Rob thanks so much for your series on this topic! I’m currently surrendered to getting some help with some anxiety medication. This series has been amazing for me. I now understand & don’t feel alone. Thank you for this!
Thank you thank you! ✨✨You’re not alone! Believe me, I’ve absolutely been in your shoes. I’m so proud and excited for you that you have decided to seek and receive the help that you deserve!! You’re on the right track! remember to get your heart rate up 20-30 mins 3 times a week. This is huuuuge! Eat well and get good sleep!! if you have any questions, feel free to ask! Thanks again for the excellent comment!🙏✨
Thank you for sharing your experiences ! | just started Wellbutrin about a week ago and I have noticed an improvement. My psychiatrist is adding a low dose of Setraline... fingers crossed that it will relieve some of my heightened anxiety
Woop!!🙌✨Sounds promising!!! So glad to hear it! Anytime you add an SSRI things can potentially get bumpy for awhile! I mean…awhiiile… Hang in there! You got this💪🔥
Thanks for the life update. I'm glad that you are doing well and living life!! I've been on 100mg SR twice daily for about a year and feeling awesome. Hope to see another video soon. Also, the short hair looks good.
Congratulations nurse Robert !🎉 I just started meds, and found your videos. Thanks so much, scared to take zoloft and busbar together, gonna give it a try, I'm so desperate to feel "normal", always feeling scared and alone, hope to feel better soon, please keep making videos 😊
You got this! ✨✨✨I promise you, this is not an easy road but you 100% deserve all the incredible things coming your way. Things will get better, the headaches, and sluggishness, and all the wooonderful 😏 side effects this stuff throws at you will be a distant memory soon and you will be so much stronger on the other side. You likely will feel like quitting but just get to the next day, and the next, and it will get better ❤️ wishing you all the best on your mental health journey ✨🙏
@@robertmakesashow7089❤, thanks for your words, not sure if it is the meds but i am having trouble sleeping, I watch your videos, and I'm not sure if it's your voice or your little jokes but they calm me and help me fall asleep, so thanks again for all your info. 😊
Robert! Thank you so much for sharing your journey! I have also just started Wellbutrin for depression and extreme social anxiety, and your videos give me so much hope and relief. I can see how visibly healthier and confident you look. Congrats on becoming a nurse and I wish you the best in your new chapter of your life. Thank you ❤️
Thank YOU so so much For this amazing comment! 😌✨ I wish you all the very best in your mental health journey! Wellbutrin will not always, but can definitely cause a little anxiety. This effect will go away with some time so hang in there! If it wasn’t for the Buspar I think i would’ve had a considerably tougher time with it. Don’t forget to get your heart rate up (exercise) for 20-30 mins 3 times a week. This is so unbelievably important I can’t stress it enough. Ya dont have to do something crazy stressful, but somewhat rigorous and consistent, jogging, treadmill elliptical, bike, row machine, dance routine on UA-cam, cardio class…etc also get that sleep!! You got this!!! Sending you good vibes ⚡️⚡️⚡️
Hi Robert! Just found you! My first clip watched was when you had Covid, cooking salmon. You were encouraged that the meds were helping. Then I found this uplifting video…I want this! As an adult, I have battled depression, anxiety, and, in the last year, become a shut-in. I am getting the help I need, and now taking Zoloft and Buspirone. I am not currently taking Wellbutrin but have used it in the past with reasonable success. Maybe that is the link I am missing! Thank you for sharing…it gives me hope! And BEST WISHES TO YOU!
This is the greatest comment I’ve read all year! 😌✨✨✨✨ Thank you thank you for sharing and commenting. Feel free to reach out and keep me posted on all your progress! you got this! 💪✨
Ah man it’s nice to hear someone validate the low and slow philosophy with meds. I really think it’s the way to go. You can always add more but it’s hard to decrease once you pour tremendous amounts of brain chemicals in your system. Thank you for your comment✨ Much appreciated!!🙏✨
Thank you so much for sharing your experience! It is so helpful to those of us going through something similar, or considering it. I'm currently taking Buspar and am considering wellbutrin/zoloft, so I'm finding vlogs like yours extremely useful. I'm a new subscriber, so please keep making vids. Also, welcome to Portland!
Thank you thank you!!🙏✨I still take all 3 of those drugs. For me personally the Buspar is the best of them. If you feel compelled to take all of them, I would save the zoloft for last. Its a hard hard medication to onboard but for me it was def worth it after awhile! Wellbutrin just gave me energy but didn’t do a whole lot for my depression. Zoloft helped probably the 2nd most of the 3, but again it a was tough, people take Wellbutrin sometimes just to counter attack the side effects of Zoloft.
I appreciate this comment more than you know!! ✨Hahaha, was actually thinking about it the other day. I’m going to try and create new content soon!!! hopefully i don’t get to side tracked as per usual! #ADHDme 👀
@@robertmakesashow7089 OMG do! Your video where you talked about being a golden retriever that can pop into a ward room and brighten people's day seems very astute lol - I imagine that's what most patients get from you, if that's still what you're doing. Otherwise just like people around you. That's deffo the vibe I get from your videos. Though like no pressure to always present happy lol, that can be exhausting, I'm sure you're just as entertaining as a sardonic deadpan dude now and then too haha
I'm so happy for you and proud of you getting a new job and moving and your doing great. I hope u keep making videos your a joy to listen to. I'm also on wellbutrin and buspirone, it's nice to hear your experiences, thanks for sharing :)
😌✨✨✨Your comment is making my whole entire day. Thank you, I really appreciate you.🙌 Also, I’m so glad that wellbutrin and buspar are working for you! Wishing you the very best of health!
Thank you for your wellbutrin vids. It was very comforting to know what i was feeling was shared and to know what to expect in the future is also a great comfort. Thank you. Have you looked into an ADHD diagnosis? Did your cessation of adhd like symptoms ever resolve? love to you forever ( a week into taking buproprion btw) (Requiem for a Dream is the movie)
Thank you for the comment!!🙏✨ I probably don’t have ADHD…probably! I think a lot of us probably just have so much stimulation on a daily basis (phones, sugary food, netflix, video games, porn) that our baseline requirement for stimulation (homeostasis) becomes so unbelievably high that doing something like sitting quietly and reading is incredibly difficult. I think consistent cardio and eating well probably did more for my focus than anything. With that being said, what few ADHD symptoms i had definitely benefited a bit from the medication. It’s basically easier to focus when you’re not stressed out. Thank you again!!✨ (and bonus points for getting the movie 🍿!)
I been on buspar 10mg 3 times a day for 10+ years and now my anxiety is back and it’s getting so bad :( my dr added 25mg of Zoloft but I’m scared of too high serotonin levels. Because I read on the internet alot 😅
That is very smart of you to think about serotonin syndrome, (again i’m not a medical professional) but you don’t have to worry about that at all. 25mg is the lowest active dose prescribed and you’ve been on buspar for so long. Serotonin syndrome is pretty uncommon and will generally resolve in a day or two with no lasting side effects. I will say that starting an SSRI is a lot more difficult than starting Buspar and takes longer for your body to adjust. Zoloft made me sooooo tired for so long (recommended: take your dose at night) I think it took me at least a month before I started feeling like it was helping. But if you can stay strong and make it through the crappyness, it’s definitely something that I’m glad I got on. Stay strong 💪 ✨✨✨ You got this. also, be careful what you read on Reddit. During that first month or so when people are getting used to Zoloft and busbar and all these other drugs, they go on Reddit and complain how terrible it is, and it is terrible! But what you don’t see is that the same people after a month or so stop looking at those reddit post and just go about their lives because the drug is working for them. I was glued to those forums of people talking about their nightmare experiences with Zoloft all throughout the very first month or so, and it really freaked me out, but now that it’s working for me, I never go to those Reddit posts. I don’t need to complain anymore 😄. thanks for the comment. I wish you the very best of health!!!✨
Thanks for your videos! I started on Wellbutrin a few weeks ago (for add and depression) and I’m starting to feel more anxiety like my heart feels like dropping all the time In terms of anxiety, do you think the medicine has helped reshaped your anxious thoughts ? Or did it just make you feel less anxious, and the thoughts kinda gradually shifted as a result of feeling better. Thank you!
Thank you for your comment!! The buspar did all the heavy lifting for my anxiety. The wellbutrin made the anxiety worse for a little bit but then that effect went away. I feel like the effect is that it kind of turned my mind off a bit, my brain doesn’t focus hard on anxious things but kinda drifts more instead of fixating. It didn’t exactly change my thoughts but the effects those thoughts had on my body lessened. I hope that makes sense! thanks again ✨
Anhedonia is definitely better but it took a long while. Anhedonia is a tricky one because, at least for me, it wasn’t exactly that I didn’t get joy in my interests, cuz i could watch anime all day and be satisfied, but its kinda like you don’t have the courage and resolve and energy to do things you want to do. A lot of that was just a life’s worth of anxiety weighing on my mind for years teaching me that the world is an anxiety ridden exhausting place. Once the anxiety was lifted a bit and i was able to experience life without the weight, my brain learned again what it liked to do and could act upon it without the same fear and self defeating perspective. Hope that made some sense. The meds helped me get some relief from the stress while my brain could retrain itself.
@@robertmakesashow7089 yeah for me its more brain fog and inability to concentrate and focus. My mind is constantly racing and right now I’m trying to figure out if its due to anxiety or adhd. Currently on Zoloft and it’s helping. Im back in the gym. But I’m not mentally where I used to be. Reason for me asking because I honestly thought it was due to anhedonia
@@robertmakesashow7089 Thanks for your reply! Buspar has relatively short half-life. Do you feel anxious between doses since you are only taking twice a day?
I hadn’t noticed any dips in between doses. I’ve been on 10mgs a day for 3 years now, I barely notice a difference anymore however I do remember life before it and it was extremely rough. I don’t buspar keeps me afloat entirely perse it just puts a lil wind in my sails.
I did experience some hair loss, but it was very minimal and now has stopped. I think my body just got used to the drug. I have heard though that if it is more hair loss and you’re comfortable with you can always stop the drug and it will simply grow back. For me, it was worth the risk! Thank you so much for the incredible comment. I appreciate you I wish you the best of health!!✨
@@nenadcubric2663 I think no one prefers to take medication if we don’t need them. However, we are all different! Some people do need medication and it’s okay. People have fever and they take medication too. The most important is thing that you are taking steps to get cured from your illness. Sometimes medication is just temporary but necessary.
I’m essentially on a baby aspirin level dose of my medication, the minimal effective dose. It’s nearly sub perceptual. I don’t intend to get off them any time soon but if I have to it won’t be as challenging. (thoughI don’t see the need to get off them) I think the reason these meds get a bad rap is because they are prescribed at sky high doses which is no fault of the patient but rather a lack of insight on behalf of the physician. I totally appreciate your input though, I’m sorry your tapering process is hellish😩
@@robertmakesashow7089 yes I gained 30 pounds only been on celexa 4 months and Now it will take me two years to hyperbolic taper off :( everyone is different but I absolutely despise this drug. Glad it is working for you and I know alot of ppl who they work for but for me it has been a nightmare.
Wow! You’re a nurse now? Thats so awesome!! Yay! ❤ Requiem for a dream. Very crazy movie.
I am!! Thank you🙏✨
Yes! Omg they do tell the best stories!
So inspiring and encouraging. All your videos are great. Keep going buddy 👍
Rob thanks so much for your series on this topic! I’m currently surrendered to getting some help with some anxiety medication. This series has been amazing for me. I now understand & don’t feel alone. Thank you for this!
Thank you thank you! ✨✨You’re not alone! Believe me, I’ve absolutely been in your shoes. I’m so proud and excited for you that you have decided to seek and receive the help that you deserve!! You’re on the right track! remember to get your heart rate up 20-30 mins 3 times a week. This is huuuuge! Eat well and get good sleep!! if you have any questions, feel free to ask! Thanks again for the excellent comment!🙏✨
Thank you for sharing your experiences ! | just started Wellbutrin about a week ago and I have noticed an improvement. My psychiatrist is adding a low dose of Setraline... fingers crossed that it will relieve some of my heightened anxiety
Woop!!🙌✨Sounds promising!!! So glad to hear it! Anytime you add an SSRI things can potentially get bumpy for awhile! I mean…awhiiile… Hang in there! You got this💪🔥
Thanks for the life update. I'm glad that you are doing well and living life!! I've been on 100mg SR twice daily for about a year and feeling awesome. Hope to see another video soon. Also, the short hair looks good.
Hi what is SR? Have u had any side effects like nausea or libido problems? I was given Lexapro low dose but am scared to take it.
Wellbutrin Sustained Release...no issues at all.
Congratulations nurse Robert !🎉
I just started meds, and found your videos. Thanks so much, scared to take zoloft and busbar together, gonna give it a try, I'm so desperate to feel "normal", always feeling scared and alone, hope to feel better soon, please keep making videos 😊
You got this! ✨✨✨I promise you, this is not an easy road but you 100% deserve all the incredible things coming your way. Things will get better, the headaches, and sluggishness, and all the wooonderful 😏 side effects this stuff throws at you will be a distant memory soon and you will be so much stronger on the other side. You likely will feel like quitting but just get to the next day, and the next, and it will get better ❤️ wishing you all the best on your mental health journey ✨🙏
@@robertmakesashow7089❤, thanks for your words, not sure if it is the meds but i am having trouble sleeping, I watch your videos, and I'm not sure if it's your voice or your little jokes but they calm me and help me fall asleep, so thanks again for all your info. 😊
I just started Wellbutrin last Friday (short time but I’ve seen massive changes already) and it’s been great so far. I love all of your videos!!! ❤️❤️
YESSS!!! ✨✨✨That’s so wonderful to hear! 💕 Thank you for sharing! I appreciate it.
Glad you're doing well congrats on graduating! Your videos have really helped me with my journey
sooo happy to hear it ! ☺️ thanks for your comment✨✨✨
Robert! Thank you so much for sharing your journey! I have also just started Wellbutrin for depression and extreme social anxiety, and your videos give me so much hope and relief. I can see how visibly healthier and confident you look. Congrats on becoming a nurse and I wish you the best in your new chapter of your life. Thank you ❤️
Thank YOU so so much For this amazing comment! 😌✨ I wish you all the very best in your mental health journey! Wellbutrin will not always, but can definitely cause a little anxiety. This effect will go away with some time so hang in there! If it wasn’t for the Buspar I think i would’ve had a considerably tougher time with it. Don’t forget to get your heart rate up (exercise) for 20-30 mins 3 times a week. This is so unbelievably important I can’t stress it enough. Ya dont have to do something crazy stressful, but somewhat rigorous and consistent, jogging, treadmill elliptical, bike, row machine, dance routine on UA-cam, cardio class…etc also get that sleep!! You got this!!! Sending you good vibes ⚡️⚡️⚡️
Hi Robert! Just found you! My first clip watched was when you had Covid, cooking salmon. You were encouraged that the meds were helping. Then I found this uplifting video…I want this! As an adult, I have battled depression, anxiety, and, in the last year, become a shut-in. I am getting the help I need, and now taking Zoloft and Buspirone. I am not currently taking Wellbutrin but have used it in the past with reasonable success. Maybe that is the link I am missing! Thank you for sharing…it gives me hope! And BEST WISHES TO YOU!
This is the greatest comment I’ve read all year! 😌✨✨✨✨ Thank you thank you for sharing and commenting. Feel free to reach out and keep me posted on all your progress! you got this! 💪✨
I agree with keeping dosage as low as possible. I want to feel like myself with the extra boost that I need to stay balanced.
Ah man it’s nice to hear someone validate the low and slow philosophy with meds. I really think it’s the way to go. You can always add more but it’s hard to decrease once you pour tremendous amounts of brain chemicals in your system. Thank you for your comment✨ Much appreciated!!🙏✨
This is so cool❤❤❤❤ congratulations.
Also this video cracked me up😅
💖💖💖💖 YOU’RE SO COOL!!✨😌 thank you for your feedback! I really appreciate you taking the time to comment🙏✨
Thank you so much for sharing your experience! It is so helpful to those of us going through something similar, or considering it. I'm currently taking Buspar and am considering wellbutrin/zoloft, so I'm finding vlogs like yours extremely useful. I'm a new subscriber, so please keep making vids. Also, welcome to Portland!
Thank you thank you!!🙏✨I still take all 3 of those drugs. For me personally the Buspar is the best of them. If you feel compelled to take all of them, I would save the zoloft for last. Its a hard hard medication to onboard but for me it was def worth it after awhile! Wellbutrin just gave me energy but didn’t do a whole lot for my depression. Zoloft helped probably the 2nd most of the 3, but again it a was tough, people take Wellbutrin sometimes just to counter attack the side effects of Zoloft.
You are everything please make vlogs/normal life videos or like anything you are seriously funny and entertaining ❤
I appreciate this comment more than you know!! ✨Hahaha, was actually thinking about it the other day. I’m going to try and create new content soon!!! hopefully i don’t get to side tracked as per usual! #ADHDme 👀
@@robertmakesashow7089 OMG do! Your video where you talked about being a golden retriever that can pop into a ward room and brighten people's day seems very astute lol - I imagine that's what most patients get from you, if that's still what you're doing. Otherwise just like people around you. That's deffo the vibe I get from your videos. Though like no pressure to always present happy lol, that can be exhausting, I'm sure you're just as entertaining as a sardonic deadpan dude now and then too haha
@@kaiman99919 Thanks again so much for the encouragement!!!🤗✨✨✨Means a lot!
I'm so happy for you and proud of you getting a new job and moving and your doing great. I hope u keep making videos your a joy to listen to. I'm also on wellbutrin and buspirone, it's nice to hear your experiences, thanks for sharing :)
😌✨✨✨Your comment is making my whole entire day. Thank you, I really appreciate you.🙌 Also, I’m so glad that wellbutrin and buspar are working for you! Wishing you the very best of health!
Thank you for your wellbutrin vids. It was very comforting to know what i was feeling was shared and to know what to expect in the future is also a great comfort. Thank you.
Have you looked into an ADHD diagnosis? Did your cessation of adhd like symptoms ever resolve? love to you forever ( a week into taking buproprion btw)
(Requiem for a Dream is the movie)
Thank you for the comment!!🙏✨ I probably don’t have ADHD…probably! I think a lot of us probably just have so much stimulation on a daily basis (phones, sugary food, netflix, video games, porn) that our baseline requirement for stimulation (homeostasis) becomes so unbelievably high that doing something like sitting quietly and reading is incredibly difficult. I think consistent cardio and eating well probably did more for my focus than anything. With that being said, what few ADHD symptoms i had definitely benefited a bit from the medication. It’s basically easier to focus when you’re not stressed out. Thank you again!!✨ (and bonus points for getting the movie 🍿!)
Requiem For A Dream
BOOM! That’s the one! ✨ thank u 🙏
I been on buspar 10mg 3 times a day for 10+ years and now my anxiety is back and it’s getting so bad :( my dr added 25mg of Zoloft but I’m scared of too high serotonin levels. Because I read on the internet alot 😅
That is very smart of you to think about serotonin syndrome, (again i’m not a medical professional) but you don’t have to worry about that at all. 25mg is the lowest active dose prescribed and you’ve been on buspar for so long. Serotonin syndrome is pretty uncommon and will generally resolve in a day or two with no lasting side effects. I will say that starting an SSRI is a lot more difficult than starting Buspar and takes longer for your body to adjust. Zoloft made me sooooo tired for so long (recommended: take your dose at night) I think it took me at least a month before I started feeling like it was helping. But if you can stay strong and make it through the crappyness, it’s definitely something that I’m glad I got on. Stay strong 💪 ✨✨✨ You got this. also, be careful what you read on Reddit. During that first month or so when people are getting used to Zoloft and busbar and all these other drugs, they go on Reddit and complain how terrible it is, and it is terrible! But what you don’t see is that the same people after a month or so stop looking at those reddit post and just go about their lives because the drug is working for them. I was glued to those forums of people talking about their nightmare experiences with Zoloft all throughout the very first month or so, and it really freaked me out, but now that it’s working for me, I never go to those Reddit posts. I don’t need to complain anymore 😄. thanks for the comment. I wish you the very best of health!!!✨
Thanks for your videos! I started on Wellbutrin a few weeks ago (for add and depression) and I’m starting to feel more anxiety like my heart feels like dropping all the time
In terms of anxiety, do you think the medicine has helped reshaped your anxious thoughts ? Or did it just make you feel less anxious, and the thoughts kinda gradually shifted as a result of feeling better. Thank you!
Thank you for your comment!! The buspar did all the heavy lifting for my anxiety. The wellbutrin made the anxiety worse for a little bit but then that effect went away. I feel like the effect is that it kind of turned my mind off a bit, my brain doesn’t focus hard on anxious things but kinda drifts more instead of fixating. It didn’t exactly change my thoughts but the effects those thoughts had on my body lessened. I hope that makes sense! thanks again ✨
Your hair looks great! How are you?
Thank you✨🙌It’s kinda a birds nest in the video, minus da cute bb birds🐣
Hey Rob Congrats on your success. Can you please give an update on your Anhedonia? How is your motivation and mental on that?
Anhedonia is definitely better but it took a long while. Anhedonia is a tricky one because, at least for me, it wasn’t exactly that I didn’t get joy in my interests, cuz i could watch anime all day and be satisfied, but its kinda like you don’t have the courage and resolve and energy to do things you want to do. A lot of that was just a life’s worth of anxiety weighing on my mind for years teaching me that the world is an anxiety ridden exhausting place. Once the anxiety was lifted a bit and i was able to experience life without the weight, my brain learned again what it liked to do and could act upon it without the same fear and self defeating perspective. Hope that made some sense. The meds helped me get some relief from the stress while my brain could retrain itself.
@@robertmakesashow7089 yeah for me its more brain fog and inability to concentrate and focus. My mind is constantly racing and right now I’m trying to figure out if its due to anxiety or adhd. Currently on Zoloft and it’s helping. Im back in the gym. But I’m not mentally where I used to be. Reason for me asking because I honestly thought it was due to anhedonia
Haha “and they’re all named Gladys” 😂
bahahaha! It’s more true than you think!!😆✨✨✨
Welcome to Oregon
THANK YOU!!🙏✨ I love it here!
Why do you take Zoloft? Did Buspar stop working?
nope i take them at the same time! in low doses.
@@robertmakesashow7089 Thanks for your reply! Buspar has relatively short half-life. Do you feel anxious between doses since you are only taking twice a day?
I hadn’t noticed any dips in between doses. I’ve been on 10mgs a day for 3 years now, I barely notice a difference anymore however I do remember life before it and it was extremely rough. I don’t buspar keeps me afloat entirely perse it just puts a lil wind in my sails.
Have you experienced any hair loss? I would like to try wellbutrin, but I am scared of hair loss.
I did experience some hair loss, but it was very minimal and now has stopped. I think my body just got used to the drug. I have heard though that if it is more hair loss and you’re comfortable with you can always stop the drug and it will simply grow back. For me, it was worth the risk! Thank you so much for the incredible comment. I appreciate you I wish you the best of health!!✨
@@robertmakesashow7089 good thing i am bald :D
where did your beautifull hair go
I chopped it off! Loved the long hair look for awhile but it feels so good to hair short hair again!! Wooo. So much easier to manage!
Is sad that you need some Medication to live and feel happy, really
How weird that my happiness makes you sad. Maybe you need some medication😂
@@robertmakesashow7089 no dont get me wrong, but the fact you need Medication to feel happy is in my opinion sad, look around you life is beautiful
@@nenadcubric2663 I think no one prefers to take medication if we don’t need them. However, we are all different! Some people do need medication and it’s okay. People have fever and they take medication too. The most important is thing that you are taking steps to get cured from your illness. Sometimes medication is just temporary but necessary.
It’s kind of tragic that this makes you sad. I hope you can cheer up one day.😌✨
good point!!✨
But your gonna have to taper off all those drugs, they have side affects im tapering a ssri and it is hell. Massive weight gain akathesia hair loss.
I’m essentially on a baby aspirin level dose of my medication, the minimal effective dose. It’s nearly sub perceptual. I don’t intend to get off them any time soon but if I have to it won’t be as challenging. (thoughI don’t see the need to get off them) I think the reason these meds get a bad rap is because they are prescribed at sky high doses which is no fault of the patient but rather a lack of insight on behalf of the physician. I totally appreciate your input though, I’m sorry your tapering process is hellish😩
@@robertmakesashow7089 yes I gained 30 pounds only been on celexa 4 months and Now it will take me two years to hyperbolic taper off :( everyone is different but I absolutely despise this drug. Glad it is working for you and I know alot of ppl who they work for but for me it has been a nightmare.
Oh i’m sorry that sounds rough 😞I wish you all the best in your recovery. Thanks for sharing your story❤️🩹
Are you and your boyfriend still together? And if so are you the bottom or the top? I would assume the bottom 😁
Do you usually listen to people talk about their anxiety and depression and then sexually objectify them? 🤮 cool cool cool. Also, boyfriend?