Jamie..thank you for telling your story. You helped me more than you will ever know. I'm 70 and have been through so much and finally I'm really grasping that what you are saying is so true. It's a blessing for me and I hope you sharing will be a blessing for you too. You know when Journey was alive I would watch yours and Leaders video and that beautiful little angel gave me a pep talk every day. I relate to animals much better than I do humans and it was like she was just tellingme that if she kept going so could I. That was why I asked for the picture of Journey. I am so very sorry that any of us have to experience violence. Its cruel and demeaning and frightening and aweful. For most of my life I have thought that what I have gone through was all my fault. That I was so flawed I deserved what ever I got. I couldn't understand why God even put me on this earth . And I know that's not true now. It never was. I come from a dysfunctional family that doesn't know what love and compassion are. And I can't hold that against any of them but I can pray for and love them from afar. Thank you dear young lady..you are strong and compassionate and generous and kind. An incredible, beautiful young lady for all of us to love
Thank you for putting it in words for all of us, I thank you for saying what so many of us have just buried…so much more to say. God’s Grace and Blessings to us all, The SURVIVORS!🙏❤️🕊✝️✡️🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸
As I sat here and watched, there were several moments where your anxiety was clearly rising, and Dixie absolutely sensed it, stopped what she was doing, and connected with you...this is what I love about horses. Their situational awareness is what keeps them alive. It is also why they are useful in therapy. Thanks for sharing your story, Jamie. You are so fortunate to have a "Dixie" in your life. ❤️🌵☀️⛈️🌈☮️🐎
Agreed.. btw my heart did a leap when I saw your name at first as I thought it was Lauren Estes, that was the name of a very good friend who died unexpectedly :(
So many women go through all kinds of Physical and emotional abuse It’s as though we were with the SAME will say person 😢 So many women would never leave or even attempt to leave some waited to long PRAYERS for ALL GOD BLESS
There are lots of us out in this world. The pain. Never goes away we learn to deal with it the best we can. Truth is we're broken, but keep on going. God Bless You and all others living in pain.
Everytime someone shares their pain, someone else realizes it's okay to do the same. The more that's shared the more healing that's felt. It may take a lifetime, but this resonates with so many. Having the courage to rip the bandaids off, starts loosing the adhesive on another. You having the ability to say this on a platform was brave but also wise. It's uncanny how your phrase "we are all survivors of something " is the exact right thing to say. Thank you for your honesty and courage. We love you.
I know how you feel Jami. I went through the same thing only I woke up with a knife at my throat. But I got lucky and found a good man that helped me through it. Good luck and God bless.
Yvonne , I wish I had your ability to eloquently put words together . What you just said , was so powerful. I experienced mental abuse for 9 long years . I saw the world in black and white , back then . Even though I got out , and have been happy married for many years , I still have triggers . I guess I will have them for the rest of my life . But just like Jamie , sharing , is truly healing . Thank you for bringing this to all of our attention . I do see the world in color now . I pray for all that are still in black and white . Love to all my friends in this group. We all love and admire Jamie so much . Today , even more .
Jami, Courage is telling your story with your whole heart 💜 You are a badass, and a role model...don't ever forget it. Thank you for being exactly who you are 💛
I can relate to what you are saying. I’ve been abused in so many of my relationships and I always thought that was normal in relationships but once I got out of that relationship with everything I had in me. I finally got the courage to just get up and leave him with just the clothes on my back and nothing on my feet at all. I just drove to my moms house to try to forget what I was in this nasty relationship. I like that you shared this with us. I now have bipolar disorder and I was scared of any relationship. Today I’m in a different kind of relationship and I couldn’t be happier with my boyfriend he treats me with respect and takes great care of me along with his boys. He loves me for me not for anything else. He says it to me every day and more then once a day and calls me every few hours. You gave me the courage to tell my mom what has happened in my last relationship where this guy put some kind of drug into me for weeks. Come to find out he could of killed me. I love all theses videos you and Lester and LE and Jake and paw paw put out. Keep your head up. I’ll keep you in my prayers
Oh my heart when Dixie realized you were crying. She loves you as much as you love her. You are much more than that “man”wanted you to be, you always were! God bless the lady at the Sprint store. There is a reason these animals are drawn to you, Jami. They know you are a survivor too! You are such a blessing to them and to us. The problem with trauma is that it creeps up on you at the most surprising time. If you’re anything like me, you get nervous when things go well because you are always expecting the other shoe to drop. There is never a wrong time to tell your story. Thank you for sharing and for showing us you are more amazing than we already thought ♥️.
Ty Jamie. I too went thru the sexual abuse. Many times. Then the physical abuse. I swore up and down, never again. Now a verbal abuse. Ty for sharing. The strength to walk away is close for me. A plan is in place.
Thank you on so many levels! Hey Lester, since we are able to do it please give Jami a hug from all of us who she has touched. And maybe an extra treat for Dixie. Thank you all for being one of God's blessings.
I love how Dixie was so in tune to you. She knew you needed comfort and she came to you each time you cried. I was also sexually abused as a child and had several abusive relationships. At age 65 I am a survivor too!
I praise you cause while pregnant the father attacked me and now I'm over him but I still feel this over many years of recovery. I know we all shall heal with God's love.
Breaks my heart to hear your story. This video was both unsettling and calming at the same time. Just listening to your story is heartbreaking, but watching Dixie , who senses your sadness, is soothing. Listening to her munching the grass and watching the babies in the background, I understand why you are standing out there in the hayfield telling us your story. Bless you, Jami. and all the Morrow family , your videos are helping somebody cope with something in their life right now. God has placed you on Morrow Hill for a reason.
Jamie, we are so honored that you chose to share your story with us. Crying here for the pain you lived through. So so relieved you are on the other side and "safe". Thank you. Hugs
I want to tell you Jami that you have a powerful testimony and through this platform your testimony will be able to reach so many who have and who are currently dealing with sexual, physical, emotional, and verbal abuse. You are truly living a purpose driven life and while living in your purpose God will allow you to utilize your talents and your gifts. My prayer for the lady who is currently in the abusive relationship who story you shared is that she is able to connect SAFELY with the support and help she may need to make a safe exit from the relationship. I will be praying for her daily. Love you all!
Thank you. It is so important for women in this position to not feel like they are totally alone. God bless the woman that handed you that phone.. She was your first step. 😘
We don’t need to wait for one month of the year to tell our stories. Our stories need to be told all the time to help others know that they are not alone. Thank you for sharing your story, Jami. ❤️🙏🏽
As emotional as it is to publicly state your truth, it’s such a huge public service and could save someone’s life. You’re doing a great good telling your story. It enables others who hear it to realize their worth and seek help. Thank you
Dixie is so Amazing, she tapped into your sadness and kept coming to see if you are okay! I know what you've been through. It's so hard to let people in. You did an Awesome thing of letting us into your Beautiful soul and there are so many going through this very thing and they are convinced that nobody else will want them. Thank you for telling all of us and someone out there listening to you and realizes it's time to take a stand. Thank you for trusting all of us and for helping someone else out there to take a stand. You are so loved!!
Dixie really listens to you. She loves you, & knows when you need comfort. A great bond you two have. You are helping so many women & some men with you telling your story.
As Lester says, We are all survivors of something. I am 69 years old and I still can't tell my story. But God knows it all and why I have trust issues and I have trusted Him and only Him to bring me through my life because I wanted to die from the time I was a young child. God is good!!!
Thank you Jami for sharing. I had a horse for 34 years and she was my therapy. Princess was there for me through so many challenges. Her beautiful blond hair was soacked with tears many times. She brought me so much pleasure and comfort. YES, we have all survived of something. Your "Time out Tuesday" a couple days ago was awesone. Your story was so real and honest. With the love of Princess and Jesus I was carried through. Jami you are such a strong and wonderful person. You and Lester make a great couple. YIMTuesday
Hello Jami. I am so sorry for the abuse you endured at the hands of a man. You are a very strong woman and I'm sure hearing your story will help other women or men that suffered. I have true respect for you and others who have the courage to stand up and speak out against abuse. Thank you for sharing your story with us and showing that life does get better with help. You are an amazing woman. Love you so much.
Jami, Thank You for sharing your story. It has helped me to understand my behavior as a young girl & my total hate for myself. My father allowed me to ride Susie(my horse)into a wooded area near a private Airfield. ***My most memorable feeling-Tied the reins together when I let her RUN along side of the Runway!!! The indescrible feeling with arms extended during “BAREBACK FLIGHT” was truely SPIRITUAL****Feeling Free & Feathery!! Never forget that Life is No Dress Rehersal & I Thank You for helping me & I’m sure many others. 🎄🐴
This was one of the most real, open and honest talks I have ever heard. I felt your pain and hurt through your words. I am certain this will touch others, many others, and give them hope and confidence to do what they have to do to make a better life for themselves, because they ARE worthy of a better life. You are their inspiration, you are a survivor and you show them they can be too. God bless.
I’m so glad you have Dixie, Equine Therapy is a massive help!!! My heart hurt so bad and I sobbed when you were telling your story because yes I can relate!!! I was in an abusive relationship for 3 years which at times I thought I would lose my life and had to escape the flat and run!! Hearing how you felt absolutely ring true in me!!! One thing you said that you had ‘flaws’ due to those experiences and I wanted to let you now my love, they’re not flaws they’re ‘battle scars’, you won the battle, you got out, you survived and you’re still healing but you are not flawed lady!! I think it’s safe to say you are loved and respected even more!! Look after yourself, it’s your time to heal too!!!❤️🙏🏻
Wow what a powerful share Jami. I'm so sorry for what you went through and so happy for where you are now physically, emotionally and spiritually. I can't get over how Dixie kept checking in on you as you were sharing your story.
I love the way Dixie was picking up on your emotions, especially when you started telling about your terrifying night. Bless you, Jami..and your sweet lil Dixie horse!! Sending healing, positive vibes to you and Thank You for sharing your story. Much love..💞
Your story is also my story and thousands of others , you are not alone. I was raped at 19 by a so called friend , even reporting him to authorities got me know where , and more lost than ever. They said my past relationships would be brought up in court. I decided to always tell people even strangers about it , that was my therapy. I did nothing wrong and I wasn't going to let it kill me. Thank you Jami for sharing so you too can heal , not to be totally over the terrible event but realizing you can start to see you are never ever alone . Keep telling your story , keep getting it out so others can see they too are not alone. We got this, we are more powerful than our " ghosta" . They can't haunt us if we keep telling " OUR STORY" 💞
I cried with you cause I went thru the same thing,molested as a child by a close family member then an abusive relationship for 9 years.It's not easy but with time and help from others we can get better and even thrive.Dixie could feel your emotion,what a wonderful girl she is!I love ya'll's videos,you're helping me heal too!Thank you Jamie!
It's 6:30am, and I've been watching your older videos since midnight. I am 30 years older than you, but our stories are very similar. I had no idea, but the place you hold in my heart is now a bit deeper. My abuser was a policeman which made things harder in the 1970's. I left bleeding and barefoot and never looked back. So happy you were lucky enough to find Lester. I have a beautiful grown daughter and a son-in-law I love with all my heart, but I stayed single. Trust is not in my heart. You and those crazy Morrows light up my days.❤
Jami you described my life almost to a T. I'm 78 now and I still have the memories of it all. My father was physically abusive, My foster father molested me for the three years I was there. The courts put me back with my father but he had changed and didn't hit and kick me. I did want acceptance from boys and men so I did what they wanted. I was married at. 17 and divorced by 21. When I remarried, he was very abusive like my father. One day when when he was at work, I packed up my kids and our belongings and moved to a different state. Two years later I married again this time to a wonderful man, sadly he died three years later. This time I didn't marry for 10 years. Now I have been married for 36 years and very happy 😁😊❤️
Dear Jamie, while laying here in tears, not for myself but thinking that there are others out there going through this too. Yes I put too. I feel you and your hurt. Stay strong special lady you have found a wonderful friend in Dixie and in Lester. Take care of you xx
Jamie, what a powerful message. I am 80 yrs. Old and you have talked about this matter so beautifully. You have touched a lot of hearts.. take care of yourself. Thank you.
My God Jami. So awful, I am sorry to hear this happened to you. I wish I could give you a hug. I was forced into sex one night also so many years ago. Fear of his strength made me let it happen, but I never forgot that night.
Dixie truely loves you. Her sensing your sad is such a beautiful thing. Your a strong woman Jami. Thank you for sharing your story. I think with so many people loving you without knowing your story will help some so much more. Your a beautiful woman and I love you.
Thank you for sharing Jami 😪 😢😥 I lived emotional abuse (not physical or sexual) for several decades. It has taken many more decades to realize that is why I always picked “the wrong” guy and why trust has been so difficult. I am happy you found the right guy to love you and for you to love.
Your story brought back a memory that is over fifty years old. I was going through a rough spot while up at summer camp. My friend, Evalinda, a blind girl, composed this song for me. She sang it through and I memorized it. I share it with you now. Evalinda was blind since birth, and yet her descriptions are so beautiful. SUNLIGHT Your sky is turning gray, as sunlight fades away I cannot stand and see you fall. What can I do, my friend, to help you face the end? My help is more than none at all. (refrain) My friend, can't you see? There's sunlight to every storm. You can depend on me to hold your hand. You know I'm here to give you comfort, when life will let you down, And I want to know you when you need a friend. So let me take you by the hand and lead you through the land And then we two will be as one. I feel your heart's distress, and offer happiness. Please let me try to bring the sun. The rest I can't remember, really... but the first verses and the refrain came to me as I read your story. Please accept it as a gift of the heart, given to me, decades ago and shared with loving thoughts.
Oh Jaime. Bless you’re heart. I could have hugged you listening to that. My daughter is 8 months pregnant with baby number 4. Her partner who is the father to all four has mentally abused her for years and when this baby appeared on the scan she decided she’s had enough and threw him out. This was all mental. Not physical but I am so proud of her doing this. and I am proud of you too. Big hugs to you. And isn’t Dixie so loving. She knew when you were upset xxx
My ex was verbally abusive. That can be as damaging as the physical. The mental healing is sometimes tougher to deal with. They get IN your head and the residual effects last a log time
I agree with everything positive everyone's written and I have one bit of advice: The next time you and Dixie take a therapy walk, go as far as you feel safe and where noone can hear you unless you scream bloody murder (just in case you need to LOL), and when you start to cry, don't stop! ...don't just sniffle and hold back. For once in your life let it out! All of it! Cry until you're exhausted and tou couldn't cry another tear if you stubbed your baby toe. Cry out the anger, cry out the pain, cry out any frustration you might still be harboring. Cry unashamedly for yourself and cry for everyone who is hurting . because God gave us crying as a release so We can start to heal
Jami, many of us survivors picked up on a few things over the years being with you. None of us were prepared for the whole truth, as it's always horrible. As one who has experienced different degrees of abuse, from different men in my life, I am always thankful for the survivors to be able to live to tell their own life events. With every sharing of a survival success, yes- surviving is a success- hopefully it encourages others to get away to become a survivor. My prayers are with those who haven't found their way out. It's hard for many reasons: money, children, lack of support of all kinds, and the verbal and/or physical abuse. Every person is worthy of a life without the abuser no matter what that abuser says! Jami thank you for your bravery and self worth then and now. Much love and respect to you! Yes, Dixie knows. She is very much in tune with you. As are many of the babies are!❤️💕💞💓💗💖💝💘💌 You always have been my Shero and even more now for your message.
I’m so proud of you for having the courage to speak your truth Jamie, I know how hard that can be. Your a beautiful woman inside and out and that is why so many follow you, your genuine. At 66 I am dealing with the sexual, mental and physical abuse, rape and a physical abuse from from an ex from my younger years. I wish I had gotten the help I needed years ago instead of now. Thank you for a well said message to us all🙏🏼❤️
Jamie you've got this, you won. I went thru 8 yrs of it. The beginning of the end was when I took his gun to the police station and told them to keep it, I didn't care if they brought it home with them, burned it or buried it. He never asked me where it went. Now I am a bull moose for other women in the same situation you and I were in. They pound on my door and them and the kids can come in, and I have stood up to their husbands. I even stood up to an abusive cop. I won for me and I won for them. The stories I have are way to long for this chat, but I lived your life. I am more than better now. You will be too. HUGS
Dear Jami. This 74 year old woman listened to your story with tears pouring down my face for the girl I was and with sadness (and anger) that it happened to you. 40 years of therapy and sometimes Triggers come and bite me in the butt (pardon the old Roy Rogers reference)! But Dixie's crunching and munching was so soothing I realized ( as you shared) that there are many ways to "turn over" that pain. Animals ( I have 4 fish), talking, writing and my latest-drawing. And humor is the best of all! Bless you and all the babies for giving us plenty😁
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I sat in tears listening, for you, me and all of us who have felt the pain of abuse. I cannot share my story in public because there are people in my life who are unaware, that I felt I had to protect. I have always felt you had such a special and tender spirit, you are a survivor and it shows in the compassion you have not only with the animals but also with Lester. I read somewhere recently that that we need to unpack the pain/baggage we have been carrying around in order to leave it behind, Thank you for trusting us to share in you journey of healing. I pray for your healing that some day it will only be a bad memory and not a painful memory. God bless you sweet Jamie 🙏🏾💖🙏🏾
NOW I understand you with my whole heart @ Jamie! I am a survivor, too. Animals love is honest+ unconditional. Many "wounded" people are turning to animals. 🙋❤️🇦🇹🐎
Jami, thank you for sharing. At 63 years old when I get stressed the monster I have stuffed in the back of the closet seems to sneak out and fill my mind with the haunting memories. The holidays are the worst fir me - it was always during the holidays the abuse increased during my childhood. My father was the sexual abuser in my life. It wasn't until my thirties that I was able to start my healing journey. Yes, over the years it gets easier as I have become a true survivor, no longer living in the victim mentality. The thoughts, the memories never go away but, with God's help and therapy comes healing. This right here, this video - you sharing your story will help you all while you have just touched so many lives. A true strong woman has gained her strength by facing horrible things and pain, which is why you can help others by using empathy and letting them know they are loved!❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Awe Jamie, I'm so sorry for the hell you went through. This definitely has made you a much stronger person. Always remember to "just breathe" It's beautiful to see how Dixie is so in tune to you. You truly are her person. Much love!! 💞
Jamie, those of us who truly appreciate your videos, KNOW. We all have 'a history', what truly matters is what you are doing now. I would go back to that phone store and give that woman a hug.
Jami I'm so proud of you. It's unbelievable the number of people who have the abuse you have suffered. I grew up in a abusive home and married twice to men that were mentally abusive. This story could go on forever, and I don't talk about it much. You're a woman that has shared a heart break that will be able to help others. One day when you feel more comfortable I would love to see you reach out and talk about how people can get help to leave the situation. I admire you in so many ways. Animals are amazing when they try to comfort us when they realize we are hurting. Dixie is truly a God send for you. Take care.
Jamie, I just came across a video with u and Dixie. You were talking about your life. You never know by looking at someone what their life was like. You are my favorite video! Thank you for telling it. You are a beautiful and strong lady and Lester is very lucky to have you in his life!!! You guys fit very well together. I watch all of the I'ma a survivor videos every day. Jamie take care! I consider myself as part of the survivor family. Katherine Franks
Thats right Jamie, make sure its the last time. If someone is mean to you even just a little, get them out of your life ASAP. Too many people get away with that stuff. Shut them out, run away from them fast! Slip out the back Jack, make a new plan Stan, Hop on the bus, Gus, Don't need to discuss much, Just get yourself free. You cant change them, evil will always be evil. Sociopaths are all over they're even in your family, double check make sure. Then shut them out.
I'm glad your journey of healing bought you to the sanctuary. Lester and his sons are blessed to have you in their lives, as us Ima Survivor family are. Watching you Jami tend to a sick or injured "little" or "big" with such intense compassion, always made me wonder what was triggered behind your eyes. You evidently understand their feelings the most of pain/fear and vulnerability. It's only being on this earth long enough, you discover people even in your everyday life who have suffered from abuse. I was floored one day a work colleague told me about her abuse at the hands of a family member. I was proud they felt able to tell their story even though she was in her 60's and proud she felt she wanted to tell me. I'm also proud of you Jami, even if this is the wrong term or sentiment. Wishing you much love and support xxx
Thankyou Jami for sharing your story. As hard as it must have been to talk about, it just shows how strong you are. I always knew you were amazing, but your courage knows no bounds. Dixie and you share something very special, she is so in line with your emotions. It's amazing how animals can pick up on people emotions and want to help.
My pastor once talked to me about my abuse. I kept saying he never hit me, poked in chest to point of bruises, yes, but never hit me. He was a yeller. My pastor told me verbal abuse is still abuse. That is why I withdrawal and shut down when someone raises their voice to me. We are all damaged in some way. With God's grace we keep going.
Jamie I am so sorry you had to go through that. No woman should ever be abused. I love how Dixie showed you her love for you. Animals are so amazing. Best wishes to you always. God bless🥰
Thank you for sharing. My first marriage was not a good one. Still have a big issue with trusting. I also have fibromyalgia, it came with pain, depression and ANXIETY! I’ve kinda a recluse. It’s supper hard to keep friends. Always in pain. Worse people don’t think I hurt! Just because I smile!! P.S Watching your family videos help a lot. Puts a big smile on my face plus laughing my butt off! Even the crying helps!!! Thank you Love your family!!!
Hi! I can relate to you. I also have a chronic illness and have become a recluse-most days. When I am able to pull myself together and go somewhere I put on a smile and no one knows how bad I hurt, how I was in tears just hours before due to debilitating stomach pains. I am fortunate to have a supportive family, but I’ve lost most of my friends, and I haven’t been able to work as a nurse for 5 years now, so slowly everyone fades away.I try to stay positive, and most days I can, but other times the despair of what my life has become is overwhelming. I’m thankful for Jami and Lester and ISS for bringing a little bit of reprieve from my reality.
First videos I watch in the morning with my coffee. But I have to be careful sometimes because they get me every now and then. I end up with coffee coming out my nose!
Jamie it breaks my heart what you went through I'm sitting here crying for you I never experienced anything like what you went through but I can relate to some of the things that you say that has been done to you God-bless you Jamie. My heart just breaks for you you're doing such a fabulous job telling your story and is story and the hope it can help other women go through gold true cultural would get through this mouse this mess right now I guess I'm just mumbling I'm talking or unreally saying that anyway Jamie's God-bless you with my darling we know what you've been through and it just breaks my heart.
Thank you for the courage and bravery it took to share this. You'll probably never know how many folks you helped by doing so. And who knew angels worked at Sprint stores? God bless her wherever she is today!
I've had the same truth myself Jamie. It takes so much strength to put this out there like you are. Dixie truly is your therapist, she even cuddled you in her way when you cried. Your bond is incredibly tight with her and could be lessened if you rode her. I had a mare named Dixie as well and she was my therapist and best friend too. Bless you Jamie for lifting us all up.❤️❤️❤️
My sweet friend, Jami...what a brave moment, and woman to woman, I have been in your shoes. Just know that the process IS WHAT IT IS! Never give yourself a hard time when going through the "process". It gets better, but there are days, triggers, that bring things up. Allow it...spend that day in that moment guilt free. Then, just like you already do each and every day, realize that your life now...ALL OF OUR LOVE FOR YOU...is what defines! Huge cyber hug from a Texan transplanted into Tennessee for that very reason. We are all survivors of something
For decades, I have said, "Everyone has a story or loves someone who does. Only the brave ones tell them... but there is power in doing so!" I have not experienced abuse like your's, but I know people who have. It is so important that empathetic people like yourself share your stories. As others have said, you may save a life. Thank you for all the stories you share, but as a teacher and a pastor, I applaud your bravery in sharing this one in particular. Mental health needs to be spoken about so that others may be set free into lives of wholeness also. Thank you for being brave. ❤️
I knew there was a history of some abuse but I've never actually heard you tell your story before. God Bless you for what you have been through. You have risen above what has happened and made a beautiful, caring life for yourself. It makes me even more thankful that you found Lester and ISS. You are an inspiration for anyone else who may be going through a similar situation. I pray for safety and peace for all of them.
Jamie. I feel for you. I was in abuse marriage. I was only seventeen when I got marry. On my honeymoon he started his abuse. Drink was great part of it. Today my health isn't wonderful.. I really feel for you and it's great to talk about it. Has woman on her own you still get male that wants to cause trouble about you. This male is older then me. Use to take there dog for a walk. He has put so many lies around about me. Neighbours don't talk. I get up early so I can go for a walk before anybody around. I spend most of my day inside. Don't have any friends. Don't have family close to me. So Jamie chin . You have meet a good man in Lester 😊🙏
You are a brave ass woman, I say that not thinking what you've been through, although that was hugely brave of you, it's you speaking about it. When we go through trauma, it's like we have no other choice but to go through it and deal with it, but talking about it and being open about it, it's your choice. You're choosing to share this and that's what makes you have balls of steel. Did you also notice, you got more upset when you recalled the kindness you received? Having kindness in those moments mean everything and we hold onto that for the rest of our time on this earth. Just shows how important kindness can be. My hat goes off to you and I thank you for sharing. Go be proud of yourself, you know that all of us here are. Brave, strong ass woman.. amazing 💪💗
I was also molested by my father and until this day I am still called a liar about it and I’ve gotten to where it doesn’t bother me anymore and I pray that one day you can reach that point also God bless you Jami
I am a survivor of paternal incest as well. I am 63, have been in therapy for years and still have not seemed to be able to,”get over it”! It is compounded by that way my mother treated me like I volunteered to become his mistress, once I told her what he was doing at age 12. She still will not take ownership of that.and is now dying. I have forgiven her at her request and I am glad I did. It doesn’t change the fact that I am now permanently physically disabled and about to be evicted and I am treated like trash by the rest of my family. Her story and judgement won the day. It will be ironic that it’s possible that I will end up dead before her as I am not worthy of help. I hope you have a better ending to your story than mine
RoxAnn, I am so sorry this happened to you and that you were called a liar. It us so hard when the people in your life, the ones who should protect you are the ones that betray you. I am glad that you are healing. May God bless and keep you always!
@@elanagalante7708 you are not trash to be thrown away, as anyone on this page will tell you. There are a million people here that are your family now who think the same. When it gets too bad, post here for others to see. You may be alone at home, but you are part of the Survivor family here. There is always someone to share with. 💕💕
Jami, from the bottom of my heart I applaud you for telling your story! I can't begin to imagine how hard it must have been to make this video. I truly feel like you are being someone's angel just the way the lady at the sprint store and that Dixie are your own angels! Also if any of you are going through a situation and you need someone to talk to, I'm here for you and praying for all that are dealing with any abuse!
Wow thank you Jami for having the strength to open up and tell us your story! It has me in tears as I listen because I was also in a physically and mental abusive relationship for over 5 yrs and it has had a long lasting effect on my life. Hearing the raw emotion coming through your voice to me is healing in a way for me because I always felt alone. We all feel alone at times but we are never alone we women always have each other. Love y'all. And again thank you for sharing this part of your life with us.
Tears flowed as you spoke about the sprint phone lady. Sometimes, an act of kindness from a stranger can mean so much more than they know. Much love, Jami.
Thank you for sharing from your heart Jamie. I know from my own experience that part of the healing is to talk about it. I am a 71 year old woman who had a first marriage that was a domestic violent marriage. I was in my early twenties at the time. But your experience brought back that sad time again and I am so glad you could share it with us because there are many many of us who can relate. May the LORD bless you❤️🙏
With tears in my eyes and as a complete stranger, I just want to say I am so proud of you putting this out there. I can’t imagine how difficult it must have been. Processing our trauma so often means feeling it all over again. Your message WILL help many. ❤️
Oh Jamie be proud of yourself. You broke that cycle in your life and you taught your son to be better than that. You would be surprised at how many women have basically the same story and have been through the same experiences. I know I have. It's not easy but a great support system helps, be that animals humans etc. You are a strong beautiful woman and we love you for who you are 💜
Dixie is so understanding, she just know you are hurting. Oh my beautiful Jamie you went through so much. Glad you could get yourself to talk to us about that time in your life. Love you SO much.
Thank you, Jamie, for sharing this with all of us. You are truly a survivor and your example is inspiration to a lot of your followers. Keep up the excellent work with all your babies and your family! We all love you 🥰
I think you're helping yourself right here and you should never feel ashamed to talk and thousands of others, we need to talk, sending hugs as no man or women should be abused in the many forms. So sorry you went through the worst of life. Xx I went through physical and mental abuse from my father and now I will not stand any form of abuse. X we are so much more than many feel. Dixie understands, animals do not judge x
You Are Not Alone, most people keep their abuse a secret and I admire your bravery to come out and talk about it. I have been there, molested is a child raped at 15 and I have no help and support and I was also raped by an ex-boyfriend but the police would not get involved. I have what is called c-ptsd, it is because of the trauma that you have been through that makes you such a loving caring person because you understand it in a different way than others. My heart goes out to you because your story is so similar to mine and I will pray that you will continue your journey one day at a time in healing happened to you . I still have trust issues and pretty much trust no one I become an introvert and stay to myself because it keeps me safe, I admire you finding a man who takes care of you and your ability to take her others. It's okay to cry, remember every tear is letting go of the past.
Jami - I admire you so much, and after watching this video - I'm even more amazed and proud of you. As many have mentioned, I couldn't believe Dixie's reaction when the tone of your voice changed with sadness. She stopped eating so suddenly and looked at you and then walked up to you to check on how you were doing. It was beautiful each time she did it. The love and compassion she was showing you was so touching. She definitely has your back. It's a refection of you and your love for her. I wish you never had to go through such difficult and nightmarish events. Kudos to you
Mine was 5 years of mental and physical abuse getting away was the hardest thing I ever did but also the best thing I ever did ❤️ sending you lots of love Jami ❤️🥰 we are survivors not victims 🙏🏻 took me a while to realise that 💝
Jami 🤍🕊🤍 it's a long, hard journey and the effects never go completely away, as much as we'd like them to. I'm proud of you for speaking up. My mom is a DV survivor. I was only 3 when she left, but I have vivid memories, including him choking her nearly to death. This was 50 years ago and lately I find myself wondering if it's gotten any better....I don't think it has. It makes me sad and angry that, as a society, we haven't prioritized the elimination of domestic violence enough to effectively eradicate it. It's so stupid since the impacts and costs to society are staggering, let alone caring about the individuals going through it. I challenge everyone reading this to write your representatives and ask what they are doing to stop DV (city, county, state, federal). We need to start demanding this be addressed. If ALL survivors of domestic violence, rape, incest, sexual and emotional abuse demand change, I think the sheer number of voices speaking up would be shocking. Thank you Jami for adding your voice. Even if you don't always feel like it, you're amazing ✨
I know your story well. Im gratefule you shared it. It takes a strong person with a good heart to perservere Dixie is before my time, but she is a beautiful soul. I can see why you miss her so much. Im courious how did you and Mr Lester met? Im only able to experiance farm and ranch like by watching LHL, Sanctuary and now JL RANCH. I love it and sharing both your and Lester's life together has been healing and fun experiance.🥰🥰🥰🥰
Thank you Jami for sharing a part of your life with us. You are amazing and we love you so much. Horses are such good medicine and they see into our souls. Sending love, light and hugs your way. 💕🐎
Thank you. I “clicked” after 20 years. It was still a hidden problem, back then. No one believed me. He was so DIFFERENT, in public. Thank you. I am out of that situation. I hope this has been therapeutic for you. It was for me. I want, so badly, to just hug you. Blessings
I survived childhood molestation. My instinct at the time was to hide it in shame. Once the person that did it died, I was never more relieved. I am so sorry for what happened but I am glad to have you here and now. I happy you found Lester and the animals. You are amazing and admired for your strength. God Bless! Hugs and ❤️ from New York.
Oh Jami I feel that pain and the healing I've been thru several things you have. As a child horses were my friends healers and they weren't even mine. But I escaped to them. They listened, loved and just knew. They know, they feel our pain. I've had half a life of therapy and at 57 I'm happy. I have moments as we all do, but life is so worth it. The Victims advocate at our police department helped me as well as an awesome therapist. Thank you for sharing. 🐎❤❤❤
I've been there...I was verbally abused by 2 of my sisters growing up. Then married a man that did the same thing to me. The verbal abuse and constantly being told that I was worthless and everything was my fault. After trying to make it better for so very long, I got the courage and strength with GOD to divorce him. Depression, PTSD and lack of self worth has been my way of life for 18 yrs now. I know what you mean by triggers... Loud male voices, either in a group or by itself, has me cowering. I pray someday that I'll find a kind and caring man like your Lester. Being able to trust a man again is a hard to do. Thank you for sharing your heart with me. 💕
My beautiful Jami. Thank you for sharing this very private part of your life. It takes incredible strength. Seeing the woman that you are today means even more. This incomprehensible trauma leaves a big wound but you have won over these aggressors. You found joy, success, self-confidence and moved forward with compassion instead of hate and self-destruction. I know that victims feel shame but this belongs fully to the aggressor. I’m a survivor of emotional abuse. For 21 years I lived on eggshells, was ridiculed, threatened, thrown things, intimidated physically and verbally, treated like the domestic help. I left my abuser 9 years ago and have also found my happiness.
I wish we could hug you Jami! Sharing your story took guts! I am glad the phone lady quietly helped you with a new phone.. I know you have worked on your PTSD issues.and to let go. Working on the Sanctuary is a good way to heal. Having Dixie listen. She was right there supporting you! Thank you Jami We women need to support each other! Sending love to anyone hurting. ❤
Jami,you are playing my simular song!!! There are so many of us out there...we suffer in silence. Its behind me now, im 67yrs old now,and the triggers and memories never go away...but we rise above it...we all understand each other... I love how Dixie is so in tune with you right now,she knows you are upset and she is listening...anyway,carry on my sister,we do make it through somehow...💝🥰🙏💪🤝
Thank you for being brave and sharing your story with us. Horses have a 6th sense and are able to get through the walls we put up to protect ourselves. There is no one better to share your truths with than a horse. ❤🩹
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We are all survivors of something!!
The absolute love and affection Dixie showed for you as soon as she heard you cry was beautiful.
You are absolutely right, Dixie the quiet therapist. That's love.
Animal senses are amazing
Jamie..thank you for telling your story. You helped me more than you will ever know. I'm 70 and have been through so much and finally I'm really grasping that what you are saying is so true. It's a blessing for me and I hope you sharing will be a blessing for you too.
You know when Journey was alive I would watch yours and Leaders video and that beautiful little angel gave me a pep talk every day. I relate to animals much better than I do humans and it was like she was just tellingme that if she kept going so could I. That was why I asked for the picture of Journey.
I am so very sorry that any of us have to experience violence. Its cruel and demeaning and frightening and aweful. For most of my life I have thought that what I have gone through was all my fault. That I was so flawed I deserved what ever I got. I couldn't understand why God even put me on this earth . And I know that's not true now. It never was. I come from a dysfunctional family that doesn't know what love and compassion are. And I can't hold that against any of them but I can pray for and love them from afar.
Thank you dear young lady..you are strong and compassionate and generous and kind. An incredible, beautiful young lady for all of us to love
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Thank you for putting it in words for all of us, I thank you for saying what so many of us have just buried…so much more to say. God’s Grace and Blessings to us all, The SURVIVORS!🙏❤️🕊✝️✡️🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸
I deeply admire your bravery. It must have been difficult to share a piece of yourself. Thank you for letting us in. You ARE a Survivor!
Both men and women have had the same experience! Blessings!
Healings and blessings through God! Amen
As I sat here and watched, there were several moments where your anxiety was clearly rising, and Dixie absolutely sensed it, stopped what she was doing, and connected with you...this is what I love about horses. Their situational awareness is what keeps them alive. It is also why they are useful in therapy.
Thanks for sharing your story, Jamie. You are so fortunate to have a "Dixie" in your life.
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Much love to you Jami.
Thank you for sharing, we care, and appreciate you. 💞
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I am so sorry Jamie.
Agreed.. btw my heart did a leap when I saw your name at first as I thought it was Lauren Estes, that was the name of a very good friend who died unexpectedly :(
Jaimi ..you just described my experiences in my life. You pulled yourself up like a Phoenix. You, my Darling child ..we love you. You are a Warrior.
So many women go through all kinds of Physical and emotional abuse It’s as though we were with the SAME will say person 😢 So many women would never leave or even attempt to leave some waited to long PRAYERS for ALL GOD BLESS
There are lots of us out in this world. The pain. Never goes away we learn to deal with it the best we can. Truth is we're broken, but keep on going. God Bless You and all others living in pain.
4-legged therapists are worth their weight in gold; sending blessings to you and your family during this holiday season💖
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I ABSOLUTELY AGREE !!!!b.
Everytime someone shares their pain, someone else realizes it's okay to do the same. The more that's shared the more healing that's felt. It may take a lifetime, but this resonates with so many. Having the courage to rip the bandaids off, starts loosing the adhesive on another. You having the ability to say this on a platform was brave but also wise. It's uncanny how your phrase "we are all survivors of something " is the exact right thing to say. Thank you for your honesty and courage. We love you.
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You could not have said it any better!!!
I know how you feel Jami. I went through the same thing only I woke up with a knife at my throat. But I got lucky and found a good man that helped me through it. Good luck and God bless.
Yvonne , I wish I had your ability to eloquently put words together .
What you just said , was so powerful.
I experienced mental abuse for 9 long years . I saw the world in black and white , back then .
Even though I got out , and have been happy married for many years , I still have triggers . I guess I will have them for the rest of my life .
But just like Jamie , sharing , is truly healing .
Thank you for bringing this to all of our attention .
I do see the world in color now .
I pray for all that are still in black and white .
Love to all my friends in this group.
We all love and admire Jamie so much . Today , even more .
You said it perfectly! Thank you for taking the words out of my mouth
Jami, Courage is telling your story with your whole heart 💜 You are a badass, and a role model...don't ever forget it. Thank you for being exactly who you are 💛
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I can relate to what you are saying. I’ve been abused in so many of my relationships and I always thought that was normal in relationships but once I got out of that relationship with everything I had in me. I finally got the courage to just get up and leave him with just the clothes on my back and nothing on my feet at all. I just drove to my moms house to try to forget what I was in this nasty relationship. I like that you shared this with us. I now have bipolar disorder and I was scared of any relationship. Today I’m in a different kind of relationship and I couldn’t be happier with my boyfriend he treats me with respect and takes great care of me along with his boys. He loves me for me not for anything else. He says it to me every day and more then once a day and calls me every few hours. You gave me the courage to tell my mom what has happened in my last relationship where this guy put some kind of drug into me for weeks. Come to find out he could of killed me. I love all theses videos you and Lester and LE and Jake and paw paw put out. Keep your head up. I’ll keep you in my prayers
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It's hard to shove your way through every day. I would not be on this planet if I did not have my animals. I am so glad you have Dixie.
Oh my heart when Dixie realized you were crying. She loves you as much as you love her.
You are much more than that “man”wanted you to be, you always were!
God bless the lady at the Sprint store.
There is a reason these animals are drawn to you, Jami. They know you are a survivor too! You are such a blessing to them and to us.
The problem with trauma is that it creeps up on you at the most surprising time. If you’re anything like me, you get nervous when things go well because you are always expecting the other shoe to drop. There is never a wrong time to tell your story. Thank you for sharing and for showing us you are more amazing than we already thought ♥️.
Thanks for sharing Jami. We love you and send you light
Ty Jamie. I too went thru the sexual abuse. Many times. Then the physical abuse. I swore up and down, never again. Now a verbal abuse. Ty for sharing. The strength to walk away is close for me. A plan is in place.
Vicki, you'll have the power when the time is right....
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@@monicap1717 Vicky, do what is right for you, when it is right for you. You can do it girl. Hugs from 🇨🇦🇨🇦
Does any one notice that Dixie comes to Jamie everytime Jamie needs a shoulder to lean on?
We love you Jamie!
Thank you on so many levels! Hey Lester, since we are able to do it please give Jami a hug from all of us who she has touched. And maybe an extra treat for Dixie. Thank you all for being one of God's blessings.
I love how Dixie was so in tune to you. She knew you needed comfort and she came to you each time you cried. I was also sexually abused as a child and had several abusive relationships. At age 65 I am a survivor too!
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Thank you for bravely sharing your story I can only think to know how hard it was for you
Sweet baby Dixie new momma needed her love ❤
I praise you cause while pregnant the father attacked me and now I'm over him but I still feel this over many years of recovery. I know we all shall heal with God's love.
Breaks my heart to hear your story. This video was both unsettling and calming at the same time. Just listening to your story is heartbreaking, but watching Dixie , who senses your sadness, is soothing. Listening to her munching the grass and watching the babies in the background, I understand why you are standing out there in the hayfield telling us your story. Bless you, Jami. and all the Morrow family , your videos are helping somebody cope with something in their life right now. God has placed you on Morrow Hill for a reason.
That was so beautiful how Dixie recognized your pain and came up to you!
I love her so much
Jamie, we are so honored that you chose to share your story with us. Crying here for the pain you lived through. So so relieved you are on the other side and "safe". Thank you. Hugs
I want to tell you Jami that you have a powerful testimony and through this platform your testimony will be able to reach so many who have and who are currently dealing with sexual, physical, emotional, and verbal abuse. You are truly living a purpose driven life and while living in your purpose God will allow you to utilize your talents and your gifts. My prayer for the lady who is currently in the abusive relationship who story you shared is that she is able to connect SAFELY with the support and help she may need to make a safe exit from the relationship. I will be praying for her daily. Love you all!
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Thank you.
It is so important for women in this position to not feel like they are totally alone.
God bless the woman that handed you that phone.. She was your first step.
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That was a wonderful Friday night happy hour, sweet lady. Thank you for sharing. Dixie was so loving and checked on her Mom a couple of times.
Just to hear your voice is wonderful to me, it shows that you are on the mend and back to the lady that we love.
We don’t need to wait for one month of the year to tell our stories. Our stories need to be told all the time to help others know that they are not alone. Thank you for sharing your story, Jami. ❤️🙏🏽
As emotional as it is to publicly state your truth, it’s such a huge public service and could save someone’s life. You’re doing a great good telling your story. It enables others who hear it to realize their worth and seek help. Thank you
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I was going to say about the same things that Sabbathblack... Reading about others going through rough things,
And probably helped SO many others feel better and change their own lives for the better! God Bless you!
Dixie is so Amazing, she tapped into your sadness and kept coming to see if you are okay! I know what you've been through. It's so hard to let people in. You did an Awesome thing of letting us into your Beautiful soul and there are so many going through this very thing and they are convinced that nobody else will want them. Thank you for telling all of us and someone out there listening to you and realizes it's time to take a stand. Thank you for trusting all of us and for helping someone else out there to take a stand. You are so loved!!
Dixie really listens to you. She loves you, & knows when you need comfort. A great bond you two have.
You are helping so many women & some men with you telling your story.
As Lester says, We are all survivors of something. I am 69 years old and I still can't tell my story. But God knows it all and why I have trust issues and I have trusted Him and only Him to bring me through my life because I wanted to die from the time I was a young child. God is good!!!
Thank you Jami for sharing. I had a horse for 34 years and she was my therapy. Princess was there for me through so many challenges. Her beautiful blond hair was soacked with tears many times. She brought me so much pleasure and comfort. YES, we have all survived of something.
Your "Time out Tuesday" a couple days ago was awesone.
Your story was so real and honest. With the love of Princess and Jesus I was carried through. Jami you are such a strong and wonderful person. You and Lester make a great couple. YIMTuesday
Hello Jami. I am so sorry for the abuse you endured at the hands of a man. You are a very strong woman and I'm sure hearing your story will help other women or men that suffered. I have true respect for you and others who have the courage to stand up and speak out against abuse. Thank you for sharing your story with us and showing that life does get better with help. You are an amazing woman. Love you so much.
I wouldn't give that guy the honor of being call a man hes a f****ing bastard cuz a man a real man would never do that kind of stuff to a lady.
@@SarahSmith7-9-22 Sorry, I did not mean that man(abuser). I meant some men suffer abuse as well as women.
Jami, Thank You for sharing your story. It has helped me to understand my behavior as a young girl & my total hate for myself. My father allowed me to ride Susie(my horse)into a wooded area near a private Airfield. ***My most memorable feeling-Tied the reins together when I let her RUN along side of the Runway!!! The indescrible feeling with arms extended during “BAREBACK FLIGHT” was truely SPIRITUAL****Feeling Free & Feathery!! Never forget that Life is No Dress Rehersal & I Thank You for helping me & I’m sure many others. 🎄🐴
This was one of the most real, open and honest talks I have ever heard. I felt your pain and hurt through your words. I am certain this will touch others, many others, and give them hope and confidence to do what they have to do to make a better life for themselves, because they ARE worthy of a better life. You are their inspiration, you are a survivor and you show them they can be too. God bless.
God allows us to walk areas but never abandons us. Thank you for sharing. I have never shared. But your are a courageous, blessed child of God
I’m so glad you have Dixie, Equine Therapy is a massive help!!!
My heart hurt so bad and I sobbed when you were telling your story because yes I can relate!!! I was in an abusive relationship for 3 years which at times I thought I would lose my life and had to escape the flat and run!! Hearing how you felt absolutely ring true in me!!! One thing you said that you had ‘flaws’ due to those experiences and I wanted to let you now my love, they’re not flaws they’re ‘battle scars’, you won the battle, you got out, you survived and you’re still healing but you are not flawed lady!! I think it’s safe to say you are loved and respected even more!! Look after yourself, it’s your time to heal too!!!❤️🙏🏻
It’s never to late to tell your story!! God knew I needed to hear this. Thank you for sharing your story.🌻
I hope anyone going through what you did hears your message. As hard as this must have been for you to tell, you may have just saved someone else.
Wow what a powerful share Jami. I'm so sorry for what you went through and so happy for where you are now physically, emotionally and spiritually. I can't get over how Dixie kept checking in on you as you were sharing your story.
I love the way Dixie was picking up on your emotions, especially when you started telling about your terrifying night.
Bless you, Jami..and your sweet lil Dixie horse!!
Sending healing, positive vibes to you and Thank You for sharing your story.
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Your story is also my story and thousands of others , you are not alone. I was raped at 19 by a so called friend , even reporting him to authorities got me know where , and more lost than ever. They said my past relationships would be brought up in court. I decided to always tell people even strangers about it , that was my therapy. I did nothing wrong and I wasn't going to let it kill me. Thank you Jami for sharing so you too can heal , not to be totally over the terrible event but realizing you can start to see you are never ever alone . Keep telling your story , keep getting it out so others can see they too are not alone. We got this, we are more powerful than our " ghosta" . They can't haunt us if we keep telling " OUR STORY" 💞
I cried with you cause I went thru the same thing,molested as a child by a close family member then an abusive relationship for 9 years.It's not easy but with time and help from others we can get better and even thrive.Dixie could feel your emotion,what a wonderful girl she is!I love ya'll's videos,you're helping me heal too!Thank you Jamie!
It's 6:30am, and I've been watching your older videos since midnight. I am 30 years older than you, but our stories are very similar. I had no idea, but the place you hold in my heart is now a bit deeper. My abuser was a policeman which made things harder in the 1970's. I left bleeding and barefoot and never looked back. So happy you were lucky enough to find Lester. I have a beautiful grown daughter and a son-in-law I love with all my heart, but I stayed single. Trust is not in my heart. You and those crazy Morrows light up my days.❤
Jami you described my life almost to a T. I'm 78 now and I still have the memories of it all. My father was physically abusive, My foster father molested me for the three years I was there. The courts put me back with my father but he had changed and didn't hit and kick me. I did want acceptance from boys and men so I did what they wanted. I was married at. 17 and divorced by 21. When I remarried, he was very abusive like my father. One day when when he was at work, I packed up my kids and our belongings and moved to a different state. Two years later I married again this time to a wonderful man, sadly he died three years later. This time I didn't marry for 10 years. Now I have been married for 36 years and very happy 😁😊❤️
It's over 30 years since I left my abusive spouse and lost everything I'd worked for up to then. I stayed single. I admire your guts to marry again.
Dear Jamie, while laying here in tears, not for myself but thinking that there are others out there going through this too. Yes I put too. I feel you and your hurt. Stay strong special lady you have found a wonderful friend in Dixie and in Lester. Take care of you xx
Jamie, what a powerful message. I am 80 yrs. Old and you have talked about this matter so beautifully. You have touched a lot of hearts.. take care of yourself. Thank you.
My God Jami. So awful, I am sorry to hear this happened to you. I wish I could give you a hug. I was forced into sex one night also so many years ago. Fear of his strength made me let it happen, but I never forgot that night.
Dixie truely loves you. Her sensing your sad is such a beautiful thing. Your a strong woman Jami. Thank you for sharing your story. I think with so many people loving you without knowing your story will help some so much more. Your a beautiful woman and I love you.
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Thank you for sharing Jami 😪 😢😥 I lived emotional abuse (not physical or sexual) for several decades. It has taken many more decades to realize that is why I always picked “the wrong” guy and why trust has been so difficult.
I am happy you found the right guy to love you and for you to love.
Your story brought back a memory that is over fifty years old. I was going through a rough spot while up at summer camp. My friend, Evalinda, a blind girl, composed this song for me. She sang it through and I memorized it. I share it with you now. Evalinda was blind since birth, and yet her descriptions are so beautiful.
SUNLIGHT
Your sky is turning gray, as sunlight fades away
I cannot stand and see you fall.
What can I do, my friend, to help you face the end?
My help is more than none at all.
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My friend, can't you see? There's sunlight to every storm.
You can depend on me to hold your hand.
You know I'm here to give you comfort, when life will let you down,
And I want to know you when you need a friend.
So let me take you by the hand and lead you through the land
And then we two will be as one.
I feel your heart's distress, and offer happiness.
Please let me try to bring the sun.
The rest I can't remember, really... but the first verses and the refrain came to me as I read your story. Please accept it as a gift of the heart, given to me, decades ago and shared with loving thoughts.
Oh Jaime. Bless you’re heart. I could have hugged you listening to that. My daughter is 8 months pregnant with baby number 4. Her partner who is the father to all four has mentally abused her for years and when this baby appeared on the scan she decided she’s had enough and threw him out. This was all mental. Not physical but I am so proud of her doing this. and I am proud of you too. Big hugs to you. And isn’t Dixie so loving. She knew when you were upset xxx
My ex was verbally abusive. That can be as damaging as the physical.
The mental healing is sometimes tougher to deal with.
They get IN your head and the residual effects last a log time
Mine was mostly mental too. Sadly It will stay with me for ever but I’ve moved on too. It makes you pretty tough. You must be very proud of her.
I’m so thankful she put him out, now if she’ll stay away. I Pray for her, the baby(Ida) & you. Many Blessings & God’s protection around you all 🙏🏼✝️🙏🏼
I agree with everything positive everyone's written and I have one bit of advice: The next time you and Dixie take a therapy walk, go as far as you feel safe and where noone can hear you unless you scream bloody murder (just in case you need to LOL), and when you start to cry, don't stop! ...don't just sniffle and hold back. For once in your life let it out! All of it! Cry until you're exhausted and tou couldn't cry another tear if you stubbed your baby toe. Cry out the anger, cry out the pain, cry out any frustration you might still be harboring. Cry unashamedly for yourself and cry for everyone who is hurting . because God gave us crying as a release so We can start to heal
Jami, many of us survivors picked up on a few things over the years being with you. None of us were prepared for the whole truth, as it's always horrible. As one who has experienced different degrees of abuse, from different men in my life, I am always thankful for the survivors to be able to live to tell their own life events. With every sharing of a survival success, yes- surviving is a success- hopefully it encourages others to get away to become a survivor. My prayers are with those who haven't found their way out. It's hard for many reasons: money, children, lack of support of all kinds, and the verbal and/or physical abuse. Every person is worthy of a life without the abuser no matter what that abuser says!
Jami thank you for your bravery and self worth then and now. Much love and respect to you!
Yes, Dixie knows. She is very much in tune with you. As are many of the babies are!❤️💕💞💓💗💖💝💘💌
You always have been my Shero and even more now for your message.
You are brave to share this with us Jami, sending you lots of love
Me too! Love you lots too! 😊❤️🙏🏼
Damn woman… this really hit.. in so many places.. 🤭 Thank you so much for being brave enough to share this with all of us!
I’m so proud of you for having the courage to speak your truth Jamie, I know how hard that can be. Your a beautiful woman inside and out and that is why so many follow you, your genuine. At 66 I am dealing with the sexual, mental and physical abuse, rape and a physical abuse from from an ex from my younger years. I wish I had gotten the help I needed years ago instead of now. Thank you for a well said message to us all🙏🏼❤️
Jamie you've got this, you won. I went thru 8 yrs of it. The beginning of the end was when I took his gun to the police station and told them to keep it, I didn't care if they brought it home with them, burned it or buried it. He never asked me where it went. Now I am a bull moose for other women in the same situation you and I were in. They pound on my door and them and the kids can come in, and I have stood up to their husbands. I even stood up to an abusive cop. I won for me and I won for them. The stories I have are way to long for this chat, but I lived your life. I am more than better now. You will be too. HUGS
I’m so proud of you for being so vulnerable. You’ve helped so many with you message today! Blessings to you for that!
Dear Jami. This 74 year old woman listened to your story with tears pouring down my face for the girl I was and with sadness (and anger) that it happened to you. 40 years of therapy and sometimes Triggers come and bite me in the butt (pardon the old Roy Rogers reference)! But Dixie's crunching and munching was so soothing I realized ( as you shared) that there are many ways to "turn over" that pain. Animals ( I have 4 fish), talking, writing and my latest-drawing. And humor is the best of all! Bless you and all the babies for giving us plenty😁
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I sat in tears listening, for you, me and all of us who have felt the pain of abuse. I cannot share my story in public because there are people in my life who are unaware, that I felt I had to protect. I have always felt you had such a special and tender spirit, you are a survivor and it shows in the compassion you have not only with the animals but also with Lester. I read somewhere recently that that we need to unpack the pain/baggage we have been carrying around in order to leave it behind, Thank you for trusting us to share in you journey of healing. I pray for your healing that some day it will only be a bad memory and not a painful memory. God bless you sweet Jamie 🙏🏾💖🙏🏾
NOW I understand you with my whole heart @ Jamie! I am a survivor, too. Animals love is honest+ unconditional. Many "wounded" people are turning to animals. 🙋❤️🇦🇹🐎
As a 61 year old, I am a survivor of the same type of abuses. Thanks Jami. Your courage is commendable.
Jami, thank you for sharing. At 63 years old when I get stressed the monster I have stuffed in the back of the closet seems to sneak out and fill my mind with the haunting memories. The holidays are the worst fir me - it was always during the holidays the abuse increased during my childhood. My father was the sexual abuser in my life. It wasn't until my thirties that I was able to start my healing journey. Yes, over the years it gets easier as I have become a true survivor, no longer living in the victim mentality. The thoughts, the memories never go away but, with God's help and therapy comes healing.
This right here, this video - you sharing your story will help you all while you have just touched so many lives. A true strong woman has gained her strength by facing horrible things and pain, which is why you can help others by using empathy and letting them know they are loved!❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Awe Jamie, I'm so sorry for the hell you went through. This definitely has made you a much stronger person. Always remember to "just breathe"
It's beautiful to see how Dixie is so in tune to you. You truly are her person.
Much love!! 💞
Jamie, those of us who truly appreciate your videos, KNOW.
We all have 'a history', what truly matters is what you are doing now.
I would go back to that phone store and give that woman a hug.
Jami I'm so proud of you. It's unbelievable the number of people who have the abuse you have suffered. I grew up in a abusive home and married twice to men that were mentally abusive. This story could go on forever, and I don't talk about it much. You're a woman that has shared a heart break that will be able to help others. One day when you feel more comfortable I would love to see you reach out and talk about how people can get help to leave the situation. I admire you in so many ways. Animals are amazing when they try to comfort us when they realize we are hurting. Dixie is truly a God send for you. Take care.
Jamie,
I just came across a video with u and Dixie.
You were talking about your life. You never know by looking at someone what their life was like.
You are my favorite video! Thank you for telling it. You are a beautiful and strong lady and Lester is very lucky to have you in his life!!! You guys fit very well together.
I watch all of the I'ma a survivor videos every day.
Jamie take care!
I consider myself as part of the survivor family.
Katherine Franks
And so the saying goes, "WE ARE ALL SURVIVORS OF SOMETHING" Thank you for opening up and sharing with us, God bless you!
Thats right Jamie, make sure its the last time. If someone is mean to you even just a little, get them out of your life ASAP. Too many people get away with that stuff. Shut them out, run away from them fast! Slip out the back Jack, make a new plan Stan, Hop on the bus, Gus, Don't need to discuss much, Just get yourself free. You cant change them, evil will always be evil. Sociopaths are all over they're even in your family, double check make sure. Then shut them out.
Amen.
Amen 💜🙏🏻💜
Amen
Amen 🙏 🙏 🙏
I'm glad your journey of healing bought you to the sanctuary. Lester and his sons are blessed to have you in their lives, as us Ima Survivor family are.
Watching you Jami tend to a sick or injured "little" or "big" with such intense compassion, always made me wonder what was triggered behind your eyes. You evidently understand their feelings the most of pain/fear and vulnerability.
It's only being on this earth long enough, you discover people even in your everyday life who have suffered from abuse. I was floored one day a work colleague told me about her abuse at the hands of a family member. I was proud they felt able to tell their story even though she was in her 60's and proud she felt she wanted to tell me.
I'm also proud of you Jami, even if this is the wrong term or sentiment. Wishing you much love and support xxx
Thankyou Jami for sharing your story. As hard as it must have been to talk about, it just shows how strong you are. I always knew you were amazing, but your courage knows no bounds. Dixie and you share something very special, she is so in line with your emotions. It's amazing how animals can pick up on people emotions and want to help.
My pastor once talked to me about my abuse. I kept saying he never hit me, poked in chest to point of bruises, yes, but never hit me. He was a yeller. My pastor told me verbal abuse is still abuse. That is why I withdrawal and shut down when someone raises their voice to me. We are all damaged in some way. With God's grace we keep going.
Jamie I am so sorry you had to go through that. No woman should ever be abused. I love how Dixie showed you her love for you. Animals are so amazing. Best wishes to you always. God bless🥰
Thank you for sharing. My first marriage was not a good one. Still have a big issue with trusting. I also have fibromyalgia, it came with pain, depression and ANXIETY!
I’ve kinda a recluse. It’s supper hard to keep friends. Always in pain.
Worse people don’t think I hurt! Just because I smile!!
P.S Watching your family videos help a lot. Puts a big smile on my face plus laughing my butt off! Even the crying helps!!!
Thank you
Love your family!!!
Hi! I can relate to you. I also have a chronic illness and have become a recluse-most days. When I am able to pull myself together and go somewhere I put on a smile and no one knows how bad I hurt, how I was in tears just hours before due to debilitating stomach pains. I am fortunate to have a supportive family, but I’ve lost most of my friends, and I haven’t been able to work as a nurse for 5 years now, so slowly everyone fades away.I try to stay positive, and most days I can, but other times the despair of what my life has become is overwhelming. I’m thankful for Jami and Lester and ISS for bringing a little bit of reprieve from my reality.
First videos I watch in the morning with my coffee. But I have to be careful sometimes because they get me every now and then. I end up with coffee coming out my nose!
Jamie it breaks my heart what you went through I'm sitting here crying for you I never experienced anything like what you went through but I can relate to some of the things that you say that has been done to you God-bless you Jamie. My heart just breaks for you you're doing such a fabulous job telling your story and is story and the hope it can help other women go through gold true cultural would get through this mouse this mess right now I guess I'm just mumbling I'm talking or unreally saying that anyway Jamie's God-bless you with my darling we know what you've been through and it just breaks my heart.
Thank you for the courage and bravery it took to share this. You'll probably never know how many folks you helped by doing so. And who knew angels worked at Sprint stores? God bless her wherever she is today!
I've had the same truth myself Jamie. It takes so much strength to put this out there like you are. Dixie truly is your therapist, she even cuddled you in her way when you cried. Your bond is incredibly tight with her and could be lessened if you rode her. I had a mare named Dixie as well and she was my therapist and best friend too. Bless you Jamie for lifting us all up.❤️❤️❤️
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My sweet friend, Jami...what a brave moment, and woman to woman, I have been in your shoes. Just know that the process IS WHAT IT IS! Never give yourself a hard time when going through the "process". It gets better, but there are days, triggers, that bring things up. Allow it...spend that day in that moment guilt free. Then, just like you already do each and every day, realize that your life now...ALL OF OUR LOVE FOR YOU...is what defines! Huge cyber hug from a Texan transplanted into Tennessee for that very reason. We are all survivors of something
For decades, I have said, "Everyone has a story or loves someone who does. Only the brave ones tell them... but there is power in doing so!" I have not experienced abuse like your's, but I know people who have. It is so important that empathetic people like yourself share your stories. As others have said, you may save a life. Thank you for all the stories you share, but as a teacher and a pastor, I applaud your bravery in sharing this one in particular. Mental health needs to be spoken about so that others may be set free into lives of wholeness also. Thank you for being brave. ❤️
I knew there was a history of some abuse but I've never actually heard you tell your story before. God Bless you for what you have been through. You have risen above what has happened and made a beautiful, caring life for yourself. It makes me even more thankful that you found Lester and ISS. You are an inspiration for anyone else who may be going through a similar situation. I pray for safety and peace for all of them.
Jamie. I feel for you. I was in abuse marriage. I was only seventeen when I got marry. On my honeymoon he started his abuse. Drink was great part of it. Today my health isn't wonderful.. I really feel for you and it's great to talk about it. Has woman on her own you still get male that wants to cause trouble about you. This male is older then me. Use to take there dog for a walk. He has put so many lies around about me. Neighbours don't talk. I get up early so I can go for a walk before anybody around. I spend most of my day inside. Don't have any friends. Don't have family close to me. So Jamie chin . You have meet a good man in Lester 😊🙏
You are a brave ass woman, I say that not thinking what you've been through, although that was hugely brave of you, it's you speaking about it. When we go through trauma, it's like we have no other choice but to go through it and deal with it, but talking about it and being open about it, it's your choice. You're choosing to share this and that's what makes you have balls of steel. Did you also notice, you got more upset when you recalled the kindness you received? Having kindness in those moments mean everything and we hold onto that for the rest of our time on this earth. Just shows how important kindness can be. My hat goes off to you and I thank you for sharing. Go be proud of yourself, you know that all of us here are. Brave, strong ass woman.. amazing 💪💗
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I was also molested by my father and until this day I am still called a liar about it and I’ve gotten to where it doesn’t bother me anymore and I pray that one day you can reach that point also God bless you Jami
I am a survivor of paternal incest as well. I am 63, have been in therapy for years and still have not seemed to be able to,”get over it”! It is compounded by that way my mother treated me like I volunteered to become his mistress, once I told her what he was doing at age 12. She still will not take ownership of that.and is now dying. I have forgiven her at her request and I am glad I did. It doesn’t change the fact that I am now permanently physically disabled and about to be evicted and I am treated like trash by the rest of my family. Her story and judgement won the day. It will be ironic that it’s possible that I will end up dead before her as I am not worthy of help.
I hope you have a better ending to your story than mine
RoxAnn, I am so sorry this happened to you and that you were called a liar. It us so hard when the people in your life, the ones who should protect you are the ones that betray you. I am glad that you are healing. May God bless and keep you always!
hugs you Roxann x
@@elanagalante7708 Praying that you have the physical and emotional strength in the face of great odds. You are a warrior!
@@elanagalante7708 you are not trash to be thrown away, as anyone on this page will tell you. There are a million people here that are your family now who think the same. When it gets too bad, post here for others to see. You may be alone at home, but you are part of the Survivor family here. There is always someone to share with. 💕💕
Jami, from the bottom of my heart I applaud you for telling your story! I can't begin to imagine how hard it must have been to make this video. I truly feel like you are being someone's angel just the way the lady at the sprint store and that Dixie are your own angels! Also if any of you are going through a situation and you need someone to talk to, I'm here for you and praying for all that are dealing with any abuse!
Wow thank you Jami for having the strength to open up and tell us your story! It has me in tears as I listen because I was also in a physically and mental abusive relationship for over 5 yrs and it has had a long lasting effect on my life. Hearing the raw emotion coming through your voice to me is healing in a way for me because I always felt alone. We all feel alone at times but we are never alone we women always have each other. Love y'all. And again thank you for sharing this part of your life with us.
Tears flowed as you spoke about the sprint phone lady. Sometimes, an act of kindness from a stranger can mean so much more than they know. Much love, Jami.
Thank you for sharing from your heart Jamie. I know from my own experience that part of the healing is to talk about it. I am a 71 year old woman who had a first marriage that was a domestic violent marriage. I was in my early twenties at the time. But your experience brought back that sad time again and I am so glad you could share it with us because there are many many of us who can relate. May the LORD bless you❤️🙏
With tears in my eyes and as a complete stranger, I just want to say I am so proud of you putting this out there. I can’t imagine how difficult it must have been. Processing our trauma so often means feeling it all over again. Your message WILL help many. ❤️
Oh Jamie be proud of yourself. You broke that cycle in your life and you taught your son to be better than that. You would be surprised at how many women have basically the same story and have been through the same experiences. I know I have. It's not easy but a great support system helps, be that animals humans etc. You are a strong beautiful woman and we love you for who you are 💜
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'What matters is...you.' That's where I lost it. You really are a Survivor! Much Love!
Dixie is so understanding, she just know you are hurting. Oh my beautiful Jamie you went through so much. Glad you could get yourself to talk to us about that time in your life. Love you SO much.
Thank you, Jamie, for sharing this with all of us. You are truly a survivor and your example is inspiration to a lot of your followers. Keep up the excellent work with all your babies and your family! We all love you 🥰
I think you're helping yourself right here and you should never feel ashamed to talk and thousands of others, we need to talk, sending hugs as no man or women should be abused in the many forms.
So sorry you went through the worst of life. Xx
I went through physical and mental abuse from my father and now I will not stand any form of abuse. X we are so much more than many feel.
Dixie understands, animals do not judge x
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You Are Not Alone, most people keep their abuse a secret and I admire your bravery to come out and talk about it. I have been there, molested is a child raped at 15 and I have no help and support and I was also raped by an ex-boyfriend but the police would not get involved. I have what is called c-ptsd, it is because of the trauma that you have been through that makes you such a loving caring person because you understand it in a different way than others. My heart goes out to you because your story is so similar to mine and I will pray that you will continue your journey one day at a time in healing happened to you . I still have trust issues and pretty much trust no one I become an introvert and stay to myself because it keeps me safe, I admire you finding a man who takes care of you and your ability to take her others. It's okay to cry, remember every tear is letting go of the past.
Jami - I admire you so much, and after watching this video - I'm even more amazed and proud of you. As many have mentioned, I couldn't believe Dixie's reaction when the tone of your voice changed with sadness. She stopped eating so suddenly and looked at you and then walked up to you to check on how you were doing. It was beautiful each time she did it. The love and compassion she was showing you was so touching. She definitely has your back. It's a refection of you and your love for her. I wish you never had to go through such difficult and nightmarish events. Kudos to you
Mine was 5 years of mental and physical abuse getting away was the hardest thing I ever did but also the best thing I ever did ❤️ sending you lots of love Jami ❤️🥰 we are survivors not victims 🙏🏻 took me a while to realise that 💝
Jami 🤍🕊🤍 it's a long, hard journey and the effects never go completely away, as much as we'd like them to. I'm proud of you for speaking up. My mom is a DV survivor. I was only 3 when she left, but I have vivid memories, including him choking her nearly to death. This was 50 years ago and lately I find myself wondering if it's gotten any better....I don't think it has. It makes me sad and angry that, as a society, we haven't prioritized the elimination of domestic violence enough to effectively eradicate it. It's so stupid since the impacts and costs to society are staggering, let alone caring about the individuals going through it. I challenge everyone reading this to write your representatives and ask what they are doing to stop DV (city, county, state, federal). We need to start demanding this be addressed. If ALL survivors of domestic violence, rape, incest, sexual and emotional abuse demand change, I think the sheer number of voices speaking up would be shocking. Thank you Jami for adding your voice. Even if you don't always feel like it, you're amazing ✨
She is amazing!
*Jami, sharing that story took a lot of guts.*
*Thanks for being so vulnerable with us.*
*We love and care for you always.*
I know your story well. Im gratefule you shared it. It takes a strong person with a good heart to perservere Dixie is before my time, but she is a beautiful soul. I can see why you miss her so much. Im courious how did you and Mr Lester met? Im only able to experiance farm and ranch like by watching LHL, Sanctuary and now JL RANCH. I love it and sharing both your and Lester's life together has been healing and fun experiance.🥰🥰🥰🥰
Thank you Jami for sharing a part of your life with us. You are amazing and we love you so much. Horses are such good medicine and they see into our souls. Sending love, light and hugs your way. 💕🐎
Thank you. I “clicked” after 20 years. It was still a hidden problem, back then. No one believed me. He was so DIFFERENT, in public. Thank you. I am out of that situation. I hope this has been therapeutic for you. It was for me. I want, so badly, to just hug you. Blessings
I survived childhood molestation. My instinct at the time was to hide it in shame. Once the person that did it died, I was never more relieved. I am so sorry for what happened but I am glad to have you here and now. I happy you found Lester and the animals. You are amazing and admired for your strength. God Bless! Hugs and ❤️ from New York.
Oh Jami I feel that pain and the healing
I've been thru several things you have. As a child horses were my friends healers and they weren't even mine. But I escaped to them. They listened, loved and just knew. They know, they feel our pain. I've had half a life of therapy and at 57 I'm happy. I have moments as we all do, but life is so worth it. The Victims advocate at our police department helped me as well as an awesome therapist. Thank you for sharing. 🐎❤❤❤
I've been there...I was verbally abused by 2 of my sisters growing up. Then married a man that did the same thing to me. The verbal abuse and constantly being told that I was worthless and everything was my fault. After trying to make it better for so very long, I got the courage and strength with GOD to divorce him. Depression, PTSD and lack of self worth has been my way of life for 18 yrs now. I know what you mean by triggers...
Loud male voices, either in a group or by itself, has me cowering. I pray someday that I'll find a kind and caring man like your Lester.
Being able to trust a man again is a hard to do.
Thank you for sharing your heart with me. 💕
Jami, God bless you & Dixie, we all have broken 💔 pieces!!
Thank you for sharing, Jamie. You certainly are not alone in those experiences. When I heard you say- “You are not stuck.” I needed that today. ♥️
My beautiful Jami. Thank you for sharing this very private part of your life. It takes incredible strength. Seeing the woman that you are today means even more. This incomprehensible trauma leaves a big wound but you have won over these aggressors. You found joy, success, self-confidence and moved forward with compassion instead of hate and self-destruction. I know that victims feel shame but this belongs fully to the aggressor. I’m a survivor of emotional abuse. For 21 years I lived on eggshells, was ridiculed, threatened, thrown things, intimidated physically and verbally, treated like the domestic help. I left my abuser 9 years ago and have also found my happiness.
I wish we could hug you Jami! Sharing your story took guts! I am glad the phone lady quietly helped you with a new phone..
I know you have worked on your PTSD issues.and to let go.
Working on the Sanctuary is a good way to heal. Having Dixie listen. She was right
there supporting you! Thank you Jami
We women need to support each other!
Sending love to anyone hurting. ❤
Jami,you are playing my simular song!!! There are so many of us out there...we suffer in silence. Its behind me now, im 67yrs old now,and the triggers and memories never go away...but we rise above it...we all understand each other... I love how Dixie is so in tune with you right now,she knows you are upset and she is listening...anyway,carry on my sister,we do make it through somehow...💝🥰🙏💪🤝
Thank you for being brave and sharing your story with us. Horses have a 6th sense and are able to get through the walls we put up to protect ourselves. There is no one better to share your truths with than a horse. ❤🩹