"I saw the freight train coming... I just didn't know how to stop it" 💔 Mama - you weren't the driver, that's why you couldn't stop it. My sincerest condolences for your loss - stay strong.
Sounds just like my son. My baby passed at 23 . I miss him so much. He was a son, a brother, and a grandson . We all miss him so much. My baby is gone forever.
I am 2 months clean today. These videos help me to realize how lucky I am to still be alive. I am sorry for your loss and I know Blake is in a better place. Addiction is a disease, not a character flaw like so many people think it is. Thank you for sharing your burden, it’s not your fault.
Thank you for your comments. We also have a series of addiction recovery stories that you might find interesting. Here's a link to the playlist: From Addiction to Recovery - ua-cam.com/play/PLdCPA32W_p39Z8hi7xSIX3Fkqmhd7mRzj.html
I am an addict and sober since July of 2011. It was Suboxone that stopped the withdrawl effects and i could finally function. Keep up the good work for yourself each day - you are worth it!
@@hr-hq8jiseriously bro!! You obviously haven’t had to face addiction head on like most of us have! Stay high on your white horse because eventually you’ll be knocked down a peg by karma 🤷🏻♀️
@@hr-hq8ji I can't comment on that person, but you failed your mother and family without a doubt. I think there's a good chance you would admit that as well, and you should admit it. The truth hurts, but it happens to be true in your case, and that's unfortunate.
My son broke his back racing dirt bikes at 16 years old. Same experience- he got opiods for it & was addicted. He has struggled for over 15 years. With the fentenal in everything now we have seen many die. All around him. Guys in rehab.. guys even on staff at rehab. Over dose & gone. Every day I live with that reality- im not the same. I tell him I love him. Tell him he can openly talk about any relapse & say keep trying. It's not a failure if you get up & keep trying. This crisis reminds me of the Bible story of King Herod killing all the babies to avoid Jesus being king. There is something evil out there folks- it wants our kids. Pray & yes educate.. then pray more. My deepest condolences to this mom. Thank you for sharing your story.
We have to call it was it is. Genocide. The open borders, the kickback to the ‘leader’s in this country. That dirty money is winning elections. Recognizing the agenda is key. I want to shout this from the rooftops. I feel that if the addicts truly understands that ‘the powers that be’ desire their death after they wring everything that was positive in their lives, that that might spur them on to fight the battle that much harder. This is real…
Ma’am you did all of the right things, it’s not your fault. I’m a recovering addict and would never blame my mommy or daddy for my addiction issues. Was raised in a upper class household, private school education, traveling and exploring the world positively. Got sick, toe nail had to be removed. The pain is indescribable, plus it got infected. I was given Percocets and Vicodin tablets highest dose of each pill. The pill made me feel energetic, kept fears at bay, just made me feel good. Then one day I realized I didn’t just want hem I needed them for survival. My parents put me in rehabilitation center, I did good but failed bc I wasn’t ready,relapsed. It was hard, scary, fentanyl poisoning. 9 Narcan were used, they fought for me. That’s when I decided I wanted to be clean and have been for over 3 yrs. I didnt want to hurt my family again. I think straight and I’m happy. I plan on doing talks at school, I simply want to save children from this demon.
Blake was a brilliant, vibrant, compassionate, and loving person. He was my nephew. His mother fought valiantly for him. Make no mistake, this issue is deeper than it seems. Ask yourself why the illicit drug industry ( it is an industry!) would introduce something so lethal into their product. Why would they risk killing their customers? Doesn't make a whole lot of sense to me. Blakers, I can't wait to see you again in Heaven. Save me a spot at the table between you and Ash. ❤
This is my story but I am a 64 year old woman in recovery from pain medication addiction. This is so real people! I am blessed I am almost five years clean. My heart goes out to this mom. Praying for you!
My heart is breaking for you I lost my son to methamphetamine/fentynl overdose. On October 13 2023 I found him the morning he was was going back into rehab
Dear Debra, so sorry for your loss. Pease don't feel you've failed Blake through lack of education on drugs. I'm a RN, counsellor, and about your age, and still knew nothing about fentanyl abuse or poisoning until very recently. Our children live in another world to us. Thank you for sharing your story, I can see it was hard to do. I hope you find some peace.
I introduced my child to my world Be responsible-- loyal to his SCHOOL work--- no partying No clubbing -- No smoking No alcohol That was not allowed in my house Today he's 34 years old and the Father of many kids that needs a father At a Rehabilitation school ❤ For run aways--- Girls and Boys So sorry for your loss Drug addiction is sad and destroyed so many lives Young and old
We were just talking about this tonight! I was working in the bar 18yrs ago and a lot of drugs went through the bar. Yet I had never heard of fentylol until about 10yrs ago.. Maybe not even that long ago. Our government has allowed enough of it or ingredients for it, to be smuggled in each and every single day, enough to saturate each and every community big and small, across The Americas and all around the world! Agenda 21 2030^2050 is in affect. They are depopulating through multiple programs/agendas.. That is why we've lost so many young adults and teens.. I personally know almost 20 friends or family members who've been taken in the last 10yrs. Many of them taken in the last few years! It's devastating. Any unprecedented event leaving devastation in its wake, are agenda 21 30^50 programs approved by infiltrators in your local government. We are at war. A war like no other war ever in history.
I was introduced to pain meds, when a friend gave me 3 pills, it made me feel light, happy and energized. I wanted to feel the same feeling it resulted into an addiction. I did stop until I got away from my home, but I injured my back. Due to my back I got reintroduced to it. I wanted more and more, so I could kill all the bad memories and childhood abuse. I am still dealing with it, I am trying to stop, so for instead of feeling good, it made me feel lonely and depressed. I am embarrassed to open up about it, because I don't want those who are related to me and those who knew me to look at me, judge me, look down on me and laugh about me. But I pray and asked God to rescue me from this evil addiction, to break the chains of addiction. I need to change for my kids and husband but most importantly to change myself before it's too late. I am thankful you and other parents for sharing your heart felt memories and educating kids about the danger of fentanyl. I am sorry you loss your child but his story and your advocacy are saving lives. We all need prayers 🙏 especially for our kids. May God continue to comfort you, RIP 🙏 🕊
Ive been clean for 6 years and its been this best 6 years of my life. I now have a very good job. I own my house just paid my truck and just bought a brand new mustang and im living my best life. Prayers sent to this guys mom and daughter.
The pain pills started it for too many people. A blessing and a curse those things are. For me I needed them for pain from surgery. What I noticed is when I took them for pain they took away my emotional pain, my depression. So I would take them for depression. And that’s where it started for me. I’m so sorry for your loss. I hope your pain eases and you know it wasn’t your fault. Honestly, there was nothing you could have done.
That’s very interesting. I often wonder why some people abuse pain pills, while others don’t. Thanks for sharing your thoughts and experience. I hope you were able to stop using pain meds for those reasons.
I take pain meds daily for chronic nerve damage and fibromyalgia. If I didn’t have them, I would die from the physical inability to tolerate it. I also have MS. Not sure how I am able to limit myself however without them I’m sure by the simple nature of the meds that I would withdrawal. I’ve been prescribed Hydrocodone for 10 years or so, nothing stronger and nothing weaker. I take 4 to 5 a day, every four to six hours while I move my body. It sucks to have to take them because honestly I still have some pain but it’s nothing like when I don’t have one for six hours, that’s when the pain will shoot down my body and I want to scream (sometimes I do). I believe this Country over prescribes for sure, and the fentanyl on the streets is what’s killing people because once they’re hooked, they’ll take anything with no questions because they are trying to avoid being sick.
@Indie Me same it helped the pain in my heart and helped me cope with PTSD from SA and anxiety it started for me due to chronic kidney stones and having a back that feels looks and works like a 90 year old woman they had to ask me if I ever was in a bad car wreck because that is how bad it is
@@AKA-Nana I completely understand. I’ve been on Fentanyl, Hydrocodone and Neurontin since 2003 when the other pain meds quit working for my pain. I’ll never be pain free while alive, but just to have pain levels in the 3-5 range each day is better than a constant 10. Good luck to you.
Seeing these mums blame themselves is utterly heartbreaking! She never has to question or doubt how much she loved and continues to love her son though. Life can be so cruel! If only love was enough to save them like she said. So selfless and brave of her to share her sons story x
We will always blame ourselves. I blame myself completely for my sons loss. If I had made different choices maybe he wouldn’t have began drinking as much as he did.
@@jenniferbarber467 I wish there was something I could say but I know there are no words. I do reckon he would have said you were the best mum a son could have wished for and would never want you to blame yourself. Big hug x
I am going to get a tattoo that says, “if love could have saved you, you would have lived forever”. Not a tattoo kind of person but he loved them. Going to take my son off life support on Tuesday. Such a heartbreaking thing for a Mother to go through.
I'm so, so sorry about so many unbelievable losses in these families!! These stories are so heartbreaking! My heart goes out to all the families and mom's and dad's! I've been weeping for half an hour! LORD Jesus help us!
I’m so sorry. I’m 71 years old. Me and my husband raised all 4 of our kids together. My oldest is our only son. He is 52 now. We had never had drugs or alcohol in our home raising them. Our son has been an addict for years. He even told me, Mom, it’s not you and Dads fault. Y’all taught us of the dangers of drugs. His Dad has since passed. I feel like I did something wrong. I still love him so much. He’s facing prison now. We lost our last daughter from different reasons when she was 9 years old. Cystic Fibrosis. I don’t think I could survive loosing another child from no reason. I’m so so sorry for your pain. ❤
The 12 month live in rehabilitation facility my cousin was put into required the addicts to pick a “partner” and that’s how I got involved. I met so many councilors and doctors that confirmed what this mother said about “never growing up”. I met thousands of people in the program during those 12 months and most of them were childlike but streetwise… such a strange combination. Ma’am I am so sorry for loss and pray you find your peace. Also praying for all the users, both addicts and dabblers, please say no more before it’s too late. And no matter what you’ve done it is ONLY too late when you’ve passed.
My son was so hurting, but the most street wise. He would lead the whole family and yet hurting. Strong for us week for themselves. Good leaders always give of themselves. God bless good leaders!
My son passed at age 28 in 2011. I felt her heart, I just wanted to hug her and cry. No one who hasn’t gone thru this will truly understand . I wish I could know this woman. God Bless.
My heart breaks for you. I am so sorry for your loss. I know this loss as we lost our 28-year-old son in 2013. We know where our babies are... they are made whole and they are alive and well, in heaven awaiting our reunion. Can you imagine what how awesome that is to be with Jesus. No more struggling, joy. Let me tell you, WE ARE NOT POWERFUL ENOUGH to fix or change another person. None of this is your fault. There is NOTHING you could have said or done to change this outcome. Fentanyl is coming over our wide-open border via Mexico from China. This is a war on our country. Vote for candidates who want to secure our border.
I used to tell Ppl this and they would look at me like I was losing my mind. Now, a few years later, everyone is like, you were right, you were right. We have to educate ourselves, it is a war on us, created by evil, evil, evil, greedy, disgusting, monsters, out to destroy us. You will never make me believe anything different. We as Americans should be able to defend our border, no question about it.
🙏I'm Soo sorry to hear of your loss, It should be a national emergency to close the Border & Stop the Drug Traffickers! I Iost my best friend to an overdose back in 2001 he was 19yrs old 😞 I've had my addiction battles as well for many years, & don't know why I've outlived several friends! I'm sure if there was easily obtainable Fentanyl back then I probably wouldn't be here sending this message! It seems there's an undeclared war on American Citizens! The Open Border policy is Only benefiting Illegal Aliens & Killing our Real American Citizens & Our children are being Genocided to Fentanyl Poisoning Joe Biden is corrupt & crooked Traitor to America imho! Despite the obvious Fentanyl problem - Joe Biden declared "The Greatest Enemy to America is White Supremacy" all I can say is FJB! 🤨
I was given IV Fentanyl following major surgery several years ago. I immediately started having hallucinations which I reported to my nurse (she did nothing but look at me). So the next day I woke up in ICU. I had stopped breathing and had to be revived. This drug is one of the deadliest narcotics, even when not being abused. My thoughts and prayers go out to all families affected by Fentanyl.
My heart breaks for you! We lost my nephew August 26, 2022 from fentanyl intoxication. He was 28 years old. He was a father, son, brother, and nephew. He left behind many friends that also loved him. It was a shock because none of us knew. His 6 year old son is still in counseling. We love and miss him very much.
I know three young people who have died of fentanyl overdose in the past two years. I doubt any of them knew they were taking fentanyl. My sympathy to his mom and family.
@Texas Pictures Documentaries, my cousin was found on January 1st, 2023 at his house, paramedics worked on him for 20 minutes, but he was pronounced dead at 2:57am. Everyone thought that he had a heart attack. I got a copy of his autopsy a couple of days ago, and yes, it was FENTANYL‼️ He thought he was taking cocaine, but unfortunately what was given to him was FENTANYL. I feel this mother's pain, because even though this was my cousin and not my own son, I loved him with my soul. We all need to do something about it, but thank you Texas Pictures Documentaries for sharing.
They are putting it in all the street drugs now. Some comedians in LA even got coke laced with fent and all 3 were found dead together in an apt or hotel. People need to stay away from these drugs. All drugs. It’s not worth it when they are laced with something deadly.
As a mother of a daughter who abuses drugs, my heart ❤️ goes out to you... when my daughter was diagnosed with ADHD I decided not place her on medication bc I was afraid of future addiction. She always felt Secluded from her peers And this took the feeling of abandonment away from her. Do Not Blame Yourself! You sound like a very loving and caring mother, and Blake had two very loving parents but chose the wrong path period. Rest in peace dear soul. 🙏 My prayer are with you and your family.
This woman is beautiful. Addiction is tough beyond comprehension. Her heart my god. Her enduring love after such loss. Inspiring, heart breaking, connecting. So much love for her.
My son and I used to take walks everyday when I got home from work. I used to talk to him about alcohol and how the men on my dad's side of the family were all alcoholics. At 32 my son is an alcoholic. He self medicates because he's bipolar. He says he doesn't like the way the medicine makes him feel. He won't get psychiatric help because he believes he knows more than the drs. I've learned the hard way. You are not your child's only influence. The frenemies have more of an influence than the parents who have always had their best interest at heart. God Bless Us All. ✝️
This woman seems so strong after the unimaginable losses she suffered back to back. Blake seemed like a really nice kid. Whole swaths of young people have been dying of this all across the country
This lady reminds me of my mom. She's currently going through all of this with my brother.. breaks my heart to see this, and to know this is probably going to be my mom sooner than later💔
My heart goes out to you. I am a mother to my one, and only child my son. He’s 26. I have struggled with addiction throughout my life, and I know as parents we go through all of the What Ifs we blame ourselves for everything. This is not your fault. This is not his fault. Addiction is addiction . I am so sorry for your loss. For everyone that knew and loved him. I hope he is at peace with God, in heaven, now. He will be your guardian angel forevermore until y’all meet again. Sending all the love and healing vibes your way.❤
The saddest reality of all of these stories is the questioning of the loved ones "Could I have done more? Did I try hard enough to save them?" You can see it their faces and hear it in their voices they are blaming themselves.
Heartbreaking stories like Debra Henderson's remind us of the devastating toll that fentanyl has taken on families across the country. It's crucial to listen to these personal accounts and understand the urgent need for action.
When I first started opiates I loved the feeling too and ended up addicted now I have gotten clean! I am sorry for your loss it is hell for everyone involved stay strong!
Your son’s story and your family’s story was incredibly powerful. You’re an amazing woman. I felt who he was through mommas eyes. God Bless You! This is an attack on our children.
I’m so sorry. Watching you, I saw me. My 18 year old was notified of his father’s death while in rehab. I begged him not to come home. He did anyway. Plenty in between, but he died four days after being released from being in jail for ten months. Thank you for sharing his story.
Very sorry for your losses. Those first few days after rehab or after incarceration are particularly dangerous for those with SUD because tolerance has lowered. We're working with HIDTA now to produce a short film that addresses this to be shown to prisoners before release.
I'm listening to this story and I'm really troubled. This excellent family doesn't deserve to be put through all this unnecessary drama. This is middle class America suffering from problems totally alien to their past experiences. This is New York City and I've been losing friends to drugs since Day One back in the 60s. This latest fentanyl scourge is taking the USA apart. My sincerest condolences Mrs. Henderson. You didn't fail anyone and forget those guilt feelings. Take care & God Bless .
Sadly, my brother's only son died of Fentanyl poisoning suicide in Wisconsin. Its not just a problem in NYC, tragic - its in every state as the drug smugglers have brought Fentanyl over the southern border & sold thru out USA. Work to vote Dems out of positions of power as Dems use illegals as their new voters, to keep power.
I lost my son in November 21. I understand. Drake was 23. He was my oldest son and I love him with all my soul. His younger brother and sister told me he was gone. I will never forget that moment. I hear it in my head every day. Drake was wonderful. Just as I’m sure Blake was. Had Drake not been so heavily intoxicated he would be here today. We will see our sins again in heaven. Let us keep our eyes on Jesus. You will remain in my prayers.
You’re an incredibly good woman who’s been through a lot. When I was 18 I had my wisdom teeth removed and was introduced to codeine. I’ve been orphaned since 16. That first time using opiates was the beginning of trouble. I’ve worked all my life and fortunately only went to jail once for 9 mos. I’m going on 70 now and it’s been on again off again and a lot of surgeries. So I know how your son didn’t ask for this habit, but the feeling is so strong that those of us fell in love with the pain meds. I pray you still have joy in this life. The kind of joy only God can give. Gods joy even a drop of it is enough to sustain us.
Blake's story parallels so many others that found themselves in this horrible situation. My brother, Matthew Carver Goode, too lost this battle. I feel now that their loved ones need to pick up that torch to win this war. Keep sharing your stories about our loved ones. Thinking of Blake, Blake's family, his loved ones, and all of you that are in this nightmare of an epidemic.
I am SO sorry for the loss of your son Blake..and your husband. Thank you for speaking out. There is no shame in addiction, but lots of pain. Hugs and prayers. You did NOT FAIL HIM.
This lady is a prime example of " you only think your life is hard, till u see someone who had it worse". God love this woman & hold her close. My heart is shattered for her pain
Vicoden for wisdom teeth at 14... followed by years of active addiction. Celebrating over 10 years this year (thru suboxone). Theres no rhyme or reason that our earthly minds can understand. This one made me cry my little eyes out. Youre in my thoughts and prayers tonight Mama💜
I feel your pain. I also am a mother of a substance abuse user. I'm also a nurse. Your story is my story, only difference my son is still here, fighting his battle. Don't feel guilty, you showed him he was still lovable despite his faults. I pray you find strength...
Sweet Mama. I am a nurse, too. I knew about Fentanyl pain patches for pain management. I did hear it was a drug brought into the US. I did NOT know it is cheap and it is laced into so many other street drugs. Most people who use do not know they are taking it. I am so sorry for your losses, your husband and your son. Thank you for helping others with this very painful story.
Ma'am, your son and so many others like him, are SO MUCH MORE than the addictions that took them. They are and were our families; our babies, our fathers, our mothers, our sisters, our friends, our people. They mattered then and they matter now. Sending you so much love.
From one nurse to another , u know in your heart of hearts that u should let any guilt / blame flyaway from your shoulders as it doesn’t belong there . Hugs to you and your family and praise for the strength to share your ordeal with us . ❤️from 🇨🇦
You’re the best mama to put his story out there, we all need to hear it. Thank you for opening up to us, hopefully you find healing in it as well. God bless
Bless her heart. This is just heart breaking. I can just see the pain in her face as she talks about her husband and her son. You are so strong to share your story. I hope they are resting in peace and I pray for your comfort and peace as well 🙏
I'm with her. I knew of fentanyl in a professional way. Putting patches on patients VERY carefully and removing them VERY carefully, always gloved! Moving it to a different place, documenting each application/removal etc. Then my 19 yr old brother died, right before Christmas '22! I wondered how he got his hands on a patch....now this world is all too clear to me!
I got hooked on Heroin when I spent 13 months in Thailand during the Vietnam era war. What I came to realize is, "what is so bad about it, is that is so damn good". At the end of my term of service I was shipped home and on the way home is when I went through the withdrawals. I vowed then that I would never go back to that drug, AND NEVER DID. It taught we a good lesson that I had an addictive type personality and had to watch myself carefully or I would easily get addicted to something else. From that time (1969) forward I tried just about everything else, but made the conscious decision that no one thing would ever take control of me again, but like her son I liked the high. Even at 77 I still have to stay guarded against falling into that pit !
I am so sorry for your terrible loss of your son. No one should have to see their child slowly kill themself with drugs. Thank you for sharing your pain and Blake’s story. I know how difficult it must have been to share. I know he would tell you that you were a great mom! May God bring you peace and comfort.🙏🙏🙏
I could not even imagine the pain that losing a child causes. I only got a glimpse of this woman's pain and I can see it in her face. I have a daughter and two sons and they're grown now with families of their own and when I was raising them that was my biggest fear to have them on drugs. Listening to this mother talk about her son is heart renching and I can't stop crying. I watched my aunt pass away back in 1979 when I was just a kid but I remember it like it was yesterday and I watched her spirit leave her body. It was so peacefull. Just know that your beautiful son Blake is in heaven protecting you, he is your guardien angel.
Such a sad story he knew he was struggling and he asked his parents for help. He sounds like such a kind soul and to find out his dad died in a car wreck just makes it so much worse I’m so sorry
This mother's pain is so palpable you can feel it in your gut right through the screen. I am so, so sorry for the loss of your beloved son. You didn't do anything wrong; every decision you made was out of love and care for your child. Sadly there are some things we just can't control. I hope you find peace.
Oh boy, that was a tough one, that’s for sure 🥺 To see Blake‘s mum struggling is hard enough, but to literally hear how she feels guilty by not educating him early enough or that her way of punishment, to get her son away from the drugs, wasn’t right or enough, this really shattered my heart into pieces 🥺 But sadly in Blake‘s case everyone can see that this beast called „Addiction“ will and especially can attack people with „normal lives“ or people without having a bad childhood or people without a trauma of any sort… Addiction is a beast, it‘s a disease which doesn’t care about education, wealth, happy life, sad life, this disease will get anyone if it get‘s the chance and this makes this „beast“ so highly dangerous. I have to admit, I was a bit shocked hearing that they gave Blake at the age of 15 pain medicine which probably must have been OxyContin (Blake being 15 was in the year 2007, and as we all know in 2007 Purdue Pharma was fined $634.5 million in 2007 for failing to adequately state in the Oxycontin package insert that the oxycodone it contains, like other opioids, has a high potential for addiction), and to give such a young child or teenager opioids is hard to comprehend, in my opinion. But as Blake‘s mother said, overall the doctor at that time isn’t to blame nor is his mother to blame because she didn’t talked with him about opioids. I really hope and pray Blake's mom stops blaming herself. She said a sadly very good sentence „She saw the freight train coming but didn’t know how to stop it“… And exactly the best way (in my eyes) to stop a deadly freight rain called „Addiction“ is to watch every episode of „Fentanyl Poisoning“ with your kid, brother, sister, father, mother, cousin, etc. Simply to raise awareness how gruesome and in the end deadly „Addiction“ and „Fentanyl“ can be. Again, thanks to @Texas Pictures Documentaries for this episode and to give Blake‘s mother the chance to tell his story! With sad regards from Germany 🇩🇪, Philipp
@@bbe3034 Thx for sharing your story! And you are 100 percent right, OxyContin is really dangerous! I had to take very strong pain medicine because of the damages to my back caused by a severe car accident. And at first the doctors gave me OxyContin, but I was lucky because a doctor specialized for pain management immediately switched my medication from Oxy to Hydromorphon. This was a game changer for me. No longer any kind of dizziness, and more importantly: Hydromorphon lasts at least 10 to 12 hours, OxyContin worked „in my body“ only 3 to 4 hours. But now I‘m done with pain pills, because I had several surgeries. Kind regards from Germany 🇩🇪, Philipp 👋
You are so correct with your statement. When you educate yourself on the whole use of pain medication and it’s being used and prescribed for hundreds of years, it is mind blowing. Was pure evil and greed, that was their motivation. Infuriates me, and the way they waited to even start any kind of rehabilitation or to address it, makes me wanna unleash on them slowly, what they have done to millions.
He is your baby. Addiction was only a tiny part of him. He was so much more than that. I wished I could give you a hug. There is so much I wished I could tell you. I know we don't know each other but maybe one day our paths may cross and we could talk. Just know Blake never blamed you. I'm sure at times you may have thought it was somehow your fault but if there is one thing I can tell you in this comment is that Blake never blamed you and he wouldn't want you to blame yourself. That much I can tell you in this comment. I pray for healing in your life as I know there is a hole that can never be filled. God bless you and God bless Blake!
This is just my opinion but instead of people going crazing trying to get different sex genders talked about in a school they should be showing these kinds of videos.
My heart goes out to this mother. She has gone through the absolute worse loss .... losing a child. She did the best for her son through it all. God Bless You.
you cant blame yourself, easy to see your a great mom and awesome human being, if you didnt give him the pain medication he needed, sooner or later someone would offer it to him, and as an addict it jjust takes that one time, you did right with the tough love too, Rip Blake and Blakes Dad.
Dearest Blake's momma, I'm so sorry for this tragic loss to us all! As i listened to your story, sincerely, I wept! I could hear to your love and compassion in every word! Sending you😮 much love and prayers for peace! Please know this was not your fault! As a mom, I've made so many mistakes, I cant count them. But there was nothing you could have done differently! Please don't allow the enemy to steal any more than he already has! 💜🙏💜
Sounds so much like my son. The similarities are frightening… my son prays to God to take this addiction away.. we all do! He’s five days clean. I’m praying this time it works because on his last day using.. he was 113 lbs. he’d lost 50lbs and was dying.
"I saw the freight train coming... I just didn't know how to stop it" 💔
Mama - you weren't the driver, that's why you couldn't stop it.
My sincerest condolences for your loss - stay strong.
Beautifully phrased...🇿🇦
AMEN 🙏
What a kind and thoughtful thing to say.
I read this comment when she said it! 😳
Absolutely, Amen 🙏
You could physically see her feel the things she was remembering. I feel for these parents. 💔
Yeah no shit. They're filming her
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I feel for her because a mother and a moms son is what it is!!!
Sounds just like my son. My baby passed at 23 . I miss him so much. He was a son, a brother, and a grandson . We all miss him so much. My baby is gone forever.
My condolences 💐 to you and the family
I‘m really sorry for your loss! 🥺
So sorry for your loss 🙏😞
I'm so sorry for your loss. Prayers for peace and hugs from one mom to another. ❤
@@ogoodlord374 god bless and keep you safe
She lost her husband and then her son?! I can't imagine the devastation! I commend this woman's strength!🙏 So sorry you have to live with this❤️
We lost our son at 19 he was in the National Gaurd going into The Army. He was a voletary fireman. Don’t give up sweetheart Give d can heal the heart.
I am 2 months clean today. These videos help me to realize how lucky I am to still be alive. I am sorry for your loss and I know Blake is in a better place. Addiction is a disease, not a character flaw like so many people think it is. Thank you for sharing your burden, it’s not your fault.
Thank you for your comments. We also have a series of addiction recovery stories that you might find interesting. Here's a link to the playlist: From Addiction to Recovery - ua-cam.com/play/PLdCPA32W_p39Z8hi7xSIX3Fkqmhd7mRzj.html
I am an addict and sober since July of 2011. It was Suboxone that stopped the withdrawl effects and i could finally function. Keep up the good work for yourself each day - you are worth it!
Blake was the most kind hearted person I think I have ever known.
His Mom’s story is so heartbreaking as so is so many others - may his soul knows he is at eternal peace 🕊
Awww😢
Thank you for sharing. ❤
Awwww massive hugs to you ❤❤❤❤❤❤
Aww sorry for ur loss. My heart is broken for this woman. He seemed so likeable and so similar to my life. So sorry to hear. RIP buddy
You did NOT fail your child Momma. I feel your pain!
Yea, sure did.
@@hr-hq8jiseriously bro!! You obviously haven’t had to face addiction head on like most of us have! Stay high on your white horse because eventually you’ll be knocked down a peg by karma 🤷🏻♀️
No she didn't
@@hr-hq8ji I can't comment on that person, but you failed your mother and family without a doubt. I think there's a good chance you would admit that as well, and you should admit it. The truth hurts, but it happens to be true in your case, and that's unfortunate.
My son broke his back racing dirt bikes at 16 years old. Same experience- he got opiods for it & was addicted. He has struggled for over 15 years. With the fentenal in everything now we have seen many die. All around him. Guys in rehab.. guys even on staff at rehab. Over dose & gone. Every day I live with that reality- im not the same. I tell him I love him. Tell him he can openly talk about any relapse & say keep trying. It's not a failure if you get up & keep trying. This crisis reminds me of the Bible story of King Herod killing all the babies to avoid Jesus being king. There is something evil out there folks- it wants our kids. Pray & yes educate.. then pray more. My deepest condolences to this mom. Thank you for sharing your story.
We have to call it was it is. Genocide. The open borders, the kickback to the ‘leader’s in this country. That dirty money is winning elections. Recognizing the agenda is key. I want to shout this from the rooftops. I feel that if the addicts truly understands that ‘the powers that be’ desire their death after they wring everything that was positive in their lives, that that might spur them on to fight the battle that much harder. This is real…
Did you monter his drugs at that age ? Or let him mother kiscself
@@melindasmith3713 Are you on the drugs? What is your point? Do you have one?
@@melindasmith3713 we monitored his meds.
Much love ❤
Ma’am you did all of the right things, it’s not your fault. I’m a recovering addict and would never blame my mommy or daddy for my addiction issues. Was raised in a upper class household, private school education, traveling and exploring the world positively. Got sick, toe nail had to be removed. The pain is indescribable, plus it got infected. I was given Percocets and Vicodin tablets highest dose of each pill. The pill made me feel energetic, kept fears at bay, just made me feel good. Then one day I realized I didn’t just want hem I needed them for survival. My parents put me in rehabilitation center, I did good but failed bc I wasn’t ready,relapsed. It was hard, scary, fentanyl poisoning. 9 Narcan were used, they fought for me. That’s when I decided I wanted to be clean and have been for over 3 yrs. I didnt want to hurt my family again. I think straight and I’m happy. I plan on doing talks at school, I simply want to save children from this demon.
Thank you for sharing
Please do speak at schools.
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Congratulations! Keep up the good work you are doing ❤
Glad you will talk and help others. Lost my daughter to fentanyl poisoning in 2022.
Blake was a brilliant, vibrant, compassionate, and loving person. He was my nephew. His mother fought valiantly for him.
Make no mistake, this issue is deeper than it seems. Ask yourself why the illicit drug industry ( it is an industry!) would introduce something so lethal into their product. Why would they risk killing their customers? Doesn't make a whole lot of sense to me.
Blakers, I can't wait to see you again in Heaven. Save me a spot at the table between you and Ash. ❤
Much love to your family ❤ fly high nephew 🕊
The intent is to destroy America, and that includes killing our youth.
The Dr's are at fault too. They know how addictive opioids are.
You are so right about why are the dealers killing their customers? Makes no sense to me either.
However, I’ve worked with patients that couldn’t have made it without fentanyl. Their pain was literally causing them to be suicidal.
This is my story but I am a 64 year old woman in recovery from pain medication addiction. This is so real people! I am blessed I am almost five years clean. My heart goes out to this mom. Praying for you!
My heart is breaking for you I lost my son to methamphetamine/fentynl overdose. On October 13 2023 I found him the morning he was was going back into rehab
Please do not blame yourself anymore, dear woman. It is easy to see how much you loved your son.
He did it
@@melindasmith3713have some empathy. Damn.
@@angelambedwell I did , she didn't do it .
Dear Debra, so sorry for your loss. Pease don't feel you've failed Blake through lack of education on drugs. I'm a RN, counsellor, and about your age, and still knew nothing about fentanyl abuse or poisoning until very recently. Our children live in another world to us. Thank you for sharing your story, I can see it was hard to do. I hope you find some peace.
I introduced my child to my world
Be responsible-- loyal to his SCHOOL work--- no partying
No clubbing -- No smoking
No alcohol
That was not allowed in my house
Today he's 34 years old and the Father of many kids that needs a father
At a Rehabilitation school ❤
For run aways--- Girls and Boys
So sorry for your loss
Drug addiction is sad and destroyed so many lives
Young and old
We were just talking about this tonight! I was working in the bar 18yrs ago and a lot of drugs went through the bar. Yet I had never heard of fentylol until about 10yrs ago.. Maybe not even that long ago. Our government has allowed enough of it or ingredients for it, to be smuggled in each and every single day, enough to saturate each and every community big and small, across The Americas and all around the world! Agenda 21 2030^2050 is in affect. They are depopulating through multiple programs/agendas.. That is why we've lost so many young adults and teens.. I personally know almost 20 friends or family members who've been taken in the last 10yrs. Many of them taken in the last few years! It's devastating. Any unprecedented event leaving devastation in its wake, are agenda 21 30^50 programs approved by infiltrators in your local government. We are at war. A war like no other war ever in history.
Addiction is the cruelest master. Thank you for sharing Blake's story.
A monkey on your back. Leads to a great high but then to depression where you have to do more and more just to feel normal.
I was introduced to pain meds, when a friend gave me 3 pills, it made me feel light, happy and energized. I wanted to feel the same feeling it resulted into an addiction. I did stop until I got away from my home, but I injured my back. Due to my back I got reintroduced to it. I wanted more and more, so I could kill all the bad memories and childhood abuse. I am still dealing with it, I am trying to stop, so for instead of feeling good, it made me feel lonely and depressed. I am embarrassed to open up about it, because I don't want those who are related to me and those who knew me to look at me, judge me, look down on me and laugh about me. But I pray and asked God to rescue me from this evil addiction, to break the chains of addiction. I need to change for my kids and husband but most importantly to change myself before it's too late. I am thankful you and other parents for sharing your heart felt memories and educating kids about the danger of fentanyl. I am sorry you loss your child but his story and your advocacy are saving lives. We all need prayers 🙏 especially for our kids. May God continue to comfort you, RIP 🙏 🕊
Ive been clean for 6 years and its been this best 6 years of my life. I now have a very good job. I own my house just paid my truck and just bought a brand new mustang and im living my best life. Prayers sent to this guys mom and daughter.
The pain pills started it for too many people. A blessing and a curse those things are. For me I needed them for pain from surgery. What I noticed is when I took them for pain they took away my emotional pain, my depression. So I would take them for depression. And that’s where it started for me.
I’m so sorry for your loss. I hope your pain eases and you know it wasn’t your fault. Honestly, there was nothing you could have done.
That’s very interesting. I often wonder why some people abuse pain pills, while others don’t. Thanks for sharing your thoughts and experience. I hope you were able to stop using pain meds for those reasons.
I take pain meds daily for chronic nerve damage and fibromyalgia. If I didn’t have them, I would die from the physical inability to tolerate it. I also have MS. Not sure how I am able to limit myself however without them I’m sure by the simple nature of the meds that I would withdrawal. I’ve been prescribed Hydrocodone for 10 years or so, nothing stronger and nothing weaker. I take 4 to 5 a day, every four to six hours while I move my body. It sucks to have to take them because honestly I still have some pain but it’s nothing like when I don’t have one for six hours, that’s when the pain will shoot down my body and I want to scream (sometimes I do). I believe this Country over prescribes for sure, and the fentanyl on the streets is what’s killing people because once they’re hooked, they’ll take anything with no questions because they are trying to avoid being sick.
@Indie Me same it helped the pain in my heart and helped me cope with PTSD from SA and anxiety it started for me due to chronic kidney stones and having a back that feels looks and works like a 90 year old woman they had to ask me if I ever was in a bad car wreck because that is how bad it is
I have been sober and stopped buying them before Fentanyl was around bad
@@AKA-Nana I completely understand. I’ve been on Fentanyl, Hydrocodone and Neurontin since 2003 when the other pain meds quit working for my pain. I’ll never be pain free while alive, but just to have pain levels in the 3-5 range each day is better than a constant 10. Good luck to you.
Seeing these mums blame themselves is utterly heartbreaking! She never has to question or doubt how much she loved and continues to love her son though. Life can be so cruel! If only love was enough to save them like she said. So selfless and brave of her to share her sons story x
I so wholeheartedly agree!!!
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We will always blame ourselves. I blame myself completely for my sons loss. If I had made different choices maybe he wouldn’t have began drinking as much as he did.
@@jenniferbarber467 I wish there was something I could say but I know there are no words. I do reckon he would have said you were the best mum a son could have wished for and would never want you to blame yourself. Big hug x
@@jenniferbarber467 💔💔💔
My heart breaks for this mom 😢
I am going to get a tattoo that says, “if love could have saved you, you would have lived forever”. Not a tattoo kind of person but he loved them. Going to take my son off life support on Tuesday. Such a heartbreaking thing for a Mother to go through.
I'm so, so sorry about so many unbelievable losses in these families!! These stories are so heartbreaking! My heart goes out to all the families and mom's and dad's! I've been weeping for half an hour! LORD Jesus help us!
My condolences. Taking a child off life support should never happen. I LOVE your tattoo. God bless you.
I’m so sorry for your loss!!! ❤❤❤
so sorry 💔
Sorry for your loss
I’m so sorry. I’m 71 years old. Me and my husband raised all 4 of our kids together. My oldest is our only son. He is 52 now. We had never had drugs or alcohol in our home raising them. Our son has been an addict for years. He even told me, Mom, it’s not you and Dads fault. Y’all taught us of the dangers of drugs. His Dad has since passed. I feel like I did something wrong. I still love him so much. He’s facing prison now. We lost our last daughter from different reasons when she was 9 years old. Cystic Fibrosis. I don’t think I could survive loosing another child from no reason. I’m so so sorry for your pain. ❤
As a Mom who lost my son, to overdose also. It is the good memories that keep me going. Wishing you love and light!
The 12 month live in rehabilitation facility my cousin was put into required the addicts to pick a “partner” and that’s how I got involved. I met so many councilors and doctors that confirmed what this mother said about “never growing up”. I met thousands of people in the program during those 12 months and most of them were childlike but streetwise… such a strange combination. Ma’am I am so sorry for loss and pray you find your peace. Also praying for all the users, both addicts and dabblers, please say no more before it’s too late. And no matter what you’ve done it is ONLY too late when you’ve passed.
My son was so hurting, but the most street wise. He would lead the whole family and yet hurting. Strong for us week for themselves. Good leaders always give of themselves. God bless good leaders!
My sister lost 2 of her daughters to fentanyl overdoses! I can feel your pain in this video, so sorry for your loss!!! RIP Blake.❤
Oh I’m so sorry.
What
Why ?? What happened to those girls ?
My son passed at age 28 in 2011. I felt her heart, I just wanted to hug her and cry. No one who hasn’t gone thru this will truly understand . I wish I could know this woman. God Bless.
I'm so sorry for your loss.
This one hit me harder than most. Im so sorry for the loss of your son ma'am. Lots of virtual hugs and prayers.
My condolences to you and your family, may you find peace and comfort. Love and prayers for all of you. 😢❤
I, too, felt this mother's grief and sorrow mord than other accounts. Makes me more grateful for the blessings I've been given 😢
My heart breaks for you. I am so sorry for your loss. I know this loss as we lost our 28-year-old son in 2013. We know where our babies are... they are made whole and they are alive and well, in heaven awaiting our reunion. Can you imagine what how awesome that is to be with Jesus. No more struggling, joy.
Let me tell you, WE ARE NOT POWERFUL ENOUGH to fix or change another person. None of this is your fault. There is NOTHING you could have said or done to change this outcome.
Fentanyl is coming over our wide-open border via Mexico from China. This is a war on our country. Vote for candidates who want to secure our border.
You arent on it , why?
@@melindasmith3713 "aren't on it"? Not sure what that means.
I used to tell
Ppl this and they would look at me like I was losing my mind. Now, a few years later, everyone is like, you were right, you were right. We have to educate ourselves, it is a war on us, created by evil, evil, evil, greedy, disgusting, monsters, out to destroy us. You will never make me believe anything different. We as Americans should be able to defend our border, no question about it.
It's probably our own government doing this
🙏I'm Soo sorry to hear of your loss, It should be a national emergency to close the Border & Stop the Drug Traffickers! I Iost my best friend to an overdose back in 2001 he was 19yrs old 😞 I've had my addiction battles as well for many years, & don't know why I've outlived several friends! I'm sure if there was easily obtainable Fentanyl back then I probably wouldn't be here sending this message! It seems there's an undeclared war on American Citizens! The Open Border policy is Only benefiting Illegal Aliens & Killing our Real American Citizens & Our children are being Genocided to Fentanyl Poisoning Joe Biden is corrupt & crooked Traitor to America imho!
Despite the obvious Fentanyl problem - Joe Biden declared "The Greatest Enemy to America is White Supremacy" all I can say is FJB! 🤨
OMG! This mother;s pain is heartbreaking....no parent should have to bury a child. RIP Blake and peace to his mother.
I was given IV Fentanyl following major surgery several years ago. I immediately started having hallucinations which I reported to my nurse (she did nothing but look at me). So the next day I woke up in ICU. I had stopped breathing and had to be revived. This drug is one of the deadliest narcotics, even when not being abused. My thoughts and prayers go out to all families affected by Fentanyl.
Whoever the nurse was she shouldn't be a nurse!
My heart breaks for you!
We lost my nephew August 26, 2022 from fentanyl intoxication. He was 28 years old. He was a father, son, brother, and nephew. He left behind many friends that also loved him. It was a shock because none of us knew. His 6 year old son is still in counseling.
We love and miss him very much.
We lost our 21 year old son almost 2years ago to fentanyl. He was living and working in Alaska. The worst call we have ever received. I feel for you
I know three young people who have died of fentanyl overdose in the past two years. I doubt any of them knew they were taking fentanyl. My sympathy to his mom and family.
@Texas Pictures Documentaries, my cousin was found on January 1st, 2023 at his house, paramedics worked on him for 20 minutes, but he was pronounced dead at 2:57am. Everyone thought that he had a heart attack.
I got a copy of his autopsy a couple of days ago, and yes, it was FENTANYL‼️ He thought he was taking cocaine, but unfortunately what was given to him was FENTANYL.
I feel this mother's pain, because even though this was my cousin and not my own son, I loved him with my soul.
We all need to do something about it, but thank you Texas Pictures Documentaries for sharing.
sorry for your loss
They are putting it in all the street drugs now. Some comedians in LA even got coke laced with fent and all 3 were found dead together in an apt or hotel. People need to stay away from these drugs. All drugs. It’s not worth it when they are laced with something deadly.
As a mother of a daughter who abuses drugs, my heart ❤️ goes out to you... when my daughter was diagnosed with ADHD I decided not place her on medication bc I was afraid of future addiction. She always felt Secluded from her peers And this took the feeling of abandonment away from her. Do Not Blame Yourself! You sound like a very loving and caring mother, and Blake had two very loving parents but chose the wrong path period. Rest in peace dear soul. 🙏 My prayer are with you and your family.
My goodness, the more I watch these videos the more heartbroken I feel for all the people involved.
This woman is beautiful. Addiction is tough beyond comprehension. Her heart my god. Her enduring love after such loss. Inspiring, heart breaking, connecting. So much love for her.
" . . . a son, a brother, and a friend . . ." These are very powerful.
My son and I used to take walks everyday when I got home from work. I used to talk to him about alcohol and how the men on my dad's side of the family were all alcoholics. At 32 my son is an alcoholic. He self medicates because he's bipolar. He says he doesn't like the way the medicine makes him feel. He won't get psychiatric help because he believes he knows more than the drs.
I've learned the hard way. You are not your child's only influence. The frenemies have more of an influence than the parents who have always had their best interest at heart.
God Bless Us All. ✝️
Blake’s mom is just so devastated it broke my heart. I feel so bad for her. Love & peace, momma. 🕊️
This woman seems so strong after the unimaginable losses she suffered back to back. Blake seemed like a really nice kid. Whole swaths of young people have been dying of this all across the country
Seeing the parents question whether they could have done more is so sad. They’ve done everything they could. ❤️
He's the one that threw it back on her blaming his toenails on his addiction.
This lady reminds me of my mom. She's currently going through all of this with my brother.. breaks my heart to see this, and to know this is probably going to be my mom sooner than later💔
My heart goes out to you. I am a mother to my one, and only child my son. He’s 26. I have struggled with addiction throughout my life, and I know as parents we go through all of the What Ifs we blame ourselves for everything. This is not your fault. This is not his fault. Addiction is addiction . I am so sorry for your loss. For everyone that knew and loved him. I hope he is at peace with God, in heaven, now. He will be your guardian angel forevermore until y’all meet again.
Sending all the love and healing vibes your way.❤
The saddest reality of all of these stories is the questioning of the loved ones "Could I have done more? Did I try hard enough to save them?" You can see it their faces and hear it in their voices they are blaming themselves.
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Whenever I hear people on this channel when their mouth gets watery I start to cry.
So heartbreaking for this sweet lady.
So sorry for this mother. May God comfort you 🙏🏾🤍🕊
Heartbreaking stories like Debra Henderson's remind us of the devastating toll that fentanyl has taken on families across the country. It's crucial to listen to these personal accounts and understand the urgent need for action.
When I first started opiates I loved the feeling too and ended up addicted now I have gotten clean! I am sorry for your loss it is hell for everyone involved stay strong!
Stop trying pills, marijuana, and anything now. This is the safest way to go.
You’re such a beautiful person. I’m sorry for the loss of your son. May you two be reunited in heaven.
The mother has a certain quality to her voice that somehow manages to be comforting even when recounting a great deal of tragedy and sadness.
Smoking
RIP Blake
Your son’s story and your family’s story was incredibly powerful. You’re an amazing woman. I felt who he was through mommas eyes.
God Bless You! This is an attack on our children.
My heart is breaking for you mama, you are a great person and he was blessed to have you.😢
I’m so sorry.
Watching you, I saw me.
My 18 year old was notified of his father’s death while in rehab. I begged him not to come home.
He did anyway.
Plenty in between, but he died four days after being released from being in jail for ten months.
Thank you for sharing his story.
Very sorry for your losses. Those first few days after rehab or after incarceration are particularly dangerous for those with SUD because tolerance has lowered. We're working with HIDTA now to produce a short film that addresses this to be shown to prisoners before release.
This hits home so much for me I feel for this mother. My mother is a nurse.
I'm listening to this story and I'm really troubled. This excellent family doesn't deserve to be put through all this unnecessary drama. This is middle class America suffering from problems totally alien to their past experiences. This is New York City and I've been losing friends to drugs since Day One back in the 60s. This latest fentanyl scourge is taking the USA apart. My sincerest condolences Mrs. Henderson. You didn't fail anyone and forget those guilt feelings. Take care & God Bless .
Sadly, my brother's only son died of Fentanyl poisoning suicide in Wisconsin. Its not just a problem in NYC, tragic - its in every state as the drug smugglers have brought Fentanyl over the southern border & sold thru out USA. Work to vote Dems out of positions of power as Dems use illegals as their new voters, to keep power.
I lost my son in November 21. I understand. Drake was 23. He was my oldest son and I love him with all my soul. His younger brother and sister told me he was gone. I will never forget that moment. I hear it in my head every day. Drake was wonderful. Just as I’m sure Blake was. Had Drake not been so heavily intoxicated he would be here today. We will see our sins again in heaven. Let us keep our eyes on Jesus. You will remain in my prayers.
You’re an incredibly good woman who’s been through a lot. When I was 18 I had my wisdom teeth removed and was introduced to codeine. I’ve been orphaned since 16. That first time using opiates was the beginning of trouble. I’ve worked all my life and fortunately only went to jail once for 9 mos. I’m going on 70 now and it’s been on again off again and a lot of surgeries. So I know how your son didn’t ask for this habit, but the feeling is so strong that those of us fell in love with the pain meds. I pray you still have joy in this life. The kind of joy only God can give. Gods joy even a drop of it is enough to sustain us.
Blake's story parallels so many others that found themselves in this horrible situation. My brother, Matthew Carver Goode, too lost this battle. I feel now that their loved ones need to pick up that torch to win this war. Keep sharing your stories about our loved ones. Thinking of Blake, Blake's family, his loved ones, and all of you that are in this nightmare of an epidemic.
I am SO sorry for the loss of your son Blake..and your husband. Thank you for speaking out. There is no shame in addiction, but lots of pain. Hugs and prayers. You did NOT FAIL HIM.
This lady is a prime example of " you only think your life is hard, till u see someone who had it worse". God love this woman & hold her close. My heart is shattered for her pain
thank YOU, Miss Debra …
Blake is sooooo proud of you 🙏🏼🇺🇸
Vicoden for wisdom teeth at 14... followed by years of active addiction. Celebrating over 10 years this year (thru suboxone). Theres no rhyme or reason that our earthly minds can understand. This one made me cry my little eyes out. Youre in my thoughts and prayers tonight Mama💜
I’m so sorry. Rest in Peace, Blake🙏🏾
🥺😢😔 i hope someone’s life is saved because this persons story was shared
Thank you brave lady for telling your son's story.🙋
I feel your pain. I also am a mother of a substance abuse user. I'm also a nurse. Your story is my story, only difference my son is still here, fighting his battle. Don't feel guilty, you showed him he was still lovable despite his faults. I pray you find strength...
Im so sorry for your loss. Keep sharing Blake’s story…. May God give comfort and strength..🙏🏾
Sweet Mama. I am a nurse, too. I knew about Fentanyl pain patches for pain management. I did hear it was a drug brought into the US. I did NOT know it is cheap and it is laced into so many other street drugs. Most people who use do not know they are taking it. I am so sorry for your losses, your husband and your son. Thank you for helping others with this very painful story.
Ma'am, your son and so many others like him, are SO MUCH MORE than the addictions that took them. They are and were our families; our babies, our fathers, our mothers, our sisters, our friends, our people. They mattered then and they matter now. Sending you so much love.
From one nurse to another , u know in your heart of hearts that u should let any guilt / blame flyaway from your shoulders as it doesn’t belong there . Hugs to you and your family and praise for the strength to share your ordeal with us . ❤️from 🇨🇦
You’re the best mama to put his story out there, we all need to hear it. Thank you for opening up to us, hopefully you find healing in it as well. God bless
So sad! My heart goes out to this mom for the loss of her son after he fell prey to addiction, a powerful and horrific trick on the brain.
I’m so sorry for your losses. It sounds like your son really did try.
This is such a lovely woman . Within all the pain ,thank you for stepping over your tragic loss and helping to educate us .
Bless her heart. This is just heart breaking. I can just see the pain in her face as she talks about her husband and her son. You are so strong to share your story. I hope they are resting in peace and I pray for your comfort and peace as well 🙏
It was brave of you to share your story
I'm with her. I knew of fentanyl in a professional way. Putting patches on patients VERY carefully and removing them VERY carefully, always gloved! Moving it to a different place, documenting each application/removal etc. Then my 19 yr old brother died, right before Christmas '22! I wondered how he got his hands on a patch....now this world is all too clear to me!
It's not your fault mamma...you did the best you could ...Your boy is at peace now and wrapped in God's love
I got hooked on Heroin when I spent 13 months in Thailand during the Vietnam era war. What I came to realize is, "what is so bad about it, is that is so damn good". At the end of my term of service I was shipped home and on the way home is when I went through the withdrawals. I vowed then that I would never go back to that drug, AND NEVER DID. It taught we a good lesson that I had an addictive type personality and had to watch myself carefully or I would easily get addicted to something else. From that time (1969) forward I tried just about everything else, but made the conscious decision that no one thing would ever take control of me again, but like her son I liked the high. Even at 77 I still have to stay guarded against falling into that pit !
Thank you for sharing.
I am so sorry for your terrible loss of your son. No one should have to see their child slowly kill themself with drugs. Thank you for sharing your pain and Blake’s story. I know how difficult it must have been to share. I know he would tell you that you were a great mom! May God bring you peace and comfort.🙏🙏🙏
I could not even imagine the pain that losing a child causes. I only got a glimpse of this woman's pain and I can see it in her face. I have a daughter and two sons and they're grown now with families of their own and when I was raising them that was my biggest fear to have them on drugs. Listening to this mother talk about her son is heart renching and I can't stop crying. I watched my aunt pass away back in 1979 when I was just a kid but I remember it like it was yesterday and I watched her spirit leave her body. It was so peacefull. Just know that your beautiful son Blake is in heaven protecting you, he is your guardien angel.
Such a sad story he knew he was struggling and he asked his parents for help. He sounds like such a kind soul and to find out his dad died in a car wreck just makes it so much worse I’m so sorry
This mother's pain is so palpable you can feel it in your gut right through the screen. I am so, so sorry for the loss of your beloved son. You didn't do anything wrong; every decision you made was out of love and care for your child. Sadly there are some things we just can't control. I hope you find peace.
Oh boy, that was a tough one, that’s for sure 🥺
To see Blake‘s mum struggling is hard enough, but to literally hear how she feels guilty by not educating him early enough or that her way of punishment, to get her son away from the drugs, wasn’t right or enough, this really shattered my heart into pieces 🥺
But sadly in Blake‘s case everyone can see that this beast called „Addiction“ will and especially can attack people with „normal lives“ or people without having a bad childhood or people without a trauma of any sort…
Addiction is a beast, it‘s a disease which doesn’t care about education, wealth, happy life, sad life, this disease will get anyone if it get‘s the chance and this makes this „beast“ so highly dangerous.
I have to admit, I was a bit shocked hearing that they gave Blake at the age of 15 pain medicine which probably must have been OxyContin (Blake being 15 was in the year 2007, and as we all know in 2007 Purdue Pharma was fined $634.5 million in 2007 for failing to adequately state in the Oxycontin package insert that the oxycodone it contains, like other opioids, has a high potential for addiction), and to give such a young child or teenager opioids is hard to comprehend, in my opinion.
But as Blake‘s mother said, overall the doctor at that time isn’t to blame nor is his mother to blame because she didn’t talked with him about opioids.
I really hope and pray Blake's mom stops blaming herself. She said a sadly very good sentence „She saw the freight train coming but didn’t know how to stop it“…
And exactly the best way (in my eyes) to stop a deadly freight rain called „Addiction“ is to watch every episode of „Fentanyl Poisoning“ with your kid, brother, sister, father, mother, cousin, etc. Simply to raise awareness how gruesome and in the end deadly „Addiction“ and „Fentanyl“ can be.
Again, thanks to @Texas Pictures Documentaries for this episode and to give Blake‘s mother the chance to tell his story!
With sad regards from Germany 🇩🇪, Philipp
EXCELLENT comment!!!!💗
@@SUPERSPAZD Thank you very much, I really appreciate 🙏 Best regards from Germany, Philipp 👋
@@bbe3034 Thx for sharing your story! And you are 100 percent right, OxyContin is really dangerous!
I had to take very strong pain medicine because of the damages to my back caused by a severe car accident.
And at first the doctors gave me OxyContin, but I was lucky because a doctor specialized for pain management immediately switched my medication from Oxy to Hydromorphon.
This was a game changer for me. No longer any kind of dizziness, and more importantly: Hydromorphon lasts at least 10 to 12 hours, OxyContin worked „in my body“ only 3 to 4 hours.
But now I‘m done with pain pills, because I had several surgeries.
Kind regards from Germany 🇩🇪, Philipp 👋
If she is as ignorant as nurse as she was as mother, then god help us all..
You are so correct with your statement. When you educate yourself on the whole use of pain medication and it’s being used and prescribed for hundreds of years, it is mind blowing. Was pure evil and greed, that was their motivation. Infuriates me, and the way they waited to even start any kind of rehabilitation or to address it, makes me wanna unleash on them slowly, what they have done to millions.
He is your baby. Addiction was only a tiny part of him. He was so much more than that. I wished I could give you a hug. There is so much I wished I could tell you. I know we don't know each other but maybe one day our paths may cross and we could talk. Just know Blake never blamed you. I'm sure at times you may have thought it was somehow your fault but if there is one thing I can tell you in this comment is that Blake never blamed you and he wouldn't want you to blame yourself. That much I can tell you in this comment. I pray for healing in your life as I know there is a hole that can never be filled. God bless you and God bless Blake!
This is just my opinion but instead of people going crazing trying to get different sex genders talked about in a school they should be showing these kinds of videos.
Debra your strength is amazing my dear ....u have no idea the pillar of it that lies within ....I see your pain but I also see so much more
My heart goes out to this mother. She has gone through the absolute worse loss .... losing a child. She did the best for her son through it all. God Bless You.
He wanted to do drugs and party. He did it to himself
My sincere and deepest condolences to your son Blake and your husband🙏 RIP Blake🙏
you cant blame yourself, easy to see your a great mom and awesome human being, if you didnt give him the pain medication he needed, sooner or later someone would offer it to him, and as an addict it jjust takes that one time, you did right with the tough love too, Rip Blake and Blakes Dad.
I’m so sorry for her. Its heartbreaking.
his mom spoke so well and from the heart. Rip blake
He is with you don't ever doubt that
Dearest Blake's momma, I'm so sorry for this tragic loss to us all! As i listened to your story, sincerely, I wept! I could hear to your love and compassion in every word! Sending you😮 much love and prayers for peace!
Please know this was not your fault! As a mom, I've made so many mistakes, I cant count them. But there was nothing you could have done differently! Please don't allow the enemy to steal any more than he already has! 💜🙏💜
From what I see it's the fragile and big hearted ❤️ people that suffer most because of addiction. 😞
Sounds so much like my son. The similarities are frightening… my son prays to God to take this addiction away.. we all do! He’s five days clean. I’m praying this time it works because on his last day using.. he was 113 lbs. he’d lost 50lbs and was dying.
Thank you for sharing ❤ RIP Blake