black, queer, & living with trauma
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- Опубліковано 18 вер 2024
- What does queerness mean to me? To you? This week, I let myself reflect on queer identity + all sensations/feelings paired with it.
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first of all, i really appreciate the space you've created here. loved to bear witness to this conversation you're having with us/yourself while surrounded by all that GREEN! really felt peaceful, like stopping by to visit a friend...I'm also constantly thinking about queerness (with the added intersections of blackness, global southness, trauma, mental health...) and it's kind of an ever-changing WHAT for me...recently my queerness has been waves of euphoria when i feel like i'm wearing my skin in ways i could have only dreamed of...it's also being on the margins (always kind of feeling Outside of, unless, in some rare moments, i find my tribe and i feel Within...)
it's a lot of quiet moments. queerness for me is kind of synonymous with silence, and sitting with myself. it's about revisiting memories when i can access them and going AH! A SIGN! and it's about the pain too, sometimes, the shadow...queerness is like trauma for me, it's a child or a plant, something i've got to soothe and tend to and be kind to, even when it's kind of acting up/out? it's clothes and music and moments in films where you feel something very familiar and you wanna cry (but you're an aquarius moon so that's not always a thing you do...) (idk if this was too much, but i'm definitely gonna sit on it for a little bit...so thank you for this
Wow. I’ve re-read this again & again. You’ve put so much into words that feel like that rare Within. I'm just super grateful for you & the depth of your existence.
I can 100% relate to "sitting with my queerness." I have a book recommendation that you'll relate to. Eddie & Alan is written by black gay author Anthony Amiewalan. It sheds light on the complexities of relationships between men, the fluidity of sexuality, and what happens when the lines are blurred. It also examines trauma when growing up as a queer person.
I love that you said “sitting with my queerness” cuz i felt that.
your description of queerness has changed me. thank you
I don't even know where to start. This session of reflection was interrogative in a very calm way. Thank for sharing elements of yourself with us. Really appreciate it.
Interrogative in a calm way feels like the truest description of this 😂 Thank you for spending time with me & listening, Bassie
Thank you for having a conversation about queerness. Take care of yourself.
I appreicate you and this reflection you have shared. I have had similar thoughts/reflections with myself about what queerness means to me, and the connection between my queerness, blackness, and my other identities. And just hearing someone else talk about it and knowing that I'm not alone in some of these feelings is so nice.
This is awesome and beautiful. I love your vulnerability and openness. I definitely resonate with your insights into queerness, and your explorations into queerness. Keep it up!!!
Thank you, Rhoen
This video is so calm and beautiful! I love the way you phrase you're words, it almost sounded like a poem the whole way through ^^
I am really happy that I found you're channel, hope you keep doing what you're doing great!!
This really resonates with me. My queerness is the most important part of my identity and as someone who has also experienced trauma, the fall out manifests in how I feel about myself with respect to presentation, trust, and how we I see the world. Thank you for sharing this with us.
This video really pointed at internal questions I don’t know if I ever considered and I thank you for that. 💚
So much of my relationship with all the intersections of myself and my identities feels like completely uncharted territory. I’ve thought about how certain things make me feel and how these aspects influence the way I’ve navigated certain spaces but I don’t think I’ve ever really considered how far I wanted to deconstruct those dynamics and how it affects me. I don’t really know if I understand much of who I am in regards to the intersection of my identities, my traumas, and where that is headed in terms of my worldly experience.
I’ve been trying to think more intentionally about who I am and what I want in life but I think I’ve neglected focusing on myself in regards to being present for myself in every stage of life how that is informing the current moment. Maybe it’s questions I just haven’t been able to put into concise words but thank you for this space and allowing in your vulnerability to encourage an exploration of myself within my own.
So beautifully articulated, thank you for your openness and vulnerability.
This will help give so many language and perspective for their own journey’s. 🙏🏽
i really love this video. exactly what i need right now. so beautiful. very affirming. thank u
I needed this today. Thank you.
First off, thank you for inviting us into this contemplation. And thanks for this video! It's a super calming but also a crazy informative video! Also, I have missed so much about your personal journey with queerness and it makes me SO SAD that I don't live in the same city with you anymore!
I feel like our conversations & friendship were such a big part of my journey. You know how hard it is to feel safe & that felt possible with you. Love you, Mya.
you are loved, thank you for sharing
Thank you for sharing. Really sitting with you on this.
You inspired me with your courage:)