I honestly didn't think I was going to be effected by this, but holy shit this got me worked up. I'm almost crying. It's not just the video but also the fact that Brendon and Ryan don't talk at all anymore. I mean I understand band members going their separate ways but Brendon and Ryan seem like they just consider each other a part of their past that isn't worth revisiting and that just makes me really sad.
***** Eh, I think Brendon was happy then but I think he's actually a lot happier now, now that he has more creative freedom and can truly do what he wants with his music. I think Ryan's happier too being out of the spotlight. I think splitting up was the right thing to do for everyone in the band's individual happiness, but I do wish Brendon and Ryan could have stayed friends.
Yeah, not a lot of people know that that entire section was part of an act that led into "I Write Sins Not Tragedies". Both Brendon's advances and Ryan's reluctance were part of the act. Sorry to destroy your fantasies:/
My heart hurts I can't.It's not just because I ship them it's everything about that time.It's been 10 years since the Nothing Rhymes With Circus Tour.This video was uploaded in 2008 which always felt like it was 2 or 3 years behinf but it's been 8 years.Pre-split panic! started in 04 and split in 2009.That's only 5 years when 2009 to 2016 is 7 years and still going.This entire thing is just so shady I can't
**Back then** Brendon: **leans towards ryan** Ryan: **backs away** **Now** Brendon: "Have you heard of this guy named Ryan Ross? Nope, I have not." **explaining milk fic** "It's about me and uh... an old band member." **explaining the bottling incident** "I was protecting Jon and this... old band member." "Do you have any gay stories? I'm not gay." :')
Ugh my feels! My feelings hurt so much! Why can't they be together now?! Why did I have to get into Bandom when all the couples are no longer together! I'm not crying...nope, nope just you know something in my eye. It hurts so much!
+Superwholock af I see him as turning away from him in some things like... the hand holding, and the massaging stuff because Ryan's a cute awkward shy little shit and doesn't know how to react.
Yeah, not a lot of people know that that entire section was part of an act that led into "I Write Sins Not Tragedies". Both Brendon's advances and Ryan's reluctance were part of the act. Sorry to destroy your fantasies:/
Legit cried, I didn't know panic back then but watching videos like this makes me sad to see what I missed and to see their friendships go away is heart breaking
Bob Bimbo I wish he would leave Sarah and go to Ryan. Please don't hate me for saying that but I can't stand her, I feel like she is a gold digger and controlling. If anyone sees this and likes Sarah, I am sorry if you were offended but just know if you do like her, I respect your opinion. In fact my best friend thinks she is so perfect for him and it takes everything in me not to go on another Ryden rant.
I have that same feeling. She's nothing like him. She takes selfies and is a beauty queen. I wish he found someone who was a repressed emo or something. Someone who loved his music and can ACTUALLY relate to the songs and him
Patrice Urie Brendon’s still making sun/moon references in 2018. I hope he finds Ryan and they get together and the rest of the band comes together. I ship Ryden and Joncer(Jon and Spencer).
One of the most depressing Ryden videos I have ever had the pleasure of seeing. Made me cry and long for the time when the band was still together. I miss Ryden.
I feel as if Brendon used to have deep feelings for Ryan.... and Ryan didn't know how to respond to them and the times Brendon was trying to have a great relationship, Ryan just wasn't committing..... now basically the tables have turned... Ryan has learned he's loved Brendon all along - but now Brendon is still heartbroken and trying to hide the fact he still loves Ryan by just completely ignoring him in all ways, and doesn't even mention his name, he referrers to Ryan as, " The old guitarist " or " The old band member " its one of the most saddest things I've ever seen... honestly I don't really care much for Sarah, I know its mean to say but Ryan probably has deeper feelings for Brendon then Sarah.... and Ryan probably wants Brendon so bad and can't get over the fact he had let such a amazing guy go.... I hope one day they have a relationship again where they can both pursue they're love for each other, and not shut each other out....
So, I was watching this with family over and I started crying. My Grandma asked why I was crying and I said, "I just need ice cream" Then my Aunt got up and grabbed tub of ice cream and a spoon for me XD. But honestly this just gave me feeling
***** oH MY GOD I HAVENT SEEN THIS IN A MONTH AND THIS COMMENT MADE ME WATCH IT AGAIN aND I HAVE TRIPPING EYES AND FLOODED LUNGS IN THE MIDDLE OF MATH HOMEWORK
I do indeed feel like Brendon wanted to be in a relationship with Ryan bit Ryan didn't want to ruin the band's image and have them lose popularly/ Didn't want to be criticized but when he finally opened up and wanted to be with Brendon, Brendon said it was too late .
I mean I love this ship really but why do people keep saying "Brendon should dump Sarah" like ??? Their relationship is adorable, Sarah is a sweet heart and they are obviously very happy together. Like I get your upset about ryden I am as well believe me but like it's rude to say he should break up with Sarah. Just do what I did and enjoy beebo and Sarah's relationship because like it's adorable and asdfgh I love it.
Well I think that either relationship would be sweet. I'm not crazy and wanted he gone. You can tell beebo loves her. But if it turned out differently, with Ryan and beebo togeter, that would have been really sweet to. Now they have turned each other down (mostly brendon) for anything to happen if something really bad happened to sarah, or if they ever divorced.
I miss all of this. I've been an off an on P!ATD fan since a very young age. And now that I'm older. I've really gotten into their band. And I fell for the old set of members. With Ryan and Jon. And it makes me so upset. And I ship Ryden so much it hurts. I don't know what'd be worse. Loving them then, and now. Or just jumping in now, and not being there for the breakup. I just love Ryden SO MUCH. It's cute. And this song. GAH. Perfect.
I am just speaking my mind when I say that I wish Brendon would leave Sarah for Ryan. Please do not hate me, I am just giving my opinion while crying the hardest I have cried in the longest time.
they say that the split was just creative differences, but Spencer and Ryan had been friends since they were five years old, so it had to be more than that. in a lot of the clips, Ryan is like "don't touch me" and it hurts. I'm so amazed at Brendon for being able to keep the band going since none of the original boys are with him. I wonder if he ever looks at how far he's come and thinks, "this isn't what Ryan would've wanted" because Ryan brought brendon into the band, not the other way around. but I don't feel that this is just about Ryan, but more about Spencer, Jon, and Ryan.
Brendon either loved Ryan to pieces or was IN LOVE with him... but Ryan didn't feel the same. But, when he finally returned those feelings... Brendon either didn't have those feelings anymore or was arrogant towards it. :'( BUT AY maybe it's non and us shippers just make things gay XD
I hope that someday they'll be able to have what they used to have again. I just hope the fanbase hasn't ruined any chance at repairing their friendship...
REALIZED THAT THIS VIDEO WAS POSTED ON FUCKING 2008 PRETTY ODD ERA. HE DIDNT KNOW THIS WAS GOING TO HAPPEN. TIME FLIES BY.... I DONT WANT TO..BELIEVE ...TwT
This really doesn't make me think of "Ryden," but just of how close these two were while they were in the same band.. They could still be that close! I wouldn't know... I am but a fangirl...
Find me here, and speak to me I want to feel you, I need to hear you You are the light that's leading me to the place Where I find peace again You are the strength that keeps me walking You are the hope that keeps me trusting You are the life to my soul You are my purpose You're everything And how can I stand here with you And not be moved by you Would you tell me how could it be any better than this? You calm the storms and you give me rest You hold me in your hands You won't let me fall You steal my heart and you take my breath away Would you take me in, take me deeper now And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you Would you tell me how could it be any better than this And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you Would you tell me how could it be any better than this Cause you're all I want, you're all I need You're everything, everything You're all I want You're all I need You're everything, everything You're all I want You're all I need You're everything, everything You're all I want You're all I need Everything, everything And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you Would you tell me how could it be any better than this And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you Would you tell me how could it be any better-any better than this And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you Would you tell me how could it be any better than this Would you tell me how could it be any better than this. I got these lyrics online if anybody wondered or wanted to see them.
Ok I think that Brallon is just fun for the the both of them and to do to do crazy stuff to make us go crazy but Rydon is a different story. I think that they actually did love each other. But Brendon wanted to be a bit more public about it then Ryan. Because if you were in a band and you start dating them you probably wouldn't want it to surface the world because once you break up you're kinda screwed. (Which is kinda what happened when Ryan started to be more Lovey-dovey with Brendon and then Brendon rejected him) It's like when you do wired stuff with your friends in a huge crowd that you would never do with someone who you're sorta figuring stuff out like you don't know if you are a couple or no. That's just my opinion.
Boy am I glad I ran across your channel. This is epic. I love it! :) I really have no words for this, it's just... Amazing. It makes me extremely sad, but in the good sort of way. You know, I'll never forgive Keltie for ruining their chance at Ryden. =P
I feel like Brendon really loved Ryan at first, but since Ryan was (still is) such a smol fucking adorable shy bean he didn't want to get judged and didn't want to return Brendon's feelings, so when Ryan stopped being shy and finally decided he didn't care what people say Brendon had told himself he doesn't need Ryan, and Ryan doesn't need him, and I feel like now when interviewers talk about Ryan, Brendon just feels so hurt and sad so he just says not (in a hateful way) but things that can be taken in a different tone, I just feel like Ryan just was too shy and Brendon was getting sick of waiting.
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I honestly didn't think I was going to be effected by this, but holy shit this got me worked up. I'm almost crying. It's not just the video but also the fact that Brendon and Ryan don't talk at all anymore. I mean I understand band members going their separate ways but Brendon and Ryan seem like they just consider each other a part of their past that isn't worth revisiting and that just makes me really sad.
Same. Except I did cry
***** Eh, I think Brendon was happy then but I think he's actually a lot happier now, now that he has more creative freedom and can truly do what he wants with his music. I think Ryan's happier too being out of the spotlight. I think splitting up was the right thing to do for everyone in the band's individual happiness, but I do wish Brendon and Ryan could have stayed friends.
You couldn’t have worded it better
Guys, why does my heart hurt? I don't even know these people personally, but I just want them to be friends again so much its painful.
Mint Yoongi Everyone does, it's okay, you can cry here :'(
Same
This makes me so uncomfortable knowing it was made in the pre-split time zone like was the creator aware what was gonna happen to the ship
Your name omg!
It seems like Brendon was making many passes at Ryan but Ryan brushed them off many of the times.
and then when he finally tried to return them, brendon got arrogant about it and said no
Yeah, not a lot of people know that that entire section was part of an act that led into "I Write Sins Not Tragedies". Both Brendon's advances and Ryan's reluctance were part of the act. Sorry to destroy your fantasies:/
@@elderly_gentleman9489 wait... What?
first MCR and now I'm watching this and crying what is going on with my life
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Feel you
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Dry your tears for MCR. They're back
this makes me sad and emotional and oh god i miss ryden so much it hurts how brendon cant even say ryans name in interviews anymore
All this time Ryan's turned Brendon down, then when Ryan finally lets go and loves Brendon, Brendon's already broken...4:15....
I know right!
ThePowerOfEquality432 4:07
ThePowerOfEquality432
I CRIED AT THAT PART LOOK HOW SAD RYAN LOOKS PLEASE KILL ME
M y
F u c k i n g
H e a r t
someone help me go back in time I need panic! to stay together
where is doctor who when you need him?
4:22 broke my heart like shit
I SHOULD BE SLEEPING BUT NOPE
IM TOO EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE
Same
and refers to him as "an old guitar player" three years later
At Lee he still refers to him unlike..ykw
The first time I watched this in like 2010 it fucked me up and watching it again now it still fucked me up.
I'm not crying. There's just some northern downpour in my eyes
I dare someone who doesn't think Ryden was real to watch this and say it doesn't exist afterwards.
There's something there, it may not be a relationship but a connection
*Didn't :(
It doesn't exist
Its all ryan urning away from brendon, but then it's brendon turning away from ryan..
My heart hurts I can't.It's not just because I ship them it's everything about that time.It's been 10 years since the Nothing Rhymes With Circus Tour.This video was uploaded in 2008 which always felt like it was 2 or 3 years behinf but it's been 8 years.Pre-split panic! started in 04 and split in 2009.That's only 5 years when 2009 to 2016 is 7 years and still going.This entire thing is just so shady I can't
**Back then**
Brendon: **leans towards ryan**
Ryan: **backs away**
**Now**
Brendon: "Have you heard of this guy named Ryan Ross? Nope, I have not."
**explaining milk fic** "It's about me and uh... an old band member."
**explaining the bottling incident** "I was protecting Jon and this... old band member."
"Do you have any gay stories? I'm not gay."
:')
Ugh my feels! My feelings hurt so much! Why can't they be together now?! Why did I have to get into Bandom when all the couples are no longer together! I'm not crying...nope, nope just you know something in my eye. It hurts so much!
same tbh
the video is heart wrenching but the song is what seals the deed.
But I just...Ryan's always turning away from Brendon and no bb why
+Superwholock af I see him as turning away from him in some things like... the hand holding, and the massaging stuff because Ryan's a cute awkward shy little shit and doesn't know how to react.
Yeah.. But Brendon treated him like shit in some clips SOOO....
+Natalie Bates Why people keep saying that? what did he said?
Wait what? What clips?
Yeah, not a lot of people know that that entire section was part of an act that led into "I Write Sins Not Tragedies". Both Brendon's advances and Ryan's reluctance were part of the act. Sorry to destroy your fantasies:/
Legit cried, I didn't know panic back then but watching videos like this makes me sad to see what I missed and to see their friendships go away is heart breaking
s a m e
EXACTLY
Same
I have never related to a comment so much.
We all just have to wait for Brendon to come out crying saying he misses him and loved him and always will 😫😫
Bob Bimbo I wish he would leave Sarah and go to Ryan. Please don't hate me for saying that but I can't stand her, I feel like she is a gold digger and controlling. If anyone sees this and likes Sarah, I am sorry if you were offended but just know if you do like her, I respect your opinion. In fact my best friend thinks she is so perfect for him and it takes everything in me not to go on another Ryden rant.
Bob Bimbo I'm totally agree with you! Oh geez, I miss them soooo fucking much. I can recover from the split :'(
I have that same feeling. She's nothing like him. She takes selfies and is a beauty queen. I wish he found someone who was a repressed emo or something. Someone who loved his music and can ACTUALLY relate to the songs and him
Still waiting.
...ya know I’m still waiting
I was crying then I saw Brendon's red glasses then I laughed. Then started crying again.
If only whoever made this knew what was gonna happen... ;-;
I honestly feel like Brendon really liked Ryan but Ryan didn't return the feeling too much and maybe led him on a little so they cut each other off
Oh c'mon. It's 2015 and Ryden is still relevant. WE ALL KNOW WHY.
Patrice Urie it's 2016 now and it's still relevant.
Patrice Urie it's 2017 and I'm still waiting...
2018 now
👀
2018 ....
Patrice Urie Brendon’s still making sun/moon references in 2018. I hope he finds Ryan and they get together and the rest of the band comes together. I ship Ryden and Joncer(Jon and Spencer).
i haven't sobbed this hard since march 22.
my heart
my achy breakey heart
One of the most depressing Ryden videos I have ever had the pleasure of seeing. Made me cry and long for the time when the band was still together. I miss Ryden.
It's been at almost 5 years and I can still not control my Rydon feels!!!!
I feel as if Brendon used to have deep feelings for Ryan.... and Ryan didn't know how to respond to them and the times Brendon was trying to have a great relationship, Ryan just wasn't committing..... now basically the tables have turned... Ryan has learned he's loved Brendon all along - but now Brendon is still heartbroken and trying to hide the fact he still loves Ryan by just completely ignoring him in all ways, and doesn't even mention his name, he referrers to Ryan as, " The old guitarist " or " The old band member " its one of the most saddest things I've ever seen... honestly I don't really care much for Sarah, I know its mean to say but Ryan probably has deeper feelings for Brendon then Sarah.... and Ryan probably wants Brendon so bad and can't get over the fact he had let such a amazing guy go.... I hope one day they have a relationship again where they can both pursue they're love for each other, and not shut each other out....
FUCK YOUR C H I C K E N STRIPS Same
Im naoT CRi YnG i PROmISe
This made me cry
So, I was watching this with family over and I started crying. My Grandma asked why I was crying and I said, "I just need ice cream" Then my Aunt got up and grabbed tub of ice cream and a spoon for me XD. But honestly this just gave me feeling
Brendon had a crush on Ryan.
You can't change my mind
Brendon neither.
I ought to stop hurting myself..but I can't. Seems like the masochist in me is crawling out. I have to stop i have to i have to. I CANT
I just got another ship name omg
Bryan
*dies*
Fun Fact: When I first heard about Ryan and Brendon, I thought that their ship name was Bryan.
soapfeehah it should be
I cried threw the whole damn video😭
not sobbing i swear
***** oH MY GOD I HAVENT SEEN THIS IN A MONTH AND THIS COMMENT MADE ME WATCH IT AGAIN aND I HAVE TRIPPING EYES AND FLOODED LUNGS IN THE MIDDLE OF MATH HOMEWORK
***** tHANKS
I do indeed feel like Brendon wanted to be in a relationship with Ryan bit Ryan didn't want to ruin the band's image and have them lose popularly/ Didn't want to be criticized but when he finally opened up and wanted to be with Brendon, Brendon said it was too late .
DUDE IM FEELING REALLY NOSTALGIC
You'd be should've played Cape Town
Anna Cape Town didn’t exist when this video came out...
I mean I love this ship really but why do people keep saying "Brendon should dump Sarah" like ??? Their relationship is adorable, Sarah is a sweet heart and they are obviously very happy together. Like I get your upset about ryden I am as well believe me but like it's rude to say he should break up with Sarah. Just do what I did and enjoy beebo and Sarah's relationship because like it's adorable and asdfgh I love it.
Well I think that either relationship would be sweet. I'm not crazy and wanted he gone. You can tell beebo loves her. But if it turned out differently, with Ryan and beebo togeter, that would have been really sweet to. Now they have turned each other down (mostly brendon) for anything to happen if something really bad happened to sarah, or if they ever divorced.
Ok I love this
I love ryden
thnks fr th tears
I miss all of this. I've been an off an on P!ATD fan since a very young age. And now that I'm older. I've really gotten into their band. And I fell for the old set of members. With Ryan and Jon. And it makes me so upset. And I ship Ryden so much it hurts. I don't know what'd be worse. Loving them then, and now. Or just jumping in now, and not being there for the breakup. I just love Ryden SO MUCH. It's cute. And this song. GAH. Perfect.
I am just speaking my mind when I say that I wish Brendon would leave Sarah for Ryan. Please do not hate me, I am just giving my opinion while crying the hardest I have cried in the longest time.
Same. I still love Sarah but you know.
Well unfortunately for you they're not breaking up anytime soon! Iy's been 10 years now.
why would you do this to me? *crying internally*
THE FEELS
omg. 2:12 breaks my heart
they say that the split was just creative differences, but Spencer and Ryan had been friends since they were five years old, so it had to be more than that. in a lot of the clips, Ryan is like "don't touch me" and it hurts. I'm so amazed at Brendon for being able to keep the band going since none of the original boys are with him. I wonder if he ever looks at how far he's come and thinks, "this isn't what Ryan would've wanted" because Ryan brought brendon into the band, not the other way around. but I don't feel that this is just about Ryan, but more about Spencer, Jon, and Ryan.
I'm not crying .....
WHY RYAN😭😭😭😭
My heart. I’m crying. God I just want it to be like this. I don’t even know them personally, but I miss this
Don't cry... Craft.
I'm not ok
(I promise)
Brendon either loved Ryan to pieces or was IN LOVE with him... but Ryan didn't feel the same. But, when he finally returned those feelings... Brendon either didn't have those feelings anymore or was arrogant towards it. :'(
BUT AY maybe it's non and us shippers just make things gay XD
Ryden>Everything
1:25 is 1000% the look of someone who at the very least has a crush on whoever they're looking at.
How can two people who have so much chemistry, not even talk anymore? It breaks my heart.
4:15 made me cry so much Dx
Me? Crying at a ryden edit at nearly midnight? More likely than not
My hearts broken...This actually made me cry
I'm crying oh my god i love patd, Ryden exists or at least maybe existed all those years they couldnt have just been "friends" .....RYDEN FOREVER!!!!!
I hope that someday they'll be able to have what they used to have again. I just hope the fanbase hasn't ruined any chance at repairing their friendship...
thanks for makeing me cry! knowing things may not be the same. rydon/ryden isnt going to come back
The fact that Brendon hates Ryan more than anything now kills me inside.
I don't think he hates him... They just don't speak that's all.
he doesn't hate him, they just don't hang out anymore because they thought the shipping got too out of hand
I don't even care about the shipping anymore... I just want them to at least talk to each other as *friends*
I don't think that's why they don't hang out. There's still a shit tonne of anger over the breakup
No matter what they've said, I'm pretty sure that the split wasn't on good terms... That makes me sad to think about. ;-;
Ryan please come back.
Oof how I wish they were still friends and talked
REALIZED THAT THIS VIDEO WAS POSTED ON FUCKING 2008 PRETTY ODD ERA. HE DIDNT KNOW THIS WAS GOING TO HAPPEN. TIME FLIES BY.... I DONT WANT TO..BELIEVE ...TwT
this is so beautiful im crying thank you
AHHH THE FEELS THE FEELS THEY ARE MY OTP
Excuse me while I go cry in a corner for eight million years
I totally am crying.
I miss this so much.. :'{
And 4:15??
BrenDUN Urie ouch-
2008...
This really doesn't make me think of "Ryden," but just of how close these two were while they were in the same band.. They could still be that close! I wouldn't know... I am but a fangirl...
aww, ryden! i love them, and miss them! also, the song went perfectly and i love whoever took 4:36 - 4:44.
what's this? my heart shattered on the floor? okay...
T.T
TOUCHING MISS THE OLD PANIC
I am about to cry
I miss all this SO much...
omg i can't
i am not crying right now
*sobs*
I've never noticed, but I'm going to keep an eye out from now on.
i can't believe i'm still watching this after 12 years
Perfect isn't it enough. Great job. OMG, I cried my heart out :(
Brendon leaded in so many time but Ryan thought it was part of the show and didn’t take the hint 😭😭😭
This is sadder than my life. Well if I think about it, this is my life... I am mentally insane but I'm okay with that.
I cried damn
Find me here, and speak to me
I want to feel you, I need to hear you
You are the light that's leading me to the place
Where I find peace again
You are the strength that keeps me walking
You are the hope that keeps me trusting
You are the life to my soul
You are my purpose
You're everything
And how can I stand here with you
And not be moved by you
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
You calm the storms and you give me rest
You hold me in your hands
You won't let me fall
You steal my heart and you take my breath away
Would you take me in, take me deeper now
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this
Cause you're all I want, you're all I need
You're everything, everything
You're all I want
You're all I need
You're everything, everything
You're all I want
You're all I need
You're everything, everything
You're all I want
You're all I need
Everything, everything
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you
Would you tell me how could it be any better-any better than this
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this.
I got these lyrics online if anybody wondered or wanted to see them.
Ok I think that Brallon is just fun for the the both of them and to do to do crazy stuff to make us go crazy but Rydon is a different story. I think that they actually did love each other. But Brendon wanted to be a bit more public about it then Ryan. Because if you were in a band and you start dating them you probably wouldn't want it to surface the world because once you break up you're kinda screwed. (Which is kinda what happened when Ryan started to be more Lovey-dovey with Brendon and then Brendon rejected him) It's like when you do wired stuff with your friends in a huge crowd that you would never do with someone who you're sorta figuring stuff out like you don't know if you are a couple or no. That's just my opinion.
Boy am I glad I ran across your channel. This is epic. I love it! :) I really have no words for this, it's just... Amazing. It makes me extremely sad, but in the good sort of way. You know, I'll never forgive Keltie for ruining their chance at Ryden. =P
I'm crying ... hurts
They seemed so happy :(
My poor heart.....
I feel like Brendon really loved Ryan at first, but since Ryan was (still is) such a smol fucking adorable shy bean he didn't want to get judged and didn't want to return Brendon's feelings, so when Ryan stopped being shy and finally decided he didn't care what people say Brendon had told himself he doesn't need Ryan, and Ryan doesn't need him, and I feel like now when interviewers talk about Ryan, Brendon just feels so hurt and sad so he just says not (in a hateful way) but things that can be taken in a different tone, I just feel like Ryan just was too shy and Brendon was getting sick of waiting.
*.*
THIS VIDEO MAKES ME CRY
1:18 what is this from??
This video hypnotized me, espially since I just wrote a ryden fic. Seriously, I almost dropped my coffee cup