For all of you who have been worried how I've been or wondered where my journal went, I’m good. If anything, I’m just figuring out life like every other early-20’s year old. And if I have more to talk about in the future, maybe these content creator videos will be recurring series. If the video wasn’t too clear, feel free to ask questions in the comments and I’ll respond to some :) Again, thank you all for 50K. Cheers to the future!
The characteristics you outlined as "bad" for making content provides a level of relatability that drew myself and probably others in to watch your amazing content. That feeling of "I don't want to face something" is something I too have to fight each day. Finding people with a similar "weakness" makes me feel like I can push through it too; together we're all stronger.
Never compromise your happiness and peace for content. I enjoy you art and voice but it's important to me that you enjoy creating content in the first place. Don't stress too much! ❤
If I had a nickel for every pink-haired anime girl I've encountered who pours tons of love and effort into her craft and also worries a lot about how people percieve her, I'd have two nickels... ...which isn't a lot, but it's comforting to know that the hardship of being a content creature is very much a shared one. Thank you, Riifushi!
As someone who has been trying to “be a content creator” for several years now I guess this video… opens my eyes a bit…? It’s hard to describe or explain but I’ve been making videos for a LONG time now but I’ve just struggled to enjoy it. I’ve been doing the whole “making content for the sake of making content” thing for a while now but over time I’ve realized that the more I push myself to make videos, the less I enjoy making them. I’ve honestly tried to convince myself that I don’t hate doing it but this video has helped me to realize that, I really don’t like it and I shouldn’t be trying to push myself to do it just because it could be fun. Maybe one day I’ll try to videos that is just making content out of things I already enjoy, but for now, I just want to focus on doing art 😅. Thanks for helping me realize this ❤
2:19-2:55 She just like me fr fr Doesn't matter how many subscribers you have, anyone can still feel these things. Just gotta fake it till you make it, stay consistent, and improve with each video.
UA-cam can be so soul crushing sometimes. You put so much work into it and basically bare your heart to the world and often get ignored or hurt. It takes a lot out of you, you should be very proud of what you've accomplished so quickly!
I've always assumed its easier to play the content creator game when you aren't a very self aware person. You are obviously a very thoughtful and self aware person, so it may be a bit of a struggle. I'm very similar, in fact even typing comments like this I have to fight the urge to just erase it and not post it. I wonder, Is my opinion even needed? Then I think of the 1000s of commenters who will just type the first thing they think of and hit send, and I feel dumb for being so self conscious. Perhaps It's the same for making videos etc. the world will be no worse off for your contributions to it. : )
I'm glad that you made this video and shared your thoughts on these topics :0 I see myself in some of the things you've stated here, and from what I've heard it does seem to be a silent issue that many many content creators experience a lot of us don't speak up about our feelings on these kinds of things, and I feel it's very admirable and brave of you to be so open here thank you for doing what you do !!
I love when content creators do these little out of the “normal” type of content, and share their experiences and that’s not everything’s perfect. I really appreciate you because I was able to relate a lot and I’m sure other UA-camrs too:,) when you do content creation it’s like a whole new world is opened for you. and at first it would be really overwhelming and you’ll make a lot of mistakes, but also learn from them as you progress. I do art and I really wanted to share it with the world, but sometimes so many overwhelming things happen that you forget why you opened your channel in the first place. Overthinking the littlest things and comparing can also really damage your health, You just need to understand that there are many many people out there, and people tend to idolize those who seem better than them but nobody is truly perfect at all and having those high expectations sent to you constantly can be really overwhelming. The same as when your first video gets viral you automatically set those expectations to your entire channel, so instead of improving step by step you need to set up those high expectations on every single video and it can get really overwhelming. that’s why it’s important to take breaks and understand that nobody’s perfect and has it easier than the other. But that was just me sharing my opinion and as always you’re amazing riifushi, and please never give up:)
"Sometimes it feels like I wlhave the worst characteristics for being a content creator" *lists traits that I know are in other content creators* You're doing all right!!!! Your best is your best. Nobody can give 100% all the time-then there would be nothing left. I wish you luck (and I hope to see you grow)!!
so relatable! And yeah I think that is sound advice to get some part of your life together before creating content on the internet lol. And this applies to non-content creators as well but not being chronically online too -- makes mental health wayyyy worse
If you put in perspective that 50k people can fill a stadium, then that’s no small amount by any means and we all gotta start somewhere. I feel like most of us are here because we find something about your videos that we enjoy over other creators so just keep doing what you do! Congrats on 50k!🎉🥳
It’s ironic but I feel like I relate to you quite a bit XD I’ve always really looked up to creators I watch online and longed a lil for the creative outlet and sense of connection/sense of closeness with others they seemingly often have. I’m not too confident in my own personality though, am a private person, and sharing parts of myself online/as a content creator is something I would like to try to do more but being judged by others is also so scary. I’m totally rambling but just saying you’re not alone in how you feel. Even if validation needs to come from within, I think you’re super talented and most definitely do have a personality and stories worth sharing here (as much as you’re comfortable though of course). And even if social media is a snapshot, I also don’t feel like you have to share every detail of your life to still be able to be your authentic self here. I hope you can make the most of it and have fun! :)
"I always wish i had a hot voice" your voice is so nice! It's the main reason why your first video caught my attention, and why i put your videos on the background when i do something else. Even more so, if you'd ever became a streamer, I'd be sure to catch up to your steams or at least listen to vods. Don't underestimate the power of VOICE >:D
9:13 Awww Riifushi you already have a really nice voice. “Hot” is relative. Someone could think some voice is hot while another person might think differently. I think your voice is already really nice. Some people already probably think you DO have a hot voice.
Honestly I'd be content if your channel were just these experimentalesque kind of videos you have been making until now and I think I'm not the only one who feels this way. They all feel so disconnected from the rest of youtube even though it's a recurring topic in them and I find it very calming. I feel like whatever you come up with decide to do will mantain the same isolated feel. Maybe this is not that much of an answer to your question but it's definitely something to keep in mind
I know you mentioned you think over of the content you post will be okay even if your your enemy saw it but I respect that you still chose to share some things about your mental health and thought process! As for the “what next?” for your channel can be seen as an exciting thing! There’s so many things to do and the challenge being what you chose to make 😂
Riifushi's content, storytelling is something I admire. As fellow creator, I've decide from very long time + being online for a while I decide *NOT TO* tell too much about myself. Everyone aren't worth my time, knowing who I am (sometimes these thoughts are good but of course: comes with cons). Thank you making this video, and you fellow humans out there (being chronically online or not) just remember we all mind share similar thoughts, but again being your own individual is good but also having supporting community matters. Please respect at least (stranger's wise) someone's boundaries because end of the day if you two (personally) would like to know each other it will eventually.
Glad you took the time to figure some things out. It's a lot better to realize you don't really have the answer than to desperately search for it only to find yourself burnt out and lifeless
Hey Riifushi! I also saw Doug Doug’s video and got your recommended after I watched it. You both helped push me to finally give UA-cam a serious try ❤ Hoping the best for you 🙌
i’m really glad i found your channel! i’m always excited to see your next upload. i wish i could tell you why. maybe because as a small creator, i enjoy watching other projects out there or maybe it’s because we’re both in our early 20s. no matter the reason, i enjoy your stuff and enjoy hearing/seeing what you get up to and where your passion lays. making stuff alone can always be stressful and overwhelming at times, if you ever want someone to bump ideas with or just someone to talk to, i’m more than happy to lend a helping hand (only if you’re okay with it of course). please continue to just be yourself and do what you love!
Hey Riifushi just wanted to comment since I felt this video a bit too personally hahaha. UA-cam certainly is a weird space and making content creation both turns your life upside down but also changes surprisingly little about yourself which I suppose is what makes it weird. If you’re anything like me, you probably thought when you were younger that if you became a successful content creator you’d be ‘all figured out’ or ‘a better version of yourself’ but in reality you’re still you, still young and growing. When I was a teenager I had a person close to me become a content creator online and it kind of broke the illusion of parasocialness, they were still the same person, not a perfect UA-camr or anything but I still wanted to make videos funnily enough. And whilst I’m not a big content creator or anything, I’ve started making videos around the same time as you this year and found some success so I can understand your thought process. I also came to the same conclusion that while yes my channel may be under the story time umbrella, I really just want to make videos about what I’m passionate about, enjoy and want to share with others. And over these past few months I’ve certainly grown; I’m better at sticking and finishing things and more organised! I guess what I want to say is that you’ve gotten successful for a reason, a large majority of your audience is here because they resonated with you and we’ll be happy to see whatever stuff you want to make! Best of luck with it all and congrats on 50k!
I've a very similar personality to what you say at 2:19, so I'll just share how I handled it, maybe that might help you think if you ever read that lol "Don't wanna be the center of attention, but seeks praise" ; that one really did me dirty back at school. Was quite talented at guitar, "putting my soul into the music I played" as one could say, but I felt like no one really understood it, so I was like "one day, they'll see how great I am", excepted the day never came cuz I didn't wanna show off, since it would've likely just looked annoying. Around college and further, I also kept acting to please others, to minimize social risk. At that point, I was very angry and rather depressive. Overall, because I forced myself to hide everything about me, especially my desires, and I was really mad how I had a personality that I considered pertinent, but no one would be interested into it (I mean how could they if I kept hiding it), and instead reduce myself into bs mainstream social interactions just to look fine. The problem is, I started snapping more and more often because of that. After a couple really bad moments, I thought about setting up a "thoughts filter", like for everything I'd say or assume, I'd check if it contains any bias (ex. "This dude sucks" isn't pertinent, because it's an opinion rather than subjective comment). Indirectly, this helped to get rid of my emotions, since this is what I mainly wanted. Emotions are kinda mostly biases, at the end, and I really didn't want them in my life anymore. These were so harming, manipulative and restrictive, and I think I already didn't care about happiness. At 2:39, you say you rely on others to feel proud, which, for having been there, I personally think it's quite dangerous. First, pride by itself is risky imo. It feels great at first when I make something good, but I often end up in denial, feared of not being able to reach that point again even with more experience. Say, I could sometimes get tilted in rythm games when I can't beat a high score I made weeks ago. Also, relying on others in general is very biased, mainly because people hating your content will mostly not stay around just to tell you how it sucks, so you'd end up always having mostly positive feedback. Overall, I personally chose to put my emotions aside in life. It's not about just rejecting them, since it can end up exploding like I did before, but rather analyzing them, consider whether they are pertinent, and just not do what they "tell me" if I don't think I rationally should. In my experience, even though emotions get more quiet as I keep considering and denying their impulses, they never completely go away, so I'm always prone to raging on Valorant if I don't stay self-conscious about my thoughts. I'm really not into "your happiness is your priority" at 12:25. I think happiness is like an algorythm and can be exploited. First, I think "real" happiness is a matter of contrast, like, I'd really enjoy ice cream after a burning day at work, but it wouldn't be as enjoyable if I stayed home gaming all day and eating that. It'd instead be a fallacy like "Ice cream = happy, I eating ice cream, I = happy", where the satisfaction is myself "assuming" that I'm happy rather than experiencing happiness. Gets kinda complicated, so better to think about that on your own. Tho I could probably trick myself into being constantly happy by keeping my life into a simple perpetual loop of happiness, and I don't really want that. Even though my emotions and fears sometimes say otherwise, I'd prefer experiencing more stuff in life at the expense of potential happiness. In my experience (well I'm only 22), people growing older while valuing happiness tend to ignore many parts of reality, like "yea I don't play fighting games, I suck at those haha". Maybe it's kinda like that at 3:53 where you say you'd rather keep your journal to yourself rather than exposing yourself to potentially helpful criticism More specifically about your journal, this was my favorite thing about you ngl. People online overall seem scared to open their intimacy to potentially unpleasant criticism, and I loved your channel for being open about your own thoughts. I thought rather late that, while I might get pleased by feeling better than others, I really underestimated how happy others would be by seeing my weaknesses. In fact, I've really been into girls ASMR roleplays. That genre on its own is quite comforting to me, just because still in 2024, it's mostly super lame to listen to roleplays rather than meeting people, so it feels nice to see others into this lame stuff. But my point is, while many channels tend to play "perfect girls that would always love you" (like a streamer who only shows what they're proud of), there are some that just depict characters sharing their own personality, weaknesses and strenghts, and this kinda made me realize how comforting it is to actually "feel" social interactions, real or not, with someone, in a climate where both parties could share anything about them without the fear of being judged. Roleplays make it easier tho. In an audio, the scripted character can't really worry about what listener would think of them lol. Everyone online can hide their weaknesses, so it's very easy to end up wanting to hide mine too to avoid looking like I suck. This climate feels really tense, like a strategic game rather than genuine interaction. And I think your journal has a bit of that "I share all I did for this without hiding the bad sides", which makes you look like a real human just like me rather than a perfect faked persona. There's a channel named Serena Valentine, which (while often making spicy content) is incredibly talkative about herself and all the thoughts and experiences she go through, and I really love it. It's like online, everyone tries to stay in an illusion of control, or hide anything of them that could be used against them, but this person really embraces the doubts and questions of life and openly shares them. I feel like society overall is encouraging denial behaviours, "do what others tell you to", "be happy", "don't think too much", "don't show your bad side", and while it's healthier for those who have trouble dealing with their emotions, I felt really lonely just thinking about life by myself while everyone seem to be afraid to do so, so I'm always very pleased when I witness someone else just sharing their thoughts and theories, as a random person rather than an expert. ...Idk, some parts of this might not make much sense, but I hope this message will help some people in their life or whatever...
OMG I relate sooo much with you :’) for a moment i was also worried that you shared all this cuz it feels like my own vulnerable thoughts are expressed on the internet. but then im kinda glad knowing someone feels the same way i do about content, sharing thoughts and parasocial relations. for now imo youre good at sharing those deep thoughts that people dont usually say out loud but it’s definitely a break from all the highlight reels of social media
It's funny how you touch on parasocial relationships and I'm here like, "98% of what she's saying sounds exactly like me gASP" XD I absolutely agree that happiness is #1 priority in anyone's like (mental and physical health being a big part of it) Thanks so much for making this video as a boost for others/yourself. It's videos like these with genuine care put into them that gives me the lil push I need. As an animaticer, I've been hard at work making video buffers >:3 and plan to post sometime this year. Since I do love art, I hope that'll come through most of all ^-^ Anyone who's working on themselves and or towards a goal right now, go you! We're in this together
People watch your videos because they like YOUR content, not other’s content. So if you’re ever afraid that people won’t like a video posted then they can just not watch the video and if they do like it then you’ve entertained them.
This channel gives me hope and inspires me to continue posting things online. I have a similar personality to the traits that you mention having in the video. I've felt like these personality traits are detrimental when it comes to gaining a following (or it would at least be easier if I were more outgoing and didn't care so much about how people feel about me), but watching someone who has similar traits gain a following so quickly makes it clear to me that other things are more important. I would be lying if I said that I didn't care about getting popular, because I do, but that isn't my only goal. I want to have fun and I want to get better at drawing and animating. If I can get 2 out of 3 of my goals then the effort will be worth it. And who knows maybe one day I will get more popular too. Anyway, Thanks for sharing with us. Keep on doing the things that you want to do.
You're definitely on the right track! It's just acting like a retired youtuber, just do what you like because you like it! I feel that's the best way to enjoy UA-cam. Also nice lagtrain reference XD
This video is so well done! I've felt similar too as I haven't put out much storytimes yet on my channel but it's true that your happiness does matter as long as you are doing something that you want or been wanting to do. The hot voice was pretty understandable but your voice sounds so nice and chill ( almost like asmr) 💕 Congratulations on getting 50k!!! 🎉🎉✨️
You always inspire me, this is just an inspiring thing, you have already hiot 51,100 100,000 is not far now! You need not stress, things will just work out!
OMG this is everything I've needed to hear congrats on 50k subs! It's crazy! I'm glad that you were able to open up a bit on your channel. Life is never full of perfections, and sometimes we wish for things that would change us completely- when we're the only ones that are the best at being ourselves. I wanted to restart my channel a while back, but I had no idea how to go about it (especially since making your first video is like drawing on the first page of your sketchbook) And of course, I never had the bright idea of maybe-- "hey! why don't you just do what you normally do, and post that?" until I saw this video. I've always been in the mindset that channels had to be a set genre of one thing, but for someone who does a mixture of various things in my life, it was difficult to comprehend. My motivation kept detoriating over the years. Very eye opening!
Congrats on reaching 50k subscribers! I originally found your channel when the youtube algorithm launched your first video into the stratosphere, and I am glad it did; I really like your artstyle and it has inspired me to start learning to draw. Your content is quite fun to watch and you deserve all the recognition you are getting and more to come.
No actual question, just wanted to say that I've been working on my first video before you've posted your first. Despite the fact that I've got nothing to show, I've asked myself some of the same questions you have. I've got to say that even if your journal isn't public anymore, your idea of doing one inspired me to do the same. At the end of the day, I know that what I want to do is simple: I want to do something that I'm proud of, something that I don't regret putting my effort into. The fact that what I'm doing takes much longer than most is something that sometimes makes me question myself, but similarly to how you put it, I know that I wouldn't be happy if I put things out for the sake of putting things out. No clue what you decide to do in the future, but hope that you'll be able to keep saying the same. You say that you're no one special, but it's your strength, really.
Coming from someone struggling with finding the day to day drive to keep up their writing hobby, its nice to find a fresh channel that I can relate that to.
I watch your videos cause they're candid and your art is cute. I like cute and innocent things and I admire your (and other people's) courage to post things you know aren't perfect.
2:20 jesus christ, as a 16 year old that's been on the internet for most of my life (sadly) I've never felt like I related so much to anyone lmao, I'm praying those feelings will at least mellow out soon for ya.
Yay new vid I think what your friend Rita said is rly important, you're the most important part of your life. Don't pressure yourself to create something and just do as you want, I'm sure most of the people watching this video will stay around no matter what you'll do. Also great drawings as always, loved especially the one with you holding the book Have a great day bye bye
As a person that has always struggled to tell stories, I would recommend just trying. Just like making art, start with retelling others stories, and eventually you will be able to make your own!❤ I love your content and don't forget to enjoy your life!
I’ve been trying content creation since I was a child. I’ve archived videos I made 10 years ago. Last year was the first time I realized I could actually make this possible. Throughout all of my studying and analyzing I’ve learned a lot about the pros and cons of content creation. For me, it is my life dream and goal. I still feel confused and insecure at times but I know this is my true dream. I’m inspired by your approach and hope things get easier for you to handle. I think a good community in your niche is important/helpful too. Best of luck to you !!
As a short time watcher i've really enjoyed watching your vids. I think you are doing great and just keep doing what you want/like to do, as its really impressive te get 50k within such a short time. And as Rita said: your happiness is your priorty. 👍
Dang I'm with you with the unbelievable growth. You had just 100 subs not too long ago, and now look at you. It sounds like it's been a struggle to learn, but it seems you're getting a handle on it. Congrats!
I’m going to say it even though I’m just a online person, I’m proud of you I think you’re amazing honestly you’ve made me smile watching your content and im grateful so with all that I want to say… Thank you your amazing❤️
been on ur discord for a while, after finally finding your yt i gotta say you defo got a bright future, your gonna be a crazy good youtuber and go to cons one day, and i can say i have been a fan since 50k subs
Hey, u just want to say, i want be creator too. But... i got burn out, my vids not grown so much, i have not so great numbers of viewer... and lack of commentary is kill my wish to continue, i will be doing .exe montage in some other time but i keep shifting it farther and farther... so, i want just say it to you, i'm not proud(cuz i not your parent or friend of yours) but i'm very happy that you choose to show your human side, that you show how you struggle. I'm sincere fan of your art, so, keep up there, i 100% i'm not one in boat that cheer you for your art and your content )
Ok ok, you have to be trolling cause you KNOW your voice is hot. I’ve actually never heard anything quite like it. You have this grittiness to it that just HITS my ears in the best way possible. Your voice and the delivery in which you speak might even be the #1 reason why I’ll continue to watch you.
I really respect you for being able to talk so frankly about your mindset, it's difficult enough to figure out your weaknesses and aspirations in the first place so I can't imagine how it feels to reveal them to the internet at large. I can see that you put your full heart and soul into your videos and I'm sure all your subs feel the same way! Looking forward to seeing what you put out in the future, 100k soon! 🎉
I think to SwankyBox's video "Why UA-cam is like an MMORPG" which also has solid advice along the lines of this kind of video, Either for Riifushi tho also for anyone intrested to get into content creation; Funny, I so happen to be thinking about this topic from another perspective that I wrote a lengthy message to my friend group, my conclusion is as follows from the point of view of also fawning in relation to the term in autistic and ADHD circles, where I felt: - "And ultimately if something depends on sacrificing my own well being and happiness to succeed, then maybe I am being too accommodating and should let X Y or Z thing fail or fall apart so that I can be more ready to respond in a healthier and more appropriate way." Where my own point of view is that if making content takes priority over your own self and happiness or identity then it defeats its own point for existing. Hence the importance of say names, and like defining what you mean to yourself than let an algorithm or an audience take that control from oneself as a creator. This is to say to create but don't let the addiction of attention or fear of attention control who you want to become, But with that knowing who you want to become is the hardest thing to define.
Hello Riifushi, congrats on 50k! It’s good that you took time to figure things out for yourself. Mental health and happiness should always come first. I can’t wait to see where this journey takes us all :D
The author thing hits home gonna be honest. I'm looking forward to when i get out there, but I need to build the self confidence for my own work Also your voice is pretty
thanks for the Video, congratulations on having the courage to show your weak side even though there are chances of bad people appearing in the comments, those who feel like you at least know that they are not alone in this, myself included.
I think that to myself all the time when I remember... I have some viewers! AND subscribers? it's a pretty good feeling when you realize that there are some people out there that think your content is actually worth watching even if you don't understand it yourself, I'm still managing my channel as a hobby, but I have put a little extra work into it's LOOOOOORE cause i'm having fun doing it 🤷🏽♀️😅
Congratz on the 50k subs. If you wanna try out story telling you could try out with short/flash sort of stories first. Personally I would go with fantasy settings, whether they're comedic, serious, or tragoc. I generally prefer fantasy, but that's just me. But, I have heard that even story telling through drawing/animating might require a bit of knowledge with writing experience, like, prose. I don't know, just thought I'd mention it, just something I heard a bit about once. Good luck, though.
Hey, no matter what happens or what decision you take, we'll always hear you out (unless you do something actually really bad like murder or something)
For all of you who have been worried how I've been or wondered where my journal went, I’m good. If anything, I’m just figuring out life like every other early-20’s year old. And if I have more to talk about in the future, maybe these content creator videos will be recurring series. If the video wasn’t too clear, feel free to ask questions in the comments and I’ll respond to some :)
Again, thank you all for 50K. Cheers to the future!
Keep up all the good work! Your style of video is awesome. We are all here to support you. We love you Rifushi💗
The characteristics you outlined as "bad" for making content provides a level of relatability that drew myself and probably others in to watch your amazing content. That feeling of "I don't want to face something" is something I too have to fight each day. Finding people with a similar "weakness" makes me feel like I can push through it too; together we're all stronger.
Never compromise your happiness and peace for content. I enjoy you art and voice but it's important to me that you enjoy creating content in the first place. Don't stress too much! ❤
If I had a nickel for every pink-haired anime girl I've encountered who pours tons of love and effort into her craft and also worries a lot about how people percieve her, I'd have two nickels...
...which isn't a lot, but it's comforting to know that the hardship of being a content creature is very much a shared one. Thank you, Riifushi!
Who the second one?
Riifushi the rock
Ironmouse is my guess
When you want to become a story time animator, but then you realize you need to tell stories.. AND you need to animate..
As someone who has been trying to “be a content creator” for several years now I guess this video… opens my eyes a bit…? It’s hard to describe or explain but I’ve been making videos for a LONG time now but I’ve just struggled to enjoy it. I’ve been doing the whole “making content for the sake of making content” thing for a while now but over time I’ve realized that the more I push myself to make videos, the less I enjoy making them. I’ve honestly tried to convince myself that I don’t hate doing it but this video has helped me to realize that, I really don’t like it and I shouldn’t be trying to push myself to do it just because it could be fun. Maybe one day I’ll try to videos that is just making content out of things I already enjoy, but for now, I just want to focus on doing art 😅. Thanks for helping me realize this ❤
It's also important to remember it's okay to take time off from creating in general. Doing any art can be mentally taxing if done in excess.
Thank you for saying this too!! :') Please take care and enjoy creating art! :D
2:19-2:55 She just like me fr fr
Doesn't matter how many subscribers you have, anyone can still feel these things. Just gotta fake it till you make it, stay consistent, and improve with each video.
omg hi king of skill
UA-cam can be so soul crushing sometimes. You put so much work into it and basically bare your heart to the world and often get ignored or hurt. It takes a lot out of you, you should be very proud of what you've accomplished so quickly!
How did you already hit 50k?!
Congratulations Riifu your channel has gotten so big with just a few videos!! Next step will be world domination!
"I have made a severe and continuous lapse in my judgement.
i fel down :("
I've always assumed its easier to play the content creator game when you aren't a very self aware person. You are obviously a very thoughtful and self aware person, so it may be a bit of a struggle. I'm very similar, in fact even typing comments like this I have to fight the urge to just erase it and not post it. I wonder, Is my opinion even needed? Then I think of the 1000s of commenters who will just type the first thing they think of and hit send, and I feel dumb for being so self conscious. Perhaps It's the same for making videos etc. the world will be no worse off for your contributions to it. : )
I'm glad that you made this video and shared your thoughts on these topics :0
I see myself in some of the things you've stated here, and from what I've heard it does seem to be a silent issue that many many content creators experience
a lot of us don't speak up about our feelings on these kinds of things, and I feel it's very admirable and brave of you to be so open here
thank you for doing what you do !!
DUDE I LOVE UR MUSIC
Hiiii azali :333
Omg Azali I love you I saw u in the server and freaked out
I love when content creators do these little out of the “normal” type of content, and share their experiences and that’s not everything’s perfect. I really appreciate you because I was able to relate a lot and I’m sure other UA-camrs too:,) when you do content creation it’s like a whole new world is opened for you. and at first it would be really overwhelming and you’ll make a lot of mistakes, but also learn from them as you progress. I do art and I really wanted to share it with the world, but sometimes so many overwhelming things happen that you forget why you opened your channel in the first place. Overthinking the littlest things and comparing can also really damage your health, You just need to understand that there are many many people out there, and people tend to idolize those who seem better than them but nobody is truly perfect at all and having those high expectations sent to you constantly can be really overwhelming. The same as when your first video gets viral you automatically set those expectations to your entire channel, so instead of improving step by step you need to set up those high expectations on every single video and it can get really overwhelming. that’s why it’s important to take breaks and understand that nobody’s perfect and has it easier than the other. But that was just me sharing my opinion and as always you’re amazing riifushi, and please never give up:)
Gotta love it when people get real
"Sometimes it feels like I wlhave the worst characteristics for being a content creator"
*lists traits that I know are in other content creators*
You're doing all right!!!! Your best is your best. Nobody can give 100% all the time-then there would be nothing left. I wish you luck (and I hope to see you grow)!!
so relatable! And yeah I think that is sound advice to get some part of your life together before creating content on the internet lol. And this applies to non-content creators as well but not being chronically online too -- makes mental health wayyyy worse
If you put in perspective that 50k people can fill a stadium, then that’s no small amount by any means and we all gotta start somewhere. I feel like most of us are here because we find something about your videos that we enjoy over other creators so just keep doing what you do! Congrats on 50k!🎉🥳
It’s ironic but I feel like I relate to you quite a bit XD I’ve always really looked up to creators I watch online and longed a lil for the creative outlet and sense of connection/sense of closeness with others they seemingly often have. I’m not too confident in my own personality though, am a private person, and sharing parts of myself online/as a content creator is something I would like to try to do more but being judged by others is also so scary. I’m totally rambling but just saying you’re not alone in how you feel. Even if validation needs to come from within, I think you’re super talented and most definitely do have a personality and stories worth sharing here (as much as you’re comfortable though of course). And even if social media is a snapshot, I also don’t feel like you have to share every detail of your life to still be able to be your authentic self here. I hope you can make the most of it and have fun! :)
"I always wish i had a hot voice" your voice is so nice! It's the main reason why your first video caught my attention, and why i put your videos on the background when i do something else.
Even more so, if you'd ever became a streamer, I'd be sure to catch up to your steams or at least listen to vods. Don't underestimate the power of VOICE >:D
Oh definitely yeah i agree with this. “Hot” is relative. She really does have a nice voice
It's soft and calming voice. It fits her style of drawing very well)
9:13 Awww Riifushi you already have a really nice voice. “Hot” is relative. Someone could think some voice is hot while another person might think differently. I think your voice is already really nice. Some people already probably think you DO have a hot voice.
Honestly I'd be content if your channel were just these experimentalesque kind of videos you have been making until now and I think I'm not the only one who feels this way. They all feel so disconnected from the rest of youtube even though it's a recurring topic in them and I find it very calming. I feel like whatever you come up with decide to do will mantain the same isolated feel. Maybe this is not that much of an answer to your question but it's definitely something to keep in mind
I know you mentioned you think over of the content you post will be okay even if your your enemy saw it but I respect that you still chose to share some things about your mental health and thought process! As for the “what next?” for your channel can be seen as an exciting thing! There’s so many things to do and the challenge being what you chose to make 😂
I love your artstyle, plus your voice did attract everyone here with your looks :)
Riifushi's content, storytelling is something I admire. As fellow creator, I've decide from very long time + being online for a while I decide *NOT TO* tell too much about myself. Everyone aren't worth my time, knowing who I am (sometimes these thoughts are good but of course: comes with cons).
Thank you making this video, and you fellow humans out there (being chronically online or not) just remember we all mind share similar thoughts, but again being your own individual is good but also having supporting community matters. Please respect at least (stranger's wise) someone's boundaries because end of the day if you two (personally) would like to know each other it will eventually.
Glad you took the time to figure some things out. It's a lot better to realize you don't really have the answer than to desperately search for it only to find yourself burnt out and lifeless
Hey Riifushi! I also saw Doug Doug’s video and got your recommended after I watched it. You both helped push me to finally give UA-cam a serious try ❤
Hoping the best for you 🙌
i’m really glad i found your channel! i’m always excited to see your next upload. i wish i could tell you why. maybe because as a small creator, i enjoy watching other projects out there or maybe it’s because we’re both in our early 20s. no matter the reason, i enjoy your stuff and enjoy hearing/seeing what you get up to and where your passion lays. making stuff alone can always be stressful and overwhelming at times, if you ever want someone to bump ideas with or just someone to talk to, i’m more than happy to lend a helping hand (only if you’re okay with it of course). please continue to just be yourself and do what you love!
Hey Riifushi just wanted to comment since I felt this video a bit too personally hahaha.
UA-cam certainly is a weird space and making content creation both turns your life upside down but also changes surprisingly little about yourself which I suppose is what makes it weird. If you’re anything like me, you probably thought when you were younger that if you became a successful content creator you’d be ‘all figured out’ or ‘a better version of yourself’ but in reality you’re still you, still young and growing.
When I was a teenager I had a person close to me become a content creator online and it kind of broke the illusion of parasocialness, they were still the same person, not a perfect UA-camr or anything but I still wanted to make videos funnily enough.
And whilst I’m not a big content creator or anything, I’ve started making videos around the same time as you this year and found some success so I can understand your thought process. I also came to the same conclusion that while yes my channel may be under the story time umbrella, I really just want to make videos about what I’m passionate about, enjoy and want to share with others. And over these past few months I’ve certainly grown; I’m better at sticking and finishing things and more organised!
I guess what I want to say is that you’ve gotten successful for a reason, a large majority of your audience is here because they resonated with you and we’ll be happy to see whatever stuff you want to make! Best of luck with it all and congrats on 50k!
11:03 this reference is awesome
inabakumori mentioned 🗣️🔥🔥
I've a very similar personality to what you say at 2:19, so I'll just share how I handled it, maybe that might help you think if you ever read that lol
"Don't wanna be the center of attention, but seeks praise" ; that one really did me dirty back at school. Was quite talented at guitar, "putting my soul into the music I played" as one could say, but I felt like no one really understood it, so I was like "one day, they'll see how great I am", excepted the day never came cuz I didn't wanna show off, since it would've likely just looked annoying.
Around college and further, I also kept acting to please others, to minimize social risk.
At that point, I was very angry and rather depressive. Overall, because I forced myself to hide everything about me, especially my desires, and I was really mad how I had a personality that I considered pertinent, but no one would be interested into it (I mean how could they if I kept hiding it), and instead reduce myself into bs mainstream social interactions just to look fine.
The problem is, I started snapping more and more often because of that.
After a couple really bad moments, I thought about setting up a "thoughts filter", like for everything I'd say or assume, I'd check if it contains any bias (ex. "This dude sucks" isn't pertinent, because it's an opinion rather than subjective comment).
Indirectly, this helped to get rid of my emotions, since this is what I mainly wanted. Emotions are kinda mostly biases, at the end, and I really didn't want them in my life anymore. These were so harming, manipulative and restrictive, and I think I already didn't care about happiness.
At 2:39, you say you rely on others to feel proud, which, for having been there, I personally think it's quite dangerous.
First, pride by itself is risky imo. It feels great at first when I make something good, but I often end up in denial, feared of not being able to reach that point again even with more experience. Say, I could sometimes get tilted in rythm games when I can't beat a high score I made weeks ago.
Also, relying on others in general is very biased, mainly because people hating your content will mostly not stay around just to tell you how it sucks, so you'd end up always having mostly positive feedback.
Overall, I personally chose to put my emotions aside in life. It's not about just rejecting them, since it can end up exploding like I did before, but rather analyzing them, consider whether they are pertinent, and just not do what they "tell me" if I don't think I rationally should.
In my experience, even though emotions get more quiet as I keep considering and denying their impulses, they never completely go away, so I'm always prone to raging on Valorant if I don't stay self-conscious about my thoughts.
I'm really not into "your happiness is your priority" at 12:25. I think happiness is like an algorythm and can be exploited.
First, I think "real" happiness is a matter of contrast, like, I'd really enjoy ice cream after a burning day at work, but it wouldn't be as enjoyable if I stayed home gaming all day and eating that. It'd instead be a fallacy like "Ice cream = happy, I eating ice cream, I = happy", where the satisfaction is myself "assuming" that I'm happy rather than experiencing happiness. Gets kinda complicated, so better to think about that on your own.
Tho I could probably trick myself into being constantly happy by keeping my life into a simple perpetual loop of happiness, and I don't really want that. Even though my emotions and fears sometimes say otherwise, I'd prefer experiencing more stuff in life at the expense of potential happiness. In my experience (well I'm only 22), people growing older while valuing happiness tend to ignore many parts of reality, like "yea I don't play fighting games, I suck at those haha".
Maybe it's kinda like that at 3:53 where you say you'd rather keep your journal to yourself rather than exposing yourself to potentially helpful criticism
More specifically about your journal, this was my favorite thing about you ngl.
People online overall seem scared to open their intimacy to potentially unpleasant criticism, and I loved your channel for being open about your own thoughts.
I thought rather late that, while I might get pleased by feeling better than others, I really underestimated how happy others would be by seeing my weaknesses.
In fact, I've really been into girls ASMR roleplays. That genre on its own is quite comforting to me, just because still in 2024, it's mostly super lame to listen to roleplays rather than meeting people, so it feels nice to see others into this lame stuff.
But my point is, while many channels tend to play "perfect girls that would always love you" (like a streamer who only shows what they're proud of), there are some that just depict characters sharing their own personality, weaknesses and strenghts, and this kinda made me realize how comforting it is to actually "feel" social interactions, real or not, with someone, in a climate where both parties could share anything about them without the fear of being judged.
Roleplays make it easier tho. In an audio, the scripted character can't really worry about what listener would think of them lol.
Everyone online can hide their weaknesses, so it's very easy to end up wanting to hide mine too to avoid looking like I suck.
This climate feels really tense, like a strategic game rather than genuine interaction.
And I think your journal has a bit of that "I share all I did for this without hiding the bad sides", which makes you look like a real human just like me rather than a perfect faked persona.
There's a channel named Serena Valentine, which (while often making spicy content) is incredibly talkative about herself and all the thoughts and experiences she go through, and I really love it. It's like online, everyone tries to stay in an illusion of control, or hide anything of them that could be used against them, but this person really embraces the doubts and questions of life and openly shares them.
I feel like society overall is encouraging denial behaviours, "do what others tell you to", "be happy", "don't think too much", "don't show your bad side", and while it's healthier for those who have trouble dealing with their emotions, I felt really lonely just thinking about life by myself while everyone seem to be afraid to do so, so I'm always very pleased when I witness someone else just sharing their thoughts and theories, as a random person rather than an expert.
...Idk, some parts of this might not make much sense, but I hope this message will help some people in their life or whatever...
I too wish I had a hot voice 😂 I think you have the right mindset around UA-cam. Keep doing what you're doing. You're doing great!
OMG I relate sooo much with you :’) for a moment i was also worried that you shared all this cuz it feels like my own vulnerable thoughts are expressed on the internet. but then im kinda glad knowing someone feels the same way i do about content, sharing thoughts and parasocial relations. for now imo youre good at sharing those deep thoughts that people dont usually say out loud but it’s definitely a break from all the highlight reels of social media
Regardless congrats Riifu!!! And of course take car of yourself !!!
This was such an open, authentic video. Totally relate, and it was good hearing your thoughts. Makes me think about the content *I* want to create.
It's funny how you touch on parasocial relationships and I'm here like, "98% of what she's saying sounds exactly like me gASP" XD I absolutely agree that happiness is #1 priority in anyone's like (mental and physical health being a big part of it)
Thanks so much for making this video as a boost for others/yourself. It's videos like these with genuine care put into them that gives me the lil push I need. As an animaticer, I've been hard at work making video buffers >:3 and plan to post sometime this year. Since I do love art, I hope that'll come through most of all ^-^
Anyone who's working on themselves and or towards a goal right now, go you! We're in this together
I’m glad to have stuck around since the first video and I can’t wait to see what the future holds for you. Congrats on 50k.
People watch your videos because they like YOUR content, not other’s content. So if you’re ever afraid that people won’t like a video posted then they can just not watch the video and if they do like it then you’ve entertained them.
This channel gives me hope and inspires me to continue posting things online. I have a similar personality to the traits that you mention having in the video. I've felt like these personality traits are detrimental when it comes to gaining a following (or it would at least be easier if I were more outgoing and didn't care so much about how people feel about me), but watching someone who has similar traits gain a following so quickly makes it clear to me that other things are more important. I would be lying if I said that I didn't care about getting popular, because I do, but that isn't my only goal. I want to have fun and I want to get better at drawing and animating. If I can get 2 out of 3 of my goals then the effort will be worth it. And who knows maybe one day I will get more popular too.
Anyway,
Thanks for sharing with us. Keep on doing the things that you want to do.
Congratulations 🎉 on the 50K! Ever since the first one you've been great!
You have a nice voice! And you art style is so refined, and cohesive. Its incredible
Congratulations on 50K Riifushi, not many people have grown in just three months
god i love your music choice
You're definitely on the right track! It's just acting like a retired youtuber, just do what you like because you like it! I feel that's the best way to enjoy UA-cam.
Also nice lagtrain reference XD
I'm here to see you make stuff you llike to do, so I'm on board! Best of luck!
This video is so well done! I've felt similar too as I haven't put out much storytimes yet on my channel but it's true that your happiness does matter as long as you are doing something that you want or been wanting to do. The hot voice was pretty understandable but your voice sounds so nice and chill ( almost like asmr) 💕 Congratulations on getting 50k!!! 🎉🎉✨️
Happy to be apart of this 50k, one day I hope I can be apart of 500k or something 🎉
You always inspire me, this is just an inspiring thing, you have already hiot 51,100 100,000 is not far now! You need not stress, things will just work out!
OMG this is everything I've needed to hear
congrats on 50k subs! It's crazy! I'm glad that you were able to open up a bit on your channel. Life is never full of perfections, and sometimes we wish for things that would change us completely- when we're the only ones that are the best at being ourselves.
I wanted to restart my channel a while back, but I had no idea how to go about it (especially since making your first video is like drawing on the first page of your sketchbook) And of course, I never had the bright idea of maybe-- "hey! why don't you just do what you normally do, and post that?" until I saw this video.
I've always been in the mindset that channels had to be a set genre of one thing, but for someone who does a mixture of various things in my life, it was difficult to comprehend. My motivation kept detoriating over the years.
Very eye opening!
Animating is surprisingly easy if you just start doing it!
cheers to the future, congrats on 50k ‼
Congrats on reaching 50k subscribers! I originally found your channel when the youtube algorithm launched your first video into the stratosphere, and I am glad it did; I really like your artstyle and it has inspired me to start learning to draw. Your content is quite fun to watch and you deserve all the recognition you are getting and more to come.
No actual question, just wanted to say that I've been working on my first video before you've posted your first. Despite the fact that I've got nothing to show, I've asked myself some of the same questions you have. I've got to say that even if your journal isn't public anymore, your idea of doing one inspired me to do the same.
At the end of the day, I know that what I want to do is simple: I want to do something that I'm proud of, something that I don't regret putting my effort into. The fact that what I'm doing takes much longer than most is something that sometimes makes me question myself, but similarly to how you put it, I know that I wouldn't be happy if I put things out for the sake of putting things out.
No clue what you decide to do in the future, but hope that you'll be able to keep saying the same. You say that you're no one special, but it's your strength, really.
If it's worth something, your voice is pretty nice to listen to!
Coming from someone struggling with finding the day to day drive to keep up their writing hobby, its nice to find a fresh channel that I can relate that to.
I watch your videos cause they're candid and your art is cute. I like cute and innocent things and I admire your (and other people's) courage to post things you know aren't perfect.
That face at 9:18 is just hilarious! Well drawn!
Yeah, just do what you want! That’s what I’m here for
2:20 jesus christ, as a 16 year old that's been on the internet for most of my life (sadly) I've never felt like I related so much to anyone lmao, I'm praying those feelings will at least mellow out soon for ya.
Yay new vid
I think what your friend Rita said is rly important, you're the most important part of your life.
Don't pressure yourself to create something and just do as you want, I'm sure most of the people watching this video will stay around no matter what you'll do.
Also great drawings as always, loved especially the one with you holding the book
Have a great day bye bye
Here, have some random looking currency again and be a bit happier doing what you like this time. You're still doing great, keep up the good work
As a person that has always struggled to tell stories, I would recommend just trying. Just like making art, start with retelling others stories, and eventually you will be able to make your own!❤
I love your content and don't forget to enjoy your life!
yayy you're back!
I’ve been trying content creation since I was a child. I’ve archived videos I made 10 years ago. Last year was the first time I realized I could actually make this possible. Throughout all of my studying and analyzing I’ve learned a lot about the pros and cons of content creation. For me, it is my life dream and goal. I still feel confused and insecure at times but I know this is my true dream. I’m inspired by your approach and hope things get easier for you to handle. I think a good community in your niche is important/helpful too. Best of luck to you !!
Congrats on the 50k subs!! I enjoy your content and really wish you the best of luck on your journey!
As a short time watcher i've really enjoyed watching your vids. I think you are doing great and just keep doing what you want/like to do, as its really impressive te get 50k within such a short time. And as Rita said: your happiness is your priorty. 👍
Very well put together, thanks for sharing
Dang I'm with you with the unbelievable growth. You had just 100 subs not too long ago, and now look at you. It sounds like it's been a struggle to learn, but it seems you're getting a handle on it. Congrats!
I’m going to say it even though I’m just a online person, I’m proud of you I think you’re amazing honestly you’ve made me smile watching your content and im grateful so with all that I want to say… Thank you your amazing❤️
watching your videos is really inspiring, keep it up☺
been on ur discord for a while, after finally finding your yt i gotta say you defo got a bright future, your gonna be a crazy good youtuber and go to cons one day, and i can say i have been a fan since 50k subs
Hey, u just want to say, i want be creator too. But... i got burn out, my vids not grown so much, i have not so great numbers of viewer... and lack of commentary is kill my wish to continue, i will be doing .exe montage in some other time but i keep shifting it farther and farther... so, i want just say it to you, i'm not proud(cuz i not your parent or friend of yours) but i'm very happy that you choose to show your human side, that you show how you struggle. I'm sincere fan of your art, so, keep up there, i 100% i'm not one in boat that cheer you for your art and your content )
Ok ok, you have to be trolling cause you KNOW your voice is hot. I’ve actually never heard anything quite like it. You have this grittiness to it that just HITS my ears in the best way possible.
Your voice and the delivery in which you speak might even be the #1 reason why I’ll continue to watch you.
I really respect you for being able to talk so frankly about your mindset, it's difficult enough to figure out your weaknesses and aspirations in the first place so I can't imagine how it feels to reveal them to the internet at large. I can see that you put your full heart and soul into your videos and I'm sure all your subs feel the same way! Looking forward to seeing what you put out in the future, 100k soon! 🎉
just being you its good content, you are really relatable and I think most ppl here have fun watching you. don't chase the ocasional algorithmic boost
this is very relatable Riifushi, I feel the same in almost every way (I've haven't watch the video)
I love your cute art!
Congrats on the 50k subs!
The video itself is very nice :D
Congratulations on 50k subs!
I've really been enjoying your content!
Your videos are really relaxing.
make sure to take care of yourself first and just have fun
4:39 i feel you there
your content is very insipiring please keep doing what you like!
@2:20 Definitely feel the same way as you, about being a content creator 😅
Great watch 👍
Congrats on 50k Honestly I agree with a lot of whats said in this video.
11:00 fire lagtrain reference
Great video and congrats on 50k!
Why do I feel like her and Carmella would make a w collab
Yay new vid ^^
I think to SwankyBox's video "Why UA-cam is like an MMORPG" which also has solid advice along the lines of this kind of video,
Either for Riifushi tho also for anyone intrested to get into content creation;
Funny, I so happen to be thinking about this topic from another perspective that I wrote a lengthy message to my friend group, my conclusion is as follows from the point of view of also fawning in relation to the term in autistic and ADHD circles, where I felt:
- "And ultimately if something depends on sacrificing my own well being and happiness to succeed, then maybe I am being too accommodating and should let X Y or Z thing fail or fall apart so that I can be more ready to respond in a healthier and more appropriate way."
Where my own point of view is that if making content takes priority over your own self and happiness or identity then it defeats its own point for existing.
Hence the importance of say names, and like defining what you mean to yourself than let an algorithm or an audience take that control from oneself as a creator.
This is to say to create but don't let the addiction of attention or fear of attention control who you want to become,
But with that knowing who you want to become is the hardest thing to define.
Hello Riifushi, congrats on 50k! It’s good that you took time to figure things out for yourself. Mental health and happiness should always come first. I can’t wait to see where this journey takes us all :D
The author thing hits home gonna be honest. I'm looking forward to when i get out there, but I need to build the self confidence for my own work
Also your voice is pretty
Nooooooo i wasn’t able catch this right when it came out. I didn’t have my phone. At least i’m able to watch it now.
incredibly impressive! you have inspired me to start taking content creation seriously as an artist :v
thanks for the Video, congratulations on having the courage to show your weak side even though there are chances of bad people appearing in the comments, those who feel like you at least know that they are not alone in this, myself included.
I think that to myself all the time when I remember... I have some viewers! AND subscribers? it's a pretty good feeling when
you realize that there are some people out there that think your content is actually worth watching even if you don't understand it yourself, I'm still managing my channel as a hobby, but I have put a little extra work into it's LOOOOOORE cause i'm having fun doing it 🤷🏽♀️😅
I guess sincerity is what makes you engaging and relatable, and as such I guess your channel is an art and life video blog (?).
Will the Q&A be a normal happy funny Riifushi はは video?
(I'm joking I kinda like that kind of format too!! Nice video as always!)
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Congrats on 50k btw
She’s just like me fr!!!!!!!
Congratz on the 50k subs. If you wanna try out story telling you could try out with short/flash sort of stories first. Personally I would go with fantasy settings, whether they're comedic, serious, or tragoc. I generally prefer fantasy, but that's just me. But, I have heard that even story telling through drawing/animating might require a bit of knowledge with writing experience, like, prose. I don't know, just thought I'd mention it, just something I heard a bit about once. Good luck, though.
Hey, no matter what happens or what decision you take, we'll always hear you out (unless you do something actually really bad like murder or something)
thanks for sharing your experiences before i blindly started uploading ;P
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