pure OCD or “regular.” i can share this with my loved ones and feel like an accurate picture has been painted, and that’s something i never thought i could do. i’m wishing you well and i’m so grateful for your work
Thank you for your comment it means so much, I’m also so sorry you have similar thoughts & experiences. I hope this helps!❤️
this gave me chills especially the cutting the apples scene because that is something i used to be ashamed to talk about. thank you for spreading awareness and making people feel seen because ive heard people say things like they wish they had ocd so they could be a more tidy person which really shows more people need to be educated about ocd because it is a struggle to cope each day without facing hurtful comments and stereotypes. really well made by the way the filming. acting and background voices are amazing :)
As someone who struggles with OCD, I really feel to thank you for making this video.
Seeing such an accurate representation of the disorder is rare, since everyone seems to be focused on the usual harmful stereotypes.
I think my favourite scene ever is 7:35 and I'm really saying I FELT IT. Such a simple but hitting way to describe the difficult to separate intrusive thoughts from you.
Oh, and mentioning religious-themed OCD is something I personally appreciated a lot.
Thank you so much. I wish there were more content like this when we talk about OCD.
This is so cruel, but so real. Thank u for this, you represented exactly my OCD
I am so so happy I was able to represent things you and others go through. Thank you for watching it and taking the time to leave a comment.
Excellent. Thank you very much for doing such a great job at capturing and portraying what living with this disorder is like. I have OCD and found it very relatable and accurate, including toward the end during your internal dialog when you had the same thoughts I have - that I won't get better and that "Every thought, every action has a consequence". That is a particular phrase and concept I struggle with which results in me overthinking everything and catastrophizing and ruminating over everything and anything. Currently struggling with depression related to OCD. Thanks for making this.
Thank you so much, I am so glad the film is relatable to many with OCD that struggle in similar ways as I do. It can be extremely debilitating when you overthink every action like how you described, and it can feel very lonely- you are not alone.
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This is the best video about OCD I have seen so far. The presence of the man represents the presence of the disorder every single minute. It is made in such a genius way. Even his finger clicks represent the constant noise of words in the background of the mind. Such a masterpiece. And I had goosebumps when she prayed because I actually have this exact intrusive thoughts whenever I pray. And I do the exact same thing as she did, immediate apology to god and then the feeling of guilt.
That is a huge compliment thank to so much. I always tried to find films that rep[resented my OCD and had a hard time finding them too. It can be difficult to be vulnerable and analyze yourself to be able for people to connect but it is worth it when others struggling can relate and start discussion about it. Thank you for commenting.
שלום גם לי יש את זה
@@rebeccachiafullo of course! Keep up the good work both with dealing with OCD and with creating awesome stuff like these🙏🏽♥️
@@morbius7437 וואוו😕 אבל אני שמחה שאנשים שיש להם את זה מקבלים אבחון. זה מקל המון.
This is really good. I have problems with intrusive thoughts myself and It’s a living hell… they are not you.
Sums up my whole life. People always associate OCD with just cleaning and orderliness, thank you for showing how hard it is to live with intrusive thoughts
This right here was one hell of a film. The way you depicted what it's like to feel like you killed someone close to you gave me chills! I didn't know I had OCD till this year when I did research about the things I've been experiencing and there was a point in time where I couldn't look at myself in the mirror anymore I was afraid and it all started when I was 5yrs old I saw a very vivid picture of myself beating my mother to death with a shovel. I dropped the shovel, ran away crying because I didn't want to hurt anyone and the intrusive thoughts got worse and worse to the point where I couldn't trust myself around anything sharp. I was genuinely terrified that one day I'll hurt someone or myself, but having a good relationship with God really makes a difference and understanding that they are just thoughts in our heads nothing else, they can't take control and bend our will to do bad things we are in full control we just have to ignore the thoughts. What works for me is music, dancing, writing the thoughts down and how I feel about them, there are different ways to cope and I hope this was helpful, but truly what a masterpiece of a film. I would love to see an entire movie about OCD.
Thank you so so much for watching my film! OCD can be so hard especially when you don’t know what is happening and you are so young. I am so glad you were able to relate and also find that a closer relationship with God has helped- it has helped me too!
wow I never seen someone use the same analogy as me when "personifying" ocd. a different person yet alike all the same. "I am you" is a line I distinctly recall hearing within myself when having the same conversation. it truly is an exhaustive crippling experience, especially with the character judgment based on said intrusive thoughts cause your brain perceives thoughts as an indicator of who a person is
Thank you, Rebecca. I have nightmarishly battled intrusive thoughts all my life. It's gotten so bad that I can't even trust my own childhood memory anymore. It's a blessing that people like you can make short films like this one to help raise the awareness that is so seriously needed.
Happy New Year.
It can be so hard, thank you so much for your comment. I am happy people can connect with the short film and feel a little less alone. Happy New Year & stay strong!
@@rebeccachiafullo Will do. Thank you.
I don't have OCD but I do have intrusive thoughts as well. I think it has something to do with either my anxiety or depression but this made me realise that I am not the only one that is experiencing this type of ordeal. I hate when my intrusive thoughts are about me killing people or people killing me or anything about killing and death in general. It's hard to go on with your life but we're trying. I hope you are well, dear friend.
omg same. i hate it.
As a severe OCD sufferer, this brought me to tears. So many times I tried to explain to my family how bad ocd makes me feel but they can never really understand. I want to show them this video. Thank you for making it.
Wow. I had such an emotional reaction to this. Very anxious - because of how much I empathized with you and understood what was being displayed. The scene in the bedroom near the end just brought me to tears.
This was both painful and beautiful to connect with. So much to think about. Thank you for giving me hope.
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Wow, just wow. This is absolutely perfect. I'm hoping some people will understand what it's like to live with this disorder now.
Thank you so so much. I am glad it was accurate for you and I also hope this can help towards ending the stigma.
Thank you for accurately depicting OCD. Those intrusive thoughts in prayer and prayer compulsions are something I went through and still struggle with today. I'm working through those praying compulsions in therapy now. I hope everyone on this thread who has ocd are able to get the help they need. Awareness for this disorder is soooo needed! The stigma keeps suffers in the dark. Awareness can truly save lives! You have done such an important thing making this film! Thank you! The media needs more of this.
this captures the out of body intrusive feeling so well, of feelings like your thoughts are from someone else. i relate to this a lot for my anxiety and feeling like you won’t escape and constantly having thoughts that i don’t want to think. very well made 👏
All I can say to describe this film is amazing. Truly one of the best short films I have ever watched, I am just amazed how accurate these depictions of OCD are. As someone who has experienced symptoms of OCD I can not tell you enough how much I relate to this film, I was actually scared how similar I am to the girl in the film, with some of the rituals and other intrusive thoughts the girl had .
This deserves more views it’s so accurate n good.
Tysm I really appreciate that
Thank you for this film. This is exactly what OCD feels like. I have no words, i hope this short fim finds whoever needs a reminder that they aren't alone, and that there are other people who feel the same symptoms.
For the people who are diagnosed with OCD like me, you got this!
This is the best depiction of OCD that I've ever seen. That nagging voice inside, though it's not someone else's voice.. it's your own internal dialogue and it never shuts up. It is exhausting.
It is exhausting, especially the fatigue at the end of the day
Imagine this film is your daily reality. It is a superbly made metaphor for my reality. I can defeat the intrusive thought entity with an intense explosive focus of my will, then turn around and there it is again, none the worse for my liberation raid and ready to start up all over again, leveraging control of my life. I never believed any video presentation could explain what intrusive thoughts are like. This one did brilliantly and in ways a non-sufferer can grasp. I know, in my logic sector, that the thoughts and notions are not real, that they are external and not from me. But my logic is overruled by left over magical thinking that a person normally parts with by age 5 or 6. Thank you, Rebecca Chiafullo. Seeing someone else's experience with this horror may give me a tool for further healing.
Wow ... Great video. This is amazing. very relatable.
I loved how when Harlow wakes up in the morning and she looks around thinking all is well, but then immediately "he" comes into frame, throwing off all peace and zen. That literally gave me a stomach punch of anxiety, because artistically that depiction was so accurate. You wake up after feeling peaceful for a night, then immediately anxiety hits you and honestly in my case it has made me want to just disappear. Going to bed without completing rituals trying to be a champion over anxiety, then waking up the next morning and immediately dreading the day. Terrible stuff
This is the best representation of ocd i have ever seen in my life. It really does feel exactly like that. I am very impressed of that video, it should get a lot more attention, because it’s so accurate. Very good job!
This video really shows how intrusive thoughts are with OCD. It is exhausting, yet it does not feel so empty inside to know we are not alone. In my case I wish I could help others but sometimes I ponder why I don’t do the therapy homework on a daily basis so I can feel better. I think self abuse is another thing we deal with along with fears and irrational thoughts we need to work through therapy. Thank you Rebecca Chiafullo for making this video! 9:15
wow. i wasnt expecting this to be so accurate. down to the walking, and the harming people youre closest to. ocd really sucks. having these thoughts is nauseating bro. its exhausting waking up everyday and always getting these thoughts:(
It can be very exhausting but I am glad you were able to connect and hopefully feel a bit less lonely living with OCD.
especially with irrational non logical thoughts
This is terrifyingly accurate! I have OCD and this feels so much like what I go through. Mine is a little different, obviously, because everyone with OCD is different.
This inspires me to make a film just like this eventually. Maybe I should make it at school.
I've just gone down a rabbit hole of OCD short films and I have to tell you that this is the most accurate depiction I have seen. The kitchen scene, the thoughts in the park. I am almost in tears of comfort knowing that others experience the world as I do. So thank you very much for using your skills to create such moving work.
Finally... I think I'm gonna point others to this video when they ask what my OCD is like. This and another video I've seen recently are spot on. Well done.
Brilliant little short about OCD. Could not have made it better! This is exactly what OCD looks like!
It's like watching a video about myself. Feel so close to people who are experiencing this.
So many more people then we think experience this but I think our OCD itself makes it very hard to talk about.
@@rebeccachiafullo I'm lucky to have people who i could talk to, and who always supported me.Thank you for raising awareness and for making this video, for people like me.
Yes this is exactly what intrusive thoughts are
Excellent video thank you.
Cooking can trigger unpleasant intrusive thoughts for me. Like the thought of my hamster being injured with whatever utensil im using. Walking down a meat aisle is horrible. Ive been veggie for a long time.
I had distressing intrusive thoughts when my son was born and i was obsessed with protecting him from harm. Its totally normal to feel like this, however upsetting it is. Its the amygdala in the brain going into "threat detection overdrive" sometimes. Ive found that when im well rested, eating healthy, getting plenty of exercise especially outdoors in the fresh air, and reducing stressors in my life that helps a lot.
It definitely is normal to feel like this, separating myself from these thoughts has helped me realize I am not a bad person or want these thoughts- it is simply just what my brain uses to mess with me with- since they are all things I care deeply about. I agree with the state of mind affecting how frequent or intense these thoughts can be. Thank you for your comment and the feedback!
We are not alone
I know a lot of other sufferers have been saying the same thing, but this depiction is incredibly accurate. I suffer from ocd, harm specifically, and can totally relate to this. My compulsions aren't as obvious because I don't really do patterns such as tapping or knocking, but rather I have the urge to call my parents at night to hide their knives since I know the code to their house, or to change their code. My worst compulsion that I take part in is actually staying awake all night, because "nighttime is when my family is asleep and most vulnerable and if I try to sleep I'll be alone with my thoughts and what if I give in and go hurt them. I have to stay awake until I know it's during the time they would wake up for work/school so that I'll know they're not vulnerable anymore and I won't be able to hurt them". Living on my own has made ocd that much harder to deal with, especially since it's isolated me from making any friends, but honestly this video helped in an odd way. The way you added the girl's voice to her obsessions is incredibly accurate, because we can see ocd as part of us and sometimes it feels like we're the ones telling ourselves these things. Hearing it in the boy's voice instead of hers helped me think of my own ocd that way, and that makes me feel better. Next time I feel a panic attack coming on or my obsessions get bad, I'll try and think of them as somebody else's voice or as if they're someone else spinning these images into my head. That way I can separate them from me. Maybe it'll help. Either way, thank you so much for making this film. You did a wonderful job and we appreciate the support for sure.
Yes! I love that you illustrate the confusion of “is this me” or “is this not me.” I suffered so long not even realizing I had a disorder full of crazy thoughts that did NOT come from me. Now I am so much better at recognizing them.
you should definitely mybe talk to someone..... I deal with ocd not to that extent and it's exhausting for me. I hate hearing that you're going through that:/
oh my god. this comment… my stepdad tried to teach me how to shoot a gun, but I was always scared to learn because of the intrusive thought that I’d one day I’d hurt them. there was a time two years ago I woke my mom up in the middle of the night visiting when I was in a bad mental episode in which I begged her to put the guns in a safe and lock her door because of how afraid I was that I’d hurt them. It’s like even if you know you’d never do something like that, the fear compulsion is so large. i would be so scared that if I didn’t do a specific thing or pattern/action, then these intrusive thoughts would occur. i never thought I’d hear someone else describe this feeling in such similarity. I’m crying
OCD is like a living hell, I describe to people its like having a ball and chain around your ankle pulling you back, slowing you down with everything you do you can't get much done in a day and the amount of energy it burns in a day is incredible,. Like for eg:- just a doing a couple of the jobs people take for granted like just going to the shops to get milk. It burns your brain. The letterbox bit got me, because I could feel the anxiety when you were walking to get to the letter box, to feel the envelope, opening and letting go of that then closing it again, and reopening, closing to get that sense of satisfaction. I know that feeling all to well its a pain in the bum. Thanks for sharing this video and shedding light on OCD its a pain.
This is really good! It has really great quality! And the acting’s awesome. I can relate to it in more ways than one. Keep making great content and I hope your doing well!
TYSMM! I hope you are doing well too- it can be difficult living with OCD.
As someone with OCD I cannot tell you how accurate this film was. OCD is always there whether you choose to acknowledge it or not . always nagging. It’s such a struggle that not many people keep attention to
I’m sitting here bawling. I felt completely seen and understood. My own brain exhausts me and I feel like I have no escape from it. This happens so many times a day and it creates the worst anxiety. The most painful thing about this form of OCD is how lonely it is. I’ve never talked to anyone about it, despite being in the hands of many therapists and psychiatrists throughout the years, for fear that they would label me as a threat to society, when in actuality, I’m more of a threat to myself. The violent thoughts don’t happen often but when they do, I’m always terrified of myself. I would never in a million years hurt someone but the visions are so vivid that I fear that it’ll happen in the moment or a future premonition. And it’s not always physically violent thoughts but sometimes it’s emotionally violent where I tell someone off in the most degrading way even though I’m not the confrontational type at all and all of the words that my brain has scripted are completely baseless. I also have explicit sexual thoughts that are so wildly inappropriate that it makes my head spin. I’ve been happily married for 11 years and I’m terrified that I’ll follow through with the visions. It’s very irrational because I have zero interest in the people that I unintentionally “fantasize” about and ultimately, I love, respect, and cherish my husband. It greatly hurts my ability to socialize, and because of it, I have crippling social anxiety.
There are many other obsessions that take over my mind but the one that takes up most of my attention span and time has to be my obsession with my health. I’m hyper aware of the sensations of my internal organs. It always starts with an “abnormal” feeling in my body which leads me on a wild goose chase on google for hours and hours about what it could be. It always ends up with me feeling that I have an underlying cancer or an incurable disease and that I’m going to die from if I don’t catch it in time by being able to self diagnose. My daily routine suffers significantly from it and I can’t stop searching. I’m often stuck sitting in place for hours until I find the answer. There’s often no one definitive answer and I’m left with the fear of the unknown after searching for 8 hours straight, while depriving myself of basic human needs- eating, drinking, using the bathroom. I search and search to figure out “what’s wrong with me” regarding my mental health as well but has often led to more answers than not. A couple weeks ago, I actually got lucky. After doomscrolling though Reddit one day, I stumbled upon a Reddit describing exactly what I mentally go through every day. I went down a rabbit hole to discover that there is a name for this phenomena: OCD. There’s something so empowering about being able to name what it is that’s causing me this existential pain. Because I finally had a name to call it, I faced my fear, and ended up being formally diagnosed with OCD. Tomorrow will make 1 week since my diagnosis and I’ve been taking time to mentally unpack the reasoning behind this mental torture and educating myself on different forms of therapy. I finally have a map to understand my road to recovery and healing.
I’m 30 years old and I’ve literally lived my whole life believing that I am a psychopathic pervert because of these intrusive thoughts that haunt me, day in and day out. I never knew OCD also presented in this form. My mom has OCD and has the type that nags her to constantly clean and needs absolute perfection. I’ve always seen OCD portrayed in Hollywood which shed light on the germaphobia, rituals and routines but it missed a large part of the ostracizing form of OCD that no one talks about.
Thank you SO MUCH for creating this short film. I’ll now be able to use this video as a visual representation of what it’s like to live in my mind and how debilitatingly horrific it can get. This short film needs more attention to raise awareness of the Obsessive part that is so often missed. I can’t thank you enough for representing the often unseen parts of this disorder.
I’m very sorry about the novel.. but at the same time, if my words are able to help someone understand that they’re not alone, then I’ll be eternally grateful. You are loved. You are not “crazy”. You are enough. And most importantly, you are not alone. ♥️
I have OCD and this is so freaking accurate. I hate intrusive thoughts so much. They make me so uncomfortable. One of the few times they don’t bother me is when I’m writing poetry or when I’m drawing, but I wish I didn’t have intrusive thoughts at all. They’re so disturbing and if I ever told anyone about them they’d think I’m actually gonna do something bad when I’m not. I have this stupid intrusive thought that if I don’t do something, or if I DO, in fact, do something, someone important in my life will get hurt, get hit by a car, or die, and I hate it. I’ve heard people say they wish they had OCD so they could be clean but I know for a fact that they wouldn’t last an hour with intrusive thoughts. And thank you for adding the religious intrusive thoughts. I’m not religious at all but when I was younger and in church or at home praying (I was a kid so I had to go with my parents to church and grew up in a religious household), I would get these disturbing intrusive thoughts and then I’d give up on praying because of it. But religious intrusive thoughts are barely talked about so I’m glad you included it here.
Oh man, ironically i rarely comment on things because of my ocd but i HAD to comment on this, other videos would hit certain things but not EVERYTHING, this almost made me cry because its the most accurate thing I’ve seen about ocd, I’ve always described it as another person, someone that never leaves me alone and prevents me from doing regular everyday tasks, and in the end that “person” will always come back, this was amazing, thank you for making this.
This is exactly how it is, it triggered my intrusive thoughts but I am so so so happy that I’m not the only one who’s going through this and there’s a billion more people who are living like me ! I’m not crazyyyyy
This is so amazing.
This year I had a rush of mental illness diagnoses consume my life. It happened over just a few months and it turned my whole world upside down. Pulled me away from everything “normal” that I used to know. I haven’t been able to go back to work since July. My hair is falling out, suddenly my days are ruled by alarms because I do not have a working memory anymore. Sometimes in the middle of panic I cannot find my way home even if I’m standing in my driveway or at my front door. It was bad enough that my partner and I discussed signing over my medical rights in the event that I am ever not well enough (again) to make decisions for myself.
I have done a small series on Tiktok about intrusive thoughts, obsessive thoughts, phobias, panic, how hard the meds are to balance, etc. What I would love is to be able to normalize mental illness, and for people who suffer with them to be part of the conversation.
If everyone knew how quickly it can all happen, how the hands of mental illness can pull you up by your roots and tear you down… I truly believe that there would be so much more kindness in the world. Thank you for this short film. You did a really beautiful job. ♥️♥️♥️
OCD is something that drove me mad. I couldn't wear certain clothes because they were "cursed" or something bad would happen if I wore them. I would turn the lights on and off so the number would be perfect, so my family wouldn't die. I would fear myself killing those I love, I couldn't move 2 steps without being trapped in a cycle of impulsive actions and thoughts. I would stay up for hours, just hoping and begging my mind to let me sleep and stop walking around my room like a madman tying to prevent death, and I would cry to myself, looking like a psychopath. Nobody understood or knew what it was. And I couldn't tell anyone because they would get angry and tired of it. I felt like a broken shell. I started thinking if it would be better to end my life than live in this cycle of pain. This of course made no sense, because I would do impulsive movements or actions to prevent my death, but I wanted to die? It was torment, and I felt selfish admitting that it was. I started seeing my therapist and taking medication, and feel so much better, and even though it still creeps up on me, I have techniques to ward the thoughts away. OCD isn't being a perfectionist or a germophobe. It's mental torture, so don't fucking joke about it. Thank you for making this film, it shows the true meaning of OCD.
I have OCD and severe Emetophobia and the outfit thing gets me all the time. "At some point you'll probably get sick, what if that day is today, and you're wearing that outfit? That's your favorite shirt, right? What if it gets ruined? What if it gets associated with being sick? What if you have to throw it away? You'd better change." And so some of my favorite clothes have been hanging in my closet for months, and I really want to wear them, but I can't.
i don't have OCD but i do get really bad intrusive thoughts about things such as hurting/killing myself/my family/people I care about and stuff like shown in the video but i think it's mostly because of my anxiety
100%. I think anxiety can make these thoughts very intense. I know personally when I have higher levels of stress/anxiety these thoughts can occur more often.
This is one of the most accurate depictions. I don't experience some of these as often anymore but others go rampant. Thank you for making this, you sometimes forget that this isn't you but just something within itself.
This video is so relatable. I've had intrusive thought problems for quite a while now. Recently it's been quite bad. It has ended up getting worse.
I'm getting the support and help and I'm glad I watched this because it made me feel that I'm not alone. Thank you for this video 😊
I am just now begging to identify and understand my own mental health. I completely relate to these violent and twisted intrusive thoughts and it felt like you were in my head watching this film. Its scary and confusing dealing with these thoughts, but seeing this comforted me knowing I am not alone.
This a great representation of ocd, I totally relate to this. This is what I go through daily, though I'm doing treatment and it's getting better. The "You're exhausting!" scene hit me, that's what I used to say all the time in the early stages. Good job filiming this and sharing it with the world. People need to know what OCD truly is. OCD is an imaginary monster that follows you around, terrifying you. Anybody with ocd, it's not real - you are not your brain nor your thoughts! Be strong, take care and be kind to yourself!
That bit where an onlooker stares while you’re deep in your ritual, I give them the death stare
I go through many similar things. I remember as a child thinking i was absolutely crazy, and deserved nothing because i was so weird, especially struggling with intrusive thoughts because they are horrible especially when you don’t know what they are. I didnt know how to talk to people about it, and I think its awesome that this video exists solely so that people who are struggling know they aren’t alone. A huge weight lifted off my shoulders when I found out i had this. It’s okay to have ocd, you are not alone and you’re not crazy
"wave back and that dog gets hit by a car" i hate having to decide between a perceived negative outcome and the thing i know is realistic.
This is so relatable. Right down to the consequences coming from random actions. Even though objectively you know these thoughts are irrational, in the moment it's like your stuck in your own little universe where the impossible is possible past all rationale. Very well put together short film that portrays what we go through with OCD.
Exactly. Even if we know it is irrational our brain can be so convincing. It is nothing to be ashamed of and I am glad you were able to connect with this. Thank you.
Finally a perfect description of ocd. Intrusive thoughts are a living hell. Thank you for this. The less power we give our ocd, the stronger we get. One day at a time 🙏🏻🦋✨
OCD/anxiety is the worst. It robs you of happiness. I can be happy for a few mins and then the bad thoughts play over in my head and I can’t enjoy time.
It’s like it’s waiting for the positive thoughts to take them away from your head and then then your’e just left by negativity
Very well done, very similar to what I experience. Thank you for doing your part in illustrating this and bringing awareness to OCD.
Thank you for taking the time to watch it, I am so enthused that the film was able to connect with so many people and their own personal experiences.
Ithis is a beautiful work of art. Portrays the reality of OCD how it is, or how it can be. I’ll tel you, having OCD, ADHD, and Aspergers (ASD) is quite the everyday experience. Especially not being diagnosed with the former and latter, later in life.
Thank you so much. I am so sorry it took you so long to get diagnosed but happy you are now aware of it and can hopefully find some reassurance in the fact that many people can struggle with these intrusive thoughts too and you are not alone.
as someone who struggles with obsessive compulsive disorder, it’s so refreshing to see such an accurate depiction. Amazing job xxx
Thank you so so much for commenting. I love to hear that this was able to relate to someone else's experiences.
I can’t believe how accurate this is. Thank you for this.
“Please protect me, my family, and my friends.” Oh my god? That’s what I say every time I pray (added with our pets. What the heck??? This film is just…it was already relatable but that piece really hit me
The fact that this vid is so surface level to explain to those who don’t deal with it and it’s still just enough for ppl to label us as crazy is just beyond me.
A great piece of work presented indeed by young actors!
Really blowing my mind here I always thought OCD was keeping things neat or in a specific place but I have these exact thoughts. Every time I talk to someone I'll literally pick it apart when I'm alone and end up feeling like I said something that the other person is going to judge me on. Then that leads to anxiety and makes me not even want to be around other people, really educational video thank you.
This was pretty good! I was suffering from ocd for quite a while and it really affected me for quite a few years. It's such a crazy time for me to look back on as I'm doing so much better now!
Thanks for making the video! It's all depicted real well and I believe it shows a side to OCD which those who are unfamiliar with it may be unaware of!!
As scary as it is to venture deeper into treatment with my OCD, I kinda feel like I finally found "my people" - as varied as the content of OCD can be, deep down we all have the same thing. Thanks to all for making this film and helping push OCD more into the public eye. I feel that these past two years a lot of progress has been made and I am very appreciative of that.
I feel like I’m part of somthing I don’t know what this movie did but it’s like every feeling no body understood is everywhere so many people feel it and I feel not alone
Commenting again to say how amazing this is. So much effort and heart went into this and I’m so happy this gives comfort to others, as well as accurately showing what ocd is like. Bringing more awareness is so important and this truly was so well done.
This was actually quite terrifying to watch. I struggle with this and I’m high as f and I felt like I was experiencing it myself. It felt so real, bro I started getting very anxious. Good job!
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This is me my brain is never quite its so draining and stop me from functioning by the way i dont have OCD but o do have anxity and depression and intrusive thoughts
It can get very overwhelming but we are proud of you - keep pushing through it will get more manageable over time especially if you are aware of it.
Ugh this made me cry so hard. This and so much more is what I go through every single day it’s so exhausting.
“you’re exhausting” felt that one ngl
this short is incredible. ive discovered i have ocd and this made me cry and feel anxious, just becuse i recognize it so much. i cried when the girl said "this is exhausting" cuz it fucking is. chills. never saw such a good short about ocd in my life before
I understand every little thing in this video... it just makes me cry that I'll possibly never be free from this dreadful illness for the rest of my damn life :((