i have already locked my emotions in my ice temple due to rejections negative childhood physical mental emotional sexual abuse committed against me as a child, i was a confused angered child and unprofessional immature rude ignorant people in society in general burning every bridge i have ever built hypothetical of course which in return has rendered me soulless lifeless emotionless heartless and colder than my ice temple itself. i have accepted this and the fact that i will never bond with anyone or place my love or trust that i have established once again over 17 years to anyone because no one is more deserving of my trust and love except myself, however cannot place my love and trust to anyone when i dont love and trust myself and like never will. The thoughts in my own mind are not my own and my demons are my own i have accepted them in, they keep me company and darkness is where i feel safest.
Still a working progress managing everything but i am much better than i was i am on the autism spectrum and still have minor anger issues but i have never physically harmed anyone, that is where music plays a major role for music is my life, my coping mechanism for the known and unknown in my own mind music is my everything.
the same damaging message repeated over and over again will have a sure effect. "why can't you be like them?" say that enough to me and I'll go the opposite way you want. That happened for some time until through the grace of God I had found a great reason for life.
Extreme depression as well but i am far from perfect but then again who is? We all have our demons some already in control like mine, some waiting stalking lurking in the shadows waiting for the opportune time.
@@Anothuor I have ways of coping that reduce the severity of my depression. I am mentally stronger than I was. It affects me constantly but as insane as this will sound, everything negative aspect I have been through my entire life till now, has made me mentally stronger than ever. It's made me who I am today, I do still go through negative shit on daily basis, I cant eliminate that, however I manage it much better than I used to.
@@Anothuor Likewise. I hope you dont have depression and other mental situations going on, it's never enjoyable. Dont be like me having to rely on other sources (not society) to maintain mental sanity.
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This does feel like a classic, I love the atmosphere, every time...
i have already locked my emotions in my ice temple due to rejections negative childhood physical mental emotional sexual abuse committed against me as a child, i was a confused angered child and unprofessional immature rude ignorant people in society in general burning every bridge i have ever built hypothetical of course which in return has rendered me soulless lifeless emotionless heartless and colder than my ice temple itself. i have accepted this and the fact that i will never bond with anyone or place my love or trust that i have established once again over 17 years to anyone because no one is more deserving of my trust and love except myself, however cannot place my love and trust to anyone when i dont love and trust myself and like never will. The thoughts in my own mind are not my own and my demons are my own i have accepted them in, they keep me company and darkness is where i feel safest.
Hey
Still a working progress managing everything but i am much better than i was i am on the autism spectrum and still have minor anger issues but i have never physically harmed anyone, that is where music plays a major role for music is my life, my coping mechanism for the known and unknown in my own mind music is my everything.
A tip : watch movies at flixzone. Me and my gf have been using them for watching all kinds of movies during the lockdown.
@Alejandro Francis yea, I've been using flixzone for months myself :)
@Alejandro Francis yup, have been using Flixzone for months myself :)
@Alejandro Francis definitely, have been using Flixzone for years myself :)
You let me love XtraTone
the same damaging message repeated over and over again will have a sure effect. "why can't you be like them?" say that enough to me and I'll go the opposite way you want. That happened for some time until through the grace of God I had found a great reason for life.
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Extreme depression as well but i am far from perfect but then again who is? We all have our demons some already in control like mine, some waiting stalking lurking in the shadows waiting for the opportune time.
@@Anothuor I have ways of coping that reduce the severity of my depression. I am mentally stronger than I was. It affects me constantly but as insane as this will sound, everything negative aspect I have been through my entire life till now, has made me mentally stronger than ever. It's made me who I am today, I do still go through negative shit on daily basis, I cant eliminate that, however I manage it much better than I used to.
@@Anothuor Likewise. I hope you dont have depression and other mental situations going on, it's never enjoyable. Dont be like me having to rely on other sources (not society) to maintain mental sanity.
@@Anothuor This COVID 19 dont help none either.
me too
Your songs are awesome!
Ta jest świetna
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Is that Esdeath?
yeah i think so
Was my first guess as well.
Who else
Yes