when it finally gets so bad and hard to cry, that you can barely cry even when you get hurt, you know it’s bad. I dropped an iron on my foot (by accident) and didn’t feel it. I want this to be over. I broke down. i broke down earlier. One small thing happened at school and i started full on bawling and everyone was so confused, while i was just letting the past 6 months of shi out.
for everyone who is feeling useless and wants to commits SH remember that there is people that love you even if you dont think so, life can be difficult i know but we are still standing, no matter who you are, you are beutiful in your own way remember to love yourself and drink some water feel free to vent here if you need so
i love your hair i love your eyes i love your teeth i love your style i love you personality i love your music taste i love your sense of humour i love your voice i love your singing i love your face i love your body i love your arms i love your legs i love your nose i love your lips i love your ears i love your nails i love your eyelashes i love your eyebrows i love your eye shape i love your eye colour i love your face shape i love *you* forever...dont let anyone tell you otherwise
ok, thanks for that, but half of everything you js said is disregarded bc my personality doesnt exist and is just a copy of characters and other ppl atp
what’s something someone said that has stuck with you forever. What ever your going through i believe in you and i love you, i know you don’t know me but i’m proud of everything you’ve done. And i know saying it’s gonna get better doesn’t help. Don’t give up ❤❤❤
Man for me it was when I was sitting by my lonesome in the dark on the porch everyone sleeping while I almost blew my brains out and then called my mom I almost did and her rushing home and instead of any true comfort just screaming at me saying "WHATS THE PROBLEM?!?!?"
My mom buying me a dress then the next day returning it after saying I look like a stuffed sausage in it… I’ve lost 55 ish pounds since then and can’t get used to her compliments. I’m just glad I live with my dad now
I wanna vent to my mom so bad about school but all she’s gonna say is “I understand but you are not missing school it’s important” when all it does is drain me and make me insecure.
My teacher care for me more than anyone. He keeps asking me if I’m alright and I keep denying everything. He knows something is wrong, he always knows. But we both know that he’ll find me crying in the classroom at recess. We both know he’ll be the only person there for me again
7:55 Was the one that broke me. Can I please have the link to it, I cant find it on tiktok. My dad passed away hiking a few weeks ago and today was the funeral. Thank you for making this. Very comforting.
i'm so sorry. my friend's father passed away in the holidays. i've never experienced losing a closely loved one but just keep in mind im here if you need me xx
Yk what really fucking hurts? The fact that people in my irl barely say that I matter and if they do it doesn’t feel like they mean it, but when some random stranger says it, it feels *real* it feels like they really do care and that shit hurts bro.
TW ⚠️ SH I didn't do it for 3 months. 3 WHOLE MONTHS. AND I JUST HAD TO. I disgust myself. Why. I hate myself. My arms sting. Im crying. Im smiling. Why.
All he does is talk about other girls and how he doesn't need me my family fights every single day I have one true friend I get called ugly by everyone at school the teachers don't help when I get bullied I do sh and I was clean for only 4 weeks I am so mentally drained rn and it's funny how I can't vent to my own bf or family but i can vent to randon strangers online
so true when i opened up to my friends abt me s3lf h4rm they will always say things like "u shouldnt do that" "i feel the same" like im so stressed i need to open up to someone i cant handle it anymore ims3lf h4rm1ng my self banging my head to the wall, puching myself, it hurts. they always say how thin i was and not eating, whwen i tryed eating a lot they also complain "ru rlly going to eat all of that? fatty."everything is a problem. nobody even care or noticed how exhausted i am i js want to k1ll myself one day but Allah wont let me.
I don’t know if you are still with us, but please don’t do it. You are an amazing human being, I can’t live without knowing that you are okay, I am proud of you, you can get through this, I’m here for you, you are so beautiful, you have the best humor, you deserve love, you are the most important person in my life, you deserve everything you have, you are so special, you have my support, you are my everything, you have a special place in my heart, you are always there for me and I will always be here for you.
@@RAAAAGGHHH wow... thank you so much... you made me cry a little haha... i was in a really really bad place when I wrote that... thankfully I'm still here.. and I'm doing better
I hate eating but i love eating, i cant explain, one day i dont feel like eating and the next i eat even when im full and i js binge eat and then feel guilty.. i absolutely feel horrible when my parents give me food or snacks.. i feel like i dont deserve it at all, like for example if my parents gave me a candy apple ( true story ) i would be eating it while smiling and then all of a sudden i feel a lump in my throat and my eyes watery and i look down at the apple and a voice in my head tells me, " Ew are you kidding me, your really eating that you know you dont deserve something like that your disgusting you should ky$" and " give it back to your parents and say they can have it bc u dont deserve it" i honestly cant even enjoy anything without the voice randomly telling me to km$.
THIS IS VERY LONG. i remember i told my bsf i was a therian (someone who identified as an animal non physically) since i trusted her and she knew i was one but one day when i was talking to my friends that was kind of against furrys and guess what she ran up to them and said "(my name) is furry!" Too them and ran away, bullying as a joke im fine but actually bullying for who i am i don't let that slide and i didn't wanna be bullied so i ran up to her and yelled at her and she said okay. OKAY!? OKAY!? DO YOU WANNA SEE YOUR FRIEND GET BULLIED. next story so we were working as partners and whens she got up to do something and when she came back i wanted to laugh so as she was about to sit i pulled the chair and she fell after that she got angry and started to stab me with her pencil too the point the pencil tip was broken then she sharpen it and stab be in the cheek and started to move my chair to make me fall off. Next story so we were doing tattoos with my friends and my bsf so basically we were carving stuff on our skin and when my others friend shows her right wrist we saw her self harm marks and im fine with that because i self harm too and when my bsf saw that she said "sonya do that too'" while smiling. And mind you i told her that and told her to keep it a secret and she didnt. Next story we were having a fight because she hits me so much. And she kept on staring at me like i was an alien that made her mad. She judged me because i like a type of music, for example when im singing a song that i like she looks at me weirdly. Idk if i can even trust her :/
I do SH cuz i feel bad for making my mom mad and cuz i cant control my anger or an emotions tbh im try not to do it anymore cuz my mom found out and was pretty mad at me if i could go back into time i slap the shit out my self and say dont do it
I never feel happy and I dont know what to do. Im 15 almost 16. Ive always been a smart kid, ive never had to pay attention or try in school until highschool, im in honors classes, and my parents got me an IQ test when i got adhd tested (i have bad adhd). They will never tell me what my IQ is but they keep telling me im super bright and i can do literally whatever i want in life. They force me to do work whenever i have free time, take away my few freedoms (technology, going to the farm, staying home alone), they even sit and watch me do my school work to make sure i do it. They have zero trust in me. Also when i got tested, the person told me i am in the 1% of people with the highest anxiety. I grew up in a pretty wealthy family, i am naturally attractive, athletic, funny, and smart. I have been giving up in school recently and my grades are all over the place. I went from an all A student to a B,D,F student this year. I see no point in fixing snything because this has happened in the past and even when im on top of everything i dont get rewarded. I have a summer camp that i go to every year with all my closest friends. I only see them once a year but there the only ppl i feel comfortable crying in front of and being myself. I have worn makeup EVERY SINGLE day since 6th grade and im in 10th grade currently. Even just to see my parents. I know i dont need it but i cant bring myself to leave my room wothout it. I drink alcohol whenever im bored by myself so i can think less and be less miserable. Ive accidentally gone to school drunk and luckily im good at hiding it so no one found out. I have a lot of friends but no best friends where i live (only at camp). Everyone at school knows me im kind of popular. 7/8 of the people in my friend group act like a bitch to me because there jealous of me. The one that is nice to me is just to sweet of a person but she never ever wants to hang out and she constantly talks about her bedst friend when im with her. I have a younger sister who is the favorite child and no matter what i do she will always be favored. My mom is losing herself because her only job is to take care of me and my sister and were growing up, so she takes everything out on me and gets super upset with me all the time. She literally abandoned me my dad and my sister for 3 days (over easter) and turned her location off. We had to go to church and family lunch and tell everyone she was just sick. I love my dad so much and respect him so much but he is sooo rough on me and all up in my business well both of my parents are. I am so bored because i have no phone, no one to hang out eith, and i have a family but take the joy out of me. I never share any of my struggles with my friends because i used to a little and they started thinking i was exxagerating when i had actually barely dented the surface of my problems. Im tired of finding ways to waste time and sleep days away. I wish i could wake up as a new person or really just kms but i would love to hear if yall have any ideas. Thanks for reading my huge vent
I have a big project due in physics in 3 days and I’ve barely done any work but I’m so exhausted and drained that I can’t bring myself to get out of bed idk what to do😣😣😣
3:47 lol honestly let it kill me? This is a new low for me tbh, no matter how much crying praying. And restless nights i had it did nothing. 0, sometimes i want to die. Maybe all the time. It's like something better than sh! It works and you won't have to worry at all. Think about it, anybody would take it especially me.
The blurry vision and ears ringing happens so often I just always have headphones around my neck that I just tap to start playing music on to distract myself. I’ve gotten in trouble for it at school but honestly I don’t really care anymore. I’m still paying attention so what’s the harm. I’m a straight “A” student anyways what’s the fucking harm.
I am dying inside I hate it being in school in my room or somewere else. But the forest+Musik is my only ascape.... My parents are fighting so hard and now I have such a gros Trauma and it will never go away its so traumatising 😔 I cant sleep, my heands and legst are shaking like idk what ... My heard is reacing and I am so fast at breathing I cant do this anymore😔 I have beeing bullied verymuch and I am still remembering how I saw my best friend (A dogi) die... Hope y'all ok!!❤❤
I gotta tell someone about this. So me and my bff were chilling together when she thought i should do my boyfriend a prank that i found another man and im cheating on him. I agreed and we took photos of me and her (she was dressing like a male) and then send it to my boyfriend like a streaks. Keep in mind that my boyfriend and i have each others snapchat passwords. Then my boyfriend asked my bff if that was real cuz he knew it was a prank. She got angry at him and strated being mean to him. My boyfriend and my bff are also besties. Then after 6 hours i told my bff i wasnt feeling so well and i wanted to tell him it was a prank. Then she told me no and got mad at me. Since i have my boyfriends snapchat password i got into his snap and my bff was talking to my boyfriend telling him the man (the fake one about the prank) was an idiot and i was a idiot for cheating on him. My boyfriend also tried to change the password but i had my phone number on his account so i could get in. And my best friend knew that i had my phone number there and she told my boyfriend about that. This happend afer me and her ended the fight that i wanted to tell him it was a prank. Then he got rly mad at me and told my bff to create a new account for him cuz he didnt like that i had my phone number in there. Then she did that. My boyfriend then put her snap contact name as “The best sister ❤️” And my best friend put his snap contact as “Homie 🫶🏻🥷🏻”. I was so mad that i told him it was all a prank. He hugged me and kissed me and i could see my best friend was a little annoyed. She keept staying mad at me then she acted like nothing happend. My boyfriend now act like he doesnt know the snap password of his new account and refuses to snap on the old account that he had. Can someone tell me what to do in this situation?
Vent tw I'm tired o don't know anymore I feel strange I feel like I'm loosing something that makes me feel good I want to be around people my age I have no irl friends I'm a shut in loser who waists their time I hate it I can barley socialize to anyone I don't know without my younger brother doing most of the socializing I'm to dependent on him I'm supposed to be the one caring for him but it's the other way around I'm a disappointment Im sorry they have care for me and deal with my shit I have problems that fuck with everything it's not fair I hope everything's better in the future
I need help for all of my stuff. I just cover it up. I can’t see a therapist cause I have social anxiety and I still don’t open up to my friends of 5 years. My anxiety is so bad and I have depression episodes I would say “I don’t SH!” Because I didn’t know starving is sh.. I don’t get bullied but I feel like people are consta judging me and everyone else there is so pretty and everyone hates me and idk… nobody even says anything. People could not even look at me and start laughing and I’ll think that it was towards me.
I need to say something I can’t say to anyone cause they’ll judge me I want an ed yes I know all the risks I know how horrible it affects people I know but I just want to get skinnier I’ve tried barfing and I’m so bad at it 3 days straight I tried even using a toothbrush to help but I couldn’t and then I ate a lot less for 2 days straight but then binged the 3rd I just can’t do it why can’t I I feel so stupid and worthless like no one will ever love me cause my size and no one understands cause all my friends are skinny and my mom was skinny at my age and I just feel so huge I’m slightly overweight and everyone around me is normal to underweight I’m like a beast
Okay i uh need help. Not with my mental state (My mental state isnt nearly as bad as my friends) but with handleing my friends. Currently i have 1 friend who is sh'ing and on friend who i think is but i cant confirm. I wanna help but i dont know how. Like yeah im used to being the theripist of the group but not with anything this bad. I usally just deal with everyone whos sad about somthing stupid. Not with someone who i actually need and want to help. Its making me feel useless bc i cant and dont know how to help her.
All my crushes rejected me, all my friends get compliments but I don’t, I’m ugly. No one will like me because I’m trans. Not even my parents accept me.
Omg I thought I was insane when my head got hot ears ringing and burin your dizzy everythings blurry and you feel like you're floating come to find out I was losing to much blood from yk yea-
Please I’m begging you for your own sake, please throw away the razor or whatever u use. Please, I’m telling you that it’s not good and won’t help anything. You’re worth more than that, you are a human being not a piece of paper you can yk.. please help yourself if no one is there to help you.
@@Teddy_x220 I don't remember what I was talking about I might've been talking abt yk female time I don't really remember but I had a panic attack last night bc I'm paranoid af. It was 4am and a car drove by really slow then I heard sounds outside my window and cans banging in my living room I locked my bedroom door tried calling my dad (my parents are divorced) he didn't answer so I called 911 THEY DIDN'T ANSWER LIKE WTF so finally I called my grandma and she answered and convinced me to get my mom although I was scared of someone possibly being in the house I did as told. The car was someone going to work the noises outside where trees on my window and the cans were my brother I suspected him for the cans but his lights were off and he doesn't usually have them off (his gf was asleep so his lights were off) his gf lives with us PS. SORRY I WRITE A PARAGRAPH I just get into it lol-
Vent: Ik it's not really a big deal but I hate it when people mention my hair color, I'm a ginger btw. Everywhere I go I get made fun of. I fucking hate my hair. I've had people circle around me and just yell " oh my god, she's a ginger, I would kill myself if I was one" I hate it. Even my friends make fun of me for it and ik its just for shits and giggles but ik the only one in my whole fucking friend group to be made fun of.
As my SH I starve myself and really the only thing I eat just a scoop of whatever I’m having and like 20mins ago I tried killing myself by going head first into the pool and not coming out and my mum didn’t even notice and she was outside too..
I am always so stressed with how fucked my life is i just have metal breakdowns with me trying to smile the best i can and try not to let dark thoughts get in my head the thing that is the most fucked is im eleven yrs old Edit: should i just chop off as much hair as possible to help with coping btw im fine
"reality and a feeling are different, a person may feel ugly but rlly shes the most beautiful girl ive ever seen" a quote i made myself
It’s a lovely one, too
it’s sad that I can’t calm myself any other way than hitting my head so hard, it bruised.
I’m sorry. I’m going through something similar. Actually I just committed SH rn. Soooo yea that’s life. I hope you feel better tho.
when it finally gets so bad and hard to cry, that you can barely cry even when you get hurt, you know it’s bad. I dropped an iron on my foot (by accident) and didn’t feel it. I want this to be over.
I broke down. i broke down earlier. One small thing happened at school and i started full on bawling and everyone was so confused, while i was just letting the past 6 months of shi out.
I’m proud of all of you for pushing this far❤
My ED is so bad that when I eat food, like even the slightest my stomach hurts.
im sorry that you feel that way. just know what i am here for you, cheering you on with every bite. keep going love xx
Me too if I even take a bite that happens and I have a mental breakdown and force myself to throw it up 🙂
I had one too. It will hurt but you just got to push through it bc soon enough you'll feel better! You got this!
Search for help. It cant go on like this. You dont deserve this.please.
Same I actually tried to eat today and I cooked a pack of ramen and I couldn’t even eat three bites without my stomach hurting so bad
for everyone who is feeling useless and wants to commits SH
remember that there is people that love you even if you dont think so, life can be difficult i know but we are still standing, no matter who you are, you are beutiful in your own way
remember to love yourself and drink some water feel free to vent here if you need so
im just tired rellty tired
nobody loves me. please, for god's sake, shut up
0:35 That hits. I get so freaking happy when someone can tell how i'm feeling, if someone knows how bad I feel, I vent for hours!
I was called annnoying and it hurt sm so whenever I talk it’s always “sorry if I’m being annoying”
when it gets so horrible you arent crying anymore
for real
im actually trying so hard but its like my mom beats me down when im happy
i love your hair
i love your eyes
i love your teeth
i love your style
i love you personality
i love your music taste
i love your sense of humour
i love your voice
i love your singing
i love your face
i love your body
i love your arms
i love your legs
i love your nose
i love your lips
i love your ears
i love your nails
i love your eyelashes
i love your eyebrows
i love your eye shape
i love your eye colour
i love your face shape
i love *you* forever...dont let anyone tell you otherwise
Ok but I don't
Thank you.. but, you’re here too, that means you clicked on this video, or you searched it up. You okay?
thanks but i dont love all of me 🫤
i wish some one would say that to me
ok, thanks for that, but half of everything you js said is disregarded bc my personality doesnt exist and is just a copy of characters and other ppl atp
All i need from my parents is a “im proud of you” thats all i want.
what’s something someone said that has stuck with you forever. What ever your going through i believe in you and i love you, i know you don’t know me but i’m proud of everything you’ve done. And i know saying it’s gonna get better doesn’t help. Don’t give up ❤❤❤
Man for me it was when I was sitting by my lonesome in the dark on the porch everyone sleeping while I almost blew my brains out and then called my mom I almost did and her rushing home and instead of any true comfort just screaming at me saying "WHATS THE PROBLEM?!?!?"
@@TheSinBin512 I’m so sorry for that, i’m glad your still here ❤️
My mom buying me a dress then the next day returning it after saying I look like a stuffed sausage in it… I’ve lost 55 ish pounds since then and can’t get used to her compliments. I’m just glad I live with my dad now
I wanna vent to my mom so bad about school but all she’s gonna say is “I understand but you are not missing school it’s important” when all it does is drain me and make me insecure.
My teacher care for me more than anyone. He keeps asking me if I’m alright and I keep denying everything. He knows something is wrong, he always knows. But we both know that he’ll find me crying in the classroom at recess. We both know he’ll be the only person there for me again
It has become easier to breathe, I share all the feelings.❤
7:55 Was the one that broke me. Can I please have the link to it, I cant find it on tiktok. My dad passed away hiking a few weeks ago and today was the funeral. Thank you for making this. Very comforting.
i'm so sorry. my friend's father passed away in the holidays. i've never experienced losing a closely loved one but just keep in mind im here if you need me xx
@@mvy.eeevri Thank you. :3
I know I would sound goofy but my mom put me in therapy since 7 and it just made it worse
3:27 no.
the only one i have to vent to is my cat… and myself ig..
Yk what really fucking hurts? The fact that people in my irl barely say that I matter and if they do it doesn’t feel like they mean it, but when some random stranger says it, it feels *real* it feels like they really do care and that shit hurts bro.
TW ⚠️ SH
I didn't do it for 3 months. 3 WHOLE MONTHS. AND I JUST HAD TO. I disgust myself. Why. I hate myself. My arms sting. Im crying. Im smiling. Why.
Everyone can vent here
All he does is talk about other girls and how he doesn't need me my family fights every single day I have one true friend I get called ugly by everyone at school the teachers don't help when I get bullied I do sh and I was clean for only 4 weeks I am so mentally drained rn and it's funny how I can't vent to my own bf or family but i can vent to randon strangers online
I can't stop sh, I love the euphoric feeling I get but ik it's barely worth it
@@ImJustaGirlInTheWorld1 I'm so sorry you are going through all of that I want you to know that you aren't ugly you are even a wonderful humain being
@@downtowngirlie You really have to stop, don't get me wrong I know how hard it is but I belive in you, you can do it
Vent
it got so bad my own friend wont let me be alone.....shes the only one in my entire friend group who doesnt joke about it......
8:19 me exact situation
IM FUCKING TIRED OF PEOPLE TELLING ME TO BE CALM I WANNA LET ALL THIS FUCKING SHIT OUT
7:46 scared me since the audio was in my nightmare-
so true when i opened up to my friends abt me s3lf h4rm they will always say things like "u shouldnt do that" "i feel the same" like im so stressed i need to open up to someone i cant handle it anymore ims3lf h4rm1ng my self banging my head to the wall, puching myself, it hurts. they always say how thin i was and not eating, whwen i tryed eating a lot they also complain "ru rlly going to eat all of that? fatty."everything is a problem. nobody even care or noticed how exhausted i am i js want to k1ll myself one day but Allah wont let me.
i can't do this anymore. I've reached my breaking point. I've hit the end of the road. goodbye, everyone
I don’t know if you are still with us, but please don’t do it. You are an amazing human being, I can’t live without knowing that you are okay, I am proud of you, you can get through this, I’m here for you, you are so beautiful, you have the best humor, you deserve love, you are the most important person in my life, you deserve everything you have, you are so special, you have my support, you are my everything, you have a special place in my heart, you are always there for me and I will always be here for you.
@@RAAAAGGHHH wow... thank you so much... you made me cry a little haha... i was in a really really bad place when I wrote that... thankfully I'm still here.. and I'm doing better
@@amberosial11 that’s amazing ❤️ keep going I believe in you!
@@RAAAAGGHHH ❤️❤️
I hate eating but i love eating, i cant explain, one day i dont feel like eating and the next i eat even when im full and i js binge eat and then feel guilty.. i absolutely feel horrible when my parents give me food or snacks.. i feel like i dont deserve it at all, like for example if my parents gave me a candy apple ( true story ) i would be eating it while smiling and then all of a sudden i feel a lump in my throat and my eyes watery and i look down at the apple and a voice in my head tells me, " Ew are you kidding me, your really eating that you know you dont deserve something like that your disgusting you should ky$" and " give it back to your parents and say they can have it bc u dont deserve it" i honestly cant even enjoy anything without the voice randomly telling me to km$.
Feel free to vent everyone. I love you
I just want to say that I love u
@@CloudxBluex ❤️
i started sobbing reading that. those three simple words.
@@addy4555 I truly do though. Remember that I love you ❤️ even if it seems like no one else does. I’m always here.
@@addy4555 addy we love you💜
THIS IS VERY LONG. i remember i told my bsf i was a therian (someone who identified as an animal non physically) since i trusted her and she knew i was one but one day when i was talking to my friends that was kind of against furrys and guess what she ran up to them and said "(my name) is furry!" Too them and ran away, bullying as a joke im fine but actually bullying for who i am i don't let that slide and i didn't wanna be bullied so i ran up to her and yelled at her and she said okay. OKAY!? OKAY!? DO YOU WANNA SEE YOUR FRIEND GET BULLIED. next story so we were working as partners and whens she got up to do something and when she came back i wanted to laugh so as she was about to sit i pulled the chair and she fell after that she got angry and started to stab me with her pencil too the point the pencil tip was broken then she sharpen it and stab be in the cheek and started to move my chair to make me fall off. Next story so we were doing tattoos with my friends and my bsf so basically we were carving stuff on our skin and when my others friend shows her right wrist we saw her self harm marks and im fine with that because i self harm too and when my bsf saw that she said "sonya do that too'" while smiling. And mind you i told her that and told her to keep it a secret and she didnt. Next story we were having a fight because she hits me so much. And she kept on staring at me like i was an alien that made her mad. She judged me because i like a type of music, for example when im singing a song that i like she looks at me weirdly. Idk if i can even trust her :/
I'm a therian too,I'm so sorry you had to go through that,nobody deserves that:( I hope your sh gets better and you meet good friends you can trust:)
@@Lylahjacobs-tu2ck thanks
im a therian too, and these storys make me scared to tell anyone. its ok, she is a fake.
I do SH cuz i feel bad for making my mom mad and cuz i cant control my anger or an emotions tbh im try not to do it anymore cuz my mom found out and was pretty mad at me if i could go back into time i slap the shit out my self and say dont do it
I never feel happy and I dont know what to do. Im 15 almost 16. Ive always been a smart kid, ive never had to pay attention or try in school until highschool, im in honors classes, and my parents got me an IQ test when i got adhd tested (i have bad adhd). They will never tell me what my IQ is but they keep telling me im super bright and i can do literally whatever i want in life. They force me to do work whenever i have free time, take away my few freedoms (technology, going to the farm, staying home alone), they even sit and watch me do my school work to make sure i do it. They have zero trust in me. Also when i got tested, the person told me i am in the 1% of people with the highest anxiety. I grew up in a pretty wealthy family, i am naturally attractive, athletic, funny, and smart. I have been giving up in school recently and my grades are all over the place. I went from an all A student to a B,D,F student this year. I see no point in fixing snything because this has happened in the past and even when im on top of everything i dont get rewarded. I have a summer camp that i go to every year with all my closest friends. I only see them once a year but there the only ppl i feel comfortable crying in front of and being myself. I have worn makeup EVERY SINGLE day since 6th grade and im in 10th grade currently. Even just to see my parents. I know i dont need it but i cant bring myself to leave my room wothout it. I drink alcohol whenever im bored by myself so i can think less and be less miserable. Ive accidentally gone to school drunk and luckily im good at hiding it so no one found out. I have a lot of friends but no best friends where i live (only at camp). Everyone at school knows me im kind of popular. 7/8 of the people in my friend group act like a bitch to me because there jealous of me. The one that is nice to me is just to sweet of a person but she never ever wants to hang out and she constantly talks about her bedst friend when im with her. I have a younger sister who is the favorite child and no matter what i do she will always be favored. My mom is losing herself because her only job is to take care of me and my sister and were growing up, so she takes everything out on me and gets super upset with me all the time. She literally abandoned me my dad and my sister for 3 days (over easter) and turned her location off. We had to go to church and family lunch and tell everyone she was just sick. I love my dad so much and respect him so much but he is sooo rough on me and all up in my business well both of my parents are. I am so bored because i have no phone, no one to hang out eith, and i have a family but take the joy out of me. I never share any of my struggles with my friends because i used to a little and they started thinking i was exxagerating when i had actually barely dented the surface of my problems. Im tired of finding ways to waste time and sleep days away. I wish i could wake up as a new person or really just kms but i would love to hear if yall have any ideas. Thanks for reading my huge vent
Hope you feel better lot of love
Vent here. 💗
I have a big project due in physics in 3 days and I’ve barely done any work but I’m so exhausted and drained that I can’t bring myself to get out of bed idk what to do😣😣😣
It suck knowing that your going to wake up tired becuse you passed out from sleep deprivation while crying a river
Everything happens at night. Want to know why? Bc it’s when your alone.
too many voices
3:47 lol honestly let it kill me? This is a new low for me tbh, no matter how much crying praying. And restless nights i had it did nothing. 0, sometimes i want to die. Maybe all the time. It's like something better than sh! It works and you won't have to worry at all. Think about it, anybody would take it especially me.
Tips:dont make difrent personalities,you will loose your own.
It just feels like I’m at my fucking breaking point. I’m done. I can’t take it anymore.
I wanted to watch this to make myself feel better
I just feel worse now :(
The blurry vision and ears ringing happens so often I just always have headphones around my neck that I just tap to start playing music on to distract myself. I’ve gotten in trouble for it at school but honestly I don’t really care anymore. I’m still paying attention so what’s the harm. I’m a straight “A” student anyways what’s the fucking harm.
I am dying inside I hate it being in school in my room or somewere else.
But the forest+Musik is my only ascape....
My parents are fighting so hard and now I have such a gros Trauma and it will never go away its so traumatising 😔
I cant sleep, my heands and legst are shaking like idk what ...
My heard is reacing and I am so fast at breathing I cant do this anymore😔
I have beeing bullied verymuch and I am still remembering how I saw my best friend (A dogi) die...
Hope y'all ok!!❤❤
Im crying like 2 hours bc my crush is having more contac with my beutiful friend instead me
My therapist told my parents everything😞😔
I gotta tell someone about this. So me and my bff were chilling together when she thought i should do my boyfriend a prank that i found another man and im cheating on him. I agreed and we took photos of me and her (she was dressing like a male) and then send it to my boyfriend like a streaks. Keep in mind that my boyfriend and i have each others snapchat passwords. Then my boyfriend asked my bff if that was real cuz he knew it was a prank. She got angry at him and strated being mean to him. My boyfriend and my bff are also besties. Then after 6 hours i told my bff i wasnt feeling so well and i wanted to tell him it was a prank. Then she told me no and got mad at me. Since i have my boyfriends snapchat password i got into his snap and my bff was talking to my boyfriend telling him the man (the fake one about the prank) was an idiot and i was a idiot for cheating on him. My boyfriend also tried to change the password but i had my phone number on his account so i could get in. And my best friend knew that i had my phone number there and she told my boyfriend about that. This happend afer me and her ended the fight that i wanted to tell him it was a prank. Then he got rly mad at me and told my bff to create a new account for him cuz he didnt like that i had my phone number in there. Then she did that. My boyfriend then put her snap contact name as “The best sister ❤️” And my best friend put his snap contact as “Homie 🫶🏻🥷🏻”. I was so mad that i told him it was all a prank. He hugged me and kissed me and i could see my best friend was a little annoyed. She keept staying mad at me then she acted like nothing happend. My boyfriend now act like he doesnt know the snap password of his new account and refuses to snap on the old account that he had. Can someone tell me what to do in this situation?
My dad wants for me to eat but every time I do I feel guilty and go on the weight scaler thingy🥰
Vent tw
I'm tired o don't know anymore I feel strange I feel like I'm loosing something that makes me feel good I want to be around people my age I have no irl friends I'm a shut in loser who waists their time I hate it I can barley socialize to anyone I don't know without my younger brother doing most of the socializing I'm to dependent on him I'm supposed to be the one caring for him but it's the other way around I'm a disappointment Im sorry they have care for me and deal with my shit I have problems that fuck with everything it's not fair I hope everything's better in the future
yall i js wanna end it atp.
Ive never been this bad all i do now a days is drink alcohol
3:25 No. I wouldn’t.
Im used to not eating now:(
I need help for all of my stuff. I just cover it up. I can’t see a therapist cause I have social anxiety and I still don’t open up to my friends of 5 years. My anxiety is so bad and I have depression episodes I would say “I don’t SH!” Because I didn’t know starving is sh.. I don’t get bullied but I feel like people are consta judging me and everyone else there is so pretty and everyone hates me and idk… nobody even says anything. People could not even look at me and start laughing and I’ll think that it was towards me.
I need to say something I can’t say to anyone cause they’ll judge me
I want an ed yes I know all the risks I know how horrible it affects people I know but I just want to get skinnier I’ve tried barfing and I’m so bad at it 3 days straight I tried even using a toothbrush to help but I couldn’t and then I ate a lot less for 2 days straight but then binged the 3rd I just can’t do it why can’t I
I feel so stupid and worthless like no one will ever love me cause my size and no one understands cause all my friends are skinny and my mom was skinny at my age and I just feel so huge I’m slightly overweight and everyone around me is normal to underweight I’m like a beast
Okay i uh need help. Not with my mental state (My mental state isnt nearly as bad as my friends) but with handleing my friends.
Currently i have 1 friend who is sh'ing and on friend who i think is but i cant confirm.
I wanna help but i dont know how.
Like yeah im used to being the theripist of the group but not with anything this bad. I usally just deal with everyone whos sad about somthing stupid. Not with someone who i actually need and want to help.
Its making me feel useless bc i cant and dont know how to help her.
0:33 nah you venting to the fbi-
6:34 …
All my crushes rejected me, all my friends get compliments but I don’t, I’m ugly. No one will like me because I’m trans. Not even my parents accept me.
Omg I thought I was insane when my head got hot ears ringing and burin your dizzy everythings blurry and you feel like you're floating come to find out I was losing to much blood from yk yea-
Please I’m begging you for your own sake, please throw away the razor or whatever u use. Please, I’m telling you that it’s not good and won’t help anything. You’re worth more than that, you are a human being not a piece of paper you can yk.. please help yourself if no one is there to help you.
@@Teddy_x220 I don't remember what I was talking about I might've been talking abt yk female time I don't really remember but I had a panic attack last night bc I'm paranoid af. It was 4am and a car drove by really slow then I heard sounds outside my window and cans banging in my living room I locked my bedroom door tried calling my dad (my parents are divorced) he didn't answer so I called 911 THEY DIDN'T ANSWER LIKE WTF so finally I called my grandma and she answered and convinced me to get my mom although I was scared of someone possibly being in the house I did as told. The car was someone going to work the noises outside where trees on my window and the cans were my brother I suspected him for the cans but his lights were off and he doesn't usually have them off (his gf was asleep so his lights were off) his gf lives with us PS. SORRY I WRITE A PARAGRAPH I just get into it lol-
@@Madison._..0712 Oop mb, but still it’s always good to stay safe lol, hope you have a good day.
@@Teddy_x220 u too! 😊
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Ik it's not really a big deal but I hate it when people mention my hair color, I'm a ginger btw. Everywhere I go I get made fun of. I fucking hate my hair. I've had people circle around me and just yell " oh my god, she's a ginger, I would kill myself if I was one" I hate it. Even my friends make fun of me for it and ik its just for shits and giggles but ik the only one in my whole fucking friend group to be made fun of.
3:00 5:28
0:18
no one did
As my SH I starve myself and really the only thing I eat just a scoop of whatever I’m having and like 20mins ago I tried killing myself by going head first into the pool and not coming out and my mum didn’t even notice and she was outside too..
I am always so stressed with how fucked my life is i just have metal breakdowns with me trying to smile the best i can and try not to let dark thoughts get in my head the thing that is the most fucked is im eleven yrs old
Edit: should i just chop off as much hair as possible to help with coping btw im fine
:)
3:27 no.