In my experience, stress comes from looking at the *entire* puzzle. The only way to improve is to look at the puzzle one step at a time, and work it from there. I was late diagnosed with the issues I have, and I've never had the insurance for meds. So, I had to BUILD foundational things around me to keep going through the bad times. I've kept the box art of every model kit I've ever built, and I've kept the note of every fortune cookie I've ever had. The logic is simple: I feel like shit, but people who PAID ME to build a model kit for them said I did a really good job. They could have said it was shit and kept the model AND their money, but they didn't. Well things can't be all shit, my customers don't lie about the quality of my work. BOOM. RIGHT THERE. A positive thought, it's like a bell drowning out phantom screams and insults. The other step is... a tad more difficult. You gotta spend time outside the house. Find a safe place to hang out, during the day, with other people. Most towns and cities have libraries, Hobby/Nerd shops. Others have proper get-together groups, usually organized through Facebook. We're social creatures, we CRAVE interaction. For introverts, that battery gets full quick, but it *genuinely* does help. I know my words might feel empty. But I'm on the opposite side of the river, Mija. I made dozens of mistakes, some of them quite permanent, but I made it. And if my goofy ass can make it, I KNOW you can, too! Don't you dare go Hollow!
Do not give into those thoughts! I struggle with them as well. I don't know enough about your situation to give you specific advice but please understand that what you are feeling isn't permanent! Life can be pure pain. It can be hell. But the fact that you are making these recordings shows that you have what is most important, Hope! You are not alone and you will get through this.
I wish it would get better but it's been 10 years.. my home situation is getting worse and my whole life is gonna be uprooted basicallly within the next 6 months so I assume it will get even worse than it is now lmao
I've had a friend of 9 years that suffers from suicidal thoughts and depression since she was a child, so it really pains me to see people like you who suffer daily because of something out of their control, that still have to suffer even more because of life events. i wish i had words of comfort for you but i know most of them wont make any difference :( but still i want to tell you that i really hope from the bottom of my heart that you find a way out of this situation and live peacefully. you've come this far, so please try to lean on whatever you can to stay afloat, family, religion, or hobbies. take care :(
@@whiskie7287 thank you for the kind comment. I'm sorry about your friend. Ppl always just say "oh it'll get better! Just wait" when in reality it won't.. I've been this way for 10 years and it's just how my brain works unfortunately. I really hope everything turns out well too :,)
Please dont leave, Sarah. There is a different way to look at the situation you are facing right now. I’ve dealt with suicidal thoughts my self. I understand how painful and overwhelming these feelings you describe can turn out to be. Please, you dont have to face this by yourself. Reach out for help, call a Crisis Lifeline.
I've reached out to a friend before but honestly I'm just a burden. No one wants to talk someone down from a ledge time and time again. At a point it just gets to be annoying and "oh this again?" About hotlines... from my experience it's never good. They are very apathetic and never seem to actually care which is sad and just makes me feel even worse. I only like to post my feelings on UA-cam, that way people can just click off if I get annoying hah
You are NOT a burden. Who said you were? Im going to talk you down from the ledge as many times as necessary, i dont care. Trying to help you will never be annoying. I know you are sharing these videos because you know things can be different; you do know there’s hope.
Yeah... It's probably better to get help from outside. It's really hard to do anyting yourself if you're in this situation. Call somebody, ask for help, even if it doesn't feel significant, it very well could be. I can't do much exept for writing these comments, because I'm from a different country, plus my english sucks so this comment probably gonna be ignored.
Your English is very good.. I've reached out to a friend before but after so many times it just gets tiring for them.. with crisis hotlines it's always sucks.. they are apathetic and never seem to care which just makes the feeling of reaching out worse hah
@@Filby444 Thanks :) Didn't your friend tried to help you when you reached out to them? If not, are they really a friend? I understand your situation. I've been there. It just feels like nobody cares. Even if you're openly crying about it, they see your pain and just dont give a fuck. I wanted to end it all. To stop the pain. But if I would actually do it, my family would suffer more. So I decided to not to. Just to wait it out 'till the better times. And I can't say that I'm quite there yet, but at least I'm free now and can do whatever I want. I wasn't free before, it has to do something with the military but I'm not gonna talk about it. So yeah... don't give up, try to bear it. And the best times will come later.
Your potential is like a seed waiting to blossom into something extraordinary! At 25 you are very very very young! Don’t underestimate the difference you can make; the world needs all that you have to give!
I was once on meds, I found throwing them away to the best decision I could have made. And if it’s worth anything, I think ur funny, and cute, and I would truly be sad to see u go.
In my experience, stress comes from looking at the *entire* puzzle. The only way to improve is to look at the puzzle one step at a time, and work it from there.
I was late diagnosed with the issues I have, and I've never had the insurance for meds. So, I had to BUILD foundational things around me to keep going through the bad times.
I've kept the box art of every model kit I've ever built, and I've kept the note of every fortune cookie I've ever had.
The logic is simple: I feel like shit, but people who PAID ME to build a model kit for them said I did a really good job. They could have said it was shit and kept the model AND their money, but they didn't. Well things can't be all shit, my customers don't lie about the quality of my work.
BOOM. RIGHT THERE. A positive thought, it's like a bell drowning out phantom screams and insults.
The other step is... a tad more difficult.
You gotta spend time outside the house. Find a safe place to hang out, during the day, with other people. Most towns and cities have libraries, Hobby/Nerd shops. Others have proper get-together groups, usually organized through Facebook. We're social creatures, we CRAVE interaction. For introverts, that battery gets full quick, but it *genuinely* does help.
I know my words might feel empty. But I'm on the opposite side of the river, Mija. I made dozens of mistakes, some of them quite permanent, but I made it.
And if my goofy ass can make it, I KNOW you can, too!
Don't you dare go Hollow!
It’s nice to see you laugh
I appreciate the tiny mic dark humor
Hang in there
Do not give into those thoughts! I struggle with them as well. I don't know enough about your situation to give you specific advice but please understand that what you are feeling isn't permanent! Life can be pure pain. It can be hell. But the fact that you are making these recordings shows that you have what is most important, Hope! You are not alone and you will get through this.
I wish it would get better but it's been 10 years.. my home situation is getting worse and my whole life is gonna be uprooted basicallly within the next 6 months so I assume it will get even worse than it is now lmao
I can only say for myself for what it's worth, if i see that this channel one day goes dark i'd be very sad. Genuinely.
The chances get higher everyday
@@Filby444 I don't doubt your veracity. Not at all. Just felt compelled to write.
I've had a friend of 9 years that suffers from suicidal thoughts and depression since she was a child, so it really pains me to see people like you who suffer daily because of something out of their control, that still have to suffer even more because of life events.
i wish i had words of comfort for you but i know most of them wont make any difference :(
but still i want to tell you that i really hope from the bottom of my heart that you find a way out of this situation and live peacefully.
you've come this far, so please try to lean on whatever you can to stay afloat, family, religion, or hobbies.
take care :(
@@whiskie7287 thank you for the kind comment. I'm sorry about your friend. Ppl always just say "oh it'll get better! Just wait" when in reality it won't.. I've been this way for 10 years and it's just how my brain works unfortunately. I really hope everything turns out well too :,)
nice mic
Please dont leave, Sarah. There is a different way to look at the situation you are facing right now. I’ve dealt with suicidal thoughts my self. I understand how painful and overwhelming these feelings you describe can turn out to be. Please, you dont have to face this by yourself. Reach out for help, call a Crisis Lifeline.
I've reached out to a friend before but honestly I'm just a burden. No one wants to talk someone down from a ledge time and time again. At a point it just gets to be annoying and "oh this again?" About hotlines... from my experience it's never good. They are very apathetic and never seem to actually care which is sad and just makes me feel even worse. I only like to post my feelings on UA-cam, that way people can just click off if I get annoying hah
You are NOT a burden. Who said you were? Im going to talk you down from the ledge as many times as necessary, i dont care. Trying to help you will never be annoying. I know you are sharing these videos because you know things can be different; you do know there’s hope.
Yeah... It's probably better to get help from outside. It's really hard to do anyting yourself if you're in this situation. Call somebody, ask for help, even if it doesn't feel significant, it very well could be. I can't do much exept for writing these comments, because I'm from a different country, plus my english sucks so this comment probably gonna be ignored.
Your English is very good.. I've reached out to a friend before but after so many times it just gets tiring for them.. with crisis hotlines it's always sucks.. they are apathetic and never seem to care which just makes the feeling of reaching out worse hah
@@Filby444 Thanks :) Didn't your friend tried to help you when you reached out to them? If not, are they really a friend?
I understand your situation. I've been there. It just feels like nobody cares. Even if you're openly crying about it, they see your pain and just dont give a fuck.
I wanted to end it all. To stop the pain. But if I would actually do it, my family would suffer more. So I decided to not to. Just to wait it out 'till the better times. And I can't say that I'm quite there yet, but at least I'm free now and can do whatever I want. I wasn't free before, it has to do something with the military but I'm not gonna talk about it.
So yeah... don't give up, try to bear it. And the best times will come later.
Your potential is like a seed waiting to blossom into something extraordinary! At 25 you are very very very young! Don’t underestimate the difference you can make; the world needs all that you have to give!
I was once on meds, I found throwing them away to the best decision I could have made.
And if it’s worth anything, I think ur funny, and cute, and I would truly be sad to see u go.