What if I (Demo)

Late at night
I'm thinking 'bout the past
Regrets and questions filling up my mind so fast
What if I had called
Would things be better?
Could I have changed the course
Made it last forever?
Each moment fades away
Like sand through my hand
Wondering if I'd been better
Would you understand?
All the chances I let slip
It's hard to let it go
Missing pieces of the puzzle
The answers I'll never know
What if I had called
What if I had tried?
Would things be different if I had swallowed my pride?
What if I'd been better
Would you still be here?
I'm drowning in these questions
Consumed by the fear
Now the quiet whispers
Of memories we've made,
Echo in the corners
Where your laughter once played.
Searching for forgiveness
In the silence of the night,
Holding onto hope,
Though you're nowhere in sight.
If back then I'd found the words, what would I have said?
Would I have let down my guard, shown you my heart instead?
I would have shared all my dreams, opened every part,
Shared all of my fears, and my picked at scars.
I would have said yes all the times I said no,
If it meant I never had to see you go.