Hai brother i am also this situation i have lot of symptoms l........10th day HIV1 PCR negative,......43th day P24 antigen negative....48th day Hiv duo negative ......i am waiting for 90day test.....😢😢😢😢😢😢😢 I am very Stressed........
Brother need your update your videos are 3 years ild now kindly make new about your health and anxiety how test u did it gonna help us surely Its a request
After 14 days 4th generation tests do not change their results. Here in the states tests are considered conclusive after 90 days. HIV doesn’t hide. Stigma in the cause of your fear. HIV is a chronic condition that is treatable by taking one pill a day. Check out U=U. It allows people to live full lives without transmitting the virus. You won’t go crazy. Build some healthy habits and manage your stress. Fear will become an addiction if you don’t get ahead of this.
I had an exposure on 26th Dec 2023 got ill with sore throat on 28th Dec,treated causally with sore throat issue ,it persisted ,googled ,sore throat came with hiv symptom got panicked tested at 3 weeks got negative results,many symptoms started to come rashes,gum swelling,needle pinching ,mouth ulcers and all,someone told 3 weeks to early to test,again tested after 6 weeks came negative ,and again multiple rash coming dermatitis ,and now got shingles after 3 months,been to many doctors no conclusive answers,don’t know what to do
@@saadsohail6520 Firstly you didn’t have an exposure unless the person or vector of contact was with someone that is HIV+. You might have had sex with someone whose status you don’t know. Very different than an exposure. Based on the tests you have taken at this point you are negative. Tests after 15 days don’t change. With all these “symptoms” you have you would have tested positive for HIV. HIV doesn’t hide. Symptoms would be a byproduct of your body fighting the virus which would create antibodies, which is what the tests look for. Im sure this message you have just sent me is a watered down version of what this fear is doing to you. Taking the reality of how chronic anxiety affects the body, understand that all these “symptoms” are likely a byproduct of said anxiety. If you are searching things on line, hyper focused on your body, not accepting results, looking for constant confirmation that you are okay or will be okay, you are suffering from health anxiety which! Will screw you up if you don’t get it under control. Practice general hygiene, sleep, eat right, exercise, meditate, stop looking things up on line. Facts: tests don’t lie and HIV doesn’t hide. Good luck on your journey towards mental health.
@@joelopez3105 Thank you for replying ,I am only getting panicked as before 26th December I had no health issues at all,and after that got issues out of nowhere and every 2,3 days I am getting a new symptom,God knows what it is
Something that has worked for me is anti-depressants which work for anxiety. I've been on it since 1999. Sometimes I need to ramp up higher and then I ramp down, always while working with my doctor.
I do agree that medication can pave the way towards balance. For me, during my initial onset, medication allowed me to get the sleep I needed to start working towards the long term fix. It did have side effects though which also created roadblocks. Recently I have changed some of my internal dialog with a focus on living in my present. Being present in the moments that I’m in. I have found that it helps stop any hyper focusing on the unknown future. I began my battle with anxiety/HIV Phobia back in 2018 and have since made tremendous strides. You are obviously more at risk if you did engage in incentive sex (I read your other comment) and I wish you lived in a world without this stigma and fear. That’s really what this page has become for me. A mechanism to fight again HIV stigma. No one deserves HIV and it’s sad how many people view it as a punishment. Fortunately it’s just a chronic condition now. I also find that most people I speak with on here are also OCD to some extent.
You said go get tested if you are worried and I wish I can go get tested... Joe Lopez my anxiety and contamination OCD is so bad that I think I will get contaminated with HIV or something else from the lab like the needle is contaminated, it's totally irrational I know. What ideas do you have for being able to go get tested.
Sharing this burden is the key. You sound like your sailing in the same boat I was. It’s hard to share this fear with those that we have confidence in, because it’s detrimental towards our self image. Talking about it online maintains an anonymity. Actually talking to someone makes it feel that much more real and scary. Early on in my struggle I found that discussing this fear with people I cared for and in turn that cared for me gave me the strength to test and the strength to really endure some of my darkest days. You will find once you overcome this your OCD will eventually find something else to latch onto. You may get several months of reprieve, only with building healthy mental habits will you overcome the next wave. My father was my confidant. I was completely honest with him. After that I shared my fears with everyone I could. Talking about it gave me the ability to move forward. Hence this page. Knowing you aren’t alone in your struggle was huge. It doesn’t mean you should be cautious as to who you allow into your life. Unfortunately there are people living with this fear that are so far gone that they simply don’t want to suffer alone. Spend enough time on UA-cam and you will find the HIV conspiracy pages. I don’t recommend that you go down that path. It did more damage than good. Another thing you can do is get real with yourself about the outcomes. What does it mean to be HIV+. It means that you live a normal life taking a pill a day. You can’t transmit nor will you get sick. No different than diabetes. When you are HIV- , you will remind yourself to have safe sex and get tested annually if you are sexually active. It’s just being healthy. Like brushing your teeth or exercising. Create routines in your life. It was my saving grace. You can also reach out to me in Instagram @enderrevin, when you go get tested. I’ll be sitting on this side of the screen as you wait 20mins for your results if necessary. Good luck on your journey towards mental health.
I’ve been watching your videos, and it’s nice to know that I’m not the only one who is dealing with this. I’ve been going through hiv anxiety for the past three months. I’ve had a total of eleven 4th generation hiv tests, and they have all been negative. My second-to- last test was on July 10th, 15 days ago, and after I got my negative result, I started fearing that the phlebotomist who drew my blood at the lab used a contaminated ( or hiv-contaminated needle) on me, because I recalled the person had their back turned to me as she was assembling the needle and blood drawing equipment, and therefore, I didn’t see where she got the needle from. Then my anxiety and fears started all over again. Mind you, this is a lab I’ve gone to for several of my other tests, and the person who drew my blood that time also drew my blood on two of my prior tests. But I became convinced that she used a contaminated needle on me, and I had a series of anxiety-related episodes and intrusive thoughts, as well as physical symptoms ( feverish, sore throat, hot feelings all over my body). It bothered me to the point to where I got tested again yesterday ( 14 days from the blood draw) with another 4th generation test, and the results came back negative today. And although two weeks is an early time to test after what may be an exposure, I’m relieved, but the anxiety and intrusive thoughts are still lingering. I don’t know how to break free from this loop.
Sharing your story hopefully took the edge off. It’s an addiction like any other. Read through the comments and you will quickly see how you truly aren’t alone in this suffering. For me I had to do a hard Reset. I took a couple months and did nothing but meditate. I wouldn’t allow myself to get anxious. I had gotten so bad that even the gym would cause a panic attack. Getting my sleep under control was crucial to my battle. It took time and allot of effort. I used so many affirmations. Some physical some were mantras I would repeat. It was hard, only I had to get better. There wasn’t an option for me to remain in the cycle. Try journaling to help identify your cycle of addiction. Read through some of my other comments and you will see other things you could try. You are negative. Tests don’t lie. Medical staff don’t contaminate. Stay off the internet. When I really needed advise I used quora not google searches. The algorithm literally tells you that it’s always the worst. Good luck on your journey towards mental health.
@@joelopez3105 it does feel good to talk about it and not be judged or dismissed as crazy. I’m trying my best to try and find ways to gain control of my mind. I’ve been doing a lot of walking to help clear my head for example. But the main thing that is preventing me from moving on, aside from my intrusive thoughts, is my physician symptoms. And I don’t know if my symptoms are a result of my anxiety or if my anxiety is a result of my symptoms. And this what further drives my thoughts and paranoias.
@@michaelcaballero1937 actually i’ve been going through this after i’ve overruled the last exposure which was with condom i had made a test and thought the dr used a used syringe which is contained hiv i’ve with this for like 40 days last test was rapidtest which i made i bought 2 from different manufacturers one of them became positive with really faint line after 13 mins of putting the buffer and the other one was conclusive negative so i bought another 2 one a different company and the other is the same company that gave me a faint line they came back negative this all was after 30 days from the blood drawn after the blood drawn by 21 days started to feel like my lymphnodes in my neck are enlarged so i kept playing with em till one of them really turned to be seen and it back to normal after 2 days now i’m feeling like my armpit swell and muscles hurts pain in my joint they all come and go and same for sore throat which is kept for half day and then it disappears really afraid to take another test and feeling like i’ll be in this cycle forever ……..
I’m on this same boat, I had a protected sex encounter with a female friend and 34 days later I got sick with flu like symptoms for just one day so I tested with the 4th generation from the vein and it was negative Then tested 55 days later with a RNA PCR TEST and it was also negative, they tell me I’m not infected at all and to move on but my mind is playing this games with me, I’ve also had some kind of throat allergy since 2 weeks after being with my friend and that’s also playing tricks on me saying I do have HIV 😕😕😕
I'm 18 years old, a virgin, never used needles, never had a blood transfusion and my life is in shambles over these hiv thoughts. I cry every single day. Everyone tells me I'm alright and I don't need a test, I don't know what to believe. This anxiety is killing me and all of my relationships with my family, partner because I'm never happy to do anything with them because I can't distract myself from these thoughts. I'm so scared if i say I'm alright I'd be proven wrong.
You recognize that your thoughts and feelings are irrational. That’s a good thing. Many of us experience this which means you are at a point to pull it all back together. There is allot I can share only in this medium without instantaneous responses, I find to be less affective. You can message me me on Instagram at EnderRevin. Regarding your situation there is a root cause of your current condition and it’s not HIV. I can help you figure that out with time. I also recommend seeking counseling and developing healthy routines. This path you are on can become extremely self destructive with lasting affects. I’m glad you are seeking help. Knowing where to find it is also difficult. Good luck on your journey. Hope to hear from you.
Nice vid, u already 100% recover now? I''m on the same boat like you now, and still trying to overcome my anxiety, i fear of hiv from a zero risk ( that what my doctor and many forum said ) I get a test at 8 week after exposure, the doctor said test above 6 week consider conclusive in that lab and my country regulation, but still the anxiety take over my mind
I’m very sorry about the late response. 4 months late is bad on me. Exhaustion during the peak of my anxiety was common place. It also tied into the depression I was suffering from. I hope by now you have begun to win your battles with anxiety.
hey joe,I had sex with my ex bf 2011 I got tested 2015 do u think they did it right,though my ex is fine he's enjoying his life and working hard,I just had this fear after watching so many videos
You are completely fine. Sorry about the late response. UA-cam moves comments around on me and I just learned how to sort them. I hope you aren’t carrying this fear with you.
hello Joe, how are you? Can I ask you to make the latest video about your current health and mental health, I really want to know, and I want you to pray for me because next month I will do a test at 6 months after the risky incident.
Sergio Luciano if you have read some of my previous responses to others you understand that at 3 months you are negative 10000%. You may actually be suffering from a mental health issue. The good news is that there is something you can do about it. It takes work and commitment to finding a path forward that allows you to be happy. The HIV scare is over and you need to decided what a healthy future is for you. Start by getting back to basics. Find a counselor that works for you. It may not happen your first time. Next, get into a healthy regiment of sleep, meditation, and positive activities. Drinking and late nights are the true enemy towards growth. You are accomplishing nothing productive after 1030 pm. Sorry I don’t give out my number, but realize you are not alone in this suffering. I survived and so can you. Good luck on your journey towards mental health.
Hi. Recently, I started watching your videos because of my hiv anxiety. I'm going through what you're telling completely. I wonder how this anxiety affected your sexual life and normal life and did you recover it later?
@@joelopez3105 i hope you are well right now. i have anxiety for years but no situation could affect me this way. i tested in 19 and 38 days and came back negative. however, google and window period made me insane
@@fratkejrk Searching the internet is something you need to get under control. It’s not healthy for you. Your results will not change. You are negative. 90 days is what’s recommended by the CDC although most countries consider a test conclusive after 15 days.
@@joelopez3105 its been 8 weeks and I have a sore throat and dry coach for a few days. i am really tired of feeling scared and suspicious. constantly i feel like i have it. i guess i will test one more time. my doctor said me to wait for 6 months but i can't continue my life like that
@@fratkejrk your Dr is wrong on windows to test. You will find in some of my videos that this has happened to me. Remember Drs practice medicine. They don’t know about everything. The NPC I was with literally googled what to tell me and found an old website. I won’t get into search algorithms. Let’s just say internet searches are click bait. Your symptoms can be that you are just sick. You have tested and you are negative.
I’ve had 3 tests over a year and I have terrible symptoms but I’m ok the fear makes your body tense up and feel like you’ve got it . Negative three times I now believe I’m ok . Haven’t had sex for a year .
Bro i am also same to u i have tested for hiv at 150 days but i am still think I have hiv virus to my body anxiety still remain... And bro after exposure I take PEP TREATMENT FOR 28 days always I think pep medicine suppress the virus to my body always think also extend the window period of hiv test by pep medicine....
Hi mate I feel dry mouth some rashes on my Tung not properly sleep I done teast after 3 month but body still showing some changes but can I do please reply
Have you been to the Dr? If not get yourself scheduled. You don’t have HIV. Your tests were negative and the tests don’t lie. The Symptoms you are experiencing aren’t related to HIV. Sounds to me like anxiety. You would have to explain more about what anxiety symptoms you are experiencing.
Im experiencing anxiety as of now because im scared to having HIV I stop to do sex and Im waiting 3 months to test myself I hope my result is nonreactive huhuhu im scared huhuhuhu
I hadn’t heard this term before. I looked it up and it’s interesting how it happened on such a large scale in China. For those that come across this comment it’s referring to fatigue and stress that cause the symptoms NOT HIV.
@@joelopez3105 it is hard to get information about yinzibing. Bcz they used firewall to down all the information related to yinzibing . But it is real. It has affected lakhs of people .the point is why isn't this disease catching the eye of media . Bcz people feel shame in facing media as this is considered to be sexually transmitted disease . Its mostly effects men and less women's . Brazil china India Russia are most effected countries. But no test can detect it as it is a lab made virus . It has obvious physical symptoms like white tongue , facial fat loss, abdominal fat gain. Still it is called aids phobia by Chinese howere 2019 study by China says it is not completely mental disease. It is a huge coverup disease.
Deja Bolt You are negative. There are pre existing conditions that would cause the virus to present as late as 3 months. The tests are extremely sensitive. Most countries state that a test is conclusive after 15 days. Obviously the US is very conservative with window periods due to liability. Your tests is conclusive. If you are sexually active, taking a test during your annual physical is a healthy thing to do. If you found my video I’m making the assumption that you are dealing with anxiety and fear regarding HIV. Read through some other comments left on my videos and you will find out you are not alone. It’s a rational fear to have, only it’s extremely rare. Everyone that has reached out to me with these fears has not once come back positive after testing. Good luck on your journey.
@@dejabolt4486 Im glad you are making progress. It’s as definitive as the sun rising that you are negative. It’s the healthy habits you will need to create for yourself that is difficult. Don’t be to hard on yourself if each day isn’t brimming with progress. I promise you will get there. As they other “symptoms” present remind yourself it’s okay to not feel well. It’s very natural. Your state of mind drives your day. Allow positive thoughts and be grateful for the gifts you have. As I meditated this morning, I took a moment to give thanks to the air that filled my lungs. What we appreciate doesn’t need to be big. I’m happy you are over the hardest part of this an I applaud your strength. You got this! Good luck on your journey.
Going through the same thing bro I am crying I received a blow job from a massage girl 3/4 months ago got tested got non reactive result and severe anxiety startrd
@@AnonyMous-u4e have you get test I test in 40,50, and 70days for rapid finger neg but my doctor said I should test after 90days and tommorow is 95days finally I go get my final test tommorow so pray for me bro 😢🙏
okay so this all started happening after i lost my virginity in february. He wore a condom constantly says he’s clean but ever since then i havent been me. i tested for hiv at 5 weeks, 10 weeks, 94 days, 108 days, 115 days and 145 days. I have a tiny pea size lymph node in neck i can feel a tiny one on the other side as well you can feel them not see them people are saying i can get them from stress and worry and trust me ive been under lots if stress they never cane up until i was looking all over my neck for them. they just feel like peas they havent grown in 4 months! could this really all be anxiety? am i going crazy? my doctor started me on the anxiety pill lexapro. she has me seeing a therapist. people are telling me their conclusive after 90 days but idk. PLEASE HELP
Krista Scheibel Your tests are conclusive. At 90 days it is conclusive. Look up what that word “conclusive” means. I had taken a screen shot of the definition and I would look at it when my anxiety started to surface. HIV doesn’t hide in your body. As I read your message I hear a couple things going on. I’m sure your message only conveys a fraction of the overwhelming anguish and despair you feel. Regarding your lymph node. As you prod it, causes it to rise. Anxiety will cause physical symptoms. As I learned to manage my anxiety, my body got better. I’m so glad to hear you are talking to a counselor. I was medicated for a short time during the onset of my anxiety. I needed it as I wasn’t sleeping at night. Once I learned the tools to manage my anxiety I worked myself off the medication. I hope as you overcome this situation you can once again being to enjoy your sexuality. Life is to short to be afflicted by fear. You will beat this as you are on the right path. Check out some of my other videos. I hope they help. Good luck on your journey towards mental health.
Joe Lopez okay thank you. i just have been freaking myself out thinking it could still show up and like with my lymph nodes can they really be risen from stress? did you have them at all? thank you for taking the time to reply to me. I was going to test again once it hit august.
Krista Scheibel Stress can cause it. No need to test again. Although having a healthy sex life means you should get tested every year during your physical.
Brother please reply your silence makes me think data you provided in your video is not correct and tests are not conclusive negative person can positive after a year or 2
He’s negative I recently spoke to him. If you haven’t already seek a mental health counselor about this and see them regularly, work on good habits and stay busy doing healthy activities, identify your triggers, identify the negative thought loop that is going on your mind. These things have helped me a lot with my HIV anxiety. I’m not completely out of the woods yet but I have been doing better by doing all these things.
Joe , did your doctor tell you to test 1 year after the exposure day ? My primary says a 4th generation hiv test at 6 months after a potential exposure is not conclusive have to wait a year to really know if your are truly negative
That Dr is wrong. In one of my videos I talk about a health care provider trying to tell me the same thing. Remember they are practicing medicine. I was fortunate enough that by the time the provider gave me this bad info I was already well educated on the topic. When I told the provider the info about testing at a year was wrong they explained they got it from a website. Can you believe that shit. Just some random website and is then telling me this bad info as though it were gospel. I had them pull the website and showed them how outdated the info was. They were very appreciative about the knowledge. Honestly it wasn’t her fault. That’s why there are experts in fields. It’s also why googling symptoms is the worst thing you can do. The algorithm is designed in a way to show click bate. Hence the worst scenario possible. Internet searching is dangerous regarding illnesses. I learned over time how to search things. You will even find videos on UA-cam on HIV conspiracies. Trust me stay away from all those rabbit holes. I took those paths at the onset of my mental collapse and they were devastating and total bull shit. You couldn’t be more negative.
@@joelopez3105 insane man, he screwed my mind when he said that and my mind created a whole new world with me already living with HIV He really freaked me out It’s been 9 months since and I still test every month because I can’t get my fears controlled 🤦♂️
@@joelopez3105m glad you've spoken about this,it seems there are so many uneducated people who find it so easy to sit behind a keyboard and type some scary stuff they know nothing about.I simply say,in this time and age anyone tells you about a 6 months test is someone you should not waste a second of your precious life listening to.
I’m doing well. I still suffer from health anxiety only I manage those symptoms with meditation. I have built healthy routines. If I don’t manage myself I can slip back into my anxiety.
Bro hope u see my comment I had a exposure (my 1st tym) Protected one but ulcer on my mouth i do oral on her (i was her 3rd partner) Then this thought strike me after 53rd day of exposure I tested rapid card test on 53 70 83 and 91 days Still having anxiety Is rapid test are good or not My mind challenging me to go for advance test like viral load Thinking this all day I had a blood transfusion 6 year back So now fear has gone to that part to doubting the transfusion
I had one needle stick exposure one time with unknown patients sample I was negative at 100 day after But it start a hiv phobia in me , on day i had very none important and pointless that i assumed it may be exposure I got sterss and went to hiv councling center . It was big mistake There were closed and there was man who asked me , and sayed he wa there to test The second i scared my be he spiit on me while speaking and went to my eye and i didn't realized Is it possible to get hiv from this exposure ? Should I get tested again I am really tired of testing And go this road again What do you think bro ?
There is without a doubt no need to retest. Spit in the eye is not an exposure. If you have tested negative at 100 days your a conclusively Negative. Good luck on your journey towards mental health.
@@joelopez3105 Thanks my brother God bless you and your family and protect you from any bad thing You gived an answer in just 4 minutes Thanks a lot Its just fears me when i search at internet They say there might be a little chance if his mouth bleeding and then spot in my eyes ... You know a very bad thing about hiv phobia is three major people reaction: First those who know you're free but you're crazy and not normal Second group that think bad about you I live in slamic country that its taboo having unofficial sexual relationship if you aren't married Whic i never had anything like it , i didn't touch any body , i am not a intervenes drug user or... I am just a med lab students that got needle stick and they don't believe even my coworker who saw the needle stick 😐 And third those say there is no harm at retesting , they assume its a blood sugar level test that has no mental pressure Again thanks a lot ❤️
@@parsa4711 Thank you for sharing your story. I always try to respond as soon as possible as I’m fully aware of how powerfully scary these feelings can be. You are right on those three accounts as to how people view those with HIV Phobia. I might add that people like us probably have a propensity to worry about things. The stigma behind HIV is what I’m truly trying to combat now. HIV is considered a chronic condition these days. It doesn’t stop anyone that is being treated from having a happy and healthy life. Cultural norms also paint people with HIV as dirty, when in reality it can happen to anyone. I’m so sorry you are experiencing this. Please stop searching the internet. Nothing good ever comes of searching symptoms.
@@joelopez3105 totally . Of course Sorry dear friend My English is not very good I scared if you got my fist question wrong I meant first i got a needle stick and negative for that after 100 day But this spiiting is after that incident So if its that ? It doesn't need retesting for the second time (spiiting)
Thanks for being who you are joe . An inspiration and great help to a lot of people I am sure
I am so glad you came back and start helping people God less you please keep helping
Hai brother i am also this situation i have lot of symptoms l........10th day HIV1 PCR negative,......43th day P24 antigen negative....48th day Hiv duo negative ......i am waiting for 90day test.....😢😢😢😢😢😢😢 I am very Stressed........
Please keep uploading videos it's really helps a lot
I totally understand u this illness will take anybody to their core....
Brother need your update your videos are 3 years ild now kindly make new about your health and anxiety how test u did it gonna help us surely
Its a request
I am terribly scared. I was told to wait at least 6 weeks after potential exposure, and now it's only the end of the second week. I'll go crazy.
After 14 days 4th generation tests do not change their results. Here in the states tests are considered conclusive after 90 days. HIV doesn’t hide. Stigma in the cause of your fear. HIV is a chronic condition that is treatable by taking one pill a day. Check out U=U. It allows people to live full lives without transmitting the virus. You won’t go crazy. Build some healthy habits and manage your stress. Fear will become an addiction if you don’t get ahead of this.
Thanks ❤️
I had an exposure on 26th Dec 2023 got ill with sore throat on 28th Dec,treated causally with sore throat issue ,it persisted ,googled ,sore throat came with hiv symptom got panicked tested at 3 weeks got negative results,many symptoms started to come rashes,gum swelling,needle pinching ,mouth ulcers and all,someone told 3 weeks to early to test,again tested after 6 weeks came negative ,and again multiple rash coming dermatitis ,and now got shingles after 3 months,been to many doctors no conclusive answers,don’t know what to do
@@saadsohail6520 Firstly you didn’t have an exposure unless the person or vector of contact was with someone that is HIV+. You might have had sex with someone whose status you don’t know. Very different than an exposure. Based on the tests you have taken at this point you are negative. Tests after 15 days don’t change. With all these “symptoms” you have you would have tested positive for HIV. HIV doesn’t hide. Symptoms would be a byproduct of your body fighting the virus which would create antibodies, which is what the tests look for. Im sure this message you have just sent me is a watered down version of what this fear is doing to you. Taking the reality of how chronic anxiety affects the body, understand that all these “symptoms” are likely a byproduct of said anxiety. If you are searching things on line, hyper focused on your body, not accepting results, looking for constant confirmation that you are okay or will be okay, you are suffering from health anxiety which! Will screw you up if you don’t get it under control. Practice general hygiene, sleep, eat right, exercise, meditate, stop looking things up on line. Facts: tests don’t lie and HIV doesn’t hide. Good luck on your journey towards mental health.
@@joelopez3105 Thank you for replying ,I am only getting panicked as before 26th December I had no health issues at all,and after that got issues out of nowhere and every 2,3 days I am getting a new symptom,God knows what it is
Something that has worked for me is anti-depressants which work for anxiety. I've been on it since 1999. Sometimes I need to ramp up higher and then I ramp down, always while working with my doctor.
I do agree that medication can pave the way towards balance. For me, during my initial onset, medication allowed me to get the sleep I needed to start working towards the long term fix. It did have side effects though which also created roadblocks. Recently I have changed some of my internal dialog with a focus on living in my present. Being present in the moments that I’m in. I have found that it helps stop any hyper focusing on the unknown future. I began my battle with anxiety/HIV Phobia back in 2018 and have since made tremendous strides. You are obviously more at risk if you did engage in incentive sex (I read your other comment) and I wish you lived in a world without this stigma and fear. That’s really what this page has become for me. A mechanism to fight again HIV stigma. No one deserves HIV and it’s sad how many people view it as a punishment. Fortunately it’s just a chronic condition now. I also find that most people I speak with on here are also OCD to some extent.
You said go get tested if you are worried and I wish I can go get tested... Joe Lopez my anxiety and contamination OCD is so bad that I think I will get contaminated with HIV or something else from the lab like the needle is contaminated, it's totally irrational I know. What ideas do you have for being able to go get tested.
Sharing this burden is the key. You sound like your sailing in the same boat I was. It’s hard to share this fear with those that we have confidence in, because it’s detrimental towards our self image. Talking about it online maintains an anonymity. Actually talking to someone makes it feel that much more real and scary. Early on in my struggle I found that discussing this fear with people I cared for and in turn that cared for me gave me the strength to test and the strength to really endure some of my darkest days. You will find once you overcome this your OCD will eventually find something else to latch onto. You may get several months of reprieve, only with building healthy mental habits will you overcome the next wave. My father was my confidant. I was completely honest with him. After that I shared my fears with everyone I could. Talking about it gave me the ability to move forward. Hence this page. Knowing you aren’t alone in your struggle was huge. It doesn’t mean you should be cautious as to who you allow into your life. Unfortunately there are people living with this fear that are so far gone that they simply don’t want to suffer alone. Spend enough time on UA-cam and you will find the HIV conspiracy pages. I don’t recommend that you go down that path. It did more damage than good. Another thing you can do is get real with yourself about the outcomes. What does it mean to be HIV+. It means that you live a normal life taking a pill a day. You can’t transmit nor will you get sick. No different than diabetes. When you are HIV- , you will remind yourself to have safe sex and get tested annually if you are sexually active. It’s just being healthy. Like brushing your teeth or exercising. Create routines in your life. It was my saving grace. You can also reach out to me in Instagram @enderrevin, when you go get tested. I’ll be sitting on this side of the screen as you wait 20mins for your results if necessary. Good luck on your journey towards mental health.
Same broo can I talk to u please
I’ve been watching your videos, and it’s nice to know that I’m not the only one who is dealing with this. I’ve been going through hiv anxiety for the past three months. I’ve had a total of eleven 4th generation hiv tests, and they have all been negative. My second-to- last test was on July 10th, 15 days ago, and after I got my negative result, I started fearing that the phlebotomist who drew my blood at the lab used a contaminated ( or hiv-contaminated needle) on me, because I recalled the person had their back turned to me as she was assembling the needle and blood drawing equipment, and therefore, I didn’t see where she got the needle from. Then my anxiety and fears started all over again. Mind you, this is a lab I’ve gone to for several of my other tests, and the person who drew my blood that time also drew my blood on two of my prior tests. But I became convinced that she used a contaminated needle on me, and I had a series of anxiety-related episodes and intrusive thoughts, as well as physical symptoms ( feverish, sore throat, hot feelings all over my body). It bothered me to the point to where I got tested again yesterday ( 14 days from the blood draw) with another 4th generation test, and the results came back negative today. And although two weeks is an early time to test after what may be an exposure, I’m relieved, but the anxiety and intrusive thoughts are still lingering. I don’t know how to break free from this loop.
Sharing your story hopefully took the edge off. It’s an addiction like any other. Read through the comments and you will quickly see how you truly aren’t alone in this suffering. For me I had to do a hard Reset. I took a couple months and did nothing but meditate. I wouldn’t allow myself to get anxious. I had gotten so bad that even the gym would cause a panic attack. Getting my sleep under control was crucial to my battle. It took time and allot of effort. I used so many affirmations. Some physical some were mantras I would repeat. It was hard, only I had to get better. There wasn’t an option for me to remain in the cycle. Try journaling to help identify your cycle of addiction. Read through some of my other comments and you will see other things you could try. You are negative. Tests don’t lie. Medical staff don’t contaminate. Stay off the internet. When I really needed advise I used quora not google searches. The algorithm literally tells you that it’s always the worst. Good luck on your journey towards mental health.
@@joelopez3105 it does feel good to talk about it and not be judged or dismissed as crazy. I’m trying my best to try and find ways to gain control of my mind. I’ve been doing a lot of walking to help clear my head for example. But the main thing that is preventing me from moving on, aside from my intrusive thoughts, is my physician symptoms. And I don’t know if my symptoms are a result of my anxiety or if my anxiety is a result of my symptoms. And this what further drives my thoughts and paranoias.
@@michaelcaballero1937 actually i’ve been going through this after i’ve overruled the last exposure which was with condom i had made a test and thought the dr used a used syringe which is contained hiv i’ve with this for like 40 days last test was rapidtest which i made i bought 2 from different manufacturers one of them became positive with really faint line after 13 mins of putting the buffer and the other one was conclusive negative so i bought another 2 one a different company and the other is the same company that gave me a faint line they came back negative this all was after 30 days from the blood drawn after the blood drawn by 21 days started to feel like my lymphnodes in my neck are enlarged so i kept playing with em till one of them really turned to be seen and it back to normal after 2 days now i’m feeling like my armpit swell and muscles hurts pain in my joint they all come and go and same for sore throat which is kept for half day and then it disappears really afraid to take another test and feeling like i’ll be in this cycle forever ……..
Ji brother how r u feeling now i m going through same situation did you find out ???
Can you share whats your status now?
I’m on this same boat, I had a protected sex encounter with a female friend and 34 days later I got sick with flu like symptoms for just one day so I tested with the 4th generation from the vein and it was negative Then tested 55 days later with a RNA PCR TEST and it was also negative, they tell me I’m not infected at all and to move on but my mind is playing this games with me, I’ve also had some kind of throat allergy since 2 weeks after being with my friend and that’s also playing tricks on me saying I do have HIV 😕😕😕
It's almost impossible to get HIV from a female to male. Even if it was unprotected and she had raging HIV. You're good bud.
@@claudia5809How do you know
I'm 18 years old, a virgin, never used needles, never had a blood transfusion and my life is in shambles over these hiv thoughts. I cry every single day. Everyone tells me I'm alright and I don't need a test, I don't know what to believe. This anxiety is killing me and all of my relationships with my family, partner because I'm never happy to do anything with them because I can't distract myself from these thoughts. I'm so scared if i say I'm alright I'd be proven wrong.
You recognize that your thoughts and feelings are irrational. That’s a good thing. Many of us experience this which means you are at a point to pull it all back together. There is allot I can share only in this medium without instantaneous responses, I find to be less affective. You can message me me on Instagram at EnderRevin. Regarding your situation there is a root cause of your current condition and it’s not HIV. I can help you figure that out with time. I also recommend seeking counseling and developing healthy routines. This path you are on can become extremely self destructive with lasting affects. I’m glad you are seeking help. Knowing where to find it is also difficult. Good luck on your journey. Hope to hear from you.
@@joelopez3105 Thank you so much, I'm honestly relived to have gotten a reply from you. I texted you on Instagram
I think you have OCD i had that exclatly issue
Can you catch Hiv if a small amount of blood goes on your hand and you have a had a small cut that’s been there for a while
Nice vid, u already 100% recover now?
I''m on the same boat like you now, and still trying to overcome my anxiety, i fear of hiv from a zero risk ( that what my doctor and many forum said )
I get a test at 8 week after exposure, the doctor said test above 6 week consider conclusive in that lab and my country regulation, but still the anxiety take over my mind
Can you please tell me what was your exposure?
I’m going through this horribly. It’s taken over my life, I don’t know what to do anymore
Bro whats your status
Do Pranayam (Yogic breathing technique)...Rest all will be taken care of...Also Hath Yoga...
Bro where are you we need you please make a video how are you hows your phobia and fighting with fear please we need your experience
I will work on making a video in the near future.
@@joelopez3105 please say something about my condition and my fear i shared today with you another my msg please say something what you feel matters
Hiii Joe lopez i had one more question did you also feel blocked nose all day and get exhausted by doing small activity
I’m very sorry about the late response. 4 months late is bad on me. Exhaustion during the peak of my anxiety was common place. It also tied into the depression I was suffering from. I hope by now you have begun to win your battles with anxiety.
hey joe,I had sex with my ex bf 2011 I got tested 2015 do u think they did it right,though my ex is fine he's enjoying his life and working hard,I just had this fear after watching so many videos
You are completely fine. Sorry about the late response. UA-cam moves comments around on me and I just learned how to sort them. I hope you aren’t carrying this fear with you.
Is it possible to see symptoms the next day after possible exposure
Bro kindly upload your latest video and status please
hello Joe, how are you? Can I ask you to make the latest video about your current health and mental health, I really want to know, and I want you to pray for me because next month I will do a test at 6 months after the risky incident.
Mann I am scared, tested negative after 3 months, but for some reason I feel like I have the virus, I probably have a mental health problem
Sergio Luciano if you have read some of my previous responses to others you understand that at 3 months you are negative 10000%. You may actually be suffering from a mental health issue. The good news is that there is something you can do about it. It takes work and commitment to finding a path forward that allows you to be happy. The HIV scare is over and you need to decided what a healthy future is for you. Start by getting back to basics. Find a counselor that works for you. It may not happen your first time. Next, get into a healthy regiment of sleep, meditation, and positive activities. Drinking and late nights are the true enemy towards growth. You are accomplishing nothing productive after 1030 pm. Sorry I don’t give out my number, but realize you are not alone in this suffering. I survived and so can you. Good luck on your journey towards mental health.
Diego Davila Sure you can
Diego Davila azlantern@gmail.com
Joe Lopez thanks 🙏🏾
Joe brother after ur last video you are not there r u hiv positive? Kindly tell us please we need your update video help people plz
Hi. Recently, I started watching your videos because of my hiv anxiety. I'm going through what you're telling completely. I wonder how this anxiety affected your sexual life and normal life and did you recover it later?
If you read through comments made on these videos you will see my approach to recovery. Yes it affected me sexually.
@@joelopez3105 i hope you are well right now. i have anxiety for years but no situation could affect me this way. i tested in 19 and 38 days and came back negative. however, google and window period made me insane
@@fratkejrk Searching the internet is something you need to get under control. It’s not healthy for you. Your results will not change. You are negative. 90 days is what’s recommended by the CDC although most countries consider a test conclusive after 15 days.
@@joelopez3105 its been 8 weeks and I have a sore throat and dry coach for a few days. i am really tired of feeling scared and suspicious. constantly i feel like i have it. i guess i will test one more time. my doctor said me to wait for 6 months but i can't continue my life like that
@@fratkejrk your Dr is wrong on windows to test. You will find in some of my videos that this has happened to me. Remember Drs practice medicine. They don’t know about everything. The NPC I was with literally googled what to tell me and found an old website. I won’t get into search algorithms. Let’s just say internet searches are click bait. Your symptoms can be that you are just sick. You have tested and you are negative.
I’ve had 3 tests over a year and I have terrible symptoms but I’m ok the fear makes your body tense up and feel like you’ve got it . Negative three times I now believe I’m ok . Haven’t had sex for a year .
Provavelmente ynzinbing
How r u now
It could be yinzibing
Bro i am also same to u i have tested for hiv at 150 days but i am still think I have hiv virus to my body anxiety still remain... And bro after exposure I take PEP TREATMENT FOR 28 days always I think pep medicine suppress the virus to my body always think also extend the window period of hiv test by pep medicine....
Whats ur status...
I also took pep .. And after 5 month 4th gen test negative .. Its conclusive ??
@@rockyrawat7476 Yes it conclusive....
Hi mate I feel dry mouth some rashes on my Tung not properly sleep I done teast after 3 month but body still showing some changes but can I do please reply
Have you been to the Dr? If not get yourself scheduled. You don’t have HIV. Your tests were negative and the tests don’t lie. The Symptoms you are experiencing aren’t related to HIV. Sounds to me like anxiety. You would have to explain more about what anxiety symptoms you are experiencing.
Did u test
How are you doing now I have done 9 4th gen test last test was 8 months after exposure this keeps eating me up
And all are negative ?
Im experiencing anxiety as of now because im scared to having HIV I stop to do sex and Im waiting 3 months to test myself I hope my result is nonreactive huhuhu im scared huhuhuhu
Sir please reply me, i tested for hiv after 50 days of exposure in rapid test blood from vain so it came negative shall i take it conclusive?
How are u today
Your reply is very useful for others sir so kindly please update your status please 😢
If u have hiv symptoms but tests are negative then you have yinzibing virus
I hadn’t heard this term before. I looked it up and it’s interesting how it happened on such a large scale in China. For those that come across this comment it’s referring to fatigue and stress that cause the symptoms NOT HIV.
@@joelopez3105 it is hard to get information about yinzibing. Bcz they used firewall to down all the information related to yinzibing .
But it is real. It has affected lakhs of people .the point is why isn't this disease catching the eye of media . Bcz people feel shame in facing media as this is considered to be sexually transmitted disease . Its mostly effects men and less women's .
Brazil china India Russia are most effected countries.
But no test can detect it as it is a lab made virus .
It has obvious physical symptoms like white tongue , facial fat loss, abdominal fat gain. Still it is called aids phobia by Chinese howere 2019 study by China says it is not completely mental disease.
It is a huge coverup disease.
If I tested a few days before the 3 month mark, did I miss the 90 day mark? I tested negative 4 times.
Deja Bolt You are negative. There are pre existing conditions that would cause the virus to present as late as 3 months. The tests are extremely sensitive. Most countries state that a test is conclusive after 15 days. Obviously the US is very conservative with window periods due to liability. Your tests is conclusive. If you are sexually active, taking a test during your annual physical is a healthy thing to do. If you found my video I’m making the assumption that you are dealing with anxiety and fear regarding HIV. Read through some other comments left on my videos and you will find out you are not alone. It’s a rational fear to have, only it’s extremely rare. Everyone that has reached out to me with these fears has not once come back positive after testing. Good luck on your journey.
Thank you. I tested at 115 days and I’m negative. Still not 100% because of these symptoms. But one day I’ll get there
@@dejabolt4486 Im glad you are making progress. It’s as definitive as the sun rising that you are negative. It’s the healthy habits you will need to create for yourself that is difficult. Don’t be to hard on yourself if each day isn’t brimming with progress. I promise you will get there. As they other “symptoms” present remind yourself it’s okay to not feel well. It’s very natural. Your state of mind drives your day. Allow positive thoughts and be grateful for the gifts you have. As I meditated this morning, I took a moment to give thanks to the air that filled my lungs. What we appreciate doesn’t need to be big. I’m happy you are over the hardest part of this an I applaud your strength. You got this! Good luck on your journey.
@@dejabolt4486hi deja can you share your health and status as of now today ? And symptoms ? I would be helpful to others
Hey Dejabolt, did you ever find out what was wrong with you ?
Going through the same thing bro I am crying I received a blow job from a massage girl 3/4 months ago got tested got non reactive result and severe anxiety startrd
Hlo bro same here we can share our problems 😢
@@ArchitecturaldesignprocessSame here brother but my exposure is abit different I am freaking out
@@AnonyMous-u4e have you get test I test in 40,50, and 70days for rapid finger neg but my doctor said I should test after 90days and tommorow is 95days finally I go get my final test tommorow so pray for me bro 😢🙏
@@Architecturaldesignprocesshow was your results ?
@@badbou3636 mine after 93days 3rd gen still neg hope you are 🙏
okay so this all started happening after i lost my virginity in february. He wore a condom constantly says he’s clean but ever since then i havent been me. i tested for hiv at 5 weeks, 10 weeks, 94 days, 108 days, 115 days and 145 days. I have a tiny pea size lymph node in neck i can feel a tiny one on the other side as well you can feel them not see them people are saying i can get them from stress and worry and trust me ive been under lots if stress they never cane up until i was looking all over my neck for them. they just feel like peas they havent grown in 4 months! could this really all be anxiety? am i going crazy? my doctor started me on the anxiety pill lexapro. she has me seeing a therapist. people are telling me their conclusive after 90 days but idk. PLEASE HELP
Krista Scheibel Your tests are conclusive. At 90 days it is conclusive. Look up what that word “conclusive” means. I had taken a screen shot of the definition and I would look at it when my anxiety started to surface. HIV doesn’t hide in your body. As I read your message I hear a couple things going on. I’m sure your message only conveys a fraction of the overwhelming anguish and despair you feel. Regarding your lymph node. As you prod it, causes it to rise. Anxiety will cause physical symptoms. As I learned to manage my anxiety, my body got better. I’m so glad to hear you are talking to a counselor. I was medicated for a short time during the onset of my anxiety. I needed it as I wasn’t sleeping at night. Once I learned the tools to manage my anxiety I worked myself off the medication. I hope as you overcome this situation you can once again being to enjoy your sexuality. Life is to short to be afflicted by fear. You will beat this as you are on the right path. Check out some of my other videos. I hope they help. Good luck on your journey towards mental health.
Joe Lopez okay thank you. i just have been freaking myself out thinking it could still show up and like with my lymph nodes can they really be risen from stress? did you have them at all? thank you for taking the time to reply to me. I was going to test again once it hit august.
Krista Scheibel Stress can cause it. No need to test again. Although having a healthy sex life means you should get tested every year during your physical.
Please I need help as this is ruining my life
Brother please reply your silence makes me think data you provided in your video is not correct and tests are not conclusive negative person can positive after a year or 2
@joe lopez
He’s negative I recently spoke to him. If you haven’t already seek a mental health counselor about this and see them regularly, work on good habits and stay busy doing healthy activities, identify your triggers, identify the negative thought loop that is going on your mind. These things have helped me a lot with my HIV anxiety. I’m not completely out of the woods yet but I have been doing better by doing all these things.
Good pm sir joe. Whats ur email adress sir . I badly needed ur advice sir . I am also suffering from this anxiety and phobia ☹️
Joe , did your doctor tell you to test 1 year after the exposure day ? My primary says a 4th generation hiv test at 6 months after a potential exposure is not conclusive have to wait a year to really know if your are truly negative
That Dr is wrong. In one of my videos I talk about a health care provider trying to tell me the same thing. Remember they are practicing medicine. I was fortunate enough that by the time the provider gave me this bad info I was already well educated on the topic. When I told the provider the info about testing at a year was wrong they explained they got it from a website. Can you believe that shit. Just some random website and is then telling me this bad info as though it were gospel. I had them pull the website and showed them how outdated the info was. They were very appreciative about the knowledge. Honestly it wasn’t her fault. That’s why there are experts in fields. It’s also why googling symptoms is the worst thing you can do. The algorithm is designed in a way to show click bate. Hence the worst scenario possible. Internet searching is dangerous regarding illnesses. I learned over time how to search things. You will even find videos on UA-cam on HIV conspiracies. Trust me stay away from all those rabbit holes. I took those paths at the onset of my mental collapse and they were devastating and total bull shit. You couldn’t be more negative.
@@joelopez3105 insane man, he screwed my mind when he said that and my mind created a whole new world with me already living with HIV He really freaked me out
It’s been 9 months since and I still test every month because I can’t get my fears controlled 🤦♂️
@@cjd.465 how are you doing ??
@@benjaminvallejo6420 how r u bro
@@joelopez3105m glad you've spoken about this,it seems there are so many uneducated people who find it so easy to sit behind a keyboard and type some scary stuff they know nothing about.I simply say,in this time and age anyone tells you about a 6 months test is someone you should not waste a second of your precious life listening to.
So he doesn’t have The disease? Clout?
How u doing bro
I’m doing well. I still suffer from health anxiety only I manage those symptoms with meditation. I have built healthy routines. If I don’t manage myself I can slip back into my anxiety.
@@joelopez3105 good to hear man I have a hiv scared too
Bro hope u see my comment
I had a exposure (my 1st tym)
Protected one but ulcer on my mouth i do oral on her (i was her 3rd partner)
Then this thought strike me after 53rd day of exposure
I tested rapid card test on 53 70 83 and 91 days
Still having anxiety
Is rapid test are good or not
My mind challenging me to go for advance test like viral load
Thinking this all day
I had a blood transfusion 6 year back
So now fear has gone to that part to doubting the transfusion
Are you ok… I gave a dude head tell me why I have a ulcer in my mouth a day later I’m scared and get tested in two days 😢
Hw can I contact u sir?
abishek Pattu If your concerns are such that you would not like them to be posted publicly you can always email me.
@@joelopez3105 email id plz!
abishek Pattu azlantern@gmail.com
How are you today?did you stop making videos?
I’m good. I did stop making videos. Everything else I could say has been shared in the comments as I answer questions.
I had one needle stick exposure one time with unknown patients sample
I was negative at 100 day after
But it start a hiv phobia in me , on day i had very none important and pointless that i assumed it may be exposure
I got sterss and went to hiv councling center . It was big mistake
There were closed and there was man who asked me , and sayed he wa there to test
The second i scared my be he spiit on me while speaking and went to my eye and i didn't realized
Is it possible to get hiv from this exposure ?
Should I get tested again
I am really tired of testing
And go this road again
What do you think bro ?
There is without a doubt no need to retest. Spit in the eye is not an exposure. If you have tested negative at 100 days your a conclusively Negative. Good luck on your journey towards mental health.
@@joelopez3105
Thanks my brother
God bless you and your family and protect you from any bad thing
You gived an answer in just 4 minutes
Thanks a lot
Its just fears me when i search at internet
They say there might be a little chance if his mouth bleeding and then spot in my eyes ...
You know a very bad thing about hiv phobia is three major people reaction:
First those who know you're free but you're crazy and not normal
Second group that think bad about you
I live in slamic country that its taboo having unofficial sexual relationship if you aren't married
Whic i never had anything like it , i didn't touch any body , i am not a intervenes drug user or...
I am just a med lab students that got needle stick and they don't believe even my coworker who saw the needle stick 😐
And third those say there is no harm at retesting , they assume its a blood sugar level test that has no mental pressure
Again thanks a lot ❤️
@@parsa4711 Thank you for sharing your story. I always try to respond as soon as possible as I’m fully aware of how powerfully scary these feelings can be. You are right on those three accounts as to how people view those with HIV Phobia. I might add that people like us probably have a propensity to worry about things. The stigma behind HIV is what I’m truly trying to combat now. HIV is considered a chronic condition these days. It doesn’t stop anyone that is being treated from having a happy and healthy life. Cultural norms also paint people with HIV as dirty, when in reality it can happen to anyone. I’m so sorry you are experiencing this. Please stop searching the internet. Nothing good ever comes of searching symptoms.
@@joelopez3105 totally .
Of course
Sorry dear friend
My English is not very good
I scared if you got my fist question wrong
I meant first i got a needle stick and negative for that after 100 day
But this spiiting is after that incident
So if its that ? It doesn't need retesting for the second time (spiiting)
@@parsa4711how are u dear
Email I'd sir I really need to help