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so i’ve been here a while. as in old musical animatics & voltron fan songs while.&& i kinda feel like i grew up with your art/music/etc. i followed you in highschool, in the throes of my repressed projecting on our founding fathers turned romanticized musical characters ( listen i don’t think anyone can blame a queer kid in the south for latching onto john laurens. it’s not what i’m into anymore, but i’ve learned to embrace my cringe past. ) and i remember being awestruck by your art style and the way you were able to portray emotions- both in your fan songs & your animatics. i kinda fell out of that fandom-ey stuff though and didn’t really pay much attention till my freshman year of college, when juvenescence ( the grip ‘ghost town’ ,’ghost boy’, and ‘dear god’ had on me ) and solivagant ( ‘summertime feels so blue’ became an indicator for my roommate that I was having a bad day - literally anytime they would hear summertime feels so blue, ‘burning hill’ or ‘bag of bones’ by mitski, or hoziers ‘in the woods somewhere’ they’d check in with me) [ also - psa one of the only reasons I have band camp is because of these albums- I usually stick to spotify- i thought when they gotten taken off spotify they were taken down everywhere, and had a mini-grieving process /lh ] and now i’m soon to be graduating, and the ‘something not so obvious’ so has been the background music for all my late night study sessions this semester. it literally does something to my adhd riddled brain that allows me to focus. really, i’ve loved everything that you’ve put out in the last couple months. ‘cradle of ivory’ i listened to on repeat in December. anyway. watching/listening to this just gave me a lot of feelings and i’m really grateful for that, even though it’s almost bittersweet. i know it’s weird to say but i am so proud of how much you’ve grown, and this channel has grown. i’ve commented on other videos before, and it’s always very sporadic with sometimes years/months between the comments, but just know that there are many more people like me that have been supporting you and will continue to no matter what you do, or how this channel/your art changes. you’re genuinely impacting and helping people by being brave enough to put yourself/your art out there and i am so grateful for that. i feel like ‘thank you’ doesn’t cut it, but it’s all i have. so, thank you.
grayson, you have made my month with this comment. i have been in a very challenging season of life both physically and emotionally. as usual, i tend to compress a portion of those feelings into some kind of artform. knowing that you have been impacted by my music is the highest compliment, and i'm honored to have joined you on your journey through school/life! i think what is so poignant about your circumstances is that while you are about to graduate, i am in my freshman year of college (as a transfer). so although we are in slightly different life phases, we come from the same generation and have experienced the same-ish world when i began youtube. i have to honor your grieving process of my old music! i've received quite a lot of similar comments about that. i have multiple reasons for taking them down, which would take another paragraph to explain, but ultimately i'm just happy that they stuck with you. i think the little things in one's day make them all the more significant; a song you put on loop, your favorite kind of tea, a stranger holding the door for you. these are things that i can live without but make life all the more colorful. so if i was able to add even the smallest splash of color to your life with one of my songs, putting myself out there will always be worth it! i'm also pleased you like my recent music. naturally i strive for excellence and look back at every single one of my songs with healthy and unhealthy attitudes that fluctuate. perfection is a dead end road, but i believe if one chases it enough, they can catch excellence. so that's what i've been trying to do this semester, in addition to being more "out there" with the way i express myself. i consider myself very unreserved but tend to lean on the side of obscurity, maybe out of self-preservation or because of how reserved/private i am. so the fact that you say that i am impacting people-even when i feel sometimes that i could do more-means a lot to me. so let me return the thank you to you for staying around for so so so many years. your kindness will stick with me! (ps: "embracing my cringe past" reminds me of that one meme with the cow looking into the distance with the caption: i am cringe, but i am free. made me lose it.) blessings lauren
This song reminds me of someone. Of some people. Some people that im never going to see again. Some people that gave me life when i felt like ending it. Some people that filled my summers with happiness and joy. Some people that filled my heart with music and laughter. Some people that flooded my brain with memes and 8 steps to the line. Some people that made me happy. Some people that cant be replaced. Some people that are now moving on with their lives, and i cant go with. Some people that never criticized ne for being weird. Some people that were just as weird as me. Some people that, no matter what, will never be forgotten. At least not by me. All the jokes, the songs, the memories, never forgotten. And yeah, i may hold on to tight because of what happened all those years ago. But no matter what they will be remembered and their legacy lived out. I will get the water boys Joseph. I will always play the Spongebob theme at random intervals Serena. I will keep the memes going and the jokes alive Jonathan. I will keep the memories. And this song reminds me. Reminds me of them. So thank you. Thank you for this song. and all the others that gave me that little bit of calm and happy when i needed it. Thank you for giving us music
This is beautiful♡
so i’ve been here a while. as in old musical animatics & voltron fan songs while.&& i kinda feel like i grew up with your art/music/etc.
i followed you in highschool, in the throes of my repressed projecting on our founding fathers turned romanticized musical characters ( listen i don’t think anyone can blame a queer kid in the south for latching onto john laurens. it’s not what i’m into anymore, but i’ve learned to embrace my cringe past. ) and i remember being awestruck by your art style and the way you were able to portray emotions- both in your fan songs & your animatics.
i kinda fell out of that fandom-ey stuff though and didn’t really pay much attention till my freshman year of college, when juvenescence ( the grip ‘ghost town’ ,’ghost boy’, and ‘dear god’ had on me ) and solivagant ( ‘summertime feels so blue’ became an indicator for my roommate that I was having a bad day - literally anytime they would hear summertime feels so blue, ‘burning hill’ or ‘bag of bones’ by mitski, or hoziers ‘in the woods somewhere’ they’d check in with me) [ also - psa one of the only reasons I have band camp is because of these albums- I usually stick to spotify- i thought when they gotten taken off spotify they were taken down everywhere, and had a mini-grieving process /lh ]
and now i’m soon to be graduating, and the ‘something not so obvious’ so has been the background music for all my late night study sessions this semester. it literally does something to my adhd riddled brain that allows me to focus. really, i’ve loved everything that you’ve put out in the last couple months. ‘cradle of ivory’ i listened to on repeat in December.
anyway. watching/listening to this just gave me a lot of feelings and i’m really grateful for that, even though it’s almost bittersweet. i know it’s weird to say but i am so proud of how much you’ve grown, and this channel has grown. i’ve commented on other videos before, and it’s always very sporadic with sometimes years/months between the comments, but just know that there are many more people like me that have been supporting you and will continue to no matter what you do, or how this channel/your art changes. you’re genuinely impacting and helping people by being brave enough to put yourself/your art out there and i am so grateful for that. i feel like ‘thank you’ doesn’t cut it, but it’s all i have.
so,
thank you.
grayson, you have made my month with this comment.
i have been in a very challenging season of life both physically and emotionally. as usual, i tend to compress a portion of those feelings into some kind of artform. knowing that you have been impacted by my music is the highest compliment, and i'm honored to have joined you on your journey through school/life! i think what is so poignant about your circumstances is that while you are about to graduate, i am in my freshman year of college (as a transfer). so although we are in slightly different life phases, we come from the same generation and have experienced the same-ish world when i began youtube.
i have to honor your grieving process of my old music! i've received quite a lot of similar comments about that. i have multiple reasons for taking them down, which would take another paragraph to explain, but ultimately i'm just happy that they stuck with you. i think the little things in one's day make them all the more significant; a song you put on loop, your favorite kind of tea, a stranger holding the door for you. these are things that i can live without but make life all the more colorful. so if i was able to add even the smallest splash of color to your life with one of my songs, putting myself out there will always be worth it!
i'm also pleased you like my recent music. naturally i strive for excellence and look back at every single one of my songs with healthy and unhealthy attitudes that fluctuate. perfection is a dead end road, but i believe if one chases it enough, they can catch excellence. so that's what i've been trying to do this semester, in addition to being more "out there" with the way i express myself. i consider myself very unreserved but tend to lean on the side of obscurity, maybe out of self-preservation or because of how reserved/private i am. so the fact that you say that i am impacting people-even when i feel sometimes that i could do more-means a lot to me. so let me return the thank you to you for staying around for so so so many years. your kindness will stick with me!
(ps: "embracing my cringe past" reminds me of that one meme with the cow looking into the distance with the caption: i am cringe, but i am free. made me lose it.)
blessings
lauren
This song reminds me of someone. Of some people. Some people that im never going to see again. Some people that gave me life when i felt like ending it. Some people that filled my summers with happiness and joy. Some people that filled my heart with music and laughter. Some people that flooded my brain with memes and 8 steps to the line. Some people that made me happy. Some people that cant be replaced. Some people that are now moving on with their lives, and i cant go with. Some people that never criticized ne for being weird. Some people that were just as weird as me. Some people that, no matter what, will never be forgotten. At least not by me. All the jokes, the songs, the memories, never forgotten. And yeah, i may hold on to tight because of what happened all those years ago. But no matter what they will be remembered and their legacy lived out. I will get the water boys Joseph. I will always play the Spongebob theme at random intervals Serena. I will keep the memes going and the jokes alive Jonathan. I will keep the memories. And this song reminds me. Reminds me of them. So thank you. Thank you for this song. and all the others that gave me that little bit of calm and happy when i needed it. Thank you for giving us music