Ok, Now I'm hooked on the story, and Nightshade's performance is stellar, perfect blend of supportive and inviting character yet still imposingly powerful 💜💜💜
"The bad news: sadly, I don't have an ETA on when I can get part three to you" - given first two parts, I'm absolutely sure it will be worth the wait. Both in quality of the script and the intensity of the rendition.
...I think I understand some more about this character now. She used to be a hero, but then became disillusioned with her fellows for the various reasons she's been detailing. "You're stronger than they let you be" is the tipoff line, there. That is definitely a speaking from experience line. So it ends up making sense why she's so interested in helping the listener, but also why she keeps pressuring him about the whole "switching sides" thing. She sees a younger version of herself and wants to help, but also wants her choices validated, to see that someone else in her place would have done the same thing. I think what this means (blind speculation here, I'm much less good at prediction than extrapolation) is that, if the listener can show her it _is_ still possible to be good, you _don't_ have to do unto the world what it has done unto you, she might find her way back to the light? Of course, the story could always go the whole "heroes are evil, society is terrible, join the bad guys" route, but that would just be depressing in the extreme, so I'm going to hope.
Ooh, that's a good theory. I don't really know if she used to be a hero, but it would explain so much of her bitterness. As far as which side is good and which is bad, I'm kind of hoping that both the hero and the villain come to the realization that I think would be most realistic - that the divide isn't along lines of good and bad, but of law and chaos. Heroes that work with the government are law enforcement. And in any field anywhere, not just law, you'll find people who are corrupt and people who are selfless. People who take advantage of their power and people who use their power to make lives better. Likewise, there are lawbreakers who are motivated by good purposes, trying to overthrow unjust laws, or to get around unintended consequences of badly-planned rules, as well as those motivated by revenge or personal greed. In real life, I don't think you can write off any whole group of people in either direction. So I'm hoping that turns out to be the case here, with our heroes and villains. That people are just people, and they can't be forced into a mold. But what do I know? I'm looking forward to whatever PlainJaneWriting has planned!
Once again, I heard Phoenix's fill of this script first. That doesn't diminish my joy at hearing yours, because your voices are so different as are your techniques. I love your fill!
It's uncanny how often you reach out and give me exactly what I'm thinking about. Amazing work. Wish I had headphones on, i'll have to listen to it again later to get the full effect.
I can see an episode months later where our villain meets the hero in training again, however when she feels something is wrong and probes their mind only to feel nothing and hear static, concluding that they have been made a puppet, or even worse, they have retreated so far into their mind in an attempt to keep their sanity that they are no more then an unfeeling husk of emptyness, and in an attempt to pull them out she only gets a small cry for help before she breaks the wall the hero put up and realizes that she just exposed someone who has locked themselves away for months to everyones thoughts and before she realized, she has the hero close to her heart, shielding them instinctively
I've heard a few renditions of this script, but this is my favorite. I really like how you portray her inner conflict, her flase bravado and how she laughs bitterly at the end. Can't wait for the next part!🤓
Yay ! Telepaths ! ^^ Theses stories are so rare yet so full of possibilities ! Also : "it is against my community guidelines to threaten me OR my characters." Oh. I didn't knew that, or needed that to be a rule. 👀
I think that 99% of the people who break this rule don't have bad intentions. They are still in a roleplay mindset, thinking of how to approach this monstrous character that they don't like. What weapon they could use, how they could hurt her... like they're in an rpg. And then they leave a comment in character about what they plan to do, referring to the character as a vague "her" or sometimes even "you". And even though I *know* it's probably meant harmlessly, it's not good for my mental health to read all these threats/plans to attack. It makes my comments section a scary place rather than a safe one. Particularly since I know there are people who don't really separate me from the characters. It can very much feel like these comments are directed towards me. I know there's only so much I can do, but I hope that by pointing it out, more people will think before they send that reply and things will get a little better. 💗 Thank you for the comment!
I absolutely LOVE the thumbnail XD Idk, your art and artstyle always has me impressed like HOW??? ITS SO GAH DAMN GOOD!! XD (Anyways bai bai enough babbling from me ;p)
Why do I have the funny feeling that the listeners breaking through her mental defenses and why do also have the funny feeling that in the next episode is going to be some angst and these two are going to get hurt or during the fight she starts confessing her feelings to him and I do think she was crying You know the listener and your character puts me in mind of the two sides of Jean Gray from The X-Men You being the dark Phoenix and listener being a normal Jean Gray@@nightshadequeenasmr
@@nightshadequeenasmr she really does. And she’s right about how heroes use their status as heroes to act like jerks. Maybe the listener should join Mind Queen
Cant believe how bad we fumbled that one, hopefully we can get back on track here, great story and absolutely loving the character. Keep it up my queen 👑
The story of learning to trust and love, Opposites irresistibly being attracted to each other. Waiting for the next episode will be the hardest part Queen 🙏😊
@@nightshadequeenasmr Might be neat. Makes you wonder why Hero's and Villain's always wear the same outfit? Villain's especially 🤔. Kinda fashion stuck like Dr. Who.
My part-time enemy could do with a slice of cheesecake, a really good cup of coffee, and a long cuddle in a cozy chair. Maybe with some hair petting. Nope. I'm not projecting. But also... she is sweet. Like dark chocolate: smooth, a bit bitter, but just makes me want to hold her and let her know that it's okay. Again, thank you, Nightshade. You do so very well with these tormented characters.
Oh man, I have such a craving for cheesecake right now. Cheesecake and cuddles sounds even better. 😋 Thank you for the kind comment! I'm so glad you like her!
I did several takes of the ending, and when I listened back to them, the one with that heartbroken laugh was clearly the best. I can't wait to find out what happens in part 3!
@@nightshadequeenasmr Me too. This script has so much potential too. Also idk why, but the endings with the listener running are pure vibes. This one, then the space captain 2nd part
Exactly, I can hear them, which is why I can’t leave. They know where my family is… and I wish I could say they wouldn’t harm civilians to keep me, but we both know that’s not true. I can’t leave. They… every one else in my family is normal, they can’t protect themselves… I can’t protect them… I Have to stay with the hero’s.
"Stronger than they let-" Hmmm, now this is a very interesting line to have her cut herself off on. "Let them/us normally be"? "let us think we are"? "let us be without forcing some kind of control onto us"? Maybe something to do with the Whim Wizard guy that poorly taught the listener how to user their telepathy and such? Actually, thinking about this and her earlier claim that there were no government research projects on superpowers, I'm more inclined to think she was lying about that and that there are, but they're extremely dark and secretive, and possibly using telepaths like the Whim Wizard to control heroes that are too powerful to be 'safe'? I'm pretty sure she's already confirmed she can brainwash and control people, and it's like other powerful telepaths can do the same, so high power telepaths that are corrupt and helping the elite rule via brainwashing wouldn't be unexpected As for "You hear their thoughts and still think you're on the good guys' side" - well, who forces these confrontations? Are the villains being ambushed in their homes while not doing anything illegal? Or are they being stopped while they're in the process of committing a crime? Surely she can't be so delusional as to think her side are 'the good guys', given she hears many of their thoughts as well and knows damn well that many, or even most, of the villains are irredeemable monsters who take great pleasure in the harm they cause. As for her threatening the listener...if she doesn't ease up on that, she's likely to mess up and make what might be a fatal mistake, given she's got very conflicted feelings about the listener and has let them in at least a bit, and that kind of thing is something that might be targeted by instinct if the listener has to lash out to defend themselves from her attacking them, even if she is the far more experienced telepath
Just waiting on the script to be finished! PlainJaneWriting has a few ongoing series right now, though, all of them awesome, so I'm trying to be patient. ☺️
Did you know? Nikola Tesla's last words to his mother were "All these years I have spent in the service of mankind brought me nothing but insults and humiliation."
Interesting, who is this person Angel Wings dropped into concrete? Was it one of the villains? Either way, I am not getting lovers vibes yet. It kind of feels like the villian is an older sister to the listener.
The poor woman has no-one that she can actually trust. And to think that she finally found someone like her was foolish and naive. The listener is hiding behind their loyalties and fears instead of doing what they should have done from the very beginning. I would not let myself make that mistake. I have made this very mistake many dozens of times over my almost 23 years of life, and I wish to never again do so. If the listener doesn't make things right, they should be stripped of their telepathy... ...permanently. Also, in the real world, I've had a take-home EEG stuck to my head for several days now, with several more to come. I'm always slightly uncomfortable, I'm sleeping like a proper insomniac again, and getting dressed/undressed can easily dislocate the electrodes. All of this is happening because one possibility for my subpar sleep is that my epilepsy gives me micro-seizures when I'm asleep. I get 3-6 of them in a single day back-to-back when they happen during the day. But what happens at night is currently unknown, and I must be miserable for a week total to find out a few months later. But regardless of myself, I hope that you have been doing well. Has anything noteworthy happened that you can share, and has your deaf ear shown any signs of recovery (not including hearing return, which I expect to never happen)? The more we talk, the more I want to know, and vice versa.
Aw man, that's so frustrating. Hang in there, I hope they get some good, helpful information from all this. I'm in the trial period for my hearing aids, figuring out just how much they can help me. Figuring out what the technology can do and what it can't. But so it goes! Take care of yourself!
@nightshadequeenasmr likewise. Your battle may soon be over, and I want you to be free of such hinderances. I genuinely believe that you have it more rough than I do. I may have moderate epilepsy that affects me a lot (although medication is finally working), but your one-sided hearing loss affects everything in your life. And I'm relieved to learn that hearing aids might actually return hearing to your right ear. I honestly did not think that they could.
Oh, they can't return hearing to my right ear with hearing aids. What I've got is called the CROS system. Basically, the hearing aid on my deaf ear is just a microphone and a transmitter. There's a cord going into my ear, but it's a dummy; it holds the hearing aid in place and that's it. What that hearing aid does is pick up sound and transmit it to the hearing aid in my other ear, the one that can hear. So, if someone comes up and talks quietly into my deaf ear, I can hear their voice in my "good" ear. But the problems that come from a lack of localisation can't be fixed. The brain needs two ears to tell where each sound is coming from, and then to use that information to separate out individual sounds. With one ear, all sounds get mushed together, and I can't separate them. If I'm in a noisy restaurant I might as well be fully deaf. I may be able to upgrade my hearing aids and get features like directional amplification, where the mic points to what I'm looking at so the voice of the person I'm facing gets louder. But all these little things are like band aids on a larger problem. Or maybe like having crutches when you can't use one leg. Don't get me wrong, I do okay. I advocate for myself, I tell people what I need in order to be able to hear, and I'm surrounded by supportive people both at home and in the workplace. So I'm getting what I need. It's just more work. I think that's what it comes down to, I have to work harder to do things that I didn't have to think about before. It _might_ be possible for me to get a cochlear implant, but that is again another option with lots of pros and cons. I would entirely have to relearn how to hear on that side and put in time training my ear, and there's no guarantee that the quality of the sound I get will be good. I still don't think I have it that bad, though. It's more frustrating for me because it happened so suddenly, I had to learn all at once how to make some drastic changes. I know so many deaf people who don't even consider deafness to be a disability. I'd like, if I can, to be able to use my experience to educate people about what it's like, so that people will have more patience, but I don't need any pity. I will be fine. I would rather see that energy directed toward something like learning some beginner signs in your regional sign language. Or just remembering to be patient when someone needs time or help.
@nightshadequeenasmr also, I dare say that you are already in a suitable position to educate people on this type of impairment. The only major hurdle is the reach of your channel. (But if you ever managed to find a larger channel willing to help spread the word through community posts linking your educational upload, you could reach millions of people. This is, of course, just a pipe dream, but I still hope for you to have such luck in multiple aspects of life.)
0:35 "And so do Iiii~"
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Wow. Great sequel. I hope there's more!
Ok, Now I'm hooked on the story, and Nightshade's performance is stellar, perfect blend of supportive and inviting character yet still imposingly powerful 💜💜💜
I love how supportive she is.
Thank you! ❤️
"The bad news: sadly, I don't have an ETA on when I can get part three to you" - given first two parts, I'm absolutely sure it will be worth the wait. Both in quality of the script and the intensity of the rendition.
Why thank you! PlainJaneWriting really writes incredible scripts, and I'm honored if I can do them justice!
This is so amazing. I love how this story is unfolding. I hope there is more
There will be!!
...I think I understand some more about this character now. She used to be a hero, but then became disillusioned with her fellows for the various reasons she's been detailing. "You're stronger than they let you be" is the tipoff line, there. That is definitely a speaking from experience line. So it ends up making sense why she's so interested in helping the listener, but also why she keeps pressuring him about the whole "switching sides" thing. She sees a younger version of herself and wants to help, but also wants her choices validated, to see that someone else in her place would have done the same thing. I think what this means (blind speculation here, I'm much less good at prediction than extrapolation) is that, if the listener can show her it _is_ still possible to be good, you _don't_ have to do unto the world what it has done unto you, she might find her way back to the light? Of course, the story could always go the whole "heroes are evil, society is terrible, join the bad guys" route, but that would just be depressing in the extreme, so I'm going to hope.
Ooh, that's a good theory. I don't really know if she used to be a hero, but it would explain so much of her bitterness. As far as which side is good and which is bad, I'm kind of hoping that both the hero and the villain come to the realization that I think would be most realistic - that the divide isn't along lines of good and bad, but of law and chaos. Heroes that work with the government are law enforcement. And in any field anywhere, not just law, you'll find people who are corrupt and people who are selfless. People who take advantage of their power and people who use their power to make lives better. Likewise, there are lawbreakers who are motivated by good purposes, trying to overthrow unjust laws, or to get around unintended consequences of badly-planned rules, as well as those motivated by revenge or personal greed. In real life, I don't think you can write off any whole group of people in either direction. So I'm hoping that turns out to be the case here, with our heroes and villains. That people are just people, and they can't be forced into a mold.
But what do I know? I'm looking forward to whatever PlainJaneWriting has planned!
@@nightshadequeenasmrwhat do you you know? A damn fucking lot more than us is what you know.
Listener: And so we meet again, let’s discuss like yesterday.
The desperation in her voice at the end makes my skin crawl, aaaahhhhhh
Once again, I heard Phoenix's fill of this script first. That doesn't diminish my joy at hearing yours, because your voices are so different as are your techniques. I love your fill!
It's uncanny how often you reach out and give me exactly what I'm thinking about. Amazing work. Wish I had headphones on, i'll have to listen to it again later to get the full effect.
I can see an episode months later where our villain meets the hero in training again, however when she feels something is wrong and probes their mind only to feel nothing and hear static, concluding that they have been made a puppet, or even worse, they have retreated so far into their mind in an attempt to keep their sanity that they are no more then an unfeeling husk of emptyness, and in an attempt to pull them out she only gets a small cry for help before she breaks the wall the hero put up and realizes that she just exposed someone who has locked themselves away for months to everyones thoughts and before she realized, she has the hero close to her heart, shielding them instinctively
What a cool idea! Very sad and very sweet! We'll see what PlainJaneWriting has planned for us!
You mf... Keep my money! 💸
Best training ever! Not exactly "wax on, wax off" but it's safe to say the listener's learned alot. Cool audio my Queen! LOVED IT!!!😊💚👍
Thank you!!
@nightshadequeenasmr You're always welcome my Queen!😊
She's quickly becoming my favorite character
Oh, thank you!
I've heard a few renditions of this script, but this is my favorite.
I really like how you portray her inner conflict, her flase bravado and how she laughs bitterly at the end.
Can't wait for the next part!🤓
Oh. The ending? This is going to be interesting for sure. 👀👀👀
Yay ! Telepaths ! ^^ Theses stories are so rare yet so full of possibilities !
Also : "it is against my community guidelines to threaten me OR my characters." Oh. I didn't knew that, or needed that to be a rule. 👀
I think that 99% of the people who break this rule don't have bad intentions. They are still in a roleplay mindset, thinking of how to approach this monstrous character that they don't like. What weapon they could use, how they could hurt her... like they're in an rpg. And then they leave a comment in character about what they plan to do, referring to the character as a vague "her" or sometimes even "you". And even though I *know* it's probably meant harmlessly, it's not good for my mental health to read all these threats/plans to attack. It makes my comments section a scary place rather than a safe one. Particularly since I know there are people who don't really separate me from the characters. It can very much feel like these comments are directed towards me.
I know there's only so much I can do, but I hope that by pointing it out, more people will think before they send that reply and things will get a little better. 💗 Thank you for the comment!
@@nightshadequeenasmr It's my pleasure ! ^^
Thank you for explaining ^^
NEED A PART 3 ASAP ❤
PlainJaneWriting is working on the script!
8 am IS the the crack of dawn.
I absolutely LOVE the thumbnail XD
Idk, your art and artstyle always has me impressed like HOW??? ITS SO GAH DAMN GOOD!! XD
(Anyways bai bai enough babbling from me ;p)
Aw, thank you! I'm really honored to hear that!
general kenobi! 🗿
Hahaha yes!! ❤️🩷☺️
I have been trained in your Jedi Arts…by Count Dooku.
Why do I have the funny feeling that the listeners breaking through her mental defenses and why do also have the funny feeling that in the next episode is going to be some angst and these two are going to get hurt or during the fight she starts confessing her feelings to him and I do think she was crying You know the listener and your character puts me in mind of the two sides of Jean Gray from The X-Men You being the dark Phoenix and listener being a normal Jean Gray@@nightshadequeenasmr
@@nightshadequeenasmrbut I kind of wonder which version of Jean Gray is going to win out the listener or you or you both going to be winners
@@nightshadequeenasmrdid the listener actually lie to about her feelings when he read her mind
Oh these are great! Excited to see how it turns out
Thank you!
Mind Queen may be a villain, but she’s quite heroic helping us with our powers and building our confidence
Right? I feel like she's got a good heart ❤️
@@nightshadequeenasmr she really does. And she’s right about how heroes use their status as heroes to act like jerks. Maybe the listener should join Mind Queen
Reunited and it feels so good
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Cant believe how bad we fumbled that one, hopefully we can get back on track here, great story and absolutely loving the character. Keep it up my queen 👑
Wow that’s really good. Liking this one a lot
Thank you! 🩷
The story of learning to trust and love, Opposites irresistibly being attracted to each other. Waiting for the next episode will be the hardest part Queen 🙏😊
For me, too! I have no idea what's coming and I'm so curious!
@@nightshadequeenasmr Dang those brilliant writers eh ☺ Warm up your voice and pencils! Anticipation is so worth it.
@KilgourTrout64410 hehe, I wonder if I'll get to draw her in a new outfit next time...
@@nightshadequeenasmr Might be neat. Makes you wonder why Hero's and Villain's always wear the same outfit? Villain's especially 🤔. Kinda fashion stuck like Dr. Who.
A quote that comes to mind, “I don’t believe you’re a bad person. I believe that you believe bad people.”
Part 3 please I wanna hear how this goes I’m dying for it
it seems that crime really does pay, not only does she have a house but a pool and poolhouse as well
Great video I hope you haven’t been pushing yourself too hard :3
Trying not to, my knight - thank you! 🩷
I love this audio
Thank you!
My part-time enemy could do with a slice of cheesecake, a really good cup of coffee, and a long cuddle in a cozy chair. Maybe with some hair petting.
Nope. I'm not projecting.
But also... she is sweet. Like dark chocolate: smooth, a bit bitter, but just makes me want to hold her and let her know that it's okay.
Again, thank you, Nightshade. You do so very well with these tormented characters.
Oh man, I have such a craving for cheesecake right now. Cheesecake and cuddles sounds even better. 😋 Thank you for the kind comment! I'm so glad you like her!
Wonderful beautiful voice great job my majestic I love that.
❤ ❤❤ awesome as always
Thank you!
Love hearing your voice and stores 😊
😊 Thank you!!
@nightshadequeenasmr this video you were at your most soothing. Also your most flirty... Got me getting butterflies what is this? 🤣😅
The ending laugh we know would turn to crying was so sad tho. 😢
I did several takes of the ending, and when I listened back to them, the one with that heartbroken laugh was clearly the best. I can't wait to find out what happens in part 3!
@@nightshadequeenasmr Me too. This script has so much potential too. Also idk why, but the endings with the listener running are pure vibes. This one, then the space captain 2nd part
Oh, I'd forgotten about that! Both of those are PlainJaneWriting - she really knows how to end a script on a dramatic cliffhanger!
@@nightshadequeenasmr Exactly. I love plain Jane's writing so much
Exactly, I can hear them, which is why I can’t leave. They know where my family is… and I wish I could say they wouldn’t harm civilians to keep me, but we both know that’s not true. I can’t leave. They… every one else in my family is normal, they can’t protect themselves… I can’t protect them… I Have to stay with the hero’s.
Ooooooh _that's_ a really interesting take!
Sweet 🧁
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"Stronger than they let-" Hmmm, now this is a very interesting line to have her cut herself off on. "Let them/us normally be"? "let us think we are"? "let us be without forcing some kind of control onto us"? Maybe something to do with the Whim Wizard guy that poorly taught the listener how to user their telepathy and such? Actually, thinking about this and her earlier claim that there were no government research projects on superpowers, I'm more inclined to think she was lying about that and that there are, but they're extremely dark and secretive, and possibly using telepaths like the Whim Wizard to control heroes that are too powerful to be 'safe'? I'm pretty sure she's already confirmed she can brainwash and control people, and it's like other powerful telepaths can do the same, so high power telepaths that are corrupt and helping the elite rule via brainwashing wouldn't be unexpected
As for "You hear their thoughts and still think you're on the good guys' side" - well, who forces these confrontations? Are the villains being ambushed in their homes while not doing anything illegal? Or are they being stopped while they're in the process of committing a crime? Surely she can't be so delusional as to think her side are 'the good guys', given she hears many of their thoughts as well and knows damn well that many, or even most, of the villains are irredeemable monsters who take great pleasure in the harm they cause.
As for her threatening the listener...if she doesn't ease up on that, she's likely to mess up and make what might be a fatal mistake, given she's got very conflicted feelings about the listener and has let them in at least a bit, and that kind of thing is something that might be targeted by instinct if the listener has to lash out to defend themselves from her attacking them, even if she is the far more experienced telepath
Part 3pls(it’s ok if you can’t)
Just waiting on the script to be finished! PlainJaneWriting has a few ongoing series right now, though, all of them awesome, so I'm trying to be patient. ☺️
Did you know? Nikola Tesla's last words to his mother were "All these years I have spent in the service of mankind brought me nothing but insults and humiliation."
Interesting, who is this person Angel Wings dropped into concrete? Was it one of the villains? Either way, I am not getting lovers vibes yet. It kind of feels like the villian is an older sister to the listener.
The poor woman has no-one that she can actually trust. And to think that she finally found someone like her was foolish and naive. The listener is hiding behind their loyalties and fears instead of doing what they should have done from the very beginning. I would not let myself make that mistake. I have made this very mistake many dozens of times over my almost 23 years of life, and I wish to never again do so. If the listener doesn't make things right, they should be stripped of their telepathy...
...permanently.
Also, in the real world, I've had a take-home EEG stuck to my head for several days now, with several more to come. I'm always slightly uncomfortable, I'm sleeping like a proper insomniac again, and getting dressed/undressed can easily dislocate the electrodes. All of this is happening because one possibility for my subpar sleep is that my epilepsy gives me micro-seizures when I'm asleep. I get 3-6 of them in a single day back-to-back when they happen during the day. But what happens at night is currently unknown, and I must be miserable for a week total to find out a few months later. But regardless of myself, I hope that you have been doing well. Has anything noteworthy happened that you can share, and has your deaf ear shown any signs of recovery (not including hearing return, which I expect to never happen)? The more we talk, the more I want to know, and vice versa.
Aw man, that's so frustrating. Hang in there, I hope they get some good, helpful information from all this.
I'm in the trial period for my hearing aids, figuring out just how much they can help me. Figuring out what the technology can do and what it can't. But so it goes!
Take care of yourself!
@nightshadequeenasmr likewise. Your battle may soon be over, and I want you to be free of such hinderances. I genuinely believe that you have it more rough than I do. I may have moderate epilepsy that affects me a lot (although medication is finally working), but your one-sided hearing loss affects everything in your life. And I'm relieved to learn that hearing aids might actually return hearing to your right ear. I honestly did not think that they could.
Oh, they can't return hearing to my right ear with hearing aids. What I've got is called the CROS system. Basically, the hearing aid on my deaf ear is just a microphone and a transmitter. There's a cord going into my ear, but it's a dummy; it holds the hearing aid in place and that's it. What that hearing aid does is pick up sound and transmit it to the hearing aid in my other ear, the one that can hear. So, if someone comes up and talks quietly into my deaf ear, I can hear their voice in my "good" ear. But the problems that come from a lack of localisation can't be fixed. The brain needs two ears to tell where each sound is coming from, and then to use that information to separate out individual sounds. With one ear, all sounds get mushed together, and I can't separate them. If I'm in a noisy restaurant I might as well be fully deaf. I may be able to upgrade my hearing aids and get features like directional amplification, where the mic points to what I'm looking at so the voice of the person I'm facing gets louder. But all these little things are like band aids on a larger problem. Or maybe like having crutches when you can't use one leg.
Don't get me wrong, I do okay. I advocate for myself, I tell people what I need in order to be able to hear, and I'm surrounded by supportive people both at home and in the workplace. So I'm getting what I need. It's just more work. I think that's what it comes down to, I have to work harder to do things that I didn't have to think about before.
It _might_ be possible for me to get a cochlear implant, but that is again another option with lots of pros and cons. I would entirely have to relearn how to hear on that side and put in time training my ear, and there's no guarantee that the quality of the sound I get will be good.
I still don't think I have it that bad, though. It's more frustrating for me because it happened so suddenly, I had to learn all at once how to make some drastic changes. I know so many deaf people who don't even consider deafness to be a disability. I'd like, if I can, to be able to use my experience to educate people about what it's like, so that people will have more patience, but I don't need any pity. I will be fine. I would rather see that energy directed toward something like learning some beginner signs in your regional sign language. Or just remembering to be patient when someone needs time or help.
I forgot to say that I'm glad your medication is working!
@nightshadequeenasmr also, I dare say that you are already in a suitable position to educate people on this type of impairment. The only major hurdle is the reach of your channel. (But if you ever managed to find a larger channel willing to help spread the word through community posts linking your educational upload, you could reach millions of people. This is, of course, just a pipe dream, but I still hope for you to have such luck in multiple aspects of life.)
This? _This shit right here?_ Gourmet 🤌.
Thank you!