I'm 52, and a gay male. I grew up in the Wesleyan Methodist Church, and also had a lot of personal contact with the Pentecostal and Charismatic churches, in my youth. Even now, I feel scared of sex, and very uncertain in the way to move forward. I have been essentially single, my entire life. I have a lot of buried anger....😢
I can confirm Meg's comment about the affect of suppressing one's sexuality. I did this for over twenty years until my body started to rebel, I won't give details here, but you can imagine. Even then, dealing with the guilt of how my body was rebelling, it took a few more years before I understood what was happening. Now that I am out, I try to listen to what my body is telling me.
Edit: Thank you Susie for being vulnerable about how you look at yourself in the mirror (bc same). You are both the optimal gays as you are, don't sell yourselves short ❤🌈 Love the questions you guys asked this episode, this is one I will have to rewatch in order to remind myself how much work it takes to undo shame. I'm currently reading "Beyond Shame" and I would say that I recommend it but I'm not finished yet lol. On embodiment: I was taught that a way to help make your body feel embodied is to sit with and describe the emotions and physiological response in order to help determine what it's trying to say. Unfortunately my lived experience aligns with what Meg said when speaking about chronic/autoimmune illnesses, and I am trying to work through those. I hope it's okay to post a link to a video/podcast that I think supplements this conversation well ua-cam.com/video/EiOhUkt92HI/v-deo.html&ab_channel=ForrestHanson . I actually joined a purity group because of one of the season 1 podcast episodes 🙈 I'm pretty sure it was supposed to inspire the opposite but I wanted to better understand what purity culture is actually like since I was lucky enough not to grow up in it. The facilitator thought I was 'wise' for essentially not knowing how to flirt with anyone 😂 Do not recommend following suit.
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I'm 52, and a gay male. I grew up in the Wesleyan Methodist Church, and also had a lot of personal contact with the Pentecostal and Charismatic churches, in my youth.
Even now, I feel scared of sex, and very uncertain in the way to move forward.
I have been essentially single, my entire life.
I have a lot of buried anger....😢
I can confirm Meg's comment about the affect of suppressing one's sexuality. I did this for over twenty years until my body started to rebel, I won't give details here, but you can imagine. Even then, dealing with the guilt of how my body was rebelling, it took a few more years before I understood what was happening. Now that I am out, I try to listen to what my body is telling me.
Loved this thank you all so much ❤
All right! I needed this more than I knew. 🌈
Love your glasses Susie and another great podcast!!
oooo this is very relevant! and love her accent 😋 Making me miss home
Awwww thanks. I love all of your accents! Someday we'll come visit ;)
@@ITriedToBeStraight i'll visit you first! 😁
Wow Meg what an incredible person ❤️
Yep...
I developed Fibromyalgia at age 45.
Edit: Thank you Susie for being vulnerable about how you look at yourself in the mirror (bc same). You are both the optimal gays as you are, don't sell yourselves short ❤🌈 Love the questions you guys asked this episode, this is one I will have to rewatch in order to remind myself how much work it takes to undo shame. I'm currently reading "Beyond Shame" and I would say that I recommend it but I'm not finished yet lol.
On embodiment: I was taught that a way to help make your body feel embodied is to sit with and describe the emotions and physiological response in order to help determine what it's trying to say. Unfortunately my lived experience aligns with what Meg said when speaking about chronic/autoimmune illnesses, and I am trying to work through those. I hope it's okay to post a link to a video/podcast that I think supplements this conversation well ua-cam.com/video/EiOhUkt92HI/v-deo.html&ab_channel=ForrestHanson .
I actually joined a purity group because of one of the season 1 podcast episodes 🙈 I'm pretty sure it was supposed to inspire the opposite but I wanted to better understand what purity culture is actually like since I was lucky enough not to grow up in it. The facilitator thought I was 'wise' for essentially not knowing how to flirt with anyone 😂 Do not recommend following suit.