Hello everyone, for now I won't be uploading videos too much. I'll only upload videos that people will wait for. I hope you'll understand my situation now.
hey man, yesterday is history, tomorrow, a mystery, the now, a gift, thats why its called the present. i dont want to invalidate your regret and pain, but i seriously think gratitude is the best attitude. i was, and also still at times am unhappy with who i am, blame people for what ive become, wish i could turn back time, but simply put thats all in the past now, nothing can be done. and you cant let it control you or stop you from enjoying the now. i suggest you to count your the blessings in your life and enjoy the little things, youre able to play games, wake up, move around, read and write, and for each of these acts find joy in them, joy that you can, i think if you approach life like this it can help you with your feelings. hope things work out pal
@@watermelonenjoyer1 I appreciate your words of advice. Lately I just don't feel good enough nor satisfied of myself but I'll do what I can to things around me.
I’m sorry for you man, I’ll pray for you Maybe I don’t understand much but I can tell you that I went through a similar thing, and God helped me recover. It’s hard but it’s possible, you gotta keep having a sense of hope Jesus loves you
Thre is a manga called 3 days of happiness. Main character sells his remaining life span, and has 3 month to live. In these 3 months he tries to find purpose in life. I recomend reading it. It helped me to understand there are more people like me, who lost their emotions, and just drifting through life, waiting for inevetible death. I will be honest with you. In childhood i was fascinated with programming and AI. I still want to pursue those passions. and I will. But, it is still doesn't feel like purpose. Its a strange feeling. Try finding something to love, something you are curious or excited about, no matter how small. 1st step is the most difficult one. And so are the other steps. But each step is little easier. But you need to keep going. Right now you haven't even got to half of your lifespan. It will be alright. We all will be alright.
Hey man, if you feel like you just can't find your purpose, just know life can be unpredictable, but that's what makes it worth living. And know that we're here for a good time, not a long time, so we gotta make the most of it. Look back on all of the things you've already accomplished, you've already made it to college! You still have so, so many things left to experience. So just live in the moment. I recommend you listen to "Good Riddance" by Green Day or "Little Bitty" by Alan Jackson. Helps me out when I'm going through a rough patch.
Even if you don't know what to think of yourself, He, God himself loves you. Even when his son, Jesus Christ our Savior, was dying on the cross for our sins, he thought of YOU, especially. These are his words: "I can do all this through him who gives me strength." - Philippians 4:13 "Do not grieve, for the joy of the Lord is your strength." - Nehemiah 8:10 "My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever." - Psalm 73:26 “My grace is all you need, for my power is the greatest when you are weak.” - 2 Corinthians 12:9 "The Lord bless you, and keep you. The Lord make His face shine upon you, and be gracious to you. The Lord turn His face toward you, and give you peace." - Numbers 6:24-26 I will pray for you, and may the Lord bless. God helped me overcome self hatred, and may He help you, as well. Amen.
hey man, i don't want to say that i've been where you're at, but i've been pretty damn close. does your college offer a therapist or psychologist? you are worth taking the time to get any help that you need. you're only in college, you have SO much room to grow in life, i and all of these other commenters believe in you!! life really can be an overwhelming handful but you can take that handful and store it in your pocket and figure it out piece by piece instead of all at once.
@@statichead6977 thanks for your response. They do have counselling and advisors here but I just really can't trust anyone, even my family so I have no other choice but to keep myself together.
I know what you're going through is probably incomprehendible to me but look your life isn't over yet. Maybe you wasted some years now don't sit here and waste these ones as well. If you do you'll have the same regrets about this time as well. What you didn't do before you can do now. I'm not some therapist and i haven't struggled with much but please don't waste your life like this. Have a nice day
Why are you beyond repair? I'd tell you to not live for anyone else but you and to think about where you want to be in 5 years, then slowly improve your situation over the situation of last month. Watch "Why You Keep Failing At Self-Discipline"
@@nietur the thing is, I don't know what I want. I'm fine on the outside but pretty much tormented inside. I'm doing everything I can to live with this pain.
@nietur I'm resting now, pretty much being very inactive the past few days. As for how tormented I am, I just hate myself, disappointed in myself as I just can't be myself. Idk what I want, which now I feel lost.
@@winterphuntasm I've been inactive the last decade. You're being yourself, hating yourself is a part of it. You don't have to have your life planned out or even a dream job. Knowing what you want can just be what you want right now. Can just be how you want your days to be like. You want to be active and not disappointed, ok, choose any (small) task you can do reliably that you can be proud of.
Hello everyone, for now I won't be uploading videos too much. I'll only upload videos that people will wait for. I hope you'll understand my situation now.
The irony of the human condition. Everyone feels the same, and yet also feels that they are alone.
hey man, yesterday is history, tomorrow, a mystery, the now, a gift, thats why its called the present. i dont want to invalidate your regret and pain, but i seriously think gratitude is the best attitude. i was, and also still at times am unhappy with who i am, blame people for what ive become, wish i could turn back time, but simply put thats all in the past now, nothing can be done. and you cant let it control you or stop you from enjoying the now. i suggest you to count your the blessings in your life and enjoy the little things, youre able to play games, wake up, move around, read and write, and for each of these acts find joy in them, joy that you can, i think if you approach life like this it can help you with your feelings. hope things work out pal
@@watermelonenjoyer1 I appreciate your words of advice. Lately I just don't feel good enough nor satisfied of myself but I'll do what I can to things around me.
I’m sorry for you man, I’ll pray for you
Maybe I don’t understand much but I can tell you that I went through a similar thing, and God helped me recover. It’s hard but it’s possible, you gotta keep having a sense of hope
Jesus loves you
@@ProdMiSionDan I appreciate your reply, for now I'm trying to calm and relax myself :)
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I feel the same way at times I hope you feel better
@@Presbuildscities thank you. These past few days I wasn't active, lying in bed and listening to music most of the time.
@@winterphuntasm same as me.
@@Solanum_Proto hey, I hope you're doing fine. I wish you good days.
@@winterphuntasm they're just getting worse it seems... today has been one of the worst.
It will be alright. Believe it.
@@romanneonick2449 thanks for your words, it means a lot to me
Thre is a manga called 3 days of happiness. Main character sells his remaining life span, and has 3 month to live. In these 3 months he tries to find purpose in life. I recomend reading it. It helped me to understand there are more people like me, who lost their emotions, and just drifting through life, waiting for inevetible death.
I will be honest with you. In childhood i was fascinated with programming and AI. I still want to pursue those passions. and I will. But, it is still doesn't feel like purpose. Its a strange feeling.
Try finding something to love, something you are curious or excited about, no matter how small. 1st step is the most difficult one. And so are the other steps. But each step is little easier. But you need to keep going.
Right now you haven't even got to half of your lifespan. It will be alright. We all will be alright.
hope you feel better and be better dude
@@firegamer-in6cj thank you for your kind words, I'm still taking a break for now
@@winterphuntasm no problem
Hey man, if you feel like you just can't find your purpose, just know life can be unpredictable, but that's what makes it worth living. And know that we're here for a good time, not a long time, so we gotta make the most of it. Look back on all of the things you've already accomplished, you've already made it to college! You still have so, so many things left to experience. So just live in the moment.
I recommend you listen to "Good Riddance" by Green Day or "Little Bitty" by Alan Jackson. Helps me out when I'm going through a rough patch.
@@ReallyNotDom hey, I've been listening to music for days now and I appreciate you recommend me some songs go listen. Thanks!
Even if you don't know what to think of yourself, He, God himself loves you. Even when his son, Jesus Christ our Savior, was dying on the cross for our sins, he thought of YOU, especially. These are his words:
"I can do all this through him who gives me strength."
- Philippians 4:13
"Do not grieve, for the joy of the Lord is your strength."
- Nehemiah 8:10
"My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever."
- Psalm 73:26
“My grace is all you need, for my power is the greatest when you are weak.”
- 2 Corinthians 12:9
"The Lord bless you, and keep you. The Lord make His face shine upon you, and be gracious to you. The Lord turn His face toward you, and give you peace."
- Numbers 6:24-26
I will pray for you, and may the Lord bless. God helped me overcome self hatred, and may He help you, as well. Amen.
hey man, i don't want to say that i've been where you're at, but i've been pretty damn close. does your college offer a therapist or psychologist? you are worth taking the time to get any help that you need. you're only in college, you have SO much room to grow in life, i and all of these other commenters believe in you!! life really can be an overwhelming handful but you can take that handful and store it in your pocket and figure it out piece by piece instead of all at once.
@@statichead6977 thanks for your response. They do have counselling and advisors here but I just really can't trust anyone, even my family so I have no other choice but to keep myself together.
I know what you're going through is probably incomprehendible to me but look your life isn't over yet. Maybe you wasted some years now don't sit here and waste these ones as well. If you do you'll have the same regrets about this time as well. What you didn't do before you can do now. I'm not some therapist and i haven't struggled with much but please don't waste your life like this. Have a nice day
@@Ahmad_1799 thank you for your encouragement. I'm still giving some thoughts to myself for now.
Why are you beyond repair? I'd tell you to not live for anyone else but you and to think about where you want to be in 5 years, then slowly improve your situation over the situation of last month. Watch "Why You Keep Failing At Self-Discipline"
@@nietur the thing is, I don't know what I want. I'm fine on the outside but pretty much tormented inside. I'm doing everything I can to live with this pain.
@@winterphuntasm how are you tormented? what are you doing?
@nietur I'm resting now, pretty much being very inactive the past few days. As for how tormented I am, I just hate myself, disappointed in myself as I just can't be myself. Idk what I want, which now I feel lost.
@@winterphuntasm I've been inactive the last decade. You're being yourself, hating yourself is a part of it. You don't have to have your life planned out or even a dream job. Knowing what you want can just be what you want right now. Can just be how you want your days to be like. You want to be active and not disappointed, ok, choose any (small) task you can do reliably that you can be proud of.