Yes! Keep going, it’s soo worth it, still hard but I can’t go back now. You can do anything in your recovery, I hope to hear more from you as you go along💜
I just listened to every minute of this, and wanted to wait until the end to comment. I don’t know you, but I am so glad you got sober. I am so glad you’re still here. And I am so incredibly thankful you shared this story. I found your channel last year sometime, I’m sure it was magically suggested to me by the algorithm gods. I’m not normally much of a commenter, but I thought you are a fantastic storyteller and I appreciated your channel. Today, though, I have to comment because you just touched my heart and I want you to to know that I am invested in this story and can’t wait to hear the end. My little brother was an iv meth user for over 15 years. We were also from a small town, but from a prominent family. Everyone in town knew him, he’d go into meth induced psychosis and be found talking to traffic lights, or call me terrified that there were demons coming through the vents. He was in and out of jail and rehab every 6 months or so for over a decade. In between, he’d go back to live with my parents, who were convinced the only solution was Jesus. When things would get too crazy, they alternated between sticking him in Christian rehabs or kicking him out. At one point, when he was fresh out of jail, and clean, I took him into the house with my own family, gave him a place to stay. My husband got him a good job. It was all good, until he fell off the rails again, hard. This time he put me in fear for my children’s lives, and I put him in jail. Within 6 months, I’d moved a state away without leaving a forwarding address. I cut off contact with my family because it was the best and only solution I could see to be able to raise my kids in a safe and healthy environment. There’s 4 decades of trauma and abuse to unpack there, so I won’t go into all that here. But I’d do it again in a heartbeat, because it was absolutely for the best for all of us. Shortly after we moved, I got word that my brother had gotten out of jail early and was back living with our parents. Shortly after that, I heard he was back on drugs. (Small town gossip still persists even 400 miles away!) A year or so after that, in 2022, I got the phone call that he had ended his own life. I never called. I couldn’t reinsert myself and my kids into that chaos. My parents never called me, they didn’t even give him a funeral. They didn’t write him an obituary. It has been over 5 years since I have spoken to either of my parents, and everything about my brothers death is still a mystery to me. They were the only other ones there at the time, so I’ll probably never know what truly happened, and I have had to learn to be okay with that. I still have a whole lot of feelings about all of it, which therapy helped tremendously with. More than anything, I wish that I-or anyone else-would have been there to take the gun away the way your boyfriend pulled you off the tracks. On the other hand, I’m not sure he would ever have gotten sober. I know he lived in a mental hell, so much of what you just described reminded me so much of him. I said all that to say this-I am SO THANKFUL that you are sharing your story. Regardless of what I had to do to protect myself and my family, I never stopped loving my brother. I will never get to know what a life with him sober and happy in it would have looked like, but it gives me so much happiness to know that someone with such a similar story-seriously, a few of the parallels moved me to tears-has come out the other side and stayed there for nearly a decade. I’m just a stranger on the internet, but know that I am SO PROUD of you!!! Congratulations on your sobriety, and thank you so much for sharing on this platform! I’ve thought about making videos about my story, but so far haven’t had the courage. I can’t wait to hear the rest of your story!
Hi Autumn (I hope it’s ok to call you that, random internet stranger felt too impersonal in this context) hearing from you and you sharing part of your story truly moved me tonight. I get what you mean about not being a commenter and knowing that made you opening up like this all the more special. First I want to say I am deeply sorry for your family’s tragic loss of losing your brother. I admire your tenacity in fighting against family patterns you didn’t want to continue or for your kids to be exposed to; that had to be hard. I feel sooo humbled you had such a heartfelt connection to this video, part of my story. I appreciate you, you’re probably in the less than 1% who watches the full message, that means a lot because it’s so rare. Thank you for sharing, opening your heart, being so encouraging. I hope whatever you feel pulled to do whether it’s writing a book, blog, YT channel, local group, whatever it is that you DO it because I can tell by your spirit it would make such an incredible impact that only YOU can make💜💜💜talk to ya later & thanks for the reminder I do need to make the companion video for this one😊
@@giftedafflicted Thank you so much for that kind response! I appreciate everything you said so much. You’re truly an inspiration and I’m so grateful that I came across your channel. ❤️
Heavy, thanks for sharing
Thanks for being here✌🏼
This was a tough one. But I wanna say thank you for sharing. You stories inspire me to remain sober.
Yes! Keep going, it’s soo worth it, still hard but I can’t go back now. You can do anything in your recovery, I hope to hear more from you as you go along💜
I just listened to every minute of this, and wanted to wait until the end to comment. I don’t know you, but I am so glad you got sober. I am so glad you’re still here. And I am so incredibly thankful you shared this story. I found your channel last year sometime, I’m sure it was magically suggested to me by the algorithm gods. I’m not normally much of a commenter, but I thought you are a fantastic storyteller and I appreciated your channel. Today, though, I have to comment because you just touched my heart and I want you to to know that I am invested in this story and can’t wait to hear the end.
My little brother was an iv meth user for over 15 years. We were also from a small town, but from a prominent family. Everyone in town knew him, he’d go into meth induced psychosis and be found talking to traffic lights, or call me terrified that there were demons coming through the vents. He was in and out of jail and rehab every 6 months or so for over a decade. In between, he’d go back to live with my parents, who were convinced the only solution was Jesus. When things would get too crazy, they alternated between sticking him in Christian rehabs or kicking him out.
At one point, when he was fresh out of jail, and clean, I took him into the house with my own family, gave him a place to stay. My husband got him a good job. It was all good, until he fell off the rails again, hard. This time he put me in fear for my children’s lives, and I put him in jail. Within 6 months, I’d moved a state away without leaving a forwarding address. I cut off contact with my family because it was the best and only solution I could see to be able to raise my kids in a safe and healthy environment. There’s 4 decades of trauma and abuse to unpack there, so I won’t go into all that here. But I’d do it again in a heartbeat, because it was absolutely for the best for all of us.
Shortly after we moved, I got word that my brother had gotten out of jail early and was back living with our parents. Shortly after that, I heard he was back on drugs. (Small town gossip still persists even 400 miles away!) A year or so after that, in 2022, I got the phone call that he had ended his own life. I never called. I couldn’t reinsert myself and my kids into that chaos. My parents never called me, they didn’t even give him a funeral. They didn’t write him an obituary. It has been over 5 years since I have spoken to either of my parents, and everything about my brothers death is still a mystery to me. They were the only other ones there at the time, so I’ll probably never know what truly happened, and I have had to learn to be okay with that. I still have a whole lot of feelings about all of it, which therapy helped tremendously with. More than anything, I wish that I-or anyone else-would have been there to take the gun away the way your boyfriend pulled you off the tracks. On the other hand, I’m not sure he would ever have gotten sober. I know he lived in a mental hell, so much of what you just described reminded me so much of him.
I said all that to say this-I am SO THANKFUL that you are sharing your story. Regardless of what I had to do to protect myself and my family, I never stopped loving my brother. I will never get to know what a life with him sober and happy in it would have looked like, but it gives me so much happiness to know that someone with such a similar story-seriously, a few of the parallels moved me to tears-has come out the other side and stayed there for nearly a decade. I’m just a stranger on the internet, but know that I am SO PROUD of you!!! Congratulations on your sobriety, and thank you so much for sharing on this platform! I’ve thought about making videos about my story, but so far haven’t had the courage. I can’t wait to hear the rest of your story!
Hi Autumn (I hope it’s ok to call you that, random internet stranger felt too impersonal in this context) hearing from you and you sharing part of your story truly moved me tonight. I get what you mean about not being a commenter and knowing that made you opening up like this all the more special. First I want to say I am deeply sorry for your family’s tragic loss of losing your brother. I admire your tenacity in fighting against family patterns you didn’t want to continue or for your kids to be exposed to; that had to be hard. I feel sooo humbled you had such a heartfelt connection to this video, part of my story. I appreciate you, you’re probably in the less than 1% who watches the full message, that means a lot because it’s so rare. Thank you for sharing, opening your heart, being so encouraging. I hope whatever you feel pulled to do whether it’s writing a book, blog, YT channel, local group, whatever it is that you DO it because I can tell by your spirit it would make such an incredible impact that only YOU can make💜💜💜talk to ya later & thanks for the reminder I do need to make the companion video for this one😊
@@giftedafflicted Thank you so much for that kind response! I appreciate everything you said so much. You’re truly an inspiration and I’m so grateful that I came across your channel. ❤️