I found these recordings to be raw, honest, and real. She's been injured but she's still fighting. You can truly feel her love for her children as she records this. Thank you for all you gave to the world. Rest in peace Judy garland.
She's a legend.. absolute beauty and will never be forgotten. Suffering through alcoholism, but I'm not giving up. Everytime I think of judy.. I think.. cmon Josh.. get a grip! You can do this, you've got a voice and you can do them proud. I loved Judy's attitude and I'll always stand by it.. be proud! ❤
Although it would be pointless, but every young girl who still dreams of becoming famous, should have to listen to these tapes. It’s the sound of an amazing talent who died a mess. She entertained millions. She made billions of dollars for others. All it cost was her soul. Taken advantage of by anyone that could do so. And died a lonely drunken, pill addicted mess. A very cautionary tale.
I’ve loved her all my life. My heart breaks for all she’s had to endure. But in spite of everything, dear Judy could say two things that many people could not and that is that she was a good mother, & her children loved, and respected her and have never trashed her name. I have such admiration for her dear children!! They are wonderful, talented, & caring people. These three alone, and who they are speaks endless beautiful things about Judy! “We still care, dear Judy. Our love and admiration lives on & on.” ❤❤❤
I relate to her diatribe. Life cuts you away from yourself. You're born a angel and then life marrs you up. Being born is a palette of pains. This reminds me of myself. Wasted talent. Isolated, wrongly judged, abandoned, alone, scarred, heartbroken , lost. Abused and neglected, wrongfully rejected and fired. Life is the shadow of cruel, degrading mockery. To be born again I hope will be quite the relief.
All she wanted was to be loved and looked after. And what did she get? A lifetime of abuse, neglect and lies. I truly hope her life over the rainbow is much happier than the life she endured down here. ❤❤❤❤
I've read a lot of the comments on here and I think it's important to keep these recordings into context: These were taped over a short 3-year period of her 47 years on earth. A very tumultuous period where she'd just gotten out of an abusive marriage with a man (Sid Luft) who milked her for everything she had. The court proceedings were ugly, the IRS was starting to come after her because of how her ex-husband had mismanaged (stolen) her money; and yes, he was successful at getting custody of her children, too. On top of that, you add the pills and the alcohol and the toll they'd taken on her at this point... But Judy went on to fall in love late in life, just before she died. She'd finally found the love she'd been seeking her whole life in Mickey Deans. And by all accounts, from those who knew her best, she was a loving, joyous, funny and extremely happy person. So it's unfair and cruel to take recordings from someone at a low point in their life and make judgements. Was Judy Garland an addict? Yes. (And who wouldn't be with the cards she was dealt?) But she was also a magnificent talent, a warm, wonderful mother and a true legend whose light will never go out. There will never be another like her.
Oh dearest Judy Garland, The pain i hear Your life isn't Without the Love in your voice. Your children will always love you The world too You were torn Apart by many, Yet loved by Millions. So sorry for the Pain, you Are the treasures For you have given to the world. I will Treasure your Beautiful memories your Laughter, your Stories. Thank God for you, We, I love you, Remember you Always, with lots Of Love. Rest in Peace. Your fan, your Friend❤❤❤
21 years ago when I was in college, I had a roommate who had this whole thing on cassette. She guarded that thing with her life and no matter how hard I tried, she never let me make a copy of it. Crazy that it's here on UA-cam nowadays.
It broke my heart to hear her bring up Over The Rainbow and rainbows in general in her life. You can really feel how much that role and song had impacted her. This poor woman who had known so much hardship, betrayal and gaslighting just wanted her happiness that was just out of reach somewhere over the rainbow…
Do not judge. How would you like your private stream of consciousness confessions made public? Her addiction was thrust upon her by her mother and MGM. Imagine years of drugs impacting an adolescent developing brain. I only love her more for this. Love you Judy. You were too special for this ugly world.
I wish they knew about the effects of drugs these had on people back in the day let alone on children. Maybe they still wouldnt have cared but who knows maybe she would have lived as long as Betty White did. People want to blame her for not getting more help and taking accountability, but how can you mentally have the strength to do so when youve been addicted for that long and there is no advocacy for mental health. Im so mad at her mother for not protecting her and for her husband’s and so called friends repeating that cycle. She was never treated like a person just as a cash cow. How can you not feel like a victim your whole life when everyone you thought ever loved you just wanted to use you. She never chose stardom she was flung into it and because the stage was the only place she felt valued she continued to work until the day she died. Her children were the only people that showed her any respect and unconditional love and she did everything for them. So sad to hear this beautiful soul be so broken. Like she said the Trolly ride ended for her a long time ago and there is no more over the rainbow. God bless her soul i hope she is finally at peace
It breaks my heart to hear how highly she speaks of Mark Herron how much she loves him and how much he shows love to her children, the only father they ever had. These recordings had to have been before the events of her mentions of Mark abusing her. Its really sad that she found true love with this man, and for this happiness she had to have also been taken away from her when shes already been stripped off of everything she had.
I don't know why I'm so drawn to anything "Judy", the only movie of hers I've seen is the Wizard of Oz... Any time I hear of a new book etc. I simply have to read it, listen, and so on. Maybe it's a protective instinct of some sort knowing what the business did to her? It always leaves me feeling sad when whatever I've started has finished yet I can't look away. Natalie Wood and even Elizabeth Taylor draw me in like that as well since they were child stars and not allowed to be children, and how the evil industry and greedy/selfish/fulfilling their own dreams through their kids parents ultimately destroyed or damaged them.😢 Some just couldn't recover, like poor Judy.
This is going to be extremely controversial to post on here. But I'm going to do it anyway. . . In spite of all her brilliance and talent Judy was an addict. As a recovering addict I can tell you that one of the first real steps to recovery is admitting your own fault in where you ended up. It's so much easier to blame others. From what I have heard here, it was always somebody else's fault. And I'm not saying Judy wasn't taking advantage of. Not at all. She was abused and taken advantage of By her mother. By her husband's. By the studio. By greedy agents When someone is looked at through money making eyes only it does horrible horrible things to their sense of self-worth and spirit BUT at the end of the day I believe we are all responsible for our own choices. Wherever she is now I hope she is finally at peace
I’m a huge Judy Garland fan but she is in a lot of denial. Why would her kids want to live around an alcoholic and a pill popper. Mark Herron was only with her for less than a year, she needed a lot of help, part of healing and moving on is excepting your part in all of this drama. I do think a lot of people took advantage of her, but she was her own worst enemy and you cannot deny that. I felt so sad for her listening to this recording. I don’t think she wanted to get help, she had a lot of anger in her and a lot of resentment. You can tell she loved her children even if she had a skewed reality of how they may have felt about her. Liza the oldest daughter was responsible for using a stomach pump at home to get pills out of her mother system, what child wants to be around that.
Judy was one in a million the studio had no compassion for her at all her mom was a horror show but the caveat is without Ethel we wouldn't have a Judy which would have been a tragedy for the world God bless you Judy rip
She did marry Mark Herron and divorced him just 17 months later, for beating her. Smh. This is all so very sad. I fully understand what she is talking about without saying anything more than…”Ohhh Boy!”
As a Gemini. I to feel like the people around me are boring or we just don't have anything in common, but yet I read books, keep up with current events, but people just have nothing to contribute. So I'm come off as weird or socially awkward.
This is soo incredible sad!! U cam hear the pain in her voice! All the money this amazing 👏 woman made though out her life,an all ple around her stole, or got rich off her,,,but she got shit. She was let down sounds like everyone around her..she should have been a millionaire!!! Smh rip 🙏 ull always be the true queen of music an movies Judy...love you. I still love ur music 🎶 an movies!!
My...she was incredibly honest! She was angry, hurt, felt totally violated and used. But you can also feel her empathy, sadness, love, and still funny ! The ONE and ONLY JUDY!🎉
I'm a lifelong Judy fan, too, and I'm frustrated and sad that many people often seem to be so hard on her, her children, and those powers-that-be and family who worked and interacted with her. To be sure, those pills and Hollywood and her resulting lifestyle and relationships fueled her eventual addictions and pain. But I think many people don't think it through that Judy obviously had a tendency towards and suffered from mental illness. I really sense that had she not become a singing and movie star, no matter what else she had done with her life she would've encountered this health condition. But the fact that she came into the career path that she did, and all her experiences and problems were channeled through that and turned her into such a huge living legend, just of course magnified all those problems a thousand times over. Had she lived only a generation later, probably she would've had so much better access to therapies, medicines and treatments that didn't exist or not as advanced during her own lifetime. And those around her: You can love and try to help or attempt to excuse or accommodate a person who has mental illness as much as you'd maybe like, however if they don't want to help themselves, or maybe even in Judy's case likely couldn't if they wanted to, well there's only so much you can do. So ironically, I think that not only Judy deserves a break about her life's path, but also those around her who many feel alternately enabled, ignored or didn't help her. None of us is God, neither were Judy nor those having or trying to live with, around and for her. I'm glad she made these tapes, to remind us that beyond all that glorious talent that we should remember and love her for, she was also of course a very mortal person just like the rest of us, for which we should also respect her memory.
Oh my goodness, only 5:48 into the video, and an inspiration came to me regarding, "Meet Me in St Louis," oh, not that film, a variety show called, "The Judy Garland Show." Shhhhhhhhh, I was 3 or 4 years old when that particular show was aired. I hardly know anything regarding her, that is Judy Garland's personal life. however, in a God inspired way, she left some voluntary her own legacy, like the Christmas show sparked in my memory;- and the dignity of being in the image and likeness of God, its her that touches my heart. Her own words are not mine to judge, however God knowing her, Judy Garland through and through, i.e. ref Psalm 118, thank God in that the one good Lord having Eternal loving kindness loves her, and ref Psalm 139 only God having omniscience knowing everything had only goodness of God, for how precious are God's own thoughts toward Judy Garland. In contrast, thereby;- had someone claim some kind of judgment of someone's past, and says to his or her self, that he or she, claims rights to someone's personal space, then by only the Creator, God gives impartial rights, they do it in the Name of God, but they have no implicit right to someone's personal space, nor gossip rights to talk about someone. Very sad even tragic the occasions of that. The lies are integral in gossip and the implications are not of God's doing, for gossip is part of "leaven," that goes out like locusts eating green leaves. Then the wood dries, and then worms each the wood, all because some folk insist on being pejorative, in this case those things happened toward Judy Garland in her lifetime. Not good then, and not good, now, or in the future. In contrast thereby;- God never speaks ill of the living or those how have gone on into God's hand of the hereafter. No one is to be used by use of semantics in a pejorative way, i.e. "English had a verb pejorate "to worsen" from 1640s." ref link online, ( www.etymonline.com/word/pejorative ). The person that gossips, cannot be God, the Creator, Who Created the image and likeness of God of that person. - Recently, I viewed the Christmas Special, of "The Judy Garland Show," the family had been there on set, during the show. Judy Garland and her two younger children, and a man, a friend of, either high school aged, or collage age, Liza Minnelli had been the family together as if at home. Quite an endearing truly family oriented show. In another show, Bob Newhart preparing for a comedy routine of a Doberman Pinscher of the owner not having the dog prepared for company. Bob Newhart, in a one man act, he's known for that;- as that is, he Bob Newhart had given dialogue that the voiced imagery is quite easy to picture him pinned by an ill-behaved dog. Okay, in that God being God Eternal, the Creator, and the legacy of God gave me the need of image and likeness of God, of knowing that God Granted the Holiday Season, and I believe that God Gave the Dedication that is Hanukah and the Nativity of Jesus, the sinless Messiah to Israel and Christ Jesus to the nations. God has the blessings of need of helped by God, "In the beginning God, "- ref Genesis 1:1, and God Created the Creation, impartial just peace of God's treasury of blessings from God.
Being famous sure sounds horrible. All the famous people now, who are still doing drugs and drinking, they still fall under all the same crap that Judy fell under. Humans make these famous humans out to be something special, when they are just humans. These humans have a talent. We all have talents. I don't quite understand why humans idolize such people. They feel like we do. They eat like we do. They fart like we do. That sounds like Judy just wanted to be known for her cooking and her motherhood skills. That seems like she just wanted other people to just love her for herself, not necessarily for the thing that other people made her into. It's pretty sad that she never did find somebody who actually loved her, they just all used her. Too bad she never found the help that she really needed.
So sad to hear her speak of the men she chose to be her husband and the father of her children. She created life with these men and her children are half them. I always feel when you speak ill of the other parent you are literally speaking ill of your children. It’s just sad for all involved. She was abused by so many people in her life that she trusted no one, not even herself.
Mickey Rooney her beloved costar in the Andy Hardy movie series had a close friendship with Judy working together during those early 1940s. Well, I believe though it’s only speculative, having come to faith in the Lord late in his life, that Mickey could have and would have tried to share with Judy what changed his life dramatically had Judy lived longer but she passed away before Mickey Rooney came to salvation! I think Judy would have listened intently to Mickey explaining how Jesus could change her life out of their mutual respect and admiration for each other, yet she “ probably” would have been cordial to Mickey in her rejection of his plea with her to humbly repent and believe the gospel!! Thank goodness Mickey knew the lord and now is with Him ! If only the same could be said of Judy!!
Unfortunately, Judy says nothing "autobiographical", she just repeats the same issues over and over. She's going to talk so watch out. She hates Sid Luft. She loves her children. She wants her money. She wants her money from Sid Luft. She wants her money and she's going to get it.......Sadly, she never got a dime from Sid or anyone else, but Sid and everyone else made a mint off Judy and Sid did so until the day her died.
She's just telling the truth. Everything was told for everyone to hear about her vices, why can't she tell the truth about the vices of the vultures in her life that used her for money, a cash cow. Like Sid Luft? She has EVERY right to tell the truth!
I understand her anger, especially considering how hard & how long she worked for & for what reward. The shame is without an outlet for her rage, these tapes are more confessional than biography. It’s a hard listen & unfortunately it would have been hard for a publisher to pull any kind of fully formed book from these tapes. What would have helped would have been for her management (or friends) to give her a series of questions to work through within the framework of her life story. You can’t ask someone just to talk, without clear guidelines on what you’d want at the other end. Another example of Judy not having the right support or management in those final years. 💔
She's just telling the truth. Everything was told for everyone to hear about her vices, why can't she tell the truth about the vices of the vultures in her life that used her for money, a cash cow. Like Sid Luft? She has EVERY right to tell the truth!
Listening to these recordings has really helped me recently. I have never been used to her degree but with recent events I feel very much like people are trying to take advantage and her words resonate very strongly. When you get taken advantage of without any say you feel very angry.
I just love her laugh,.. she may of had some faults but by God she was pushed to the brink and used in abused but the one thing she loved her babies and she did the best that she knew how and you have to love her for that I know I do!
The fact that she thought Mark Herron is the only man that loved her truly and just ended up physically hurting her after the marriage, it surely added tons more anguish and frustration in her last years
I love Judy, she was forced into having her mind, body and talents exploted by just about everyone in her life. Tragically she lost it all just trying to be a good mother, I will support her truth as long as I live. God see's everyrhing, and he certainty saw this. ❤ U JUDY
I AM 83 NOW AND HAVE BEEN A GARLAND FAN SINCE I WAS A CHILD.....ALWAYS FELT SHE WAS IN PAIN MANY TIMES BUT ALWAYS DELIVERED....SAD HER CHILDREN COULD NOT HAVE HELPED HER IN HER LATER YEARS.....
I’ve always wanted to ask a fan who was alive when she lived. When did the public become aware of her issues and did the public judge her or was it not spoken of?
I know most of the audio is sad and tragic but that part about Sid Luft's mama making the machines and making Sid "from the Red Seas somewhere" was a READ!
Wow….. to read about it is one thing… but to hear it come out of this beautiful woman’s mouth… wrapped in all that emotion… all of that fatigue… my heart breaks xx
This is the first time I’ve listened to all the tapes in succession. I won’t pass my judgement on them because I didn’t know this woman or anyone in her life, and her children are still alive . All I will say is that you can listen and take it from many different angles, and draw your own conclusion. May she Rest In Peace.
I could listen to Judy non-stop. This woman is truly a legend, and deserved so much. Including happiness and a peaceful life. Thank you, Judy. For you have touch each and one of us, through your art.
It’s crazy how much Michael Jackson reminds me of Judy Garland. In some way, he even looked like her! I wonder if that was a choice of his. They had the same life in a sense. He only made it to 3 years beyond her 47. Fame kills. They had such a deep talent given by God and such a powerful capacity for love and it was exploited to very possible ounce. I wish MJ could have been as honest and just speak freely as and she does here.
Even ignoring this being Judy Garland and just focusing solely on her as a human being it's so fascinating to me hearing someone talk about their inner most thoughts and feelings while they're alone when there's no outside interferences because when you think about it we're never 100% ourselves when we're around other people and it's not until we're completely alone that we are so this is a really rare insight into someone's mind that we next to never get to hear because how many recordings are there of people talking like this? Usually it's forever locked away in someone's mind and forever lost when they pass. I grew up in an abusive home on top of going through other traumatic things in my life and have suffered from mental health issues and for whatever reason when I was a younger teenager probably 13ish to 15 I had a short period where whenever I was alone i'd record myself talking out loud just talking about how I was feeling, my struggles, what I was going through, relationships, my feeling towards those people, etc then after I got done recording i'd listen to it and weirdly enough it was really therapeutic because instead of bottling those feelings up like I normally do/did because not only did I not have anyone I could confide in but I was also bad at talking about my feelings so I was in a sense letting those feelings go in the only healthy way I could at the time. I haven't thought about that it years completely forgot about it until this video reminded me of it so thank you for that ❤️ I just hope that it brought Judy the same comfort as it did me.
When she sings "My Man's Gone Now" from Porgy and Bess, in a cappella at the end, if it didn't make your eyes watery, then you're as dead as a fall-down tree in a cemetery.
I was up late, as usual trying to find something to put me to sleep. I came across this clip. I had heard about it some years ago, but never followed through on watching it. Seeing that it was almost 2 hrs. long, I was not prepared to watch all of it. I did. This was an unabashed masterpiece of an artist's soliloquy. Unrehearsed, Ms.Garland expresses herself like a true blues musician. Not singing, but just talking. It is all audio. A one-woman show par excellence. I have not seen the recent biopic yet. I am not sure how I will receive it after experiencing this. If you are an ardent fan, as I am, I would encourage you to make the effort
She tried so long and hard to get her life story on tape so ghost writers could transform her thoughts into a best seller. It just didn’t work, but at least we have her voice to witness her pain , anger, and lots of happiness. I was always surprised she managed to make it to age 47. The girl just wore out.
Hi Judy, you are Amazing. Always moving forward. Wanting to be the best at anything. Wonderful sense of humor. Going to return to watch and listen. Love you. Judy Garland, your Laughter too. Yes. You do have talent. The best. So darling Judy, go on with your story. Live. Laugh and sing!! Hugs
Judy was a very nice honest senstive person with feelings ! I think that is nice to hear her speak honestly but think who ever stole the tapes she made of herself was not being kind ! But same time it s good to hear her voice telling about her life ! She should of written a book on herself ! Judy was smart sweet and had alot of humor and wit !
Judy Garland speaks! I am so glad a psychiatrist asked her to make these tapes! ...It is funny beyond belief! ...Then you start out her can't working the damn tape machine with a couple of drinks. Then you start out you with her flying in a plane... (which I have been watching airplane crashes all week long) ..."Even the birds don't fly this high!"...which is made funnier the way she sang "if happy the little blue birds fly" in her famous song..."Somewhere Over the Rainbow" in "The Wizard of Oz" made in 1939 ...it is so remarkable that they cut it out several times thinking that it would make the movie slower...thank goodness they that left in! ...and Toto too! ...It is the most wistful & hopeful song ever! :)
Here is my favorite performance ever of Judy Garland...as she is singing to her father whom she knew was listening to on the radio... (while dying in a hospital) ...he is must have been so proud! ...Judy Garland: "Zing Went the Strings of My Heart" recording in 1935...LINK> ua-cam.com/video/XJcFRRDUmpo/v-deo.html
INCREDIBLE FIND!!!!!BRAVO!!!!I couldnt believe what i was hearing so RAW so REAL so POWERFUL and the face pic says it all a woman fighting demons!!!!!THANKS so much and this book would have never ever been published lol
I found these recordings to be raw, honest, and real. She's been injured but she's still fighting. You can truly feel her love for her children as she records this. Thank you for all you gave to the world. Rest in peace Judy garland.
“It all comes down to the unholy dollar.” Best quote I have heard in decades!
On June 22, 1969, Judy finally got over that mystical 'rainbow' and I hope she found peace at long last.
She's a legend.. absolute beauty and will never be forgotten. Suffering through alcoholism, but I'm not giving up. Everytime I think of judy.. I think.. cmon Josh.. get a grip! You can do this, you've got a voice and you can do them proud. I loved Judy's attitude and I'll always stand by it.. be proud! ❤
It’s so beautiful to hear her talking about Liza you can feel the warmth and love in her voice
Although it would be pointless, but every young girl who still dreams of becoming famous, should have to listen to these tapes. It’s the sound of an amazing talent who died a mess. She entertained millions. She made billions of dollars for others. All it cost was her soul. Taken advantage of by anyone that could do so. And died a lonely drunken, pill addicted mess.
A very cautionary tale.
I’ve loved her all my life. My heart breaks for all she’s had to endure. But in spite of everything, dear Judy could say two things that many people could not and that is that she was a good mother, & her children loved, and respected her and have never trashed her name. I have such admiration for her dear children!! They are wonderful, talented, & caring people. These three alone, and who they are speaks endless beautiful things about Judy! “We still care, dear Judy. Our love and admiration lives on & on.” ❤❤❤
I relate to her diatribe. Life cuts you away from yourself. You're born a angel and then life marrs you up. Being born is a palette of pains. This reminds me of myself. Wasted talent. Isolated, wrongly judged, abandoned, alone, scarred, heartbroken , lost. Abused and neglected, wrongfully rejected and fired. Life is the shadow of cruel, degrading mockery. To be born again I hope will be quite the relief.
An excellent and rarely candid document of an important personality..... Thank you for this.
All she wanted was to be loved and looked after. And what did she get? A lifetime of abuse, neglect and lies. I truly hope her life over the rainbow is much happier than the life she endured down here.
❤❤❤❤
I've read a lot of the comments on here and I think it's important to keep these recordings into context: These were taped over a short 3-year period of her 47 years on earth. A very tumultuous period where she'd just gotten out of an abusive marriage with a man (Sid Luft) who milked her for everything she had. The court proceedings were ugly, the IRS was starting to come after her because of how her ex-husband had mismanaged (stolen) her money; and yes, he was successful at getting custody of her children, too. On top of that, you add the pills and the alcohol and the toll they'd taken on her at this point... But Judy went on to fall in love late in life, just before she died. She'd finally found the love she'd been seeking her whole life in Mickey Deans. And by all accounts, from those who knew her best, she was a loving, joyous, funny and extremely happy person. So it's unfair and cruel to take recordings from someone at a low point in their life and make judgements. Was Judy Garland an addict? Yes. (And who wouldn't be with the cards she was dealt?) But she was also a magnificent talent, a warm, wonderful mother and a true legend whose light will never go out. There will never be another like her.
Maybe, but the weren't given habit forming pills from the time they were young kids by someone who was supposed to live and protect them. @tz3218
Oh dearest
Judy Garland,
The pain i hear
Your life isn't
Without the
Love in your voice. Your children will always love you
The world too
You were torn
Apart by many,
Yet loved by
Millions.
So sorry for the
Pain, you
Are the treasures
For you have given to the world. I will
Treasure your
Beautiful memories your
Laughter, your
Stories. Thank God for you,
We, I love you,
Remember you
Always, with lots
Of Love.
Rest in Peace.
Your fan, your
Friend❤❤❤
Whew. Tough tapes to hear. Couldn’t make it all the way through.
Be at peace, beautiful lady. 🕊
21 years ago when I was in college, I had a roommate who had this whole thing on cassette. She guarded that thing with her life and no matter how hard I tried, she never let me make a copy of it. Crazy that it's here on UA-cam nowadays.
Man this recording really makes me feel for her!
God love her, seriously. At least she got her words out. R. I. P Judy xxxxxxx
It broke my heart to hear her bring up Over The Rainbow and rainbows in general in her life. You can really feel how much that role and song had impacted her. This poor woman who had known so much hardship, betrayal and gaslighting just wanted her happiness that was just out of reach somewhere over the rainbow…
Bryan, thank you so much for what you do. Sincerely. x
Do not judge. How would you like your private stream of consciousness confessions made public? Her addiction was thrust upon her by her mother and MGM. Imagine years of drugs impacting an adolescent developing brain. I only love her more for this. Love you Judy. You were too special for this ugly world.
I wish they knew about the effects of drugs these had on people back in the day let alone on children. Maybe they still wouldnt have cared but who knows maybe she would have lived as long as Betty White did. People want to blame her for not getting more help and taking accountability, but how can you mentally have the strength to do so when youve been addicted for that long and there is no advocacy for mental health. Im so mad at her mother for not protecting her and for her husband’s and so called friends repeating that cycle. She was never treated like a person just as a cash cow. How can you not feel like a victim your whole life when everyone you thought ever loved you just wanted to use you. She never chose stardom she was flung into it and because the stage was the only place she felt valued she continued to work until the day she died. Her children were the only people that showed her any respect and unconditional love and she did everything for them. So sad to hear this beautiful soul be so broken. Like she said the Trolly ride ended for her a long time ago and there is no more over the rainbow. God bless her soul i hope she is finally at peace
You said it perfectly! 😭🎯
Even the way she talks sounds like a song. Masterpiece
It breaks my heart to hear how highly she speaks of Mark Herron how much she loves him and how much he shows love to her children, the only father they ever had. These recordings had to have been before the events of her mentions of Mark abusing her. Its really sad that she found true love with this man, and for this happiness she had to have also been taken away from her when shes already been stripped off of everything she had.
And didn’t Judy eventually divorced him when she found him in bed with his lifelong partner? I could only imagine how that affected her.
God love you Judy, and remembering you today the day you passed on home in 1969 you are still missed and still love by many of your adoring fans!
We will always love you Judy 💛
RIP Judy Garland. You are beautful and very missed. I love your perservering soul.
Hilarious 😂This Nazi Machine! Priceless Judy💞🌟
Another damaged soul by "stardome"'; what a waste; wishing Judy all heavenly peace.
This makes me feel so sad RIP JUDY G 💐🌹💕
I don't know why I'm so drawn to anything "Judy", the only movie of hers I've seen is the Wizard of Oz... Any time I hear of a new book etc. I simply have to read it, listen, and so on. Maybe it's a protective instinct of some sort knowing what the business did to her? It always leaves me feeling sad when whatever I've started has finished yet I can't look away. Natalie Wood and even Elizabeth Taylor draw me in like that as well since they were child stars and not allowed to be children, and how the evil industry and greedy/selfish/fulfilling their own dreams through their kids parents ultimately destroyed or damaged them.😢 Some just couldn't recover, like poor Judy.
This is so soothing.
Then add the fact her children were taken from her when she needed them near.. absolutely awful.
❤️ Judy love her as a person so heartbreaking 😌
This is going to be extremely controversial to post on here. But I'm going to do it anyway. . .
In spite of all her brilliance and talent Judy was an addict.
As a recovering addict I can tell you that one of the first real steps to recovery is admitting your own fault in where you ended up.
It's so much easier to blame others.
From what I have heard here, it was always somebody else's fault.
And I'm not saying Judy wasn't taking advantage of. Not at all. She was abused and taken advantage of By her mother. By her husband's. By the studio. By greedy agents When someone is looked at through money making eyes only it does horrible horrible things to their sense of self-worth and spirit
BUT
at the end of the day I believe we are all responsible for our own choices.
Wherever she is now I hope she is finally at peace
Thank you!
All you 12 steppers are ridiculous. Get real.
I’m a huge Judy Garland fan but she is in a lot of denial. Why would her kids want to live around an alcoholic and a pill popper. Mark Herron was only with her for less than a year, she needed a lot of help, part of healing and moving on is excepting your part in all of this drama. I do think a lot of people took advantage of her, but she was her own worst enemy and you cannot deny that. I felt so sad for her listening to this recording. I don’t think she wanted to get help, she had a lot of anger in her and a lot of resentment. You can tell she loved her children even if she had a skewed reality of how they may have felt about her. Liza the oldest daughter was responsible for using a stomach pump at home to get pills out of her mother system, what child wants to be around that.
Judy was one in a million the studio had no compassion for her at all her mom was a horror show but the caveat is without Ethel we wouldn't have a Judy which would have been a tragedy for the world God bless you Judy rip
She did marry Mark Herron and divorced him just 17 months later,
for beating her.
Smh.
This is all so very sad.
I fully understand what she is talking about without saying anything more than…”Ohhh Boy!”
As a Gemini. I to feel like the people around me are boring or we just don't have anything in common, but yet I read books, keep up with current events, but people just have nothing to contribute. So I'm come off as weird or socially awkward.
Sad 💔
This is soo incredible sad!! U cam hear the pain in her voice! All the money this amazing 👏 woman made though out her life,an all ple around her stole, or got rich off her,,,but she got shit. She was let down sounds like everyone around her..she should have been a millionaire!!! Smh rip 🙏 ull always be the true queen of music an movies Judy...love you. I still love ur music 🎶 an movies!!
Well said...!! Rip Judy 🙏
My...she was incredibly honest! She was angry, hurt, felt totally violated and used. But you can also feel her empathy, sadness, love, and still funny ! The ONE and ONLY JUDY!🎉
I'm a lifelong Judy fan, too, and I'm frustrated and sad that many people often seem to be so hard on her, her children, and those powers-that-be and family who worked and interacted with her. To be sure, those pills and Hollywood and her resulting lifestyle and relationships fueled her eventual addictions and pain. But I think many people don't think it through that Judy obviously had a tendency towards and suffered from mental illness. I really sense that had she not become a singing and movie star, no matter what else she had done with her life she would've encountered this health condition. But the fact that she came into the career path that she did, and all her experiences and problems were channeled through that and turned her into such a huge living legend, just of course magnified all those problems a thousand times over. Had she lived only a generation later, probably she would've had so much better access to therapies, medicines and treatments that didn't exist or not as advanced during her own lifetime. And those around her: You can love and try to help or attempt to excuse or accommodate a person who has mental illness as much as you'd maybe like, however if they don't want to help themselves, or maybe even in Judy's case likely couldn't if they wanted to, well there's only so much you can do. So ironically, I think that not only Judy deserves a break about her life's path, but also those around her who many feel alternately enabled, ignored or didn't help her. None of us is God, neither were Judy nor those having or trying to live with, around and for her. I'm glad she made these tapes, to remind us that beyond all that glorious talent that we should remember and love her for, she was also of course a very mortal person just like the rest of us, for which we should also respect her memory.
"She sounded like she needed impatient treatment for alcohol abuse.
Broadway doesn't go for booze and dope
That was painful 😢
Oh my goodness, only 5:48 into the video, and an inspiration came to me regarding, "Meet Me in St Louis," oh, not that film, a variety show called, "The Judy Garland Show." Shhhhhhhhh, I was 3 or 4 years old when that particular show was aired. I hardly know anything regarding her, that is Judy Garland's personal life.
however, in a God inspired way, she left some voluntary her own legacy, like the Christmas show sparked in my memory;- and the dignity of being in the image and likeness of God, its her that touches my heart. Her own words are not mine to judge, however God knowing her, Judy Garland through and through, i.e. ref Psalm 118, thank God in that the one good Lord having Eternal loving kindness loves her, and ref Psalm 139 only God having omniscience knowing everything had only goodness of God, for how precious are God's own thoughts toward Judy Garland.
In contrast, thereby;-
had someone claim some kind of judgment of someone's past,
and says to his or her self, that he or she, claims rights to someone's personal space, then by only the Creator, God gives impartial rights, they do it in the Name of God, but they have no implicit right to someone's personal space,
nor gossip rights to talk about someone. Very sad even tragic the occasions of that.
The lies are integral in gossip and the implications are not of God's doing, for gossip is part of "leaven," that goes out like locusts eating green leaves. Then the wood dries, and then worms each the wood, all because some folk insist on being pejorative, in this case those things happened toward Judy Garland in her lifetime. Not good then, and not good, now, or in the future.
In contrast thereby;-
God never speaks ill of the living or those how have gone on into God's hand of the hereafter. No one is to be used by use of semantics in a pejorative way, i.e. "English had a verb pejorate "to worsen" from 1640s." ref link online, ( www.etymonline.com/word/pejorative ). The person that gossips, cannot be God,
the Creator, Who Created the image and likeness of God of that person.
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Recently, I viewed the Christmas Special, of "The Judy Garland Show," the family had been there on set, during the show. Judy Garland and her two younger children, and a man, a friend of, either high school aged, or collage age, Liza Minnelli had been the family together as if at home. Quite an endearing truly family oriented show.
In another show, Bob Newhart preparing for a comedy routine of a Doberman Pinscher of the owner not having the dog prepared for company. Bob Newhart, in a one man act, he's known for that;-
as that is, he Bob Newhart had given dialogue that the voiced imagery is quite easy to picture him pinned by an ill-behaved dog.
Okay, in that God being God Eternal, the Creator, and the legacy of God gave me the need of image and likeness of God, of knowing that God Granted the Holiday Season, and I believe that God Gave the Dedication that is Hanukah and the Nativity of Jesus, the sinless Messiah to Israel and Christ Jesus to the nations.
God has the blessings of need of helped by God, "In the beginning God, "- ref Genesis 1:1, and God Created the Creation, impartial just peace of God's treasury of blessings from God.
Being famous sure sounds horrible. All the famous people now, who are still doing drugs and drinking, they still fall under all the same crap that Judy fell under. Humans make these famous humans out to be something special, when they are just humans. These humans have a talent. We all have talents. I don't quite understand why humans idolize such people. They feel like we do. They eat like we do. They fart like we do. That sounds like Judy just wanted to be known for her cooking and her motherhood skills. That seems like she just wanted other people to just love her for herself, not necessarily for the thing that other people made her into. It's pretty sad that she never did find somebody who actually loved her, they just all used her. Too bad she never found the help that she really needed.
❤❤❤
So sad to hear her speak of the men she chose to be her husband and the father of her children. She created life with these men and her children are half them. I always feel when you speak ill of the other parent you are literally speaking ill of your children. It’s just sad for all involved. She was abused by so many people in her life that she trusted no one, not even herself.
"what a train wect that just flew buy in the middle of the night on those automatically.
Poor thing I can barely make out a word she says!! ☹ ☹ ☹
The sad thing is that in retrospect, Sid Luft was much better for her, sustaining her life and her career, than Mark Herron ever was.
For writting a book, she doesnt say anything about her life other than the current problem she had with sid.
She sounds drugged or drunk. Maybe both. Very bitter and angry.
Mickey Rooney her beloved costar in the Andy Hardy movie series had a close friendship with Judy working together during those early 1940s. Well, I believe though it’s only speculative, having come to faith in the Lord late in his life, that Mickey could have and would have tried to share with Judy what changed his life dramatically had Judy lived longer but she passed away before Mickey Rooney came to salvation! I think Judy would have listened intently to Mickey explaining how Jesus could change her life out of their mutual respect and admiration for each other, yet she “ probably” would have been cordial to Mickey in her rejection of his plea with her to humbly repent and believe the gospel!! Thank goodness Mickey knew the lord and now is with Him ! If only the same could be said of Judy!!
Unfortunately, Judy says nothing "autobiographical", she just repeats the same issues over and over. She's going to talk so watch out. She hates Sid Luft. She loves her children. She wants her money. She wants her money from Sid Luft. She wants her money and she's going to get it.......Sadly, she never got a dime from Sid or anyone else, but Sid and everyone else made a mint off Judy and Sid did so until the day her died.
“He’s a drunk, just look at his face.”
Oh, Judy sure loved throwing rocks from a glass house.
She's just telling the truth. Everything was told for everyone to hear about her vices, why can't she tell the truth about the vices of the vultures in her life that used her for money, a cash cow. Like Sid Luft? She has EVERY right to tell the truth!
She always played a victim in real life ! Never took responsibility for herself
Nutcase ! Never took responsibility for herself !
Gosh, I love her. Such a tragic story. True LEGEND!!!!! 🫶🏼
“When my number is up, I want another one.” Oh Judy, I wish that could’ve been true….RIP beautiful soul 😢🥺🙏🏼💔
I understand her anger, especially considering how hard & how long she worked for & for what reward. The shame is without an outlet for her rage, these tapes are more confessional than biography. It’s a hard listen & unfortunately it would have been hard for a publisher to pull any kind of fully formed book from these tapes. What would have helped would have been for her management (or friends) to give her a series of questions to work through within the framework of her life story. You can’t ask someone just to talk, without clear guidelines on what you’d want at the other end. Another example of Judy not having the right support or management in those final years. 💔
She's just telling the truth. Everything was told for everyone to hear about her vices, why can't she tell the truth about the vices of the vultures in her life that used her for money, a cash cow. Like Sid Luft? She has EVERY right to tell the truth!
Listening to these recordings has really helped me recently. I have never been used to her degree but with recent events I feel very much like people are trying to take advantage and her words resonate very strongly. When you get taken advantage of without any say you feel very angry.
Wow I'm just in the first few seconds, I feel my heart breaking already.
i love this human being with my whole heart.
I just love her laugh,.. she may of had some faults but by God she was pushed to the brink and used in abused but the one thing she loved her babies and she did the best that she knew how and you have to love her for that I know I do!
The fact that she thought Mark Herron is the only man that loved her truly and just ended up physically hurting her after the marriage, it surely added tons more anguish and frustration in her last years
Sidney luft stole her money constantly that contributed a hell of a lot to her unhappiness
@@mattmammone2338 It was the electrician working on her house that saved her from the fire and later became a friend that looked out for her.
I love Judy, she was forced into having her mind, body and talents exploted by just about everyone in her life. Tragically she lost it all just trying to be a good mother, I will support her truth as long as I live. God see's everyrhing, and he certainty saw this. ❤ U JUDY
I AM 83 NOW AND HAVE BEEN A GARLAND FAN SINCE I WAS A CHILD.....ALWAYS FELT SHE WAS IN PAIN MANY TIMES BUT ALWAYS DELIVERED....SAD HER CHILDREN COULD NOT HAVE HELPED HER IN HER LATER YEARS.....
I’ve always wanted to ask a fan who was alive when she lived. When did the public become aware of her issues and did the public judge her or was it not spoken of?
I know most of the audio is sad and tragic but that part about Sid Luft's mama making the machines and making Sid "from the Red Seas somewhere" was a READ!
Wow….. to read about it is one thing… but to hear it come out of this beautiful woman’s mouth… wrapped in all that emotion… all of that fatigue… my heart breaks xx
"It all comes down to the Unholy Dollar".....Judy Garland
Truest words ever spoken, regardless of what these tapes sound like, or who people thought Judy Garland was.
adore her. miss her. love her
Just listened to this while working, very heart breaking
All people know about today are such machines..............and they know how to operate them masterfully. Thank goodness Judy hated them also.
she needed someone there with her to help guide her through the process.. the tapes are fascinating, she is a true character
This is the first time I’ve listened to all the tapes in succession. I won’t pass my judgement on them because I didn’t know this woman or anyone in her life, and her children are still alive . All I will say is that you can listen and take it from many different angles, and draw your own conclusion. May she Rest In Peace.
I could listen to Judy non-stop. This woman is truly a legend, and deserved so much. Including happiness and a peaceful life. Thank you, Judy. For you have touch each and one of us, through your art.
This woman never had a chance with all of the vultures in her life.
Judy is very articulate. She could have made some money with writing her biography.
It’s crazy how much Michael Jackson reminds me of Judy Garland. In some way, he even looked like her! I wonder if that was a choice of his. They had the same life in a sense. He only made it to 3 years beyond her 47. Fame kills. They had such a deep talent given by God and such a powerful capacity for love and it was exploited to very possible ounce. I wish MJ could have been as honest and just speak freely as and she does here.
Even ignoring this being Judy Garland and just focusing solely on her as a human being it's so fascinating to me hearing someone talk about their inner most thoughts and feelings while they're alone when there's no outside interferences because when you think about it we're never 100% ourselves when we're around other people and it's not until we're completely alone that we are so this is a really rare insight into someone's mind that we next to never get to hear because how many recordings are there of people talking like this? Usually it's forever locked away in someone's mind and forever lost when they pass.
I grew up in an abusive home on top of going through other traumatic things in my life and have suffered from mental health issues and for whatever reason when I was a younger teenager probably 13ish to 15 I had a short period where whenever I was alone i'd record myself talking out loud just talking about how I was feeling, my struggles, what I was going through, relationships, my feeling towards those people, etc then after I got done recording i'd listen to it and weirdly enough it was really therapeutic because instead of bottling those feelings up like I normally do/did because not only did I not have anyone I could confide in but I was also bad at talking about my feelings so I was in a sense letting those feelings go in the only healthy way I could at the time.
I haven't thought about that it years completely forgot about it until this video reminded me of it so thank you for that ❤️ I just hope that it brought Judy the same comfort as it did me.
When she sings "My Man's Gone Now" from Porgy and Bess, in a cappella at the end, if it didn't make your eyes watery, then you're as dead as a fall-down tree in a cemetery.
the spoken voice and piano confession at the end is heart-breaking! what a timeless talent!!! thank you for uploading this!!!
I was up late, as usual trying to find something to put me to sleep. I came across this clip. I had heard about it some years ago, but never followed through on watching it. Seeing that it was almost 2 hrs. long, I was not prepared to watch all of it. I did. This was an unabashed masterpiece of an artist's soliloquy. Unrehearsed, Ms.Garland expresses herself like a true blues musician. Not singing, but just talking. It is all audio. A one-woman show par excellence. I have not seen the recent biopic yet. I am not sure how I will receive it after experiencing this. If you are an ardent fan, as I am, I would encourage you to make the effort
Nobody should judge - this stuff is very personal and the full complex story will never be known by the public.
She tried so long and hard to get her life story on tape so ghost writers could transform her thoughts into a best seller. It just didn’t work, but at least we have her voice to witness her pain , anger, and lots of happiness. I was always surprised she managed to make it to age 47. The girl just wore out.
Wow Judy you go for it
Married only 5 months before splitting....Judy divorced Mark testifying he beat her !
I believe her 100%
She was so intelligent darn.wow
Powerful, Poignant & Heartbreaking.
Hi Judy, you are
Amazing. Always moving forward. Wanting to be the best at anything.
Wonderful sense of humor. Going to return to watch and listen. Love you. Judy Garland, your
Laughter too. Yes. You do have talent. The best. So darling
Judy, go on with your story.
Live. Laugh and sing!! Hugs
Judy was a very nice honest senstive person with feelings ! I think that is nice to hear her speak honestly but think who ever stole the tapes she made of herself was not being kind ! But same time it s good to hear her voice telling about her life ! She should of written a book on herself ! Judy was smart sweet and had alot of humor and wit !
Bloody heartbreaking. She should have been left to be a child. Just a cash cow for her greedy grasping mother RIP Judy 🙏🙏🙏
I have never seen so many abuses and negative events heaped upon one person. Her tribulations rival Job’s.
Judy Garland speaks! I am so glad a psychiatrist asked her to make these tapes! ...It is funny beyond belief! ...Then you start out her can't working the damn tape machine with a couple of drinks. Then you start out you with her flying in a plane... (which I have been watching airplane crashes all week long) ..."Even the birds don't fly this high!"...which is made funnier the way she sang "if happy the little blue birds fly" in her famous song..."Somewhere Over the Rainbow" in "The Wizard of Oz" made in 1939 ...it is so remarkable that they cut it out several times thinking that it would make the movie slower...thank goodness they that left in! ...and Toto too! ...It is the most wistful & hopeful song ever! :)
Here is my favorite performance ever of Judy Garland...as she is singing to her father whom she knew was listening to on the radio... (while dying in a hospital) ...he is must have been so proud! ...Judy Garland: "Zing Went the Strings of My Heart" recording in 1935...LINK> ua-cam.com/video/XJcFRRDUmpo/v-deo.html
So sad for her. Nobody helped her. She had lots of resentment. ALOT
INCREDIBLE FIND!!!!!BRAVO!!!!I couldnt believe what i was hearing so RAW so REAL so POWERFUL and the face pic says it all a woman fighting demons!!!!!THANKS so much and this book would have never ever been published lol