Sucks to hear man. After watching your 1st video a few weeks ago I was thinking 'Damn this guy is smart and has it together'. As a software dev for 3 years and now working a crappy unrelated job, I envied your position to seem so confident and smart. Goes to show what I take for granted like decent health. I hope things do get better for you genuinely. We all have our battles we are fighting
David I feel you. I have been there. Less severe than what you are describing. Lift weights, take a walk once in a while, eat well, remove poisons as much a possible. Life is good. You are not that bad. Life is good.
For what its worth I think you are a very excellent comunicator. I enjoy listening to you comment on things. I was also a big hypochondriac all my life. I think it ground me down so much that i literally didn't care if an ailment got me anymore. Im a lot more chill about it now. I have a couple of good and positive friends who've had similar issues and i am lucky for that. Anyhow, i think you are right to know hope we have to know our doubts. Best wishes my friend
Hey David, I hardly ever comment on videos but just wanted to say thanks for sharing and that you’re not alone in feeling this way. Sometimes things just feel shitty and it’s hard to pinpoint one reason. It’s even harder when you feel like you can’t explain yourself to other people. You’re not crazy, I completely understand your feelings and thoughts as I’ve shared many of them. You’re talented at expressing yourself and come across as very honest and thoughtful which is a refreshing change of pace compared to most UA-cam creators. It’s ok to slow down and take care of yourself. Best of luck
Glad it helped 😊❤️ we all have rough times and it helps to know we're not alone. Thanks for watching! Also I'm going to have to replay Hollow Knight after seeing the Zote profile photo 😂
i get it man. ever since high school i was suicidally depressed. treatment resistant. no meds did anything for me, nor exercise, i kinda had some friends but only one irl, i knew i was too fucked up to have fulfilling friendships and relationships. nothing mattered to me and i was set that i’d rather die than work for the rest of my life. it was about 15 years of therapy, psych, hospitals, TMS, shock therapy, meds, panic attacks, loneliness, betrayal, failures, shit jobs, weird pains showing up no one could explain… i thought it would never end. things are different now. still not easy, and i still have terrible days. but i have to admit they’re not all terrible now. at least i feel like i somehow meant to be here and death is not the answer, that fear even if it shakes you to your very core is just a distraction from the truth. i forgot about faith, it didn’t make sense logically that things would work out. but you gotta let that go and choose to hope. i know now that no matter how deep in your bones you know something, you can always be wrong.
Thanks so much for this. I'm sorry you had to go through all that but I'm glad you found a way through it. I think I'm slowly getting there myself. I feel like I'm in the last stretch of a long journey and it really helps to hear from people who acknowledge how terrible life can be, but can still see hope in it.
@@davidhart1578 yeah. it’s crazy. it was my identity and whole world for many years. words can only do so much. i think i get what you were saying about wishing people could understand. i wish people could know just to be grateful for what they have, because some seem to just have no idea 😆 but there’s no way to express it and no good reason to bring it up for lack of a better way of putting it. anyway, thanks for listening and thanks for the vids. i’ll be here lurking and trying to remember to like the vids lol. good luck, and if there’s anything a stranger could do, lmk.
Hey, I have recently discovered your channel and found your videos really helpful. I am also a software engineer and can relate to most of the things you say in this video. Hopefully better days come to you David.
Health problems suck. I have a chronic skin desease and sometimes that overshadowes everything. Recognizing and cherishing the small and big victories throughout life keeps me going.
@@davidhart1578 I think you need to sort that out first. Doing a deep dive on metaphysics will also take your mind off your health. Sometimes just thinking less of ones current state makes ones state drastically better. Not only history but also your nearest hospital is full of people both suffering more than you while also enjoying life more than you. So it is possible. What helped me a lot was to realise that joy is a function of selflessness, humility and gratefulness. (selflessness = thinking of yourself less, not thinking less of yourself. As CS Lewis so brilliantly put it.) As for the metaphysics check out the philosopers Alexander Pruss, Joshua Rasmussen and Peter Kreeft. They all have great talks and lectures on metaphysics.
Have you tried going to the gym? It can help with your mental and physical health. It might seem like a chore at first, but once you start seeing your progress it can become fun. Start off slow with 30 min light intensity workouts and work your way up from that. Plenty of people feel the way you do. You need to find ways to take your mind off things.
I went to a gym where they gave me a PT but to be honest they were a bit cultish. Put me on a keto plan after I told them I was diabetic and I only realized it was killing me when my eyes turned yellow. Should really find another gym though.
Sucks to hear man. After watching your 1st video a few weeks ago I was thinking 'Damn this guy is smart and has it together'. As a software dev for 3 years and now working a crappy unrelated job, I envied your position to seem so confident and smart. Goes to show what I take for granted like decent health. I hope things do get better for you genuinely. We all have our battles we are fighting
No comment I can think of seems adequate.
So... Thanks for sharing
David I feel you. I have been there. Less severe than what you are describing. Lift weights, take a walk once in a while, eat well, remove poisons as much a possible. Life is good. You are not that bad. Life is good.
Appreciate the honesty, important to talk about, best of luck, really like the authenticity in your vids.
For what its worth I think you are a very excellent comunicator. I enjoy listening to you comment on things. I was also a big hypochondriac all my life. I think it ground me down so much that i literally didn't care if an ailment got me anymore. Im a lot more chill about it now. I have a couple of good and positive friends who've had similar issues and i am lucky for that. Anyhow, i think you are right to know hope we have to know our doubts. Best wishes my friend
Hey David, I hardly ever comment on videos but just wanted to say thanks for sharing and that you’re not alone in feeling this way. Sometimes things just feel shitty and it’s hard to pinpoint one reason. It’s even harder when you feel like you can’t explain yourself to other people. You’re not crazy, I completely understand your feelings and thoughts as I’ve shared many of them. You’re talented at expressing yourself and come across as very honest and thoughtful which is a refreshing change of pace compared to most UA-cam creators. It’s ok to slow down and take care of yourself. Best of luck
Thanks for putting my thoughts and feelings into words.
Literally clicked on the video at 5am because I cant sleep. Thanks for the rant. Thanks for putting all that into words. Appreciate it.
Glad it helped 😊❤️ we all have rough times and it helps to know we're not alone. Thanks for watching!
Also I'm going to have to replay Hollow Knight after seeing the Zote profile photo 😂
Touching video Dave, love the openness 🙏So needed in today’s world. You help more people than you know. Sending lots of support
I send you a hug, thank you for sharing how you feel, hope you feel a little bit better sharing it.
i get it man. ever since high school i was suicidally depressed. treatment resistant. no meds did anything for me, nor exercise, i kinda had some friends but only one irl, i knew i was too fucked up to have fulfilling friendships and relationships. nothing mattered to me and i was set that i’d rather die than work for the rest of my life. it was about 15 years of therapy, psych, hospitals, TMS, shock therapy, meds, panic attacks, loneliness, betrayal, failures, shit jobs, weird pains showing up no one could explain… i thought it would never end.
things are different now. still not easy, and i still have terrible days. but i have to admit they’re not all terrible now. at least i feel like i somehow meant to be here and death is not the answer, that fear even if it shakes you to your very core is just a distraction from the truth. i forgot about faith, it didn’t make sense logically that things would work out. but you gotta let that go and choose to hope. i know now that no matter how deep in your bones you know something, you can always be wrong.
Thanks so much for this. I'm sorry you had to go through all that but I'm glad you found a way through it. I think I'm slowly getting there myself. I feel like I'm in the last stretch of a long journey and it really helps to hear from people who acknowledge how terrible life can be, but can still see hope in it.
@@davidhart1578 yeah. it’s crazy. it was my identity and whole world for many years. words can only do so much. i think i get what you were saying about wishing people could understand. i wish people could know just to be grateful for what they have, because some seem to just have no idea 😆 but there’s no way to express it and no good reason to bring it up for lack of a better way of putting it. anyway, thanks for listening and thanks for the vids. i’ll be here lurking and trying to remember to like the vids lol. good luck, and if there’s anything a stranger could do, lmk.
Good luck man. I appreciate your videos.
Hey, I have recently discovered your channel and found your videos really helpful. I am also a software engineer and can relate to most of the things you say in this video. Hopefully better days come to you David.
Health problems suck. I have a chronic skin desease and sometimes that overshadowes everything. Recognizing and cherishing the small and big victories throughout life keeps me going.
I'm always here for you Dave
Good video.
Whats your metaphysics?
Fairly agnostic, I went from very religious as a kid to very atheist as a teenager and now I'm somewhere in between
@@davidhart1578 I think you need to sort that out first. Doing a deep dive on metaphysics will also take your mind off your health. Sometimes just thinking less of ones current state makes ones state drastically better. Not only history but also your nearest hospital is full of people both suffering more than you while also enjoying life more than you. So it is possible.
What helped me a lot was to realise that joy is a function of selflessness, humility and gratefulness.
(selflessness = thinking of yourself less, not thinking less of yourself. As CS Lewis so brilliantly put it.)
As for the metaphysics check out the philosopers Alexander Pruss, Joshua Rasmussen and Peter Kreeft. They all have great talks and lectures on metaphysics.
Have you tried going to the gym? It can help with your mental and physical health. It might seem like a chore at first, but once you start seeing your progress it can become fun. Start off slow with 30 min light intensity workouts and work your way up from that. Plenty of people feel the way you do. You need to find ways to take your mind off things.
I went to a gym where they gave me a PT but to be honest they were a bit cultish. Put me on a keto plan after I told them I was diabetic and I only realized it was killing me when my eyes turned yellow. Should really find another gym though.