Truly. No one except people that have it can understand what it's like to feel this way. It's hard to describe without sounding vain or dramatic but it's torment.
I’ve always said BDD is OCD but with appearance related issues. The obsession is looking wrong, abnormal, deformed, ugly and the compulsion is thinking the only way to be acceptable is to fit in a very narrow definition and to take time to get into that definition. There are good and bad lighting areas, mirrors, etc. I’d spend hours in college going from bathroom to bathroom looking in the mirro and fixing myself. I haven’t taken a picture in years.
this is me but i avoid mirrors too like i there are a few mirrors at home i can look into but at school i avoid all mirrors and i also avoid looking into cameras at all costs
My BDD started in my Teens when starting to have acne I began to overly examine my face . Little by little I began avoiding mirrors and began to become isolative. Then with the world of Social Media , Instagram and Facebook where my friends would take photos , i would always hate the way I saw myself , and always thought my features were weird ! I still hate taking photos till this day and never look at a picture of myself out of fear of it ruining my week , depression would set in seeing how awful I looked. I can never look at mirrors up close because i would see a horrible monster .It would always have to be from afar where i can see my face as a whole and not so detailed .
I'm 56 and an ex ballet dancer. I can't accept my body. I am constantly on a diet. Constantly mirror checking. Nitpicking every aspect of my appearance. It's absolutely exhausting. Been like this since I was 9. Had therapy, still struggle. It's so deeply ingrained it won't go away. If you're young, please get the help you need NOW. Don't leave it like I did. I think I'll feel like this for the rest of my life now.
I am 35 and still dealing with this, it's the worst when I'm on my period - I spent about 5 hrs in front of the mirror today and taking videos of myself talking because it's been bothering me how my face is asymmetrical and one side of my lip pulls up much higher than the other when I talk. I have horrible hair and a weird shaped head. Everyone tells me I'm pretty and sometimes I think I am too, but then a bad day comes around like today and I get rid of lots of my clothes, I like to start "fresh" in my wardrobe, and also get new makeup to make myself feel better, binge eat, feel fat, starve myself, struggle with OCD, etc....shopping for new things all the time, making lists of future procedures I can get like Botox, lip filler.....for when I have money. It's exhausting and expensive and draining mentally. The thing is I hide it well and no one knows I have this problem. It's suffering alone.
My heart kind of sunk. The compulsions of sneaking off into the bathroom and checking, and not being able to leave until its perfect. I’ve been stuck in bathrooms at work doing that… I’ve known about BDD but am kind of in denial because “what if i actually am just hideous”. But it never leaves me alone. Always on my mind every single day. I don’t allow myself to do normal activities that others can because it feels unbearable to feel “exposed” without hiding. Without compulsions/checking/fixing.
I'm 17, and I think I'm in the early stages of this. Constantly focusing on my hair and checking in the mirror. If it's the wrong mirror and lighting, I get sad. I need to get my crap together. This needs to be stopped before it even starts.
I guess I've gotten older or something. I have matured more, and my appearance has drastically changed for the better as well. Now, at 19, after starting university today, after a couple of beers, I couldn't care less about how I look ribghtt now haha. Growing up is cool, but getting old sucks. My advice for young people experiencing the same thing, is that try to deal with it, things will get better, one way or another, but if it gets too bad, seek professional help.
It hurts; I have to go through this everyday.. always checking my reflection in mirrors and the reflections from the windows.. everytime I get a bad view of my body I will feel so depressed and so empty.. trying to avoid others, I sometimes get a good view of my body, I weigh the healthy weight but I still can't think of me actually having a good body, my parents always tells me I'm a stick but I can never ever believe them, it hurts and hurts more even more everyday, BDD is pure torture, looking at myself every 40 minutes and looking at myself every shadow, window reflection and just everything that shows my appearance, it didn't start till I was bullied for being overweight in elementary so I decided to starve myself, I remember one day passing out because I didn't have enough "thingies" well whatever you get from food that is important, I went through so many stomach ulcers till December 7th 2019 and then felt a strange warmth in my stomach and got so weak and collapsed, I was immediately taken to the doctor by my mother ( I don't really remember how I got there) but I remember waking up on a soft bed but with a lot of voices and lights, it was a terrifying experience, when they checked my weight I was severely underweight, they kept me there for 6 days and used a tube to pump disgusting stuff into me, it was absolutely horrible, afterwards I did feel better but I still continued and continued looking at myself, Yes it has gotten better but it is always the first thing that is on my mind and always stops me from socializing with anyone.. it's pure hell.
I’m glad about covid, because then it’s normal to wear a mask and cover my face. But I also think it might be the reason I’ve started developing facial dysmorphia. I started to look at my face less and less and it just became… uglier and uglier… I can now only accept myself with the mask. I also have light mode and most apps to avoid seeing my reflection. And yes, it might kill me but my face is worse. Plus, I already get bashed on it enough.
I fee exactly the same way as this, you might not see this reply but things will get better just seek help as will I. It’s funny because I knew I would feel that way during the pandemic because I relied on the mask that I basically predicted that this would surge the body dysmorphia surrounding my face and the problems I had with it. It will get better just keep pushing, I will continue to fight it if that helps you in anyway to know that someone else is feeling the same way as you. Do NOT let it control your life because currently it just occupies my mind and that’s not healthy!! Keep going you’ve got this
I hated the mask. I have a love and hate relationship with it. I refused to wear it at the height of the pandemic because I knew it'd make my bed worse. I started to love it when I realized I could use it to hide my face. Now they are lifting the mandates and the mask has in fact made my bdd worse. Now I can barely be in public without it. I don't know what I'm gonna do
Same here. Wearing a mask really helps me to hide my face to avoid having people to judge how I look. I also love wearing black because it gives an illusion to not make my tummy look like a huge ball.
BDD sucks so much. I’m 35 and have been dealing with it since about age 14. I can relate to all of this. My skin is my major obsession. I feel so anxious and depressed sometimes. A pimple or two is such a hugeee deal for me. It all started when I got a bit of teenage acne. Never been the same since. I also dealt with Trichotillomania from age 14. Managed to get that under control and stop pulling in my late teens/early 20s. It’s all so exhausting 😔
@@Barbaraska You have to fight the emotions not the thought. Don't be obsessed with trying to make the thought go away. Leave them. Focus on stopping the emotions that the thoughts are triggering. The thoughts will have little impacts and will slowly fade away once you start to expose yourself regularly and the danger that you are worried about either doesn't happen or when it does, it's not as bad as you feared it'd be. Bottom line control your emotions not your bdd thoughts. That's the path I'm currently on after many years of suffering. I'm actually going out there now with absolutely no coverings and nothing bad happened. In fact most people don't even care enough to look at me.
BDD started for me as a child. I thought I was horribly ugly and fat. When I started middle school, I fixated on my stomach area and how much fat was there. This was the start of anorexia. I was obsessed with checking how flat my stomach was in the mirror. I'm now in my early 30's and after years of therapy I can say that I am mostly recovered. I still have days were I think I'm ugly or that I need to lose weight, but I always identify those thoughts and work through them. I now actually know what it feels like to have self esteem.
this is what i do now... i cant look at a picture of myself without disgust and stress, i constantly starve myself then eat something and feel guilty about it, my appearance is all i think about, i am always comparing myself to others, i cant even look at my own reflection without it ruining my day, im so angry because im jealous of skinny, pretty girls its all i can think about
@@hellasilly My problem id the opposite, I'm so in love with my physique and facial features and I see myself as the most handsome guy in the world but that gives me the fear of something happening to my face and altering my features, I've to always check my face and see if anything went wrong. I starve myself to death most of the time so others won't see it as attractive and do damage to me. I know it doesn't make sense but as yk OCD knows no logic. I'm just exhausted. I can't run away from it. I want to get fit but my diet is poor because of BDD. I just feel like giving up and depressed!!
I had body dysmorphia since I was 16, I was severely bullied for having a big forehead, I was teased and bullied everyday and I started developing anxiety and did not wanna show my head to no one, so for 16 to 18 I wear hoodies all day and never took it of when I was in class, I almost didn't graduated hs, because I hated showing up for school, where I have to take off my hoodie for pe, I use to hate the summer because I can't hide my so called disfigurement.,
I have a similar story bullied for same reason around the same age's. I was diagnosed around the age of 16 with BBD due too rituals involving my hair similar too the guy in video aswell as OCD and Anxiety, I've had long hair since then and have worn a hat and/or hood. The thought of getting my hair cut is very uncomfortable for me at the moment as silly as that sounds. Ive gotten angry and frustrated at my compulsions/rituals and situation I was kicked out around 17 for that reason. But thankfully my Grandmother has let me stay with her since (im now 20). Only last year I was diagnosed with depression and Social Anxiety. It's still a struggle daily too get out and stay out, unfortunately i dropped out of school and have missed out on employment & opportunities. My parents split at 17, had a close family member past at 18 and found out i have deceased Twin brother. I live in a neighbourhood full of drugs not that its an excuse! I allowed myself to end up addicted too weed and abuse alcohol severely... Only up from here!! I have faith and hope that I along with anyone else struggling with ANYTHING can get the help and support that's needed along with being fortunate enough like me too recognise I need too get help aswell as help myself by keeping positive thoughts, staying strong and believing in myself😊 P.S If you read this I appreciate it 🙏 wish you all the best
I relate SO much to this and now that I’m 40 I’m convinced I look 50 or 60. I’m a very lined person with no fat in my face and the way I’m behaving now reminds me of how insecure I felt in my teens and 20s. I feel SO self obsessed but I hate the way I look. Always have. Hopefully I won’t forever because I have a lot of other problems caused by my mind aswell and it is wasting my time. Good luck everyone who is suffering x
I have BDD. But i dont have no parents :( no sibling. No freinds. Well, i have a few but they are online freinds. Im so alone. Im scared of growing old cuz relationships are impossible. I dont know how yo fix myself. Its stopping me from getting a job. Its f***ing up my whole life. Im 26 and i allready feel like my life is over And CAMOFLAGING!! I did this at School omg. I Still do it now. I wear big puffer jackets to hide my skinniess no matter what heat is like. I HATE my life i dont know what to do. I dont want to be alone no more. There is a girl im speaking to who i jave explained this too. She is willing to wait for me, to fix myself. And i want to be with her. I want a family but ithis is all stopping me
Your not alone! I have no friends either and I think it’s because of how I look.. I think nobody wants to be friends with me because I look deformed and it messes with my job as well because I go to work and don’t talk to anybody and when I do I feel like they r disgusted by how I look… I go to a psychiatrist and have yet to find a treatment that works for me.. I’ve been this way about 5 years now
I used to be extremely like this when I was little. I always looked at my shadow to see how hideous I looked (I always thought I looked fat) and this was my whole school life. In books they said that people this age (in puberty) get conscious of their body so I always thought, until I saw this video that every teenager faced this, but alas, it was only me. I had a very weird way of judging or looking at people’s faces. I was shocked how kids were so confident and comfortable going to school with styes, pimples or hoarse throat or something else whereas I could never go to school if I was like that and I would hope anxiously that that never happened with me. I didn’t realise this had a correlation with stealing my life from me. I felt so uncomfortable in my own skin that I used to stoop and had such low self confidence. I always felt I was fat. I am not a superficial person at all. But I felt undeserving and uncomfortable and alienated in my own body.
I kind of just realized some behaviors I had that were because I’m dysmorphic… I had a watch and if look in the reflection of the watch for probably hours during school I have a disability so I limp and I also have minor tics when I walk where I sway my head back and fourth and I just can’t stand to watch myself walk… the moment I knew I was dysmorphic is when I checked my weight I saw a lost a pound and I physically looked skinny in the mirror. I then ate came back and gained weight and Instantly my neck looked fat my cheeks were chubby
I relate to this completely. If I believe I’m skinny, that’s what I see in the mirror but if I believe I’m bigger that’s all I see. It’s so disheartening
I'm a victim of BDD it all started with acne, shifted to my face when all the way to to the whole turned into a hatred of my whole body.. it's painful 😭
@@SL-pg4dh the bullying can trigger the evolution of the disorder, but it is not the cause. I think I was most likely born with a predisposition to BDD
This is exactly how i was and this whole thing triggered once when i started going gym. I used to watch my shadow and constantly look on my shoulders how wide they looked i got pissed when i walk and saw my reflection example from door glass or shopping window, how that didn't fulltil the expectation and image i have manifested inside my head. It even transformed as bad that i started wearing multiple layer of shirts to cope and outcome this image i had it was crazy and stupid sh!t.
Dealing with BDD about my hairs from last few years, with proper medication i am now getting well but still thoughts about my hairs stays with me but its intensity is not that much
Whether I come under the category of BDD I'm not sure but I'm a 36 year old straight male but back when I was 16 I was mistaken for a girl which has had a huge effect on the way I feel as a man to this day, I worry that my face looks too girly and the only time I feel comfortable and manly is when I have a full beard, if I shave completely I worry that I might get misgendered again. Just wondering if anyone else has had this experience and feels the same way?
Hey, I don't have the exact same thing as you, but I thought sharing my little story could make you feel better. I am a 21 year old girl and I have very small lips and a prominent chin. To me this looks very masculine, I never want people to see my side profile and I wear lipstick or liner every day and go to the bathroom a few times a day to check if its still perfectly on. I want to get rid of this so badly but without make up I feel like a man. I think about this constantly and also look in the mirror or reflection every time I can but i feel like my face never looks the same. Often I feel like I have the weirdest face ever.
This man speaking is like hearing my own thoughts and memories spoken by someone else. It's uncanny.
One of the most debilitating conditions a person can experience. It is a living hell.
Truly. No one except people that have it can understand what it's like to feel this way. It's hard to describe without sounding vain or dramatic but it's torment.
Yup
I’ve always said BDD is OCD but with appearance related issues. The obsession is looking wrong, abnormal, deformed, ugly and the compulsion is thinking the only way to be acceptable is to fit in a very narrow definition and to take time to get into that definition. There are good and bad lighting areas, mirrors, etc. I’d spend hours in college going from bathroom to bathroom looking in the mirro and fixing myself. I haven’t taken a picture in years.
this is me but i avoid mirrors too like i there are a few mirrors at home i can look into but at school i avoid all mirrors and i also avoid looking into cameras at all costs
My BDD started in my Teens when starting to have acne I began to overly examine my face . Little by little I began avoiding mirrors and began to become isolative. Then with the world of Social Media , Instagram and Facebook where my friends would take photos , i would always hate the way I saw myself , and always thought my features were weird ! I still hate taking photos till this day and never look at a picture of myself out of fear of it ruining my week , depression would set in seeing how awful I looked. I can never look at mirrors up close because i would see a horrible monster .It would always have to be from afar where i can see my face as a whole and not so detailed .
Same
Glad a man is speaking about this. Important to recognize it happens to men too
I'm 56 and an ex ballet dancer. I can't accept my body. I am constantly on a diet. Constantly mirror checking. Nitpicking every aspect of my appearance. It's absolutely exhausting. Been like this since I was 9. Had therapy, still struggle. It's so deeply ingrained it won't go away. If you're young, please get the help you need NOW. Don't leave it like I did. I think I'll feel like this for the rest of my life now.
I am 35 and still dealing with this, it's the worst when I'm on my period - I spent about 5 hrs in front of the mirror today and taking videos of myself talking because it's been bothering me how my face is asymmetrical and one side of my lip pulls up much higher than the other when I talk. I have horrible hair and a weird shaped head. Everyone tells me I'm pretty and sometimes I think I am too, but then a bad day comes around like today and I get rid of lots of my clothes, I like to start "fresh" in my wardrobe, and also get new makeup to make myself feel better, binge eat, feel fat, starve myself, struggle with OCD, etc....shopping for new things all the time, making lists of future procedures I can get like Botox, lip filler.....for when I have money. It's exhausting and expensive and draining mentally. The thing is I hide it well and no one knows I have this problem. It's suffering alone.
My heart kind of sunk. The compulsions of sneaking off into the bathroom and checking, and not being able to leave until its perfect. I’ve been stuck in bathrooms at work doing that…
I’ve known about BDD but am kind of in denial because “what if i actually am just hideous”. But it never leaves me alone. Always on my mind every single day. I don’t allow myself to do normal activities that others can because it feels unbearable to feel “exposed” without hiding. Without compulsions/checking/fixing.
Very important to spread info about this disorder. It is still not as known as it should be. Thanks for sharing.
Wow !!! I used to look at my shadow and notice my shape of my body !!! Im not alone !
I'm 17, and I think I'm in the early stages of this. Constantly focusing on my hair and checking in the mirror. If it's the wrong mirror and lighting, I get sad. I need to get my crap together. This needs to be stopped before it even starts.
How is it going man?
I guess I've gotten older or something. I have matured more, and my appearance has drastically changed for the better as well. Now, at 19, after starting university today, after a couple of beers, I couldn't care less about how I look ribghtt now haha. Growing up is cool, but getting old sucks.
My advice for young people experiencing the same thing, is that try to deal with it, things will get better, one way or another, but if it gets too bad, seek professional help.
my bdd started in elementary school too. i’m 33 now and still struggle with it everyday.
Same… 33, too.. constantly in the gym working out, always checking mirrors. Tiring..
It hurts; I have to go through this everyday.. always checking my reflection in mirrors and the reflections from the windows.. everytime I get a bad view of my body I will feel so depressed and so empty.. trying to avoid others, I sometimes get a good view of my body, I weigh the healthy weight but I still can't think of me actually having a good body, my parents always tells me I'm a stick but I can never ever believe them, it hurts and hurts more even more everyday, BDD is pure torture, looking at myself every 40 minutes and looking at myself every shadow, window reflection and just everything that shows my appearance, it didn't start till I was bullied for being overweight in elementary so I decided to starve myself, I remember one day passing out because I didn't have enough "thingies" well whatever you get from food that is important, I went through so many stomach ulcers till December 7th 2019 and then felt a strange warmth in my stomach and got so weak and collapsed, I was immediately taken to the doctor by my mother ( I don't really remember how I got there) but I remember waking up on a soft bed but with a lot of voices and lights, it was a terrifying experience, when they checked my weight I was severely underweight, they kept me there for 6 days and used a tube to pump disgusting stuff into me, it was absolutely horrible, afterwards I did feel better but I still continued and continued looking at myself, Yes it has gotten better but it is always the first thing that is on my mind and always stops me from socializing with anyone.. it's pure hell.
I’m glad about covid, because then it’s normal to wear a mask and cover my face. But I also think it might be the reason I’ve started developing facial dysmorphia. I started to look at my face less and less and it just became… uglier and uglier… I can now only accept myself with the mask. I also have light mode and most apps to avoid seeing my reflection. And yes, it might kill me but my face is worse. Plus, I already get bashed on it enough.
I fee exactly the same way as this, you might not see this reply but things will get better just seek help as will I. It’s funny because I knew I would feel that way during the pandemic because I relied on the mask that I basically predicted that this would surge the body dysmorphia surrounding my face and the problems I had with it. It will get better just keep pushing, I will continue to fight it if that helps you in anyway to know that someone else is feeling the same way as you. Do NOT let it control your life because currently it just occupies my mind and that’s not healthy!! Keep going you’ve got this
I hated the mask. I have a love and hate relationship with it. I refused to wear it at the height of the pandemic because I knew it'd make my bed worse. I started to love it when I realized I could use it to hide my face. Now they are lifting the mandates and the mask has in fact made my bdd worse. Now I can barely be in public without it. I don't know what I'm gonna do
I hate my eyes the most about my face so mask didn’t really help me, it made it worse.
Same here. Wearing a mask really helps me to hide my face to avoid having people to judge how I look. I also love wearing black because it gives an illusion to not make my tummy look like a huge ball.
Dark...
I walked that path before. I know it's not easy. Just answer this question: "Is every successful people around me hot?"
BDD sucks so much. I’m 35 and have been dealing with it since about age 14. I can relate to all of this. My skin is my major obsession. I feel so anxious and depressed sometimes. A pimple or two is such a hugeee deal for me. It all started when I got a bit of teenage acne. Never been the same since. I also dealt with Trichotillomania from age 14. Managed to get that under control and stop pulling in my late teens/early 20s. It’s all so exhausting 😔
I am the same age as you, and I hate the way I look, and sometimes I think about suicide
@ misskarinaleigh I'm 51 and have dealt with this and pulling my eyebrows, eyelashes since I was 12. This really sucks
I have bdd and wear hoodies all through hs, and now 32 and still got it .
Same
Same and I’m 32 too
@@Barbaraska You have to fight the emotions not the thought. Don't be obsessed with trying to make the thought go away. Leave them. Focus on stopping the emotions that the thoughts are triggering. The thoughts will have little impacts and will slowly fade away once you start to expose yourself regularly and the danger that you are worried about either doesn't happen or when it does, it's not as bad as you feared it'd be. Bottom line control your emotions not your bdd thoughts. That's the path I'm currently on after many years of suffering. I'm actually going out there now with absolutely no coverings and nothing bad happened. In fact most people don't even care enough to look at me.
BDD started for me as a child. I thought I was horribly ugly and fat. When I started middle school, I fixated on my stomach area and how much fat was there. This was the start of anorexia. I was obsessed with checking how flat my stomach was in the mirror. I'm now in my early 30's and after years of therapy I can say that I am mostly recovered. I still have days were I think I'm ugly or that I need to lose weight, but I always identify those thoughts and work through them. I now actually know what it feels like to have self esteem.
this is what i do now... i cant look at a picture of myself without disgust and stress, i constantly starve myself then eat something and feel guilty about it, my appearance is all i think about, i am always comparing myself to others, i cant even look at my own reflection without it ruining my day, im so angry because im jealous of skinny, pretty girls its all i can think about
@@hellasilly My problem id the opposite, I'm so in love with my physique and facial features and I see myself as the most handsome guy in the world but that gives me the fear of something happening to my face and altering my features, I've to always check my face and see if anything went wrong. I starve myself to death most of the time so others won't see it as attractive and do damage to me. I know it doesn't make sense but as yk OCD knows no logic. I'm just exhausted. I can't run away from it. I want to get fit but my diet is poor because of BDD.
I just feel like giving up and depressed!!
I had body dysmorphia since I was 16, I was severely bullied for having a big forehead, I was teased and bullied everyday and I started developing anxiety and did not wanna show my head to no one, so for 16 to 18 I wear hoodies all day and never took it of when I was in class, I almost didn't graduated hs, because I hated showing up for school, where I have to take off my hoodie for pe, I use to hate the summer because I can't hide my so called disfigurement.,
I have a similar story bullied for same reason around the same age's. I was diagnosed around the age of 16 with BBD due too rituals involving my hair similar too the guy in video aswell as OCD and Anxiety, I've had long hair since then and have worn a hat and/or hood. The thought of getting my hair cut is very uncomfortable for me at the moment as silly as that sounds.
Ive gotten angry and frustrated at my compulsions/rituals and situation I was kicked out around 17 for that reason. But thankfully my Grandmother has let me stay with her since (im now 20).
Only last year I was diagnosed with depression and Social Anxiety. It's still a struggle daily too get out and stay out, unfortunately i dropped out of school and have missed out on employment & opportunities.
My parents split at 17, had a close family member past at 18 and found out i have deceased Twin brother. I live in a neighbourhood full of drugs not that its an excuse! I allowed myself to end up addicted too weed and abuse alcohol severely...
Only up from here!! I have faith and hope that I along with anyone else struggling with ANYTHING can get the help and support that's needed along with being fortunate enough like me too recognise I need too get help aswell as help myself by keeping positive thoughts, staying strong and believing in myself😊
P.S If you read this I appreciate it 🙏 wish you all the best
@@getvaxed360 I hope you find solace and peace 🙏
can’t live with myself
i relate so much living with Bdd is not easy and trying to adapt to it is stressful.
Bruh going to that bathroom in school that no one goes to is relatable
Wow … the way I relate to this is so crazy omg
The shadow and checking hair thing is very true since I was a kid. It was a warning sign...
I hate the mirror checking and like the shame of seeing other ppl in public. I’m so tired
I have had BDD for as long as I can remember which developed into agoraphobia and I struggle every single day to leave my home.
I relate SO much to this and now that I’m 40 I’m convinced I look 50 or 60. I’m a very lined person with no fat in my face and the way I’m behaving now reminds me of how insecure I felt in my teens and 20s. I feel SO self obsessed but I hate the way I look. Always have. Hopefully I won’t forever because I have a lot of other problems caused by my mind aswell and it is wasting my time. Good luck everyone who is suffering x
I have BDD. But i dont have no parents :( no sibling. No freinds. Well, i have a few but they are online freinds. Im so alone. Im scared of growing old cuz relationships are impossible. I dont know how yo fix myself. Its stopping me from getting a job. Its f***ing up my whole life. Im 26 and i allready feel like my life is over
And CAMOFLAGING!! I did this at School omg. I Still do it now. I wear big puffer jackets to hide my skinniess no matter what heat is like. I HATE my life i dont know what to do. I dont want to be alone no more. There is a girl im speaking to who i jave explained this too. She is willing to wait for me, to fix myself. And i want to be with her. I want a family but ithis is all stopping me
Your not alone! I have no friends either and I think it’s because of how I look.. I think nobody wants to be friends with me because I look deformed and it messes with my job as well because I go to work and don’t talk to anybody and when I do I feel like they r disgusted by how I look… I go to a psychiatrist and have yet to find a treatment that works for me.. I’ve been this way about 5 years now
You must seek professional care at once. Only two things can help BDD: medication and/or therapy.
I used to be extremely like this when I was little. I always looked at my shadow to see how hideous I looked (I always thought I looked fat) and this was my whole school life.
In books they said that people this age (in puberty) get conscious of their body so I always thought, until I saw this video that every teenager faced this, but alas, it was only me. I had a very weird way of judging or looking at people’s faces. I was shocked how kids were so confident and comfortable going to school with styes, pimples or hoarse throat or something else whereas I could never go to school if I was like that and I would hope anxiously that that never happened with me. I didn’t realise this had a correlation with stealing my life from me.
I felt so uncomfortable in my own skin that I used to stoop and had such low self confidence. I always felt I was fat. I am not a superficial person at all. But I felt undeserving and uncomfortable and alienated in my own body.
So many lies knitted together. 😪... so liberating that you cab honestly share xxx
I kind of just realized some behaviors I had that were because I’m dysmorphic… I had a watch and if look in the reflection of the watch for probably hours during school I have a disability so I limp and I also have minor tics when I walk where I sway my head back and fourth and I just can’t stand to watch myself walk… the moment I knew I was dysmorphic is when I checked my weight I saw a lost a pound and I physically looked skinny in the mirror. I then ate came back and gained weight and Instantly my neck looked fat my cheeks were chubby
I relate to this completely. If I believe I’m skinny, that’s what I see in the mirror but if I believe I’m bigger that’s all I see. It’s so disheartening
i got this aswell only one thing i found u need to tell yourself that you are buetiful and carry on with your life.
I'm a victim of BDD it all started with acne, shifted to my face when all the way to to the whole turned into a hatred of my whole body.. it's painful 😭
Unfortunately we all know the symptoms but not the cause or a permanent cure.
The cause is bullyism.
@@SL-pg4dh the bullying can trigger the evolution of the disorder, but it is not the cause. I think I was most likely born with a predisposition to BDD
This is exactly how i was and this whole thing triggered once when i started going gym. I used to watch my shadow and constantly look on my shoulders how wide they looked i got pissed when i walk and saw my reflection example from door glass or shopping window, how that didn't fulltil the expectation and image i have manifested inside my head. It even transformed as bad that i started wearing multiple layer of shirts to cope and outcome this image i had it was crazy and stupid sh!t.
It's been 3_4 years that i've been struggling with BDD
I can't escape from depression
Ah man. I've never been able to get over this at 27. Its so hard sometimes
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Same I’m always coming my Dahm hair and always looking at my face Dahm
Dealing with BDD about my hairs from last few years, with proper medication i am now getting well but still thoughts about my hairs stays with me but its intensity is not that much
"What an unhappy man I am! Who will rescue me from this body that is taking me to death?"
Romans 7:24
I’ve got same condition. He sounds like me
Whether I come under the category of BDD I'm not sure but I'm a 36 year old straight male but back when I was 16 I was mistaken for a girl which has had a huge effect on the way I feel as a man to this day, I worry that my face looks too girly and the only time I feel comfortable and manly is when I have a full beard, if I shave completely I worry that I might get misgendered again. Just wondering if anyone else has had this experience and feels the same way?
Hey, I don't have the exact same thing as you, but I thought sharing my little story could make you feel better. I am a 21 year old girl and I have very small lips and a prominent chin. To me this looks very masculine, I never want people to see my side profile and I wear lipstick or liner every day and go to the bathroom a few times a day to check if its still perfectly on. I want to get rid of this so badly but without make up I feel like a man. I think about this constantly and also look in the mirror or reflection every time I can but i feel like my face never looks the same. Often I feel like I have the weirdest face ever.
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Wow you sound like me. Even the bathroom during recess in elementary school I did the exact same thing 😕
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Oh my
Omg yes just one mirror 😢
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But bros not bad looking, I look at myself and literally see a ugly dude that can never look better nor be better
If that stops you from living life, it has something to do with ocd and is something very wrong with that
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I hate appreciate 😔
i think i have it
Is there any discussion group on telegram fb or instagram that u know?
The BDD foundation has some resouces x
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