It sounds like you are off to a great start! I am wanting to start voice feminization so this has been helpful for me. You seems to be doing everything you can right now.
Very much felt, I've been able to wear affirming clothes and most people in my life know now, but voice training, makeup and especially HRT are all long out of reach. Voice training is something I suppose I would like to try but... I'm absolutely awful at committing to things, can't guarantee I'd start an online lesson and then just give up and go back to playing Minecraft lmao. That aside, really hope your own HRT plan comes to fruition, that's huge.
I feel like it's a bit of an open secret for me lol, I've never really explicitly come out to anyone asides from my parents (though I kind of avoided names/pronouns with them) and one irl friend who I discovered is also trans (though it's been a long time since I last saw him in person). Although I keep my makeup hidden in a box under my bed, only wear it when I'm home alone, and don't have any affirming clothing - I do openly paint my nails full time, and combined with hair and laser I suppose I am looking quite different now. My last birthday I didn't get a single card with gendered language on it, the last time I saw my Granny before she passed away she called me "young man or lady", and ofc recently I've had someone ask my pronouns. Although I don't think the cis people in my life are really clued up on trans stuff so on a wider scale people may be more or less aware than I think. The thing with voice training is, whenever I have tried to look into online, I always try to start, feel unsure if I'm doing it properly, begin to feel overwhelmed and then give up lmao. I feel like I'm going to need paid lessons to even try to properly be able to commit to it, and in that regard I'm fortunate I can afford it. With my egg cracking in 2021, I just wish it was something I tried to commit to sooner. And thank you! I'm quite fortunate as well with regards to HRT, as there are a GP near where I live who specialise in trans healthcare and are able to advise/prescribe HRT on a bridging basis. Being in the UK most people don't have that option and are left on very long waiting lists or having to pay privately (both of which can still be a bit gatekeepy imo). I'd be lying if I were to say I'm not a little bit nervous about it, but I've also reached a point where I know I want the changes, I can feel how bad my dysphoria/envy gets, my egg has been cracked for years and I kinda just need to at least try to start it, before I eventually come out more fully. Just hoping it doesn't cause too many issues with an unsupportive parent, but worst case scenario is I have to move out (I have a job and am on a good salary, plus the other parent is more accepting).
I’m sure this doesn’t make things any less stressful for you, but when I heard your recordings I could hear some subtle differences, you were a bit more quiet and whispery in the last one for instance. I think the analysis must be hyper sensitive to tiny things like volume, the acoustics of your room and your angle/distance from the mic, so try not to take the results too much to heart. Incidentally what’s the app?
It sounds like you are off to a great start! I am wanting to start voice feminization so this has been helpful for me. You seems to be doing everything you can right now.
Very much felt, I've been able to wear affirming clothes and most people in my life know now, but voice training, makeup and especially HRT are all long out of reach. Voice training is something I suppose I would like to try but... I'm absolutely awful at committing to things, can't guarantee I'd start an online lesson and then just give up and go back to playing Minecraft lmao.
That aside, really hope your own HRT plan comes to fruition, that's huge.
I feel like it's a bit of an open secret for me lol, I've never really explicitly come out to anyone asides from my parents (though I kind of avoided names/pronouns with them) and one irl friend who I discovered is also trans (though it's been a long time since I last saw him in person). Although I keep my makeup hidden in a box under my bed, only wear it when I'm home alone, and don't have any affirming clothing - I do openly paint my nails full time, and combined with hair and laser I suppose I am looking quite different now. My last birthday I didn't get a single card with gendered language on it, the last time I saw my Granny before she passed away she called me "young man or lady", and ofc recently I've had someone ask my pronouns. Although I don't think the cis people in my life are really clued up on trans stuff so on a wider scale people may be more or less aware than I think.
The thing with voice training is, whenever I have tried to look into online, I always try to start, feel unsure if I'm doing it properly, begin to feel overwhelmed and then give up lmao. I feel like I'm going to need paid lessons to even try to properly be able to commit to it, and in that regard I'm fortunate I can afford it. With my egg cracking in 2021, I just wish it was something I tried to commit to sooner.
And thank you! I'm quite fortunate as well with regards to HRT, as there are a GP near where I live who specialise in trans healthcare and are able to advise/prescribe HRT on a bridging basis. Being in the UK most people don't have that option and are left on very long waiting lists or having to pay privately (both of which can still be a bit gatekeepy imo). I'd be lying if I were to say I'm not a little bit nervous about it, but I've also reached a point where I know I want the changes, I can feel how bad my dysphoria/envy gets, my egg has been cracked for years and I kinda just need to at least try to start it, before I eventually come out more fully. Just hoping it doesn't cause too many issues with an unsupportive parent, but worst case scenario is I have to move out (I have a job and am on a good salary, plus the other parent is more accepting).
I’m sure this doesn’t make things any less stressful for you, but when I heard your recordings I could hear some subtle differences, you were a bit more quiet and whispery in the last one for instance. I think the analysis must be hyper sensitive to tiny things like volume, the acoustics of your room and your angle/distance from the mic, so try not to take the results too much to heart. Incidentally what’s the app?
Thank you, I'll definitely keep that in mind. It's Christella VoiceUp.
App name?
Christella VoiceUp