I'm a very old lady. I'm 77 and seeing this has reminded me of how many years of your life I have experienced with you and Shaaba. I have watched you grow and change and it has been a real honor . Thanks again for sharing your lives and experiences.
I just had bottom surgery 12 days ago, so this is insanely topical :). I'm still in a bunch of pain, and I empathize so much, especially with spending twice as much time in the hospital as expected, but I'm so, so, so insanely happy. Best decision ever. Can't wait til I'm past this initial pain and it's regular life.
@@nicanonymus2491 So far, no complications, and it's funny watching his video at ten days, because I'm so much less loopy than he was. I'm doing FANTASTIC!
I am cis and ugly crying at this. I can not begin to imagine how brave it must be for you to share this and how important for trans people to be able to access it. Thank you!
Your relationship with Shaaba is so sweet and wholesome. Even 7 years ago when you were likely still figuring things out as a couple. You acknowledging it was hard for her too and she’s like “stop it! This is about you!” Even the baboon butt comments were probably some necessary comedy at the time. I love love lol. Love can get us through anything ❤
Meanwhile, there's people in America who genuinely believe that kids are getting this surgery at school and their kid will just come home from school one day minus vagina and breasts and plus penis and testes - or vice versa - as if someone had waved a magic wand. They really don't want to know the truth. If they did, they'd be here with us, learning how courageous you have to be to go through surgery like this.
It genuinely takes so much time and going through multiple therapists to set up a consultation, let alone a surgery date. Depending on who you go to, I guess. It took me five years to set up surgery but I was able to get hormones surprisingly fast (most likely because I was already over 18 though) Like, if they knew how long it took (or that it's literally illegal to let anyone under the age of 16 transition medically without parental consent), if they got facts instead of fearmongering, this wouldn't be as hot of an issue.
I think it's really great that you kept all of it private while still filming everything to be uploaded later. Obviously nobody has to share any of their story if they don't feel comfortable with it, but videos such as yours are also such a huge help for other trans people! I am non binary myself so while I don't have a desire for bottom surgery, I do really want top surgery and seeing other people's videos fills me with so much hope and joy.
@@WalterWhite-jz7ct true, though the people who really think that way would most likely still use anything, like they would say "see, it's a dangerous surgery cause you can get a bleed", even though that's literally every surgery.
@@Nyxxeonn In fact someone has used clips of Jamie’s vlogs on their own video, out of context, as ‘evidence’ that trans surgery is dangerous and that people regret having it
Or more specifically softer since the tubes in our bodys aren't perfectly rounded maybe even matching the feeling a bit more without over extending it since most of the issues is that the body feels something inside that shouldn't be at least as far as your body is aware
I was in an accident in 2012 and had a breathing tube. It was so traumatic that when I had to do a scope down my throat 6 years later that I unequivocally said “I need to be out for this otherwise I’m not going to be able to handle it” luckily it was already planned like that. Just to add I also had a catheter at the same time that someone screwed up and I needed corrective surgery to pee straight again. So I definitely feel for you.
I can imagine how awkward it is to look back at just how much you shared about the experience of getting bottom surgery, but I think your complete candour is very valuable to everyone - especially to trans boys and men who are thinking about bottom surgery for themselves. Knowing what to expect and all the small embarrassing things ahead of time allows them to make a more informed decision and go into bottom surgery as prepared as possible! It is also useful for those of us who aren't trans, to remind us just how serious dysphoria can be - that someone would not just willingly but gladly go through that just to make it better!
No cringe here, you’re the sweetest couple ❤. I have massive health anxiety, amongst other things! I literally feel wierd and empathetic aches at the thought of all this and the pain, I could cry. Thank you for sharing this, it’s so important ❤
It might be painful to revisit, but this was genuinely so helpful. One of my friends is getting lower surgery next month and he’s asked me to help him and I’ve been reviewing your videos to get an idea of the recovery process and seeing your commentary about what was actually the worst or most difficult is so helpful. Thank you!!
As a single person, it really makes me feel for any single trans people going through this - Shaaba obviously gave you so much needed comfort and support through the whole thing, I can't imagine doing all that without someone to be there
As a Trans Man who does not want bottom surgery but does want a hysterectomy. This was informative to watch!! I’m glad that I don’t have horrible bottom dysphoria and it can be relieved with wearing a packer! But I totally understand how bad dysphoria is and how surgery can really help that! I can’t wait to get top surgery within the next few years, due to how bad my chest dysphoria is!!
I recently had a hysterectomy for non-trans reasons. By far the easiest surgery I had. Including an appendectomy. Four little baby incisions. All done robotically and I got to go home around lunchtime.
@@learabee yes! I would look for a MIGS surgeon. They have specialized training on minimally invasive surgery. Mine even did mine without me having had children! They can remove the uterus through the vagina so a larger incision isn't necessary. My surgeon only needed a little bit bigger incisions for me as she found a bunch of endometriosis gunk to remove.
I’m a new subscriber; Roly led me to you and Shaaba. You’re both so lovely. Relationship goals. I don’t think any of it is cringe. I did just recently go through a lot of your old videos including this saga. I know you’re super uncomfortable looking back lol but tbh I appreciated how candid it all was. You went through a whole lot, obviously. But I am very glad in the end you received results that you needed to feel comfortable in your body. Thanks for making this video; I think once you hit 30 (I’m 32 myself) it’s possible to react to your younger self in a completely new way and fully absorb the essence of growth you’ve achieved in life. If that makes any sense at all. Thanks again and lots of love!
I remember watching this video 7 years ago when I was not sure how I felt about trans people. Seeing your experience was a lightbulb moment for me and unlocked some compassion. Now after exploring my identity, I have discovered that I am agender. Medical transition is unlikely for me as I do not have significant body dysphoria but more social dysphoria. However, I will always support my trans siblings for whom medical transition is an essential, life-saving aspect of their transition.
No need to feel any cringe here, I understand why you would, but this was a very vulnerable time for you! You were raw and honest and that is going to have helped FAR more of us than you even realise. Much love 💜
My goodness, I have been following you for a long time. I remember this, and didn't feel like it was cringe. Still don't. It was very brave of you to vlog during the whole scary painful process. You and Shaaba look so young, but you were already in grad school I think. Thank you so much for your open honesty, you have helped a lot of people. And yes, your beard really has filled in. I remember a video from around that time with you criticizing your beard for being patchy. Now you look like a grown man. 30, wow. You are officially a grown up.
Gay male here, 60 years old. Loved this. Brilliant video. Be proud. You are the Man!! Thank you for sharing your journey. Much respect for your honesty and the education you are providing for those of us that want to listen and learn.
Fellow over-50 gay here [a few years younger than you]! 👋 As I just said in a reply comment elsewhere on this video flaming an anti-trans jerk toasty: Gay men and lesbians our age recognize the attacks on trans folks as the _exact same damned_ attacks on us from the 1990s, just with the words changed. Same sphincters squirting the same rhetorical diarrhea, just at a different target. So we Gen-X and older gays and lesbians need to put on our old protest-T-shirts and buttons, stand up, tired though we are, and fight the fight once again. And unlike in the 1990s, we need to revise the chant: We're Here. We're Queer. And they won't take us Without a *_Fight._* We're Here. We're Queer. And we are gonna *_Fight Them Back._*
I had a Pig Twin Drain? Both in right front and my right buttcheek for a week or so to drain fluids. And I *STILL TO THIS DAY* feel the drain/tube when they pulled them out. It was like...Ugh you feel it 'slithering' out. But huzzah! Seven years! May many get this surgery as well, minus the.. Complications. Stay safe everyone.
Ur honesty and vulnerability is commendable. How u keep cringing at urself is adorable 🙃 Very kind and brave of u for showing us this part of ur life ❤️🌹
I am so, so delighted that you got the results that you needed….Shaaba has always been your rock, and one can SEE ON YOUR FACE what a calming and encouraging support she was to you (and still is).
I just got home from the hospital yesterday after getting back surgery last week and so much of this reaction I was just nodding along to. It's so relatable and it actually makes me feel better about seeking vaginoplasty next summer. I feel like I won't be going in totally blind to everything like I did this back surgery. Thanks for sharing your experience, Jamie!
Jamie, I really appreciate a candid and realistic view into gender affirming surgery. Many times you hear the glossed. Version. Im so glad the end justified the means.
It wonderful you were able access this surgery, even with all the ups and downs. It's amazing what can be done now and you're amazing for how far you've come since then. Im glad after you got home your healing went pretty well and now 7 yrs later youre healthy and happier than ever before.
Thank you for being so vulnerable in a situation that would be difficult in the absolute best of circumstances. Your strength, grace and humility in revisiting this is extraordinary. Kudos, sir.
What an ordeal! I'm so glad the results were worth it for you. I'm NB & had top surgery 6 years ago, which was difficult, especially at age 70 (better late than never!), but nothing compared to what you went through. Very grateful I don't have to go through bottom surgery myself. Thank you for sharing (& resharing) for those who are facing this ordeal. It was very touching to see how supportive Shaaba was through all this. You really are the sweetest couple!
When you started expressing your gratitude to your AMAZING and BESUTIFUL WIFE, I just started tearing up. What an incredible couple you are. I am so happy for you both. The love is tangible!
Let's not forget that Jamie had to transition before Shaaba would have a romantic relationship with Jamie. In the youtube documentary "Truly - My Best Friend Changed Gender And Now We're Engaged" Shaaba stated "I did genuinely love you as a friend, you know.... I mean it was so silly to the point where before you'd even come out , I'd be like 'Ah if only you were a guy like I'd marry you straightaway.' Jamie then transitioned and now they are married. A true love story.
This vid came up in my recommended which was surprising. I’m so happy for you! I’m in awe of your relationship with Shaaba. My son is trans and had top surgery almost 2 years ago. He had so much more confidence afterward. My son also had a hematoma complication with his top surgery (and had an emergency second surgery as well.). He’s 24 yrs old now, and I hope he’ll find someone he can find that connection with, like you have. I’m glad you’ve been able to have the strength to share your journey with others. There are way too many “regret” vids out there. You’re an amazing person, and your wife is a strong and beautiful woman too. 💖
_Both_ of you have such different hair~! I've watched y'all shift over the years but it's funny how you don't really notice so much when it's gradual. Thank you for sharing this piece of the past. It's warmly reassuring (even with the scary bits, because it's real). "Baboon butt" and the tired laughs between you made me happy-cry.
I don’t think I saw this video before. I saw your compilation video showing an overview of your transition, and seeing the hope and even joy as the process went on made me cry with happiness for you.
I actually rewatched your vlog a few weeks ago before having bottom surgery (meta). Your videos about bottom surgery are the reason i learned about meta in the first place and how i knew i wanted to have the same surgery so i cannot thank you enough for this. It's wild to think i watched this video when it first came out 6 or 7 years ago, and now am 3 weeks post op. Thanks again for your testimony and all your videos about your transition, they all helped so much!
I can so relate to how that first shower after major surgery really makes you feel like a human. Not the same type of surgery at all, but I had a c section 2.5 years ago and when I was able to get out of that bed and get washed up I felt like a whole new person, and I remember how much having limited mobility sucks. Again, not nearly the same but having your abs essentially ripped open makes it hard to get up and down on your own and even walk. I felt like I was 90 years old for about the first week. Glad you had a good outcome in the end and are pleased with your result!
Thank you for watching and posting this. I'm nowhere near surgery, myself, but ideally I'll get there someday. This video (these videos? Videoception?) and your candidness has really helped me feel much more comfortable and confident in my decision to go forward with this step when my life allows for it.
1) As someone who's had two kids, I feel you about the part where people see your downstairs. I was SO anxious and self-conscious and stuff about people seeing it, but after it happened I really stopped caring (to be fair, it's also chidbirth so I feel it's different but the same in the way that apples and oranges are both fruits) 2) I have a partner who has heavily debated bottom surgery and honestly I really appreciate the rawness of the video and how up-front a good bit of it is. I'm only ~18min into it, but it's already been really insightful to what to expect (to a degree) him to go through and what he might need. I'm so glad that there are videos like this to help teach people what it's like both as the patient and the partner Edit: I'm also nb and while I don't feel like I need any sort of top/bottom surgeries, seeing trans men/enbies do videos as well of hysterectomies has also been super helpful to know when I get my own. Bless all trans individuals like you who put this stuff out there for people like me!
I was fortunate to get simple meta earlier this year, and I do remember how 4 years ago, your videos were a vital part in deciding that I was making the right choice. It might be a bit silly, but Shaaba mentioning how you were going to come home 'two plums heavier' warmed my heart so much. I had to reschedule my implant date, but I'm waiting with baited breath until I, too, get to come home two plums heavier. Thank you for courageously sharing your journey, for other trans men (&mascs) out there.
Thank you so, so much for sharing this so much further on from the experience! I'm a cis woman and I can't even begin to understand everything you've been through (though I did have mammo reduction and your talking about the drain brought up some painful memories!), but I'm oddly proud and honored to be able to learn more from your journey.
Thank you for sharing your story & your vulnerability. I am sure the journey you have taken, and your openness has & will help SO many people. I am grateful there are these surgeries & there are Dr.'s willing to preform them. ❤
It is so scary to have bleeding issues after a surgery. I had to have my tonsils removed when I was a kid, and ended up having a blood vessel burst in my throat while recovering. I was terrified for months, thinking a blood vessel might burst again every time I coughed. I didn't realize it was something that still scared me, ten years later, until I was sick and got a bloody nose while vomiting. I didn't realize my nose was bleeding, and thought I was vomiting blood (which happened when the blood vessel burst). I had a panic attack, and still was terrified hours after I realized my nose was bleeding and not my throat.
Being trans is fun because its an interesting mix of "i want this information available for everyone like me to access", as well as "i dont want to talk to everyone about my genitals" 😭 Top surgery for me was decent. My grandparents helped care for me after, my family knew what i was doing, my workplace had an idea what was going on... If i have bottom surgery id probably like to keep it between myself and my friends. God knows my family wouldnt react well. Thanks for sharing your experience, Jamie. Its an incredibly vulnerable thing to do, and dofficult experience to talk about.
Thank you for sharing this journey. My own surgery had many complications and also resulted in an additional surgery. I think its really important to emphasise that like you I have no regrets. Things are different than planned but I would do the surgery again in a heartbeat if I had to. It's increadibly I guess like soothing to be able to see the experience and challenges someone else has gone though. Thanks for being amazing.
You and Shaaba are relationship goals, Jamie, and both extremely lucky to have each other. It warms my heart see you looking back seven years ago when your dreams (if painfully) became true.
Damn. I just had mine almost a month ago now (with UL, hysto, etc. all in the same step) and man I was anxious about plenty of things but mine was a breeze compared to a lot of things I'm hearing can happen. Still have the SP catheter, but less than a week until I try to pee on my own. 16:12 I had a WHOLE group of like ten med students come in and look at my junk. It was... Wild. Considering how I was pre op, I was surprisingly okay with it. Edit: yeah I am a bit afraid of getting the catheter out. It's gonna be really weird I'm sure.
Yeah it was right at three weeks post op when I felt pretty okay with sitting. My main issue now is just... Bladder weirdness. But I had virtually no bruising.
I remember watching the vid with my late hubby and being so fucking proud of you. Watching this is refreshing and made me happy to still be able to hear about your amazing journey.
@@rosieg6989 of course Jamie didn't ask her. Shaaba had already made it clear she was only interested in female Jamie as a friend, "I did genuinely love you as a friend... if only you were a guy, like I'd marry you straight away".
Hi Jamie! I know that you feel awkward sharing these videos. But, you helped me so much! My best friend came out as trans during the earlier days of your channel. I am endlessly grateful for your honesty and candor. It really helped me throughout that first year of my bestie getting top surgery & I used tips and noticed red flags in his experience from watching you and Shabba. Bless you to beautiful people. ~ Indigo
You mention the mobility issue after surgery, and I had a commisserating laugh, because I had a complete hysterectomy due to cancer (my uterus was the size of a 3-4 mo pregnancy from the cancerous growth inside) in 2020, and I went into the surgery more concerned about my reaction to anesthesia than any concern about what my mobility would be like after. Came out with a 4 inch incision down the center of my lower abdomen, stapled shut, and suddenly I could do anything. I needed help getting in and out of bed, putting on or taking off any clothing (including things that went in over my head, because lifting up pulls on abdominal muscles), and forget lifting or carrying anything. So I'm listening to you talk about not being able to do anything, and my own memories are making me simultaneously cringe and laugh. I can definitely relate to the mobility part of it.
The interesting thing to me watching you watching this is how much more… present within yourself you are now compared to past you in the video. Like not that you weren’t brave or not you, because you were but like, your vibe is grand today.
I know this video blog was very helpful in informing me about what could happen. I really appreciate that level of openness even if it feels awkward now.
I'm not on YT much anymore, but I used to watch ALL of your videos, long before the bottom surgery. Just wanted to say what a source of light you always have been. Shaaba too. I had honestly forgotten about her, but back in the day, I used to watch your guys' videos with the hopes that she would make an appearance :) Two examples of beautiful, kind, loving folks who have done a lot to spread kindness, light, and education
I’m really proud of you for your bravery through all this. Thank you always for sharing your story with us. I am not trans but have always been a gender nonconfirming person and I remember the pain from even elementary school of adults in my life trying to force me to be more feminine. I can only imagine that being trans, is that pain but so much worse. I’m sorry the world is the way it is. I want you and other trans people to be able to love yourselves and to be comfortable in who you are without fear for your safety. I have to speak up against some of my coworkers all the time for their transphobia. It’s exhausting and upsetting to hear their hate for people they have never met.
As someone who uses a catheter permanently because I have crap genetics and haven’t been able to pee for over a decade - I can confirm they can be really uncomfortable (especially if your body is like mine and every so often gives birth to the damn thing complete with filled bulb, still intact!)
My most serious surgery was a thyroidectomy ( diagnosed with Graves Disease/ Graves Eye Disease) and it was literally a life saving surgery. I was so happy to be there because they were going to make me better, and the simple act of a diagnosis meant people stopped gaslighting me about being lazy. I came out of surgery in a state of Bliss that lasted for over 3 months before it started to dissipate. I also had an odd complication in that I had a reaction to the anticoagulant and they had togo back in to clean it out and change the anti-coagulant and put in a drainage tube ( this was sticking out of my throat). I know you get a lot of ignorance thrown at you all the time, but surgeries gelp us live the safest and best versions of ourselves. All surgeries have potential for complication and regret, but rarely do we go into them without a lot of thought and considerations that it is the best course of action. I am grateful that everything eventually went well for you, as I only found your content a few years ago and the 2 of you, along with many of your friends, have helped me become a kinder and more knowledgeable person. edits for spelling because my neuropathy has made my hand numb, and luck has made my keyboard unkind
God I want my gender affirming surgery so badly. This makes me nervous though because I don't have anyone I could rely on for support afterwards. I'm also in the US and things are...bonkers here. I've never been more grateful to be in California though. I hope I can arrange things soon. While the procedure I want is different and a bit obscure in the trans community, this gives me a lot of hope overall. Thank you for sharing this. I can't even imagine being comfortable in my skin...I want it so badly.
Thank you for your story I'm a nurse and I've never taken care of any patient who has had lower surgery. Really interesting to hear a patient's experience and I'm so glad that the surgery was a good, healthy thing for you.
As impactful freeing my top surgery was, the bottom was just the wonderful finale. I remember how I went to shower after 4 weeks of surgery and felt complete. The first time in my life. No one understands how this feels except the ones who do.
Wow Jamie... I didnt realize how different you looked back then lol. Ive been watching you since 2016, when my son came out...now Im out and watching you lol. Its cute seeing your reactions! What is that nausea thing you were talking about?? I experience some bad stuff when I get nauseas. The unpicking of stitches and squeezing is ridiculous. They should have given you something for that experience...Im feeling a little sick just thinking of it.
Why on earth would they ask Shaaba your blood type after they’ve already had you under anaesthesia and operated? Isn’t this something that they should have found out before the first time?!🤯 I’m terrified on your behalf.
Literally, towards the very end when you're just watching the bit where you're home, your reaction is just a lot of smiling which gives me so much hope to see. Idk if thats a weird compliment, I am sorry. It's just that there is so much discomfort in the own body which often comes with the trans experience that it fills me with so much joy and hope seeing someone happy.
First video of you that I see, and as a cis woman, hearing about the pain, made my bottoms hurt 😅 this was a very informative video and so cute to see your cringe face haha. awesome to see how you see yourself now and how this decision helped to improve yourself. xxxx from Argentina
I remember watching you through all of this and was going through my sons transition at the time and first started watching because I wanted to understand more and stayed because I adored you and Shaaba! ❤
Omg! The first food I had after one of my surgeries was a tuna sandwich! As a result I, too, can no longer eat shop bought tuna mayo lol. I also have emetophobia. This was recently challenged by my first bout of noro in decades lol. I have seen this video sooooo many times. And it's nice to hear you talk about it xx sending you love and joy
You saying this was 7 years ago just made me realise how long I've been watching you. Way before your bottom surgery.
Yes me too!
⚠My content is better ⚠
Me too
This! It is difficult to believe it has been that long.
Same!!
I'm a very old lady. I'm 77 and seeing this has reminded me of how many years of your life I have experienced with you and Shaaba. I have watched you grow and change and it has been a real honor . Thanks again for sharing your lives and experiences.
You are an amazing human.
I just had bottom surgery 12 days ago, so this is insanely topical :). I'm still in a bunch of pain, and I empathize so much, especially with spending twice as much time in the hospital as expected, but I'm so, so, so insanely happy. Best decision ever. Can't wait til I'm past this initial pain and it's regular life.
Wishing you swift healing! 😊
I wishing you a speedy recovery! ❤️🩹
@@nicanonymus2491 So far, no complications, and it's funny watching his video at ten days, because I'm so much less loopy than he was. I'm doing FANTASTIC!
So glad you're glad that the surgery went well! I wish you a swift recovery~! ✨🍀
@@SMHackTeam That’s awesome! 👏🏼 Sending you lots of positive energy! ✌🏼
I am cis and ugly crying at this. I can not begin to imagine how brave it must be for you to share this and how important for trans people to be able to access it.
Thank you!
i completely agree, i respect him so much for putting this out, its very brave
I'm so sorry I misread your comment as "I am cis and ugly. crying at this."
darn this comment made ME cry
Thank you for your empathy :( its so heart warming and lovely
@@artwithtreewhat the sigma 😭😭
Your relationship with Shaaba is so sweet and wholesome. Even 7 years ago when you were likely still figuring things out as a couple. You acknowledging it was hard for her too and she’s like “stop it! This is about you!” Even the baboon butt comments were probably some necessary comedy at the time. I love love lol. Love can get us through anything ❤
Meanwhile, there's people in America who genuinely believe that kids are getting this surgery at school and their kid will just come home from school one day minus vagina and breasts and plus penis and testes - or vice versa - as if someone had waved a magic wand.
They really don't want to know the truth. If they did, they'd be here with us, learning how courageous you have to be to go through surgery like this.
It genuinely takes so much time and going through multiple therapists to set up a consultation, let alone a surgery date. Depending on who you go to, I guess. It took me five years to set up surgery but I was able to get hormones surprisingly fast (most likely because I was already over 18 though)
Like, if they knew how long it took (or that it's literally illegal to let anyone under the age of 16 transition medically without parental consent), if they got facts instead of fearmongering, this wouldn't be as hot of an issue.
Same people that think chocolate milk comes from brown cows
@@tealkerberus748 if only it were that easy I'd take the option to switch between sexes every other day
I doubt they genuinely believe that, it's just to justify their transphobia
Kids are being sterilized all the time. Sad that you LIE.
I think it's really great that you kept all of it private while still filming everything to be uploaded later. Obviously nobody has to share any of their story if they don't feel comfortable with it, but videos such as yours are also such a huge help for other trans people!
I am non binary myself so while I don't have a desire for bottom surgery, I do really want top surgery and seeing other people's videos fills me with so much hope and joy.
I think it's even more important for Cis people who think that the OP is a quick snip that the taxpayers are billed for.
@@WalterWhite-jz7ct true, though the people who really think that way would most likely still use anything, like they would say "see, it's a dangerous surgery cause you can get a bleed", even though that's literally every surgery.
@@Nyxxeonn In fact someone has used clips of Jamie’s vlogs on their own video, out of context, as ‘evidence’ that trans surgery is dangerous and that people regret having it
@@shortcake66 Does he know about this?
@@kathycoutinho5665 Yes, he talked about it in a video. That’s how I know about it!
I finaly get my appointment for mtf bottom surgery, I'm super happy because here in Germany it takes crazy long until you get an appointment
Glückwunsch 🎉
@JamieNoah638 danke 🥰
Heck yeah! Hope everything goes well for you! You go, girl!❤
Congratulations.
Herzlichen Glückwunsch! Ich hoffe es verläuft alles gut :)
"The catheter's the worst thing."
The breathing tube shredded me up during my rhinoplasty. Surely we have the technology to make rounded tubes.
I feel this in my soul. The tubes are rounded and soft, but our bodies are so freaking delicate in the soft squishy parts.
Or more specifically softer since the tubes in our bodys aren't perfectly rounded maybe even matching the feeling a bit more without over extending it since most of the issues is that the body feels something inside that shouldn't be at least as far as your body is aware
Mebs your nose pipes are squared 😂
It def is. Next comes the piss you have to after they removed the catheter.
I was in an accident in 2012 and had a breathing tube. It was so traumatic that when I had to do a scope down my throat 6 years later that I unequivocally said “I need to be out for this otherwise I’m not going to be able to handle it” luckily it was already planned like that.
Just to add I also had a catheter at the same time that someone screwed up and I needed corrective surgery to pee straight again. So I definitely feel for you.
I can imagine how awkward it is to look back at just how much you shared about the experience of getting bottom surgery, but I think your complete candour is very valuable to everyone - especially to trans boys and men who are thinking about bottom surgery for themselves. Knowing what to expect and all the small embarrassing things ahead of time allows them to make a more informed decision and go into bottom surgery as prepared as possible! It is also useful for those of us who aren't trans, to remind us just how serious dysphoria can be - that someone would not just willingly but gladly go through that just to make it better!
"Oh that hair!" I think we all had THAT hair at that time 😆
No cringe here, you’re the sweetest couple ❤. I have massive health anxiety, amongst other things! I literally feel wierd and empathetic aches at the thought of all this and the pain, I could cry. Thank you for sharing this, it’s so important ❤
It might be painful to revisit, but this was genuinely so helpful. One of my friends is getting lower surgery next month and he’s asked me to help him and I’ve been reviewing your videos to get an idea of the recovery process and seeing your commentary about what was actually the worst or most difficult is so helpful. Thank you!!
Last week, I was told I will never receive bottom surgery. I'm sorry my dude, but I just can't watch this. Commenting for the algorithm.
I'm really sorry. we're all here for you in spirit. :( ❤️
One of those things u just gotta learn to live with at least it's not killing you or some kind of disability
Why can't you get it?
@@Sirtrollsalotalot you're clearly an ignorant cis person why are you here
@@Sirtrollsalotalot well, it is killing me. That's why I wanted it.
As a single person, it really makes me feel for any single trans people going through this - Shaaba obviously gave you so much needed comfort and support through the whole thing, I can't imagine doing all that without someone to be there
Surgery is indeed hard on the body. But I've said for years now that the right surgery at the right time is a huge blessing.
As a Trans Man who does not want bottom surgery but does want a hysterectomy. This was informative to watch!! I’m glad that I don’t have horrible bottom dysphoria and it can be relieved with wearing a packer! But I totally understand how bad dysphoria is and how surgery can really help that! I can’t wait to get top surgery within the next few years, due to how bad my chest dysphoria is!!
I recently had a hysterectomy for non-trans reasons. By far the easiest surgery I had. Including an appendectomy. Four little baby incisions. All done robotically and I got to go home around lunchtime.
@@feliciascorner9795 for real??.?. This changes a lot for me 🧐
Wishing you the best with your top surgery!!!
@@learabee yes! I would look for a MIGS surgeon. They have specialized training on minimally invasive surgery. Mine even did mine without me having had children! They can remove the uterus through the vagina so a larger incision isn't necessary. My surgeon only needed a little bit bigger incisions for me as she found a bunch of endometriosis gunk to remove.
@@learabee Mine was a piece of cake too, same kind of surgery as Felicia. The worst part was the gas pain, everything else was cool. Good luck!
I’m a new subscriber; Roly led me to you and Shaaba. You’re both so lovely. Relationship goals. I don’t think any of it is cringe.
I did just recently go through a lot of your old videos including this saga. I know you’re super uncomfortable looking back lol but tbh I appreciated how candid it all was. You went through a whole lot, obviously. But I am very glad in the end you received results that you needed to feel comfortable in your body.
Thanks for making this video; I think once you hit 30 (I’m 32 myself) it’s possible to react to your younger self in a completely new way and fully absorb the essence of growth you’ve achieved in life. If that makes any sense at all.
Thanks again and lots of love!
Jammi's bottom surgery video: "I'm probably going to regret making this . . ."
Alice in Wonderland's bottom surgery video: "I HAVE A VAGINA!!"
True😂
😂😂😂
The two ends of the Spectrum
I remember watching this video 7 years ago when I was not sure how I felt about trans people. Seeing your experience was a lightbulb moment for me and unlocked some compassion. Now after exploring my identity, I have discovered that I am agender. Medical transition is unlikely for me as I do not have significant body dysphoria but more social dysphoria. However, I will always support my trans siblings for whom medical transition is an essential, life-saving aspect of their transition.
Ty Turner 🤝 Dr. Jamie Raines
Recalling their surgery experience unflinchingly and without condescension.
No need to feel any cringe here, I understand why you would, but this was a very vulnerable time for you! You were raw and honest and that is going to have helped FAR more of us than you even realise. Much love 💜
Your willingness to be openly vulnerable is such a huge part of your appeal.
My goodness, I have been following you for a long time. I remember this, and didn't feel like it was cringe. Still don't. It was very brave of you to vlog during the whole scary painful process. You and Shaaba look so young, but you were already in grad school I think. Thank you so much for your open honesty, you have helped a lot of people. And yes, your beard really has filled in. I remember a video from around that time with you criticizing your beard for being patchy. Now you look like a grown man. 30, wow. You are officially a grown up.
I'm shrinking into myself just from hearing you retell it, and you went through all that at 23? This is incredibly brave
So glad that you got the surgeries you wanted and ultimately needed before you couldn't! I'm low-key jealous! ❤
Before he couldn’t…?
@@zannadunstrand6289UK and USA are severely restricting gender affirming care for very specifically trans people.
@@zannadunstrand6289 Considering the goals and policies of the US president-elect, fears that gender affirming surgeries will be outlawed are valid.
@ buuuut….. he’s from the UK? Right..?
@@elizabethweber3316does he not live in the UK?
thank you for discussing emetophobia even briefly, i rarely hear it mentioned
Zoe Sugg (better known as Zoella) talks a bit about having it, mostly in regards to having it while pregnant & after having her 2 daughters.
Gay male here, 60 years old. Loved this. Brilliant video. Be proud. You are the Man!!
Thank you for sharing your journey. Much respect for your honesty and the education you are providing for those of us that want to listen and learn.
Fellow over-50 gay here [a few years younger than you]! 👋
As I just said in a reply comment elsewhere on this video flaming an anti-trans jerk toasty: Gay men and lesbians our age recognize the attacks on trans folks as the _exact same damned_ attacks on us from the 1990s, just with the words changed. Same sphincters squirting the same rhetorical diarrhea, just at a different target.
So we Gen-X and older gays and lesbians need to put on our old protest-T-shirts and buttons, stand up, tired though we are, and fight the fight once again. And unlike in the 1990s, we need to revise the chant:
We're Here.
We're Queer.
And they won't take us
Without a *_Fight._*
We're Here.
We're Queer.
And we are gonna
*_Fight Them Back._*
I had a Pig Twin Drain? Both in right front and my right buttcheek for a week or so to drain fluids. And I *STILL TO THIS DAY* feel the drain/tube when they pulled them out. It was like...Ugh you feel it 'slithering' out. But huzzah! Seven years! May many get this surgery as well, minus the.. Complications. Stay safe everyone.
I had a Picc line in and I felt every part of them pulling it out
I had a drain in my knee. I can still feel them pulling it out after 18 years. It’s a core memory by now.
Ur honesty and vulnerability is commendable. How u keep cringing at urself is adorable 🙃
Very kind and brave of u for showing us this part of ur life ❤️🌹
You are so brave. So brave for have been going through this, and so brave for sharing it with such an open heart. (Sorry if bad english, I'm french)
Your English is magnificent!!
Thanks!
I am so, so delighted that you got the results that you needed….Shaaba has always been your rock, and one can SEE ON YOUR FACE what a calming and encouraging support she was to you (and still is).
I just got home from the hospital yesterday after getting back surgery last week and so much of this reaction I was just nodding along to. It's so relatable and it actually makes me feel better about seeking vaginoplasty next summer. I feel like I won't be going in totally blind to everything like I did this back surgery. Thanks for sharing your experience, Jamie!
Jamie, I really appreciate a candid and realistic view into gender affirming surgery. Many times you hear the glossed. Version. Im so glad the end justified the means.
It wonderful you were able access this surgery, even with all the ups and downs. It's amazing what can be done now and you're amazing for how far you've come since then. Im glad after you got home your healing went pretty well and now 7 yrs later youre healthy and happier than ever before.
I find your courage and openness and honesty absolutely inspirational.
I've not heard Jamie refer to it as a courgette before.
I know it’s an autocorrect but the idea of an ‘inspirational courgette’ just tickled me, especially given the context… 🤭
Wow 7 years ago! I can remember watching when you posted. It's been a privilege to follow on your journey, thank you.
Thank you for being so vulnerable in a situation that would be difficult in the absolute best of circumstances. Your strength, grace and humility in revisiting this is extraordinary. Kudos, sir.
What an ordeal! I'm so glad the results were worth it for you. I'm NB & had top surgery 6 years ago, which was difficult, especially at age 70 (better late than never!), but nothing compared to what you went through. Very grateful I don't have to go through bottom surgery myself. Thank you for sharing (& resharing) for those who are facing this ordeal. It was very touching to see how supportive Shaaba was through all this. You really are the sweetest couple!
When you started expressing your gratitude to your AMAZING and BESUTIFUL WIFE, I just started tearing up. What an incredible couple you are. I am so happy for you both. The love is tangible!
Let's not forget that Jamie had to transition before Shaaba would have a romantic relationship with Jamie.
In the youtube documentary "Truly - My Best Friend Changed Gender And Now We're Engaged" Shaaba stated "I did genuinely love you as a friend, you know.... I mean it was so silly to the point where before you'd even come out , I'd be like 'Ah if only you were a guy like I'd marry you straightaway.'
Jamie then transitioned and now they are married. A true love story.
@@daddydeadly3428 stop copying and pasting this comment
@@hehheheheheehehehehehhehehehhe no, it's an inspirational tale of how far a girl will go to be with their true love.
@@daddydeadly3428an hero nazi filth
@@Alex-gh8iu thank you for your kind words.
This vid came up in my recommended which was surprising. I’m so happy for you! I’m in awe of your relationship with Shaaba. My son is trans and had top surgery almost 2 years ago. He had so much more confidence afterward. My son also had a hematoma complication with his top surgery (and had an emergency second surgery as well.). He’s 24 yrs old now, and I hope he’ll find someone he can find that connection with, like you have.
I’m glad you’ve been able to have the strength to share your journey with others. There are way too many “regret” vids out there. You’re an amazing person, and your wife is a strong and beautiful woman too. 💖
_Both_ of you have such different hair~! I've watched y'all shift over the years but it's funny how you don't really notice so much when it's gradual. Thank you for sharing this piece of the past. It's warmly reassuring (even with the scary bits, because it's real). "Baboon butt" and the tired laughs between you made me happy-cry.
I don’t think I saw this video before. I saw your compilation video showing an overview of your transition, and seeing the hope and even joy as the process went on made me cry with happiness for you.
I know you said it would be awkward, but I can see the genuine happiness in your face after having the surgery :)
I'm happy for you. I have watched several of your videos. Thank you for sharing so we can understand.
I actually rewatched your vlog a few weeks ago before having bottom surgery (meta). Your videos about bottom surgery are the reason i learned about meta in the first place and how i knew i wanted to have the same surgery so i cannot thank you enough for this. It's wild to think i watched this video when it first came out 6 or 7 years ago, and now am 3 weeks post op. Thanks again for your testimony and all your videos about your transition, they all helped so much!
I can’t believe this means I’ve followed you for more than 7yrs!! Wild! I remember when you posted this, and I was so shocked and excited for you!
I can so relate to how that first shower after major surgery really makes you feel like a human. Not the same type of surgery at all, but I had a c section 2.5 years ago and when I was able to get out of that bed and get washed up I felt like a whole new person, and I remember how much having limited mobility sucks. Again, not nearly the same but having your abs essentially ripped open makes it hard to get up and down on your own and even walk. I felt like I was 90 years old for about the first week. Glad you had a good outcome in the end and are pleased with your result!
Thank you for watching and posting this. I'm nowhere near surgery, myself, but ideally I'll get there someday. This video (these videos? Videoception?) and your candidness has really helped me feel much more comfortable and confident in my decision to go forward with this step when my life allows for it.
I didn't realize I was remotely close to the edge of tears until you said Shaaba's mom went mom-mode, and suddenly the flood gates opened. 😭💙
1) As someone who's had two kids, I feel you about the part where people see your downstairs. I was SO anxious and self-conscious and stuff about people seeing it, but after it happened I really stopped caring (to be fair, it's also chidbirth so I feel it's different but the same in the way that apples and oranges are both fruits)
2) I have a partner who has heavily debated bottom surgery and honestly I really appreciate the rawness of the video and how up-front a good bit of it is. I'm only ~18min into it, but it's already been really insightful to what to expect (to a degree) him to go through and what he might need. I'm so glad that there are videos like this to help teach people what it's like both as the patient and the partner
Edit: I'm also nb and while I don't feel like I need any sort of top/bottom surgeries, seeing trans men/enbies do videos as well of hysterectomies has also been super helpful to know when I get my own. Bless all trans individuals like you who put this stuff out there for people like me!
I was fortunate to get simple meta earlier this year, and I do remember how 4 years ago, your videos were a vital part in deciding that I was making the right choice.
It might be a bit silly, but Shaaba mentioning how you were going to come home 'two plums heavier' warmed my heart so much. I had to reschedule my implant date, but I'm waiting with baited breath until I, too, get to come home two plums heavier. Thank you for courageously sharing your journey, for other trans men (&mascs) out there.
Im so glad your talking bout your experience as atrans man. I hope one day i could get this surgery.
Thank you so, so much for sharing this so much further on from the experience! I'm a cis woman and I can't even begin to understand everything you've been through (though I did have mammo reduction and your talking about the drain brought up some painful memories!), but I'm oddly proud and honored to be able to learn more from your journey.
Thank you for sharing your story & your vulnerability. I am sure the journey you have taken, and your openness has & will help SO many people. I am grateful there are these surgeries & there are Dr.'s willing to preform them. ❤
It is so scary to have bleeding issues after a surgery. I had to have my tonsils removed when I was a kid, and ended up having a blood vessel burst in my throat while recovering. I was terrified for months, thinking a blood vessel might burst again every time I coughed. I didn't realize it was something that still scared me, ten years later, until I was sick and got a bloody nose while vomiting. I didn't realize my nose was bleeding, and thought I was vomiting blood (which happened when the blood vessel burst). I had a panic attack, and still was terrified hours after I realized my nose was bleeding and not my throat.
You and Shabba are such beautiful souls. ❤
mmmmm yummy souls
You keep saying the couple stuff is cringe but it's gorgeous seeing how you and Shaba are with each other. You cuties are not cringe
As a mother...this would break my heart and I don't think I'd accept it. So sad😢
Thank you for sharing this vital information for those considering transitioning and just want factual education, not politics
Being trans is fun because its an interesting mix of "i want this information available for everyone like me to access", as well as "i dont want to talk to everyone about my genitals" 😭
Top surgery for me was decent. My grandparents helped care for me after, my family knew what i was doing, my workplace had an idea what was going on... If i have bottom surgery id probably like to keep it between myself and my friends. God knows my family wouldnt react well.
Thanks for sharing your experience, Jamie. Its an incredibly vulnerable thing to do, and dofficult experience to talk about.
Thank you for sharing this journey. My own surgery had many complications and also resulted in an additional surgery. I think its really important to emphasise that like you I have no regrets. Things are different than planned but I would do the surgery again in a heartbeat if I had to. It's increadibly I guess like soothing to be able to see the experience and challenges someone else has gone though. Thanks for being amazing.
You and Shaaba are relationship goals, Jamie, and both extremely lucky to have each other. It warms my heart see you looking back seven years ago when your dreams (if painfully) became true.
Damn. I just had mine almost a month ago now (with UL, hysto, etc. all in the same step) and man I was anxious about plenty of things but mine was a breeze compared to a lot of things I'm hearing can happen. Still have the SP catheter, but less than a week until I try to pee on my own.
16:12 I had a WHOLE group of like ten med students come in and look at my junk. It was... Wild. Considering how I was pre op, I was surprisingly okay with it.
Edit: yeah I am a bit afraid of getting the catheter out. It's gonna be really weird I'm sure.
Yeah it was right at three weeks post op when I felt pretty okay with sitting. My main issue now is just... Bladder weirdness. But I had virtually no bruising.
I remember watching the vid with my late hubby and being so fucking proud of you.
Watching this is refreshing and made me happy to still be able to hear about your amazing journey.
Shaaba is such a supportive partner ❤
Not so supportive that she was willing to date the female Jamie though.
@@daddydeadly3428Define female for me real quick, I want to see what brand of semantics you use to justify your bigotry.
@@Czarro672 you must know who females are, here's a clue it includes women and transmen.
@@daddydeadly3428He never asked her out before he began transitioning, so she never rejected him.
@@rosieg6989 of course Jamie didn't ask her. Shaaba had already made it clear she was only interested in female Jamie as a friend, "I did genuinely love you as a friend... if only you were a guy, like I'd marry you straight away".
Hi Jamie!
I know that you feel awkward sharing these videos. But, you helped me so much! My best friend came out as trans during the earlier days of your channel. I am endlessly grateful for your honesty and candor. It really helped me throughout that first year of my bestie getting top surgery & I used tips and noticed red flags in his experience from watching you and Shabba.
Bless you to beautiful people.
~ Indigo
You have always been authentic. The love between you and Shaaba is a treasure. Thank you for sharing your journey.
You mention the mobility issue after surgery, and I had a commisserating laugh, because I had a complete hysterectomy due to cancer (my uterus was the size of a 3-4 mo pregnancy from the cancerous growth inside) in 2020, and I went into the surgery more concerned about my reaction to anesthesia than any concern about what my mobility would be like after. Came out with a 4 inch incision down the center of my lower abdomen, stapled shut, and suddenly I could do anything. I needed help getting in and out of bed, putting on or taking off any clothing (including things that went in over my head, because lifting up pulls on abdominal muscles), and forget lifting or carrying anything. So I'm listening to you talk about not being able to do anything, and my own memories are making me simultaneously cringe and laugh. I can definitely relate to the mobility part of it.
The interesting thing to me watching you watching this is how much more… present within yourself you are now compared to past you in the video. Like not that you weren’t brave or not you, because you were but like, your vibe is grand today.
I’m so happy you’ve had zero regrets fella x
I know this video blog was very helpful in informing me about what could happen. I really appreciate that level of openness even if it feels awkward now.
You are so brave to share so openly about your life. You have surely helped many people by your efforts.
Love how you grew into yourself since then
happy december everyone!! 🎄
And to you
I'm not on YT much anymore, but I used to watch ALL of your videos, long before the bottom surgery. Just wanted to say what a source of light you always have been. Shaaba too. I had honestly forgotten about her, but back in the day, I used to watch your guys' videos with the hopes that she would make an appearance :) Two examples of beautiful, kind, loving folks who have done a lot to spread kindness, light, and education
What a journey... you are quite brave to actually go thru with it. Thank you for sharing such an important event with us
Much better hair now, and lots more confidence!! Both with being on camera, and being yourself.
I love that you added the Grinch clip 😂
I’m really proud of you for your bravery through all this. Thank you always for sharing your story with us. I am not trans but have always been a gender nonconfirming person and I remember the pain from even elementary school of adults in my life trying to force me to be more feminine. I can only imagine that being trans, is that pain but so much worse. I’m sorry the world is the way it is. I want you and other trans people to be able to love yourselves and to be comfortable in who you are without fear for your safety. I have to speak up against some of my coworkers all the time for their transphobia. It’s exhausting and upsetting to hear their hate for people they have never met.
As someone who uses a catheter permanently because I have crap genetics and haven’t been able to pee for over a decade - I can confirm they can be really uncomfortable (especially if your body is like mine and every so often gives birth to the damn thing complete with filled bulb, still intact!)
My most serious surgery was a thyroidectomy ( diagnosed with Graves Disease/ Graves Eye Disease) and it was literally a life saving surgery. I was so happy to be there because they were going to make me better, and the simple act of a diagnosis meant people stopped gaslighting me about being lazy. I came out of surgery in a state of Bliss that lasted for over 3 months before it started to dissipate. I also had an odd complication in that I had a reaction to the anticoagulant and they had togo back in to clean it out and change the anti-coagulant and put in a drainage tube ( this was sticking out of my throat). I know you get a lot of ignorance thrown at you all the time, but surgeries gelp us live the safest and best versions of ourselves. All surgeries have potential for complication and regret, but rarely do we go into them without a lot of thought and considerations that it is the best course of action. I am grateful that everything eventually went well for you, as I only found your content a few years ago and the 2 of you, along with many of your friends, have helped me become a kinder and more knowledgeable person.
edits for spelling because my neuropathy has made my hand numb, and luck has made my keyboard unkind
You had the most insane glow-up ❤️
Transphobes be like 'they never tell us what can go wrong'...
Right? 🌟glamorizing trans surgery🌟 lol
I absolutely love your videos!!!
God I want my gender affirming surgery so badly. This makes me nervous though because I don't have anyone I could rely on for support afterwards. I'm also in the US and things are...bonkers here. I've never been more grateful to be in California though. I hope I can arrange things soon. While the procedure I want is different and a bit obscure in the trans community, this gives me a lot of hope overall. Thank you for sharing this. I can't even imagine being comfortable in my skin...I want it so badly.
Thank you for your story I'm a nurse and I've never taken care of any patient who has had lower surgery. Really interesting to hear a patient's experience and I'm so glad that the surgery was a good, healthy thing for you.
Lmao the subtitles - "poop plasty"
Jamie's expressions throughout this video are the best thing ever 😭
As impactful freeing my top surgery was, the bottom was just the wonderful finale. I remember how I went to shower after 4 weeks of surgery and felt complete. The first time in my life. No one understands how this feels except the ones who do.
Excellent video Jamie, It was very interesting. I can't believe that is 7 years ago! Sending love to you both xx
Wow Jamie... I didnt realize how different you looked back then lol. Ive been watching you since 2016, when my son came out...now Im out and watching you lol. Its cute seeing your reactions! What is that nausea thing you were talking about?? I experience some bad stuff when I get nauseas.
The unpicking of stitches and squeezing is ridiculous. They should have given you something for that experience...Im feeling a little sick just thinking of it.
Why on earth would they ask Shaaba your blood type after they’ve already had you under anaesthesia and operated? Isn’t this something that they should have found out before the first time?!🤯 I’m terrified on your behalf.
Literally, towards the very end when you're just watching the bit where you're home, your reaction is just a lot of smiling which gives me so much hope to see. Idk if thats a weird compliment, I am sorry. It's just that there is so much discomfort in the own body which often comes with the trans experience that it fills me with so much joy and hope seeing someone happy.
First video of you that I see, and as a cis woman, hearing about the pain, made my bottoms hurt 😅 this was a very informative video and so cute to see your cringe face haha. awesome to see how you see yourself now and how this decision helped to improve yourself. xxxx from Argentina
I remember watching you through all of this and was going through my sons transition at the time and first started watching because I wanted to understand more and stayed because I adored you and Shaaba! ❤
Oh jeez..I remember when you posted the original video. I am so happy you are doing well! You are a lovely human being.
I remember this video! Its the video that led me to you, 7 years ago. How time flies!
Omg! The first food I had after one of my surgeries was a tuna sandwich! As a result I, too, can no longer eat shop bought tuna mayo lol. I also have emetophobia. This was recently challenged by my first bout of noro in decades lol. I have seen this video sooooo many times. And it's nice to hear you talk about it xx sending you love and joy