BLÜ EYES - healing hurts (Official Lyric Video)
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Lyrics:
I expected
The exhaustion
& the days i couldn’t get out of bed
I expected
The prescriptions
& the pain I felt in my head
I thought slowly I’d start feeling better
I’d stitch my life back together
One day at a time
In one long straight line
But healing fucking hurts sometimes
I wish I would’ve known
I probably would’ve closed my eyes
Waited till it was all over
It gets better till it just gets worse
A full time job isn’t this much work
I know that I’ll survive but
Healing fucking hurts sometimes
I expected
For a few weeks
I might not feel quite like myself
I expected
Someone to tell me
Some explanation for what I felt
But now it’s been more than a year and
I still don’t have any clear cut answers
And askin just feels like slippin backwards
Yeah healing fucking hurts sometimes
I wish I would’ve known
I probably should’ve closed my eyes
Waited till it was all over
Yeah it gets better till it just gets worse
A full time job isn’t this much work
I’ll know that I’ll survive but
healing fucking hurts sometimes
Ohhh, ohhh, ohhh
No one told me
It would get this lonely, I
spent 6 months piecing back together
Who I was, will it be forever
So jaded
Done with being patient, I’m
Sick of hearing that I’ll be fine
Cuz healing fucking hurts sometimes
I wish I would’ve known
And someone told me to close my eyes
Wait until it was all over
Yeah it gets better till it just gets worse
A full time job isn’t this much work
I know that I survived but
healing fucking hurts sometimes
Video edited, and colored by Brittany Berggren
song written and produced by BLÜ EYES and Davin Kingston
mixed by Keith Armstrong
master by Justin Shturtz
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"A full time job isn't this much work." this line hits hard because it's so true. a full time job still only is 8 hours a day but a chronic or mental illness is there 24 hours 7 days a week.
UPDATE: been 3 weeks since I was released from the hospital after 4 weeks of treatment and I feel it getting worse every day.
UPDATE2: started therapy in the day-clinic this week after I had to quit my internship a month ago
applys wonderfully to chronic pain and chronic illness or disability
Hope you are doing better ❤
I'm a domestic violence survivor of 3 and half yrs of torture 😭 to being in the hospital bcuz he tried to kill me And this song hits me so hard and it's not the same as being sick and I'm truly sorry 😢😢 I've been free 5 months now 💜 and I want to say this song really touches my heart and I feel it!! Music like this, is amazing!! it's so real & raw that it speaks to people ❤ I appreciate it. Healing definitely hurts 🫶🫶🫶
I been out for 2 and 1/2 years now and it's still hard!! But I'd rather have this pain than then prison I put myself in for so long!! Glad you got out too
I’m so glad you’re out of that hell.. one day at a time ❤ here for you
You are the strongest!! More love to you❤
I'm so sorry I'm a dv surviour too still hurts like the first time
Five years for me …
You are not alone ♥️🦋🥹
Girl. As a cancer survivor this hit me so hard. I was an athlete before chemo. I'm 3 years out and the pain I'm in every day is debilitating. You are not alone. Thank you so much for writing and sharing this amazing song.
wishing you nothing but the best
Same
Yes, same
Me too,1 year in remission,I'm not the same person,living in so much pain,sending 🤗
I survived a long marriage with an abusive thing " can't call him a man " he took everything we every build together, he moved another women into my bed and locked me out of my home,lied to everyone including his family friends estate agent solicitors and judges . I had no home no job no money he just kept it all . Good riddens to them . Life is better, i got away and im alive .
As an abuse and trauma survivor and someone with cPTSD this is so relatable. People often don't see the struggle behind (chronic) illnesses and the time sink and work they are.
i know dude. i feel it a lot. i started struggling with anxiety and depression when i was 8, was put on meds and everything for years, till when i was 14 they finally figured out i had hypothyroidism cuz they took my blood at the psych hospital. and after that when i started seeing more doctors they just kept telling me all these other chronic illnesses i have and it just piles on and on. i’m almost 22 now tho. my mom was my rock especially because she taught me how to lean on God, and i hope you have a rock too. but even if you don’t, you’re becoming a rock yourself that will help someone so dramatically because of what you went through. i don’t know who id be without my chronic illnesses and that’s not to say they define me, but it’s to say i became one hell of a person through the battles they put me through. id probably be some wimp without them, and i wouldn’t be this proud of myself for not only getting through those circumstances, but knowing i can face anything that happens to me now. and if i can help anyone with a similar situation because of the wisdom God gave me in my worst times, it will all have been worth it. your music is incredible katie - you make people feel your emotions. not only that, but you make other peoples emotions SEEN. your journey, though full of hard times, is not without goodness. you are using it to recognize the pain of others who may not every be seen otherwise. that’s huge.
It took more than one year for me, to find out that I have fibromyalgia. A lot of doctors, a lot of doubts, a lot of fear. And this song describes perfectly what I'm feeling. ❤️
I just wanted to let you know how beautiful this song is, and how deeply it resonates with me. Last month I lost my 21 year old Son from a catastrophic stroke due to his kidney disease. Grief is so heavy... it's physically painful and it's all consuming. I don't know how to breathe most days, let alone heal. And it f*cking hurts SO bad. Thank you for putting words and feelings to something I have struggled to express properly.
I just found your music, and I am now a forever fan ❤️🩹
I'm giving you a very big and tender, loving, human hug.... I can't imagine the pain you must be going through
it’s amazing to think you don’t have millions of subscribers, you deserve it
Agreed! In time, I hope she gets that!
i think you need to edit the comment, it reads a little bit off from what it's supposed to mean, it feels like you'r telling her she does not deserve millions of subscribers, where we all know they lyrics are divinely good she wrote
She will ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
I think they were saying it's amazing to see she doesn't have a million upon millions of subscribers becuz she has amazing talent and deserves to be heard and seen as the talented artist she is 🥰❤️💕?!
She does,am all her sad listeners 🖇️
This is my daily anthem…been fighting chronic Lyme and other chronic illnesses for a decade. Herxing so bad right now and this song comforts me through it. To anyone reading this: you’re stronger than you know. Hang in there 💗
Thank you for writing this song. As much as it hurts, I needed to hear this.
this is how i feel battling depression. i’m working through trauma and i’m learned how to take care of and live with myself, but damn. healing fucking hurts sometimes.
Thanks for sharing the truths in this song. The pain is so real…. Some days it feels like it will never stop.
no clue how i've gone this long without knowing about your music. thanks for this. i needed it.
Thank you for your music!! My hubby asked how in the world I keep finding the perfect songs just for me, as your songs really do say what my life is all about.
💔 healing is like having a gut full of glass year and a half for me and ...that was well written
Girl, this song hits so hard. I've been living with POTS going on 7 years now and I just recently got diagnosed with Small Fiber Poly Neuropathy. Sometimes it seems like it will never end. Hearing these words is so validating. Thank you, just thank you. ❤
I also have POTS and this illness is a helluva lot to deal with. I hope you are doing well! 😊
Me too. Only other potsies actually seem to truly understand the suffering and loss involved.
Hang in there fellow sufferers. ❤❤❤
I have had so many medical issues this year while/after carrying my child. I also had financial, mental, and relationship issues adding to the pain and stress. It has been a roller-coaster of hell, and this song has been on repeat for me since I haven't had time to process any of my emotions. Thank you so much for posting this ❤
You are not alone. Sending you healing light and peaceful energy right to your heart, sweet girl 💖🙏🤗
I really feel this. It's so hard to get through this, and i hope, for everyone that reads this and hears this amazing song - which is so relatable - to get to the other side of the pain and survives and conquers it! We are going to survive this and we will show ourselfs to the world again!! Thank you for your amazing music, please never stop!
As a mom of 3 boys and my youngest passing away unexpectedly and suddenly. With ptsd, anxiety, depression, and grieving I've lost myself. A year and half since he's gone and it's the hardest thing I ever had to go through all while trying to be there for my other kids. Seeing what it did to my kids. Their bond was unbelievable and seeing them torn apart hurts. I feel so stuck in between here and there. I miss my son 💜
I hope you’re doing well mama ❤
Been diagnosed with a chronic incurable illness this year. I really needed this song. So glad I came across this on instagram. Really beautiful. Your voice is beautiful. You’re so brave and talented to be able to put all this in such a vulnerable honest way. Honestly thank you from the bottom of my heart for this music. ❤
Yessss. Thank You. Your music helps me get through the pain.
Prayers lifted.. gentle hugs.
Blessings ✨
Resonates…the lyrics left me speechless 🙏🏻
Masterpiece 👊
Healing Fuck in hurts sometimes…💔
I wish there was a pill 💊 to erase my memories…
❤ your music as I type the tears fall....
I love this so much! Thank you for sharing! This is beautiful. ❤️❤️❤️
Need a karaoke version, really want to cover this. I was diagnosed with FND and this is the only song that relates to what I've been through. You're amazing 💖
Loving your music. It's my go to ❤️
I'm a burn survivor and this really hits!! 17mths and still in recovery. When u think it is getting better, everything falls apart again. ❤
I’ve been through so many pains through different diseases and diagnoses. I have had burn type pain time to time do a surgery I had. I think burn survivors are the strongest people in the world. Anytime I deal with the small thing I have it makes me hysterical, I panic and just scream from the pain. I cannot imagine having actual burns on my body. So I just wanted to say if you don’t know, you are insanely strong.
Also this song is amazing for anyone surviving through any illness of trauma for that matter. I’ve never felt more heard than by blu eyes music
You are becoming my go to music for when I'm feeling overwhelmed 😭 thank you for making your music. It's helping so much
I have Fibromyalgia. This song speaks to me so much. Every day is freaking hard. Thank you for this song 😭❤️
Thank you for writing this. It is nice to feel seen and hear similar feelings in a song. 15 years, 2 surgeries, thousands of dollars, and many doctors later I'm still fighting chronic illness and pain. This is good, keep singing from the soul.
This is perfect. Your voice is perfect. The feeling you show in your voice gives comfort. Cheers !!!
Omg THIS!!! It reaches me on so many levels. I have Fibromyalgia, ME, depression and chronic anxiety. My life turned upside down. The line "it gets better until it gets worse". Ouffff ..so so true. I even went throught a lot of loss last year and it applies so well also. Healing does fucking hurt and you just want to close your eyes sometimes until it's over 💔. Your voice is so soothing and beautiful ❤
This whole song resonates with so many people in their healing journey. People don’t know how painful healing really is. Healing can take months, and most of the time years… you captured the feeling so well and I’m sure many people are listening gratefully that they know they are not the only one going through this.❤
This is so amazing, thank you for sharing your music & incredible voice with the world
I sent this to my husband because its everything I feel about healing through something no one understands or can give you a clear diagnosis on.
It took 11 years for me to discover where the pain was coming from. I've recently been diagnosed with stage 2-3 of endometriosis and adenomyiosis. I've lost months in bed during these years. I lost people around me due to this condition. I struggled with people's wrong perception, I wasn't believed. I just had my surgery last month and now I feel so emotional about all these years, my tears just showed listening to this song... Ny heart stays with all the women who are dealing with this.
I'm waiting for my diagnostic surgery next month I feel misunderstood 😢I'm in pain and the only person who was listening was my doc but I feel like she's tired of me complaining all the time . I'm so scared that they won't find it and I'll go back to where I was 😢 it's a mixture of emotions thoughts and feeling. I honestly don't know how I feel all I want is answers that's all
Absolute perfection….love this ❤️
your music takes me into another dimension, love it 🥰
I love this song so much because having chronic illness for the pass 20 years it definitely a full time job living in pain in and out of the hospital isn’t easy healing from PTSD other
This is beautiful🌻🦋thank you for sharing💜
I a world where I feel misunderstood your music never fails to make me feel understood. You are amazingly talented
Absolutely beautiful 🥰
I needed to hear this, I’ve been going through some dark thoughts lately.. thank you.
My daddy (aka old guy) will have passed 3 months ago. It hasn't gotten easier and I'm looking for a wah forward. Your song has helped and shown me that it's not a one way street and that back sliding in your grief is ok.
Even though strangers and thousand of miles apart, but we are in this together.. 👬👭.
beautiful voice!
This is just an awsome song thank you so much , I just love this song..
This song helped me through my multiple sclerosis diagnosis and still is the song I come back to after two years when Im just frustrated with the pain and everything ❤
So hard to not give up. Healing fucking hurts all the time everyday I wake up.
Thank you 💕🙏
I lost my daughter 2 months ago at the age of 7 to cancer and this song brought me to tears, full blown tears Cause the healing from losing her does hurt so fucking much, some days I just don't feel like moving. Others I keep pushing for her siblings and her legacy.
Lost my mom 10 years ago today. Still hurts.
As a nurse whose spent the last several shifts with a 20-something who has no fight left, I hear that patient's voice in this song. I HEAR YOU... and it hurts me too 😢❤
Wow this is a beautifully written song coming from your soul and heart. Shocked there aren’t more views. This should be on the radio. Thank you for writing something so raw and real and vulnerable. You’ve touched my heart and soul. And it makes me feel not alone with being in the “healing” phase. Keep writing more please!
fuxkin relatable like last month when I heard this I hit n I honestly tho by now id not still be traumatized
It’s been over a yr and I tho I was finally healed but now I’m back in the worse😢
Healing hurts sometimes and I felt that
As someone with endometriosis who’s had 5 surgeries and years of misdiagnosis and medical gaslighting, I felt this in my soul! So so well written ❤❤❤
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hey, thanks for writing songs about your experience with medical trauma and illness! there's a whole community of folx out here who will understand and feel seen by this.
Such a great debut EP! So honest and vulnerable. Well done! 💙 Always a pleasure to listen to your music.
Just found this song and healing does fucking hurt, I have been trying to heal since last April when my dad passed away
Not enough likes fir this wee beauty ❤❤❤
I'm healing from c-ptsd. I've been saying how lonely and painful healing is. You hit the nail on the head.
So lonely and painful but the other side is so freeing
This song hits so hard to me as someone who's been struggling for years with my mental health and a lot of health issues that I can't find a clear diagnosis
I'm fifteen and I've had undiagnosed chronic pain, dislocations and migraines for seven years. Everything went downhill for me one day when I was nine, and my problems were always brushed to the side and labeled "puberty" because my sister was sick too. This song encapsulates everything I've felt for the last seven years. Thank you for this.
I pray the Lord bless you in Jesus name 🥺❤
Dude this exactly, been sick since i was 8 im 15 now and finally getting answers after years of doctors gaslighting me, telling me i wasn't exhausted just lazy or the agony my joints were in were growing pains. Begging then to believe me. This song is the definition of perfection, letting everyone down over and over again. Finally thinking your getting better just to have a horrible flare up and end up sicker. Realising this isnt something ill get better from, it wont go away. This is my life.
Hey ! Are you still undiagnosed?
Your symptoms look like mine , i have elhers danlos syndrom (hypermobile) .
Maybe it can be helpful if you google the name and check .
Hope my english is not to bad, its not my first language 😅
@user-uy7ng8gm3r I have been looking into Ehlers Danlos syndrome and I have a doctor's appointment next month to talk about it! Thank you for the suggestion though!
I'm 16 and I've been dealing with consistent health issues for the last couple years and was told "oh it's just stress" and now my doctor is listening to me and I'm going through testing but it's just so exhausting and so far all the tests have come back negative and it's just so frustrating because I know somethings wrong and no one knows what it is. This song is a blessing, and it's so nice being able to listen too it.
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I heard 15 seconds of this song on a tik tok and came to subscribe ❤️ absolutely beautiful
Thank you for singing my life...
I was told by friends who could afford therapy that it was supposed to hurt. That its normal for healing to include some hurting, which fucking sucks because I thought a lack of pain was a sign that I was healing, so whenever the pain came I panicked and spiraled into thinking I'm getting worse. I know I should be glad to be wrong but I'm not. I'm even more pissed because now I don't know if I'm actually healing or not! Does that makes sense?
Like I feel more loss than I did in the beginning. Like, I had a compass and a destination in mind and even though I don't know how to get there at least I have something to tell me I'm heading in the right direction, but now you're telling me that the compass is just my imagination. So now I don't even have that, I'm just wandering in the dark lost, blind and fucking scared
Yes, unfortunately it is supposed to hurt and the reason is because if your emotions are all stuck inside yourself at the time of the trauma or during the trauma, they’re never able to come out and you’re never able to get those answers. This is what my trauma therapist tells me it has taken me since the age of four to find a therapist, who was not abusive and I, as a teen was in an abusive. boarding school, part of the troubled teen industry, so I have not trusted therapists for a very long time. There are some programs that connect people with therapists for free. I can see if I can go find some resources for you because everybody deserves to have the chance to have therapy.
I needed to hear this song . THANK YOU ❤❤❤ It's been just under a decade and I am still healing . And it's so true it does fucking hurt sometimes. The lyrics really spoke to me. I love your music so much . I feel really seen and heard and not alone . Keep making beautiful music, you are amazing! ❤
This is relatable
This song has been such a gift. Thank you for putting these truths into words; they apply in so many ways to do many different experiences.
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Please never stop making this music. We need this so badly. To feel seen and understood. To hear someone else tell our story. It's so hard being sick, Thank you for making it a little less lonely
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Is there a clean version? I’d love to do a Lyra routine to this!
another beautiful yet relatable one 💙
Wow.... Just living out loud and helping others on their road! All kindsa truth here! Keep on Keep on Keep on!!
Thank you.....
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Wow😢
Is this on IG?
You are so underrated 🥺💙
I first heard this song shortly after getting diagnosed with brain cancer. I had just gotten out of the hospital from having brain surgery and this song helped me feel like someone kind of understood how I felt and what I was going through. I don’t know what your song is actually about, but just know that it helps a lot of people feel less alone in whatever they may be battling! ❤
I want to be at peace at once
I can just imagine you sitting there with your coffee and recording yourself for this vid 💀❤️
So many people relate to your songs. I am grateful for you and your sharing of your emotional journey!!! Thank you
Your a true work of art young lady well on your way to creating your beautiful masterpiece with a pure heart your such a rare beauty inside and out thank u for sharing this pure beauty you are a true angel on this earth and an incredible Inspiration to us all
2 brain surgeries, spine surgeries, repairs… in 6 years none of it has fixed the skull crushing pain in my head everyday. And to hear over and over we can’t find the problem and we don’t know what else to do for you … has crushed my mind, body and spirit more than I ever thought possible. Year by year, my children get bigger, my husband and I grow older and all we know is watching me in and out of consciousness passed out from the pain. The hardest thing to do is hold on, even for that next breath that you’re not sure is even going to come, or the next beat of your heart that may never happen. I have never resonated with someone’s music and lyrics so much in my life and hearing this gave me an ounce of a voice that I don’t have anymore. Thank you for putting into words what so many of us can’t do and expressing what we feel when the right thing to say can’t escape us ❤️❤️❤️
They have been saying the same to me. Hugs and prayers
@@michellejohnson9741 I’m so sorry 😢 It’s absolutely exhausting hearing it over and over like you’re crazy. Healthcare needs help because expecting people to live like this is insane! When they are stumped for answers and don’t know what else to do, it always comes back to “ well, maybe it’s just all in YOUR head 🤷♀️” If any of them had an ounce of decency, they would admit that they aren’t sure how to help or proceed but would be happy to help you moving in a different direction with a fresh set of eyes. Most are too much of egomaniacs though to admit they don’t something and need help! You have to be some kind of evil to just let others suffer like that because you can’t get off your high horse. Makes me beyond infuriated to see people pushed to the brink of suicidal ideas because they are suffering like this and just get swept under the rug 😢
I don't know why I've been able to relate to so many of your songs. I've just been through a lot in my life and all I do is just keep moving forward.
Can really relate to your songs..I was harmed by medications and made sicker than i ever felt possible and it's taken me years of torture and suffering in my body to recover from it. 7 years and still have symptoms left over
I found this song as it was recommended for an tiktok video i just posted. It’s perfect. Healing really does fucking hurt sometimes. To the point you don’t feel you’re ‘healing’ at all. It feels worse. And everyone tells you to trust the process and you try to believe them but… sending so much love.
I don't want to go back to the mental hospital but if I can't hide it, I'm going to be forced to go back. No outpatient is accepting me cause my problems are too bad. So I'm going to probably be forced to go back...I don't want to go back. I don't want to stay there for months. I don't want to change. I'm so scared...I just want to live my life without fear of having zero freedom...I wish I never told anyone my problems to even get in this situation...cause now if I fake being fine they won't belive me so..
Faden, my love, you are so strong and so brave. I know you hurt even when you smile, but if anyone can get through it, it's you. Thank you for not giving up the fight. ❤
Wow!! Fuuu!! Yes!! CPTSD! 💜
I love this so muchhh 🥹
Thanks for this song 🥹
After 7 years of an abusive marriage and almost dieing by his hand in February this hits hard. Thank you for this. ❤
It's been 2months I still cry so bad don't know if am healing but I know it really hurts