I am a secular Jew and when I was at school, we learned about the story of David and Absalom, so I even remember the verse (in Hebrew though). It is amazing how different it is to read the verse for 20 seconds than to listen to this whole composition for 15 minutes. The bible has no pictures so as a kid, you don't think much about the verses, you just read them. However, when listening to this 15-minute song, while knowing what it is about, suddenly stops you and makes you think about the story of a king, who mourn the death of his son, who rebelled against him and started a war. The country was plagued with war and Absalom, the "bad guy" who unrightfully tried to take the throne, was killed and thus the rebellion was crushed, but instead of being content, David mourns, because Absalom, no matter what he had done, is still David's son. Amazing.
That's the Gospel in a nutshell! We are each Absolom, each of us rebelling through self-centered sin against our Creator-Father-King. We deserve the rebel's death. Yet God's eternal sinless Son, Jesus Christ, hung on a tree (the cross) as a rebel on our behalf. So, no matter what WE have done, we may still be God's children. Justice is served and mercy is extended in perfect, beautiful, Fatherly love. That is the heart of God. This is true for the Jew and the Gentile, for you and for me. Blessings, friend.
To those who listen to this: Have you experienced loss in your life? No? Then fasten your seat belt, because what the following 15 minutes and change does is exceptionally simple and yet devastating in its impact. This song will take you, whether you like it or not, through the process of grieving an intolerable loss, through shock and denial, impotent anger and needless negotiation, until you recognize the inevitability of the loss and ACCEPT IT. That is the power of this piece and the genius of its composer. That is what Eric Whitacre accomplished here. Make no mistake.
The first time I heard this, I had taken my daughter to the Colorado Rockies for some skiing at Christmas last year. We were driving in the high, ethereal snow covered mountains. I was already being transported by the majesty I was seeing before me. Then she pulled out her phone, hooked it up to the car audio and unleashed THIS on me. Almost forgot to breathe. Play this at 10,000 plus feet, and see where it takes you...
Oh my, I'm so sorry for your loss! :( :( :( No parent EVER deserves to bury their own. I don't have any kids yet so I can't imagine how agonizing that is. I pray that God (or whoever your Higher Power may be) comforts you during this time, and I wish you the best.
I think if people would meditate on music like this more the anger in their hearts would be softened. Still, last week's bombing in Boston and all. I found Eric's music 10 days or so ago and have been weeping every since. I am 28 years in recovery and I am using it for devotion and meditation.............the doorway to heaven opens a little and I am more secure in my day, Thanks, Eric
Kat how did such an intense, complicated piece go down with a high school choir? being in high school now, in the highest tier choir, i know we couldn’t pull this off.
My best friend Caleb died today. I dont think you could get any closer to describing anguish/sadness as well as this piece does. You will sorely be missed buddy. Rest in peace.
Seven years have passed since you posted this. I hope you are doing well. I hope you are living your best life - not just for yourself, but for dear Caleb too. I also hope Caleb has appeared in your dreams and sent you signs from above, that he is at peace and walks with you, wherever you go.
A few thoughts: 1) if you're reading this before you listen, be forewarned. You cannot listen to this and walk away the same person you were before. You will be changed. In my opinion, for the better, but changed. 2) this particular recording has a profound back story. Dr. Ronald Staheli is the conductor of the BYU Singers, Brigham Young University's top chamber choir and one of the premiere collegiate choirs in the world right now. He is a long time friend of Eric Whitacre. Long before When David Heard, Eric has sent many of his non-commissioned pieces to Dr. Staheli to premier and set the standard with the BYU Singers. According to Eric, he finds Dr. Staheli's most profound musical work in his silence, how he is able to turn rests into musical moments, not just pauses between music. In a tragic accident Dr. Staheli lost his son and and subsequently, he commissioned Eric to write a piece for him. Whitacre's composition exceeded his normal genius and entered the realm of divinely inspired for, says he, he is still discovering elements of connectivity in the piece to the circumstances that he did not know were there during its writing. Here, in this recording we have the culmination of Dr. Staheli's loss, arguably Whitacre's greatest compositional achievement, and Dr. Staheli's courageous commitment to its performance after many tear filled rehearsals. If you ever wanted to taste how profound a means of communication can be, this is the piece and the recording for it.
+Jibbacraft Teamplays Thanks for sharing the backstory. It is unforgettable and adds layers of meaning to our hearing of this incredible piece of music.
I have never heard anything like this before. EVER. This is the most beautiful thing I've ever heard. I couldn't get through the first two minutes without fighting back tears. The wailing, the regret, the pain...that's amazing.
In ‘99 I visited my sister during one of her many years singing with BYU Singers, and I attended a couple of rehearsals when they were learning this song to prepare for their tour that summer to Israel, Jordan, London, and Carnegie Hall - amazingly Eric Whitacre would send them a few pages of the completed score each week. He was still writing it as he sent it to them (in giant 14x17 inch double sided sheets) - as I sat in those rehearsals I watched them sing through what they’d already learned and then sight read his most recent pages. It was incredible! Years later I was at a community sing-along in Minnesota and E.W. was asked who he thought did the greatest job singing and conveying his work - without a pause he said “BYU Singers led by Dr. Staheli”. No one else sounds like this - and it’s 32 college students creating this sound!
I was amazingly blessed to attend the premiere performance of this piece and can confirm your account - the choir hadn’t received the entire piece until the day of the performance. And that night they sang the whole piece, from memory, and it was electrifying.
Well, thank you Whitacre and BYU. Now I no longer need to cry. I just let you wail my sadness away through this melody, and I feel the same release. To me, this song is the gift of crying.
I passed by Absalom's tomb most every day during a semester in Israel in 1978. I marveled at it, but after listening to this piece, my memory of that site has been enhanced beyond measure. Thank you, Eric, and the marvelous BYU Singers!
This piece takes you on a journey through the waves of emotion that wash over you when someone so close to you dies...son, brother, mother, father, friend. It starts off as a single note...a single unbelievable announcement to your soul of a tragedy that you can't hardly believe, but that overtakes you, building to overwhelming emotion. I have felt that emotion only twice in my life, first when my father died and again when my mother died. You can feel yourself rocking back and forth in grief as the music builds, until you finally have cried yourself into a inevitable calm that comes from the exhaustion of the emptiness and disbelief that envelopes you. If you've ever experienced profound loss, this piece, and this performance, is all the explanation you will ever need to explain your feelings to the world. Absalom is your father, your mother, your child, your brother or sister, your friend who has died. The level of our grief expresses the immense love we felt for them in life. In the end, peace overtakes our hearts, bittersweet, but peace and acceptance, and love that lives on within us.
Couldn't agree more, Revelation319. The profound sorrow, grief and loss expressed in this piece gives the listener a glimpse of such a wrenching experience. Each uttered "my son"...such torture. What utter pain David felt to know that his son was literally "hell-bent" to self-destruction! How much more for GOD to see HIS children turn from HIM even at the cost of HIS Only Begotten Son...
The first time I heard this song was in 11th grade choir. Our director blasted it over the choir room speakers. And to this day it’s the most ethereal piece of music I’ve ever heard. I love to put headphones on and just dissolve into it.
At 9:47 when the choir does that brief pause and then burst into this grand display of agony and grief...my God moves me to tears every time. Eric Whitacre will go down in history as one of the great composers of all time.
That whole section is like way beyond a climax that you could possibly imagine musically. It truely takes you to another place. Wowski! 8:30 to the end is off the charts....
Ron Staheli, the director of the BYU Singers, lost his son in a tragic accident in 1996, three years before this was written. His son was 19. I'm fairly certain this piece was composed in memory of Staheli's son, and with reverence for Staheli's unparalleled ability to touch upon the subtlety and beauty of Whitacre's compositions. This piece will always access some remote part of my emotions that I live in fear of, and evoke much more than I could ever speak to. Much love for R.S., E.W. and the work the BYU Singers do.
I feel bad for the people that disliked this video. They must not get the chills or goosebumps or tears or raw emotions the rest of us do when listening to this piece.
And as much as it was painful for David to lose his son, as it would be for any parent, he lost a son who rebelled against him, tried to kill him, and did not appear to have faith. To lose a son on those kinds of terms, knowing that he rebelled against him and his God, would be the ultimate pain. Incredible job of portraying that deep sorrow in this song.
That isn't the whole story. Absalom's half brother, Amnon raped Absalom's young virgin sister, Tamar. Absalom probably figured his father the King would handle this situation but he seemed to ignore it! So in his rage Absalom had Amnon killed and then ran for his life. Absalom lived with his grandfather for three years until finally returning to the city but still never saw his father. Absalom had three sons and one daughter that he named...Tamar. Talk about bitterness and unresolved conflict!
That isn't the whole story either. Nathan told David the sword would never depart from his house because David slept with Bathsheba got her pregnant & had her husband Uriah killed in battle to cover up his sinful behavior, and that David's wives would given to one close to him (Absalom) & he would sleep with them in broad daylight. So the genesis of this whole mess/tragedy is David's sin.
The high C at 10:06 gives me huge goosebumps. It emphasizes the agony and tension and literally screams emotion. Definitely one of my favorite moments in the whole song.
I first heard this when driving to work on classical radio. I had to stop and wipe the tears from my eyes. Certainly made me think about those in my life and other peoples who have passed away. Beautiful.
An alumni of the UofU, I am conditioned to ignore and berate BYU at every opportunity, but when I hear and watch the BYU choral department's perfection of Whitacre's creativity, like this, I am a "Y" supporter at a deep level of conviction.
This piece makes my heart ache. To create the feeling of such loss through music is a gift. That Eric Whitacre has created so many great works is testament to his talent.
Great song. Every time I listen to the Soprano 1 singing the high C, I just shiver. Her tone is very sweet so it mixes well with the choir, yet she puts emotions into it that connect deeper than if someone with a darker timbre had sang it. I find it more heartbreaking to hear a bright, sweet timbre sing with lamentation and woe in straight tone. Absolutely splendid.
Lyrics: My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son Seriously though, what an amazing piece.
Music has never done this to me... I feel enlightened and just overall better. I'm not a religious person but this speaks to me. I am a 13 year old and I can't stop listening to this beautiful piece.
"I am a 13 year old" Very important information. I am 99 years old and for the last 85 years I have been wondering how old you are. Now that I finally know, I can die in peace.
The first time I ever listened to this song in high school (~2008), I was searching for any and every Eric Whitacre song I could find after hearing and falling in love with "Sleep". I remember after listening to this piece, I thought... it's a beautiful song, but it doesn't speak to me. In 2021, I tragically lost my best friend in a car accident. This song is now one of my absolute favorites that I come back to over and over. It truly feels like there was a higher power guiding this composition. Very beautiful, very real, and very haunting. So grateful this music (and this recording in particular) was available to help me through my grieving process... such a beautiful and powerful expression of profound grief. Thank you Eric Whitacre and BYU for this beautiful music. My heart goes out to anyone else who deeply feels this music... I'm sorry for your loss, you are not alone
I love this piece so much! I feel it is one of the most perfect rendering of the emotion that a parent feels at the loss of a child, The wailing, the deep seated pain, the soul rending outbursts of uncontrolled emotion. This captures the complete anguish David felt. I sit here listening to this piece with my 2 year old son on my lap...it puts a whole different feel to it to put myself in David's place. "Would God I had died for thee"...yep that sums up just about any parent's feelings No better composer than Eric Whitacre and no better choir to perform his discordant, close bound harmonies than the BYU singers. Their vocal control is quite possibly the best in the Collegiate world.
True... After that horrible tragedy happened, I listened to this song and it finally came to me, that this song REALLY paints a musical picture of the pain a parent goes through losing a child. God help those families
4:54 those chords right there are amazing, I love the depth of them. Eric Whitacre is an amazing composer and we are so lucky we are living in the same time period as him where we can experience his music first!
Still the best recording of this piece. The group does a beautiful job of giving the chords gravitas and doesn't pull away from the piece due to blend or balance.
I have never lost a live child, thank the heavens. I have one child, and cannot begin to imagine the horror of that pain. There is nothing right about losing a child. It is the most wrong, the most backwards thing this horrific universe can hurl at us, and this universe can hurl some ugly stuff. I have been a fan of Whitacre's since I first heard of him. That he wrote this without personally experiencing this pain is amazing. Just, wow. Wow.
The chord progression from 13:54 to 14:02 makes my insides shake!!! He truly captures the essence of grief and lose through his music!! Even this is hard as hell to sing, it is so beautiful!
the amount of raw feeling this piece conveys is amazing. you truly feel the grief, sadness, tension and anger all in one masterpiece. how greatful i am to have found this piece!
I deeply concur. I first experienced Samuel Barber's Adagio as a teenager and can still remember the exact moment - it was that emotionally and spiritually significant to me. And this rendition of Whitacre's Alleluia enters the same realm of forever remembered moments.
I had to come and comment here, just to add my sentiments on this being quite possibly the most beautiful piece of music ever written. I just made the mistake of throwing it on at work with some new headphones I got, and I am sure I looked quite the fool sitting with tear stained eyes in my cubicle as several people passed by. It's transcendent, awesome, inspiring, everything.
i loved singing this my senior year in highschool..its such an amazing piece...we put everything we had into. not a dry eye really...even our choir teacher was red faced. and every time where they first shout out Absalom. i get chills throughout my entire body. thank you for posting the full song on here. :)
I love this song so much because I just feel the emotion and I can't help but get teared up. For chorus we sang Glow by Eric Whitacre and I'm just in love with his music. Best composer of all time.
8:30 - 10:17 ...A song made me cry for the first time.The soft, agonizing whispers slowly grow strong as they turn into a heart wrenching scream of loss and sadness.Amazing...
Never have I heard music that truly expressed pure,, raw grief in the way this piece has. Absolutely heart-wrenching. I have never felt so moved to tears by music and sound alone. I've always loved Whitacre, but this piece was just so emotional, even for a Whitacre piece.
If we had more than 18-19 people in my chamber choir, I would want to do this... Whitacre is brilliant. I wish we could pull off an 18 part chord and have it balanced like that.... Impressive!
What they didn't tell you is that at the time of Absalom's death, he was fighting his father's men and attempting to take over the kingdom. When David heard that his son had died though, he broke down into a sobbing mess, because he still loved his son so much. I think that's how God feels when we chose to turn away from him. He's willing to defend himself, but he's grieving the whole time because he absolutely still loves us even more than we can ever know.
I feel like... religious or not, if/when a parent hears this song, it like, does something. idk, I'm not a parent yet so I'll never imagine what this would mean to a parent vs someone who isn't. I do cry when I hear this song but that's because I'm weak for good, powerful music lol.
I heard this song at a governors school west concert and I just have to say that you may think you can hear all the emotion and pain now, but in person it's quite chilling to hear all of it together. Most all the audience was in tears afterwards. Even the "hard core" men.
I haven’t listened to this in years. When my choir in University sang this, my great aunt who was like a mother to me had just been declared a vegetable after negligence in a surgery she had resisted getting for the exact reason she ended up eventually dying - she was nervous about the same negligence that caused her death. I was absolutely devastated and heart broken when she passed. I can’t tell you how cathartic it was to sing this piece with my best friends at the time around me. I will never understand how Eric Whitcre figured out how to depict the stages of grief so perfectly. From the onset of the news, to the denial, even down to the repressive feeling of being so sad that you feel like you can’t breath, and finally acceptance with the pain still bubbling under the surface. 8 years after her death and we performed this and I’m on the other side of the intensity of grief, and finally in a place where I feel okay to listen to it, but it took me right back to all those emotions. In a strange way, it makes me feel like I’m closer to my aunt because when I was having those emotions, my memories of her were still fresh and had not faded with time yet. Accessing those feelings opened up those memories too. Thank you Eric Whitacre ❤️
I think you'll find that's the point. It's a lament. For a son. Who has profoundly wounded his father's heart. And yet a father weeps. My son. My son. Achingly, agonisingly beautiful.
My chorus teacher played this song in class today, for 9/11 and I was fighting back tears, because it was so sad. I love this song, though. It's beautiful.
1:06 - 1:56 .. how it builds and layers and grows.. and crescendos ... omg ... so so moving.. Love it. Eric is so brilliant. How I would love to meet this artist ;)
I am going to use this piece as a learning tool. We won't be singing it, we will be listening and learning about how there must be emotion in music or else there is just noise.
A masterpiece. Captures the emotions, reactions and grief contained in that brief scripture passage. This a great performance, the choir is inside the music.
This is a true masterpiece, where emotion and the science of music come together, to create a profound awe-struck sound, that leaves my ears full of beauty, and my eyes full of tears.
Heard it sung in Durham Cathedral (UK) last night. Was amazing. 39 people were singing and when it was in 'silence' the echo of the voices reverberated through the cathedral. Absolutely amazing!
ME TOO!!! This song is just so powerful even if it's not what I normally listen too. I remember being struck by it's beauty when I was little even thought I didn't really understand it, I understood the emotion behind it. It's so sad, but I don't know any other song out there like this.
And the crazy thing is that David lamented after Absolom's death even though Absolom took his throne, raped his concubines, and tried to kill him and his followers. Right there is a true father's love.
We sang a slightly condensed version of this song my freshman year of highschool for Concert Choir and even though I was so into it I still could barely keep it together. Being surrounded by all the different parts and notes my God. Its such a beautiful song . Eric Whitacre is so talented.
When David Heard was premiered by the BYU Singers in March of 1999 and was recorded in the Museum of Art on the BYU Campus. It appears on the Singer’s CD: Eric Whitacre: The Complete A Cappella Works, 1991-2001.
eric whitacre writes amazing music. as a choral student who has sung his pieces, we must also give MAJOR props to the musicians performing this piece. it takes mastery to make music like this, its not easy. byu singers are great!!!
When trying to get absorbed into this piece and a loud ass ad starts to play. Ads in compositions should be illegal
I am a secular Jew and when I was at school, we learned about the story of David and Absalom, so I even remember the verse (in Hebrew though). It is amazing how different it is to read the verse for 20 seconds than to listen to this whole composition for 15 minutes. The bible has no pictures so as a kid, you don't think much about the verses, you just read them. However, when listening to this 15-minute song, while knowing what it is about, suddenly stops you and makes you think about the story of a king, who mourn the death of his son, who rebelled against him and started a war. The country was plagued with war and Absalom, the "bad guy" who unrightfully tried to take the throne, was killed and thus the rebellion was crushed, but instead of being content, David mourns, because Absalom, no matter what he had done, is still David's son.
Amazing.
That's the Gospel in a nutshell! We are each Absolom, each of us rebelling through self-centered sin against our Creator-Father-King. We deserve the rebel's death. Yet God's eternal sinless Son, Jesus Christ, hung on a tree (the cross) as a rebel on our behalf. So, no matter what WE have done, we may still be God's children. Justice is served and mercy is extended in perfect, beautiful, Fatherly love. That is the heart of God. This is true for the Jew and the Gentile, for you and for me. Blessings, friend.
@@mattcunningham582correct me if I'm wrong, but didn't absalom rebel because david didn't punish amnon for the r*pe of their sister?
To those who listen to this:
Have you experienced loss in your life? No? Then fasten your seat belt, because what the following 15 minutes and change does is exceptionally simple and yet devastating in its impact. This song will take you, whether you like it or not, through the process of grieving an intolerable loss, through shock and denial, impotent anger and needless negotiation, until you recognize the inevitability of the loss and ACCEPT IT.
That is the power of this piece and the genius of its composer. That is what Eric Whitacre accomplished here. Make no mistake.
anyone here in 2021, sent by Fr. Mike Schmitz? love it.
I’m here in 2024. Absolutely love Father Mike and this piece is stunningly beautiful.
The first time I heard this, I had taken my daughter to the Colorado Rockies for some skiing at Christmas last year. We were driving in the high, ethereal snow covered mountains. I was already being transported by the majesty I was seeing before me. Then she pulled out her phone, hooked it up to the car audio and unleashed THIS on me. Almost forgot to breathe. Play this at 10,000 plus feet, and see where it takes you...
You have a well-cultured daughter.
fantastic
@@johnnybrewer2992 thank you, she has a great coloratura soprano voice.
@@3nthamornin It was an unearthly experience
Wow that sounds like one of those moments where you stop and appreciate all things that were created for beauty and appreciation
My son died two days ago.
This song expresses my pain.
Oh my, I'm so sorry for your loss! :( :( :( No parent EVER deserves to bury their own. I don't have any kids yet so I can't imagine how agonizing that is. I pray that God (or whoever your Higher Power may be) comforts you during this time, and I wish you the best.
May his memory be a blessing and a comfort. Wishing you peace.
I think if people would meditate on music like this more the anger in their hearts would be softened. Still, last week's bombing in Boston and all. I found Eric's music 10 days or so ago and have been weeping every since. I am 28 years in recovery and I am using it for devotion and meditation.............the doorway to heaven opens a little and I am more secure in my day, Thanks, Eric
We learned this piece in high school! That 18 part harmony is no joke. It was so hard but it was so worth it when we nailed it!
Kat how did such an intense, complicated piece go down with a high school choir? being in high school now, in the highest tier choir, i know we couldn’t pull this off.
My best friend Caleb died today. I dont think you could get any closer to describing anguish/sadness as well as this piece does. You will sorely be missed buddy.
Rest in peace.
Rip Caleb
Seven years have passed since you posted this. I hope you are doing well. I hope you are living your best life - not just for yourself, but for dear Caleb too. I also hope Caleb has appeared in your dreams and sent you signs from above, that he is at peace and walks with you, wherever you go.
A few thoughts:
1) if you're reading this before you listen, be forewarned. You cannot listen to this and walk away the same person you were before. You will be changed. In my opinion, for the better, but changed.
2) this particular recording has a profound back story. Dr. Ronald Staheli is the conductor of the BYU Singers, Brigham Young University's top chamber choir and one of the premiere collegiate choirs in the world right now. He is a long time friend of Eric Whitacre.
Long before When David Heard, Eric has sent many of his non-commissioned pieces to Dr. Staheli to premier and set the standard with the BYU Singers. According to Eric, he finds Dr. Staheli's most profound musical work in his silence, how he is able to turn rests into musical moments, not just pauses between music. In a tragic accident Dr. Staheli lost his son and and subsequently, he commissioned Eric to write a piece for him.
Whitacre's composition exceeded his normal genius and entered the realm of divinely inspired for, says he, he is still discovering elements of connectivity in the piece to the circumstances that he did not know were there during its writing. Here, in this recording we have the culmination of Dr. Staheli's loss, arguably Whitacre's greatest compositional achievement, and Dr. Staheli's courageous commitment to its performance after many tear filled rehearsals.
If you ever wanted to taste how profound a means of communication can be, this is the piece and the recording for it.
+Jibbacraft Teamplays Thanks for sharing the backstory. It is unforgettable and adds layers of meaning to our hearing of this incredible piece of music.
is that right jibbacraft?
I can confirm the above account as I was a music student during this time and worked with Dr. Staheli. It was premiered during my senior year.
It's true. heard this on the radio at 2:00am. Changed my life and I only heard the last 3 minutes.
Wow. This is such an amazing piece of history for such an incredible piece of music. Thank you for sharing
I have never heard anything like this before. EVER. This is the most beautiful thing I've ever heard. I couldn't get through the first two minutes without fighting back tears.
The wailing, the regret, the pain...that's amazing.
If you do not believe in the power of music, you have never heard this song.
In ‘99 I visited my sister during one of her many years singing with BYU Singers, and I attended a couple of rehearsals when they were learning this song to prepare for their tour that summer to Israel, Jordan, London, and Carnegie Hall - amazingly Eric Whitacre would send them a few pages of the completed score each week. He was still writing it as he sent it to them (in giant 14x17 inch double sided sheets) - as I sat in those rehearsals I watched them sing through what they’d already learned and then sight read his most recent pages. It was incredible! Years later I was at a community sing-along in Minnesota and E.W. was asked who he thought did the greatest job singing and conveying his work - without a pause he said “BYU Singers led by Dr. Staheli”. No one else sounds like this - and it’s 32 college students creating this sound!
I was amazingly blessed to attend the premiere performance of this piece and can confirm your account - the choir hadn’t received the entire piece until the day of the performance. And that night they sang the whole piece, from memory, and it was electrifying.
Well, thank you Whitacre and BYU. Now I no longer need to cry. I just let you wail my sadness away through this melody, and I feel the same release. To me, this song is the gift of crying.
I passed by Absalom's tomb most every day during a semester in Israel in 1978. I marveled at it, but after listening to this piece, my memory of that site has been enhanced beyond measure. Thank you, Eric, and the marvelous BYU Singers!
It makes you honestly wonder if the tree next to the tomb in the very tree in which Absalom was hung by his own hair.
This piece takes you on a journey through the waves of emotion that wash over you when someone so close to you dies...son, brother, mother, father, friend. It starts off as a single note...a single unbelievable announcement to your soul of a tragedy that you can't hardly believe, but that overtakes you, building to overwhelming emotion. I have felt that emotion only twice in my life, first when my father died and again when my mother died. You can feel yourself rocking back and forth in grief as the music builds, until you finally have cried yourself into a inevitable calm that comes from the exhaustion of the emptiness and disbelief that envelopes you. If you've ever experienced profound loss, this piece, and this performance, is all the explanation you will ever need to explain your feelings to the world. Absalom is your father, your mother, your child, your brother or sister, your friend who has died. The level of our grief expresses the immense love we felt for them in life. In the end, peace overtakes our hearts, bittersweet, but peace and acceptance, and love that lives on within us.
Couldn't agree more, Revelation319.
The profound sorrow, grief and loss expressed in this piece gives the listener a glimpse of such a wrenching experience. Each uttered "my son"...such torture. What utter pain David felt to know that his son was literally "hell-bent" to self-destruction! How much more for GOD to see HIS children turn from HIM even at the cost of HIS Only Begotten Son...
The first time I heard this song was in 11th grade choir. Our director blasted it over the choir room speakers. And to this day it’s the most ethereal piece of music I’ve ever heard. I love to put headphones on and just dissolve into it.
At 9:47 when the choir does that brief pause and then burst into this grand display of agony and grief...my God moves me to tears every time. Eric Whitacre will go down in history as one of the great composers of all time.
That whole section is like way beyond a climax that you could possibly imagine musically. It truely takes you to another place. Wowski! 8:30 to the end is off the charts....
2dicone Thats my absolute favorite part! I always go back into this video to find it and I just die each time
Yes that is like the pinnacle moment!
Definitely one of the most intense eargasms I've ever had. Music truly is magical.
Yep…and that’s when UA-cam cuts to commercials
the ad at 9:46 is criminal 💀
Ron Staheli, the director of the BYU Singers, lost his son in a tragic accident in 1996, three years before this was written. His son was 19. I'm fairly certain this piece was composed in memory of Staheli's son, and with reverence for Staheli's unparalleled ability to touch upon the subtlety and beauty of Whitacre's compositions. This piece will always access some remote part of my emotions that I live in fear of, and evoke much more than I could ever speak to. Much love for R.S., E.W. and the work the BYU Singers do.
+fefebeefy Yes he did say that he wrote this song for Ron
I feel bad for the people that disliked this video. They must not get the chills or goosebumps or tears or raw emotions the rest of us do when listening to this piece.
This has me crying like a baby from about 8:46 - 9:43 every single time! It's beyond brilliant. It's divine intervention!
And as much as it was painful for David to lose his son, as it would be for any parent, he lost a son who rebelled against him, tried to kill him, and did not appear to have faith. To lose a son on those kinds of terms, knowing that he rebelled against him and his God, would be the ultimate pain.
Incredible job of portraying that deep sorrow in this song.
That isn't the whole story. Absalom's half brother, Amnon raped Absalom's young virgin sister, Tamar. Absalom probably figured his father the King would handle this situation but he seemed to ignore it! So in his rage Absalom had Amnon killed and then ran for his life. Absalom lived with his grandfather for three years until finally returning to the city but still never saw his father. Absalom had three sons and one daughter that he named...Tamar. Talk about bitterness and unresolved conflict!
That isn't the whole story either. Nathan told David the sword would never depart from his house because David slept with Bathsheba got her pregnant & had her husband Uriah killed in battle to cover up his sinful behavior, and that David's wives would given to one close to him (Absalom) & he would sleep with them in broad daylight. So the genesis of this whole mess/tragedy is David's sin.
I lost my brother in a car accident recently and his name was Kendrick he was born in 1988 and my son died a birth his name was Kejuan in 1996
The high C at 10:06 gives me huge goosebumps. It emphasizes the agony and tension and literally screams emotion. Definitely one of my favorite moments in the whole song.
YES
Db in this case! So stunning!
YESSSS. I wait in anticipation of it every time I hear this piece! It’s beautiful and heartbreaking all at the same time!
The first piece of music that has brought me to tears
I first heard this when driving to work on classical radio. I had to stop and wipe the tears from my eyes. Certainly made me think about those in my life and other peoples who have passed away. Beautiful.
Same happened to me!! I was almost late to work because I didn't want to stop listening to it and was crying :)
I could never have gotten through this song singing... It is so beautiful I would have just sat and cried
An alumni of the UofU, I am conditioned to ignore and berate BYU at every opportunity, but when I hear and watch the BYU choral department's perfection of Whitacre's creativity, like this, I am a "Y" supporter at a deep level of conviction.
I'm normally looking up hip hop, metal or edm videos, but this song... let's see any other music make me cry like this. I am not one to cry, either.
This piece makes my heart ache. To create the feeling of such loss through music is a gift. That Eric Whitacre has created so many great works is testament to his talent.
Great song. Every time I listen to the Soprano 1 singing the high C, I just shiver. Her tone is very sweet so it mixes well with the choir, yet she puts emotions into it that connect deeper than if someone with a darker timbre had sang it. I find it more heartbreaking to hear a bright, sweet timbre sing with lamentation and woe in straight tone. Absolutely splendid.
You can always count on top-notch singing from the BYU Singers.
Lyrics:
My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son My son
Seriously though, what an amazing piece.
Music has never done this to me... I feel enlightened and just overall better. I'm not a religious person but this speaks to me. I am a 13 year old and I can't stop listening to this beautiful piece.
"I am a 13 year old"
Very important information. I am 99 years old and for the last 85 years I have been wondering how old you are. Now that I finally know, I can die in peace.
How have I lived my life until today never hearing this beauty??
For just one paragraph of lyrics I have never been so astounded by the beauty and gut wrenching emotion of a piece before. This is so beautiful.
The first time I ever listened to this song in high school (~2008), I was searching for any and every Eric Whitacre song I could find after hearing and falling in love with "Sleep". I remember after listening to this piece, I thought... it's a beautiful song, but it doesn't speak to me.
In 2021, I tragically lost my best friend in a car accident. This song is now one of my absolute favorites that I come back to over and over. It truly feels like there was a higher power guiding this composition. Very beautiful, very real, and very haunting. So grateful this music (and this recording in particular) was available to help me through my grieving process... such a beautiful and powerful expression of profound grief.
Thank you Eric Whitacre and BYU for this beautiful music. My heart goes out to anyone else who deeply feels this music... I'm sorry for your loss, you are not alone
I love this piece so much! I feel it is one of the most perfect rendering of the emotion that a parent feels at the loss of a child, The wailing, the deep seated pain, the soul rending outbursts of uncontrolled emotion. This captures the complete anguish David felt.
I sit here listening to this piece with my 2 year old son on my lap...it puts a whole different feel to it to put myself in David's place. "Would God I had died for thee"...yep that sums up just about any parent's feelings
No better composer than Eric Whitacre and no better choir to perform his discordant, close bound harmonies than the BYU singers. Their vocal control is quite possibly the best in the Collegiate world.
So true... I immediately thought of this song last year when the Sandy Hook tragedy happened.
First song i have listened to with such lovely comments. 'Heartwrenchingly" beautiful
True... After that horrible tragedy happened, I listened to this song and it finally came to me, that this song REALLY paints a musical picture of the pain a parent goes through losing a child. God help those families
Listened to this specific recording of this piece for almost 10 years now. Never been tired of it. My absolute favorite.
The BYU recordings are truly wonderful
4:54 those chords right there are amazing, I love the depth of them. Eric Whitacre is an amazing composer and we are so lucky we are living in the same time period as him where we can experience his music first!
Still the best recording of this piece.
The group does a beautiful job of giving the chords gravitas and doesn't pull away from the piece due to blend or balance.
I have never lost a live child, thank the heavens. I have one child, and cannot begin to imagine the horror of that pain. There is nothing right about losing a child. It is the most wrong, the most backwards thing this horrific universe can hurl at us, and this universe can hurl some ugly stuff.
I have been a fan of Whitacre's since I first heard of him. That he wrote this without personally experiencing this pain is amazing. Just, wow. Wow.
The chord progression from 13:54 to 14:02 makes my insides shake!!! He truly captures the essence of grief and lose through his music!! Even this is hard as hell to sing, it is so beautiful!
Who is here after Bible In A Year?
I knew I wasn't the only one! haha a day late, but worth it.
the amount of raw feeling this piece conveys is amazing. you truly feel the grief, sadness, tension and anger all in one masterpiece. how greatful i am to have found this piece!
This song, along with adagio for strings are the most emotional songs I've ever heard. I must find more!
I deeply concur. I first experienced Samuel Barber's Adagio as a teenager and can still remember the exact moment - it was that emotionally and spiritually significant to me. And this rendition of Whitacre's Alleluia enters the same realm of forever remembered moments.
It's amazing the power music has. How it can honestly reveal emotions and change who we are. "Music is what feelings sound like" :)
+SplodincheeZman Have you listened to "Agnus Dei" by Barber? It's a choral transcription for "Adagio for Strings" Very beautiful!
Listen to Tchaikovsky's 6th symphony 4th movement! That belongs on the list!
I had to come and comment here, just to add my sentiments on this being quite possibly the most beautiful piece of music ever written. I just made the mistake of throwing it on at work with some new headphones I got, and I am sure I looked quite the fool sitting with tear stained eyes in my cubicle as several people passed by. It's transcendent, awesome, inspiring, everything.
i loved singing this my senior year in highschool..its such an amazing piece...we put everything we had into. not a dry eye really...even our choir teacher was red faced. and every time where they first shout out Absalom. i get chills throughout my entire body. thank you for posting the full song on here. :)
I kept it together until the last "Absalom" around 13:58ish and I just lost it. Eric, I can't even fathom how you brought this expression to life.
I hear it. I fully understand.
I love this song so much because I just feel the emotion and I can't help but get teared up. For chorus we sang Glow by Eric Whitacre and I'm just in love with his music. Best composer of all time.
the chord transitions starting at around 1:20 are so immaculate it's unreal
8:30 - 10:17 ...A song made me cry for the first time.The soft, agonizing whispers slowly grow strong as they turn into a heart wrenching scream of loss and sadness.Amazing...
Never have I heard music that truly expressed pure,, raw grief in the way this piece has. Absolutely heart-wrenching. I have never felt so moved to tears by music and sound alone. I've always loved Whitacre, but this piece was just so emotional, even for a Whitacre piece.
This song shattered my soul the first time I heard it. Affects me every time I listen. Such an amazing and powerful song.
If we had more than 18-19 people in my chamber choir, I would want to do this... Whitacre is brilliant. I wish we could pull off an 18 part chord and have it balanced like that.... Impressive!
I rarely visit this piece. I do not have a son, yet i well up in tears EVERYTIME i hear that cluster chord resolve at 1:56.
9:00 onward just breaks my heart
Devastatingly beautiful
I can see tears falling as I listen to this song. So beautiful. Eric Whitacre you are a genius!
What they didn't tell you is that at the time of Absalom's death, he was fighting his father's men and attempting to take over the kingdom. When David heard that his son had died though, he broke down into a sobbing mess, because he still loved his son so much. I think that's how God feels when we chose to turn away from him. He's willing to defend himself, but he's grieving the whole time because he absolutely still loves us even more than we can ever know.
01:55 was eargasmic.
'Nuff said. 👌
Incredible. Utterly jaw dropping the whole time. I love Eric whitacre.
It gave me the chills! I love the intonation, intensity, resonance, harmony, and beautiful tone of the BYU Singers!
I am in absolute floods of tears.
Yeah, that high C in the sopranos is heart-wrenching
I feel like... religious or not, if/when a parent hears this song, it like, does something. idk, I'm not a parent yet so I'll never imagine what this would mean to a parent vs someone who isn't. I do cry when I hear this song but that's because I'm weak for good, powerful music lol.
My honor is my life.
My duty is my fate.
My fear is to fail.
My salvation is my reward.
My craft is death.
My pledge is eternal service.
This is a monumental choral piece. It reminds me of Song for Athene... I believe it to be Whitacre's magnum opus.
I heard this song at a governors school west concert and I just have to say that you may think you can hear all the emotion and pain now, but in person it's quite chilling to hear all of it together. Most all the audience was in tears afterwards. Even the "hard core" men.
Indeed. I've said it so many times before, NO parent should have to bury their child :(
I haven’t listened to this in years. When my choir in University sang this, my great aunt who was like a mother to me had just been declared a vegetable after negligence in a surgery she had resisted getting for the exact reason she ended up eventually dying - she was nervous about the same negligence that caused her death. I was absolutely devastated and heart broken when she passed.
I can’t tell you how cathartic it was to sing this piece with my best friends at the time around me. I will never understand how Eric Whitcre figured out how to depict the stages of grief so perfectly. From the onset of the news, to the denial, even down to the repressive feeling of being so sad that you feel like you can’t breath, and finally acceptance with the pain still bubbling under the surface. 8 years after her death and we performed this and I’m on the other side of the intensity of grief, and finally in a place where I feel okay to listen to it, but it took me right back to all those emotions. In a strange way, it makes me feel like I’m closer to my aunt because when I was having those emotions, my memories of her were still fresh and had not faded with time yet. Accessing those feelings opened up those memories too. Thank you Eric Whitacre ❤️
A loud advertisement in the middle of this marvelous piece completely breaks the mood...
Yeah, I don't know how to get rid of them. If you could show me how that would be awesome
I think you'll find that's the point. It's a lament. For a son. Who has profoundly wounded his father's heart. And yet a father weeps. My son. My son. Achingly, agonisingly beautiful.
My chorus teacher played this song in class today, for 9/11 and I was fighting back tears, because it was so sad. I love this song, though. It's beautiful.
Astounding. Stunning. Heart and soul abundant.
Wasn't that great? phew. Thanks for the +1.
This is such a heart breaking depiction of this story...how the heck does he do it!?
This piece always makes me cry every time. Nothing quite like it
Singing this for highschool choir.... Amazing
chills and a loss for words. this is art.
Looooove his music! Hope to sing in a virtual choir someday.
1:06 - 1:56 .. how it builds and layers and grows.. and crescendos ... omg ... so so moving.. Love it. Eric is so brilliant. How I would love to meet this artist ;)
I am going to use this piece as a learning tool. We won't be singing it, we will be listening and learning about how there must be emotion in music or else there is just noise.
A masterpiece. Captures the emotions, reactions and grief contained in that brief scripture passage. This a great performance, the choir is inside the music.
Ridiculously gorgeous. One of the best classical works in decades.
This is a true masterpiece, where emotion and the science of music come together, to create a profound awe-struck sound, that leaves my ears full of beauty, and my eyes full of tears.
Absolutely astonishing piece of music. Brings tears to my eyes every time. Pure inspiration.
from 7:56 onwards is just so amazing, by far my favorite part of the entire piece.
Ads are so annoying ...
Heard it sung in Durham Cathedral (UK) last night. Was amazing. 39 people were singing and when it was in 'silence' the echo of the voices reverberated through the cathedral. Absolutely amazing!
ME TOO!!! This song is just so powerful even if it's not what I normally listen too. I remember being struck by it's beauty when I was little even thought I didn't really understand it, I understood the emotion behind it. It's so sad, but I don't know any other song out there like this.
Eric Whitacre's music is the leading cause of goose bumps.
1:55 gets to me every time. I love this composition and performance. Beautiful.
And the crazy thing is that David lamented after Absolom's death even though Absolom took his throne, raped his concubines, and tried to kill him and his followers. Right there is a true father's love.
I could listen to this song over and over for the rest of my life, and I would still get goosebumps every time.
We sang a slightly condensed version of this song my freshman year of highschool for Concert Choir and even though I was so into it I still could barely keep it together. Being surrounded by all the different parts and notes my God. Its such a beautiful song . Eric Whitacre is so talented.
This song kills me every time.
When David Heard was premiered by the BYU Singers in March of 1999 and was recorded in the Museum of Art on the BYU Campus. It appears on the Singer’s CD: Eric Whitacre: The Complete A Cappella Works, 1991-2001.
eric whitacre writes amazing music. as a choral student who has sung his pieces, we must also give MAJOR props to the musicians performing this piece. it takes mastery to make music like this, its not easy. byu singers are great!!!