Suicide, Suicidal Thoughts, and dealing with Pain
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- Опубліковано 28 вер 2024
- I created a video a long time ago called "on the topic of suicide". I felt with recent happenings and problems, maybe it was time for an update. Need someone to talk to? start here: www.hopeline.com/
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This is instantly one of my favorite quotes ever.
"So God, Fate, Nature, Random Chance, or whatever put your life on Hard Mode. Who gives a shit? Beat the game anyway."
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Dez Xanatos I was just thinking that same thing. Very profound.
Dez Xanatos That literally made me cry.
Dez Xanatos Easier said than done. If you don't lead a life of constant torture it very easy to say: Who gives a shit? With the suffering i'm going through i gladly welcome death. Unfortunately i'm only 29 years old and knowing my luck i'm going to have to wait a long time until the grim reaper comes my way. Maybe i'm going to have meet him halfway .
SDMF20 Considering those words came from Boogie I think they really do hold some ground.
I've watched this video three times now...
The reason i'm holding on is because i don't want to hurt my family or friends, but the thing he said about my life being put on hard mode in the end really cheered me up for a while.
This was beyond inspiring. I told my mother today that I need help because I have been seriously thinking of ways to end it. I suffer from depression, and I have been through a rough past years ago, but they only reason I want to end it is because I hate my exterior. I love my inner self, I know I
am a good person, but when I look in the mirror I want to shut myself in my room and not come out, and sometimes that's the case. I need to learn to love myself, and I'm not sure how to do that, but this video spoke to me, you spoke to me. I'm not sure if anyone feels the way that I do, but knowing I am not alone makes me want to try. Thank you.
What are you talking about you look extremely beutiful
Beautiful*
Your kind words really mean a lot. My picture was from a time I was partially comfortable in my skin. I'm trying to re-learn to love myself I guess you could say. But thank you Jagger Zitemidway
Tamara T It’s been a few years, how are you?
I mainly knew you as the Francis character before which I, to be honest, at first didn't get was a fictional character. Now I know I'm late to the party, seeing how this is a 4 year old video, but I stumbled upon a Huffpost article about you and I just wanted to give my respects to you for making videos on serious topics such as this and you got my sub. Thanks for being a good guy and sharing this, there are so many people suffering from depression and suicidal thoughts but for so long it has been something that hasn't been socially accepted to talk about or to show yourself vulnerable since everybody is "supposed" to project an image of strength and well-being. It's good to see that this trend is changing and that you are a part of that change. Keep on keepin on and my thoughts goes out to anybody who is watching this because they are having suicidal thoughts, I hope you find the strength within yourself to defeat it so that the sun can shine for you again.
I've been dealing with depression for a few months now after another episode (I've had depression affect me for about 6 years), and I've been contemplating suicide again for the last week. This afternoon was spent watching videos on depression, and as an obsessed fan of your content, it's not surprising that this video made it to me as a suggestion.
While the other videos did their job well enough, this video has re-sparked my excitement for life and living! I can't wait to resume some more revision and get my degree!
Thank you Boogie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I could always use more friends! 8D
I take it you can relate to what I said.
Hmm.. don't know why your life may suck where you are, but you say an awful lot of mean things to people on UA-cam, from what I can see. Do you think it could be the way you treat people?
I can't say I know much about American politics (borderline nothing in fact), but just the thought of living in an area with so many racists and discriminative people, literally makes me feels sick!
Sorry if it came across that I judged you before, though I think you level of trolling is a bit on the extreme side, in my opinion at least. I mean, you said some horrible things about Mormons, and have told people to kill themselves. Surely as a Boogie fan, you should understand that level pain you're inflicting.
I don't know, maybe it's just me. I mean I'm VERY sensitive to insults. I can't take a joke from even my closest friends without it upsetting me. We were all bullied in school, but either the level I took, or the way I took the bullying, affected me in a way that pranks, banter, and trolling seem nothing but cruel to me. So maybe you shouldn't listen to my opinion as I might not be the best judge, but I can't imagine everyone would disagree with me. I don't know, what do you think?
Conor Langford dude i have the same thing but what gets me about these videos are that haters still hate when he is helping people through the hardest time in their lives
Sam Griffin
I totally agree, but I find comfort in the (now) well known phase: "Haters Gonna Hate". When Haters hate, and Trolls troll, just know that whatever you're doing, this person was going to do it anyway. Like it was predestined.
I'm not depressed, I'm not suicidal, but you are a good man. Thanks for posting this.
I am so lonely. I don't really have friends. I never go out and i can't speak with anyone, and can't make friends. Life is hard.
So straighten up little soldier!
Yup. Saying that "Suicide is selfish" or "You'll transfer that pain to your family, and you should stay alive for them" seems like it contributes to the problem. It even seems like its aggravates the person who wants to do the act, even further.
If you want to break the cycle of suicide... don't talk about how others will benefit from a person continuing to live.
Listen to that person.
Calling whoever wants to do the act, "selfish"...is continuing the problem that sadly happens all too often in the present day. Someone probably died as I typed this question.
Thank you Boogie. Everytime I feel like I'm going to relapse, or fall back into depression, you always hold me back up. The amount of gratitude I have towards you is immense and will always be so. I'm very thankful that you're here, and that I was able to find your channel. And I'm glad you're there for everyone else..
People need to stop joking about suicidal thoughts. It's a serious topic. So, stop joking.
True especially when you’re on the receiving end of those thoughts. People need to take a moment and put themselves in the shoes of an individual who might be having those thoughts. What might they be feeling that would drive them to want to commit suicide
A guy on reddit declared suicide is officially funny just 2 minutes ago.
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This inspiring video helped me more than anything with my depression and suicidal thoughts. I thank you and applaud you. You are a life saver. Again thank you.
I just started watching your videos. I love them. I just read comments saying how fat you are. Who cares? You are unique. You are special. If they cant see that, then they're the ones who need to die. Not you.
fucking rights the fluffy dude is awesome :P
Boogie, I emailed you a few months back about me going through some depression and you responded, and I wanted to thank you for the advice. It has really a large impact on my life, thank you for all that you do and thanks for the reassurance that everything will be okay.
Hope you are doing well with your self.
Pulled out the gun today... was really getting myself psyched up. Just so sick of the abandonment and sick of being misunderstood and underestimated... (and sometimes proving judgmental jerks right after all) so often... but you have made some good points... I am thankful to have come across your channel. I guess I am just going to have to strengthen ways for me to fight back.
This is a beautiful video, thank you so much for taking time to make this. This helped me in so many ways.
You're a very great person. I admire your strength. My brother was tormented and tortured growing up all three school because he was different. But now he has a fiance and the house with her and I'm so happy for him. Meanwhile I was the what you would say popular one that had the girlfriends and played the sports. Not to sound conceited but I have always been considered handsome. I'm tall. I'm thin. Yet I struggled with depression bipolar disorder and borderline personality disorder most of my life. I've never been closer to checking out early then I have this year. Listening to this man has helped me a great deal. There's a lot to live for. I'd rather have this known than the unknown. Beat the f****** game
I needed to see this video before. But really glad I did. Boogie I know you probably won't see this but this really helps people. Or atleast helped me. I wish you made more videos like this now a days. Thank you so much for making this!
I saw it. Thank you for choosing to stay. It gets better. I promise. Even if it doesnt death is inevitable. So just try to have fun ok?
@@boogie2988 wow! I really can't believe it. I also try to it's hard most days but I know there's a light in the darkness. And I really can't thank you enough for replying to me it means so much more than you could think. I've always looked up to you. Thank you Boogie!
Also I want to help people that go through this pain.
Sorry for so many replies still in some shock. I've been watching you for 7 or 8 years when I was about 11. Anyways the way I want to help others is by film and story telling. I don't know how well that will go but I'm gonna do it regardless. Again for the last time thank you,you made my day
I suffer from PTSD and a dissociative disorder...everyday can be a struggle, the depression and anxiety, the amnesia. The times when you literally feel like you've teleported and you are left confused about how you even got there...the conflicting opinions, voices in your head, paranoia and hallucinations and the volatility of it all. I used to contemplate suicide everyday, to be honest I still do...my actions do not feel like my own and there are times when I feel like an alien, no connection, just looking at life from the opposite side of the spyglass, people telling me they love me, but it is impossible to sympathize or feel it. I just learnt to live for the small kindnesses...last Christmas for example, it was the first time spending it alone after breaking things off with my ex of 4 years, some random people I bumped into while walking home at 3am just stopped me gave me a hug and told me merry Christmas and to be honest I cried. I can tell you, in it's lows it's bad...but I help as many people as I can, if I can make a difference I will do it hands down. The love you put out will somehow come back. To all those who have suffered or been touched by any form or depressive state, my heart goes out to you and I give you the warmest of virtual hugs
God bless you Boogie. I love you. thank you x
It is just inspiring to see that a human that lived trough so much pain is still around today.. Dont believe what other people think of you or say because YOU ARE A MILLION TIMES stronger than the average guy !!
You're wonderful and inspiring! Thanks for that!
I know what it's like to live a life dealing with depression. I've been struggling with depression most of my life. I was born with spina bifida and I am wheelchair bound. from a very young age I felt like an outcast. A "freak". I have tried to use comedy to get thru the pain of everyday exsistence. And after my mom passed away in 2010 everything got so much worse. I feel like a shell of a man harbouring a lost soul. But with the power of prayer and faith in God. I am still here. still fighting. Never give up fighting!
Yes! As a person with bipolar, and as someone who takes things people say negatively/criticizing (even if it's a video like this) your words reach to me. Therapists, doctors, mom, fiancee, couldn't have done that. So, thank you.
Of all the videos about suicide, this is the one that has helped me the most and given me the most hope. Thank you. I appreciate it so much.
Boogie I watch your videos and its so comforting to see someone who I can see knows what these mental disorders are. It means a great deal to me, thank you.
Boogies. your video helped me. was in a very bad way. seeing this video gave me hope
Boogie, I know my comment is insignificant, but I just want you to know that I see a lot of myself in you. I've been in pain, I've been big and I've sure as hell been hurt by my form, but it's all this shit around me that spurs me on in the end. I haven't gotten to the stage in my life where I'm happy and loved by someone just yet, so I don't know what I'll see over that horizon, but thank you for putting it into perspective. You're a great person because you've seen how bad people can be.
Usurper II Its not insignificant! Stay strong! Take an example of Boogie :) Think about making positive changes to yourself, so that you can become happy. Happiness will come to you as soon you become happier by yourself :) I speak out of experience. I started changing myself for the better a few years ago, and I had tons of good experiences since then :) You just need to start somewhere!
I think I'm just not even going to watch these vids anymore. Mostly because the amount of hate just because of his looks in the comment section is disgusting. Really makes you look at people differently if they can just slam somebody for their appearance rather than who they are just because they feel like it. smh
1 Thing about what he said that you should accept that you're going to die, and yes you really should, when I was 13 I would worry and get upset about it now I just try and stop thinking about it and yes it can be hard for some people, but if you don't accept it and you live your life in fear of death then its going to be a very depressing life.
I've had mild depression since I was sixteen years old. I have days I struggle to get out of bed because of the thoughts that run through my head. Hell their are days I just want to end everything because of the pain I constantly feel. depression can make a person feel like a hollow shell because they can't experience the feelings that others are able to. which just makes them want to feel numb because it's been so long since they have felt anything else.
All it takes is one bad day to reduce the sanest man alive to lunacy
I started crying while watching this, its so sad to see how curel people can be to others, without even considering how someone might react to the mean things they're being told.
Wow you have an amazing beauty Maria
Boogie2988 your a very smart man and I think you have given lots of good advice, and also I like how your so open minded. Keep spreading your knowledge my friend.
this is a good guy...thanks for the pick up.
I can't believe people disliked this video.
Not just high schools, go to elementary, middle, high schools, go to Homeless shelters, etc. If I am sad ...I think of you and smile, THaNK you
We need more people like you in this world. All the best to you dude
Your pain has turned you into a marvelous and inspiring person
I have been contemplating suicide for a long time and I unfortunately believe it is over for me. I have been inspired and have always loved your content Boogie. Something I appreciated and something I warn others not to ignore. Give yourself those resources like Boogie talks about. Do things to make your life better. I know I am a hypocrite for saying this and you would be right. Thing is I just can't live like this anymore. Lots have happened to me and I have tried desperately to place my hope in things for a better future and for something to live for. My hope has been gone and empty for a while now and I have been alone for a long time. Its going to be over for me but I will say what I always say to friends. I'll see you later just make sure to tell me a good story when you do.
Belinda marshall, you shouldn't just start throwing out opinions at boogie he has lost 60 something pounds in a year he is trying to lose weight and has a wife and almost a million subscribers watch his draw my life video and then start talking shit. Boogie you are amazing keep doing what you're doing don't let anyone get in your way
Suicide is a smart optinion
Wow. I've tried talking to suicidal people over the internet before, but you are able to put it into words so better than me. You're clearly a wonderful person. Not the "wonderful" youtuber who everyone knows is fake as shit and only does it for views. You actually speak from the heart and we can tell so.
Well said boogie. Thank you :)
I have what they call "The suicide disease" and "Fibromyalgia". I have seen some dark places but somehow i keep going, My mind constantly fights itself between if its worth to live in so much pain or to die and be pain free. What keeps me going is my cat. Without my cat im am done, im over, but that day is not today. I will fight to the end.
Ur the best
Hit the gym
I've got a lot of things in my mind and it has been overwhelming me for the past couple of months. Thanks, Boogie.
REINCARNATION IS A BITCH.
Sorry man about all the mean people they just losers keep it up!!!
Stay strong
Dude, I feel your pain, I just got back from Australia to the horribly cold winter, I have been thinkin
Beautiful words until you dropped the selfish bomb. Please don't shame people who are suffering.
it was something i needed to be reminded of. The pain I'd know I would inflict on those who cared about me. That helps me aa lot from considering it
exactly my thoughts
It's not shaming them, it's the truth of suicide. I've considered it 4 times. 3 of those I remembered it's not just my heart I'll be ending, it's my friends' and family's hearts too...
JD the Trainspotter Well that's YOUR friends and family. Some of us don't have people who care about us. So if you call us selfish for wanting to end our lives, you are the one who is being selfish because all you care about is getting youtube views from us. (I am addressing boogie at that last part). And if I do have family somewhere in the world, why aren't they trying to communicate with me? That's a clear sign that they don't give a f*ck about me so if I DO decide to commit suicide, it sure as heck won't affect them.
Missy trust me, there are some people that won't show they care till it's too late. Again, boogie is right and for fucks sake DO NOT SUICIDE hun! It's not worth it. He's not just looking for UA-cam views he is trying to reach out to people to stay strong!
i am bullied at school and nobody likes me. I was getting really mad until i met Connor. he helped me throughout the grades and we are friends to this day. he is my best friend and we are really good in math.
Thank you for making this video. The part that helped me the most was when you raised the point that death is already guaranteed - it's coming - so do what you want to do now. That calmed me down so much.
So, to maintain a way of life/existence is to deal with what you have and carve out a space for the pains and sufferings that one goes through.
I do want to mention that this mans(boogie2988) voice helps to balm the soul of aches and pains.
Who said you deserve to be happy. No one ever said anyone deserves to be happy. Do what makes you happy not pity yourself.
As much as I feel the ‘selfish’ comment could be seen as insensitive, i know that it is true. I had two truly amazing friends who stood by me thru my struggle for a long time, and I felt like me ending it would be a let down on my part for them. That empathy, the realisation of the pain it would cause my family, and my friends, kept me alive and that’s why I’m here today
thank u so much for this! i suffer from depression myself, this helped me, alot.
The only reason I haven't given up is because I don't want my children to fell this pain. I would do anything to prevent them from suffering, even if it means I have to.
I know I'm late to the party but I just found out about this guy in an article in the huffingtonpost. Thanks for this video bogie, I've never been through the experience but know people that have and I appreciate your thoughts on the subject matter.
Big hug to you boogie2988 you look like a gentle soul, keep your goals alive may happiness be with you always my friend.
i finally had what i wanted and threw it away. im old i cant get it back. so homesick
You have no idea how much you have helped me
Thanks Boogie. It's been off my mind for a while but has come back swinging. This video gives me courage to swing back harder. Much love and thanks.
For every person that takes their life, there is twice the number of people that physically fight for theirs, sometimes, so they can go home and see how many people love them , most times it's called selfish for a reason
Very glad I stumbled across your channel...your message really hit home. You've a new subscriber and I'll pass the word along. Thanks.
You are a true inspiration. Much respect for your strength and wisdom.
I've been rationally weighing the pros and cons of ending my own life for the past year and a half. For instance, I've been asking myself who in my family would be most affected by it and whether or not they would be able to carry on and have normal, productive lives after I had off'd myself. They scary thing is, there are in fact people who would be so devastated by my suicide that it keeps me from doing it and that fact is what bums me out. Meaning that, I would be more relieved if no one gave a fuck and I could just end it in quite, anonimity. I'm fucked in the head.
BeaverChaser
No, you're not. I am happy for you, that you do NOT have the freedom to commit suicide without affecting anybody. And you're considerate enough to know, that you will end other lives as well. Maybe not as terminally as you consider it for yourself, but the people affected cannot go back to their old life. In fact - cold, hard statistics show, that other people close to somebody who ends his/her life, are also likely to commit suicide.
If you are ever far enough in thinking: Yep, gonna do it, think also about this: One of our most basic traits, deepest animalistic insticts is... survival. If you go against it, something for SURE is not right and you are not making a rational decision.
I am certain that there are a few reasons to willfully end the life and a lot of people would understand - terrible sicknesses, loss of physical self-determination and so on. In some rare cases maybe even severe depression. But if it is that far, there are tons of ways to seek help. I sought help when I was that far and it has saved me. We're lucky to live in a time, that is so far in medicine /counseling.
I hope, you find a way out of your darkness that will give you many more years doing something, that will bring a personal richness to your life.
I got goose bumps and a smile from that last sentence.
Francis, I'm glad there are people like you- you're my role model, you're funny, wise, smart and is gone through a lot- you are a very strong man, I wish I could be as strong as you.
Love you'd
There was a kid from my high school a couple weeks before Christmas break that killed himself. And then they all get worried and all the teachers are like "There's counselors to talk to blah blah blah" that's all fine and dandy, What I hate about it is something has to happen before they give a crap. Schools should have at least 1 Shrink or what ever you call those people you can talk to. Do you guys know the College suicide rate? I don't personally but im pretty sure its really high.
dedalliance1 exactly. It's only after something like this happens that people pretend to give a shit. But too late for that person right?
Gaming helped me get through a lot of dark times in my life.
I've been battling depression for ten years with suicidal thoughts. Life is hard for me now !!!
You may of just saved my life with this video
Dude.. thanks for your advice... I never realised that... I hope people with suicidal tendencies will watch this video.. much respect to you dude!
PEACE!!!
I'll beat the game someday as you said... and when I'm done... I stand up tall and say... Francis Motivated me to beat the game!!! I thank you so much
Preach, brother. Thanks for sharing so many stories from your past with us. Your explanation of this issue is so subtle and deep. You have changed lives for the better.
get suicidal or get ANGRY. Anger is power, power gets you up. when your up your active, & when your active your happy, your burning calories too.
you're. ......
I love you so freakin much brother. In fact, I feel as though you are a brother to me at times. You are such an amazing inspiration. Please keep going for the long haul, for all of your family here on the interweb. We LOVE YOU Boogie!!!
“ you’ll die anyway” true
Fuck that, is no longer worth it. Not worth fighting, not worth living. I don't have the energy anymore, and failure after failure is my reward after all that hard work...that struggle..
I've had depression and suicidal thoughts since I was really young. It's really hard to make friends these days if you're like me though. It's hard to talk about the issues I've had. I've actually had nobody that would help me whatsoever. I've been to programs, I've taken medications, and I've done nearly everything I could, but it's of no use. I've always felt that maybe if I died that the pain would end. I'm starting to think that nobody cares because I've always felt isolated and also alienated. I do leave my house to go to places with people around and I do try to talk, but I always get the cold shoulder because people simply don't like me and I have no idea why. I'm often called an attention whore just because I'm trying to communicate what I'm feeling. I've never decided to commit suicide though because I'm not a stupid nut, however, I constantly think about it because I've never had much attention anyway and it's hard to see other family members get treated way better than I've ever had. I don't wanna write to much so I'll end this here. I need someone to talk to that won't end up with me taking something that alters who I am, I need someone that would actually wanna be around me, and I do need someone I physically be around...
Stay in there buddy, if you need to talk let me know. I'm here for you, and remember: more people are there for you than you think. So much more.
Thanks, man..
I think your great I'm 12 and I thought to suicide my self but you gave me hope to live. And I thank you for that.
I don't understand why there is so much hate here.
He seems like a nice guy and I like his videos
People who are depressed/suicidal are not always so because they are unaware of all that they may have. Having awareness of all you have is important in life of course, and changing your negative thinking to being grateful and happy is the goal of mental wellbeing, and many people may benefit from remembering that. But others may feel their problems to be devalued. I'm sure there was ancient Kings who where depressed. depression and suicide are not a new phenomenon.
When I have had depressive stages, it is often all focused on everything that I have, which I am unable to enjoy or feels/and is cut off from me, which leads to a lot of shame and further self loathing. Its easy to say, look at all the great things, when you feel great yourself and I think we all do it. Trying to talk about mental states is ambiguous, but if somebody is at the point of suicidal thoughts, I don't think that its helpful to just say - ya know everything is cool, you just cant see it, you have the life of a king here, nothing is wrong, kind of thing. I think key to helping someone with suicidal thoughts is to value their experience as a very legitimate experience, I feel like when someone feels understood that that is the most powerful and meaningful connection. Which is mostly what we are all looking for, a connection.
If you read this, I think you and your videos are brilliant, I come at this only from my own mistakes and I think we both share the desire to assist and grow. Much love.
You have the gift of perspective and to all you trolls, just because you don't have the intelligence to affect the the public in positive ways or any way period doesn't mean we're going to let you affect us in a negative way! You're insignificant.
thank you for being so open and vulnerable
Thanks Boogie for all the help you have given me. With the links and such. I tried to commit suicide before but it didn't work because my friend came over to my house for no reason and saw me attempting to cut my self with a knife. He stopped me and I am now great full for that. Because I found you. And you have helped me and for that I have to give you a million thanks.
this video, posted five years ago, is still relevant to this day. liked
I'M SO SICK OF BEING ALONE ..MY EX AND HER GIRLFRIEND RIPPED MY KIDS OUT OF MY LIFE HOW CAN SOMEONE USE KIDS AS WEAPON'S..THAT IS REALLY TWISTED ..I NO LONGER DRIVE BECAUSE OF PANIC ATTACK'S.,PTSD, AGORAPHOBIA AND DEPRESSION .. I'LL BE SPENDING CHRISTMAS EVE AND DAY WITHOUT MY KIDS AND FAMILY..SO WHAT SHOULD I DO..WHAT CAN I DO ??.. JUST KEEP SUFFERING EVERY DAY ..EVERY MINUTE OF MY LIFE.. ITS TO GOD DAMN PAINFUL
Thank you. You're right, I can't hurt my loved ones like that.
I’m actually crying from a boogie video..
I know it seem hard sometimes but uhh
Remember one thing
Through every dark night, there's a bright day after that
So no matter how hard it get, stick your chest out
Keep your head up, and handle it.
Not feeling suicidal... But have been kinda bummed.. Feeling inspired.. I will beat the game on hard mode :). Thank you
No motivation, in physical and mental pain , unable to comprehend joy. This is what antipsychotics and antidepressants cause.
Some people are so mean
i love watching your vids boogie, becouse you are REAL. We all have issues but it takes huge balls to talks about it in public. Respect and all the best buddy.
never give up all of u out there you are loved everythings gona be ok
This is one of the best videos I've seen. Seriously. I hope this helps someone.
Thank you for the advice I was just like you my dad was never there for me I was abusing those little every day cresylic miss you side to side dish in my life is really hard but I you help me and I'm sorry for you but dad hates me when I was little so thank you for the advice and Yuhoma friends too and you help me all the time anytime I need
You can compare pain as energy;
(The law of conservation of energy),
Energy cannot be made or destroyed,
Only transferred.
You really helped me!
Thank you, Boogie.
You are the most inspirational person in the whole world