Trick interview-Sang
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- Опубліковано 26 вер 2024
- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of sang, a trick in South Central LA and Skid Row.
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He passed away on skid row, funeral was on 8/5/23 - a dozen of his friends from high school attended his funeral. May he finally rest in peace...
Where are you getting this info from? A lot of you just make shit up for likes. Lets get the info.
Is this true? I hope his passing wasn't from homicide 😿
source?
Is this true?😢
How sad. He didn't look or sound like he lived a life as a junkie, especially on skid row. Sad...just.......sad
I was his wife for over 20 years I disconnected myself from him and his family since i was divorced. That was only way to save myself and my kids. I am still going through lots of sadness, anger, loving memories about him. I hope he is heaven with no pain.
I’m very sorry for your loss!
I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for being brave enough to share this with us. I think you did the right thing despite how much it must of hurt to let someone you love go. I can only imagine how much pain you’ve experienced. If you’d like to grab some coffee sometime, let me know and I’ll share my email. Stay strong.
Did he pass away??? 😢 im sorry for your loss
I am sorry.....
I’m sorry for your loss and I’m sorry for your struggles. I hope you and your children are OK.
“I don’t regret the missed opportunities… I regret hurting people.” - sang. The most honest and self aware.
I regret both. I definitely regret hurting people more though. I’m sure a lot of people have forgotten about me, but I will never forget the few people I’ve hurt.
Makes perfect sense. He was highly successful in his academic career, was married, had kids. Drugs didn't keep him from that...but when he started going down a selfish path is when it went from the drugs not just hurting himself, but everything around him and that's the part he regrets. Definitely highly self aware at least. He was looking for something to fill the void of monotony and couldn't find fulfillment and thought drugs were the answer, but found it to be completely the opposite after he was already down that dark path. Hope he finds what he's looking for.
This was a very thoughtful and honest interview. This line especially jumped out at me, and also the bit that followed about how drugs slowly replace the self with emptiness. He seems self-aware and intelligent enough to pull himself out if he wants, but he also said that he's in search of peace and quiet and wouldn't mind dying, so maybe he's exactly where he wants to be.
💯
Yeah that’s how most humans work.
I'm continually impressed by the bravery and honesty of these interviewees.
Then you don’t understand the human ego
@@dcul8812 I dunno. I was pretty sure that someone overly impressed with themselves would eventually need to stroke their ego by saying something like that.
People love to talk about themselves
@@taylorlibby7642 well you’re 0 for 2 then
@@dcul8812 Learn to keep score. With you doubling down I'm 2 for 2.
I get this guy. I am also plagued by a feeling that there's something missing and I run after it. I also am educated, with a good job, and a family, but I don't always feel connected. I often want to be alone and I suffer from depression and anxiety. People think I'm always productive, but it's because I feel like I have to justify my existence.
Hope your ok
I understand you 100%.
No matter what you achieve you will feel like it's not enough. It's the foundation of anxiety.
@Don Melado,
I wish you joy , happiness and eternal peace. 💖
Please do not be to hard on yourself, based on your comment, you seem like a wonderful person.
I pray to God Almighty , the God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob, that you find your sense of purpose and emotional healing.
You will find your way. Take it one day at a time.
I think America leaves people empty. The emphasis on achievement and things leaves people hollow. I left America and live in a member to member society, where relationships with other human beings is the focus. Family is everything, and your community is very interconnected. America with the individual and $$ being everything, is empty. It's not a country with much humanity.
@@lf1496 This is so true.
“I don’t know what I’m running from but I have to run some days… I still don’t know what it is that I’m running from, and I feel like if I don’t find out soon it’s gonna kill me. That would be okay too though, at least I’ll have total silence.”
I started tearing up because I’ve never related to something so much from anyone on this channel. Thank you for your insightful thoughts Sang.
Whatever you are going through. I hope u make it through.
So beyond true.
This, I absolutely relate to. Whatever we portray on the outside is almost never what we are on the inside. I know Ive been running for a while, but have yet to feel Im getting closer to Whatever the destination is.
Aa 4 me, unable(uninformed)/unwilling to face my past equalled a feeling of running. Feelings can be strong enuf to control us.....this is why we need other humans and a culture......to watch and question us, and give us stability. Essential.
Me too
I’ve never seen anyone be able to critique themselves in such a 3rd party way. He is very self aware and able to take out any bias which is extremely rare amongst people
You would love me lol
@@113charlie7 doubt it
Have you Spoken to many addicts? For real? Like ask them their story you’d be surprised how self aware they are.
Very well said.
I have the same trait. It's a desire to be honest about everything because I see gain and rightousness in being honest, even about myself.
“The little emptiness you had will grow into a vast emptiness”. He’s so honest!! And I think I could talk to him all day. So philosophical, level headed and smart. Best of luck to you Sang
best wishes Sang. you are the prize.
I wrote it down as well, including, "Crack does not fill the spot. It basically replaces you with emptiness...[So the little emptiness you had, grows into a vast emptiness wherein, you will never see you, no more.]"
Borderline Personality Disorder: "chronic feelings of emptiness", "substance abuse"
I can't imagine the amount of shame you get from being with a prostitute. The post-nut clarity must be profound. I think the only scenario where I'd use a prostitute would be if we were the last humans alive in an apocalypse and it's my final chance to fuck lol. Then I might consider it.
I already get a weird shame/anxious/empty feeling when I can't fully satisfy my girlfriend who I'm very comfortable with (like the vibrator dies or some shit). So just the idea of using a girl for her body and her not getting any pleasure the entire time just kills my soul
@@moondog7694 This is a joke right? You just described like 80% of mental illnesses that exist 😂🤦♂️ You need at least 5-10 symptoms to even get close to being able to diagnose someone 2 is literally nothing.
Damn he was my professor. It’s real sad to see him down bad. Honestly he was really nice. I never knew he was going through it at the time he was teaching our labs.
Where was he teaching?
Y'all lets respect this man and let him keep his job
youre a liar
Wow thats crazy!
@@Roger-tv7sf why do you want that
I could listen to Sang talk for hours. He had a very soothing voice.
Of all the interviews I've watched on this channel, Sang had the greatest fall from grace. Went from being a college professor with a PhD, working at IBM, and having a loving wife and two children to smoking crack, tricking, and living on Skid Row. Fascinating but unfortunate
No one is infallible.
Said he started smoking crack back in 89. So that was well before he even got married and had children.
@@dre3k78 it ultimately took everything from him.
He's tired of living the SIM family life
The accomplishments are not a measure of real success. They are just a series of meaningless hoops one jumps through to impress others.
Real success is spiritual, not material.
It doesn't matter how much money you make, what you own, or status you hold. It only matters what you have done to yourself and others. Have you left this world better or worse than you found it?
One of the most interesting people he’s interviewed by far
agree
Rest in Peace Sang! Amazingly insightful, honest and self aware. So brilliant and yet so very sad.
Amen..
He articulated what an addict is soo well. I’m so intrigued by his outlook. So profound.
I almost skipped this because of the subject. I'm so glad I didn't. What an amazing man with an amazing story. The insight is so deep. Ty mark. I learn something from your channel every video.
Questuon.. So a trick is basically a "goody goody squarehead nerdy geeky good guy", seeking sex and paying for it? They are squareheads that have no criminal connections such as a connect to buy from weed cocaine?
Cos i grew up being a bad boy and subsequently a "gangster and living the 0-100 hardcore life" when i was 16-25... im 27 now, still have connections but ive always been working a 9-5 job, living a double life. Sometimes i would go pay for sex (even during when i had a girlfriend/relationships). . . So im not a trick right? I dont quite understand rhat word and definition of it. But i do have a good idea of what it means.
Lol thanks!
@@Jason.cbr1000rr it's not for everyone. You can be good inside and foul outside. Don't forget he mentioned how many people he's hurt along the way. Threw away marriage kids and $. He's in therapy and clawing himself or not out of a horrible situation. He doesn't have anything anymore. U have to decide if you want to sacrifice everything as well:(
@@Jason.cbr1000rr doesn't mean you're a square or don't have any connections for drugs....trick is simply anyone that pays for sex
@@DesperadoDufel oh ok now i know. Is it a bad thing? Say for people in the mid to late 20s. One says they just paid for it. And hes friends will laugh at him and say oh you cant pick up etc..?
@@WileE.CoyoteSuperGenius i hope so, otherwise everything happens for a reason, our paths and life is set already (imo) and whatever happens is supposed to be.
The man is unapologetically honest, and I respect it. Life is what it is
1:40 - I try not to judge people
2:20 - Understanding of humans
3:30 - Ph.D. Holder
4:20 - Pressure. Asian Culture
5:20 - Married for 23 years
5:40 - Picking up girls
6:40 - Going through 2, 3 girls a day
7:00 - Expressing instability
7:20 - I don't believe in love
8:10 - Responsible anger
9:10 - Stress vicious circle
10:00 - A past life knowing
10:40 - Understanding of want & need
12:00 - Constraint. The need for rules
12:40 - Drug history & Ecstacy
13:40 - Running from yourself.
14:10 - Always working. The need to learn constantly keeps the mind active
15:10 - "I have to run" "After all the therapist hours, I still don't know what it is that I'm running from"
15:40 - Going through schooling while using drugs
18:00 - $800 - $1000 a night. Income
18:50 - How often do you pick up
19:40 - Acting skills that wows him. Lies a huge turn off
21:50 - "When the hustle comes to an end, the tools have to be put down"
22:00 - "I don't think she knows who she is" "Shes put on too many masks"
22:20 - The End of the Marriage.
22:30 - Pursuit of knowledge keeping him sane
23:40 - Functional addict?
24:20 - Facade of addiction.
25:00 - Try covering up, but the darkness will be there.
25:20 - Regret getting into drugs?
25:40 - I would have hurt less people
26:10 - "What seems to be... If it sounds too good to be true, it probably isn't true"
26:40 - The void only Christ can fill
27:20 - Drugs is never the answer
Thanks - am so glad to have these chapters! You spent time :)
You must be a virgo
Great summation! You should get paid for these. So many videos and not enough time to watch…such detailed summaries mean more people watch at least parts of a video that they would likely have passed over entirely before.
I'm an astrologer and that never occurred to me. I just saw it as super helpful and thoughtful. If that's Virgo, then I have a newfound appreciation!
@Sierra Hutton You're welcome
This guy is rare in his honesty and his intelligence. I found his testimony fascinating and I relate strongly to what he has shared. His observations about how he is both appalled and fascinated by the girls' acting abilities was very insightful. He is living fully, deeply and fearlessly. I admire his thirst for knowledge in general and knowledge of self. Sang is a compelling character with much integrity. I wish him the best.
He is not living "fully."
I'm not sure why you are saying his intelligence is rare. Would you like to expound a bit on that?
He’s also rare in being Asian-American & on this channel. Something I noticed a while back.
....are you in love with him?😑
This man owned crack. It may seem like it but crack did not own him. This man is a shark, not a human (because of the old school Korean cultural influence as well) so crack gave him his gills to breathe in this world. Thats an insane level of sane.
- Korean American Baltimore, Maryland
This is a human, in all its multicolored beauty.
Thank you Sang.
Im not sure why.. but this gentleman made me cry.
I hope he finds what brings him back to happiness
He is super intelligent and philosophical, yet he seems to be lost without a real purpose. Its really sad.
I don't think he's ever had happiness, from a lifetime of being driven to meet goals
@@BelleTolles You've missed his point. It has nothing to do with others but himself.
He's dead. Passed away last year
He passed away 10 months ago
I loved his authenticity ...He dropped many nuggets of wisdom. "You have to have lines or you're just an animal" His description of life through experience was touching. His was raw and open in sharing while baring his imperfections and errors which just made him relatable and connectable. He took ACCOUNTABILITY for a lot of things that went on in his life and did not make excuses or play the victim card. He touched on culture demands and expectations. It was even more intriguing learning about his impressive education background and positions held in his previous career. We are all human no matter the education or money we possess we all have fears, demons and go through things that can alter our trajectory in life good or bad. I would be interested in a FOLLOW UP interview.
I second that!! I’d love a follow up
I third that!
Marjay marjay dayum chocolate you bomb af
Yall are weird af. The man grew up privileged and partied hard like any other rich white professional dude. I feel yall are doing the most cause hes asian an plainly dressed.
@@disneytoysr4fun975 Now you’re being prejudicial because he’s asian and educated. If he was behind the curtain and we didn’t know what he was I would still be impressed regardless of his race and background.
As an Asian I appreciate these stories because it helps show that we don’t all fit the same stereotypical mold society puts us in.
His life outside of the drugs is literally the exact Asian stereotype.
This might sound glib, but the most un-Asian/stereotype-breaking thing about him might actually be that he’s still alive and hasn’t commited suicide. Given the spot he’s at and given how many in Asian culture seem to do so over much less (self-perceived failure and dishonor). Now, suicide isn’t uniquely Asian. Far from it. That said, those self-perceived levels of failure tend to be academic performance or career-related and have inspired the installation of suicide nets at tall schools and business buildings, and “The Suicide Forest” is a known cultural element in the zeitgeist, like it or not. Now, whether that’s exaggerated or not, and whether it’s more of a Japan thing than China or in Sang’s case, South Korea, I don’t know. With so much family and peer shame that likely leads to such an epidemic, though, I find it amazing that he’s alive.
It doesn't need to be said because people are already saying it to you.
However, what isn't being said is that there's a moral mold that we should all adhere to for the sake of society. We all know what that is. Don't steal, cheat, lie, or harm. Do contribute, be kind, compassionate, and sympathetic.
Most people break these rules willingly and without remorse. To such a degree that we develop pathologies that protect us from scrutiny. Religion was the great equalizer in that they recognize their conscience as God. We don't do this today. What was a half measure has now become no measure whatsoever.
Ie, people like yourself embellish and overcompensate for the fact that you are a minority. It's selfish and predatory behavior. There are impoverished white people throughout the South who are criticized, demonized, and outcast due to their status and belief in this society. You are not special. None of us are. Good and bad coexist within all of us. You shouldn't blame others for your insecurities as a human being. Seek out the kind and compassionate people in the world. Be that yourself. I mean, really be that. Don't act the part. Believe in it.
Start by referring to yourself as a human instead of an Asian. Because the the flaw in your thinking lies within that alone.
There are stereotypes for all people. And with Koreans it's mostly positive stereotypes like them being smart, sucessful and working hard, just like Japanese. So I don't see the problem :P
@@LordOfSweden I'm not asian but i imagine that being put into a mold, even if it is positive takes away from your human indiviality. Also not all are positive. Ppl say their all nerdy and boring saying mean things about their private parts so yeah lol
As a former high-functioning workaholic and opiate addict, I could really relate to a lot of things Sang was saying. How it was either one or the other: work/school or drugs, and I was using both to run from something. How sometimes you don't actually need the drug- you aren't physically dependent but you're mentally tied down. How some people want to use because they just need something to take themselves out of their bodies, to escape their horrible internal reality for a little, and continue to use because when they "come to" (sober up) they can't stand who they are as a person or their history or what their life is now. Loving to learn because it takes you out of reality. Sometimes you have so much trauma that being alone with your thoughts can feel like you're suffocating. You become desperate to distract yourself with anything that can get your brain to focus on something else.
I feel like high functioning addiction is something more common than we think but not many people know about it. People have this concept that a drug addict is lazy, stupid, ignorant, unmotivated, low-achieving- but I feel its a myth more than half the time. At the height of my addiction, when I was taking overdose levels of oxycodone everyday, I graduated from a top university undergrad program with summa cum laude, two years early. Nobody knew a thing because I was achieving and was so careful to hide it, I held two jobs while maintaining my GPA and had job offers lined up after graduation. I kept justifying my habits were fine because I was doing so great in terms of achievements. Being high functioning was a double edged sword because its never forever. Your drug of choice will win the fight eventually and someday the scales just tip on you.
After losing a friend to overdose and nearly ODing myself, I went to rehab. I have been doing okay since. Been clean for over 2 years now, but its for sure a daily battle. I hope Sang can get out of it.
Good on ya doll! Hope you keep going ;)
I feel you. I've worked in the trades with many high functioning addicts. Mostly alcohol, opiates, meth and cocaine. For myself it was the Frickin Oxy's back when they were cheap and plentiful. I developed a daily habit for years all whilst working and raising a family. I hate thinking about it now though. Hundreds of thousands of dollars down the drain that should have went towards my kids future. But your right, many addicts can keep up appearances in polite society and everyone thinks they are just normal tax paying citizens.
@@outdoorloser4340 some are saying Alex Murdaugh could not have been doing that many pills for that many years without people knowing. So you think he could have been high functioning and hiding it?
@@outdoorloser4340I also hate thinking about all the wasted money and time..that part is the part that's the worst for me.
Good for you! I'd venture to say that the vast majority are addicts of some sort whether it be nicotine, caffeine, social media, sugar, mmj, work, alcohol etc. Ive been self medicating since I was 13 and only recently realized how much of an addict I've been since. I graduated at 15, worked 2 jobs while paying for college, had kids, bought a house etc and bc I've lived a seemingly normal life(from the outside), it took me 20 years to realize that I'm an addict and it's a problem. I don't ever use a lot of any 1 drug, it's just that I'm always constantly looking to just take the edge off my current reality and by the end of the day, I'll realize I've used up to 10 different drugs. They may be very small doses, but it's wild how often I go searching outside of myself to numb myself from reality.
This man’s honesty was really humbling. I’ve never struggled with drug addiction but my husband has and he’s always said the same thing: you abuse substances to cover up whatever pain you’re feeling but then you’ve ended up with a worse problem (drugs) and the problems you were trying to cover up are still there.😔
Serious question: How was his honesty “humbling” to you? People say this a lot and it’s hard to understand what is meant.
@@asynchronicity in other words, “his honesty about such significant problems shows how fragile my ego is because I can’t even be honest about much smaller things”. Therefore I am humbled because I realize I have such a big ego and therefore need to be more humbled
@@SolarTideVibes yep! That’s exactly right. Perfectly said
So true
So when we come to that point it's the Merry Go Round that we CHOOSE not to leap from. I made a conscious decision to get off that ride by self reprogramming my subconscious mind...what an amazing experience. Reach for it my addictive brothers and sisters it's tangible. 💪🏾
I have been a fan of this channel for a couple years now, watched almost every video. This was the only one I have watched twice, very profound. Thank you Sang for sharing your story. I hope you can get clean from Crack and fill up the emptiness and find true happiness. You deserve happiness and peace.
Yeah I definitely watched it twice my man had some gems
What a shame to lose someone like this. You can hear his brilliance. Under different circumstances he would of made a great teacher/mentor…
Wow, this is probably the best interview of this channel…
Probably most honest interview I saw in this channel, No BS, no personal grandiose facade , no fake emotions just what is is.
Yes
Wow. What an articulate and deep thinker this man is. He is as sharp as a blade! I’m blown away by his self awareness and ability to self critique so objectively. This interview had me glued to the screen. I respect Sang and his words of wisdom. He is a man who can pass on invaluable advice to so many of us.
I feel exactly the same after watching
Yes, but it concerns me when people are that clear. He could be high on crack here ,or on a manic high .
He's a con man. The fact that anything this man said passed as wisdom proves you're foolish. This man is a slave to his selfishness. Wisdom? Really? Jesus Christ.
Hey Sang I do the exact same work (IT contact platform work field nation , work market, etc) and I'm also a recovering addict (crack and heroin). I can relate so much with what you shared. I was also married 20 years from 96' and then we split in 2016 over drugs. Thank you for sharing and I pray that you find your peace my brother 🙏
Programming is very hard on the mind. , because you can't shut it off. You find yourself coding and debugging in your sleep. I can only program for a month at a time, and it starts making me depressed. I could never do it as a full time job .
Sang seems like a very genuine dude who knows he’s got issues but an all around good guy. Thanks for your story!
I just think he talks a good game.
@@disneytoysr4fun975 yeah some of the things he said about the prostitutes was scary and really bordering on mental illness. He spoke with clarity about a lot of things but when it came to his “hobby” there’s really something going on.
This man was PRECIOUS 🥺 I’m only 9 minutes in but I am moved by what he has said so far. May you RIP SANG🦋
Precious? He admitted to being angry towards sex workers he hired after the fact, and how he had to restrain himself from directing his anger at them. He alluded to wanting to physically hurt them.
What happened to him? He passed away?
@@holligoodrich3474I’m guessing you watched like 2 minutes of of a 25 minute interview
@@holligoodrich3474 so you just cherrypick the parts that infuriate you and ignore everything else?
This man is so lucid. "i stayed up 9 days smoking crack, working on my PhD." What a person....
Shame he died last year may 😢. God bless his family ❤
@SagalDuran shut up
@@jimmycricketlopez2746 ???
@@jimmycricketlopez2746are you mental ?
This is by far one of my favourite interviews, Mark, thank you for asking all the right questions and for giving anyone and everyone a chance to speak. Sang's words truly reached deep.
Gripping. Especially the poignant conclusion when he describes the emptiness of drug addiction. The sadness and regret in his eyes touched me. I would love to watch a follow-up interview.
He regrets hurting people most of all. What a soul. ❤
I think the realization & extreme guilt over how much hurt and pain addicts have cause to others is something they want to escape from… so they continue to use so they don’t have to think about what they’ve done… and being sober means being conscious of what they’ve chosen to do. Many times the negative impact that addicts have done (especially to the people who loved them) come with irreparable consequences.
I really admire his honesty and self awareness. He's an interesting and intelligent man.
One of the best description of addiction I have heard in a long time. His honesty is heart warming and bitter sweet.
This was a deep conversation with a strong message. We are all human and we all bleed the same. Thank you for sharing your story, Sang.
Yes we generally bleed the same blood but also important to note (for treatment purposes not for minimizing someone’s experience/pain regarding their bleeding etc. ) that we do not bleed the same type of blood nor have similar opportunities for bandages, transfusions, donations etc.
@@moriah1394this fucking guy
One the best interviews, Mark. I could listen to Sang's insights and perceptions on things all day. There's no faking and over dramatising with his narrative. Just pure honesty. What I mostly like about Sang is that he is not trying to impress anyone or put blame, play victim or get sympathy, anything of that sort. Just his genuine story and his realization. Sang is very well spoken too.
Hope we get an update about Sang. Or just another interview. I'm sure this man have wisdom that a lot of people can learn.
What he shares about his life and addiction, in general, is undeniably profound.
I have been following this channel for awhile, without any doubt Sang is the brightest mind - he is able to articulate his testimony so personally. I wish you well Sang, you have a good heart when you said your only regret is to not hurt so many people (presumably your family)
22:40 😂😂😂😂😂😂 I tried to hold on to the marriage AND the crack 😅
One of my favourites, Sang had me hanging on every word. There’s a deep wisdom here completely free from the delusions of an overbearing ego that most of the others have. The irony of designating him a mere trick. I would love to hear more from this humble, insightful man
Excellent interview. I appreciate the Asian American representation. It is so fascinating when you consider the “model minority” stereotype of Asian cultures, it is so deeply ingrained and this interview shows that pain, trauma, isolation, worthlessness, does not discriminate. He was able to do full time work and school and obtain a PHD all while using crack, which is absolutely unbelievable to me, but all while deeply struggling with an addiction, losing his family, hurting others, and losing himself. Just fascinating and heartbreaking.
Out of everything, you’re focused on the representation of drug addicts? Jesus
I don’t think he obtained a phd. He said he “snapped” while he was a student.
Not really, if you went to college, in lower levels students use aderral so I can believe that harder drugs are also used esp in higher education where the pressure is way worse. Also lawyers and doctors surgeons use
One of NASA 's employees was a crack admitted crack user
Comedian and actor Bobby Lee is of Korean descent, he also has fought addiction and is living proof that these issues can be overcome…not easy but surely possible! This beings story is not finished- there is always hope for the future as long as you’re here to keep trying.✨👍🏽🙂💜
I absolutely love seeing asian interviewees on this channel! My family is from Korea so I am especially moved when there are asian immigrants on camera! It goes against cultural values to be open about your problems, and to be open about such taboo subjects is a bravery that a lot of non asian's usually don't quite grasp due to lack of lived experience within asian culture.
Is this the first asian male interview?!?!?!? I especially love hearing from the asian male perspective. The few Korean men in my family were either dead or stayed behind in Korea before I was born and there were so few asians in my community growing up that I barely knew any asian men and definitely never had an asian male role model.
The diversity in these posts are so vast that they really hit each and every one of us close to the heart in our own unique ways.
Very common. Korean guys paying hookers for sucking jock. Even more typical is the Korean girls sucking jock in Asian Spa Massage. It's cultural.
he is so aware, this interview was great. i appreciate how vulnerable and open he was, it’s not often you see an asian (especially a older korean man) person speak in this way and share their real life struggles.
This interview was so deep and calm. If that makes sense. Loved it.
I was just going to say the same: deep & calm 🙏🏼🙏🏼
Probably the best video on this channel. I hope this man’s thorough understanding of his addiction leads him to better times.
Please do a followup on Sang. There's so much wisdom and clarity in what he says, and I truly feel for him and hope he finds his peace someday and can truly enjoy life.
he died.
@@Trump4prisonxxx source?
@@justayoutuber1906It was on the comment section. 8/5/23 is the funeral the wife also commented
@@NeeylujReal Source Please. Someone else said that he's still alive.
@@jeanmeullionclinkscale6540 his ex-wife literally said he died.
Damn… I really enjoyed listening to him . He was so genuine 😮💨
I love listening to Sang!! He is very interesting and wise! I wanted to hear more from him.
Agreed. Love to hear more
Damn, i can relate about mom not having had a chance to visit disneyland. My korean immigrant mother finally went to disneyland at 71 this past year. It wasnt even about having fun there. It was more about finally having "leisure" after decades of non-stop and grueling demeaning work to provide for your children in a foreign and antagonistic society.
Leisure was foreign to much of humanity for much of history and in all “Old World Countries” lack of leisure lingers and also in US. While Disneyland may be a rather sad impersonal commercialized goal for leisure it is a baby step perhaps and one that gives adults permission for what they did not have in childhood…the bigger the headache the bigger the pill. DIsneyland can also be an addiction. Leisure such as gardening, cooking, reading, art etc. etc. are far less passive, consume less resources and are likely healthier and US says its OK at DIsneyland and we see others doing it etc. so it is far less scary more compartmentalized and communal than many other forms of leisure .
Most immigrant parents that worked hard never did
Mark, please bring him back again this has to be on par with Johnny, Sang has a lot to say and I feel like we're just getting started please make him a regular! 🙏
I have never seen such a positive response from almost everyone . Sang please keep pushing . Your mind is magnificent!
You need a podcasts sharing your wisdom and magic being the world, your way with words really captivates and the way you explain it is so clear and easily understood.
Much love ! Best of luck
He needs much more healing first. He is emotionally out of touch with himself…relying on intellect and philosophy ….no wonder the need for excessive counter balancing with drugs and prostitution.
If you haven’t watched this full video yet then You should. This man was a very intelligent man who had an addiction. Pray for those still living the struggle🙏 RIP Sang
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I'm sorry for the loss a young
man with so much potential but
was taken before his time..
Did you know him personally? I'm just asking.
This dude is deep. I like listening to him.
Philosophy expert..Be ok Sang. Good dude..
Thnx Mr. Mark for interview too thnx
I felt like driving to Cali after this interview just to go have some coffee with Sang. Extremely rare intelligence and honesty. Sang, you’ll figure out what’s missing and I wish you the best of luck brother.
Would you drive to try to help all other addicts??? Or just yuck this guy up with coffee and a scone. I never see anyone talk about real help for him or anyone on this channel. You think he's cool? He is not. He is sad and lost and you want to hear more of his pain. Why?
Damn Molly, you alright?
@@coliethlewis6758 no I'm not. I've seen reality first hand on addicts and how they initially affect and then ruin every relationship in their lives. They hurt themselves and everyone, and usually end up dead. But the people who comment seem to want not to help this guy, but find some fantastic way to talk about him. It's like saying someone has cancer and people saying" oh well you are the coolest person who could get that! Wow I don't have cancer but I can feel your cancer vibe". So I just need to stop reading sang comments!!!! Let everyone say he's great and smart to risk his life daily.
@@mollyswanner1607 You need therapy. Seriously. You obviously didn't watch the video at all. Maybe you're too entitled and privileged to understand.
@@mollyswanner1607 right, these people are acting like he’s some crack baby who almost beat the odds when really he was just a privileged dude who worked hard and partied harder lmao. Even now he still makes more money than the average person who didn’t grow up with supportive parents like him. People are doing the most because hes asian and isnt dressed to impress. Guarentee if this was a white doctor who lost his family thru his vices and now sells medical equipment or something, nobody would be wanting to buy him a mocha latte😂
Sang needs his own UA-cam channel! So much wisdom in him!
This was a great interview. I actually went back and listened to it a second time. I was expecting his answers to be canned answers I’ve listened to so many times but his answers were on a totally different level. Very deep and thought provoking for me. I hope there is a follow up interview in the future. Good luck Sang!
I wasn't expecting this. One of my favorite interviews.
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@@louisungor3036 thank you 😊
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I don't know what I'm running from either Sang hyung. But life is good without drugs. Yes the noise sucks, but its better to feel those feelings, rather than run from them and have to deal with it later, after you quit your addictions. I'm working on mine too, one at a time. I'm almost there, so don't give up. We're right there with you
Loved this interview. Amazing how we can never know what people are going through; obviously highly intelligent, he exudes a calm wisdom - I could listen to him for hours.
He sounds so wise. I could listen to him for hours.
Sang wants to be seen - and know that he's been seen. Thanks to this interview: I see you, Sang. I expect many viewers here see you too. I hope you get face to face with someone that can see you. And when it happens I hope you recognize the moment and savor it so you can invite that feeling into your life. I hope you curate a community of people who will exchange that level of friendship in kind.
Very interesting, articulate, well-spoken man. Much more than a Trick.
Interviews like this are why Mark is so special . He finds common ground, he finds empathy, he finds humanity.
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It seems to me Sang is beyond wise about life and has gone through much introspection. I like what he said, "what seems to be is almost never real." There is so much truth behind this statement. I hope Sang gets the help he needs and overcome his addictions and demons.
Yeah that statement is one of dissociation and philosophy …he is not yet feeling himself only his thoughts…alive above the neck only and even there more general than personal. Easy to miss that in our culture of hyper intellectualization and minimal recognition and deep understanding of vulnerability
It’s always interesting to see asian people interviewed. In most asian cultures things covered in this channel are incredibly taboo to the point where i didn’t really know any of my peers having affiliation in such things.
I also like his perspective on asian’s culture of parents’ high expectations on children’s achievement. Parents are most of the time work super hard to provide and in a sense it might contribute to this culture.
Yeah, Asian culture is very conservative. I’m an Irish American. I’m also a heroin addict in NYC and I see the same thing going on with Muslim people here. First American generation Muslims are getting hooked on drugs and their culture and their own families don’t wanna accept it, or believe it. They are more worried about what the other Muslim families in their communities and their mosques will think than they are about helping their child. Then they also think it’s a spiritual problem, like they need more prayer, not medical drug rehab or methadone (depending on what drug they’re into.)
This is also tabo in the African culture
This is one of the best interviews! It’s his whole vibe! Honest and very smart! Need more like this!
I’ve watched a bunch of your videos, there is something very special and intimate about this one. I can relate to this person better than with someone that has gone through tons of trauma, and has a extreme life. It’s lovely that we can have diverse type of interviews. I am very thankful for your hard work and passion.
It's because he's almost egoless..most people "act" out the image they have of themselves in their heads, so it's not genuine, most of us do this ...he has no fucks left to give, so he is just his raw self
I listened and thought of that great quote by St. Augustine:
“My heart was restless, oh Lord, until it rest with thee.”
This is it.
That is the utmost truth. There is no rest until we rest with Him.
My heart is breaking listening to his words. Indeed, human is too fragile however much he or she has achieved. Indeed, he is exactly saying what Solomom was writing in the Bible in 전도서 Ecclesiastes in that "vanity, vanity, under the heaven there is no newness". But, God solved this vast emptiness in our hearts through the love and truth that only can come through the Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God. Sang, you will find the treasure and calmness of your heart right away when you are receiving into your heart and let Him be your Lord and Savior!!! Do not let go of this hard-to-believe promise of God!! I guarantee you you will get it when He comes into your heart in Holy Spirit!!! This is it!!! This is what you are looking for and it is wide open for you to get hold of!!!! You will not regret it!!!
WOW. What an interesting story! This man is obviously incredibly intelligent and aware. He is so honest and upfront. This was one of the best interviews I have seen in a while on this channel. Very genuine and a great perspective.
What an interview. Your self awareness and honesty about yourself is seriously so inspiring. I will definitely soak this interview in. Rest in peace Sang. 🙏🏽
What an honest interesting interview .Sang sure is a special insightful human who speaks his truth, no bullshit no blame..
I really wish I could be friends with this guy the wisdom he was dropping in the calm manner too. I feel alot of peace listening to him
Wow! Sang is definitely one of the best interviewees ever! He is so intelligent, and honest. My heart goes out to his family 💚. He's non-judgmental, which is almost nonexistent today. We are all imperfect, but he has a beautiful soul and he's a handsome fella. Rest In Peace Sang 😇
Sang, you're one of the good ones out there. I feel that you speak your truth and everything make sense to me.. You could work in the education sector or even as a poet. I hope that I hear more from you! Keep it gold Sang!
There is no "your" truth, there's THE truth (facts) and everything else is false (fiction)
I bet you wouldn't say that after you've seen the victims of child sex trafficking in which as many prostitutes as he's picked up odds are he has at one time or another has molested and sexualy abuse d a child that was forced into hard-core drug addiction and hard-core sexual assault
What a complex brain on this guy, so much so that crack relaxed him, allows him to be calm and at peace. Definitely a unique individual, but I suppose we are all unique in our own way.
This is my favorite interview, wisdom, humanity, candid, honest, it’s the honesty I think the most.. Lee you are a GEM!
This guy is deep!!! Love your story Sang!
When Sang-ssi talked about not being able to fill the void within him, then about his fascination with the girls' acting abilities, I somehow knew he was broken hearted by one of them, and never had the strength to move on. It's amazing how in the end, most of the addicts interviewed here on this channel just wanted to be loved - sincerely.
I wish you well, Sang-ssi, and I hope you will find the safest most comfortable way to transition back to good physical health, achieving the inner peace and calm you have longed for - even with the 'noise' in you, and getting back on your PhD quest or whatever projects that you wish to do. Thank you for this reminder, that knowledge and wealth are nothing without wisdom.
Sang Lee..my fellow Korean brother. Knowing and understanding who one " is " ...not easy. Drugs or without drugs is a journey to deep inside self... is like climbing Mt Everest then to deep bottom oceans. Sang, stay alive in this precious world and help those that really Need ( not want) you !
I really appreciated Sang’s insight regarding addiction and his own experience with it. I only started watching this channel after finding out that my dad (who I always felt close to) was hiding a drug addiction. He used crack and heroin. I was shocked to learn the truth since my dad didn’t fit the idea that I had of what a drug addict is like. Neither does Sang, so I see now that there isn’t a certain type of addict. It could literally be anyone. My dad is gone now and hopefully finally at peace, but I wish Sang well.
Hope all is well with you now.
My condolences❤
Sang, I pray you find peace. Thank you for sharing your story.
Of all the interviews I’ve watched so far this one really broke my heart. I got that ache in my chest. At the same time I’m amazed at his intelligence and self awareness. Very intriguing to listen to. I hope he finds what he’s running from and finds true peace.
How fuckin awesome is sang. Dude can really tell a story smart bloke I’d like another interview with him
I could listen to this guy all day..
Hearing Sang talk about the facets of life that addicts feel are always missing resonated deeply with me. The insights of someone that would come off as incredibly high-functioning and accomplished but was completely derailed by a habit he couldn't let go of is scary as fuck, because it seems as though the he can see past the tunnel of addiction but his thirst for annihilation was too strong to be lulled. I really appreciate his candor and hope that he finds what the piece of him that is missing, though I know the feeling of being snared by compulsion and desire.
Opiates did to me what crack did to him. It filled me with more emptiness and left a new need that could not be satiated. Love, money, experiences, they all pale in comparison to something as visceral as your drug of choice rushing through your bloodstream and taking you back to the place you crave above all things. He dropped some real game for anyone that is on a similar trajectory, it's worth heeding his words and deeping his story. Thanks for providing the platform for perspective and reflection as always Mark, these videos are filled with invaluable anecdotes.
This is the first interview I have sat down to watch…..normally I just listen. I loved it so much. ♥️♥️♥️
I am sad he is stuck. I am impressed at his achievements and his candor. Wishing you better days!
Amazing guy with lots of wisdom. I hope he has a fulfilling rest of his life. I think he would make a great friend.
This interview for me helps solidify the hypothesis that some people, of all different levels of opportunity are more prone to an unforeseeable addiction than others. Although Mark's videos have clearly identified childhood abuse and poverty as big contributors.
Sang, if I were to try and guess what is missing in your life, I would say unconditional happiness. With your learning skills you should consider researching a reset trigger. Relocation, donating your time to help others, discipline, a new diet, DMT experience??Elevating age and cocaine don't go together. God Bless!
Ayahuasca is one of the most transcendental experience one could have outside of connecting personally with your higher power...It's just truth..Challenge it and see for yourself. ♥️
his parents never loved him because in their "culture" it meant they were weak... im glad his mom never got to see disneyland, she doesnt deserve it.
Typically mental health care is the biggest thing that could help. Almost all of these interviews have someone who has an untreated mental illness, ADHD, asd, ocd, ect. Having one of these plus abusive situations seems to be the key
@@just_nate_8694 Psychedelic drugs have great potential for this, but keep in mind you still have to do the work. Also i know one person that relapsed on heroin after trying mushrooms for the first time because being in any altered state is a trigger for her, so watch out.
Be sure to do it in a good enviorment and write some resolutions on a piece of paper to look at when tripping, that works well for me at least.
People will do anything but be sober. “Oh you have a heroin problem? Try some shrooms or ayahuasca.”
As a Korean myself living abroad, I found this testimony extremely interesting. Honestly didn’t expect to see a Korean here lol. We don’t really come across stories like this even if we’re out of the country and the whole 30min was like an eye opener for me.
Also the story about his mother being physically unwell now after working so hard for years and years - I relate. I mean this is v typical for immigrant families but it do be sad :(
Just a random thoguht tho, I wonder why Mark titled this vid a ‘trick’. There’s obviously so much more than the ‘girls’ story and maybe it would’ve been better if we focused instead on his professional/academic life. Him wanting to learn and finish edu shows that he’s an intelligent individual
I wish Sang all the best and also would like to thank him for sharing his story. Kinda touched me deep ngl
응원합니다!
Search up soft white underbelly Hye Jung. She's also Korean, unfortunately passed away a few days after the interview. She was also a highly educated Korean woman. She was beautiful.
@@ottohaas5728 Thank you for remembering this person. I’ll try to find her story.
‘Trick’ is simply a person that engages with prostitutes. So, the title is correct. It doesn’t mean that’s all there is to a person…just one of many dimensions that he is as a human. Also, keep in mind, Mark will use titles that are more enticing for us to click on, as all producers do. It works. 😊
I remember her 🥲
@@ottohaas5728 how did she pass?
Authentic, raw, and brutally honest. What a rare admission.
Addiction comes in all shapes and sizes. He’s spent a lifetime searching for something he’ll never find, until he puts the pipe down. He knows it too. And he will never change. A working addict is not as rare as people think. Great perspective for an interview.
I love this guys wisdom, I hope he gets and stays clean and finds peace. 🙏🙏
I hope there is a part 2 to this interview 🙏
The last 5 minutes of this interview was absolutely amazing. It should be played in every school in this country if not the world. The raw truth and the deep feelings in he's words really spoke to me. And I got kind of emotional from it too. And I ever took drugs before. I also enjoyed that he took his time to think about the questions and what it meant to him before answering. A Follow up would be great.
He’s very aware of himself and I applaud that. Wise man, Sang.
Filling the void has been a theme for many people in this day and age. Really nice interview of a man's personal resolve.
“You can’t fight culture.”
As a fellow Asian I’ve been haunted by constant feelings of whether I’m a disappointment to the family or if I will be in the future. I’ve sometimes wished that I hadn’t been born into the culture/family that I’m in.
Yes and addiction to monetary accomplishment, individualism, and youth etc that US Protestant culture combines with others.
you’re soft. Stop playing victim.
@@edwinhunnet2666 😎
I encourage you to learn more about your culture, identity and history so you have a stronger purpose than trying to simply trying to appease your parents. Perhaps what you really need is aligning your cultural values to your own self identity.
I really would love to see another interview with Sang. Maybe some more therapy could help him do figure out the sense of emptiness he’s feeling. Wishing he can get the help he needs. Amazing interview, I know you’ll get through this, Sang 🙏🏽