thank you for being so open and honest with us! we missed you and we were holding space for you the whole time. one day at a time, and all feelings are ok and allowed! sending love your way!
Steph so glad to see you back and don’t ever feel you need to apologize for being your authentic self. I lost my dad unexpectedly in 2021 and it took me a while to realize I wasn’t ok and I needed help, but now I have medication and counseling to help and that’s ok, no one expects me to be superwoman 24/7 (except me). We need more brave people like yourself being vulnerable to help society get more comfortable talking about these issues. The grief doesn’t magically disappear once the funeral is over but the pain of the loss does lessen over time so you can focus on more of the happy memories. Stay strong 💜💜
Big hugs ❤ can’t even think about losing my parents. I’m like you and get the worst anxiety even thinking about the closest people in my life dying. Sending you so much love and strength xx
I’ve lost both my parents to cancer before I turned 43. Thank you for mentioning anticipatory grief. I never had a word for it but it’s a devastating period of time. Knowing this is the last birthday or Christmas with someone is heart breaking
I’m sorry for your loss Steph. Losing my Dad changed my life so most of what you said resonates with me so much. As weird as it sounds, I’ve read a few quotes that helped me get through. One being - “grief is the last act of love we have to give to those we loved. Where there is deep grief there was great love” I hope you’re doing ok ❤
Hi Steph … I really feel your pain I also lost my Dad from Lymphoma in January 2022 he was diagnosed on the 5th of January & passed away on the 30th of January & yes his end of life was horrific I was with him when he passed & I was so glad I was there but the grief some days is overwhelming !! Take Care lovely xx
I lost my mom in November 2020 not long after having my baby girl and it was the worst experience of my life and I still struggle with it now. And probably always will. I’m so sorry for your loss of your dad, sending you lots of love ❤️
Welcome back lovely. I feel your story to my core. I lost my Dad to cancer also and yes grief is the hardest thing we’ll ever have to deal with. I’m 5 years on which was originally my Dads life span but he got a secondary & it took over and he was gone in month. Sometimes grief is not as heavy but it always stays with you. The stages, the phone call just everything my heart goes out to you because your right it fkn sucks. This platform is a great way for you to share but for people to hear how you coped because your right we don’t talk about it nearly Some days it’s heavy AF & some days it lighter. I’m so pleased it help you deal with other things that you needed to deal with. Geez it changes us hey!! Sending love always & take care 🩷🩷🩷
Thankyou for sharing and being so open. It takes so long just to be able to cope with loosing loved ones. I lost my mum 17 years ago and that amount of time near the end, I can still remember like it was yesterday. We are with you. ❤
Goodness I'm so sorry for your loss. I love the way you expressed yourself freely; it does help to talk and share your grief. May brighter days come your way.😊
Thanks for sharing. Triggered a lot of emotions for me. I lost my dad on 14/9/2022, April the same yr is when we found out he was sick with pancreatic cancer. Cherished the 5.5mths we had with him. I agree changes your view on life. I do love watching your channel ❤
Thank you for sharing your story Steph. My Dad passed nearly 9 years ago from lung cancer & it’s still as vivid today as it was then. My Dad was in the UK so I flew out the day after he was diagnosed & helped Mum look after him. He passed 7 weeks later. It was the worst time ever but I also felt really blessed & honoured to be with him. We laughed & cried a lot…the anticipatory grief was so difficult…bless you & your family my sweet. Your Dad would be proud of you! 💜💜💜
Hi Steph, from a new UK viewer, I just found your channel via your Dubai vlog, as we’re going there soon! Now I’m watching some of your other videos, and this one really resonated with me. You come across as really authentic and your realism is refreshing. You’re right that grief never leaves you. I’m 45 and lost my dad to cancer when I was just 5, so it kind of shaped my whole life and that trauma is a massive part of who I am. So yeh, we all carry sh*t from our childhood and somehow have to learn to deal with that. I also became a people pleaser and faded into the background for similar reasons to you. Thanks for sharing. I think it does help to see we’re not alone and go through similar stuff the world over. Xx
I am glad you are back. It is good to hear you were able to express your feelings, and you are right that it is okay to have all the feelings, selfish, sad, mad, resentful and other great feelings. Stay strong and be kind to yourself.
So much love to you and thank you for sharing your journey. I lost my dad in 2021 and he was only 74 years old. You are completely right when you say you just learn to live with the grief ❤ It’s wonderful to see your face again on UA-cam xx
Heartfelt video🙏 Watching this brought back memories of me saying my final goodbye to my beautiful husband just over a year ago. Grief is not talked about in our society and that breaks my heart💔💔💔 My grief journey has been a lonely and isolating journey😢 Love that you opened up Steph! Much love to you xx
I’m so sorry I have no words and there really isn’t any. You’re so right no one talks about grief but we really need to break the stigma and let it be known we are allowed to talk about it. Sending you so much love
Thanks for sharing that with us. It really struck a chord with me. I’m so sorry, it sounds like your family lost a wonderful man. Sending love to you and your family 🤍
Thank you for sharing Steph, can really resonate with this as I lost my Dad to Leukaemia in 2019. There’s nothing that compares to the emotions and fear when you know someone who means the world to you only has weeks left. And then how your whole world changes once they’re gone.. Sending love 🤍
It's so nice to see you back, I'm very sorry for your loss, as a cancer survivor myself, I deal with survivors guilt when I hear about those that have passed, But just give yourself time, and cherish the memories... Your hair looks beautiful by the way!
You are wonderful and I bet your Dad is so proud of you! I had lymphoma a couple of years ago and understand exactly where you are coming from. As I've returned to work I have gone back to my overworking ways but definitely don't sweat the small things so much. Sometimes I need to remember what I have learned and snap out of the old ways. Life is precious and when I was sick, it was amazing to see what actually mattered. It was nothing money could buy. All the best Steph x
Thank you for sharing... I totally understand as I lost my father 14 years ago... he was only 69. I miss him soooooooooooo very much and even now some days are harder than others. There was a lot of family drama as soon as his die... it show me that you truely see the true side of people... unfortunately now my family is broken apart. I now live my life trying to enjoy the family and friends who are apart of my life and enjoy the little things and moments in my life. Life is so short... and money isn't everything.. just be happy and Celebrate everything. ❤😊🤗🥂🍾
Welcome back Steph! I follow you on socials and it’s so nice to see you back on you tube! I love how honest and raw you are!!! Your dad would be sooo proud of you!!! Keep being you!
Thankyou for sharing! X We lost my mother in law 7 weeks from diagnosis (we never got to say goodbye to her as my husband and I are in another state and it was too late! ) and now 12 years later we are going through the same thing with my father in law who has been told he has months left!
Thank you for sharing I cried watching your story as I lost my mum in 2019 and then I lost my dad in November last year and now I am broken 💔 Stay strong 💜
It’s nice to see you! I feel like I have to add more here, as I did comment without watching as I was so excited to see you. I offer our condolences to you, your family and friends. I lost my Dad a few years ago now, so I feel your pain and understand the loss. Stay strong and as they say time does help a little. ❤
Thanks for sharing your story, you are so beautiful inside and out actually your stunning..Grief is terrible, l am an emotional person. My life hasnt gone the way l wanted lots of stress and anxiety now l have fibromyalgia and l am trying to be kind to myself. Living with pain and fatigue and lots of things from my past has bought me forward to a life of pain. I am glad your back missed you girly ❤
We should all talk about it, it's life changing. I saw my dad die suddenly in the middle of the night in my mid 20s and it takes so long to recover from. Sharing makes it better. Hugs.
So proud of you for getting back out there! My Dad was diagnosed with Lymphoma on Christmas Eve just gone and I understand exactly what you mean when nothing really matters once you hear the news. Dad and I had an estranged relationship growing up too, he was just such a hard worker always making sure we had what we needed and seeing him in such a vulnerable place is horrible. He is still fighting strong but we found out it has spread to his brain in March and is currently not responding to any treatment. I couldn’t imagine going through all of this and then also running your business and being a public figure all at the same time. You should be proud ❤
I love that you share this, I lost my mom in a very short time and I have to deal with it...its never easy but they are always with as.. you just have to give them them time to shoe it to as ...they are always wit as al the time in spirit...I can feel it... your dad is it too.. I love your back in to you tube... I give you I hug...
Wow you are beyond brave for sharing your story. I lost my dad to cancer 13.09.21 in the same situation as you, at home & it is soul shattering. I’ve learnt the grief never leaves you it just comes & goes but your dad would be beyond proud of you just hold onto all of the amazing memories you have ❤
Oh sweetheart I just want to reach over and give you the biggiest hug and please don't apologize for feeling the grief that you do we all understand the pain you must feel and going through. Thinking of you and your gorgeous family Xxx My nan raised me and my brothers and I have never had a good relationship with my parents due to childhood trauma. I really feel for you in my heart because I know the pain that can build up. Thankyou so very much for sharing this vlog because it has helped me personally with some deep dark private stuff I'm going through too. I see so much of myself in you meaning I'm always saying sorry too but after being diagnosed with MS and FND and trying to be the best single mum I can be to my two little boys, I get it.
Thank you for your vulnerability and for sharing. There is so much trauma and grief, Yes we should talk about this more. We really need to learn to hold the space for people in times like this. I hope you have a wonderful tribe around you that care and love you.
Condolences to you and your family Steph on the passing of your Dad. We lost our Dad in June 2021 to dementia and we nursed him at home too so i know how hard and heartbreaking it is. Treasure the memories and share them with your girls. Love to you all ❤
Oh my girl.. I had to watch this in parts crying along with you. You need to heal however that is...sharing or not im always here fir you. And even tho you dad has gone to heaven he will still be at every launch every product meeting every school play and anything else you all do . Cheering you all on 💜 btw- welcome back to yt !
Steph to do what you just did in this video would have been extremely difficult. Im so sorry that you’ve experienced the loss of your Dad. I lost my Dad in 2002 and I can honestly say that its one of the most difficult things in life to try and deal with. We lost my Dad to leukaemia so I understand the knowing in advance that youre going to lose your parent. You can NEVER prepare yourself for something like that. Allow yourself the time to grieve and NEVER apologise if you break down. We nursed my Dad til he passed at home. So I totally understand your pain. Grief does come in so many forms and it also comes in waves. Just allow yourself to go with it. Once again Im so sorry for your loss. By the way this video was beautiful and informative. Sending you heaps of love to assist you in your healing. ❤❤❤
No need to apologise..you made total sense and I completely understand. I’ve lost both my parents, I watched their health deteriorate and was with them when they passed…it’s bloody hard. Sending love to you.💞
It is wonderful to see you back beautiful soul. 💫I'm sorry for your loss. I can only imagine how extremely hard it is for you. Thank you for your honesty, and thank you for sharing. Love you xoxo
Thank you for sharing Steph 🤍 I cannot imagine the grief you must be feeling. Take it as slow as you need and please be gentle on yourself. I know it’s not always easy but try to be kind to yourself and it’s okay to feel however you’re feeling (speaking as someone who is always highly critical of themselves - but I’m working on it). Sending so much love ❤
Literally balling my eyes out this whole video. I lost my dad in June 2021 and just brought back all the feels leading up to the day my dad died. Thank you for sharing your grief journey ❤️❤️❤️
Welcome back gorgeous girl xxx we love your work and beautiful personality xx we have missed you xx thanks for sharing this story xx I lost my mum a few years ago to a stroke and can relate to your grief Hun xx take your time getting back into it all xx we understand xx sending bucket loads of hugs sweetheart xx
The hardest thing for me was seeing my dad, who growing up was the strongest man I knew, become a frail shell of the man he once was physically to cancer. But his spirit never faltered. Positive healing vibes to you and your family ❤
Welcome back gorgeous. Grief is just all consuming when you’re in it and it’s so hard. Please don’t apologise. Much love and so happy to see you back 🫶🏼
Dear Steph, lovely to have you back. My sincere condolences to you and your family on the passing of your father. Remember to be kind to yourself and that grief has no time limit. I dread the month of May as I lost my house in a fire on the 2nd, my mum to cancer on the 3rd, then Mother’s Day a week later, my great uncle (who was like a grandfather to me) on the 17th and my dad to leukaemia on the 24th (different years). Some years are better than others. For instance, on Sunday (Mother’s Day) I was a real mess, even though it has been 26 years since Mum passed. It is hard to avoid when, due to advertising, it is in your face all the time. There will be things that trigger a memory and, all of a sudden, you are right back to when it happened. Cancer of any kind is awful, not just for the patient but the family as well. So, Steph, let yourself grieve. Take as long as you need. We will still be here when you are ready. Love from Melbourne 😘💕🥰😢💐🙏🕊🇦🇺.
So sorry for your loss. I know the feeling of fading into the background. My sister was unwell for much of her life and our family revolved around that. Sadly she passed after three liver transplants and it was awful. I too have a very intense phobia of death. I really appreciated the rawness you brought to this video ❤
Aww Steph, I feel for you sister ❤ I lost my Dad November 2019 to emphysema.. he lived interstate and I didn't make it in time.. I had my first born that year and she didn't get to meet him (he was a first time grandfather) he was very proud I was having a girl because I'm the only girl on my dad's side. I last heard from him father's day 2019, then he died 2 months later. It's very saddening, we weren't all that close either as my parents seperated when I was about 2 and mum moved back to Victoria with her family. Parents are the reason why we are here and you've lost part of you forever. Bless you and your beautiful family 🙏 All you can do is accept it, until you meet again. He's now your guardian angel 😇
From another daughter who has a sibling with disabilities I hear you, see you and validate your experience ❤️ being a young carer is something we wouldn’t change but it does have a profound impact on our lives. Thank you for sharing x
You sound just like me, I had a phobia of death I still do, but I lost my dad 6 years ago this December to melanoma (he also had MND) losing him was the hardest thing I’d ever experienced (I’ve lost 3 grandparents) but this rocked my world in a bad way. I was angry with the world for months and every time I thought of dad all I could see was him in his last moments, it took a good year or more for me to have any kind of happy thoughts pop into my head in regards to dad. Losing my first love was so hard but watching my kid who was the apple of pops eye grieve was even harder. I hate thinking how much he has missed out on with my kids and my mum. I don’t know what I’m trying to say but I guess here I am almost 6 years later and although I don’t cry as much I still think of him and wish he was here more then anything. I’ll be 36 this year and my dad would of turned 66. I think now the hardest part is my mum having to go through her cancer battle without my dad by her side :(
Thankyou for being real and sharing you're grief and journey this is life its not always about the good and this was definitely the worst for you I'm.so sorry for you're loss and just know that you both got the closure u needed before he passed and you spent that precious time with him you will never regret taking a step back but you would have regretted not spending that time with him ❤️ sending hugs
Don't say sorry Steph, for anything ever. As you said, you couldnt come back and not acknowledge the biggest change you've ever going through. I'm so appreciative to hear this. I've got 2 friends very close to losing their dad and partner within the next couple of weeks and months. You being real here, will help me be a better friend. I lost my mum suddenly to a heart attack 12 years ago. It was awful. But there was none of the "anticipatory grief." There was no fear beforehand. I don't know what they're really going through at this point. Jennifer Fallon is my favourite fantasy author, very easy but amazingly deep characters. First i read at about 19yo, after Harry Potter. If you need something else, give them a go. No real walking through the trees or snow like some fantasy books. I'm so sorry you lost your dad 🩷🩷🩷
Thank you for sharing. I think we’re all slowly learning to appreciate each day as it comes, and spend less time stressing about a future that may never come!
Very sorry to hear this news. ☹️I suspected that something must have not been going well with your dad, to have not posted here for such a long time. You are brave to share your experiences so openly! I’m sure it will help others going through similar.
Thank you for sharing, come back at your own pace even though we all selflessly were waiting for your return. Also - you mentioned you are a sole provider for your family? Is all good with Ryans business? Much love ❤
Thank you for your bravery in sharing what you’ve been going through. It can be so hard to articulate and voice our thoughts and feelings about such an emotional ordeal, but you have perfectly reminded me just how fragile and precious life really is, and not to take anything or anyone for granted. Having gratitude and appreciation for the people and special moments in our life is so important. My sympathies to you and your family xx 🌷
I love the real talk!!! Not everything has to be happy & merry. It’s real life shit. Please don’t apologise 😘 Thanks for being so honest & real. I can definitely relate to grief! Life is definitely too short. Do more things that make you happy I say! Less things that you don’t want to do 😘 sending love xxxx
So good to see you back! I'm sorry that you've been dealing with your loss, what a terrible thing to happen 😭💔 you're a strong beautiful woman and your dad would be so so proud of who you are and how you can provide for your family. Everyone has their own grieving processes! You were greatly missed, but we all fully understand your reasons for stepping back and healing yourself ❤
Ahh Steph, we are still on the same sad path. I’m still processing my grief too and still having moments where it hits me and breaks my heart all over again. Everything you’re going through is normal and you don’t need to apologise for needing time or for showing us your vulnerability xx
You definitely don’t need to say sorry for having this be your first video back. I’m so very very sorry for your loss. How amazing you are to come on here and share this. Please take care
Thank you opening up to sharing your grief with us. It’s Okay - in fact , It’s Crucial- to Grieve
Thankyou 🙏🏻
thank you for being so open and honest with us! we missed you and we were holding space for you the whole time. one day at a time, and all feelings are ok and allowed! sending love your way!
Steph so glad to see you back and don’t ever feel you need to apologize for being your authentic self.
I lost my dad unexpectedly in 2021 and it took me a while to realize I wasn’t ok and I needed help, but now I have medication and counseling to help and that’s ok, no one expects me to be superwoman 24/7 (except me).
We need more brave people like yourself being vulnerable to help society get more comfortable talking about these issues.
The grief doesn’t magically disappear once the funeral is over but the pain of the loss does lessen over time so you can focus on more of the happy memories. Stay strong 💜💜
Big hugs ❤ can’t even think about losing my parents. I’m like you and get the worst anxiety even thinking about the closest people in my life dying. Sending you so much love and strength xx
Thank you beautiful 🙏🏻
I’ve lost both my parents to cancer before I turned 43. Thank you for mentioning anticipatory grief. I never had a word for it but it’s a devastating period of time. Knowing this is the last birthday or Christmas with someone is heart breaking
I’m sorry for your loss Steph.
Losing my Dad changed my life so most of what you said resonates with me so much. As weird as it sounds, I’ve read a few quotes that helped me get through. One being - “grief is the last act of love we have to give to those we loved. Where there is deep grief there was great love”
I hope you’re doing ok ❤
Hi Steph … I really feel your pain I also lost my Dad from Lymphoma in January 2022 he was diagnosed on the 5th of January & passed away on the 30th of January & yes his end of life was horrific I was with him when he passed & I was so glad I was there but the grief some days is overwhelming !! Take Care lovely xx
I’m so sorry to hear this. It really is a rollercoaster and hits so hard at times ❤
I lost my mom in November 2020 not long after having my baby girl and it was the worst experience of my life and I still struggle with it now. And probably always will. I’m so sorry for your loss of your dad, sending you lots of love ❤️
Well Welcome Back & Bless you & yours. Life is about learning, growing, healing & giving yourself time to do all of those things.
Awww Steph 😭 sending big hugs & love up to your precious Dad 💙 and of course Addy, your mum and your beautiful family ❤️ xx
Welcome back lovely. I feel your story to my core. I lost my Dad to cancer also and yes grief is the hardest thing we’ll ever have to deal with. I’m 5 years on which was originally my Dads life span but he got a secondary & it took over and he was gone in month. Sometimes grief is not as heavy but it always stays with you. The stages, the phone call just everything my heart goes out to you because your right it fkn sucks. This platform is a great way for you to share but for people to hear how you coped because your right we don’t talk about it nearly Some days it’s heavy AF & some days it lighter. I’m so pleased it help you deal with other things that you needed to deal with. Geez it changes us hey!! Sending love always & take care 🩷🩷🩷
Thankyou for sharing and being so open.
It takes so long just to be able to cope with loosing loved ones. I lost my mum 17 years ago and that amount of time near the end, I can still remember like it was yesterday.
We are with you. ❤
Goodness I'm so sorry for your loss. I love the way you expressed yourself freely; it does help to talk and share your grief. May brighter days come your way.😊
Thanks for sharing. Triggered a lot of emotions for me. I lost my dad on 14/9/2022, April the same yr is when we found out he was sick with pancreatic cancer. Cherished the 5.5mths we had with him. I agree changes your view on life.
I do love watching your channel ❤
Thank you for sharing your story Steph. My Dad passed nearly 9 years ago from lung cancer & it’s still as vivid today as it was then. My Dad was in the UK so I flew out the day after he was diagnosed & helped Mum look after him. He passed 7 weeks later. It was the worst time ever but I also felt really blessed & honoured to be with him. We laughed & cried a lot…the anticipatory grief was so difficult…bless you & your family my sweet. Your Dad would be proud of you! 💜💜💜
Hi Steph, from a new UK viewer, I just found your channel via your Dubai vlog, as we’re going there soon! Now I’m watching some of your other videos, and this one really resonated with me. You come across as really authentic and your realism is refreshing. You’re right that grief never leaves you. I’m 45 and lost my dad to cancer when I was just 5, so it kind of shaped my whole life and that trauma is a massive part of who I am. So yeh, we all carry sh*t from our childhood and somehow have to learn to deal with that. I also became a people pleaser and faded into the background for similar reasons to you. Thanks for sharing. I think it does help to see we’re not alone and go through similar stuff the world over. Xx
I am glad you are back. It is good to hear you were able to express your feelings, and you are right that it is okay to have all the feelings, selfish, sad, mad, resentful and other great feelings. Stay strong and be kind to yourself.
Thankyou 🥺❤️
Thanks for coming back ❤ and sharing your story , raw and real !! Love your content and looking forward to your new videos ❤
Thankyou beautiful soul 🥹❤️
So much love to you and thank you for sharing your journey. I lost my dad in 2021 and he was only 74 years old. You are completely right when you say you just learn to live with the grief ❤ It’s wonderful to see your face again on UA-cam xx
Heartfelt video🙏
Watching this brought back memories of me saying my final goodbye to my beautiful husband just over a year ago.
Grief is not talked about in our society and that breaks my heart💔💔💔
My grief journey has been a lonely and isolating journey😢
Love that you opened up Steph!
Much love to you xx
I’m so sorry I have no words and there really isn’t any. You’re so right no one talks about grief but we really need to break the stigma and let it be known we are allowed to talk about it. Sending you so much love
So very sad to hear about your loss and hard time processing your grief. I am so happy to see you back on this platform!
Thanks for sharing that with us. It really struck a chord with me. I’m so sorry, it sounds like your family lost a wonderful man. Sending love to you and your family 🤍
This breaks my heart. Thank you so much for sharing this difficult news. Sending hugs your way. 😢❤
Absolutely adore you Steph. Thank you for being vulnerable with us. 💛
Thank you for sharing Steph, can really resonate with this as I lost my Dad to Leukaemia in 2019. There’s nothing that compares to the emotions and fear when you know someone who means the world to you only has weeks left. And then how your whole world changes once they’re gone.. Sending love 🤍
It's so nice to see you back, I'm very sorry for your loss, as a cancer survivor myself, I deal with survivors guilt when I hear about those that have passed, But just give yourself time, and cherish the memories... Your hair looks beautiful by the way!
You’re amazing truly 🥹❤️ Thankyou
You are wonderful and I bet your Dad is so proud of you! I had lymphoma a couple of years ago and understand exactly where you are coming from. As I've returned to work I have gone back to my overworking ways but definitely don't sweat the small things so much. Sometimes I need to remember what I have learned and snap out of the old ways. Life is precious and when I was sick, it was amazing to see what actually mattered. It was nothing money could buy. All the best Steph x
Welcome back lovely 🎉
So sorry to hear what you’ve been through and that this video is emotional.
Thankyou for sharing ❤x
Good to be back 🥹❤️
You are amazing and so brave for sharing your journey ❤️❤️
From one daughter who lost her dad to cancer to another, sending lots of love your way xx
😭…. Thank you for sharing and being a reminder of being present in the now 💕
Thank you for sharing... I totally understand as I lost my father 14 years ago... he was only 69. I miss him soooooooooooo very much and even now some days are harder than others. There was a lot of family drama as soon as his die... it show me that you truely see the true side of people... unfortunately now my family is broken apart. I now live my life trying to enjoy the family and friends who are apart of my life and enjoy the little things and moments in my life. Life is so short... and money isn't everything.. just be happy and Celebrate everything. ❤😊🤗🥂🍾
Welcome back Steph! I follow you on socials and it’s so nice to see you back on you tube! I love how honest and raw you are!!! Your dad would be sooo proud of you!!! Keep being you!
Thankyou for sharing! X We lost my mother in law 7 weeks from diagnosis (we never got to say goodbye to her as my husband and I are in another state and it was too late! ) and now 12 years later we are going through the same thing with my father in law who has been told he has months left!
Steph welcome back. I missed you so much. Everyday will get a little easier. Xx
I missed you guys too 🥺❤️🥹 appreciate you all so bloody much
Thank you for sharing I cried watching your story as I lost my mum in 2019 and then I lost my dad in November last year and now I am broken 💔 Stay strong 💜
I am so sorry for your loss there are truly no words 😔 we must live for them
@Steph Pase Thank you Steph this is so true xx
It’s nice to see you! I feel like I have to add more here, as I did comment without watching as I was so excited to see you. I offer our condolences to you, your family and friends. I lost my Dad a few years ago now, so I feel your pain and understand the loss. Stay strong and as they say time does help a little. ❤
Aww Thankyou! 🥹❤️
Thankyou I’m so sorry for your loss also ❤️
Thank you so much for being vulnerable and sharing something so close to your heart. Sending love and thinking of you. ❤
Bless you heaps Steph 🤍 Your vulnerability is such a sign of strength and love the depth in this video -- Bless you heaps xx
thankyou so very much
Thanks for sharing your story, you are so beautiful inside and out actually your stunning..Grief is terrible, l am an emotional person. My life hasnt gone the way l wanted lots of stress and anxiety now l have fibromyalgia and l am trying to be kind to myself. Living with pain and fatigue and lots of things from my past has bought me forward to a life of pain. I am glad your back missed you girly ❤
Aww beautiful soul I’m sorry to hear this you sound like an amazing person ❤ missed you guys so much 🥹❤️
Don’t apologize for this video. You were genuine, and it’s admirable to watch.
We should all talk about it, it's life changing. I saw my dad die suddenly in the middle of the night in my mid 20s and it takes so long to recover from. Sharing makes it better. Hugs.
So proud of you for getting back out there! My Dad was diagnosed with Lymphoma on Christmas Eve just gone and I understand exactly what you mean when nothing really matters once you hear the news. Dad and I had an estranged relationship growing up too, he was just such a hard worker always making sure we had what we needed and seeing him in such a vulnerable place is horrible. He is still fighting strong but we found out it has spread to his brain in March and is currently not responding to any treatment. I couldn’t imagine going through all of this and then also running your business and being a public figure all at the same time. You should be proud ❤
I love that you share this, I lost my mom in a very short time and I have to deal with it...its never easy but they are always with as.. you just have to give them them time to shoe it to as ...they are always wit as al the time in spirit...I can feel it... your dad is it too.. I love your back in to you tube... I give you I hug...
You are such an inspiration and a beautiful human ✨🤍 Thankyou for sharing x
You are so brave and generous to share, this will resonate with so many. You are amazing and easier times are on the way, take care x
Wow you are beyond brave for sharing your story. I lost my dad to cancer 13.09.21 in the same situation as you, at home & it is soul shattering. I’ve learnt the grief never leaves you it just comes & goes but your dad would be beyond proud of you just hold onto all of the amazing memories you have ❤
Oh sweetheart I just want to reach over and give you the biggiest hug and please don't apologize for feeling the grief that you do we all understand the pain you must feel and going through.
Thinking of you and your gorgeous family Xxx
My nan raised me and my brothers and I have never had a good relationship with my parents due to childhood trauma. I really feel for you in my heart because I know the pain that can build up.
Thankyou so very much for sharing this vlog because it has helped me personally with some deep dark private stuff I'm going through too.
I see so much of myself in you meaning I'm always saying sorry too but after being diagnosed with MS and FND and trying to be the best single mum I can be to my two little boys, I get it.
Thank you for your vulnerability and for sharing. There is so much trauma and grief, Yes we should talk about this more. We really need to learn to hold the space for people in times like this. I hope you have a wonderful tribe around you that care and love you.
Condolences to you and your family Steph on the passing of your Dad. We lost our Dad in June 2021 to dementia and we nursed him at home too so i know how hard and heartbreaking it is. Treasure the memories and share them with your girls. Love to you all ❤
So sorry for your loss. Sending big hugs! So Happy you’re back xx
Oh my girl.. I had to watch this in parts crying along with you. You need to heal however that is...sharing or not im always here fir you. And even tho you dad has gone to heaven he will still be at every launch every product meeting every school play and anything else you all do . Cheering you all on 💜 btw- welcome back to yt !
Steph to do what you just did in this video would have been extremely difficult. Im so sorry that you’ve experienced the loss of your Dad. I lost my Dad in 2002 and I can honestly say that its one of the most difficult things in life to try and deal with. We lost my Dad to leukaemia so I understand the knowing in advance that youre going to lose your parent. You can NEVER prepare yourself for something like that. Allow yourself the time to grieve and NEVER apologise if you break down. We nursed my Dad til he passed at home. So I totally understand your pain. Grief does come in so many forms and it also comes in waves. Just allow yourself to go with it. Once again Im so sorry for your loss. By the way this video was beautiful and informative. Sending you heaps of love to assist you in your healing. ❤❤❤
I'm so very sorry for your loss. ❤ Love the new hair!
No need to apologise..you made total sense and I completely understand. I’ve lost both my parents, I watched their health deteriorate and was with them when they passed…it’s bloody hard. Sending love to you.💞
My thoughts and prayers are with you and all mourning the loss. ❤
Sorry to hear
True life is short
You are a honest and very nice person
Thank you so much for sharing and being vulnerable with us you are amazing and so brave to share this time in your life with us 🤍🪽
It is wonderful to see you back beautiful soul. 💫I'm sorry for your loss. I can only imagine how extremely hard it is for you. Thank you for your honesty, and thank you for sharing. Love you xoxo
Thank you for sharing Steph 🤍
I cannot imagine the grief you must be feeling. Take it as slow as you need and please be gentle on yourself. I know it’s not always easy but try to be kind to yourself and it’s okay to feel however you’re feeling (speaking as someone who is always highly critical of themselves - but I’m working on it). Sending so much love ❤
Thanks for sharing your story😍 big hugs to you. welcome back x
So glad you are feeling strong enough to come back. You have been missed. Go gently.
Thankyou beautiful soul ❤
Literally balling my eyes out this whole video. I lost my dad in June 2021 and just brought back all the feels leading up to the day my dad died. Thank you for sharing your grief journey ❤️❤️❤️
I’m so sorry Cassie 😔 there’s no words hey. Sending you all my love and strength
Thank you for your honesty and candour Steph. Sending you much love and strength. BTW your hair looks amazing. 💕💕
Welcome back gorgeous girl xxx we love your work and beautiful personality xx we have missed you xx thanks for sharing this story xx I lost my mum a few years ago to a stroke and can relate to your grief Hun xx take your time getting back into it all xx we understand xx sending bucket loads of hugs sweetheart xx
You are so amazing Steph. Thank you for sharing. We love you so much. ❤
Big love to you and the family Steph, thanks for being so raw and honest xxx
The hardest thing for me was seeing my dad, who growing up was the strongest man I knew, become a frail shell of the man he once was physically to cancer. But his spirit never faltered. Positive healing vibes to you and your family ❤
Welcome back gorgeous. Grief is just all consuming when you’re in it and it’s so hard. Please don’t apologise.
Much love and so happy to see you back 🫶🏼
Dear Steph, lovely to have you back. My sincere condolences to you and your family on the passing of your father. Remember to be kind to yourself and that grief has no time limit. I dread the month of May as I lost my house in a fire on the 2nd, my mum to cancer on the 3rd, then Mother’s Day a week later, my great uncle (who was like a grandfather to me) on the 17th and my dad to leukaemia on the 24th (different years). Some years are better than others. For instance, on Sunday (Mother’s Day) I was a real mess, even though it has been 26 years since Mum passed. It is hard to avoid when, due to advertising, it is in your face all the time. There will be things that trigger a memory and, all of a sudden, you are right back to when it happened. Cancer of any kind is awful, not just for the patient but the family as well. So, Steph, let yourself grieve. Take as long as you need. We will still be here when you are ready. Love from Melbourne 😘💕🥰😢💐🙏🕊🇦🇺.
Sorry for your loss 🌺 your hair looks great ginger it really suits your skin tone 🧡 take care 🌷
So sorry for your loss. I know the feeling of fading into the background. My sister was unwell for much of her life and our family revolved around that. Sadly she passed after three liver transplants and it was awful. I too have a very intense phobia of death. I really appreciated the rawness you brought to this video ❤
Thank you for sharing. My heart is with you and your mum & brother x
Aww Steph, I feel for you sister ❤
I lost my Dad November 2019 to emphysema.. he lived interstate and I didn't make it in time.. I had my first born that year and she didn't get to meet him (he was a first time grandfather) he was very proud I was having a girl because I'm the only girl on my dad's side. I last heard from him father's day 2019, then he died 2 months later. It's very saddening, we weren't all that close either as my parents seperated when I was about 2 and mum moved back to Victoria with her family.
Parents are the reason why we are here and you've lost part of you forever.
Bless you and your beautiful family 🙏 All you can do is accept it, until you meet again. He's now your guardian angel 😇
From another daughter who has a sibling with disabilities I hear you, see you and validate your experience ❤️ being a young carer is something we wouldn’t change but it does have a profound impact on our lives. Thank you for sharing x
You sound just like me, I had a phobia of death I still do, but I lost my dad 6 years ago this December to melanoma (he also had MND) losing him was the hardest thing I’d ever experienced (I’ve lost 3 grandparents) but this rocked my world in a bad way. I was angry with the world for months and every time I thought of dad all I could see was him in his last moments, it took a good year or more for me to have any kind of happy thoughts pop into my head in regards to dad. Losing my first love was so hard but watching my kid who was the apple of pops eye grieve was even harder. I hate thinking how much he has missed out on with my kids and my mum. I don’t know what I’m trying to say but I guess here I am almost 6 years later and although I don’t cry as much I still think of him and wish he was here more then anything. I’ll be 36 this year and my dad would of turned 66. I think now the hardest part is my mum having to go through her cancer battle without my dad by her side :(
It is always hardest for those left behind. So sorry, you will heal in time.
Thankyou so much 🥹
I’m so sorry for your loss beautiful. Sending you so much love ❤️
Thankyou for being real and sharing you're grief and journey this is life its not always about the good and this was definitely the worst for you I'm.so sorry for you're loss and just know that you both got the closure u needed before he passed and you spent that precious time with him you will never regret taking a step back but you would have regretted not spending that time with him ❤️ sending hugs
Thank you for your transparency and I am happy to see you back. I’m so sorry for your lost Steph, sending you and your family thoughts and prayers.🙏🏻
It's good to see you back!❤
Thank you for sharing and for the update. I loss my father almost 10 years ago. I sill mss hm.
It's so nice to have you back 💛 yes grief is definitely not spoken on either and I'm excited to see what's next for you and your beautiful family 🥰
Thank you for sharing. Thinking of you and sending so much love and healing ❤
Don't say sorry Steph, for anything ever. As you said, you couldnt come back and not acknowledge the biggest change you've ever going through.
I'm so appreciative to hear this. I've got 2 friends very close to losing their dad and partner within the next couple of weeks and months.
You being real here, will help me be a better friend.
I lost my mum suddenly to a heart attack 12 years ago. It was awful. But there was none of the "anticipatory grief." There was no fear beforehand.
I don't know what they're really going through at this point.
Jennifer Fallon is my favourite fantasy author, very easy but amazingly deep characters. First i read at about 19yo, after Harry Potter. If you need something else, give them a go. No real walking through the trees or snow like some fantasy books.
I'm so sorry you lost your dad
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Thank you for sharing. I think we’re all slowly learning to appreciate each day as it comes, and spend less time stressing about a future that may never come!
Thankyou for your honesty, I’m sorry for your loss.
Very sorry to hear this news. ☹️I suspected that something must have not been going well with your dad, to have not posted here for such a long time.
You are brave to share your experiences so openly! I’m sure it will help others going through similar.
Thank you for sharing, come back at your own pace even though we all selflessly were waiting for your return. Also - you mentioned you are a sole provider for your family? Is all good with Ryans business? Much love ❤
Thank you Step for sharing. Sending you so much love ❤️
Thank you for your bravery in sharing what you’ve been going through. It can be so hard to articulate and voice our thoughts and feelings about such an emotional ordeal, but you have perfectly reminded me just how fragile and precious life really is, and not to take anything or anyone for granted. Having gratitude and appreciation for the people and special moments in our life is so important. My sympathies to you and your family xx 🌷
I love the real talk!!!
Not everything has to be happy & merry. It’s real life shit. Please don’t apologise 😘
Thanks for being so honest & real. I can definitely relate to grief! Life is definitely too short. Do more things that make you happy I say! Less things that you don’t want to do 😘 sending love xxxx
Your video made so much sense! Sending lots of support ❤
So good to see you back! I'm sorry that you've been dealing with your loss, what a terrible thing to happen 😭💔 you're a strong beautiful woman and your dad would be so so proud of who you are and how you can provide for your family. Everyone has their own grieving processes! You were greatly missed, but we all fully understand your reasons for stepping back and healing yourself ❤
Welcome back. Definitely missed you. I don't do Insta. So sorry for your loss ❤.
Ahh Steph, we are still on the same sad path. I’m still processing my grief too and still having moments where it hits me and breaks my heart all over again. Everything you’re going through is normal and you don’t need to apologise for needing time or for showing us your vulnerability xx
Thank you for sharing this. I can’t even imagine how it would feel losing a parent.
I’m sorry for what you’ve been through Steph but thank you for sharing this with us. I’m happy to see your face back on UA-cam ❤ Lots of love
So glad your back ! Big hug 🥰
Thanks beautiful ❤
Welcome back Steph. Sorry to hear about your loss. Keep your chin up & try not to let anything or anyone bring you down ❤
You definitely don’t need to say sorry for having this be your first video back. I’m so very very sorry for your loss. How amazing you are to come on here and share this. Please take care
So sorry for your loss ❤Lovely having you back Steph ❤️