Lana Del Rey - Off To The Races (Sepia) - Live @ HMV Institute, Birmingham

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  • @kenkwok5906
    @kenkwok5906 6 років тому +4501

    I forgot she used to sing this way, its so wild and expressive, I kind of missed it. and I realised Lana now sounds more shy than Lana at the beginning.

    • @ihavecrabs56
      @ihavecrabs56 6 років тому +308

      This really was a lifetime ago... I can't believe it..... But after being ripped to shreds can u blame her for changing her singing style? It's still similar now but not as wild and sounds more palatable. Not everyone enjoys this style :(

    • @Hovsep
      @Hovsep 6 років тому +113

      I cringed so hard watching her recent Chile off to the races performance ... it’s hard to put into words, just look it up

    • @jasongutierrez7092
      @jasongutierrez7092 6 років тому +9

      Hovsep I loved that performance

    • @agustinbaletti
      @agustinbaletti 5 років тому +102

      She was more character then.
      Now she's more human.

    • @JDCEO12345
      @JDCEO12345 5 років тому +69

      she had more vocal stamina then, she can sustain notes in all registers of her voice. Now she can only really sustain notes in her upper lighter mix (like ariana, but ariana has INTENSE vocal stamina and can make her voice BIG)

  • @ewelllle
    @ewelllle 11 років тому +4825

    Before the media killed her stage confidence

    • @walterbardier21
      @walterbardier21 3 роки тому +413

      EXACTLYYYY. it's crazy how people make her so insecure... makes me so sad cause i understand the feeling. and she's so talented i hope one day she feel more confident with herself. she sings amazing live tho

    • @silentfreak8933
      @silentfreak8933 3 роки тому +33

      Oh wow 7 yrs ago

    • @mfbye6973
      @mfbye6973 3 роки тому +5

      @@silentfreak8933 yuuuup

    • @musiktranen
      @musiktranen 3 роки тому

      @@walterbardier21 yes

    • @dimitrisgk2002
      @dimitrisgk2002 3 роки тому +1

      @@walterbardier21 period-

  • @Hellbrokeluce
    @Hellbrokeluce 13 років тому +2072

    Gotta love that Noo Yawk accent... the lady is going to be real big real soon.

  • @ggsfghjn6766
    @ggsfghjn6766 4 роки тому +1615

    her stage presence reminds me of amy winehouse here. no need for anything, minimal set, no dancers nothing. all eyes are on here because she’s so enigmatic. God I wish I could turn back time. I’d pay so much to see Lana at the start of her career.

    • @proggaparomita281
      @proggaparomita281 4 роки тому +17

      Isn't that the truth 😂😂💞💞

    • @bunnyskiddadle1477
      @bunnyskiddadle1477 4 роки тому +20

      I agree. In her other videos with the dancers in this song she looked absolutely pissed.

    • @liska7872
      @liska7872 3 роки тому +23

      @@bunnyskiddadle1477 somewhat yeah. in the beginning it seemed she wanted to be singer/performer badly and gave her all, nowadays often i get the feel that shes bored on stage and lazy, like she doesnt want to be there.

    • @bunnyskiddadle1477
      @bunnyskiddadle1477 3 роки тому +21

      @@liska7872 yeah. And she had a whole other vibe to her. Now I think her producers or managers are trying too hard to lump her in the same genre as like miley cyrus or smth but it isnt her vibe. I even miss the way she cut and filmed her own music videos. They should give her more creative control.

    • @yourdreamyboy
      @yourdreamyboy 2 роки тому +5

      she still perfomaces that way. she is very minimalist in her live performances, because she knows that only she is enough

  • @daisiesinthemeadow
    @daisiesinthemeadow 3 роки тому +896

    I miss these simple yet elegant performances: outfit and hair on point, no dancers, just her band and her voice

    • @Iridescenc3.
      @Iridescenc3. Рік тому +21

      Much like hope Sandoval in mazzy star

    • @mvsouzavini1
      @mvsouzavini1 Рік тому +1

      Yess

    • @j0_eee887
      @j0_eee887 Рік тому +14

      YEEES. NOW SHE HAS A LOT MORE DANCERS 😭😭😭

    • @stfn4
      @stfn4 Місяць тому

      yeah. damn, i HATE those useless dancers

  • @nathanknight848
    @nathanknight848 7 років тому +1500

    Wow this looks like it was filmed in the 70s and it sounds amazing live she's so talented

  • @HikaruHiroshii
    @HikaruHiroshii 8 місяців тому +87

    It's 2024 and it's still a masterpiece

    • @Jamie_Ashe
      @Jamie_Ashe Місяць тому +4

      I miss when she was this confident. I live for those early Million Dollar Man and Body Electric live performances. They were different 😂

  • @msmariecriss
    @msmariecriss 9 років тому +981

    I'm out of breath when singing along to this track.

    • @mareeloup
      @mareeloup 9 років тому +71

      Me too :D It is really hard to sing

    • @FREddY714100
      @FREddY714100 7 років тому +22

      Not it's not !!!!!! I sing it like a pro

    • @h0neymourn207
      @h0neymourn207 6 років тому +12

      ced when I vacuum and no-one can hear my I belt out this entire song and I'm like breathless by the end of it😥😥😥

    • @bossqueen6278
      @bossqueen6278 6 років тому +11

      Freddy Garcia yeah, sure...

    • @CarlosFlores-wq5tm
      @CarlosFlores-wq5tm 4 роки тому +4

      Freddy Garcia video?

  • @MartaPawowskamydreamsmylife
    @MartaPawowskamydreamsmylife 4 роки тому +412

    I wish she still had this confidence...

    • @odin8352
      @odin8352 3 роки тому +34

      She is way more confidant but now she knows what's better for her.

    • @Jamie_Ashe
      @Jamie_Ashe Місяць тому +1

      @@odin8352she is not😂

    • @LitzzyDoe
      @LitzzyDoe 16 днів тому +1

      ​@@odin8352 she isnt

  • @pinkmidi6553
    @pinkmidi6553 7 років тому +991

    still crazy that after all these years she still ends her concerts the same way.

    • @kurzackd
      @kurzackd 5 років тому +74

      it should come as no surprise... it IS her best song.

    • @Evie170
      @Evie170 4 роки тому +20

      Rockwell Now she ends her shows with Venice Bitch.

    • @widgerloreilhe7913
      @widgerloreilhe7913 4 роки тому +31

      @@Evie170 most of the shows, she ends with off to the races

    • @libiar
      @libiar 4 роки тому +27

      @@Evie170 let's be clear, Venice Beach is so perfect song... it's Lana is her soul

    • @AD-ko8sh
      @AD-ko8sh 4 роки тому +37

      @@Evie170 no i feel like she means that all her shows end with her just leaving the stage but the instrumentals keep going

  • @aliciabyers7505
    @aliciabyers7505 7 років тому +1991

    She performs / sings a lot better now.. but idk I kind of prefer when she sang like this, with different voices.. so unique!

    • @boragunduz4385
      @boragunduz4385 7 років тому +85

      exactly! i have a theory that lanas vocals are getting weaker and she doesn't perdorm like that in order to protect her vocal chords.

    • @anthonywill
      @anthonywill 6 років тому +33

      If she is taking care of herself vocally, good diet rest, and vocal care regimen (even a coach), her voice shouldn't be getting any weaker and she shouldn't have to change the way she sings so dramatically to protect it

    • @anthonywill
      @anthonywill 6 років тому +40

      32 is not that old vocally speaking. The vocal cords are actually one of the last to begin aging, they don't begin to age until you are 60/65. But yes your voice does deeper gradually with age

    • @gahmagno4251
      @gahmagno4251 6 років тому +36

      She smokes guys...

    • @agustinbaletti
      @agustinbaletti 5 років тому +6

      @@anthonywill she smokes, plus she has out her vocal chords in a lot of effort.... She may have accelerated the aging process

  • @SuperMatthewdavid
    @SuperMatthewdavid 12 років тому +553

    I think this song is the most difficult to sing in live. Lana made it.

    • @wintersradio
      @wintersradio 11 місяців тому +7

      hi 11 years later😂 BUT YES YOURE RIGHT

  • @cypherphy6689
    @cypherphy6689 5 років тому +121

    I love the way she say "I'm your scarlet,starlet,singin' in the garden"

  • @moofushu
    @moofushu 13 років тому +423

    This song is one of her most overlooked and I don't see why. Off To The Races is a stellar performance! For me, I love it because its the most wild of all her songs and I really didn't think she had it in her. It surprised me when I first saw it. Love it.

  • @croft28
    @croft28 13 років тому +262

    her voice has so many sounds and layers, it's so strange, but in a good way.

  • @rainabaileyyy
    @rainabaileyyy 9 років тому +659

    one of my dream jobs would be a lana impersonator in vegas

    • @rainabaileyyy
      @rainabaileyyy 9 років тому +49

      if i looked like her lmao

    • @BrionyMinodora
      @BrionyMinodora 9 років тому +20

      +raina b. Haha stay in community college

    • @rainabaileyyy
      @rainabaileyyy 9 років тому +6

      +Hilldog Clinton Exactly, I'm not serious btw, but it would be fun.

    • @sydneypurvis914
      @sydneypurvis914 8 років тому +7

      I feel so inspired to re-think what I'm doing with my life! This comment made my day! Thank you!

    • @notkaliuchis9657
      @notkaliuchis9657 5 років тому +5

      a lot of crying drinking and smoking over old men

  • @StuartJCooke1
    @StuartJCooke1  12 років тому +145

    The guy says: 'Lana!..Lana, you're a star!' :)

  • @NexusArtRealm
    @NexusArtRealm 13 років тому +226

    I dont know what it is... Her performances aren't crisp but its like listening to pure ART. The rawness of it all mixed with sensuality and passion... its all so beautiful and it feels REAL. ... I'm now a fan.

    • @eldaa.4879
      @eldaa.4879 3 роки тому +6

      are u still a fan?

    • @maxxheidrich2842
      @maxxheidrich2842 2 роки тому +3

      @@eldaa.4879 i think they became an AC after 10 years of listening to Lana. They shouldve evolved at some point along with Lana

  • @handel5c
    @handel5c 12 років тому +162

    Best live of Off the Races.

    • @maxxheidrich2842
      @maxxheidrich2842 2 роки тому +40

      This comment is 9 years ago...but yeah this is still the best live off to the races she ever did

    • @purvijoshi9879
      @purvijoshi9879 2 роки тому +7

      It surely is!

  • @dharmabum717
    @dharmabum717 11 років тому +249

    She was good and all but when the band jammed out at the end.. That shit was awesome

  • @megumiyamashita9270
    @megumiyamashita9270 7 років тому +106

    look at how young her guitarist. he's still there with lana until now. love these 2 people.

    • @ZacharyKhitmi
      @ZacharyKhitmi Рік тому +15

      Blake and Byron (the pianist) are still touring with her till this day.

  • @CharleyJone
    @CharleyJone 12 років тому +60

    her mentality seems so afflicted, I don't even know what emotion she's ever feeling, I feel like she's mad and thrilled at the same time.

  • @Karolina-qe4bo
    @Karolina-qe4bo 9 років тому +147

    I had shivers all over me when she sang "Be a good baby, do what I want!". hooooootttt!!

  • @emilyb.8219
    @emilyb.8219 6 років тому +76

    I love how she still calls them records instead of the usual albums c:

  • @sarahwilcox4044
    @sarahwilcox4044 3 роки тому +83

    This song is so underrated, and bloody hard to sing! She's killing it!

  • @strangewaysherewecome
    @strangewaysherewecome 6 років тому +85

    Most iconic live performance ever

  • @GraycatLobos
    @GraycatLobos Рік тому +34

    I LOVE HER!!! In 2011, in 2023, forever! Thanks for moving me this much with your art

  • @Etniesgirl56
    @Etniesgirl56 10 років тому +451

    Even though she messes up a few times in the performance, it's my favorite. I really admire Lana, especially her older stuff.

    • @JacobMurray
      @JacobMurray 10 років тому +82

      I think she just changes the lyrics with this song.. She's done it in other videos

    • @clayford2211
      @clayford2211 10 років тому +47

      Jacob Murray She has multiple demos. This may have just been a version that is different from what was released, considering this was sang before BTD came out. I mean, look up what Dark Paradise originally sounded like. lol

    • @lilyfawn9218
      @lilyfawn9218 6 років тому +35

      She's always playing with the songs, she doesnt want them to sound the same everytime

    • @SpaceOutlaw_
      @SpaceOutlaw_ 6 років тому +19

      It’s hard to sing to this song because of how much layering it has.

    • @albabarrazai.7001
      @albabarrazai.7001 4 роки тому +1

      @@SpaceOutlaw_ you're right, she usually mess up because of that, love the track

  • @elisabettaferrero9359
    @elisabettaferrero9359 4 місяці тому +7

    I love watching how she changed in all of the different eras of her career. She's so special and crazy talented in every one of them. She'll always be a living legend for sure

  • @wrldofsara
    @wrldofsara 5 років тому +46

    She looks so incredibly glamorous here!

  • @pau3152
    @pau3152 8 місяців тому +13

    HE ADMIRES ME THE WAY I ROLL LIKE A ROLLING STONE

  • @jasongutierrez7092
    @jasongutierrez7092 6 років тому +262

    Kids 50 years from now will look back at these videos wishing they grew up on Lana Del Rey / saw her during these early performances ...we should all appreciate the queen even if not everyone enjoys this singing style u have to admit it’s way better than the generic shit they have out

  • @natoaslamadze2316
    @natoaslamadze2316 4 роки тому +65

    how can she sing this song? i can't sing this song even with backing vocals, but she sings it perfectly without any backing vocals, queen!!!

  • @camstan5074
    @camstan5074 8 років тому +294

    There is a clip of this performance in Carmen!!!!!!

    • @easymunching6363
      @easymunching6363 7 років тому +12

      Srac OFFICIAL omg you're right!!! cool😄

    • @p.a.438
      @p.a.438 5 років тому +9

      That was exactly my first thought when I saw this lol

    • @kurzackd
      @kurzackd 5 років тому +2

      you mean... OF Carmen? Or otherwise I'm not getting you.

    • @p.a.438
      @p.a.438 5 років тому +4

      kurzackd Carmen the song. From Lana

    • @caitlyn2019
      @caitlyn2019 5 років тому +7

      no the its actually from the "without you" performance

  • @o_o-lj1ym
    @o_o-lj1ym Рік тому +64

    This is the best performance of this song that I could find. I wish she still had this confidence. I hate that people made her insecure.

  • @baileysadler5212
    @baileysadler5212 4 роки тому +29

    i miss this lana, so expressive.

  • @XxDarkViolenceOo
    @XxDarkViolenceOo 7 років тому +150

    holy shit she sounds so adorable at 4:33

    • @90AlmostFamous
      @90AlmostFamous 6 років тому +26

      IShall EatYourBacon ikr, one moment she s so dark and Smokey voice then the next she's as girly as that

  • @Cinnamongirl4life
    @Cinnamongirl4life 3 роки тому +35

    byron and blake have been with her for so long (: so sweet

  • @eve_1111
    @eve_1111 Рік тому +52

    Miss these stage performances. She’s so authentic then and now, however, here I feel like she’s really in her element and exuding an effortless allure by her niche vocals, elegant dresses and 50’s make up looks, starlet hair. She’s always gorgeous but the born to die era never fails to be one of my favorites (style, and visual wise!! Doesn’t imply for her music because she is still on point

  • @Bunnybuns420
    @Bunnybuns420 Рік тому +36

    Off to the races is a classic Lana track.. I miss when my baby performed like this. More free and self expressive versus now she holds back. Regardless I love this woman and her performances.. #LDRFOREVER #PARADISEFOREVER 🌴 👒💐💋⚡️

  • @frname7665
    @frname7665 8 років тому +138

    The last high note in the end was.... DAYUUUM DIVAA 5:07

  • @AyaKaraRemix
    @AyaKaraRemix 12 років тому +45

    she really killed those notes at the 5:00 mark! Nobody can deny that she can sing.

  • @feysmoonlight2453
    @feysmoonlight2453 3 роки тому +30

    This performance is a hidden gem for sure

  • @morgantaylor517
    @morgantaylor517 6 місяців тому +18

    Goddamn that was PERFECTION.. Stupid time has to pass and ruin everything. I mourn the loss of this version of Lana and I'm sure she does too. She hit those high notes live, no pitch correction or anything, I'm floored.

    • @Ivan-lr8ut
      @Ivan-lr8ut 5 місяців тому +1

      She still has amazing vocals now that shes back on tour

    • @Euphoriccc
      @Euphoriccc Місяць тому +2

      ​​@@Ivan-lr8ut Her stage presence has plummeted, though.

  • @ericareyes553
    @ericareyes553 4 місяці тому +4

    i love how she said "ok" at the end and walked off with the band still playing

  • @LDRNow
    @LDRNow 9 років тому +68

    I love watching this video and seeing how much she's grown as an artist since then.

  • @Kendrickyonce
    @Kendrickyonce Рік тому +6

    I’m obsessed with this video

  • @box0choco593
    @box0choco593 2 роки тому +19

    I loved when she sang all "whiny" like. It was so unique.

  • @lingchenmeng5412
    @lingchenmeng5412 Місяць тому +2

    This is literally the best performance of this song I've seen

  • @tanzdreamer
    @tanzdreamer 11 років тому +154

    I am straight, but this woman makes my heart races. So beautiful, so vivid.

    • @nexxxxxxxxx383
      @nexxxxxxxxx383 2 роки тому

      Are you still straight tho

    • @purvijoshi9879
      @purvijoshi9879 2 роки тому +13

      I lost whatever straight parts I was left with after listening to this women!

    • @sheisdelulu
      @sheisdelulu Рік тому +2

      HELP ME BRO😭😭

  • @sparklejumprosequeen6081
    @sparklejumprosequeen6081 3 роки тому +14

    this look so vintage , i love sin lana and her aesthetic she is so talented

  • @doodledudd
    @doodledudd 10 місяців тому +11

    Shes used to be this fucking enchanting

  • @steve-ok5kb
    @steve-ok5kb 4 роки тому +38

    this performance belongs in a museum

  • @benrichardson7857
    @benrichardson7857 3 роки тому +8

    the way she was fightinnggggg here god shes everything

  • @frida8165
    @frida8165 2 роки тому +8

    i want to express myself the way she does ugh

  • @ThaliaGrace15
    @ThaliaGrace15 12 років тому +43

    i hope some artist in 60 years or so uses this clip of lana singing in her own music videos that look like lana's lol

  • @123thof
    @123thof 12 років тому +30

    I hope she continues writing musically ambitious songs like this one.

  • @rafflesiayevexerava3297
    @rafflesiayevexerava3297 3 роки тому +20

    I can't even breath.... 🥰🥰🥰 this is the best performance of Lana Del Rey Off to the races, her style her voice, her everythings are made me fly till now 2021

  • @veronicarey1622
    @veronicarey1622 Рік тому +5

    Ten years later I'm seeing this wonderful video, I love Lana..

  • @JoyeuseXI
    @JoyeuseXI 12 років тому +17

    Damned right.
    When she opens her throat for her belts and high notes... it's absolutely flawless. @_@

  • @somebodyfaraway
    @somebodyfaraway 5 років тому +16

    I like how she improvises and changes the lyrics as she sings

  • @tatianach917
    @tatianach917 3 роки тому +8

    The way she left the stage lmaooo the unbothered queen

  • @scatalin09
    @scatalin09 11 років тому +20

    this live version sounds fabulous! i like it even more than the studio version!

  • @brynnlxo
    @brynnlxo Рік тому +28

    i love this era it’s still giving lizzy grant in a way

  • @jsuffn
    @jsuffn Рік тому +9

    best performance of this song

  • @LazySmi
    @LazySmi 13 років тому +26

    Lana Del Ray is so humble + stunnin and a good singer :)

  • @siddharthnaagar7028
    @siddharthnaagar7028 7 місяців тому +9

    I love how she still has the same band

  • @FredericaBimble
    @FredericaBimble 12 років тому +34

    She comes from the same well that brought us Leonard Cohen and Don McLean. She is tapped into the 'creative flow' which you will recognise if you're a scientist, painter, musician or anyone who is creative. It is when you are 'the tool' and something bigger flows through you. Paul Simon talked about it on a radio interview a while back. James Clerk Maxwell, the father of electromagnetism also talked about it. That is why people are so entranced. It is the collective consciousness we share.

    • @anotherlemontree
      @anotherlemontree 5 років тому +4

      I love this. Seven years on, she's still / in some ways even more tapped into her creative flow and the journey has been so beautiful.

    • @purvijoshi9879
      @purvijoshi9879 2 роки тому +2

      Wow this is still going beautiful!

  • @iniamhy
    @iniamhy 13 років тому +9

    Aw She's so lovely to the crowd!

  • @citrusfirefly
    @citrusfirefly Рік тому +9

    I always make my way back to this video. She’s amazing.

  • @sizzling_rozes
    @sizzling_rozes 9 років тому +30

    I love the part when she says "as you do now, my man"

  • @jenniferkash4424
    @jenniferkash4424 10 місяців тому +5

    What I would do to go back and see her perform like this

  • @hmoddde988hmd8
    @hmoddde988hmd8 Рік тому +5

    She look so gorgeous here 🫠, she always been beautiful and talented 🍒🌸

  • @mrlately
    @mrlately 12 років тому +10

    She is so amazing. Her movements are so cute

  • @guisjc18
    @guisjc18 3 роки тому +4

    I love that in the end of the music she just walks out. Queen Mother.

  • @riner9
    @riner9 10 місяців тому +2

    Most underappreciated artist of the last decade.

  • @Zabala026
    @Zabala026 Рік тому +13

    Thank you to whoever recorded this 🥲🙏🏼

  • @vannysglitchh
    @vannysglitchh 3 роки тому +6

    I love going through her old live shows she’s amazing and so beautiful

  • @BandofPants
    @BandofPants 12 років тому +11

    It must feel so good to get to the last bit of the song after all that range hopping and to know it was done well!

  • @yolandanavarro3212
    @yolandanavarro3212 10 років тому +20

    I loved the beat

  • @victoriaalexander4373
    @victoriaalexander4373 Рік тому +3

    I'm obsessed with her

  • @younggangsta9860
    @younggangsta9860 7 років тому +36

    This video is used in the carmen video.

  • @lilyfawn9218
    @lilyfawn9218 6 років тому +28

    Jeez its my fave song of her live, shame that she doesnt sing it with such energy now

  • @diegoyepez5308
    @diegoyepez5308 2 роки тому +3

    ugh i love this woman

  • @hannahmoffic1785
    @hannahmoffic1785 4 роки тому +3

    i come back to this everyday

  • @LucianaDalilaCabrera-m3l
    @LucianaDalilaCabrera-m3l Рік тому +5

    I love her i still remember the first time i heard of her when i was 12 now i'm 20 and have been able to see her progress makes me feel so proud of her... i miss her old performances but the new ones are cool as fuck too

  • @biravijnya
    @biravijnya 2 роки тому +4

    OMG THIS ERA I SWEAR TO GOD

  • @wrldofsara
    @wrldofsara 5 років тому +14

    She’s a superstar.

  • @nina2332
    @nina2332 4 роки тому +3

    My fav live Performance

  • @tessafosho2023
    @tessafosho2023 Рік тому +4

    i knew her music before she got famous and she is so real and authentic. this video is so good bc her voice gives me goosebumps and also her stage presence is so on point and feeling passion from her. born to
    die album is literally top three best to exist. it’s literally so amazing. lana is a legend

  • @azidanenr
    @azidanenr 2 роки тому +2

    i feel so vintage, and i love it

  • @buranopeach5245
    @buranopeach5245 6 років тому +8

    I love this performance and she looks stunning

  • @parisrose8409
    @parisrose8409 5 років тому +9

    she need to come back here :(

  • @roberts3471
    @roberts3471 4 роки тому +9

    Oh my god this is the best live I’ve seen of this song. What CANT Lana do?💓💓💓

  • @marlieshilgersom3569
    @marlieshilgersom3569 2 роки тому +6

    I love seeing her the year she wrote so many great (unreleased) songs. She was at her peak, just about to make it.

  • @jerrysizzler44
    @jerrysizzler44 4 роки тому +7

    Wow this is def one of my favorite performances I've ever seen. She's having fun and tore it up. 😊

  • @user-mainurse
    @user-mainurse Рік тому +11

    All the lana fans need to see this performance of her...literally amazing

  • @valleyofthedolls
    @valleyofthedolls 3 роки тому +3

    the way she sings the second verse is so cool omg ♡

  • @zephyc2403
    @zephyc2403 3 роки тому +6

    that is exhausting to perform the queen we need

  • @angelic_affirmations7
    @angelic_affirmations7 2 роки тому +6

    I would stay that off to the races is probably my favorite Lana song…. Makes me feel unexplainable things- freedom, euphoria, I don’t even know. It makes me feel like I have a lust for life