"I'm selfish enough to wanna get better, but backwards enough not to take any steps to get there" - Everyone can relate to those lyrics. Kevin gets it. Favorite musician and lyricist, ever.
A friend of ours took his life a few years ago. We would play this.. with him..then without him. It means so much now. Memories of jumping into pools..destroying guitars and starting a few fires. That's all. Thank you.
I feel you girl. This song reminds me of my friend who passed too. Teaching me these chords with beers by the lake. Sing screaming like weirdos. Lots of love to you and your friend ❤️ memories are forever
Each situation he mentions in the song. It hits you like a train. Example: The lines where he mentions "Daniel's friend" gearing up for war. Even being a vet, it's depressing. The next wave of youth being sent into harms way. The following lines nailing it. The feeling of expecting/watching it happen and the dealing with the situation.
A good man doesn't drink And I've been drinking alone So what does that make me? My hands they always shake And no one's calling my phone So what does that make me? And I know the kid with his guitar So drunk and anxious Has been done to death But tell me what hasn't I'll try it Because I'm selfish enough To wanna get better But I'm backwards enough Not to take any steps to get there And when you realize it's a pattern And not a phase It's what you've become And it's what you will stay That's ballgame Cause I don't got room in my life For anyone else And I've driven away all the People that could help And I still don't even know what I Need to do to fix myself And there's a clamp around my chest It tightens every time I lapse into Another sorry story About my miserable collapse A bronze box I keep encased in glass And dust off whenever I want your pity Cause lately I've had to come to grips With scope and figure How my problems stack up in a world Two steps from ruin (Or maybe it's rapture) Well, either way, I realize that my shit's About as small as it could be But that makes me feel worse for even feeling This bad in the first place Cause there's a war starting soon, and all The flags'll be waving And Daniel's 20-year-old friend will be ready And willing, and waiting He's a Marine and he told me And that makes me sad Really, really fucking sad But at least he'll act I'll just bite my tongue and then say: "Daniel, you wish him luck" I pray that he comes back For his mother's sake, and then I'll drink Those thoughts away I've gotten good at that Cause when you realize it's a pattern And not a phase It's what you've become And it's what you will stay That's ballgame Oh oh oh Yeah when you realize it's a pattern And not a phase It's what you've become And it's what you will stay That's ballgame Yeah when you realize it's a pattern And not a phase It's what you've become And it's what you will stay That's ballgame
Only song from an (ex?)heroin addict that wrote s song where the lyrics just get it so perfectly. If you've been there or are there this song hits so close its unnerving. I know many other types of people can relate their problems or issues too but knowing his history its what speaks to me. Kevin was always way underrated and deserves to be so much bigger
Theres an old Dan Mangan song called "reason to think aloud" that, at the time, in the midst of an opiate addiction, always felt lto me ike it was from a junkies perspective...and really encapsulated the despair. Probably a break up song, but boy it would hit home to me. "Now that the tvs gone, I see why you placed it there, weeks just keep rolling by, still look to see the glare, convince yourself not to care, hope strength might come along...its almost christmas, what do I do, where do I go, I dont wanna be alone, for all Ive said, what do I know." Really just hit that despair.
This reminds me EXACTLY of MY addiction... I once was "selfish enough to wanna get better, but backwards enough not to take any Steps to get there" Then I found some Steps, 12 of them which helped me tap into a Power Greater Then Myself... Good Orderly Direction... Thumbs up if your a "Friend of Bill's"
I understand that this guy is a local singer at best... but his lyrics are on another level. A good song is a good song. At the end of the day it doesn't matter if bob Dylan is singing or Micheal Jackson, a good song is a good song.
A good man doesn't drink And I've been drinking alone So what does that make me? My hands they always shake And no one's calling my phone So what does that make me? And I know the kid with his guitar So drunk and anxious Has been done to death But tell me what hasn't I'll try it Because I'm selfish enough To wanna get better But I'm backwards enough Not to take any steps to get there And when you realize it's a pattern And not a phase It's what you've become And it's what you will stay That's ballgame Cause I don't got room in my life For anyone else And I've driven away all the People that could help And I still don't even know what I Need to do to fix myself And there's a clamp around my chest It tightens every time I lapse into Another sorry story About my miserable collapse A bronze box I keep encased in glass And dust off whenever I want your pity Cause lately I've had to come to grips With scope and figure How my problems stack up in a world Two steps from ruin (Or maybe it's rapture) Well, either way, I realize that my shit's About as small as it could be But that makes me feel worse for even feeling This bad in the first place Cause there's a war starting soon, and all The flags'll be waving And Daniel's 20-year-old friend will be ready And willing, and waiting He's a Marine and he told me And that makes me sad Really, really fucking sad But at least he'll act I'll just bite my tongue and then say: "Daniel, you wish him luck" I pray that he comes back For his mother's sake, and then I'll drink Those thoughts away I've gotten good at that Cause when you realize it's a pattern And not a phase It's what you've become And it's what you will stay That's ballgame Oh oh oh Yeah when you realize it's a pattern And not a phase It's what you've become And it's what you will stay That's ballgame Yeah when you realize it's a pattern And not a phase It's what you've become And it's what you will stay That's ballgame
A good man doesn't drink, And I've been drinking alone. So what does that make me? My hands they always shake, And no one's callin' my phone. So what does that make me? I know the kid with his guitar so drunk and anxious, It's been done to death but tell me what hasn't, I'll try it. Because I'm selfish enough to want to get better, But I'm backwards enough not to take any steps to get there. And when you realize it's a pattern and not a phase, It's what you've become and it's what you will stay, That's the ballgame. 'Cause I don't got room in my life for anyone else. And I've driven away all the people that can help. And I still don't even know what I need to do to fix myself. There's a clamp around my chest that tightens every time I lapse into another sorry story, About my miserable collapse. A brown box I keep encased in glass and dust off whenever I want your pity. 'Cause lately I've had to come to grips with scope and figure. How my problems stack up in a world two steps from ruin, Or maybe it's rapture. Well either way I realize that my shits about as small as it could be, But that makes me feel worse for even feeling this bad in the first place. 'Cause there's a war starting soon and all the flags will be waving, Daniel's twenty year old friend will be ready, and willing, and waiting. He's a marine and he told me. And it makes me sad, really really fucking sad, But at least he'll act. I'll just bite my tongue and then say "Daniel you wish him luck, I'll pray that he comes back for mother's sake, " And then I'll drink those thoughts away, I've gotten good at that. 'Cause when you realize it's a pattern and not a phase, It's what you've become and it's what you will stay, That's the ballgame.
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"I'm selfish enough to wanna get better, but backwards enough not to take any steps to get there" - Everyone can relate to those lyrics. Kevin gets it. Favorite musician and lyricist, ever.
A friend of ours took his life a few years ago. We would play this.. with him..then without him. It means so much now. Memories of jumping into pools..destroying guitars and starting a few fires. That's all. Thank you.
I feel you girl. This song reminds me of my friend who passed too. Teaching me these chords with beers by the lake. Sing screaming like weirdos. Lots of love to you and your friend ❤️ memories are forever
A good man doesn't drink, but I've been drinking alone. So, what does that make me?
Listening to this song at 14 and again at 30 hits different
Listen to those lyrics, that passion, he's got a heart and a big one. Wise beyond the years.
Here in 2020 revisiting all my high school angst
So many people on the internet loves this music, I've yet to find a single friend who can get into it... what the fuck 😂
Each situation he mentions in the song. It hits you like a train. Example: The lines where he mentions "Daniel's friend" gearing up for war. Even being a vet, it's depressing. The next wave of youth being sent into harms way. The following lines nailing it. The feeling of expecting/watching it happen and the dealing with the situation.
Saw Kevin play this last night in az. He rocks ! Thank goodness he makes songs
ill never forget this song.
Don't feel bad for the one who chooses to fight. Envy their courage and loyalty.
I can relate to this song so much. Hopefully it touches other ppl who have dealt with substance abuse as much as it touched me
A good man doesn't drink
And I've been drinking alone
So what does that make me?
My hands they always shake
And no one's calling my phone
So what does that make me?
And I know the kid with his guitar
So drunk and anxious
Has been done to death
But tell me what hasn't
I'll try it
Because I'm selfish enough
To wanna get better
But I'm backwards enough
Not to take any steps to get there
And when you realize it's a pattern
And not a phase
It's what you've become
And it's what you will stay
That's ballgame
Cause I don't got room in my life
For anyone else
And I've driven away all the
People that could help
And I still don't even know what I
Need to do to fix myself
And there's a clamp around my chest
It tightens every time I lapse into
Another sorry story
About my miserable collapse
A bronze box I keep encased in glass
And dust off whenever I want your pity
Cause lately I've had to come to grips
With scope and figure
How my problems stack up in a world
Two steps from ruin
(Or maybe it's rapture)
Well, either way, I realize that my shit's
About as small as it could be
But that makes me feel worse for even feeling
This bad in the first place
Cause there's a war starting soon, and all
The flags'll be waving
And Daniel's 20-year-old friend will be ready
And willing, and waiting
He's a Marine and he told me
And that makes me sad
Really, really fucking sad
But at least he'll act
I'll just bite my tongue and then say:
"Daniel, you wish him luck"
I pray that he comes back
For his mother's sake, and then I'll drink
Those thoughts away
I've gotten good at that
Cause when you realize it's a pattern
And not a phase
It's what you've become
And it's what you will stay
That's ballgame
Oh oh oh
Yeah when you realize it's a pattern
And not a phase
It's what you've become
And it's what you will stay
That's ballgame
Yeah when you realize it's a pattern
And not a phase
It's what you've become
And it's what you will stay
That's ballgame
and when you realize it's a pattern and not a phase, it's what you've become and what you will stay
this song still fucks me up
me too.
on repeat for 2 months on my pc and in my head. Don't think there is a better song in the world by now.
So beautiful.
Only song from an (ex?)heroin addict that wrote s song where the lyrics just get it so perfectly. If you've been there or are there this song hits so close its unnerving. I know many other types of people can relate their problems or issues too but knowing his history its what speaks to me. Kevin was always way underrated and deserves to be so much bigger
ex cocaine addict and alcoholic, but everything else yes!
Theres an old Dan Mangan song called "reason to think aloud" that, at the time, in the midst of an opiate addiction, always felt lto me ike it was from a junkies perspective...and really encapsulated the despair. Probably a break up song, but boy it would hit home to me. "Now that the tvs gone, I see why you placed it there, weeks just keep rolling by, still look to see the glare, convince yourself not to care, hope strength might come along...its almost christmas, what do I do, where do I go, I dont wanna be alone, for all Ive said, what do I know."
Really just hit that despair.
Hah.. It's a weird feeling hearing everything about yourself that you don't wana hear in a song.
This reminds me EXACTLY of MY addiction... I once was "selfish enough to wanna get better, but backwards enough not to take any Steps to get there" Then I found some Steps, 12 of them which helped me tap into a Power Greater Then Myself... Good Orderly Direction... Thumbs up if your a "Friend of Bill's"
This song, man hearing him talk about it in person... Kevin is a good person. I hate it for all the others.
love this song always felt it is about me////////
If you like this, listen to Pinegrove.
I came here from a suggestion on a Pinegrove video
I understand that this guy is a local singer at best... but his lyrics are on another level. A good song is a good song. At the end of the day it doesn't matter if bob Dylan is singing or Micheal Jackson, a good song is a good song.
One thing that my favorite songwriting professor always stressed after three hour lectures of the guidelines
such a great insight into my own life
and it makes me sad really really fuckin sad! so ill drink my thoughts away, rest in peace hopes and dreams
why dont they have I JIZZED as a reaction??
Damn, I wish I could find the lyrics to this song. I can't make out some of the words he says in the middle-ish.
A good man doesn't drink
And I've been drinking alone
So what does that make me?
My hands they always shake
And no one's calling my phone
So what does that make me?
And I know the kid with his guitar
So drunk and anxious
Has been done to death
But tell me what hasn't
I'll try it
Because I'm selfish enough
To wanna get better
But I'm backwards enough
Not to take any steps to get there
And when you realize it's a pattern
And not a phase
It's what you've become
And it's what you will stay
That's ballgame
Cause I don't got room in my life
For anyone else
And I've driven away all the
People that could help
And I still don't even know what I
Need to do to fix myself
And there's a clamp around my chest
It tightens every time I lapse into
Another sorry story
About my miserable collapse
A bronze box I keep encased in glass
And dust off whenever I want your pity
Cause lately I've had to come to grips
With scope and figure
How my problems stack up in a world
Two steps from ruin
(Or maybe it's rapture)
Well, either way, I realize that my shit's
About as small as it could be
But that makes me feel worse for even feeling
This bad in the first place
Cause there's a war starting soon, and all
The flags'll be waving
And Daniel's 20-year-old friend will be ready
And willing, and waiting
He's a Marine and he told me
And that makes me sad
Really, really fucking sad
But at least he'll act
I'll just bite my tongue and then say:
"Daniel, you wish him luck"
I pray that he comes back
For his mother's sake, and then I'll drink
Those thoughts away
I've gotten good at that
Cause when you realize it's a pattern
And not a phase
It's what you've become
And it's what you will stay
That's ballgame
Oh oh oh
Yeah when you realize it's a pattern
And not a phase
It's what you've become
And it's what you will stay
That's ballgame
Yeah when you realize it's a pattern
And not a phase
It's what you've become
And it's what you will stay
That's ballgame
My boyfriend just showed me this ABSOLUTE GEM
I love the screamin, I really do.
Unreal
Jeremy Sachs too real
Make this available to play on mobile!
I can hear them quite cleary
I guess the 15 people that thumbed down are deaf
Kinda defines my life perfectly ATM..
Same here. Too well.
Ass to mouth?....wow. tmi
+Dara Solomon Kinda devines mine too
This hits like a tonne of bricks compared to the new stuff
merry christmas leighann
A good man doesn't drink,
And I've been drinking alone.
So what does that make me?
My hands they always shake,
And no one's callin' my phone.
So what does that make me?
I know the kid with his guitar so drunk and anxious,
It's been done to death but tell me what hasn't, I'll try it.
Because I'm selfish enough to want to get better,
But I'm backwards enough not to take any steps to get there.
And when you realize it's a pattern and not a phase,
It's what you've become and it's what you will stay,
That's the ballgame.
'Cause I don't got room in my life for anyone else.
And I've driven away all the people that can help.
And I still don't even know what I need to do to fix myself.
There's a clamp around my chest that tightens every time I lapse into another sorry story,
About my miserable collapse.
A brown box I keep encased in glass and dust off whenever I want your pity.
'Cause lately I've had to come to grips with scope and figure.
How my problems stack up in a world two steps from ruin,
Or maybe it's rapture.
Well either way I realize that my shits about as small as it could be,
But that makes me feel worse for even feeling this bad in the first place.
'Cause there's a war starting soon and all the flags will be waving,
Daniel's twenty year old friend will be ready, and willing, and waiting.
He's a marine and he told me.
And it makes me sad, really really fucking sad,
But at least he'll act.
I'll just bite my tongue and then say
"Daniel you wish him luck, I'll pray that he comes back for mother's sake, "
And then I'll drink those thoughts away,
I've gotten good at that.
'Cause when you realize it's a pattern and not a phase,
It's what you've become and it's what you will stay,
That's the ballgame.
Give me a time and I can try to tell you
cause i'm selfish enough to wanna get better, but backwards enough not to take any steps to get there.
Ballgame.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
why my man look like a wannabe anime creator's art
i used to be obessed with this song but im older now and it honestly seems whiny and weak willed
Boooo, bad take.
Boo indeed.
To each his own