I legit cried. Your dad is an inspiration on how dads should be like. I've never had a father figure in my life and seeing your interactions with him just made me fall in love with him. Wish I had a dad like yours. I'm so so sorry for your loss.
The way that Andy could tease and laugh at the girls, not in a harming way, he made them have thicker skin. The world is cruel and those girls were driven, intelligent, and loyal. He did a great job with them. Even giving Cristine the jobs at the shop to hone her perfection skills. Dad's can give the best love and protection, but they need to give u doses or realism. U will be swallowed up if they dote on u like a spoiled princess. Education is how u will feed yourself, and Andy taught them to strive for the top.
The hardest sentence she said "I don't want people's sorrys, I don't want flowers I don't want food to make me feel better. I just want my dad." My heart broke so much.
I didn't watch all of this, because I'm not in Good place myself at the moment. I felt exactly the same when I lost my dad thirty years ago, and then I lost my mum five years ago. I feel exactly the same today. I feel silly as a 53 year old just wanting my mum and dad, but I guess we're always their children. I just want to put my arms around Cristine, and let her cry. I'm so sad for her.
My mom had cancer when I was in high school and I remember feeling the exact same way. Thankfully she survived, but I was always so upset when people sent us cards or flowers or food. I didn’t want any of that, I just wanted my mom to not be sick. I really relate to that feeling and it’s such a hard thing to go through.
my deepest condolences, cristine. your dad was such an amazing one, and he definitely made so many of my days. cancer is the absolute worst, i hope your dad rests in peace. thank you for staying so strong, love you xx.
Cristine my heart breaks for you and Jen. Almost a year ago we had to make the same decision for my sister. I was holding her hand when she left us. I love how Ben is so loving and supportive.
I'm not gonna lie, my heart is hurting for you so hard. I've watched your channel for years and loved watching the videos your dad made an appearance in- I see a lot of him in you and I understand having to deal with something like this so suddenly and so hard. The biggest part of your stream that got me bawling was Ben- the way he just comes in and genuinely is so soft and caring to you and with you is so special and so rare- I want to give Ben a ton of credit for being such a great emotional support system for you not just during these horrific times like this, but in every high and low you have
I think it's ok to comment condolences on this specific video, especially for people who only just heard about it through here... But it's a good reminder for people not to keep posting "sorry about your dad" from this point forward
Thank you for sharing your experience with us. Thank you for creating a safe space for grieving. Thank you for creating a space where I could cry with you and experience my own grieving. Thank you ❤❤❤
Thank you for clearing everyone’s tear ducts and sinuses. In all seriousness, thank you for being so raw and honest about your feelings and trusting us that it is a safe space to do so. It’s important to remember that grief looks different for everyone. ❤️
Crying right along with you. Lost my dad almost three years ago and I probably haven't fully processed it. When you asked Ben for Menchie, I remembered how very soon after my dad died, I was sitting in a friend's house and I couldn't talk at all, just cry. But there were dogs in the house and I just managed to say: I would like to hold a dog. So someone handed me a puppy and I held it on my lap for a while and that helped a lot. Soft furry friends can help a lot so I'm happy you have Menchie and Zyler.
I’m so, so very sorry for yours snd your family’s loss. I know how much he meant to you through the your videos so I can’t imagine how much pain you’re going through. He seemed like he was such a joyful man and an inspiration to loads of people. You’re so lucky to have had a dad such as him. Take care, Cristine. You have such a lovely heart. Your dad is so proud I just know it. ❤️
I am so sad to have missed this news at the time. As soon as I learned of his passing I heard his voice in my head from the videos you did together, or the times he was called to chime in about whatever was happening. He was so funny and Cristine, you are the apple to his tree - so much of him is in you it's impossible to miss. Almost as impossible as this is to believe. How awful for this to happen and how much he will be missed. Love to you, and to Jen, and to your dad, and to everyone touched by his life.
The “they’re in a better place thing” makes me mad. I totally get it, Cristine. I have had someone said that to me in the funeral of my aunt and I just wanted to cry even more. Here you have some more hearts ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ for you and everyone who loved the beautiful man who was and will always be your dad ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Omg my heart is broken for you, we all love you simply 💜 I can’t even imagine what you and your sister are going through. He was so amazing and the funniest dad I’ve ever seen. My husband and I would rewatch all your videos with your dad all the time saying to eachother how awesome he is and how lucky you are to have such an amazing dad. I love you, stay strong and hold your memories close to your heart 💙
I’m so sorry, I know it doesn’t make it better whatever people say and it’s never a good time or something we are prepared for. I lost my dad in May unexpectedly and it’s something you’ll never overcome, you just learn to live with it. Just be near your close ones and talk to them whenever you need, everything will remind you of her bit with time you’ll make new memories and accept it better ❤️
I'm so sorry for your loss. There's nothing that I can say that will make you feel better. Thank you for sharing your father with us. I loved watching you interact with him and the lovely relationship that you guys have. Sending love and hugs and support. ❤️
I cried with you watching this video. I always loved the videos your dad was in. Take all the time you need. My thoughts are with you and your family. ❤️
So much love to you and your family. You and all you have contributed to the community is a blessing and the little bit we got to experience of how your dad showed us how wonderful a father figure can be - so thank you for sharing that with us and for always being so open. You truly are the realest person on the internet and I admire the courage it took to film this and share these difficult feelings with the world. Thank you for all you do. Love to you and your family
Very very sorry for your loss Cristine! I lost my dad to cancer 3 years ago (he was also 63 like yours). For that reason I especially enjoyed the videos you two did together because even me and my dad were not that close like you two were it gave me a feeling of "dad spirit" if you know what I mean with all those jokes that he had and everything. It takes time to heal, and it's not a straightforward process, some days may be harder than others, but you still learn to live with that. I'm happy that you have a great support system, it's very important that you hold each other through this grieving process. Sending you all my love and support!
Lost my dad five years ago this month. UA-cam channels like yours have given me so much peace of mind over the years. Let yourself grieve and do whatever you feel you must. We’ll be here with you every step of the way!
Seeing Christine cry made me cry because I wish she could never experience this... Thank you so much for sharing your dad with his. I can see where your aloof but determined characteristics come from. He was a gentle, funny, kind, and inspiring man. He was a strong and loving father who raised very beautiful, strong, gentle, but headstrong women. He was and always will be an inspiration for a father figure. I hope you can experience this and know how strong his love is for you, even now. Continue to make him proud and just know he will always be proud of you and Jen ❤️❤️
Sending you so much love. I’m so sorry for your loss and the heartbreak that you are going through. Thank you for taking the time to share this with your internet family. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Sweetie I am so, so sorry for your loss. Your dad was obviously a very special person. My father is in hospice right now and I know we’ll have to have that conversation soon. Thank you so much for being vulnerable. Much love to your family. 💕
We're all glad you have wonderful Ben there supporting you. Here's hoping that we all have the love and strength of a person like Ben when we need it and can be that person for those we love who need it. I felt sad watching your sadness but getting to see Ben try to help you feel better was really sweet
Just going along with the getting checked. I was having small medical issues and didn't wait to get things checked out. My cancer was found at stage 1 instead of the normal. Stage 3-4 for this type of cancer. So to go along with Cristines plea..... Please, please get things checked out even if they seem small!!!!!!!!!
I’m so sorry for your loss and glad you were able to see your dad a few times before he passed. My dad passed very suddenly last weekend and I hadn’t been able to see him in 2 years because I live abroad. Thankful I got to fly back for the funeral this week and, a little shout out to Holo Taco, thanks to the flakies on my burgundy nails, I accidentally matched my dad’s burgundy & white stripped shirt. A fun surprise and our dads seemed to have a similar sense of humor so that made me smile in the hardest moment of my life. 😊
Thanks for being real & honest and going public with this, when your life has been flipped on its end. You being honest helps people normalize grief and the process, however each of us go through it.
I lost both my grandmothers 7 years ago, and while the pain doesn't ever get smaller, you do grow around it. I don't want to be cheesy and say it gets easier, because I don't think it does, but what makes you cry now will eventually make you smile. I hope the pain eases and you're able to see all the things in your daily life that show you that people never truly leave you. no matter how long ago they left their earthly body behind, their impact will be with you forever 💖
I'm sending you so much love ❤️❤️ my dad was about the same age as yours when he passed away under really similar circumstances a few years ago. It's the hardest thing I've ever been through but there will come a time again when you can think of your dad and the wonderful person he was without crying. Ride the grief waves and keep talking about him and how you feel. Grief has no timeline to follow just keep feeling everything that comes up and give yourself time and space to process things ❤️ I also really empathise with what you said about people sending their sorries or checking in with how my dad was before he died. It used to make me so angry which is ridiculous because people are just caring in the way they know how ❤️ didn't stop me feeling that way though!
It's so heartbreaking and difficult to be so far from a parent like that when they're sick. I live 1000 miles from where my parents were and my mom got diagnosed with cancer in 2015. I got to see her in 2016, but we lost her a few weeks after. I felt so helpless being so far away while she was struggling with it. 😥
My gramma just died this sunday (2 days ago) and mostly bc of covid. She already had problems, obviously bc she was old, she lived in a caring home and we visited her 2/3 times per week and since covid, we weren't allowed to see her and that affected her A LOT. Slowly she began to be more sad, more problems, we discovered she also had cancer,.. she got 3 surgery in 2 weeks at 87 years old... and she made it through all, we never expected she lived the surgeries but she only got worse and we'll it happened. My point is, covid wasn't the reason she passed byt it sure helped. My most sincere condolences to you Cristine, your sister and everyone in your family. Stay strong 🤍 Please rest in peace Gramma and Mr. SimplyDad 🤍
Cristine, I can’t help but cry when I listen to this I lost my father within weeks after yours passed. They’re always with us, I hope you know. He can hear everything you say to him and he’s so happy on the other side. We all love you and hope you’re doing well 🤍
Lost my dad suddenly to a heart attack five years ago. He was only 58. It is a pain that is truly unfathomable to those who haven't experienced it, but know that you are not alone. The grief does eventually get easier to carry and there will come a day when you can think of and talk about your dad without breaking down. The most important thing is to just be kind to yourself throughout the process. Like you said, everyone handles grief differently, and there's no right or wrong way to do it. Thank you for sharing a small part of your dad with us. He seemed like such a beautiful soul
I love watching videos with your dad, whether it's opening fan-mail or he's just roasting your broken nail. xD He's such a genuine character and will be missed greatly. Less than three (
Rewatching this is so heartbreaking... i remember howi felt with both my grandmother and aunt who raised me passing away in a year and then hearing about your father i was just so heartbroken for you ❤️
Honey, know that we support you in both good and bad. Saw "Dad" in the title and thought he would join, which made me happy, because he is such an amazing and hilarious person. I'm sorry to hear of his passing, and I respect you for taking time off focusing on yourself. During your off time, I've missed your streams and looked for them everyday. So happy that you are back, even during the tragic circumstances ❤
Thank you for sharing your story and talking about it with us. I’m know it was difficult. Cancer is an important subject and not many talk about it. All my condolences.
Thank you so much for sharing this with us. Thank you for letting us get to know your father at all. He brought so much joy to the world and it's so unfair that he had to suffer through so much😞 I know sharing this so publicly probably feels weird and wrong but thank you for letting us mourn him with you and your family.♥️
I completely understand you when you were talking about feeling bad for not wanting sympathy. The biggest loss I have faced was my sister and I was hearing "I'm sorry" multiple times a day. It made everything worse. People were also spending a lot of money on gifts and flowers and I felt horrible for not wanting any of it. I just wanted my sister back and to be left alone. Everyone grieves differently and feels differently about the actions of others during those times. It's okay to feel that way.
I lost my dad to cancer back in 2008 when I was 13. The way I move forward is by trying to live my best life. A life my dad would be proud of or what he would have wanted for me. I have hiked up mountains and travelled the world to do things my dad would have loved but never got to do. Your dad is in you, the same as mine is in me. He will always be with you, forever and always
Cristine, your pain is so relatable and even though we (the peely peeps?) don’t know you, we feel you and send you and Jen our love. Keep being you, processing all this stuff on your terms, it’s the best way. And Ben, keep being wonderful. Cristine, when you discover a cloning machine just make a bunch of Bens and sell them to us lolol
My Mom died suddenly at 54, Dec 21, 2019. I was 31. I watched emergency personnel work on her, until the doctor told me they did all they could, and said allowing them to stop resuscitation efforts would be ' the humane thing to do'. I relate so much to everything you are saying and feeling. I didn't want any flowers, or cards. I'm also from the GTA, and had moved away to Nashville, so there is a lot of guilt surrounding not being around more prior to coming home for the holidays. It's very brave of you to be so open about your grief and sharing your story. It's so helpful to people going through this awful experience to feel so not alone in their grief journey. Now, both my Dad & Grandma are fighting stage 4 lung cancer. Fuck Cancer. I audibly gasped when I saw your Fb post. I've been watching you for years and loved watching when your Dad was on. My heart hurts for you
I just came from the Simply Nailogical goodbye video because it was the first mention I heard about your dad. I want to add my voice in thanking you for sharing your dad with us through videos and stories. He is free from suffering and you are not alone in grieving 🫂
We just found out my husband's father has prostate cancer and I'm so grateful they are being really transparent about the diagnosis and the treatment plan. They live in Florida so traveling there wouldn't be safe with covid but now I'm thinking we need to plan a visit
I am sitting here crying along with you.. I never lost a parent but my best friend lost her father when she was 17 and I lived through that with her.. Cristine, your community is thinking of you. We love you. Take your time and cuddle Menchie and Zyler 💕
So much love for you Cristine ❤ My dad passed away from cancer when I was 13, it was also very sudden and shocking to us. He had only 2 weeks of radiation left and things were fine. Then they weren't. My heart goes out to you and your family ❤❤
My grandfather passed away just last month from a freak accident ... no one would've seen it come ... I feel u becus either didn't grow up with my "donor" my grandpa was my dad ... its so fucking hard everyday every 5 mins remembering during cold times how he would warn me about not getting sick ... love you and hugs ... I'm so sorry for ur loss ...
I missed this live, so I'm just finding out on 11/12....but last night at midnight I felt compelled to do my nails. I had 4 colors on my desk, and ended up choosing Missed Shift, which I've had for months and hadn't used it yet. I know my Dad is still 'present', because every time I visit him at the cemetery, there is a bee hanging around. Saw the bee the first time we went with the whole family and I swear it's a sign that he's still watching over me. Me putting Missed Shift on the night before hearing the news is a sign...I loved watching Christine's dad on her videos, and of course I did t know him personally, but signs for lost loved ones are all around us. 💙💜💙💙💜💙💜
Cristine, you may not see this but my heart goes to you and your family. I understand how you feel with the loss of losing someone you love. I lost three important people in my life, one of them being my grandfather. My grandfather was like your dad, with a heart of pure gold and would give his shirt off his back for anyone and could make your day with a smile. He was the father figure of my life and the day he passed it was/still is a very hard time in my life. We both have the same birthdays together and I knew it was never going to be the same after. But I knew in my heart he wanted to go home to people who have gone long beforehand especially his daughter and son, who died so young.I know it will take time for you to go through the grief process, even though at times it will never seem to get better. But it’s okay to cry and break down every once in a while because you are human and it’s okay! I always keep these two quotes from my favorite book series (Harry Potter) & Wizard of Oz and it always keeps me going, “ The one’s who leaves us never really leaves us, you can always find them in here(heart)” “ Oz to the Tin Man: “ That a heart is not judge by how much you love, but by how much you are loved by others.” Keep safe and well and I’ll pray for you and your family 💕
Just the fact that you came on here to tell all of us shows how strong you are. You didnt need to do that. I lost my mom to cancer and my dad to an infection when i was 25. They were 60 and 59. I know this had to be super hard. I still cant talk about it without crying hysterically after 11 years. It has only been weeks for you poor dear. Im so sorry. Ive been a fan of yours since the nail art tutorial days. Always will be. You are so strong.
No one can replace your first superhero. He sounded like a badass Dad and that he loved you very much. We love you. You made us. We are ur Holo family. AND WE GOT YOU! WE ARE HERE FOR YOU
We appreciate you making this stream, Cristine, and we know that you are physically and mentally strong. I admire everything that you do, and I hope that you and Jen will be able to look back at this and know that you made the right decision. If you know that your dad wouldn't have wanted to go through the struggles post-life support, then you know you chose correctly, even if it hurts right now and even later. Your dad is now looking after you both from a place where he is no longer in pain. I'm so glad that you have Ben and Jen to be there for you and I know that you will be there for Jen as well. He left you both with many happy memories that you both will be able to look back on whenever you think of him. He had fun before he died and you were both big parts of that. Hopefully you can eventually retire and play golf for him one day. Thank you for sharing these memories of him with us, please don't stress out too much about making content, we just want you to be okay. We love you, Jen, Ben, and SimplyDad 💝
I remember waiting for my grandmother to get better and get out of the hospital, and that never ending up happening. It's a hard awakening... ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
❤️ when I was 18 I had to make the decision to take my dad off life support. He had a major heart attack and went into cardiac arrest 4 times . His ribs and lungs were collapsing and he was going brain dead. He wasn’t remarried and I was next of kin so I had to make the decision at only 18 and a senior in high school . My mom and family helped me get through that day . My dad is no longer struggling and is a much better place . He never got to see me graduate, walk me down the aisle, and now won’t get to meet his future granddaughter that I’m due with this coming July , but I know he’s watching over me ❤️ wishing you love and peace
Losing people we love sucks. Just know that whatever you feel is ok, no matter if you want to cry, laugh, be social, be alone, all of it is perfectly ok. Grief is unfortunately part of living and every person deals with it in a different way. There is no right or wrong way. Take all the time you need to deal with it all. You are loved, hugs.
Sorry for your loss - take your time!!! We have had this 15years ago with my newborn son. They put you to "sleep" with sedation for letting your body get better or as you said no to be in pain or whatever. My son war in the ICU 3 times, all were life threating, each stay way a few weeks on life support.... It was hell, but he made it! =) Your Dad is now your guardian angel (just my believe, not religious or sth liek that) and he will take care of you and your family - or he is rocking like hell in heaven and party all time =)) love from germany, Andrea
I was anxious about watching this, having seen your post on IG, as my gran died two weeks ago as well, but this felt like having someone to grieve and cry with ❤️
My sincere condolences Cristine. Cancer took my aunt a few years ago, took my father in law last year and we found out a month ago my mother in law might have stage four cancer. Still waiting on results.
my dad and I have had a.. complicated relationship throughout the years, that said he's one of my best friends and I can't imagine what you're going through. I'm so sorry Cris, I'm sending so much love to you and your family
I hated hearing "sorry" it didn't help, for me. Grief is overwhelming. Sadness, anger, guilt, confusion and everything in between. I hate this saying but "you do you" we will still be here 💛
My dad died November 12th, 2021. It was expected, he also had cancer (of the bladder, that spread), he was 79 years old. I didn't have the experience that you had that it was sudden, but I get it. I still can't believe it sometimes, the permanent nature of it is so difficult to comprehend. He would have turned 80 on April 1st. Cheers to both our dads!
Just coming here to say that I love you so much, Cristine! I think you’re extraordinary and I hope Ben and the furballs can give you some giggles this week 😼😻
My poppy passed away a month ago. He’d been dying for a long time and it had gotten worse in the last couple months beforehand. I hated it when friends/work colleagues who cared asked me how he was going every couple of days. It made me so mad. Of course he’s not doing well, he’s dying. Then I’d get mad at myself for feeling irrational because obviously they’re only checking in because they care. Our feelings are valid. Anger is normal. All we want is the loved one with us the way they were before and it will never not be shit that that’s not the case anymore. Sending love and shared crankiness at the universe your way and anyone else’s who has felt similar 💛
Hi Cristine, I didn’t know if in Canada, you had anything like Hospice in the states. If so, there are amazing grief counselors out there that may be able to help you through your grieving process. Same goes for private grief counselors as well. Just a social worker trying to help if I can. And if you don’t need that, just as well. Love you & Jen 💗💗💗
I don't know what to say in these situations cause I always wanna take the pain away. But the pain is a natural part of life and grieving in the end. I'm glad you respected your dad's wishes. My parents have the same wishes also, idk what I would do in that situation when it eventually comes hopefully much later in the future. But I hope that in the moment I handle it with the respect and love that you gave him.
I missed this! I lost my mum Feb 2018..6 wks after my wedding...we knew she was terminal and we had 18 months of love and laughs and happiness for the wedding...the pain is a very heavy thing...a physical weight...it some days gets heavier...some days lighter but it will always be there making you feel like a small child that just wants their parent...it is horrible...it's the circle of life but it still fkn sucks...i won't give you sympathy ...it doesn't register at this stage ..so I will give you a high five for getting through the hardest day of your life thus far...kisses from my cats xxxxx
I had to make the same decision for my mom in 2019. It was the hardest thing ever. My mom and I were best friends. We only had each other. She was at a inpatient physical therapy center for post stroke treatment and was supposed to come home on a Saturday. The day before, I got a call at 4am from the center saying her heart had stopped and they brought her back by resuscitation. When we went to see her at the ER, she was on life support. They told us that her heart was stopped more than 3 minutes so her brain didn't get any oxygen so even though all her organs were working properly, her brain was not. She was 65. So I know that pain. It's unbearable. Until this day, not one day, not one minute or second goes by that I don't think of her and miss her. She would've been 67 this year on 11/29 💔 Life will never be the same; BUT, I will do everything I can to make her proud of me. I have a beautiful guardian angel for life! (I just needed to get this out; sorry guys, hope you don't mind).
My deepest condolences to to you I know how u feel I lost my grandpa in 2014 he was like my dad and I still miss him I didn’t really get to grieve his death and losing my pet the same way really breaks my heart so I understand your pain I know u don’t want me to say sorry I understand some of us act of anger as a form of grieving like me just trying to heal from losing a loved one
Sending love your way. You and your family made the compassionate decision for your dad, even though it’s easily one of the most awful decisions anyone could be tasked with. To help with the whatifs, I find looking at the bad what if helps too. Sorry definitely doesn’t bring him back, but know that we all care.
I legit cried. Your dad is an inspiration on how dads should be like. I've never had a father figure in my life and seeing your interactions with him just made me fall in love with him. Wish I had a dad like yours. I'm so so sorry for your loss.
I felt that way too :(.
Same. He is the picture of a perfect dad I think. Lots of love and laughter for his girls.
The way that Andy could tease and laugh at the girls, not in a harming way, he made them have thicker skin. The world is cruel and those girls were driven, intelligent, and loyal. He did a great job with them. Even giving Cristine the jobs at the shop to hone her perfection skills. Dad's can give the best love and protection, but they need to give u doses or realism. U will be swallowed up if they dote on u like a spoiled princess. Education is how u will feed yourself, and Andy taught them to strive for the top.
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The hardest sentence she said "I don't want people's sorrys, I don't want flowers I don't want food to make me feel better. I just want my dad." My heart broke so much.
It broke my heart
I didn't watch all of this, because I'm not in Good place myself at the moment. I felt exactly the same when I lost my dad thirty years ago, and then I lost my mum five years ago.
I feel exactly the same today. I feel silly as a 53 year old just wanting my mum and dad, but I guess we're always their children.
I just want to put my arms around Cristine, and let her cry. I'm so sad for her.
i ugly cried a bit
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My mom had cancer when I was in high school and I remember feeling the exact same way. Thankfully she survived, but I was always so upset when people sent us cards or flowers or food. I didn’t want any of that, I just wanted my mom to not be sick. I really relate to that feeling and it’s such a hard thing to go through.
her dad was so full of enthusiasm and life in her videos that it shocked me when she suddenly announced this. i couldn't believe it.
Ikr.. I found out today. He was so funny. 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺
my deepest condolences, cristine. your dad was such an amazing one, and he definitely made so many of my days. cancer is the absolute worst, i hope your dad rests in peace. thank you for staying so strong, love you xx.
Cristine my heart breaks for you and Jen. Almost a year ago we had to make the same decision for my sister. I was holding her hand when she left us.
I love how Ben is so loving and supportive.
I'm not gonna lie, my heart is hurting for you so hard. I've watched your channel for years and loved watching the videos your dad made an appearance in- I see a lot of him in you and I understand having to deal with something like this so suddenly and so hard.
The biggest part of your stream that got me bawling was Ben- the way he just comes in and genuinely is so soft and caring to you and with you is so special and so rare- I want to give Ben a ton of credit for being such a great emotional support system for you not just during these horrific times like this, but in every high and low you have
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Please consider to comment after you listen to the explanation of Cristine!
I hope more people read this. I read it and waited to comment after, and now I know not to just say sorry or offer condolences. ❤
I think it's ok to comment condolences on this specific video, especially for people who only just heard about it through here... But it's a good reminder for people not to keep posting "sorry about your dad" from this point forward
@@glittery_cucumber totaly agree
I think it would be a good idea for this comment to be pinned
Thank you for sharing your experience with us. Thank you for creating a safe space for grieving. Thank you for creating a space where I could cry with you and experience my own grieving. Thank you ❤❤❤
Thank you for clearing everyone’s tear ducts and sinuses. In all seriousness, thank you for being so raw and honest about your feelings and trusting us that it is a safe space to do so. It’s important to remember that grief looks different for everyone. ❤️
Your dad was a pure delight to watch in your videos. He was so funny and I see the same qualities in you. Love from Finland. ❤️
Crying right along with you. Lost my dad almost three years ago and I probably haven't fully processed it. When you asked Ben for Menchie, I remembered how very soon after my dad died, I was sitting in a friend's house and I couldn't talk at all, just cry. But there were dogs in the house and I just managed to say: I would like to hold a dog. So someone handed me a puppy and I held it on my lap for a while and that helped a lot. Soft furry friends can help a lot so I'm happy you have Menchie and Zyler.
Cristine, I'm so sorry. I'm so glad Ben and your cats have been there for you, I'm sorry for your loss. I'm so sorry you're going through this.
The way ben massaged ur shoulders and was all comforting about you crying :( he's so sweet
I’m so, so very sorry for yours snd your family’s loss. I know how much he meant to you through the your videos so I can’t imagine how much pain you’re going through. He seemed like he was such a joyful man and an inspiration to loads of people. You’re so lucky to have had a dad such as him. Take care, Cristine. You have such a lovely heart. Your dad is so proud I just know it. ❤️
From this entire stream I can tell that simply really misses her dad. I am once again so sorry for your loss.
I am so sad to have missed this news at the time. As soon as I learned of his passing I heard his voice in my head from the videos you did together, or the times he was called to chime in about whatever was happening. He was so funny and Cristine, you are the apple to his tree - so much of him is in you it's impossible to miss. Almost as impossible as this is to believe. How awful for this to happen and how much he will be missed. Love to you, and to Jen, and to your dad, and to everyone touched by his life.
The “they’re in a better place thing” makes me mad. I totally get it, Cristine. I have had someone said that to me in the funeral of my aunt and I just wanted to cry even more. Here you have some more hearts ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ for you and everyone who loved the beautiful man who was and will always be your dad ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Omg my heart is broken for you, we all love you simply 💜 I can’t even imagine what you and your sister are going through. He was so amazing and the funniest dad I’ve ever seen. My husband and I would rewatch all your videos with your dad all the time saying to eachother how awesome he is and how lucky you are to have such an amazing dad. I love you, stay strong and hold your memories close to your heart 💙
My mom died in April. This video makes me feel less alone. Early, sudden death fucking sucks.
I’m so sorry, I know it doesn’t make it better whatever people say and it’s never a good time or something we are prepared for. I lost my dad in May unexpectedly and it’s something you’ll never overcome, you just learn to live with it. Just be near your close ones and talk to them whenever you need, everything will remind you of her bit with time you’ll make new memories and accept it better ❤️
@@agnodyce exactly, you just learn to live with it, but the pain stays the same, if anything its just more bearable.. but it never goes away.
I'm so sorry for your loss. There's nothing that I can say that will make you feel better. Thank you for sharing your father with us. I loved watching you interact with him and the lovely relationship that you guys have. Sending love and hugs and support. ❤️
I cried with you watching this video. I always loved the videos your dad was in. Take all the time you need. My thoughts are with you and your family. ❤️
You're so incredibly brave for making this decision. You did the right thing. Hugs and love to you ❤️
Thanks Ben for being there for Cristine 💕
So much love to you and your family. You and all you have contributed to the community is a blessing and the little bit we got to experience of how your dad showed us how wonderful a father figure can be - so thank you for sharing that with us and for always being so open. You truly are the realest person on the internet and I admire the courage it took to film this and share these difficult feelings with the world. Thank you for all you do. Love to you and your family
Very very sorry for your loss Cristine! I lost my dad to cancer 3 years ago (he was also 63 like yours). For that reason I especially enjoyed the videos you two did together because even me and my dad were not that close like you two were it gave me a feeling of "dad spirit" if you know what I mean with all those jokes that he had and everything. It takes time to heal, and it's not a straightforward process, some days may be harder than others, but you still learn to live with that. I'm happy that you have a great support system, it's very important that you hold each other through this grieving process. Sending you all my love and support!
Lost my dad five years ago this month. UA-cam channels like yours have given me so much peace of mind over the years. Let yourself grieve and do whatever you feel you must. We’ll be here with you every step of the way!
Seeing Christine cry made me cry because I wish she could never experience this...
Thank you so much for sharing your dad with his. I can see where your aloof but determined characteristics come from. He was a gentle, funny, kind, and inspiring man. He was a strong and loving father who raised very beautiful, strong, gentle, but headstrong women. He was and always will be an inspiration for a father figure. I hope you can experience this and know how strong his love is for you, even now. Continue to make him proud and just know he will always be proud of you and Jen ❤️❤️
So sorry to hear, your dad was so funny and you could tell he loved you girls!
Sending you so much love. I’m so sorry for your loss and the heartbreak that you are going through. Thank you for taking the time to share this with your internet family. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Sweetie I am so, so sorry for your loss. Your dad was obviously a very special person. My father is in hospice right now and I know we’ll have to have that conversation soon. Thank you so much for being vulnerable. Much love to your family. 💕
We're all glad you have wonderful Ben there supporting you. Here's hoping that we all have the love and strength of a person like Ben when we need it and can be that person for those we love who need it. I felt sad watching your sadness but getting to see Ben try to help you feel better was really sweet
Cristine, your dad was a gift. True dad material. Thank you for sharing those wonderful moments with him on your channel ❤️.
Just going along with the getting checked. I was having small medical issues and didn't wait to get things checked out. My cancer was found at stage 1 instead of the normal. Stage 3-4 for this type of cancer. So to go along with Cristines plea..... Please, please get things checked out even if they seem small!!!!!!!!!
May I ask what small issues tipped you off? I’m so worried all the time about cancer in my loved ones and in myself.
I’m so sorry for your loss and glad you were able to see your dad a few times before he passed. My dad passed very suddenly last weekend and I hadn’t been able to see him in 2 years because I live abroad. Thankful I got to fly back for the funeral this week and, a little shout out to Holo Taco, thanks to the flakies on my burgundy nails, I accidentally matched my dad’s burgundy & white stripped shirt. A fun surprise and our dads seemed to have a similar sense of humor so that made me smile in the hardest moment of my life. 😊
Thanks for being real & honest and going public with this, when your life has been flipped on its end. You being honest helps people normalize grief and the process, however each of us go through it.
I just want you to know that your dad seemed like a lovely Person and made me laugh and feel good whenever we got to see him❤
I lost both my grandmothers 7 years ago, and while the pain doesn't ever get smaller, you do grow around it. I don't want to be cheesy and say it gets easier, because I don't think it does, but what makes you cry now will eventually make you smile. I hope the pain eases and you're able to see all the things in your daily life that show you that people never truly leave you. no matter how long ago they left their earthly body behind, their impact will be with you forever 💖
I'm sending you so much love ❤️❤️ my dad was about the same age as yours when he passed away under really similar circumstances a few years ago. It's the hardest thing I've ever been through but there will come a time again when you can think of your dad and the wonderful person he was without crying. Ride the grief waves and keep talking about him and how you feel. Grief has no timeline to follow just keep feeling everything that comes up and give yourself time and space to process things ❤️
I also really empathise with what you said about people sending their sorries or checking in with how my dad was before he died. It used to make me so angry which is ridiculous because people are just caring in the way they know how ❤️ didn't stop me feeling that way though!
your father will forever be remembered through you, i’m so happy we got to meet him
It's so heartbreaking and difficult to be so far from a parent like that when they're sick. I live 1000 miles from where my parents were and my mom got diagnosed with cancer in 2015. I got to see her in 2016, but we lost her a few weeks after. I felt so helpless being so far away while she was struggling with it. 😥
My gramma just died this sunday (2 days ago) and mostly bc of covid. She already had problems, obviously bc she was old, she lived in a caring home and we visited her 2/3 times per week and since covid, we weren't allowed to see her and that affected her A LOT. Slowly she began to be more sad, more problems, we discovered she also had cancer,.. she got 3 surgery in 2 weeks at 87 years old... and she made it through all, we never expected she lived the surgeries but she only got worse and we'll it happened.
My point is, covid wasn't the reason she passed byt it sure helped.
My most sincere condolences to you Cristine, your sister and everyone in your family. Stay strong 🤍 Please rest in peace Gramma and Mr. SimplyDad 🤍
Cristine,
I can’t help but cry when I listen to this
I lost my father within weeks after yours passed.
They’re always with us, I hope you know. He can hear everything you say to him and he’s so happy on the other side.
We all love you and hope you’re doing well 🤍
Lost my dad suddenly to a heart attack five years ago. He was only 58. It is a pain that is truly unfathomable to those who haven't experienced it, but know that you are not alone. The grief does eventually get easier to carry and there will come a day when you can think of and talk about your dad without breaking down. The most important thing is to just be kind to yourself throughout the process. Like you said, everyone handles grief differently, and there's no right or wrong way to do it. Thank you for sharing a small part of your dad with us. He seemed like such a beautiful soul
I love watching videos with your dad, whether it's opening fan-mail or he's just roasting your broken nail. xD He's such a genuine character and will be missed greatly. Less than three (
Rewatching this is so heartbreaking... i remember howi felt with both my grandmother and aunt who raised me passing away in a year and then hearing about your father i was just so heartbroken for you ❤️
Honey, know that we support you in both good and bad. Saw "Dad" in the title and thought he would join, which made me happy, because he is such an amazing and hilarious person. I'm sorry to hear of his passing, and I respect you for taking time off focusing on yourself.
During your off time, I've missed your streams and looked for them everyday. So happy that you are back, even during the tragic circumstances ❤
Thank you for sharing your story and talking about it with us. I’m know it was difficult. Cancer is an important subject and not many talk about it. All my condolences.
Thank you so much for sharing this with us. Thank you for letting us get to know your father at all. He brought so much joy to the world and it's so unfair that he had to suffer through so much😞 I know sharing this so publicly probably feels weird and wrong but thank you for letting us mourn him with you and your family.♥️
I completely understand you when you were talking about feeling bad for not wanting sympathy. The biggest loss I have faced was my sister and I was hearing "I'm sorry" multiple times a day. It made everything worse. People were also spending a lot of money on gifts and flowers and I felt horrible for not wanting any of it. I just wanted my sister back and to be left alone. Everyone grieves differently and feels differently about the actions of others during those times. It's okay to feel that way.
I sobbed through this
I lost my dad to cancer back in 2008 when I was 13. The way I move forward is by trying to live my best life. A life my dad would be proud of or what he would have wanted for me. I have hiked up mountains and travelled the world to do things my dad would have loved but never got to do. Your dad is in you, the same as mine is in me. He will always be with you, forever and always
Cristine, your pain is so relatable and even though we (the peely peeps?) don’t know you, we feel you and send you and Jen our love. Keep being you, processing all this stuff on your terms, it’s the best way. And Ben, keep being wonderful. Cristine, when you discover a cloning machine just make a bunch of Bens and sell them to us lolol
we are holosexuals
My Mom died suddenly at 54, Dec 21, 2019. I was 31. I watched emergency personnel work on her, until the doctor told me they did all they could, and said allowing them to stop resuscitation efforts would be ' the humane thing to do'. I relate so much to everything you are saying and feeling. I didn't want any flowers, or cards. I'm also from the GTA, and had moved away to Nashville, so there is a lot of guilt surrounding not being around more prior to coming home for the holidays.
It's very brave of you to be so open about your grief and sharing your story. It's so helpful to people going through this awful experience to feel so not alone in their grief journey.
Now, both my Dad & Grandma are fighting stage 4 lung cancer. Fuck Cancer.
I audibly gasped when I saw your Fb post. I've been watching you for years and loved watching when your Dad was on.
My heart hurts for you
I just came from the Simply Nailogical goodbye video because it was the first mention I heard about your dad. I want to add my voice in thanking you for sharing your dad with us through videos and stories. He is free from suffering and you are not alone in grieving 🫂
We just found out my husband's father has prostate cancer and I'm so grateful they are being really transparent about the diagnosis and the treatment plan. They live in Florida so traveling there wouldn't be safe with covid but now I'm thinking we need to plan a visit
I am sitting here crying along with you..
I never lost a parent but my best friend lost her father when she was 17 and I lived through that with her..
Cristine, your community is thinking of you. We love you.
Take your time and cuddle Menchie and Zyler 💕
So much love for you Cristine ❤ My dad passed away from cancer when I was 13, it was also very sudden and shocking to us. He had only 2 weeks of radiation left and things were fine. Then they weren't. My heart goes out to you and your family ❤❤
My grandfather passed away just last month from a freak accident ... no one would've seen it come ... I feel u becus either didn't grow up with my "donor" my grandpa was my dad ... its so fucking hard everyday every 5 mins remembering during cold times how he would warn me about not getting sick ... love you and hugs ... I'm so sorry for ur loss ...
Sending you love and hugs. Your incredibly strong. We all are crying with you! ❤️
i was crying i'm sorry for your loss you talking about your dad made me remember my grandma that passed from old age i'm so so sorry for your loss
I missed this live, so I'm just finding out on 11/12....but last night at midnight I felt compelled to do my nails. I had 4 colors on my desk, and ended up choosing Missed Shift, which I've had for months and hadn't used it yet. I know my Dad is still 'present', because every time I visit him at the cemetery, there is a bee hanging around. Saw the bee the first time we went with the whole family and I swear it's a sign that he's still watching over me. Me putting Missed Shift on the night before hearing the news is a sign...I loved watching Christine's dad on her videos, and of course I did t know him personally, but signs for lost loved ones are all around us. 💙💜💙💙💜💙💜
Cristine, you may not see this but my heart goes to you and your family. I understand how you feel with the loss of losing someone you love. I lost three important people in my life, one of them being my grandfather. My grandfather was like your dad, with a heart of pure gold and would give his shirt off his back for anyone and could make your day with a smile. He was the father figure of my life and the day he passed it was/still is a very hard time in my life. We both have the same birthdays together and I knew it was never going to be the same after. But I knew in my heart he wanted to go home to people who have gone long beforehand especially his daughter and son, who died so young.I know it will take time for you to go through the grief process, even though at times it will never seem to get better. But it’s okay to cry and break down every once in a while because you are human and it’s okay! I always keep these two quotes from my favorite book series (Harry Potter) & Wizard of Oz and it always keeps me going, “ The one’s who leaves us never really leaves us, you can always find them in here(heart)” “ Oz to the Tin Man: “ That a heart is not judge by how much you love, but by how much you are loved by others.” Keep safe and well and I’ll pray for you and your family 💕
I am so sorry for your loss. Hugs from New York 💙
Just the fact that you came on here to tell all of us shows how strong you are. You didnt need to do that. I lost my mom to cancer and my dad to an infection when i was 25. They were 60 and 59. I know this had to be super hard. I still cant talk about it without crying hysterically after 11 years. It has only been weeks for you poor dear. Im so sorry. Ive been a fan of yours since the nail art tutorial days. Always will be. You are so strong.
No one can replace your first superhero. He sounded like a badass Dad and that he loved you very much. We love you. You made us. We are ur Holo family. AND WE GOT YOU! WE ARE HERE FOR YOU
We appreciate you making this stream, Cristine, and we know that you are physically and mentally strong. I admire everything that you do, and I hope that you and Jen will be able to look back at this and know that you made the right decision. If you know that your dad wouldn't have wanted to go through the struggles post-life support, then you know you chose correctly, even if it hurts right now and even later. Your dad is now looking after you both from a place where he is no longer in pain. I'm so glad that you have Ben and Jen to be there for you and I know that you will be there for Jen as well. He left you both with many happy memories that you both will be able to look back on whenever you think of him. He had fun before he died and you were both big parts of that. Hopefully you can eventually retire and play golf for him one day. Thank you for sharing these memories of him with us, please don't stress out too much about making content, we just want you to be okay. We love you, Jen, Ben, and SimplyDad 💝
💜💙💜💙 Thanks for streaming and chilling with us today!
I am so sorry for your loss. I can not imagine how hard this has been for you all.
I remember waiting for my grandmother to get better and get out of the hospital, and that never ending up happening. It's a hard awakening...
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My grandpa passed away in May. It still hurts. Processing death is hard as heck but we have to keep our heads up. Our hearts are with you Simply 💜
I lost my mother in a similar fashion, so this hit extra hard for me. I am happy to see that you have ben with you. hope you feel okay soon 👍
❤️ when I was 18 I had to make the decision to take my dad off life support. He had a major heart attack and went into cardiac arrest 4 times . His ribs and lungs were collapsing and he was going brain dead. He wasn’t remarried and I was next of kin so I had to make the decision at only 18 and a senior in high school . My mom and family helped me get through that day . My dad is no longer struggling and is a much better place . He never got to see me graduate, walk me down the aisle, and now won’t get to meet his future granddaughter that I’m due with this coming July , but I know he’s watching over me ❤️ wishing you love and peace
Awe , this gives me a huge lump in my throat . I lost my dad suddenly in 2019 . I feel your pain 😞💔 . I Love you ♡♡♡♡
Losing people we love sucks. Just know that whatever you feel is ok, no matter if you want to cry, laugh, be social, be alone, all of it is perfectly ok. Grief is unfortunately part of living and every person deals with it in a different way. There is no right or wrong way. Take all the time you need to deal with it all. You are loved, hugs.
Sorry for your loss - take your time!!! We have had this 15years ago with my newborn son. They put you to "sleep" with sedation for letting your body get better or as you said no to be in pain or whatever. My son war in the ICU 3 times, all were life threating, each stay way a few weeks on life support.... It was hell, but he made it! =) Your Dad is now your guardian angel (just my believe, not religious or sth liek that) and he will take care of you and your family - or he is rocking like hell in heaven and party all time =)) love from germany, Andrea
I was anxious about watching this, having seen your post on IG, as my gran died two weeks ago as well, but this felt like having someone to grieve and cry with ❤️
My sincere condolences Cristine. Cancer took my aunt a few years ago, took my father in law last year and we found out a month ago my mother in law might have stage four cancer. Still waiting on results.
my dad and I have had a.. complicated relationship throughout the years, that said he's one of my best friends and I can't imagine what you're going through. I'm so sorry Cris, I'm sending so much love to you and your family
Oh dear Cristine. I am sorry dear. My condolences to you.
I hated hearing "sorry" it didn't help, for me. Grief is overwhelming. Sadness, anger, guilt, confusion and everything in between. I hate this saying but "you do you" we will still be here 💛
Hearts, lots of hearts and hugs. ❤❤❤❤❤
Hugs to you.. grief is hard. Love also equals to pain ❤️
My dad died November 12th, 2021. It was expected, he also had cancer (of the bladder, that spread), he was 79 years old. I didn't have the experience that you had that it was sudden, but I get it. I still can't believe it sometimes, the permanent nature of it is so difficult to comprehend. He would have turned 80 on April 1st. Cheers to both our dads!
Just coming here to say that I love you so much, Cristine! I think you’re extraordinary and I hope Ben and the furballs can give you some giggles this week 😼😻
I’m so sorry for you and your family’s loss xxx
My poppy passed away a month ago. He’d been dying for a long time and it had gotten worse in the last couple months beforehand. I hated it when friends/work colleagues who cared asked me how he was going every couple of days. It made me so mad. Of course he’s not doing well, he’s dying. Then I’d get mad at myself for feeling irrational because obviously they’re only checking in because they care. Our feelings are valid. Anger is normal. All we want is the loved one with us the way they were before and it will never not be shit that that’s not the case anymore. Sending love and shared crankiness at the universe your way and anyone else’s who has felt similar 💛
It must be difficult for you, so please take your time to recover! We will always be by your side. Stay strong! 💪❤
Hi Cristine, I didn’t know if in Canada, you had anything like Hospice in the states. If so, there are amazing grief counselors out there that may be able to help you through your grieving process. Same goes for private grief counselors as well.
Just a social worker trying to help if I can. And if you don’t need that, just as well. Love you & Jen 💗💗💗
Ben is literally the best. Pls keep eachother❤
Fuck cancer, fuck covid, fuck flowers, fuck them all. Cris and rest of the family, sending hearts to yall💜💜💜
I don't know what to say in these situations cause I always wanna take the pain away. But the pain is a natural part of life and grieving in the end. I'm glad you respected your dad's wishes. My parents have the same wishes also, idk what I would do in that situation when it eventually comes hopefully much later in the future. But I hope that in the moment I handle it with the respect and love that you gave him.
I missed this! I lost my mum Feb 2018..6 wks after my wedding...we knew she was terminal and we had 18 months of love and laughs and happiness for the wedding...the pain is a very heavy thing...a physical weight...it some days gets heavier...some days lighter but it will always be there making you feel like a small child that just wants their parent...it is horrible...it's the circle of life but it still fkn sucks...i won't give you sympathy ...it doesn't register at this stage ..so I will give you a high five for getting through the hardest day of your life thus far...kisses from my cats xxxxx
We lost my hubby's dad to cancer 5 years ago. Sending the biggest hugs.
I wanna give you a huge hug!! My heart goes out to you and your sister 💗
Moving on to happier things! I was sooo happy Frozen Benanas was still in stock because I was able to buy another one!
To get more holo, I put Frozen Benanas over Rainbow Snow and it pops so amazing!!
I am nervously about to listen to this. My mom passed away 2 months ago and I know cristine is really gonna make me feel it
I had to make the same decision for my mom in 2019. It was the hardest thing ever. My mom and I were best friends. We only had each other. She was at a inpatient physical therapy center for post stroke treatment and was supposed to come home on a Saturday. The day before, I got a call at 4am from the center saying her heart had stopped and they brought her back by resuscitation. When we went to see her at the ER, she was on life support. They told us that her heart was stopped more than 3 minutes so her brain didn't get any oxygen so even though all her organs were working properly, her brain was not. She was 65. So I know that pain. It's unbearable. Until this day, not one day, not one minute or second goes by that I don't think of her and miss her. She would've been 67 this year on 11/29 💔 Life will never be the same; BUT, I will do everything I can to make her proud of me. I have a beautiful guardian angel for life! (I just needed to get this out; sorry guys, hope you don't mind).
My deepest condolences to to you I know how u feel I lost my grandpa in 2014 he was like my dad and I still miss him I didn’t really get to grieve his death and losing my pet the same way really breaks my heart so I understand your pain I know u don’t want me to say sorry I understand some of us act of anger as a form of grieving like me just trying to heal from losing a loved one
I reeeeeally want a red/orange/yellow sunset-like multichrome
IDK why but seeing cry also made me cry !! U r truly amazing Cristine with no 'H'
Sending love your way. You and your family made the compassionate decision for your dad, even though it’s easily one of the most awful decisions anyone could be tasked with. To help with the whatifs, I find looking at the bad what if helps too. Sorry definitely doesn’t bring him back, but know that we all care.