Coming back to this- first video I watched of Marie and I knew she was an angel. Breaks my heart knowing she’s not here with us after how much she helped me but thank you Marie for everything . We miss you🥰✨
Beautiful girl....i myself have struggled with mental health issues all my life, I'm now 68 yrs old and have been on medications a long time. Your video is so very important!! Years ago mental health problems just weren't talked about. My adopted mother and I were extremely close. Because of her I never felt alone, ashamed or afraid. She taught me to b strong and to understand that it is very real and help for it is so important. You are so strong and u sharing your journey in life is such a gift, more than u, I think, ever could imagine. I know it's hard for u. Thank you so much! Love and Prayers....Patti B.
I'm so glad your doggo has helped you. My mum bought me a beautiful Dalmatian puppy 10 years ago and he literally saved my life. 2 weeks ago he had to go to sleep and it has destroyed me so cherish every moment with him
i literally thought everything marie said after derealisation was normal, no one ever told me it’s not... i’m literally mind blown and kinda concerned 🤯
During my psychosis I would sleep like 11-13 hours a night, wake up at like 5 pm and I can hardly remember anything from that time period. It was really scary because I constantly felt like I was in a movie, like I was watching down on myself in my room. I became so disassociated with the world and my dreams. Every single night I would have nightmares where the skies turned blood red and everyone was burning alive and when I woke up I would be too scared to open my curtains in case it was real. There are still many vague memories which I still have no idea if they actually happened or were part of my imagination. It was extremely scary, but in a really weird way comforting as well? As if my brain was trying to protect me from something worse??
I know exactly what you're talking about. The feeling you described, the movie thing. And I have barely any memory of those 2 years. Those were rough days.
Remember that there’s always someone who loves you❤️I’m someone who cares about everyone (I’m an empath) so I just wanted to say that I genuinely care about you.
Outside of medical health professionals I've never heard somebody put into words exactly how I've felt about feeling insignificant and not understanding how the world works. I just started crying from relief about hearing somebody discuss what BPD felt like to them. This video has given me so much courage to keep persevering so thank you ❤️
Your depersonalisation is EXACTLY what I had down to the self harm and thinking that you are wooden. This happens daily for me. Thanks for being strong enough to share
Am so sorry girl. I am fighting each for the sake of my family not to commit suicide. idk what we did to deserve this life. I hope we all make it though
I’ve had two suicide attempts in the past. I understand. This world is cruel and it sucks. I hope you can heal from your trauma and disturbing experience.
You have come so so far, we are so proud of you not only for how you are learning to cope with life, but how you use your platform to educate and advise people on mental health with how open you are. We love you x
Thank you for your videos 💗 I can relate to you so much especially the idea of thinking you're a sociopath i remember feeling that way for a long time.
Please talk about the psychosis side of things, and please don't feel any shame around it. I know that hearing voices can be quite stigmatised and it can be really scary but I'd love to hear about your experience, as with everything else. Sending so much love x
Such an important video, good for you! I feel very connected to your story because I had a very similar experience on the exact same timeline as you, and I'm still early in my recovery and trying to comprehend what happened to me! (When you were talking about looking up and fearing the sky, I truly know what you mean...) Like you, I'll also be heading back to the doctor around November ?? Weird. Anyways, I'm really glad that you're doing well, and you + your videos have been incredibly important to me comprehending my own recovery at times! Sending love!!
As someone who has been through my own mental health issues, I am smashing that like button and subscribing as I think what you're doing is fekkin awesome!
Hey Marie just wanted to say how proud I am of you, your a very kind hearted supportive mentor and inspiration to others in situations you have been through, Sending Best Wishes to you
I found you after your video about leaving Bali early. I know it was tough for you, but that video helped me so much. It made me feel validated in my feelings, my experiences and it made me feel better about my scars.
Your story is so powerful I was moved by it. It’s amazing how you survived through all of that and it’s awesome to hear your story. Thank you for posting this 🙂
Just come across this video. What you are doing is amazing. This is what we are trying to do on our channel. You have done amazing. You should be so proud of yourself. Keep putting one foot in front of the other. We know its not easy. But you got this
You go Marie. So so so proud of you!!! Been a follower for a long long long time and have watched you go through all of this and to see you now is so so cool. You have done a complete 180 and changed your own life and mind. It’s so freaking neat to see. Ah it’s just friggin awesome. Keep it up! You GOT this!!!
Beautiful ans amazing she knows how I feel we have talked about that . shea held me together a lot and I owe her more then she realizes bless you marie
thank you so much for posting this. after many years of my life suffering from various mental illnesses, this really helped me to reflect on myself currently. i would love if you could post something about your psychotic episodes and more on derealization/depersonalization, as i have/had these. much love x
last year my mental health was at an all time low and i would watch your videos and find so much comfort in them, so thank you.as someone who has and still deals with dissociation issues a lot, i felt everything you said about depersonalisation and realisation. i am so beyond happy that you've come so far. remember this hopeful feeling incase you ever end up in the dark again angel. i love you, marie !
Her voice is shaking the entire time and that makes my heart break, but on the other hand, it makes me feel so good that she’s staying strong and I’m so proud of her for doing so! 💕
The way you experience derealisation is exactly how I feel. I cannot express how helpful it is to hear that someone else has felt this way and gotten through it. Thank you so much
the similarities we have are crazy. i relate to everything you said. I'm sad you've felt the same things that I have but glad you can get on social media and share your experiences.
I totally relate. The fact you made a utube channel is awesome. The fact you make excellent informative content is something most people can’t do. To do and achieve what you have suffering the same illness I have is absolutely amazing.
Thank u so much for sharing it’s made me feel less alone with my mental health struggles, I think I might try what u did while in hospital with the journaling as I haven’t found anything that helps me yet
I'm glad you're doing better ❤️ Things have been getting really bad for me recently but no one has any idea and I don't know what to do. I relapsed about a week ago and i thought after *about* 3 years, things would've gotten better but they're only getting worse. I really need help but my parents do not give a shit and I can't make myself talk to my teachers or friends about it either. :(
Thank you so much for making this video Marie , it makes me feel like I am not alone with things. You are so strong for making this video. Love you so much 💙 -Erin
your best video by far, I can imagine looking back through old videos was very hard but I hope it helped you see any signs or patterns in yourself, im glad your now addressing the eating side of your illness
I'm so incredibly proud of you and I'm so grateful you're still with us and making videos💕💕💕 you've inspired my recovery SOsososo much Also, like not a joke, fall/winter of 2018-early 2019 was for real just like the end of the world for a lot of people's mental health including mine, I was hospitalized twice. It was a brutal year but look at you, killing it💕💕💕💕💕💕 (Why is there a police car in the back😹)
I cant lie ive been watching all ur videos most of the night and day because im not sure how I feel is normal, thank you for your amazing videos you make me feel less alone . Hope u are okay 💜
my dear you have been on a incredible journey and as a fellow mental health sufferer for lack of a better word,i am immensely proud of your resilience and commitment to staying alive even in the darkest times,i understand the fear and anxiety ,but the profound fear of not belonging and being so different I could not understand how humans thought etc I don't want to burden you with my story I understand how vulnerable our precious psychies are any way I just wanted to send you love and strength on your journey and tell you what a fantastic job you are doing that you are not alone ,and I to have a fur baby his name is Benny and he is my everything so big love to you
Thank you for all that you do on this channel. You may not know me but I feel like I know you and I’m so grateful that you’re trying so hard to turn your life around and just BE ALIVE! I love you Marie, and I think you’re amazing. ❤️
I am so proud of you for revealing this to us and most of all for being such a strong fighter. I admire you so much for this. Thank you for contributing to mental health advocacy. You are beautiful inside and out. Thank you so much Marie. You aren't alone and thank you for making so many of us feel less alone.
hey you, reading this comment , you are so loved🦋
salenaa • you’re such a sweet human and I hope you know how lovely you are ❤️🌸❤️
Thanks so are you!
lol
No I’m not no one cares about me anymore
Grace and trinitee Vlogs I do
there’s so much shakiness in her voice.. it breaks my heart 💔
She's doing a great job.
kenzie parker i think it’s a side effect from her medication
She looks very very tired. Not physically but emotionally.
it’s from her meds
I’ve never seen someone so strong
😭💗
marieroseeee what triggered your psychosis?
I got this video recommended again. We miss you dearly, beautiful Marie. Rest easy, girl.
Rest easy? Oh 😢 I didn't know
What happened to her?
Can we just take a minute to tell this lady how beautiful she is?
Uno reverse to u hon
She is
Yes she is
You are pretty too
It’s a shame looks don’t determine our mental health as she would be beyond happy
Coming back to this- first video I watched of Marie and I knew she was an angel. Breaks my heart knowing she’s not here with us after how much she helped me but thank you Marie for everything . We miss you🥰✨
Ditto ❤ love to all
I commented now and just saw your post💔
29:08 even though you’re gone marie, you’ll never be just another statistic
She’s not gone is she?
@@Zydonie she is dead.
Beautiful girl....i myself have struggled with mental health issues all my life, I'm now 68 yrs old and have been on medications a long time. Your video is so very important!! Years ago mental health problems just weren't talked about. My adopted mother and I were extremely close. Because of her I never felt alone, ashamed or afraid. She taught me to b strong and to understand that it is very real and help for it is so important.
You are so strong and u sharing your journey in life is such a gift, more than u, I think, ever could imagine. I know it's hard for u. Thank you so much!
Love and Prayers....Patti B.
Rest easy Marie you was such a kind girl with a beautiful heart ❤
2 months without you sweet girl. may you rest in peace
How did she pass?
I'm so glad your doggo has helped you. My mum bought me a beautiful Dalmatian puppy 10 years ago and he literally saved my life. 2 weeks ago he had to go to sleep and it has destroyed me so cherish every moment with him
Aww am so sorry for ur loss and I hope u have a great day or night
i literally thought everything marie said after derealisation was normal, no one ever told me it’s not... i’m literally mind blown and kinda concerned 🤯
Lys Rose girl same
Lys Rose same, the other day I said something similar to this to my friend who is also mentally ill and even she was super concerned ahaha
Me too 😔
7 months without you fly high mareiiiiiii 💋
During my psychosis I would sleep like 11-13 hours a night, wake up at like 5 pm and I can hardly remember anything from that time period. It was really scary because I constantly felt like I was in a movie, like I was watching down on myself in my room. I became so disassociated with the world and my dreams. Every single night I would have nightmares where the skies turned blood red and everyone was burning alive and when I woke up I would be too scared to open my curtains in case it was real. There are still many vague memories which I still have no idea if they actually happened or were part of my imagination. It was extremely scary, but in a really weird way comforting as well? As if my brain was trying to protect me from something worse??
That's hard to understand?
I know exactly what you're talking about. The feeling you described, the movie thing. And I have barely any memory of those 2 years. Those were rough days.
4 years ago today💔 devastated doesn’t even touch the surface, rest easy gorgeous soul x
You’ve litterally saved ny life. Ily
I hope you’re ok hun 💙
Remember that there’s always someone who loves you❤️I’m someone who cares about everyone (I’m an empath) so I just wanted to say that I genuinely care about you.
ebby how can u care about someone you have never met. People in my life don’t give a shit about me
Jackie Kirstein hey how are you? ;3
U still here:)?
Outside of medical health professionals I've never heard somebody put into words exactly how I've felt about feeling insignificant and not understanding how the world works. I just started crying from relief about hearing somebody discuss what BPD felt like to them. This video has given me so much courage to keep persevering so thank you ❤️
Your depersonalisation is EXACTLY what I had down to the self harm and thinking that you are wooden. This happens daily for me. Thanks for being strong enough to share
I’m so proud of you thank you so much for sharing your story xx
Thank you so much for sharing! I really needed this today xxxx
Thank you so so so SO much for sharing.
rest in peace Angel. ❤
I really love this video you have helped me so much by talking about what you’ve been through and I just wanted to say thank you
You are so strong, it's crazy♥️
Am so sorry girl. I am fighting each for the sake of my family not to commit suicide. idk what we did to deserve this life. I hope we all make it though
You are loved. Jesus loves you I promise you are valuable on this earth
@@itsmamawolf Thank you very much Girlie❤❤❤❤
Oh I feel so seen by the derealization. "And the gap just aches"
Thank you for making this ❤️
I missed seeing you! Its good to have you back! Keep fighting! we love you
Such an amazing and open video. Thanks for sharing and big hugs 🤗
Thank you for sharing your story💜
so so proud of you, you are the strongest person❤️❤️thank you for helping all of us!!
Honestly so proud of you Marie 💗💕💓💖💞💘
I hope to be as brave as you. Your resilience and no matter the demons, thoughts or doubts you push on.
so so guuuud Marie. Your story is incredible to hear and i'm so very grateful for the opportunity to. thank you and love ya loads xx
I’ve had two suicide attempts in the past. I understand. This world is cruel and it sucks. I hope you can heal from your trauma and disturbing experience.
She sadly took her life last year.
Loved this video! Love all your videos 💓 so happy you are doing well
Marie you are so resilient and phenomenal xx
Had a really bad day because of some awful experiences so thanks for this. It kinda helps me feel less alone ♥️
It takes a lot to talk about this, ly Marie, please can you do weekly vlogs ❤️❤️
You have come so so far, we are so proud of you not only for how you are learning to cope with life, but how you use your platform to educate and advise people on mental health with how open you are. We love you x
I am so proud of you, you’re so strong Marie. Thanks for sharing your story!
Really helped me through a lot ❤️
Thank you for your videos 💗 I can relate to you so much especially the idea of thinking you're a sociopath i remember feeling that way for a long time.
Please talk about the psychosis side of things, and please don't feel any shame around it. I know that hearing voices can be quite stigmatised and it can be really scary but I'd love to hear about your experience, as with everything else. Sending so much love x
Such an important video, good for you! I feel very connected to your story because I had a very similar experience on the exact same timeline as you, and I'm still early in my recovery and trying to comprehend what happened to me! (When you were talking about looking up and fearing the sky, I truly know what you mean...) Like you, I'll also be heading back to the doctor around November ?? Weird. Anyways, I'm really glad that you're doing well, and you + your videos have been incredibly important to me comprehending my own recovery at times! Sending love!!
you are such an inspiring soul, your videos give me nothing but hope for the future and i genuinely am so grateful that you exist
You are so incredible and so loved. I am so inspired by your story, thank you so much for sharing!
As someone who has been through my own mental health issues, I am smashing that like button and subscribing as I think what you're doing is fekkin awesome!
You are so brave and gorgeous you have your whole life ahead of you and a great one at that, stay strong lovely💖
Hey Marie just wanted to say how proud I am of you, your a very kind hearted supportive mentor and inspiration to others in situations you have been through, Sending Best Wishes to you
the biggest inspiration, thankyou
you are so gorgeous honestly i cant think of anyone prettier or stronger than you are xxx your so inspiring and have saved my life many times xxxx
I found you after your video about leaving Bali early. I know it was tough for you, but that video helped me so much. It made me feel validated in my feelings, my experiences and it made me feel better about my scars.
You are so strong. Thank you for sharing it gave me hope to continue my fight with mental health. I hope you are doing well. Many blessings
Currently going thru a lot, thank you for opening up it has helped me.
Your story is so powerful I was moved by it. It’s amazing how you survived through all of that and it’s awesome to hear your story. Thank you for posting this 🙂
Just come across this video. What you are doing is amazing. This is what we are trying to do on our channel. You have done amazing. You should be so proud of yourself. Keep putting one foot in front of the other. We know its not easy. But you got this
You’re SO strong
You go Marie. So so so proud of you!!! Been a follower for a long long long time and have watched you go through all of this and to see you now is so so cool. You have done a complete 180 and changed your own life and mind. It’s so freaking neat to see. Ah it’s just friggin awesome. Keep it up! You GOT this!!!
Beautiful ans amazing she knows how I feel we have talked about that . shea held me together a lot and I owe her more then she realizes bless you marie
Your such an inspiration!!💘
Excellent video!! Keep up the good work in taking care of yourself .
Your story opening up more about my depression i know it hard but I am doing much better then I used to be back then
Your so amazing and strong!! Love you lots xxx
thank you so much for posting this. after many years of my life suffering from various mental illnesses, this really helped me to reflect on myself currently. i would love if you could post something about your psychotic episodes and more on derealization/depersonalization, as i have/had these. much love x
last year my mental health was at an all time low and i would watch your videos and find so much comfort in them, so thank you.as someone who has and still deals with dissociation issues a lot, i felt everything you said about depersonalisation and realisation. i am so beyond happy that you've come so far. remember this hopeful feeling incase you ever end up in the dark again angel. i love you, marie !
I love you so much, this has really inspired me
You're one of the strongest people out there! I'm so so so proud of you!
Omg this video!!!!!! ur so amazing love you ❤️
Her voice is shaking the entire time and that makes my heart break, but on the other hand, it makes me feel so good that she’s staying strong and I’m so proud of her for doing so! 💕
WOW you are such a strong person and so so important, sharing your story will help so many people you have no idea, love to you ❤️🙏🏼✨
The way you experience derealisation is exactly how I feel. I cannot express how helpful it is to hear that someone else has felt this way and gotten through it. Thank you so much
You are a true inspiration xxxx
You are so brave and we are all proud of where you are and how far you’ve come🥰 you are my inspiration and I want to say thank you 😘
Thank you so much ❤️
the similarities we have are crazy. i relate to everything you said. I'm sad you've felt the same things that I have but glad you can get on social media and share your experiences.
I totally relate. The fact you made a utube channel is awesome. The fact you make excellent informative content is something most people can’t do. To do and achieve what you have suffering the same illness I have is absolutely amazing.
Thank u so much for sharing it’s made me feel less alone with my mental health struggles, I think I might try what u did while in hospital with the journaling as I haven’t found anything that helps me yet
Thank you for sharing your experience with us. And trying to normalize talking about mental health. Sending you love.
Thank you for posting this video. Every time I hear about someone else's mental health story, it helps with my own. Goodluck for the future.💖
I'm glad you're doing better ❤️
Things have been getting really bad for me recently but no one has any idea and I don't know what to do. I relapsed about a week ago and i thought after *about* 3 years, things would've gotten better but they're only getting worse. I really need help but my parents do not give a shit and I can't make myself talk to my teachers or friends about it either. :(
You’re so inspiring💜
It honestly makes me so happy to see you looking so happy and glowing!! i’m literally sat here crying lol❤️
Have shared this to my Facebook for world mental health day because I find it to be such a genuinely inspiring and positive video. ❤️
Thank you so much for making this video Marie , it makes me feel like I am not alone with things. You are so strong for making this video. Love you so much 💙 -Erin
your best video by far, I can imagine looking back through old videos was very hard but I hope it helped you see any signs or patterns in yourself, im glad your now addressing the eating side of your illness
I get such good vibes from you! ❤️
I just finished the video and I’m in tears. You are such an amazing person and I love your videos so much. You have helped me so much ❤️😭🥰🥰😘😘
I started counselling and if it wasn’t for you I wouldn’t have
im so glad, i hope it goes well and helps you xxxx
marieroseeee thank uu xx
There is no such thing it's a control system 🤦♀️
Thank you for sharing ! I can see myself a lot in you and it helps to don't feel so lonely with problems anymore ♡
you have so much to offer marie💞ilysm and you’re such an inspiration. thank you for being you. you’re so strong💘
You're such an inspiration, Marie! Keep going and always remember how many people you make happy daily :) ❤
I'm so incredibly proud of you and I'm so grateful you're still with us and making videos💕💕💕 you've inspired my recovery SOsososo much
Also, like not a joke, fall/winter of 2018-early 2019 was for real just like the end of the world for a lot of people's mental health including mine, I was hospitalized twice. It was a brutal year but look at you, killing it💕💕💕💕💕💕
(Why is there a police car in the back😹)
I cant lie ive been watching all ur videos most of the night and day because im not sure how I feel is normal, thank you for your amazing videos you make me feel less alone . Hope u are okay 💜
i’ve got no words, i just love you so much. you inspire me more and more everyday💖happy mental health day xxx
You are so beautiful. I pray you continue on this journey, you seem to be in a good place right now Mental illness is real.
my dear you have been on a incredible journey and as a fellow mental health sufferer for lack of a better word,i am immensely proud of your resilience and commitment to staying alive even in the darkest times,i understand the fear and anxiety ,but the profound fear of not belonging and being so different I could not understand how humans thought etc I don't want to burden you with my story I understand how vulnerable our precious psychies are any way I just wanted to send you love and strength on your journey and tell you what a fantastic job you are doing that you are not alone ,and I to have a fur baby his name is Benny and he is my everything so big love to you
Thank you for all that you do on this channel. You may not know me but I feel like I know you and I’m so grateful that you’re trying so hard to turn your life around and just BE ALIVE! I love you Marie, and I think you’re amazing. ❤️
I am so proud of you for revealing this to us and most of all for being such a strong fighter. I admire you so much for this. Thank you for contributing to mental health advocacy. You are beautiful inside and out. Thank you so much Marie. You aren't alone and thank you for making so many of us feel less alone.
Thanks Marie, you inspired me to create my own mental health channel 😊💕🌙