I’m a dietitian that specialized in disordered eating. Orthorexia is SO hard; people don’t understand that it’s serious... it’s seen to others as being “super healthy” and society applauds that, making it hard for people to even identify it as an issue within themselves.
My mom once saw an old acquaintance who has lost a ton of weight and my mom asked her if she was doing okay because she looked sickly. She was sooo grateful that my mom asked her how she was doing. She was struggling with cancer and everyone else was just telling her how good she looked when she was basically dying. That's how obsessed our culture is about weight. It's disgusting.
@@teaandkitties8119 Ya! it was awful. I saw a UA-camr who was talking about her ED that said the same thing. She was literally dying and her body was shutting down and she said everyone would still tell her how jealous they were of her body and how good she looked because they didn't know! I lost some weight last year from being healthy and some people commented on it but one lady who hadn't seen me in a while just said "You looks so bright and energetic!" and I thought that was such a better way to comment on it instead of saying "you look skinnier" or "you lost weight!"
@new0news, that’s awful! I have been so much more mindful on how and when I compliment people; never on appearances or weight... now I comment “you look so happy” or “you’re glowing”. It’s so dangerous to comment and praise people on a change in weight or eating habits. Food is fuel, a calorie is a unit of energy, and weight is gravitational pull.... basically just physics so I don’t understand why it’s forced down our throats that these things matter so much rather than just treating your body well!
Question. Is it common for people who are binge eaters to turn to othorexia? Not sure if i did but i did give myself guidelines on no junk food in the house just to pump the brakes on binging. Now just eating a varied diet and try to have some guidelines but nowhere near the hard and fast rules i had for a while
I had this too, it was so exhausting. It started with anorexia, then it transitioned into orthorexia, which I thought was me being healthy, but it was really just another form of controlling food. Then eventually I snapped and fell into a binge eating disorder because I was so tired of restriction. Thankfully I’m doing much better now, I’m so glad you are too. You’re definitely not alone in this.
I had the same exact path. Still struggling with body image but I'm working on body neutrality and avoiding diet culture. I'm so glad I'm not dealing with an eating disorder taking over every second
I’m still struggling to get over the binge eating after years of starving and purging, my body constantly feels starving regardless of how much I eat 🥲
Let's take a minute to appreciate Irene bringing light to other forms of eating disorders (and eating disorders in general) because talking about them needs to be more normalized👏👏👏
@@MOVIEHORIZON so true! I am 49 and had an eating disorder back in high school-I was obsessed! Looking back it was me trying to have some control while living in a very dysfunctional family environment. I still literally know the calories in just about every food.
The second you said "I had this app" I knew exactly where you were going. Thanks for sharing-orthorexia is something I've struggled with and continue to struggle with depending on my life circumstance. It's so invisible and so often praised, especially if you're in an average bod like yours or a larger body like mine. It actually sounds like your time in DC was similar to the first stage of intuitive eating. It's kind of awesome that you took yourself through the process even without the label.
The story you told about the kid who called you “the pudgy one” is so important. So many people, especially kids, think it’s cool to be carelessly “honest” talking about weight and appearance. If they just knew how long those little things stick with people- how little girls will go home and learn to stave themselves thinking about those stupid comments- I don’t think they’d be half as cruel.
We were joking with a kid in 8th grade about how much weight he could lift and a guy said to me ‘you sure can lift a doughnut’ that has stuck with me for the past 15 years and to this day feel SO uncomfortable eating doughnuts. I also had a major crush on this kid for the NEXT FIVE YEARS. Which is also a whole other issue to unpack about wanting someone who was so horrible to me. Anyways, it’s amazing how a comment from a 13 year old still breaks me down all these years later!
I can remember my high school boyfriend poking my stomach and saying I was pudgy. He was a rail. It sticks with you. I think I was a size 7, maybe 130 pounds when I was with him and an active swimmer in high school. It’s ridiculous
In school we had uniforms, but occasionally we would have a free dress or a jeans/denim day. I remember having a jeans day and getting the offhand comment from this one kid along the lines of 'skinny jeans are for skinny people, you should toss those' when I came and sat at our shared art table with my best friend at the time. I was probably around a size 8/10 so fairly average I'd say, but next to her at a size 00, there seemed a much bigger difference. Both at the time and now it didn't ever really *seriously* bother me or fuel any negative feelings towards my body or any ED tendencies, I was just kinda like 'oh ok so you're really THAT flavor of asshole cool got it' and went about my class, but it did definitely stick with me since 10 years later I still think of that comment often when I where a pair of jeans. So even if it doesn't end up causing serious immediate repercussions like ED or mental/body image damage, it will at the very least still stick with the person forever as 'this really shitty thing to say to a person'. You just don't want to be that person lol, so be careful with those kind of backhanded comments.
After my middle school graduation, there was a a table with food with parent volunteers serving the food, stuff like cookies and sandwiches and other snacks, and I was waiting in line to get served. One of my classmates' little brother came up to me and said "Quítate de en medio, gorda" ("Get out of the way, fat girl" in spanish) to me and all I could do is stare at him for a few seconds and walk away (without food). Before that day, I was confident wearing anything, shorts, no sleeves, bikinis, etc... And all because this cruel kid called me fat I started to wear more and more layers of clothing, long sleeves, I started to look up weight loss tips and I even went on pro-anorexia forums and websites. I don't think I had ever been called fat before. Looking back at the pictures, I wasn't fat at all. I had a different body shape than most of the girls in my class, who were all naturally tiny or very athletic, except for one other girl who was "the fat girl" in the class. I developed earlier than most of them and I also was taller than most of them but stopped growing around that time and ended up at 5'5, pretty average. It seems crazy to me that I'm 23 and I still remember that moment so clearly, and it's stuck with me for so long. I developed an eating disorder after than and I am still recovering.
@@ohitsmegan4504 wow. Wowww. I just wanted to comment that this made me feel so seen. I have a story literally -pretty much, from what you said- exactly the same. Not that the details matter, but I think it’s kinda interesting because I was also around the same size as you, and a swimmer. Anyways, if you do see this, even though it’s a year late lol, I hope you’re doing great - and I just wanted to say same. Same. Some boyfriends suck dude
“I am a happy, healthy, 5’7, size 6.” I can’t tell you how badly I needed to hear that. I was always really thin and active growing up, but now that I’m an adult with a crazy work schedule, not a lot of time to work out, and a lover of food, I’ve been gaining a little weight. I don’t have rock hard abs anymore, I don’t fit into old jeans that I got in like 8th grade anymore, and I’ve been feeling really self conscious about my body lately. But I think that I just need to accept that I’m not a 14 year old, 5’7, size 2 kid anymore, and now I am also a happy, healthy, 5’7, size 6 woman who is still allowed to enjoy sushi, pizza, and tacos ❤️
I’ve been accepting this too recently! I need to stop holding my standards to my teen self, it’s not natural for me to look like that anymore. I was always very skinny, but the last few years started filling out, mostly on my bottom half and hated it at first. I’m also a 6 and learning to love my wider hips, round booty and chunky thighs, cellulite and all
I remember the Berenstain Bears book on being healthy and that being able to “pinch more than an inch” means you’re over weight. It still haunts me. Super unhealthy to tell kids that
That's also scary because it doesn't mean much for people that are taller or proportionally larger than someone else. Like I'm somewhat tall, underweight, and I can pinch more than an inch. Big deal. Lots of "health hacks" are not a one size fits all sort of thing. Always talk to a professional if you're concerned about your health.
I remember reading that book, too. The general message wasn’t that bad- mostly just get a balanced diet. But that part has stuck with me through the years. While recovering from my Binge Eating Disorder, I’ve had a lot of moments where I look at myself and think that my body is gross because I can pinch more than an inch in some places. Horrible.
Thank you so much, Irene. I am a 55 year old disabled woman who is dealing with excruciating amounts of anxiety due to some bad family issues. I have spent the whole day in tears, feeling the anxiety eating me alive. I finally sat down and turned on your video. Some how, in my woundedness, I felt like you would understand me. I calmed and watched the whole thing and was able to breathe normally for 28 minutes. This means more than you'll ever know. I hope you see this comment. We all need someone to tell us we're doing this life thing right. You are loved.
I’m 42 and 5’7. I was recently in a very traumatic situation. I gained 50 lbs. I needed to hear this video so bad I’m in tears. THANK YOU 🙏 I’ll chill now with obsessing and just live life. Watch my portions and make better choices.
UGH IRENE. I still remember a comment a boy made on my bus in 5th grade about how my thighs jiggled and I struggle with food still. Thank you for opening up about this. Also, side note, I had a book with all of the AKC dog breeds that I read REGULARLY. I was OBSESSED. Edited to add: the control thing is so real. When this quarantine started I opened up to my mom that I was really struggling with disordered eating thoughts, and she mentioned that the shutdown might be a huge trigger because you can't control anything happening. It helped me fight those thoughts because I understood my food issues were a reaction to the world around me crumbling.
I think your edit is really important and wise. I’ve long thought that someone’s ability to be really self aware can help with keeping themself in check (and that goes for a lot of things, not just eating). That doesn’t mean there isn’t still work to do to curb bad habits or disordered thinking, but I think it can help limit the spiral.
I still remember a boy in my 6th grade class told me my WRISTS are big and I’ll never forget it. Cause my fingers didn’t touch when you wrapped them around my wrist
One time a guy I absolutely would like to punch in the face told me I was “a bit chubby” and that I “look like Fiona from shrek half way into her transformation” and this boy looked like lord faurkwad he had no place to tell me anything I’d love to murder him rn
Irene you are amazing. Speaking from someone who struggled with an ED around the same age it’s not something that people speak about a lot. It’s something that we get told is shameful and something to be embarrassed about. So thank you for speaking up. You’re definitely right we all have a wake up call and I thank one of my best friends for being mine. Sitting at lunch in the cafeteria not eating because I just “wasn’t hungry” day after day she finally called me out on my BS and literally bought me food and sat and made sure I ate something because she could see that I was hungry. She even sat with me as I talked to our school counselor about it because I didn’t know how to handle it. I thank God for her every day 💜 Love you Rene!
My mom had Orthorexia while I was younger. The difference was she was overweight and did lose a lot of weight, so was heavily praised for the changes her eating disorder brought about. and unfortunately I, her daughter, was around 8 or 9 when it began and had to grow up into teenage-hood with her influence - she basically tried to convince and raise me to inherit her same outlook on food. Didn’t help that i’m overweight, just as she was. Definitely something that heavily affects both the sufferer and their family in unfortunate ways. you’re so strong though for coming out of it with clarity on the other side 💕 Also, it’s funny, but I’m fully familiar with all of the products you mentioned - PB2 and Ezekiel Bread - because i’d eat them as a kid. my mom was also obsessed with cream of wheat and oatmeal and my fitness pal. she made me use my fitness pal 🥴
Ok, well, I think I've just had a whole self revelation. I've been doing this for well over a decade. I had never heard of this as a disorder before, so thank you for talking about it.
Irene Walton oh, great! I’ll have to check out your patreon :) & thanks for sharing your experience btw...good you are in a positive enough place to share in such a lighthearted/comedic way. That ice water shake comment was hilarious😂
So in my skills for living class in 8th grade we had a “healthy eating” unit and we actually had to track what we ate on my fitness pal AND sheet of paper we had to turn in. I can not believe it took a year to realize how f’d up that is
That teacher probably would have told my mom and my mom probably would have got mad. Dragon the 7th and 8th grade I probably had a cup of coffee or an orange juice to last me
Same situation for my 8th grade health class. 12 years later and that class still messes with me and my obsession with eating healthy. I look at every label sub consciously. I haven’t ate fast food since, and no dairy. Etc
I think it's great that you're sharing your story, from what I've seen online most videos about eating disorders are about overcoming anorexia(which is completely valid, and I'm not saying it isn't) but I think that it's good to talk about other eating disorders that people can have. Love you Rene💜
I definitely had body dismorphia at a high schooler. I was 5’7-8 and 135 lbs and bfs and friend would talk about how skinny I was and I just thought they were trying butter me up. Its definitely real and as a young girl your mind is so fragile. Love your story Irene!
never heard of orthorexia, but i’m so unbelievably glad you’re talking about this!! i’ve had an ed for 6 years, and it is consuming. i’m a senior in high school that can’t eat without thinking about what’s going in my mouth. i would starve myself for days at a time and limit everything. (thanks to my mom lmao now my brothers and dad too lol) i’m glad to say tho that i’m working on it! anyways, enough about me, i’m hella proud of you for talking about this!! 💕
Ugh that sucks that your family is encouraging your ED, but I'm proud of you for working on it! And hopefully youll be able to remove yourself from the toxic situation sometime soon if thats something you need ♡
Hey Irene I’m currently a pre med student and a psych minor. Throughout my college career never once have I heard of orthorexia, thank you for shedding some light on this. I myself also have struggled with eating disorders, hurtful words usually always stick with people unfortunately. I appreciate this! You’re amazing.
the part about "there are some foods that are good for the body, and there are some that are good for the soul. I'm never not going to eat a piece of cake at someone that I love's birthday," this video really resonated with me, and I love the way you told it
Thank you for talking about EDs. Many people steer away from talking about "uncomfortable conversations." My ED was anorexia that started at 13-19ish. Now, I have been in recovery for 3 years! Thanks for spreading awareness on Orthorexia, my sister had that, and it's not talked about as often as others.
I started out watching this video ready to sympathize with what you went through but after all 28 minutes were done I was crying and feeling pure empathy. I had never heard of this ED but hearing about it is making me realize that my recovery from past EDs has just led me to stumble down another, unhealthy, path. Although this is tough to hear, I'm incredibly happy I clicked on this video. Thank you Irene
I learned about orthorexia recently because one of my best friends was diagnosed with it. I really appreciate this video and how you are bringing awareness to this harmful eating disorder. Wishing you have all of the love and happiness you truly deserve. You are so strong!!
I battled an eating disorder throughout high school, and at the time I thought it was just bulimia. Now hearing your story, I’m realizing it was so much more than that. From setting reminders on my phone to stop eating at a certain time to not eating before a 2.5 hour practice, and now realizing that avoiding food groups all together was a major part of that. Being all-consumed by calories and daily values DEVALUED my self worth. Thank you so much for sharing and bringing light to this subject.
Thank you for sharing your story, I’m starting to realize that this may be something my dad could be suffering from. I grew up on eggs and brown bread, he restricted our diets as children and till this day goes on about how bad food poisons your body. Thank you so much for spreading awareness, your doing a good thing!
Be gentle with yourself, Miranda!! Listen to your body and your mind. Don't compare yourself on instagram. Don't worry too much. Look up some resources like the ones i listed here and more!! ❤️ Love you! You're great!
Irene Walton now I’m crying hahaha, not bad tears, but relief tears. I’ve put on a little extra weight for the first time in my life after getting in an accident which resulted in me shattering my tibia a year ago. I struggled with being and feeling underweight for a very long time, and was a very active dancer... now that my ability to be active has shifted, I am putting on weight and it’s become overwhelming.
This is so relatable. This is how I have been exactly for the past 6 years. And it’s my entire life. I never knew this was actually a thing. Everyone always thinks I’m so crazy but I just thought they made bad food choices. Thank you for making this video. I’m going to bring this up to my therapist today. I think you’re going to reach so many people with this story because you just really hit a tough spot for me and I have been so unaware just trying to have this “perfect” body for so many years. I get to the point where I’m like well what is the point. Thanks for sharing your story. This video needs to be available to every school, girl, woman, man, instagram model, etc. you’re incredible. Thank you, you might have just changed my life with this story. And you probably didn’t know filming this but I think you may have just changed a lot of people’s lives with this video ❤️
Tumblr is a garbage ass toxic website anyways so it’s a good thing that you’re not allowed to use it anymore. The last time I had ever used tumblr was when I was 15 years old
'I had this app' is it myfitnesspal 'if you've been through this you know' oh its gotta be myfitnesspal 'it's my fitmesspal' OMG . . On a sad note I literally lived my life based off of that 5 week prediction thing it was so sad. I was at Disneyland and I was counting calories and focused on burning calories it was so sad
Myfitness pal is only toxic if you struggle with obsessing over the numbers its helped a lot of people who binge or undereat, but I can def see why some would struggle when they have an ED or potentially develop one if they cant stop themselves. Just like anything too much can be harmful ♡ I do hope you've healed since and I hope you're in a healthier mind set now ♡
Irene, thank you so much for telling your story. I had anorexia for a long time and haven’t really coped with the trauma that came with it and hearing your story helps me understand mine. It’s so hard for me because (I’m in high school) all my friends are double zeros and are so tiny and I’m 5’0 and a size 6 and a little busty. It’s hard for me to not compare myself because they are so tiny and guys like tiny. I am healthy and workout and eat right now but not excessively anymore which is great for my health. I really love you so much and think you’re so brave for telling this story and making yourself vulnerable for others to share with us. It really means the world to me. I love you so much more than you will ever know.
It's gonna take time, and love and, being kind to yourself. Thank you so much for sharing your story ❤️ It's gonna be so great sooner than you even think. Love you mama!
this is extremely brave and thank you for opening up. i’m writing this comment as i watch and i’m already relating so much to this story. thank you for speaking up about this 🤍
I had never heard of this until recently. I’ve went through every eating disorder in my life. Always had issues with food & my body image. I’m in my thirties now & still struggle with it. It’s actually gotten worse since I’ve become a mom. The hard part is I love food & cooking but at the same time it’s my enemy. Thanks for talking about this.
Food isn't your enemy, the society that had made is believe that for so long is the enemy. Like you said, you love food and cooking and that is an incredible gift! Food is life; it fuels our mind, body and souls! I hope you feel free to cook with love and joy ❤️❤️
I feel like you are wise beyond your years and I’m sure you’ve heard this before. Saying you thought you were losing weight. You weren’t. You thought you were being healthy. You weren’t. I recognize that cutting that idea off immediately is most beneficial to viewers who may be vulnerable to the same disorder or lifestyle. And having a piece of birthday cake to celebrate someone you love... YES!
This is really powerful and will help someone so much! My daughter struggles with Diabulimia and you sharing this made her feel less alone even though it's not the same disorder she still felt something when we watched it together and opened up the conversation. Thank you Irene for that. You truly are a beacon of light 🥰♥️😁 Side note: Speaking of light, can I just say how stunning the light reflecting onto Irene's shirt is? I mean CoMe ThRu LiGhT!
Wow. My heart is so big and warm because of this comment. Thank you so much for sharing!! Best of luck to you and your little lady. You'll be able to do it together ❤️ Especially having a mama like you!
Irene you replying to this just made her life! She's been watching you from the very first upload 👏🏼 she loves how wonderful of a friend you are to the people in your life and she wishes she had someone like you in hers. She has had the roughest year of her life this year (had to fight for her life as she had to be put in a coma for a month and we actually lost her twice) it's a miracle she's even here still. Your videos give her an escape from all the crap she is going through. And I thank you for that so much! She says that she is looking forward to watching you and your channel grow!
Wow... I can relate to your story SO MUCH which is kind of sad how society is like this but it's great to know that I'm not the only one struggling with this obsession over healthy food. I'm so glad you've gotten better and I too still struggle with this today but it has gotten so much better. Cheering on both of us! :)
I just love her:) Not since Jenna Marbles can I enjoy someone's personality so much. Irene, please keep doing you. BTW, I also had an eating disorder abt. 23 years ago (I'm 39) and the idea of bad and good foods still gets to me. Then I need to remind myself that I know better now. Thanks for sharing your story.
I’ve never actually watched you outside of Gabbie’s podcast but you are spectacular. Very articulate and polite. Also, I really appreciate how you disclaimed not being a health professional. In my teenage years I developed a very serious eating disorder, by taking advice from people who have no clue what they’re doing lmao. So happy you’re healthy now❤️ hope you heal more everyday❤️❤️❤️
I am so proud of you Irene, for having the strength and the courage to tell us about your struggles with Orthorexia. I truly admire it and I'm willing to support you every step of the way.
Thank you for sharing your story... I don’t think anyone knows how deep you’ve gone when you’re still down that rabbit hole... its a dark place to be. For me it was bulimia and I don’t share that much. What is it about teen years that messes with how we view ourselves!? But... yay for dark chocolate star cookies for helping you move forward 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻 and you look gorgeous fyi so keep doing you ❤️
My mom has this even though she has never been diagnosed with it. She only goes to doctors who feed her obsession with "healthy food" and every week she does a "fast" where she doesn't eat any calories, so she just has these zero calories pastes that have almond or something like that and water. She has been eating this way for about 10 years since my brother was born and because it has been so long, I kinda stopped worrying. Seeing this really opened my eyes and I think I'm going to try to get my mom some help for her orthorexia, thank you sm for this video.
I've been struggling with Anorexia and Bullimia for about 10 years now and I'm 23, and hearing your experience about Orthorexia aswell is really inspiring. Its just nice to see another person in recovery
This is so inspiring. I dont have an earing disorder but seeing you overcome makes me hopeful I can overcome mental health struggles. Thank you for being so authentic and unapologetically you ❤
I think that’s what most ppl get wrong about “dieting”. It’s not about what you eat or how much you eat. It’s calories, calories, calories! You’re gonna gain weight if you consume more calories regardless of what it is. Just because it’s healthy doesn’t mean it’s gonna make you lose weight just like something unhealthy might not necessarily make you gain weight. Just watch your cals folks. And with this, I don’t mean counting so strictly that it’s consuming your life, just make sure you’re not eating an excessive amount. If you want to have a treat, have it, just don’t overindulge. Usually diets that focus on cutting out all junk food are the ones people fall off of almost immediately! Great video! Love you Irene:)
thank you so much for speaking about this. i think there is such a stigma about eating disorders because obviously no one wants to have / have had one. but it’s so helpful to hear stories like this. i always felt like i was alone and no one was feeling what i was feeling. also thank you for being so cautious with your words and including helpful sources :)
People in the comments will probably get mad that there wasn't a trigger warning, but if you read the title I feel like it should be obvious what you're going to talk about. Anyway, thank you so much for sharing your story with us, Irene. Love ya! ❤
Love how it almost came off like "I've dabbled in dark magic" while youre talking about dark chocolate... Also i was today years old when i found out i had this a few years ago.
Never heard of this until today. Have a person in my life that I can totally see as possibly having this very thing. Thank you for sharing your life with us 😁👍🥰
This is good to know about. I have a friend who was anorexic, and she overcame that, but is now neurotically obsessive of what she eats. I've always felt that it was kind of "anorexia lite", but now I am beginning to think that maybe she just traded anorexia for orthorexia.
i think a lot of people can cycle through or change eating disorders ik a lot of people who start out anorexic, binge once, then become bulimic or recovery from anorexia can end up with u binging & gaining cuz ur sooo hungry & then having a different one (don't freak out if u have anorexia & read this, it's usually refeeding syndrome & if u recover correctly with a dietician & nutritionist you'll be fine) i go through different ones fast so I basically have ednos, im in a binging stage from losing a lot of weight in 6 months
I was anorexic and very sick then gained 70 lbs in two years because I had starved my body for so long I just went off the rails. I’ve lost 11 pounds since gaining all that weight and trying to become healthy for once lol. But ur so right
there’s this lyric that i really like and it’s *“but just because you know you’re color blind doesn’t mean you can see the colors”* the singer was talking about how she knew she was obsessed but she still couldn’t stop...
Thank you so much for sharing your experience. I found myself teetering on the brink of orthorexia the past year and listening to your story gave me such comfort.
It's a good app for helping but it can be easily obsessed over if you struggle with obsessing on the numbers etc. Def has been very helpful for myself and a LOTTTT of other people who struggle with keeping a normal amount of calories, I was eating either 500 or about 3000 a day, (: always be careful with that stuff ♡ you're also gorgeous and amazing no matter your size and i hope you've healed since! ♡
Holy crap! Just came to the realization that that was me! I went through that in my early to mid 20's, after a breakup, and thought I was just being healthy. Looking back, I was obsessed. Had to go to the gym for 2 hours everyday, no meat or dairy, counting calories obsessively (used that same app), counting steps, lost a lot of weight. I never thought of it as an eating disorder, but it was! It's insane that it's just now dawning on me. Thank you so much for posting about this and your "journey" through it.
I had this for 6 years and also had no clue it was a disorder until a year ago. Although my body reacted to it differently than it did for you, I’ve been doing much better mentally and my blood test shows my body and nutrition is way healthier now than when I was super obsessed with food! I’m so glad you’re also out of this. But you’re right it’s still always in the back of my mind.
the little “haaAveeeE summmm ice cream” song you sang made me LOL you are such a joy! thank you for sharing your story and also giving hope and smiles to people who struggle!
Thank you for sharing! I feel like more people should talk about it, cuz whoever went through it never thought it was a disorder, and that it was just being healthy. I went through the same thing when I was in high school. It was... terrible. So mentally exhausting.
Thank you for spreading awareness, Irene. My mom struggled with this years ago and she had trouble stopping because, like you said, she thought she was being healthy. You are an angel ❤
I feel you! Been 6’ since about 10th grade and my best friend was a full foot shorter than me. I was the Amazon girl, the Tower, Jolly Green Giant, Brookaliath etc. I decided to own the amazon title because they’re strong independent women but it was such a struggle becoming comfortable with my body and standing tall! Look at us now ❤️
It’s funny because as someone extremely petite (4’10) I felt that way also and continue to be a little jealous of taller girls, especially because it’s easier to put on weight when you’re smaller which fed into my eating disorder
I got tall quicker than my classmates and got curves before others and I had a couple people call me “the big girl” of my group but then I stopped growing and stayed 5’3 from 5th grade on. It’s weird because I’m the shortest one in my adult group of friends but when I imagine myself I see me being almost as tall as the guys and super wide and it’s a mind trip to see photos and realize I look nothing like my mental image of myself.
Oh my goodness I'm so sorry you had to go through this. I'm so happy that you're better now. If anyone else thinks they have an eating disorder please please please get help because your health is so important. Thank you Irene for spreading awareness
Babe, first off. You're so incredibly brave for sharing your story. Thank you so sincerely much, from the bottom of my heart. Honestly, thank you. Also, the dog breed thing... YES. Lastly, I watched the food network religiously whilst my momma would clean rich people's houses for a living. You're beautiful, you're worthy, you're an incredible friendo. Thank you so so sincerely much for being you. Love you Reenee. Thank you. 💕🌻✌🥰❤
Omfggg when she said MFP and talked about bringing her own food on + dreading vacation...... shit just clicks. Thank you Irene. This is so informative and incredible. I've been leaning towards getting help for my issues w food, never thought it was "bad enough" bc I'm health driven. But this video full of (unfortunately relatable) information has cemented something for me. It's another push to talk to someone about it. Thank you so so so fucking much Irene.
Your eyes are such an interesting shape. I'm trying to figure it out, almost rectangular? I mean this with the most complements, because they are so gorgeous and unique. Also, I really resonate with the tall girl struggles. I was 5'11 and a size 9 in high school and dove straight into an eating disorder. Silly silly, I was a bone.
i wish more people knew this was a thing. i cant the number of people that have struggled with it but everyone just shrugs it off as them being extremely “healthy”. Glad to see you bringing awareness to it!
The fact that I got a weight loss ad on this video is appalling. UA-cam really needs to fix their algorithm.
Could you imagine coming here after googling orthorexia because you were seeking help and that came up first?! Jesus.
Wow. Hate that.
Poor little algorithm.. I feel bad for it. How embarrassing
THIS. I have kind of an issue with watching anorexia stories and I will ALWAYS get weight loss ads on them. I bought UA-cam Premium because of them.
I’m just now learning what Orthorexia is. IT’S GOOD THAT YOU’RE SPREADING AWARENESS.
Dude, basically same. Hahhahahahaha
I’m a dietitian that specialized in disordered eating. Orthorexia is SO hard; people don’t understand that it’s serious... it’s seen to others as being “super healthy” and society applauds that, making it hard for people to even identify it as an issue within themselves.
Dude, yes!!! It such a weird convoluted problem. Thank you for helping people who are struggling!
My mom once saw an old acquaintance who has lost a ton of weight and my mom asked her if she was doing okay because she looked sickly. She was sooo grateful that my mom asked her how she was doing. She was struggling with cancer and everyone else was just telling her how good she looked when she was basically dying. That's how obsessed our culture is about weight. It's disgusting.
@@teaandkitties8119 Ya! it was awful. I saw a UA-camr who was talking about her ED that said the same thing. She was literally dying and her body was shutting down and she said everyone would still tell her how jealous they were of her body and how good she looked because they didn't know!
I lost some weight last year from being healthy and some people commented on it but one lady who hadn't seen me in a while just said "You looks so bright and energetic!" and I thought that was such a better way to comment on it instead of saying "you look skinnier" or "you lost weight!"
@new0news, that’s awful! I have been so much more mindful on how and when I compliment people; never on appearances or weight... now I comment “you look so happy” or “you’re glowing”. It’s so dangerous to comment and praise people on a change in weight or eating habits. Food is fuel, a calorie is a unit of energy, and weight is gravitational pull.... basically just physics so I don’t understand why it’s forced down our throats that these things matter so much rather than just treating your body well!
Question. Is it common for people who are binge eaters to turn to othorexia? Not sure if i did but i did give myself guidelines on no junk food in the house just to pump the brakes on binging. Now just eating a varied diet and try to have some guidelines but nowhere near the hard and fast rules i had for a while
Why are you so fricken pretty. And how. Also your hair is everything.
THANK YOU ANNA!!! Every time i see you name i always think it's "Anna Wintour" and i'm like - wow. Okay VOUGE hahahahahha.
I'm sure like 80% of her being so pretty is her gorgeous personality
@@irenewalton everytime I Google myself she pops up
Yes she is so pretty im 5.8 teenager I love being tall but I totalled understand your teenage self
@@spring1485 ...I grew all through high school and am now 6ft tall
I had this too, it was so exhausting. It started with anorexia, then it transitioned into orthorexia, which I thought was me being healthy, but it was really just another form of controlling food. Then eventually I snapped and fell into a binge eating disorder because I was so tired of restriction. Thankfully I’m doing much better now, I’m so glad you are too. You’re definitely not alone in this.
So glad to hear that you're doing well!!!
Glad to hear ur better now 💖
Yay! Way to pull through 😊😊
I had the same exact path. Still struggling with body image but I'm working on body neutrality and avoiding diet culture. I'm so glad I'm not dealing with an eating disorder taking over every second
I’m still struggling to get over the binge eating after years of starving and purging, my body constantly feels starving regardless of how much I eat 🥲
"Food is for consumption, it should not consume you" was a thing a friend said to me a while back and it stuck with me a ton.
Sounds like a lyric I wrote years ago. “My eating disorder is consuming me while I consume nothing”
I honestly had never heard of orthorexia. Thank you for bringing awareness to it!
Dude, me neither!!!
“What a dream: talking about my eating disorder and sitting in a rainbow” we love a positive vulnerable queen!
Let's take a minute to appreciate Irene bringing light to other forms of eating disorders (and eating disorders in general) because talking about them needs to be more normalized👏👏👏
"Talking about my eating disorder and sitting in a raindow" Reenee 2020 🌻💕
Irene: “how many calories are in this apple?” My brain: 56
Hahahahahab dude. Fucking tell me about it
Once you've been there, it seems like a "skill" you never lose...
My brain: 100 (I get big apples so it can fill me but not in an unhealthy way... anymore)
Same
@@MOVIEHORIZON so true! I am 49 and had an eating disorder back in high school-I was obsessed! Looking back it was me trying to have some control while living in a very dysfunctional family environment. I still literally know the calories in just about every food.
The second you said "I had this app" I knew exactly where you were going. Thanks for sharing-orthorexia is something I've struggled with and continue to struggle with depending on my life circumstance. It's so invisible and so often praised, especially if you're in an average bod like yours or a larger body like mine. It actually sounds like your time in DC was similar to the first stage of intuitive eating. It's kind of awesome that you took yourself through the process even without the label.
I hear you, mama. Good for you for recognizing it and trying to get better. I know it's hard, but I also know that you can do it!
The story you told about the kid who called you “the pudgy one” is so important. So many people, especially kids, think it’s cool to be carelessly “honest” talking about weight and appearance. If they just knew how long those little things stick with people- how little girls will go home and learn to stave themselves thinking about those stupid comments- I don’t think they’d be half as cruel.
We were joking with a kid in 8th grade about how much weight he could lift and a guy said to me ‘you sure can lift a doughnut’ that has stuck with me for the past 15 years and to this day feel SO uncomfortable eating doughnuts. I also had a major crush on this kid for the NEXT FIVE YEARS. Which is also a whole other issue to unpack about wanting someone who was so horrible to me. Anyways, it’s amazing how a comment from a 13 year old still breaks me down all these years later!
I can remember my high school boyfriend poking my stomach and saying I was pudgy. He was a rail. It sticks with you. I think I was a size 7, maybe 130 pounds when I was with him and an active swimmer in high school. It’s ridiculous
In school we had uniforms, but occasionally we would have a free dress or a jeans/denim day. I remember having a jeans day and getting the offhand comment from this one kid along the lines of 'skinny jeans are for skinny people, you should toss those' when I came and sat at our shared art table with my best friend at the time. I was probably around a size 8/10 so fairly average I'd say, but next to her at a size 00, there seemed a much bigger difference.
Both at the time and now it didn't ever really *seriously* bother me or fuel any negative feelings towards my body or any ED tendencies, I was just kinda like 'oh ok so you're really THAT flavor of asshole cool got it' and went about my class, but it did definitely stick with me since 10 years later I still think of that comment often when I where a pair of jeans. So even if it doesn't end up causing serious immediate repercussions like ED or mental/body image damage, it will at the very least still stick with the person forever as 'this really shitty thing to say to a person'. You just don't want to be that person lol, so be careful with those kind of backhanded comments.
After my middle school graduation, there was a a table with food with parent volunteers serving the food, stuff like cookies and sandwiches and other snacks, and I was waiting in line to get served. One of my classmates' little brother came up to me and said "Quítate de en medio, gorda" ("Get out of the way, fat girl" in spanish) to me and all I could do is stare at him for a few seconds and walk away (without food). Before that day, I was confident wearing anything, shorts, no sleeves, bikinis, etc... And all because this cruel kid called me fat I started to wear more and more layers of clothing, long sleeves, I started to look up weight loss tips and I even went on pro-anorexia forums and websites. I don't think I had ever been called fat before. Looking back at the pictures, I wasn't fat at all. I had a different body shape than most of the girls in my class, who were all naturally tiny or very athletic, except for one other girl who was "the fat girl" in the class. I developed earlier than most of them and I also was taller than most of them but stopped growing around that time and ended up at 5'5, pretty average. It seems crazy to me that I'm 23 and I still remember that moment so clearly, and it's stuck with me for so long. I developed an eating disorder after than and I am still recovering.
@@ohitsmegan4504 wow. Wowww. I just wanted to comment that this made me feel so seen. I have a story literally -pretty much, from what you said- exactly the same. Not that the details matter, but I think it’s kinda interesting because I was also around the same size as you, and a swimmer. Anyways, if you do see this, even though it’s a year late lol, I hope you’re doing great - and I just wanted to say same. Same. Some boyfriends suck dude
“I am a happy, healthy, 5’7, size 6.” I can’t tell you how badly I needed to hear that. I was always really thin and active growing up, but now that I’m an adult with a crazy work schedule, not a lot of time to work out, and a lover of food, I’ve been gaining a little weight. I don’t have rock hard abs anymore, I don’t fit into old jeans that I got in like 8th grade anymore, and I’ve been feeling really self conscious about my body lately. But I think that I just need to accept that I’m not a 14 year old, 5’7, size 2 kid anymore, and now I am also a happy, healthy, 5’7, size 6 woman who is still allowed to enjoy sushi, pizza, and tacos ❤️
I have the same issues except i remind myself you’re a woman you have a womans body! it helps a lot for me.
Hahahahahahaha HELL YES DUDE!! It sounds like were the same person!
I’ve been accepting this too recently! I need to stop holding my standards to my teen self, it’s not natural for me to look like that anymore. I was always very skinny, but the last few years started filling out, mostly on my bottom half and hated it at first. I’m also a 6 and learning to love my wider hips, round booty and chunky thighs, cellulite and all
I remember the Berenstain Bears book on being healthy and that being able to “pinch more than an inch” means you’re over weight. It still haunts me. Super unhealthy to tell kids that
That's also scary because it doesn't mean much for people that are taller or proportionally larger than someone else. Like I'm somewhat tall, underweight, and I can pinch more than an inch. Big deal. Lots of "health hacks" are not a one size fits all sort of thing. Always talk to a professional if you're concerned about your health.
Omg I remember this! Holy crap
Lauren BB-Q Hater it’s berenstain 😳
I remember reading that book, too. The general message wasn’t that bad- mostly just get a balanced diet. But that part has stuck with me through the years. While recovering from my Binge Eating Disorder, I’ve had a lot of moments where I look at myself and think that my body is gross because I can pinch more than an inch in some places.
Horrible.
dude what!!!!!!!! omg thats insane! i swear adults where so fucked up making kids shows back in the day i swear!
The rainbow lighting is everything, as are your pigtail braids. Sending you love, Irene! 💗💗
Thank you so much, Irene. I am a 55 year old disabled woman who is dealing with excruciating amounts of anxiety due to some bad family issues. I have spent the whole day in tears, feeling the anxiety eating me alive. I finally sat down and turned on your video. Some how, in my woundedness, I felt like you would understand me. I calmed and watched the whole thing and was able to breathe normally for 28 minutes. This means more than you'll ever know. I hope you see this comment. We all need someone to tell us we're doing this life thing right. You are loved.
You are doing this life right and you are loved, too!! Thank you for your kind comment and I hope youre breathing right again!
the minute you said “i had this app” i knew it was mfp lol
also i feel like popcorn is just shortened “popped corn”
Tea
Irene is seriously the most precious human being in the world. We must protect her at all costs lol
I was literally thinking the same thing, Nicole! Her spirit is so refreshing and precious!!💚💖💚💖
Love you Irene!
When you said that there are some foods that are good for your body and some that are good for your soul, I really really felt that.
I’m 42 and 5’7. I was recently in a very traumatic situation. I gained 50 lbs. I needed to hear this video so bad I’m in tears. THANK YOU 🙏 I’ll chill now with obsessing and just live life. Watch my portions and make better choices.
“I’m a certified Pilates Instructor and the it! That’s where my health criteria ends” That’s....wow how did I know that your a Pilates instructo
I'd love an Irene-taught plates video!
YES - can we get some at home pilates videos? I started pilates in quarantine and I would do it every day if Irene were my teacher
UGH IRENE. I still remember a comment a boy made on my bus in 5th grade about how my thighs jiggled and I struggle with food still. Thank you for opening up about this.
Also, side note, I had a book with all of the AKC dog breeds that I read REGULARLY. I was OBSESSED.
Edited to add: the control thing is so real. When this quarantine started I opened up to my mom that I was really struggling with disordered eating thoughts, and she mentioned that the shutdown might be a huge trigger because you can't control anything happening. It helped me fight those thoughts because I understood my food issues were a reaction to the world around me crumbling.
I think your edit is really important and wise. I’ve long thought that someone’s ability to be really self aware can help with keeping themself in check (and that goes for a lot of things, not just eating). That doesn’t mean there isn’t still work to do to curb bad habits or disordered thinking, but I think it can help limit the spiral.
I still remember a boy in my 6th grade class told me my WRISTS are big and I’ll never forget it. Cause my fingers didn’t touch when you wrapped them around my wrist
One time a guy I absolutely would like to punch in the face told me I was “a bit chubby” and that I “look like Fiona from shrek half way into her transformation” and this boy looked like lord faurkwad he had no place to tell me anything I’d love to murder him rn
i got the notif and said ‘babe!!’ out loud,, i’m so proud of you rene 😭❤️❤️❤️
THANKS MAMA!!!
I haven’t even watched this yet but thank you for talking about this 💜
For sure!!!
Irene you are amazing. Speaking from someone who struggled with an ED around the same age it’s not something that people speak about a lot. It’s something that we get told is shameful and something to be embarrassed about. So thank you for speaking up. You’re definitely right we all have a wake up call and I thank one of my best friends for being mine. Sitting at lunch in the cafeteria not eating because I just “wasn’t hungry” day after day she finally called me out on my BS and literally bought me food and sat and made sure I ate something because she could see that I was hungry. She even sat with me as I talked to our school counselor about it because I didn’t know how to handle it. I thank God for her every day 💜 Love you Rene!
My mom had Orthorexia while I was younger. The difference was she was overweight and did lose a lot of weight, so was heavily praised for the changes her eating disorder brought about. and unfortunately I, her daughter, was around 8 or 9 when it began and had to grow up into teenage-hood with her influence - she basically tried to convince and raise me to inherit her same outlook on food. Didn’t help that i’m overweight, just as she was. Definitely something that heavily affects both the sufferer and their family in unfortunate ways. you’re so strong though for coming out of it with clarity on the other side 💕 Also, it’s funny, but I’m fully familiar with all of the products you mentioned - PB2 and Ezekiel Bread - because i’d eat them as a kid. my mom was also obsessed with cream of wheat and oatmeal and my fitness pal. she made me use my fitness pal 🥴
Ok, well, I think I've just had a whole self revelation. I've been doing this for well over a decade. I had never heard of this as a disorder before, so thank you for talking about it.
Me too
Certified pilates instructor? let’s get a pilates vid! Group workout lol 😂
I'm gonna put it on my patreon!!!
Irene Walton oh, great! I’ll have to check out your patreon :) & thanks for sharing your experience btw...good you are in a positive enough place to share in such a lighthearted/comedic way. That ice water shake comment was hilarious😂
So in my skills for living class in 8th grade we had a “healthy eating” unit and we actually had to track what we ate on my fitness pal AND sheet of paper we had to turn in. I can not believe it took a year to realize how f’d up that is
That teacher probably would have told my mom and my mom probably would have got mad. Dragon the 7th and 8th grade I probably had a cup of coffee or an orange juice to last me
Same situation for my 8th grade health class. 12 years later and that class still messes with me and my obsession with eating healthy. I look at every label sub consciously. I haven’t ate fast food since, and no dairy. Etc
I think it's great that you're sharing your story, from what I've seen online most videos about eating disorders are about overcoming anorexia(which is completely valid, and I'm not saying it isn't) but I think that it's good to talk about other eating disorders that people can have.
Love you Rene💜
I definitely had body dismorphia at a high schooler. I was 5’7-8 and 135 lbs and bfs and friend would talk about how skinny I was and I just thought they were trying butter me up. Its definitely real and as a young girl your mind is so fragile.
Love your story Irene!
never heard of orthorexia, but i’m so unbelievably glad you’re talking about this!! i’ve had an ed for 6 years, and it is consuming. i’m a senior in high school that can’t eat without thinking about what’s going in my mouth. i would starve myself for days at a time and limit everything. (thanks to my mom lmao now my brothers and dad too lol) i’m glad to say tho that i’m working on it!
anyways, enough about me, i’m hella proud of you for talking about this!! 💕
keep working hard! you got this!@
Ugh that sucks that your family is encouraging your ED, but I'm proud of you for working on it! And hopefully youll be able to remove yourself from the toxic situation sometime soon if thats something you need ♡
Caitlin Keating aww thanks! it’s been a little rough quarantined with my family, but i’m working through it!! 💕
Amber Rose thank you!! i’m moving for college in a year which is very much what i need! ❤️
Ughhh, i'm sorry to hear about that, but i'm proud of you for recognizing and working on it! Thank you for sharing!!!!
Hey Irene I’m currently a pre med student and a psych minor. Throughout my college career never once have I heard of orthorexia, thank you for shedding some light on this. I myself also have struggled with eating disorders, hurtful words usually always stick with people unfortunately. I appreciate this! You’re amazing.
the part about "there are some foods that are good for the body, and there are some that are good for the soul. I'm never not going to eat a piece of cake at someone that I love's birthday," this video really resonated with me, and I love the way you told it
Thank you for talking about EDs. Many people steer away from talking about "uncomfortable conversations." My ED was anorexia that started at 13-19ish. Now, I have been in recovery for 3 years! Thanks for spreading awareness on Orthorexia, my sister had that, and it's not talked about as often as others.
I started out watching this video ready to sympathize with what you went through but after all 28 minutes were done I was crying and feeling pure empathy. I had never heard of this ED but hearing about it is making me realize that my recovery from past EDs has just led me to stumble down another, unhealthy, path. Although this is tough to hear, I'm incredibly happy I clicked on this video. Thank you Irene
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I learned about orthorexia recently because one of my best friends was diagnosed with it. I really appreciate this video and how you are bringing awareness to this harmful eating disorder. Wishing you have all of the love and happiness you truly deserve. You are so strong!!
So brave of you, eating disorders suck, you should be proud of yourself 💜
I battled an eating disorder throughout high school, and at the time I thought it was just bulimia. Now hearing your story, I’m realizing it was so much more than that. From setting reminders on my phone to stop eating at a certain time to not eating before a 2.5 hour practice, and now realizing that avoiding food groups all together was a major part of that. Being all-consumed by calories and daily values DEVALUED my self worth. Thank you so much for sharing and bringing light to this subject.
i’m so proud of you irene❤️
Thank you little miss lady!
Irene Walton love you bby ❤️
Thank you for sharing your story, I’m starting to realize that this may be something my dad could be suffering from. I grew up on eggs and brown bread, he restricted our diets as children and till this day goes on about how bad food poisons your body. Thank you so much for spreading awareness, your doing a good thing!
I already know that I need this. I’ve been struggling with my body a lot lately...
Be gentle with yourself, Miranda!! Listen to your body and your mind. Don't compare yourself on instagram. Don't worry too much. Look up some resources like the ones i listed here and more!! ❤️ Love you! You're great!
Irene Walton now I’m crying hahaha, not bad tears, but relief tears. I’ve put on a little extra weight for the first time in my life after getting in an accident which resulted in me shattering my tibia a year ago. I struggled with being and feeling underweight for a very long time, and was a very active dancer... now that my ability to be active has shifted, I am putting on weight and it’s become overwhelming.
This is so relatable. This is how I have been exactly for the past 6 years. And it’s my entire life. I never knew this was actually a thing. Everyone always thinks I’m so crazy but I just thought they made bad food choices. Thank you for making this video. I’m going to bring this up to my therapist today. I think you’re going to reach so many people with this story because you just really hit a tough spot for me and I have been so unaware just trying to have this “perfect” body for so many years. I get to the point where I’m like well what is the point. Thanks for sharing your story. This video needs to be available to every school, girl, woman, man, instagram model, etc. you’re incredible. Thank you, you might have just changed my life with this story. And you probably didn’t know filming this but I think you may have just changed a lot of people’s lives with this video ❤️
When she brought up Tumblr that hit home.
I'm not allowed to use that anymore because it fed into my obsession of the restrict and purge cycle
Tumblr is a garbage ass toxic website anyways so it’s a good thing that you’re not allowed to use it anymore. The last time I had ever used tumblr was when I was 15 years old
I’m so sorry to know you also struggled. The pressure on womxn to be a certain ideal is ridiculous. Love you girl ❤️
Also from Denver and LOL @ the Ezekiel bread comment. People are health nuts here for sure but not many eat it 😂
'I had this app' is it myfitnesspal 'if you've been through this you know' oh its gotta be myfitnesspal 'it's my fitmesspal' OMG
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On a sad note I literally lived my life based off of that 5 week prediction thing it was so sad. I was at Disneyland and I was counting calories and focused on burning calories it was so sad
Myfitness pal is only toxic if you struggle with obsessing over the numbers its helped a lot of people who binge or undereat, but I can def see why some would struggle when they have an ED or potentially develop one if they cant stop themselves. Just like anything too much can be harmful ♡ I do hope you've healed since and I hope you're in a healthier mind set now ♡
I knew it was my fitness pal too lol
People need to recognize that Orthorexia is really serious. Thank you for your story!
oh my gosh thank you for filming this and sharing information with everyone!
❤️ ❤️ ❤️ Thank you for the kind words!
The rainbow lights are everything. And you're so beautiful, this whole video is so aesthetically pleasing!
Irene, thank you so much for telling your story. I had anorexia for a long time and haven’t really coped with the trauma that came with it and hearing your story helps me understand mine. It’s so hard for me because (I’m in high school) all my friends are double zeros and are so tiny and I’m 5’0 and a size 6 and a little busty. It’s hard for me to not compare myself because they are so tiny and guys like tiny. I am healthy and workout and eat right now but not excessively anymore which is great for my health. I really love you so much and think you’re so brave for telling this story and making yourself vulnerable for others to share with us. It really means the world to me. I love you so much more than you will ever know.
It's gonna take time, and love and, being kind to yourself. Thank you so much for sharing your story ❤️ It's gonna be so great sooner than you even think. Love you mama!
Well Done!!!! Well Done!!!! This video should be nominated for something!!!!
this is extremely brave and thank you for opening up. i’m writing this comment as i watch and i’m already relating so much to this story. thank you for speaking up about this 🤍
❤️ ❤️ ❤️ Love you, Max!
Irene Walton this is truly so inspiring, lyyy
You have immaculate energy. Thank you for sharing your story!
I had never heard of this until recently. I’ve went through every eating disorder in my life. Always had issues with food & my body image. I’m in my thirties now & still struggle with it. It’s actually gotten worse since I’ve become a mom. The hard part is I love food & cooking but at the same time it’s my enemy. Thanks for talking about this.
Food isn't your enemy, the society that had made is believe that for so long is the enemy.
Like you said, you love food and cooking and that is an incredible gift! Food is life; it fuels our mind, body and souls! I hope you feel free to cook with love and joy ❤️❤️
Isn't it exhausting? Thank you for making this video. Your humor is awesome!!!!
I really appreciate you telling us your story. It lets people know they are not alone.
Always and forever!!!
I feel like you are wise beyond your years and I’m sure you’ve heard this before. Saying you thought you were losing weight. You weren’t. You thought you were being healthy. You weren’t. I recognize that cutting that idea off immediately is most beneficial to viewers who may be vulnerable to the same disorder or lifestyle. And having a piece of birthday cake to celebrate someone you love... YES!
This is really powerful and will help someone so much!
My daughter struggles with Diabulimia and you sharing this made her feel less alone even though it's not the same disorder she still felt something when we watched it together and opened up the conversation. Thank you Irene for that. You truly are a beacon of light 🥰♥️😁
Side note: Speaking of light, can I just say how stunning the light reflecting onto Irene's shirt is? I mean CoMe ThRu LiGhT!
Wow. My heart is so big and warm because of this comment. Thank you so much for sharing!! Best of luck to you and your little lady. You'll be able to do it together ❤️ Especially having a mama like you!
Irene you replying to this just made her life! She's been watching you from the very first upload 👏🏼 she loves how wonderful of a friend you are to the people in your life and she wishes she had someone like you in hers. She has had the roughest year of her life this year (had to fight for her life as she had to be put in a coma for a month and we actually lost her twice) it's a miracle she's even here still. Your videos give her an escape from all the crap she is going through.
And I thank you for that so much!
She says that she is looking forward to watching you and your channel grow!
Wow... I can relate to your story SO MUCH which is kind of sad how society is like this but it's great to know that I'm not the only one struggling with this obsession over healthy food. I'm so glad you've gotten better and I too still struggle with this today but it has gotten so much better. Cheering on both of us! :)
I just love her:) Not since Jenna Marbles can I enjoy someone's personality so much. Irene, please keep doing you. BTW, I also had an eating disorder abt. 23 years ago (I'm 39) and the idea of bad and good foods still gets to me. Then I need to remind myself that I know better now. Thanks for sharing your story.
I’ve never actually watched you outside of Gabbie’s podcast but you are spectacular. Very articulate and polite. Also, I really appreciate how you disclaimed not being a health professional. In my teenage years I developed a very serious eating disorder, by taking advice from people who have no clue what they’re doing lmao. So happy you’re healthy now❤️ hope you heal more everyday❤️❤️❤️
I am so proud of you Irene, for having the strength and the courage to tell us about your struggles with Orthorexia. I truly admire it and I'm willing to support you every step of the way.
Thank you for opening up to us ❤️ and thank you so much for spreading awareness, I didn't know this had a name ❤️
Thank you for sharing your story... I don’t think anyone knows how deep you’ve gone when you’re still down that rabbit hole... its a dark place to be. For me it was bulimia and I don’t share that much. What is it about teen years that messes with how we view ourselves!? But... yay for dark chocolate star cookies for helping you move forward 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻 and you look gorgeous fyi so keep doing you ❤️
My mom has this even though she has never been diagnosed with it. She only goes to doctors who feed her obsession with "healthy food" and every week she does a "fast" where she doesn't eat any calories, so she just has these zero calories pastes that have almond or something like that and water. She has been eating this way for about 10 years since my brother was born and because it has been so long, I kinda stopped worrying. Seeing this really opened my eyes and I think I'm going to try to get my mom some help for her orthorexia, thank you sm for this video.
I've been struggling with Anorexia and Bullimia for about 10 years now and I'm 23, and hearing your experience about Orthorexia aswell is really inspiring. Its just nice to see another person in recovery
This is so inspiring. I dont have an earing disorder but seeing you overcome makes me hopeful I can overcome mental health struggles. Thank you for being so authentic and unapologetically you ❤
I think that’s what most ppl get wrong about “dieting”. It’s not about what you eat or how much you eat. It’s calories, calories, calories! You’re gonna gain weight if you consume more calories regardless of what it is. Just because it’s healthy doesn’t mean it’s gonna make you lose weight just like something unhealthy might not necessarily make you gain weight. Just watch your cals folks. And with this, I don’t mean counting so strictly that it’s consuming your life, just make sure you’re not eating an excessive amount. If you want to have a treat, have it, just don’t overindulge. Usually diets that focus on cutting out all junk food are the ones people fall off of almost immediately! Great video! Love you Irene:)
thank you so much for speaking about this. i think there is such a stigma about eating disorders because obviously no one wants to have / have had one. but it’s so helpful to hear stories like this. i always felt like i was alone and no one was feeling what i was feeling. also thank you for being so cautious with your words and including helpful sources :)
People in the comments will probably get mad that there wasn't a trigger warning, but if you read the title I feel like it should be obvious what you're going to talk about. Anyway, thank you so much for sharing your story with us, Irene. Love ya! ❤
Ooooh, yeah, i thought keeping it all in the title would be enough! I hope its okay! Thank you :)
EDs are the most frustrating things!! You are so delightful. Thank you for sharing your journey. You dance!! Haha.
Love how it almost came off like "I've dabbled in dark magic" while youre talking about dark chocolate... Also i was today years old when i found out i had this a few years ago.
Never heard of this until today. Have a person in my life that I can totally see as possibly having this very thing. Thank you for sharing your life with us 😁👍🥰
This is good to know about. I have a friend who was anorexic, and she overcame that, but is now neurotically obsessive of what she eats. I've always felt that it was kind of "anorexia lite", but now I am beginning to think that maybe she just traded anorexia for orthorexia.
i think a lot of people can cycle through or change eating disorders
ik a lot of people who start out anorexic, binge once, then become bulimic
or recovery from anorexia can end up with u binging & gaining cuz ur sooo hungry & then having a different one (don't freak out if u have anorexia & read this, it's usually refeeding syndrome & if u recover correctly with a dietician & nutritionist you'll be fine)
i go through different ones fast so I basically have ednos, im in a binging stage from losing a lot of weight in 6 months
I was anorexic and very sick then gained 70 lbs in two years because I had starved my body for so long I just went off the rails. I’ve lost 11 pounds since gaining all that weight and trying to become healthy for once lol. But ur so right
I am so glad you are spreading awareness as someone that has had to stop counting calories because it consumed everything in my life.
there’s this lyric that i really like and it’s *“but just because you know you’re color blind doesn’t mean you can see the colors”* the singer was talking about how she knew she was obsessed but she still couldn’t stop...
yes, I believe the song you are referring to is empty by Jaiden animations its a really good song .
I love that song!
Thank you so much for sharing your experience. I found myself teetering on the brink of orthorexia the past year and listening to your story gave me such comfort.
When you said my fitness pal a deep suppressed memory shot up from when I was bullied very badly and wow.... 😶 I'm not sure what to do now
It's a good app for helping but it can be easily obsessed over if you struggle with obsessing on the numbers etc. Def has been very helpful for myself and a LOTTTT of other people who struggle with keeping a normal amount of calories, I was eating either 500 or about 3000 a day, (: always be careful with that stuff ♡ you're also gorgeous and amazing no matter your size and i hope you've healed since! ♡
Holy crap! Just came to the realization that that was me!
I went through that in my early to mid 20's, after a breakup, and thought I was just being healthy. Looking back, I was obsessed. Had to go to the gym for 2 hours everyday, no meat or dairy, counting calories obsessively (used that same app), counting steps, lost a lot of weight. I never thought of it as an eating disorder, but it was! It's insane that it's just now dawning on me.
Thank you so much for posting about this and your "journey" through it.
i'm so glad you are sharing this with the world. it could help out a lot of people , including myself! love you irene ! ❤️❤️
I had this for 6 years and also had no clue it was a disorder until a year ago. Although my body reacted to it differently than it did for you, I’ve been doing much better mentally and my blood test shows my body and nutrition is way healthier now than when I was super obsessed with food! I’m so glad you’re also out of this. But you’re right it’s still always in the back of my mind.
Your hair looks so pretty and the rainbows are stunning!
Thank you for spreading awareness of Orthorexia! It's not talked about enough.
The Irene Walton Story: Cookies made me healthy
I Love your videos!
the little “haaAveeeE summmm ice cream” song you sang made me LOL you are such a joy!
thank you for sharing your story and also giving hope and smiles to people who struggle!
wow i genuinely didn’t really know what orthorexia was, this video was great to watch and i learned a lot : ) thanks linguine queen
Thank you for sharing! I feel like more people should talk about it, cuz whoever went through it never thought it was a disorder, and that it was just being healthy. I went through the same thing when I was in high school. It was... terrible. So mentally exhausting.
"lil bear friend" "LITTLE"
HAHAHAHHAHA so big
@@irenewalton thats what she said 🤣😅 sorry i'm a big kid
Thank you for spreading awareness, Irene. My mom struggled with this years ago and she had trouble stopping because, like you said, she thought she was being healthy. You are an angel ❤
I’m also 5’7” and always felt like a giant growing up. Boys didnt like me because I was taller than them 😭
Continue to look down on those petty boys.
Real men will love to look up to you.
I feel you! Been 6’ since about 10th grade and my best friend was a full foot shorter than me. I was the Amazon girl, the Tower, Jolly Green Giant, Brookaliath etc. I decided to own the amazon title because they’re strong independent women but it was such a struggle becoming comfortable with my body and standing tall! Look at us now ❤️
It’s funny because as someone extremely petite (4’10) I felt that way also and continue to be a little jealous of taller girls, especially because it’s easier to put on weight when you’re smaller which fed into my eating disorder
I got tall quicker than my classmates and got curves before others and I had a couple people call me “the big girl” of my group but then I stopped growing and stayed 5’3 from 5th grade on. It’s weird because I’m the shortest one in my adult group of friends but when I imagine myself I see me being almost as tall as the guys and super wide and it’s a mind trip to see photos and realize I look nothing like my mental image of myself.
Oh my goodness I'm so sorry you had to go through this. I'm so happy that you're better now. If anyone else thinks they have an eating disorder please please please get help because your health is so important. Thank you Irene for spreading awareness
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Yeah, dude. I'm great hahahahah. Thank you!
Babe, first off. You're so incredibly brave for sharing your story. Thank you so sincerely much, from the bottom of my heart. Honestly, thank you. Also, the dog breed thing... YES. Lastly, I watched the food network religiously whilst my momma would clean rich people's houses for a living. You're beautiful, you're worthy, you're an incredible friendo. Thank you so so sincerely much for being you. Love you Reenee. Thank you. 💕🌻✌🥰❤
ugh - what a dreamy compliment!!! Thank you so much!
@@irenewalton you're so so welcome! Honestly, you were giving me Elsa from Frozen vibes in this video! Xx
I’m so proud of you Rene 🥺
Omfggg when she said MFP and talked about bringing her own food on + dreading vacation...... shit just clicks. Thank you Irene. This is so informative and incredible. I've been leaning towards getting help for my issues w food, never thought it was "bad enough" bc I'm health driven. But this video full of (unfortunately relatable) information has cemented something for me. It's another push to talk to someone about it. Thank you so so so fucking much Irene.
Your eyes are such an interesting shape. I'm trying to figure it out, almost rectangular? I mean this with the most complements, because they are so gorgeous and unique. Also, I really resonate with the tall girl struggles. I was 5'11 and a size 9 in high school and dove straight into an eating disorder. Silly silly, I was a bone.
Irene, you're adorable. My daughter suffers from this. She said I can forward this link. Nice job! You get an A. Saving souls.
You’re such a beautiful soul ❤️
i wish more people knew this was a thing. i cant the number of people that have struggled with it but everyone just shrugs it off as them being extremely “healthy”. Glad to see you bringing awareness to it!