Thank you so much for all your kind comments, support & advice - it's really touching. I think some time apart following SRS may help, I know now that I don't want to continue in my job there that much longer so maybe this is a good thing - I can spread my wings and look for other opportunities
That's true... sometimes, life give good opportunities.. something, only one change will open a set of good things...like a waterfall...arff, i'm so bad in shakespeare language...so sorry.... thank you for sharing your experience of your transition..... it help so many persons... and give them hope too...
Hi Christina I know u don't know me and if I was closer to u I would hug u and even take u out for a coffee as I am in New Zealand and u r in the uk and I am tg also but we can talk about that at a later stage and feel free to email me at third_bruce@yahoo.com.au if u want to talk via email
Amazing, heartfelt and an important video to share and make. Anyone embarking on this journey needs to see and hear what you have just shared so that they don't approach that path lightly or thinking it will be easy. I admire your honestly both to yourself and to those that care about you here.
This is the first time i have ever left a comment, have followed your story from the start. You have given myself and many people hope, keep positive i am sure everything will be good for you and your family when the dust settles . I wish everything goes well for the surgery. You still look beautiful even on a bad day. I am 62 and have carried the same burden for over 50 years regards our true selves. Only in the last few months have decided to see a doctor and see where the journey will take me, as i have been in a very dark place for some time now. Thank you for your videos and others like yourself for sharing your journeys, You have all done so much good for other people in similar positions. Love xxxxx
I am happy for your SRS, sorry your family doesn't understand. You are such a sweet girl, and good things are coming your way. Wish I could go to England and give you a hug. The videos you post lift me up so much. I am 3 months in, only my sister knows me. My family is so religious they can't comprehend. Thank you for sharing your life. love you
If someone seems off kilter, senseless, or crazy, assume that they are out of their mind. I always try to make it a point to not be responsible for other peoples baggage. You have something to do that has been scheduled ahead of time, sometimes one can be left with no other choice but, to do it. It is late to back down from things at this point, the plan has been set, if no one else likes it...too bad. Now is not the time for drama, your brother should know better.
You need to pick yourself up. Your body cant be stressed right now. You have so much support from us. Your brother is like this coz of his own problems.You are lovley. Go have your op, go racing..and continue being the beautiful, strong woman that u are. Jodie
You clearly have so much going for you.... you're smart, level-headed, compassionate, and stunningly beautiful. You know what you want, and don't deserve your brother's negativity. I know you'll get through this, and will be so much happier one its all behind you.... Hopefully he will come around, but in the meantime try and focus on all the positives in your life! You deserve to be happy!
You race cars, I race planes. I have taken as much from my brother. The thing about it all is that I go for my dreams and he does not. You do as well so kudos to you. He doesn't have to live with your body, you do, and truth be told you don't need him or anyone else to validate you. It's just you and your heart and you know whats best. Best wishes to you as you approach your goal! Big hugs.
I really feel for you, just like you have mentioned in the video about having to give up your family. Not many people outside of our own situation can understand what it's like to have to give all of that up and leave it behind. It's not by choice that we do this but by the simple fact that we have to do this to be true to ourselves, it's a do or die situation and not something that we just wake up one day and decide that it's what we're going to do. Your brother on the other hand should be far more supportive, he's your blood after all and should be there for you. Stay strong and stay safe xx
Family.... Sometimes, family isn't something you're born into, but who you surround yourself with; those people who want to be around you; the people who, if you told them tomorrow you wanted to sell everything and join a traveling circus, would not only support you, but see if they could help you actually do it.I'm meandering through your videos, and I find them uplifting, informative, and heartfelt, but mostly just very genuinely, honestly, human - and that means a lot to me. I'm glad to see you've weathered this storm, and my best wishes to you "from across the pond"!
Wow. I just watched this with my mom and we both want you to know that you're an amazing person and so strong! The fact that you can turn your negatives into something positive, even if it's through publishing something simple like a youtube video means you're a beautiful person. Our families and friends sometimes have really hard times with our transitions themselves and while it sucks when they take it out on us, but we all have to realize they're going through as much of an emotional journey as we are and sometimes things get out of hand. Feel your feels but please don't rule him out! My best friend (closest male friend) did some very hurtful things himself and it took a while for him to come around but he did and so will your brother. Cheers!
Watching your video makes me so sad that someone with so much courage is made to feel guilty! Was nearly in tears just watching your anguish and want to hug you!..please be yourself and think of you! everything will be OK!!!! Hugs and take care. Phil.
Your brother is clearly unhappy with himself, per your comments, and is projecting upon you his own fears and insecurities. The best you can do is take the high road and don't take his comments personally. I know it's tough as I have been there and many days am still there. Lift yourself up, be proud of who you are and don't feel guilty for living an authentic life.It's OK to cry as it is healing. Stay positive. Stay Strong.
I know this was a while ago, but it makes me hurt for you still. I wish I could reach through and give you a shoulder to cry on. You're lovely and remarkable in so many ways. You are carrying out your journey with grace and courage! You are an inspiration!
I am the oldest of three siblings. Yes, it is hard not to get jealous of your younger siblings, whether they are more fortunate or spoiled. I can only imagine how it was if you were working with them and someone had to do your job while you were away doing surgeries that they thought were not necessary. Please do not think I am taking sides, because I am not. Sibling rivalries will last years if not a lifetime. If anything he should be jealous of your bravery and willpower. Good Luck.
It's hard when family hurts us. It's because they are The closest to us that they can do so. Us being Transgender is not a choice. SRS is not a choice, Your brother's behavior IS a choice. You're not alone in the world, we're all here for you. And as the days move on with your life, please remember that most of us will never meet face to face, but know and keep this in your heart, we love you and support the amazing journey that transition is, and share the bond of courage that is within each of us so we may live our lives as our true selves.
Hey Christina I know you don't know me but If it weren't for the fact that I'm in NZ and you're in UK I'd give you a big hug. I'm TG and you are an inspiration to me. You are fantastic - never never never doubt that. You have value as a person, and an absolute right to be YOU (and happy) - you just do, end of story.
Thank you for sharing this side of life. It is painful. I am glad you got through this. Your experiences do sound a lot like my own - I would so like a chance just to talk to you; I would be most grateful for your advice from your experiences
A big hug .You can cry on my shoulder Chris.Life,family and supposed friends suck at times during your transition.My brother treats me the same,only last weekend I left my mums where he's living,thinking why do I bother talking to him.Please don't do anything silly now will you.I think that he's scared for you and he cannot bring himself to accept that he's younger brother is turning into a girl.He also doesn't now how to talk about it ,so he gets angry and slags off at you.Please don't cry,I'm still married and trying to hold it all together and I find it so hard,like you I spend time walking in the park with our dog crying.Yes life sucks.Have a look at stan meyers for me and type down what you think.You tube.Chin up I think your doing a marvelous job.Brick by brick,my friend.
Been watching your videos from the beginning, and last night this broke my heart. My family is a write off for other reasons, and I decided a while back that if someone can't support and be there for me...trans related, or otherwise they are not much of a family and do not have a place in my life...Period. It was/is tough, but I cannot, will not have someone/everyone hold me back from being who I really am. Take care, enjoy your racing, hugs!
Thanks Jess, I'm a lot better today despite my bro acting like nothing happened and a general feeling of 'let's just sweep it under the carpet & move on...' what apology? Nothing new there though. I'm now viewing this as a positive experience as it's finally convinced me of the need to look further afield, believe in the future and build myself a new career :) I can do it! x
a Girl for all seasons Your welcome! My family acts the same way. Issues don't get resolved, they just fester under the surface, and come back in weird and wonderful ways. *sarcasm*. If he truly loved you IMO, he would accept you unconditionally for the person you are, not the genitals you have. I am having issues now too, afraid to come out in my workplace, but am out everywhere else. Sometimes I need a catalyst(kick in the pants) to act, so these things may be a blessing in the long run...who knows eh? (Yes, I'm Canadian. :-) ) . Looking forward to your post SRS news, mine could be in the next year. Yes, you can do it because you seem like a wonderful person who deserves the best, and are damn beautiful to boot! Hugs, Jess
Jess Murray I often wonder how much of it is down to my transition, he had problems with me long before transition was ever mentioned so I think although it has meant more to deal with I think its unfair to hie behind. Sure I've become a more confident & outgoing character and this in turn is opening more doors for me as you might expect, and I think it just compounds things along with the inevitable difficulty of dealing with an unfamiliar female version of me. I think we all need a kick in the pants sometimes, me especially :) but that kick can be a good thing, although it might leave you sore for a few days when it happens... sound familiar? Thanks Jess, I wish you all the best luck in the World :D x
a Girl for all seasons "Who knows what lies in the heart's of other men" a wise person whom I have no idea is once said. :-) Good points you made, and if someone was looking for a reason to attack you...being trans sure makes it convenient. And, make them feel right/self righteous at the same time. Dealing with an unfamiliar/better version of you would be/is difficult, one person I know is struggling with it, even though she accepts me. But, it's nothing compared with what we have had to struggle with our whole lives. Told my Gender Therapist last week that being trans is like the Chinese Water torture...it just never stops. It is always there, whether awake, asleep, even while engaged in other things to keep our minds occupied. Sure wears a person down after a while eh? It is amazing we can lead any kind of regular life like work, friends, hobbies, relationships etc.. Am quite familiar with being kicked in the pants, :-) I certainly need one to get moving most times, it is just too easy to keep the status quo. I just ask that it be a gentle one, as person can only take so much, and we of all people deserve a few breaks, and a soft landing when kicked. Your welcome, and Thank you it feels great to have support even if it is an ocean away. Please keep Canadians in your prayers tonight after the horrific shootings in our capital today. This is a first for a peace loving country that happens to have a crappy leader bringing this upon us. Hugs Jess!
For some reason siblings have the biggest problem with those of us transitioning. Out of all my family and friends, my sister was the absolute worst and now doesn't talk to me. My parents are great with it, its just something about siblings that they have so much trouble accepting us changing. Hang in there, Its not easy but its worthwhile. :)
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think that your family is important, but your future too... you turn to build your family, with love...let's turn your eyes to the future... with hope... and have fun with cars' race too...
Hey Darlin', wish I could be there. You need a hug--more than advice. However, advise is all I can give you this way. Be at peace with yourself! There are things that some people even our family will ever understand. Now is the time when people must rely on spirituality and meditation to do what we must do. You are a wonderful and sensitive person. I look forward to seeing you someday. Peace Dawn
hi hun Sounds to me your brother has deeper issues going on in his life he needs to seek help , unfortunately you being his sister looks like you've his punch bag.I think on top of his problems with you going into hospital to have your SRS which i really happy for you hun . I think he's very scared of loosing you due to the risk of surgery which is dangerous and this will be the final chapter of making the complete you but from his point of view he's lost his brother. People cope in so many different ways only you know him better than anybody, give him time hopefully once the surgery is done he will come round. You have and will get all the support and love you need from us your UA-cam family be strong be safe sweetheart hugs and love at you harry xx
Just wanted to say you have done nothing wrong, the opposing force was unreasonable, bearing in mind what's on the horizon for you. Anyway, I just wanted to support you........you're doing wonderfully! Sonia x
Hi Christina, I first want to thank you for the amazing inspiration you have been to me with my own transition as well as with my health and fitness pursuits. I live half a world away from you and yet you touch me and inspire me more then you can imagine. I am sorry and hurt for you that you are having problems with your brother. If it is any comfort to you, it has been my experience that the one thing that unhappy people are the most distressed about, is others who are happy. Of course he is going to be the most upset right now, because you are about to achieve the greatest success and joy that we as transsexual woman, or anyone for that matter, can attain. You are successful, beautiful, and in control of your own life. What ever you do, do not let him steal what is to be one of the most important, happiest moments in your life. Because the only way he can redeem his own sadness is by taking it from someone else who has it. Don’t hate him for that. Just be strong with who you are and follow your heart sweet girl. Look how far it has gotten you so far and how many people you have touched with joy along the way ☺
Christina, you are a lovely, sweet, feminine woman! Screw anyone trying to bring you down. Be true to yourself and your feelings. Your brother is showing his ass and his low self-esteem. Follow your dream and live your life to its fullest. Your followers support and love you. Chin up and be strong. Love you.
This is kinda easy to figure out. Your brother is projecting and is jealous of you. He's unhappy with himself and his life and by making you sad about yours, it makes him feel better about his. Also, I love you.
You got it in one, I can see that too and sadly I don't see how things are ever going to change that dynamic. My life rocks - I'm now a free spirited young woman who races fast cars, he lives in a huge house with lots of big flat screen TV's - how much fun can that be...?
a Girl for all seasons I always find you videos an inspiration and moving. I watched this one on Wednesday, but did not have time to leave a comment. My thoughts are the similar to Brandon's. It seems to me that your brother feels a bit trapped in his life, and is resentful that you are following your dreams. I hope he eventually comes round, celebrates your new life and finds happiness for himself. Good luck for your surgery and a speedy recovery. Hugs!
Hi, This may come late (this comment) but still well meant. You do get these frictions. The surrounding people see something they have no control over. This lack of control makes people uncertain...and defensive. This defensive behaviour can lead into frictions...not nice, but...understandable... The thing is that we trans people inevitably nudge people out of their comfy zone. Inevitably, we scratch their comfy zone. But, only because THEY let us. I am transitioning...at work...carefully to navigate the uncharted seas...and guess what. i scratch the edges of quite some comfort zones... Guess how we handle this: talk. Not shouting, no swearing...talk... I notice I inform a lot. Of course, there needs to be a receptive mind at the other end...otherwise...conflict. But, bottom line, being yourself - in itself - does not provoce conflict. The inability of the people around you to deal with you...being you..that does. No fault is yours... Basically, if they cant handle the heat, they should leave the kitchen, hehe
I want to give could give you a hug and tell you its going to be alright, I can't image what you're going through but keep doing what you're doing, follow your heart, pursue your passion, and in time all will be right. Stay strong my dear xxxx :D
Hang in there! You're about to do something incredible and brave, and he's probably equal parts ignorant and scared for you. He's not saying it, but he probably is. There's no way this is about you, anyone could see how happy and beautiful you are. Just smile, you're about to do something that so few trans girls ever have the opportunity to. I wish you all the luck I can!
Thank you :) and you're right - I know it must be hard for him... In many ways I feel sorry for him that he doesn't have the same feelings of freedom & happiness in his own life. Still it's important to put things in perspective, SRS is only days away now! I saw a lot of friends last night for drinks and they all wished me well which was really nice :D
I find you are remarkable girl. I look at you as as girl. you are Gorgeous princess. I just wanted to let you know that. I enjoy your videos. Your so amazing.
things are hard in life just go fordward, if it the famaily, it will passe, later they will understand you. it your life just do it you will feel better later in your new life,
Oh my, dear lady! I think your early life and mine may have been a lot alike. I may have been a little more alpha than you, partly because of environment, but I suspect mainly because of hormones. I was happiest as a late teenager and young man when I was having sex or fighting. In one of Jack Nicholson's movies, a psychiatrist asked his character why he had landed in jail four times. His answer was, "Well, doc, I guess I like to fight and fuck too much." 😀. Except for jail, that could have been me. The fighting part on reflection seems a bit odd to me now because I don't really recall any kind of anger or rage driving it. Hence, my attributing it to hormones. Marriage helped calm me a lot. I think the biggest difference between you and me is place and time. Opportunities open to you were unthought of during my early years for the masses. Certainly, awareness and acceptance in society would have made choices unbearably hard. I've been married now for 35 years with three kids, all in their 30s, and two grandkids. Life is good. I have no regrets. But, there was a time when...........😰 As for your brother, mine's an ass, too. He's the oldest and I'm the youngest. We have a wonderful sister in between. We hadn't spoken in many years when he landed on my doorstep, homeless. His wife kicked him out. His kids wouldn't have him. He had already worn out his welcome with our sis. After two-and-a-half years, I had to give him the boot. You know what I felt most guilty about? That I didn't feel guilty. I thought I should feel guilty, but I didn't. I knew a decent person would, but I had no regret. I've confessed more here than I ever thought I would have publicly. Anyway, keep your story going.
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Thank you so much for all your kind comments, support & advice - it's really touching. I think some time apart following SRS may help, I know now that I don't want to continue in my job there that much longer so maybe this is a good thing - I can spread my wings and look for other opportunities
That's true... sometimes, life give good opportunities.. something, only one change will open a set of good things...like a waterfall...arff, i'm so bad in shakespeare language...so sorry....
thank you for sharing your experience of your transition..... it help so many persons... and give them hope too...
Hi Christina I know u don't know me and if I was closer to u I would hug u and even take u out for a coffee as I am in New Zealand and u r in the uk and I am tg also but we can talk about that at a later stage and feel free to email me at third_bruce@yahoo.com.au if u want to talk via email
Amazing, heartfelt and an important video to share and make. Anyone embarking on this journey needs to see and hear what you have just shared so that they don't approach that path lightly or thinking it will be easy. I admire your honestly both to yourself and to those that care about you here.
This is the first time i have ever left a comment, have followed your story from the start. You have given myself and many people hope, keep positive i am sure everything will be good for you and your family when the dust settles . I wish everything goes well for the surgery. You still look beautiful even on a bad day. I am 62 and have carried the same burden for over 50 years regards our true selves. Only in the last few months have decided to see a doctor and see where the journey will take me, as i have been in a very dark place for some time now. Thank you for your videos and others like yourself for sharing your journeys, You have all done so much good for other people in similar positions. Love xxxxx
I am happy for your SRS, sorry your family doesn't understand. You are such a sweet girl, and good things are coming your way. Wish I could go to England and give you a hug. The videos you post lift me up so much. I am 3 months in, only my sister knows me. My family is so religious they can't comprehend. Thank you for sharing your life. love you
If someone seems off kilter, senseless, or crazy, assume that they are out of their mind. I always try to make it a point to not be responsible for other peoples baggage. You have something to do that has been scheduled ahead of time, sometimes one can be left with no other choice but, to do it. It is late to back down from things at this point, the plan has been set, if no one else likes it...too bad. Now is not the time for drama, your brother should know better.
Being true to yourself is not selfish. Making someone miserable is. Don't be sad love. Have a safe surgery and a quick recover. You look beautiful !
Our hearts go out to you hun....chin up, stay strong. Move forward, keep positive. So sorry you are having a rough time.
You need to pick yourself up. Your body cant be stressed right now. You have so much support from us. Your brother is like this coz of his own problems.You are lovley. Go have your op, go racing..and continue being the beautiful, strong woman that u are. Jodie
You clearly have so much going for you.... you're smart, level-headed, compassionate, and stunningly beautiful. You know what you want, and don't deserve your brother's negativity. I know you'll get through this, and will be so much happier one its all behind you.... Hopefully he will come around, but in the meantime try and focus on all the positives in your life! You deserve to be happy!
You race cars, I race planes. I have taken as much from my brother. The thing about it all is that I go for my dreams and he does not. You do as well so kudos to you. He doesn't have to live with your body, you do, and truth be told you don't need him or anyone else to validate you. It's just you and your heart and you know whats best. Best wishes to you as you approach your goal! Big hugs.
So sorry to hear this. Your videos have been so helpful and inspiring to me over the last year. Wish I could hug you through the screen.
That's all I wanted my videos to do, to help people like all the videos I watched helped me start transition :) hug
I really feel for you, just like you have mentioned in the video about having to give up your family. Not many people outside of our own situation can understand what it's like to have to give all of that up and leave it behind. It's not by choice that we do this but by the simple fact that we have to do this to be true to ourselves, it's a do or die situation and not something that we just wake up one day and decide that it's what we're going to do. Your brother on the other hand should be far more supportive, he's your blood after all and should be there for you. Stay strong and stay safe xx
Family.... Sometimes, family isn't something you're born into, but who you surround yourself with; those people who want to be around you; the people who, if you told them tomorrow you wanted to sell everything and join a traveling circus, would not only support you, but see if they could help you actually do it.I'm meandering through your videos, and I find them uplifting, informative, and heartfelt, but mostly just very genuinely, honestly, human - and that means a lot to me. I'm glad to see you've weathered this storm, and my best wishes to you "from across the pond"!
Wow. I just watched this with my mom and we both want you to know that you're an amazing person and so strong! The fact that you can turn your negatives into something positive, even if it's through publishing something simple like a youtube video means you're a beautiful person. Our families and friends sometimes have really hard times with our transitions themselves and while it sucks when they take it out on us, but we all have to realize they're going through as much of an emotional journey as we are and sometimes things get out of hand. Feel your feels but please don't rule him out! My best friend (closest male friend) did some very hurtful things himself and it took a while for him to come around but he did and so will your brother. Cheers!
Watching your video makes me so sad that someone with so much courage is made to feel guilty! Was nearly in tears just watching your anguish and want to hug you!..please be yourself and think of you! everything will be OK!!!! Hugs and take care. Phil.
Your brother is clearly unhappy with himself, per your comments, and is projecting upon you his own fears and insecurities. The best you can do is take the high road and don't take his comments personally. I know it's tough as I have been there and many days am still there. Lift yourself up, be proud of who you are and don't feel guilty for living an authentic life.It's OK to cry as it is healing. Stay positive. Stay Strong.
I know this was a while ago, but it makes me hurt for you still. I wish I could reach through and give you a shoulder to cry on. You're lovely and remarkable in so many ways. You are carrying out your journey with grace and courage! You are an inspiration!
I am the oldest of three siblings. Yes, it is hard not to get jealous of your younger siblings, whether they are more fortunate or spoiled. I can only imagine how it was if you were working with them and someone had to do your job while you were away doing surgeries that they thought were not necessary. Please do not think I am taking sides, because I am not. Sibling rivalries will last years if not a lifetime. If anything he should be jealous of your bravery and willpower. Good Luck.
It's hard when family hurts us. It's because they are The closest to us that they can do so. Us being Transgender is not a choice. SRS is not a choice, Your brother's behavior IS a choice. You're not alone in the world, we're all here for you. And as the days move on with your life, please remember that most of us will never meet face to face, but know and keep this in your heart, we love you and support the amazing journey that transition is, and share the bond of courage that is within each of us so we may live our lives as our true selves.
Hey Christina
I know you don't know me but If it weren't for the fact that I'm in NZ and you're in UK I'd give you a big hug. I'm TG and you are an inspiration to me. You are fantastic - never never never doubt that. You have value as a person, and an absolute right to be YOU (and happy) - you just do, end of story.
what a pity.... i'm so sad to see people crying...poor Christina
Don't cry your a strong women. Love you you a beautiful woman. Who gives a lot to others.
I just watched this and it made me cry for you, I know how you feel.
You are amazing. Do not let ANYBOBY run you down. You are you and you are AMAZING.
Bless you, really glad you got through this and are now fulfilling your dreams xx
I am so touched by this, because this is me now.
I feel your pain hun. I haven't heard from my brothers for almost a year. Much love. Huge Hugs!!
Thank you for sharing this side of life. It is painful. I am glad you got through this. Your experiences do sound a lot like my own - I would so like a chance just to talk to you; I would be most grateful for your advice from your experiences
A big hug .You can cry on my shoulder Chris.Life,family and supposed friends suck at times during your transition.My brother treats me the same,only last weekend I left my mums where he's living,thinking why do I bother talking to him.Please don't do anything silly now will you.I think that he's scared for you and he cannot bring himself to accept that he's younger brother is turning into a girl.He also doesn't now how to talk about it ,so he gets angry and slags off at you.Please don't cry,I'm still married and trying to hold it all together and I find it so hard,like you I spend time walking in the park with our dog crying.Yes life sucks.Have a look at stan meyers for me and type down what you think.You tube.Chin up I think your doing a marvelous job.Brick by brick,my friend.
Been watching your videos from the beginning, and last night this broke my heart. My family is a write off for other reasons, and I decided a while back that if someone can't support and be there for me...trans related, or otherwise they are not much of a family and do not have a place in my life...Period. It was/is tough, but I cannot, will not have someone/everyone hold me back from being who I really am. Take care, enjoy your racing, hugs!
Thanks Jess, I'm a lot better today despite my bro acting like nothing happened and a general feeling of 'let's just sweep it under the carpet & move on...' what apology? Nothing new there though. I'm now viewing this as a positive experience as it's finally convinced me of the need to look further afield, believe in the future and build myself a new career :) I can do it! x
a Girl for all seasons Your welcome! My family acts the same way. Issues don't get resolved, they just fester under the surface, and come back in weird and wonderful ways. *sarcasm*. If he truly loved you IMO, he would accept you unconditionally for the person you are, not the genitals you have. I am having issues now too, afraid to come out in my workplace, but am out everywhere else. Sometimes I need a catalyst(kick in the pants) to act, so these things may be a blessing in the long run...who knows eh? (Yes, I'm Canadian. :-) ) . Looking forward to your post SRS news, mine could be in the next year.
Yes, you can do it because you seem like a wonderful person who deserves the best, and are damn beautiful to boot!
Hugs, Jess
Jess Murray I often wonder how much of it is down to my transition, he had problems with me long before transition was ever mentioned so I think although it has meant more to deal with I think its unfair to hie behind. Sure I've become a more confident & outgoing character and this in turn is opening more doors for me as you might expect, and I think it just compounds things along with the inevitable difficulty of dealing with an unfamiliar female version of me.
I think we all need a kick in the pants sometimes, me especially :) but that kick can be a good thing, although it might leave you sore for a few days when it happens... sound familiar?
Thanks Jess, I wish you all the best luck in the World :D x
a Girl for all seasons "Who knows what lies in the heart's of other men" a wise person whom I have no idea is once said. :-)
Good points you made, and if someone was looking for a reason to attack you...being trans sure makes it convenient. And, make them feel right/self righteous at the same time.
Dealing with an unfamiliar/better version of you would be/is difficult, one person I know is struggling with it, even though she accepts me. But, it's nothing compared with what we have had to struggle with our whole lives. Told my Gender Therapist last week that being trans is like the Chinese Water torture...it just never stops. It is always there, whether awake, asleep, even while engaged in other things to keep our minds occupied. Sure wears a person down after a while eh? It is amazing we can lead any kind of regular life like work, friends, hobbies, relationships etc..
Am quite familiar with being kicked in the pants, :-) I certainly need one to get moving most times, it is just too easy to keep the status quo. I just ask that it be a gentle one, as person can only take so much, and we of all people deserve a few breaks, and a soft landing when kicked.
Your welcome, and Thank you it feels great to have support even if it is an ocean away. Please keep Canadians in your prayers tonight after the horrific shootings in our capital today. This is a first for a peace loving country that happens to have a crappy leader bringing this upon us.
Hugs Jess!
For some reason siblings have the biggest problem with those of us transitioning. Out of all my family and friends, my sister was the absolute worst and now doesn't talk to me. My parents are great with it, its just something about siblings that they have so much trouble accepting us changing. Hang in there, Its not easy but its worthwhile. :)
When you walk through a storm, hold your head up high
And don’t be afraid of the dark
At the end of the storm, there’s a golden sky
And the sweet, silver song of a lark
Hang in there, he'll come around sooner or later. HUGS!
So sorry to hear about this. Some day he will regret his actions
think that your family is important, but your future too... you turn to build your family, with love...let's turn your eyes to the future... with hope... and have fun with cars' race too...
I'm sorry..hopefully it has gotten better...
Hey Darlin', wish I could be there. You need a hug--more than advice. However, advise is all I can give you this way. Be at peace with yourself! There are things that some people even our family will ever understand. Now is the time when people must rely on spirituality and meditation to do what we must do. You are a wonderful and sensitive person. I look forward to seeing you someday.
Peace
Dawn
hi hun
Sounds to me your brother has deeper issues going on in his life he needs to seek help , unfortunately you being his sister looks like you've his punch bag.I think on top of his problems with you going into hospital to have your SRS which i really happy for you hun . I think he's very scared of loosing you due to the risk of surgery which is dangerous and this will be the final chapter of making the complete you but from his point of view he's lost his brother. People cope in so many different ways only you know him better than anybody, give him time hopefully once the surgery is done he will come round.
You have and will get all the support and love you need from us your UA-cam family be strong be safe sweetheart
hugs and love at you
harry xx
Just wanted to say you have done nothing wrong, the opposing force was unreasonable, bearing in mind what's on the horizon for you. Anyway, I just wanted to support you........you're doing wonderfully! Sonia x
Powerful video
Hi Christina, I first want to thank you for the amazing inspiration you have been to me with my own transition as well as with my health and fitness pursuits. I live half a world away from you and yet you touch me and inspire me more then you can imagine.
I am sorry and hurt for you that you are having problems with your brother. If it is any
comfort to you, it has been my experience that the one thing that unhappy people are the most distressed about, is others who are happy. Of course he is going to be the most upset right now, because you are about to achieve the greatest success and joy that we as transsexual woman, or anyone for that matter, can attain. You are successful, beautiful, and in control of your own life.
What ever you do, do not let him steal what is to be one of the most important, happiest moments in your life. Because the only way he can redeem his own sadness is by taking it from someone else who has it. Don’t hate him for that. Just be strong with who you are and follow your heart sweet girl. Look how far it has gotten you so far and how many people you have touched with joy along the way ☺
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Christina, you are a lovely, sweet, feminine woman! Screw anyone trying to bring you down. Be true to yourself and your feelings. Your brother is showing his ass and his low self-esteem. Follow your dream and live your life to its fullest. Your followers support and love you. Chin up and be strong. Love you.
This is kinda easy to figure out. Your brother is projecting and is jealous of you. He's unhappy with himself and his life and by making you sad about yours, it makes him feel better about his. Also, I love you.
You got it in one, I can see that too and sadly I don't see how things are ever going to change that dynamic. My life rocks - I'm now a free spirited young woman who races fast cars, he lives in a huge house with lots of big flat screen TV's - how much fun can that be...?
a Girl for all seasons
he's created his own stereotypical prison
a Girl for all seasons I always find you videos an inspiration and moving. I watched this one on Wednesday, but did not have time to leave a comment. My thoughts are the similar to Brandon's. It seems to me that your brother feels a bit trapped in his life, and is resentful that you are following your dreams. I hope he eventually comes round, celebrates your new life and finds happiness for himself. Good luck for your surgery and a speedy recovery. Hugs!
Old english proverb, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger
In the end people can only be happy when they stay faithful to their own convictions
Hi,
This may come late (this comment) but still well meant. You do get these frictions. The surrounding people see something they have no control over. This lack of control makes people uncertain...and defensive. This defensive behaviour can lead into frictions...not nice, but...understandable...
The thing is that we trans people inevitably nudge people out of their comfy zone. Inevitably, we scratch their comfy zone. But, only because THEY let us.
I am transitioning...at work...carefully to navigate the uncharted seas...and guess what. i scratch the edges of quite some comfort zones...
Guess how we handle this: talk. Not shouting, no swearing...talk...
I notice I inform a lot. Of course, there needs to be a receptive mind at the other end...otherwise...conflict.
But, bottom line, being yourself - in itself - does not provoce conflict. The inability of the people around you to deal with you...being you..that does. No fault is yours...
Basically, if they cant handle the heat, they should leave the kitchen, hehe
Your brother is probably jealous of your courage.....it is rare
I want to give could give you a hug and tell you its going to be alright, I can't image what you're going through but keep doing what you're doing, follow your heart, pursue your passion, and in time all will be right. Stay strong my dear xxxx :D
I wish someone would right now, could really use a big hug... x
a Girl for all seasons I would love to give you a big hug.....but there's a giant lake separating me to you lol
Hang in there! You're about to do something incredible and brave, and he's probably equal parts ignorant and scared for you. He's not saying it, but he probably is.
There's no way this is about you, anyone could see how happy and beautiful you are. Just smile, you're about to do something that so few trans girls ever have the opportunity to. I wish you all the luck I can!
Thank you :) and you're right - I know it must be hard for him... In many ways I feel sorry for him that he doesn't have the same feelings of freedom & happiness in his own life. Still it's important to put things in perspective, SRS is only days away now! I saw a lot of friends last night for drinks and they all wished me well which was really nice :D
a Girl for all seasons so exciting, can't wait to hear how it goes!
I find you are remarkable girl. I look at you as as girl. you are Gorgeous princess. I just wanted to let you know that. I enjoy your videos. Your so amazing.
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when I was your age being trans was unacceptable! I wish I was born 25 or 30 years later. It's more except able now , and wish I wasn't getting old!!
things are hard in life just go fordward, if it the famaily, it will passe, later they will understand you. it your life just do it you will feel better later in your new life,
PS, don't cry over a looser. your better then your brother. you were meant to be a beautiful girl.
You’re so pretty
Your beautiful
Oh my, dear lady!
I think your early life and mine may have been a lot alike. I may have been a little more alpha than you, partly because of environment, but I suspect mainly because of hormones. I was happiest as a late teenager and young man when I was having sex or fighting. In one of Jack Nicholson's movies, a psychiatrist asked his character why he had landed in jail four times. His answer was, "Well, doc, I guess I like to fight and fuck too much." 😀. Except for jail, that could have been me.
The fighting part on reflection seems a bit odd to me now because I don't really recall any kind of anger or rage driving it. Hence, my attributing it to hormones. Marriage helped calm me a lot.
I think the biggest difference between you and me is place and time. Opportunities open to you were unthought of during my early years for the masses. Certainly, awareness and acceptance in society would have made choices unbearably hard.
I've been married now for 35 years with three kids, all in their 30s, and two grandkids. Life is good. I have no regrets.
But, there was a time when...........😰
As for your brother, mine's an ass, too. He's the oldest and I'm the youngest. We have a wonderful sister in between. We hadn't spoken in many years when he landed on my doorstep, homeless. His wife kicked him out. His kids wouldn't have him. He had already worn out his welcome with our sis.
After two-and-a-half years, I had to give him the boot. You know what I felt most guilty about? That I didn't feel guilty. I thought I should feel guilty, but I didn't. I knew a decent person would, but I had no regret.
I've confessed more here than I ever thought I would have publicly.
Anyway, keep your story going.
naw, he's just concerned for you, thinking of leaving your job an all, just at this time, and he can't say it
...maybe? consider it.
Dick Hamilton I don't think he's concerned for me... I can't imagine how after yesterday :(
well ya it seems he is mad at you for making your dreams come true, and he is not? you are definetly not selfish for wanting to be happy.