I don't know why the hell I still think about him since I was just a lurker. He was the first streamer I followed and the last. Such a honest and real person in a world where everyone is trying to scam or sell you something. Miss him.
Couldn't you have called me, wish you knew I cared. Know you hated being lonely, and I still wasn't there. And I'm so sorry, that I left you in the rain. If I knew that it would drown you I wouldn't be here so ashamed, now you surround me, Sometimes I slip and say your name. And I know you wouldn't want this, but I'm scared that it wont change. But I hope you're happy, hope you finally found you're peace, I hope there's rainbows, and lightshows, that sweep you off your feet. And I hope you're livin', in the world that you designed, cozy and warm sand, in Everland, playin' songs to pass the time. You knew you could've called me, knew I would've cared, know you hated being lonely, so I'll always be right here. And I'm so sorry, that I knew you just a year, but I won't forget your stories, and I forgive you for my tears. And I really hope you're happy, and I'll remember all the ways, that you brought rainbows, and lightshows, to everybody's day.
Most men live life's of quiet desperation. I know where Reckful was at cause I have been there myself and still fight it today. Beautiful song and voice! Love it!
This has become a favorite song of mine. There's so much emotion and it really punches you in the heart. I hope that she makes another version of it, clearer and with less pauses. That would be great. RIP Byron
I don't know Maya nor Reckful but I'm happy I got this in my recommended. I don't cry often but her emotion combined with the singing, holy fuck this made me emotional.
He was a beloved streamer who pioneered Twitch alongside other original streamers, everyone in the scene loved him. He dealt with depression and mental illness and eventually it became too much and he killed himself. This song was both a tribute and a reminder. Maya was friends with Reckful through her ex-boyfriend (boyfriend at the time of recording), her ex and Reckful were extremely good friends but her ex has severe ADHD and is a bit of a work-a-holic so he struggled with balancing his friendships and his content and so he was devastated by the news of his death because it left him feeling as if he wasn't good enough of a friend to stop him, that he had focused on his career too much. Public facing work is often so damaging to our mental health in this digital age, and so often we as professionals will ignore our mental health because that has become the culture, and it is even worse in corporations.
Given how many emotions this makes me feel as someone who didnt know byron personaly, i cant say how much i respect maya for putting herself out their for her friend... it really shows her love
I really don't know what it is, I wasn't a hardcore viewer of Reckful, watched the occasional videos uploaded to UA-cam, but his passing has hit me hard, even now watching these videos again, I can't help myself and I just start crying
I only found out about him less than an hour ago and from what I've read about him he was a great person. This song absolutely caused me to tear up despite not knowing the guy. I hope he's in a better place now.
I wish so much I could have met him. It hurts my heart. I kind of hate life even if I got so much people that cares. But the idea of helping someone thats suffer as I do and the feeling of understand him in that simple feeling you cant get ride of. Like its kind of Ok for me to suffer but I cannot take knowing someone like him its goin through it. Its just not fare. Seeing Reckful messages to others that he feels where in a bad place and try to help them even if he was in the worst place. What a world.
I feel this so much. I know what its like having a friend who took their own life and its awful. Though it hurt more knowing they didnt want to be here. It sounds bad but I've always said "It would have been bad if they were murdered but I'd of known that wasn't their choice, It hurts knowing I was so blind I never saw their pain". I don't blame my friend or Byron, it's just that hurt of feeling like there was SOMETHING you could have done that suck. I don't view it as a "selfish act" either because the pain they went through has no healing, at least we can heal even though their absence will still pain us.. We don't blame our love ones for dying naturally and yes we do heal from it, so it's unfair to shame people who are suicidal as if we don't heal from that either when we do, but it doesnt mean we don't want them...
I've never felt not alone. I feel like I'm drowning. I feel like the faint light of hope is about to give out. No one I reach out to wants to talk. No one will even notice or remember when I take my life.
Even though I'm just a random person somewhere in this large world, I want you to know that if right now it feels like there's nobody that cares, there always is! In time you will meet that person if it didn't alrady happen. There is a lot to do out there, just give it time. Please don't don't do something that you won't be able to regret.
@@Cromdan You are prophesizing the future. Fact is that there are examples of corpses rotting in their apartments that were discovered only by their landlords due to money. Some people just spend their life alone. Death is the desirable state because it doesn't contain the almost ever-present regret that I feel. It's these empty assessments and suppositions that make me spiteful of any kind of hopefulness, because I end up treating them with the same filter of incredulity. This song makes me think that the regret over something irreversible will always be more powerful than caring about something still reversible.
See the problem with being depressed is you lose apart of yourself and people say it's so easy to this and do that but when you've tried all those things and nothing works what else do you do? People care more about their image these days than people that are hurting so they make fun of you and leave you out cause they're considered weird. When something happens we wake up for a bit until the next and the next and the next. Our world acts like they care but don't accept how you feel.
bruh in like a super down time i'd come to this song and just play it and maya would like just the fact that she sung it for reckful or w.e meant a lot at the time or w.e, but bruh we made it man years and months went by we made moves we kinda still lackin but makin strides... keep yuh chin up
@@kniteort I think it got copyright claimed, went to look for it found a link that said it was the original singing and it said it was copyright claimed by her channel, don't know why.
Why did you feel the need to comment this? People watch this video to mourn someone's loss. I genuinely don't understand why you'd want to make anyone feel down on themselves for that
I just sometimes come back to this
Me too. I hope you're doing well
Same
Same
Same...
Yeah
I don't know why the hell I still think about him since I was just a lurker. He was the first streamer I followed and the last. Such a honest and real person in a world where everyone is trying to scam or sell you something. Miss him.
4 years brother it hurts as if it happened 20 mins ago :(
who are u talking about?
How to make someone weep in less than 3 minutes...
I think Reckful would have really liked it.
Rest in peace.
Make that less than less than 30 secs
R.I.P.
Couldn't you have called me,
wish you knew I cared.
Know you hated being lonely,
and I still wasn't there.
And I'm so sorry,
that I left you in the rain.
If I knew that it would drown you
I wouldn't be here so ashamed,
now you surround me,
Sometimes I slip and say your name.
And I know you wouldn't want this,
but I'm scared that it wont change.
But I hope you're happy,
hope you finally found you're peace,
I hope there's rainbows, and lightshows,
that sweep you off your feet.
And I hope you're livin',
in the world that you designed,
cozy and warm sand,
in Everland,
playin' songs to pass the time.
You knew you could've called me,
knew I would've cared,
know you hated being lonely,
so I'll always be right here.
And I'm so sorry,
that I knew you just a year,
but I won't forget your stories,
and I forgive you for my tears.
And I really hope you're happy,
and I'll remember all the ways,
that you brought rainbows,
and lightshows,
to everybody's day.
Bro got me crying in the club I miss this guy
❤️
maya is so talented this song never fails to make me cry
Most men live life's of quiet desperation. I know where Reckful was at cause I have been there myself and still fight it today. Beautiful song and voice! Love it!
Hoping you’re okay friend, you’re loved
i hope you're still here to read my response :)))
way to make it a gender issue
@@abook2141 I mean men make around 80% of the suicides
i still cannot listen to this without crying. such a beautiful song
Just a pleb but I revisit often and I can't get through without balling my eyes out. Amazing work
I still hear reckful in the distance
FeelsStrongMan
Crying
Im crying now by listening to this song. RIP Reckful, hope you found your peace
Man reckful, why’d you have to leave us? We miss you dude
This has become a favorite song of mine.
There's so much emotion and it really punches you in the heart.
I hope that she makes another version of it, clearer and with less pauses.
That would be great.
RIP Byron
Literally still crying, so beautiful Maya!
I don't know Maya nor Reckful but I'm happy I got this in my recommended. I don't cry often but her emotion combined with the singing, holy fuck this made me emotional.
He was a beloved streamer who pioneered Twitch alongside other original streamers, everyone in the scene loved him. He dealt with depression and mental illness and eventually it became too much and he killed himself. This song was both a tribute and a reminder. Maya was friends with Reckful through her ex-boyfriend (boyfriend at the time of recording), her ex and Reckful were extremely good friends but her ex has severe ADHD and is a bit of a work-a-holic so he struggled with balancing his friendships and his content and so he was devastated by the news of his death because it left him feeling as if he wasn't good enough of a friend to stop him, that he had focused on his career too much. Public facing work is often so damaging to our mental health in this digital age, and so often we as professionals will ignore our mental health because that has become the culture, and it is even worse in corporations.
This song is so good, it could be top song on spotify
i never watched Reckful when he streamed, wasn't a wow player, but i watched a bit of clips over time, Fly high man, you'll be missed
Whoever you are listening to this. Wherever you are. Know that you are worth it.
We will always be by your side. Happy Birthday❤
i still miss him
Given how many emotions this makes me feel as someone who didnt know byron personaly, i cant say how much i respect maya for putting herself out their for her friend... it really shows her love
If reckful was still be alive to see it, i am god damn sure he totally gonna weep off. RIP
Just here to say, I love you Reckful. You're forever in my heart :) Always missing you Legend!
I found about Twitch from hearing the news about his death, even though I never watched him I think about him sometimes
I really don't know what it is, I wasn't a hardcore viewer of Reckful, watched the occasional videos uploaded to UA-cam, but his passing has hit me hard, even now watching these videos again, I can't help myself and I just start crying
bird girl can never be replaced thats for sure....PAIN Sadge:(
I only found out about him less than an hour ago and from what I've read about him he was a great person. This song absolutely caused me to tear up despite not knowing the guy. I hope he's in a better place now.
I did not know who Rekful was, until now, but even I cried as I can relate to this song.
damn this is beautiful maya, it brought tears to my eyes, rip reckful
Didn’t expect to be crying at 3am… Beautifully done…
Rest in peace my boy
Such a beautiful song.
I still can't listen to this without crying my eyes out and thinking of Byron...
me either, i come back to it every couple of months. i cant even imagine how the people who knew byron personally still feel…
Beautiful...rest is peace Byron
Chills from the first words. Amazing.
I wish so much I could have met him. It hurts my heart. I kind of hate life even if I got so much people that cares. But the idea of helping someone thats suffer as I do and the feeling of understand him in that simple feeling you cant get ride of. Like its kind of Ok for me to suffer but I cannot take knowing someone like him its goin through it. Its just not fare. Seeing Reckful messages to others that he feels where in a bad place and try to help them even if he was in the worst place. What a world.
this really is beatiful
Thankyou
respect for u maya, so nice.
Crying in the club bro
RIP Byron Bernstein, the rock that was holding it all together. Xx
made me very emotional , rip reckful he really brought rainbows,
and lightshows to my life. See you on the otherside my old friend. rest easy.
listening to this again :')
I feel this so much. I know what its like having a friend who took their own life and its awful. Though it hurt more knowing they didnt want to be here. It sounds bad but I've always said "It would have been bad if they were murdered but I'd of known that wasn't their choice, It hurts knowing I was so blind I never saw their pain".
I don't blame my friend or Byron, it's just that hurt of feeling like there was SOMETHING you could have done that suck. I don't view it as a "selfish act" either because the pain they went through has no healing, at least we can heal even though their absence will still pain us.. We don't blame our love ones for dying naturally and yes we do heal from it, so it's unfair to shame people who are suicidal as if we don't heal from that either when we do, but it doesnt mean we don't want them...
Its kinda late but rest in piece
Never to late
damn bro shes so good like fr
Rip recky man
amazing
Thankyou.
I've never felt not alone. I feel like I'm drowning. I feel like the faint light of hope is about to give out. No one I reach out to wants to talk. No one will even notice or remember when I take my life.
Even though I'm just a random person somewhere in this large world, I want you to know that if right now it feels like there's nobody that cares, there always is! In time you will meet that person if it didn't alrady happen. There is a lot to do out there, just give it time. Please don't don't do something that you won't be able to regret.
@@Cromdan You are prophesizing the future. Fact is that there are examples of corpses rotting in their apartments that were discovered only by their landlords due to money. Some people just spend their life alone. Death is the desirable state because it doesn't contain the almost ever-present regret that I feel. It's these empty assessments and suppositions that make me spiteful of any kind of hopefulness, because I end up treating them with the same filter of incredulity. This song makes me think that the regret over something irreversible will always be more powerful than caring about something still reversible.
To the one person who downvoted this.... I hope you're ok. Love you.
I downvoted too just to get your love
@@Leaffordes Just gotta ask and I am sure we can give you some love.
@@Leaffordes Hope you're doing okay bud
stay strong
@@Leaffordes Mind sharing?
@@Leaffordes brodie just shows depression in the span of 2 milliseconds
This is beautiful, you made me cry 😥
See the problem with being depressed is you lose apart of yourself and people say it's so easy to this and do that but when you've tried all those things and nothing works what else do you do? People care more about their image these days than people that are hurting so they make fun of you and leave you out cause they're considered weird. When something happens we wake up for a bit until the next and the next and the next. Our world acts like they care but don't accept how you feel.
We must accept death . I'm sorry
Hope you all are doing well in life 🤙
❤
❤
Literally she played one key and I almost cried
2 years now..
hei seems
Miss you but I never met you Byron. you will always be here.
bruh in like a super down time i'd come to this song and just play it and maya would like just the fact that she sung it for reckful or w.e meant a lot at the time or w.e, but bruh we made it man years and months went by we made moves we kinda still lackin but makin strides... keep yuh chin up
I feel so alone.
If you ever wanna talk I'm here for you
UUR WORTH BEILING ALIVE VE BEEN THERE BRO
Sending Love my human friend
First and only stream I'd watch for years until his passing. Still miss him 😢
Sadge:( wonderful Song
Ugh I hate that Reckful had to go....... He was the brightest shining star on Twitch..
everland
This was on Spotify and now I can't find it. Any ideas chat?
Rest easy Byron
I never saw Reckful streams but i can see from different communities that he was a person with a huge heart
Here again
here again
@@anatuhmi Nice to see Reckful will always be remembered :)
I miss my dad... i dont want to give in
i miss my grandmother too
be strong
Nice sound, good luck 👍✋💗🌹
Someone should make a guitar version
Still so beautiful
I miss The Godfather aka reckful
Wake up Byron PepeHands
i found this song 2 years to late... now im crying
sad
rip sadge
Sadge PianoTime
woah
why is the original song gone ?!
I have no idea, but i would guess the account who uploaded it is deleted
@@kniteort I think it got copyright claimed, went to look for it found a link that said it was the original singing and it said it was copyright claimed by her channel, don't know why.
but it might be because the channel that uploaded it was probably making money off of it
@@jumpyjumpyjumpyy sadge
Rip Legend
I wish I had the chance to meet you byron, you seemed like a wonderful human wherever you are I hope you're in peace. I'll meet you one day.
Now im crying :|
Fuck me a got chills
FeelsStrongMan Clap
PepeHands
It hurts….
Sad
Maaan
RIP Reckful
R.I.P. fly high 😭
:(
:c
Sounds like like “let it go” from frozen
11+4
sucked
Why did you feel the need to comment this? People watch this video to mourn someone's loss. I genuinely don't understand why you'd want to make anyone feel down on themselves for that
reckful died on my birthday... I was waiting all day for him to stream before the news broke
Dude... I am so so sorry to hear that. I hope every birthday of your's from here on out is wonderful and enriches your life. All power to you ✊
My birthday is also a tough time of year for similar reasons. It's hard man but you aren't alone I love you