The 2000s were such a toxic time. I think about how insecure I was back then and how much internalized misogyny I had, and it makes me feel better to hear you talk about it too. Now I'm a proud introvert and that doesn't make me a bad person!
So this is going to sound odd.... but, I wanted to thank you. I've never seen anybody say they are a PROUD introvert. So often people categorize introverts as weird and strange. So it was really nice to see somebody say they are a PROUD introvert. 💜💙💛
Just because someone buys you something doesn't mean they can't be abusive. Thanks for showing this to girls who are watching. Just because a man is nice to you sometimes doesn't mean the other times aren't toxic.
I never woulda thought when I was a teenager back then that I’d be able to comment on your UA-cam channel or that you’d ever be doing this lol, keep them coming! I’ve been rewatching all the episodes
The 3 of you ladies gave new life to Playboy for a few years. I'm female and I actually subscribed to Playboy for 2 years because I loved you all. I used to think it was all so glamorous but as a more mature woman who is 40, and reading Down the Rabbit Hole, I have gained a whole new perspective on the entire Playboy business.
It’s awesome that you’re doing this because I literally just started rewatching the show! I hadn’t seen it in so long. I remember being 14 and watching it and wanting to be you and live your life because it all seemed so glamorous. I’m so glad you came out with your book that revealed the truth about everything 💕
Same! I was 20 when I watched it originally but felt exactly the same as you. So glad things are beginning to change and people are finally starting to see and hear the truth and ugliness behind the beauty
I agree... i feel like society hates women because of this. If you really love women you’d want to get to know them, hear their stories in great detail, and see them in different situations, but people who hate women think that a worthy “hot” woman is just in the background “being hot” and nothing else. I heard a problematic rock star describe his fans as such, the ones who actually were hardcore fans of the band and music, moshing in the front and knowing every lyric weren’t as sexy as the “hot girls in the back who just hang out looking hot” and that’s the type of woman they’d rather hook up with ugh So look hot, have no interests, fade into the background except for your hotness. I don’t even think non human hominids were as shallow selecting mates and shit.
@@hankypanda Honestly it's not just men. Women get very angry and snobby when they think another woman is beautiful. If you happen to be born in a time and location when/where what you look like just happens to be considered beautiful, you are villainized, demeaned, and condescended to by other women.
@@Ellisif333 for sure, “the feminine gaze” is just as toxic and rooted in problematic ideals as well. there’s that preference for women to still not tell their story as if they just dropped down from the heavens as this “pure humble nurturing angel” instead of a whole human who grew into a full being including someone who has a sexual identity and a “loud” side, too. either way women shouldn’t have to worry about how they look to society and be free to be themselves and be involved. society’s preference for them to be in the background as either hot or “pure” without any curiosity about them other than how hot or pure they are is disgusting.
I remember being confused that Bridget was pretty enough to be a girlfriend but not in the magazine. I was so happy for her that she got to be in the magazine but I could tell it was for the show. Bur was still happy for you
@Celtic girl why lol that means he thinks you’re insanely beautiful & doesn’t mind that other people see just how stunning HIS woman is!!! In MY PERSONAL OPINION obviously 😁😇 I’d be so happy if my boyfriend was a nurse magazine editor & thought I was beautiful enough to be in said magazine. Especially that magazine being Playboy back in those days…ahhh I wish
It always baffled me that Bridget was never made a Playmate, the pictures they show in the episodes from her first test shoot are absolutely gorgeous, such a natural beauty. Awesome as always Holly, thank you for sharing. Can't wait for the next one 😁✌️🖤
I dunno if it was Halloween or Mardi Gras but that episodie when she rocked up dressed as Chris angel. And bridgett was just like are you being serious right now 👀👀
This series is fascinating! I remember watching this show when I was probably in my late 20s. I definitely watched it because I thought the dynamic of Heff's "girlfriends" was so weird. While probably a good portion of the audience watched it as if it was a cartoon and that everybody was happy, many of us were paying attention and we could see how uncomfortable and how forced some of the situations were. I definitely remember you & the other women in a positive light however, so do not feel bad that you thought you were representing something that nobody was picking up on. It was there and we could see it. The people who are giving you backlash for your book want to believe in a fantasy. It's definitely OK to own your reality and promote the idea of taking a critical look at whatever situation you have to be in. Keep up the great work. I can't wait to watch the rest of these videos and the upcoming series based on your book.
I wondered about Hef’s reaction at the restaurant. That was my first clue how self centered and uncaring he was about other people. There were a lot of people there ahead of him And he just wanted all his needs met no matter that anyone else had to wait. It’s an uncomfortable scene to watch, I can’t imagine how bad it was to be there
I remember watching this show and loved it so much. I had so much internalized misogyny and was in an abusive relationship. Thank God those days are over. I really appreciate you telling your story. It makes so many women who have been through abuse feel less alone.
Omg you can always tell what a person is like when they are rude to wait staff. They fit a certain mould and those things line up with you have been alluding to for years 🌟🌟I loved this holly ! ! ! Living for these episodes ❤️❤️❤️
I remember this episode. You didn't look bad at all for not working out. I recall feeling quite envious that you looked THAT good and didn't work out haha. You spent your time differently and always attempted to make things/conditions better in the mansion. I liked that episode where you upgraded/redesigned the gym.
omg how do you only have 82k subscribers?! this is so wild to me. you're one of the most monumental celebrities of my life. it's so amazing to see you. i found your channel a few days ago and binged every episode of TGND so i could know exactly what you're talking about in these reaction videos. and i've been binging all your interviews on youtube. LOVE YOU HOLLY!!!!!!
I used to watch this in college and always thought what a glamorous life these ladies led. I would love to be there and live like them! Thank you for sharing your truth and stories with us. Hopefully it helps other girls make better decisions.
I’m glad you’re doing this. I think most people didn’t realize how bad it was back then because it was a very young audience. I used to watch and love this show and I was in my early teens. I used to argue with my mom who used to tell me how miserable you girls probably really were and I’m like no way mom, they are living a dream life. I was so naive and gullible. When your book came out, my mom bought it for me and after I read it, I felt so bad for you girls. I rewatched the episodes here on UA-cam and was able to see so much of the obvious, as an adult.
I agree I think how the show sold is because most of the audience (like myself) were pretty young and older people were not really aware of playboy or those who were were just happy there was no nudity on there!
I watched every episode back when it originally aired. I loved the show so much! I watched your first reaction video and it made me want to go back and watch so now I’m totally back into it. It’s so interesting because all the things you’re saying are really things I’m seeing and noticing now that I’m rewatching but never thought anything about before. Keep doing these videos, I love them!
You should make a podcast and bring some old playmates in and BRIDGET!!! Doesn’t have to be centered around playboy but it’s be cool to have some of that sprinkled in!
I actually just re-watched the entire series… I was obsessed with the show when it came out. Knowing there is a playboy special airing soon I wanted to go back and rewatch the series to see if I could see some of the things that you have been talking about. It’s amazing that from the first and second season to the end of the show you can see a night and day difference and all three of you and that you were all ready to get the heck out of there. I love that you are doing these behind the scenes analysis of the show. Love you Holly, one of your biggest fans.
Holly I gotta tell you that I’m really enjoying your commentary on the GND episodes. It’s honestly priceless because it’s from your point of view and there’s no way they would’ve included this raw honesty on the show. Like you said yourself, everyone will form their own opinion about what they saw on the show and each of y’all’s individual interviews, but you yourself lived this life and the rest of us are just an audience to what they wanted us to see. I know there was thousands of hours filmed but only minutes of it was shown after it was most likely heavily edited to make it look cute and like a perfect world. Keep telling us your truth because it looks like we’re all enjoying rewatching this show with you and knowing your honest opinion about everything you are seeing again. Thanks Holly!
I've always known that Holly was extremely smart, but that's how you know when someone really is an intellectual is when their most embarrassing moment is being wrong about a fact. ☺️💕 I couldn't relate more, Holly!
Wow that’s so eye opening, Holly. I always felt bad for Bridget when she teared up about wanting to be in the magazine. So interesting you had to say the safe things and not be honest w yourself. I have your book and now feel like re-reading it again ❤️ keep doing these reviews! And I never got the sense that you were lazy or looked bad. You all have your personalities and there’s nothing wrong w not working out or working out, whatever floats your boat
Holly this is fabulous, Im now rewatching each episode followed by the related youtube video. I wish we had Bridgette and Kendra's commentary as well there is so much that was going on behind the cameras!! Your side of it is fascinating and you explain so well what was actually happening. My 14 year old brain is mindblown lol.
I understand why you can’t include actual clips of the show, so thank you for including still photos and stuff. It enhances what you’re talking about quite a bit.
Holly I was this black gay teenager when the show first aired and thought white blonde and living in the mansion was the best thing someone could ever wish for. I still wanna live in LA though. PS: Thank you for sharing all this background, its good to be seen you again weekely!
I’m really loving your commentary on 2000,s culture in regards to attitudes towards women. As somebody who was a young teen in that time and hugely influenced by the cultural milieu it’s absolutely fascinating to see it deconstructed like this. I feel like it helps us understand ourselves better to analyse the soil we grew in. Thank you for doing this. Xx
I grew up on the Girls Next Door and I’ve rewatched all the seasons on Tubi, I LOVE that you’re doing these commentary videos. I was a teenager then and thought it was so interesting so now as a 30 something it’s like watching a whole different show. Much love Holly!
I felt sad when they showed Brigette in episode 2. I could feel her sadness of the reality of her situation. She had always dreamed of becoming a playmate but her photos were turned down. Brigitte has the most beautiful personality and is a sweetheart. So I felt sad. I think she always felt she was going to miss her opportunity because she was getting older(I think she was in her early 30's toward the end of the show). And seeing younger women testing and becoming a playmate did not help. But in the end her dream did come true!
Thinking about this now we all had the most unhealthy views of aging from this show. Of course when I was a teenager when this aired I thought being in your 30s was old. Now I think it’s so young! Now when I watch the replays, Bridget seems normal age and everyone else feels literally like a child lol.
I’m so happy your reviewing this, it shows how much strength you have to relive conflicting times in your life. Really enjoying hearing your experience x
Holly - I so appreciate the articulate and thoughtful way in which you describe your experiences in the mansion and on the show. Like many viewers of your UA-cam channel, I watched GND when I was younger and absolutely adored it. It never occurred to me to think about any of the personal costs or the complex interpersonal dynamics that you all experienced in the mansion, at least until I read your book. It's extremely interesting to look at this with a 2021 lens and more nuance. If going through these episodes and reliving this time is not harmful to you, I join the many people on here who would love to see and hear more from you - these videos are super fun for us to watch. I also love seeing you with Bridget - if she is willing, it would be so awesome to see you watch an episode together. Thank you for all you do - love the videos and look forward to the next one!
You guys can watch the episode and pause when she gets to the part she’s talking about, that’s what I do. I watch Holly on my phone and I watch GND on my iPad then I just pause when she gets to the point. I also agree 100% about Pam. Same with the supermodels their all like I was walking down the street in Paris and a recruiter from vogue spotted me and the next thing I knew I was on the cover of Vogue living in Manhattan. 🙄
I am SO for this! I always have GND on in the background when I'm getting ready and hearing your reaction is the best thing ever! The 'There's Something About Mary O'Connor" is one of my favorite episodes and hope you can do a reaction for it!
These are really interesting. Please keep them coming! I can't believe you were studying real estate and they never shared that. It shows that they were definitely giving you each your own "character" and not truly showing you.
I’m loving these. I can see the episode play out in my head. Love the BTS and you are speaking on how difficult it is to explain the trauma and abuse a narcissist inflicts on a person. It’s hard to get it unless you have experienced it. It’s especially important in the wake of the murder of Gabby Patito.
I remember watching all of these episodes, you were and still are my favorite. It's crazy what actually went on behind the scenes. I'm sorry you had to go through and feel the way you did. But you're an awesome and beautiful woman, never forget that Holly!
I’m watching the podcast with Bridget and of course I had to backtrack and see all of these two. I just adore you Holly and wish you and your family nothing but the best always
Such nostalgia! The show got me through rough times in my life. I even got a playboy bunny tattoo on my shoulder blade because I idolized y'all so much. Hugs from Florida, Holly!
I also have the playboy bunny 🐰 on my pelvic bone area….I also got it basically bc I loved the show and the girls and thought they were living the best life etc
I need all the times the camera is caught you rolling your eyes, packed into on video. Lol I love that!! Like the only one I catch you was when he called you all into the master to watch an old movie. I think it was second or third season. But I live for your eye rolls. 💜
Love anything you post! Life’s Crazy! It’s fascinating to know while you were bringing us so much joy & happiness in our lives - “thinking you were happy & living the life) You were actually miserable & sad - that makes me feel badly 💔🥀but now we see ur true and authentic personality shine ✨💖🌈🦄…
I love this ...it’s like chilling with you in real life, you are so easy going just like a friend in real life would be talking to me chilling on the bed.
18:00 KNOW THYSELF!!! Girl! I would love to chat with you about my perspective of this show. I will NEVER forget the "know thyself" part. I still say "know thyself" in that context.
Love that your telling your story❤ me and my bestie she and I were addicting to your show loved it so much. But as a person who has been in 2 narcissistic relationships it is now easy to spot the love bombing and triangulation used. I still love the show but I am happy you and Bridgette are telling your story (just started ur podcast and binged listened to it) and now found this. Can’t wait for new podcast episodes love you and Bridgette together, you ladies are so lovely. Ty for sharing and for making the 2000’s fun despite the drama behind doors you were a gem to watch Holly ❤
I bought all the seasons of girl next door on DVD and was OBSESSED with this show watching religiously. Being in my 20’s at the time this was popular, I was definitely sucked into thinking how glamorous and amazing the “lifestyle” was and as I grew older and read your book 📖 and By then I was mature enough to realise that world was a facade for the show and I really loved reading down the rabbit hole. I haven’t watched the series since, so watching your reaction to the show is so interesting and it makes me want to watch back each episode to analyse for myself. I shake my head now how I looked up to that kind of life. I admire your strength for coming clean about what it was REALLY like and your experience. Thanks so much Holly. You’re absolutely gorgeous by the way. #AussieFan 🇦🇺
I LOVED the show i still rewatch my box set dvd of it ALL THE TIME . Love you so much Holly ! anyhow.. I always noticed how being in the magazine was held over your heads, or saying. " Im just a gf..." it very much at the time seemed to me he kept it hanging above your heads as something as a maybe someday...as long as you stick around WAITING for years and feeling bad enough about it... and when you DID all get to be in the magazine i was like WOW WTF- i mean i def think you deserved it and the photos turned out SO BEAUTIFUL and you all looked so stunning...but it definitely seemed like an upper hand control move....
Yes, you 3 girls saw other women come in and him girl them the cover and centerfolds but he gave you 3 a TELEVISION SHOW, that's how awesome you girls were as individuals all on your own. After you 3 left I quit watching and plenty of women had come through Playboy doors or aspired to be apart of Playboy but you 3 will be forever hard to forget. I'm watching you on youtube because of it in 2021. You women have worked hard for your successes and continue to succeed.
Holly I am so thankful that you are doing this. I used to watch the show all the time with my mom and wanted to be a playmate so bad. Now looking back and watching the show I can see where it was sometimes abusive and toxic. Thank you for doing these types of videos to show all of us that it wasn’t always so glamorous at the mansion.
Ok Holly, I’m committed now… I’m starting from the beginning with you. I LOVED the show but I haven’t seen the episodes in probably 15 years too! So I’m joining you. I’m watching the episodes from the beginning then watching your commentary after. Committed
I'm really enjoying this commentary so far! If you're happy to do more, I'd love to hear more. It's also really cool to see the contrast between how you were then and how you speak now - you seem so much more comfortable and sure of yourself. I really enjoyed listening to you.
Thank you for doing another reaction video. It's interesting to hear your perspective 15 years later. I love hearing what was reality and what was set up.i hope you do more if you are comfortable.
Girl, you literally look the same lmfao haven't aged a day. Thanks for doing this though. I remember being a young teen watching the show and always thinking y'all were so cool and fun and glamorous and that must be what adulthood is really all about 🤭😂🤣💀 sheeeesh! how we've all grown and our minds change...I can only imagine how uncomfortable it must've actually been. How weird and awkward. Dark and lonely. I'm definitely not built for that life. Hugs to you.🖤💚🖤
So like almost everyone else…I just finished binging GND and I ironically had the same feelings as I did when initially watching early 2000s. I thought the energy was strange between everyone. I thought the entire concept was strange, really. But I will say, I enjoyed you on the show. Especially the 2nd time around, you had a light about you that I felt was dimmed or stifled. Love you’re doing this ✨
I love love LOVE this little series you’re doing with re-watching the show! It’s so cool seeing you discuss the real and the staged and diving into how living there really was, both the good and bad. I was definitely WAY too young to watch the show when I discovered it lol, but I grew up watching you three and rewatching the seasons now as an adult is so nostalgic. I have yet to read your books but this is super cool too ❤️ love you holly!
I'm loving this Holly thank you so much for sharing! I was totally obsessed with GND when I was a teen I even got a PB tattoo when I was 15 🙈 I now see all the problems with it but I'm so proud to see how you've grown and come out the other side! You were always my fave ❤️❤️
I’m so happy you’re doing this. I was in the 6th grade when the show was first airing and my mom and I loved it. I even got the DVDs and watched the episodes with the commentaries. I vividly remember Bridget saying she was forced to lay down in bed in a full face of makeup and pretend to go to sleep. 😂 The show was such a comfort show for me oddly, it’s the only way to explain it. I’d watch every new episode with my mom. I was basically a preteen and my life was nothing like you guys’ but I just really admired you and Bridget and even then I think i could tell something wasn’t quite right behind the scenes. I stopped watching after the three of you left because it just wasn’t the same. I’m really glad you’ve been able to speak out about your truth and I just ordered Down The Rabbit Hole.
Thank you for doing these reactions, Holly! I know it has to be uncomfortable rewatching them, but it's nice to see that not everything was sunshine and roses.
You are really an inspiration to many knowing what you went through in the early 2000's to now where you look so beautiful and healthy. It also looks like you are in a much better mental state because you are living with so much less stress.
Please keep doing more! These are so great with your modern day perspective and social commentary about that time vs today’s views. I love the tea ofc too.
Thank you for doing these reaction videos. The bts details are truly fascinating. One thing I find so interesting is how different you sound now. Your voice on the show always sounded forced into that high pitched baby timbre - which after reading your book, and watching these videos I know it was. Kudos to you for moving on and becoming stronger as a result. You & Bridget were the backbone of that show, and are truly role models. 👍
The 2000s were such a toxic time. I think about how insecure I was back then and how much internalized misogyny I had, and it makes me feel better to hear you talk about it too. Now I'm a proud introvert and that doesn't make me a bad person!
So this is going to sound odd.... but, I wanted to thank you. I've never seen anybody say they are a PROUD introvert. So often people categorize introverts as weird and strange. So it was really nice to see somebody say they are a PROUD introvert. 💜💙💛
@@Karen-pk3uv you are very welcome!!!❤❤
When did that ever make you a bad person…?
What bad word is she talking about? I would normally notice that! I did hear someone say the “r” word, but that was not the ice skating scene..
What bad word is she talking about? I would normally notice that! I did hear someone say the “r” word, but that was not the ice skating scene..
"Back in the 2000s, you were an extrovert or you were a bad person"... omg yes 100%, Holly!!
Just because someone buys you something doesn't mean they can't be abusive. Thanks for showing this to girls who are watching. Just because a man is nice to you sometimes doesn't mean the other times aren't toxic.
sure true! I have a few friends who had dated some guys like that, just because they give you stuff doesn't mean you deserve abuse.
@@dbj1852 I wish more women talked about it.
100%
This 🙌🙌 so true!
I never woulda thought when I was a teenager back then that I’d be able to comment on your UA-cam channel or that you’d ever be doing this lol, keep them coming! I’ve been rewatching all the episodes
I love that you're doing these it's so neat to hear behind the scenes of things thank you for sharing with us
The 3 of you ladies gave new life to Playboy for a few years. I'm female and I actually subscribed to Playboy for 2 years because I loved you all. I used to think it was all so glamorous but as a more mature woman who is 40, and reading Down the Rabbit Hole, I have gained a whole new perspective on the entire Playboy business.
It’s awesome that you’re doing this because I literally just started rewatching the show! I hadn’t seen it in so long. I remember being 14 and watching it and wanting to be you and live your life because it all seemed so glamorous. I’m so glad you came out with your book that revealed the truth about everything 💕
Same!
Same! I was 20 when I watched it originally but felt exactly the same as you. So glad things are beginning to change and people are finally starting to see and hear the truth and ugliness behind the beauty
Where have you been watching it?
YESSSS
Amanda,
It's free on tubi, and autoplays there. And also youtube has episodes too
Love what you said about sexy women needing to be "vague " and not reveal that they have ambitions. It's so true and no one talks about it.
I agree... i feel like society hates women because of this. If you really love women you’d want to get to know them, hear their stories in great detail, and see them in different situations, but people who hate women think that a worthy “hot” woman is just in the background “being hot” and nothing else. I heard a problematic rock star describe his fans as such, the ones who actually were hardcore fans of the band and music, moshing in the front and knowing every lyric weren’t as sexy as the “hot girls in the back who just hang out looking hot” and that’s the type of woman they’d rather hook up with ugh
So look hot, have no interests, fade into the background except for your hotness. I don’t even think non human hominids were as shallow selecting mates and shit.
@@hankypanda Honestly it's not just men. Women get very angry and snobby when they think another woman is beautiful. If you happen to be born in a time and location when/where what you look like just happens to be considered beautiful, you are villainized, demeaned, and condescended to by other women.
That's why you see so many models apologizing for their "privilege". It's sick. They shouldn't have to apologize for what they look like.
@@Ellisif333 for sure, “the feminine gaze” is just as toxic and rooted in problematic ideals as well. there’s that preference for women to still not tell their story as if they just dropped down from the heavens as this “pure humble nurturing angel” instead of a whole human who grew into a full being including someone who has a sexual identity and a “loud” side, too. either way women shouldn’t have to worry about how they look to society and be free to be themselves and be involved. society’s preference for them to be in the background as either hot or “pure” without any curiosity about them other than how hot or pure they are is disgusting.
Agree. Very Jessica Simpson "I don't know what tuna is "
She tells her most embarrassing moment and says: There you have it, roast me! Hahaha savage! She’s hilarious. We love you Holly!
I remember being confused that Bridget was pretty enough to be a girlfriend but not in the magazine. I was so happy for her that she got to be in the magazine but I could tell it was for the show. Bur was still happy for you
@Celtic girl why lol that means he thinks you’re insanely beautiful & doesn’t mind that other people see just how stunning HIS woman is!!! In MY PERSONAL OPINION obviously 😁😇 I’d be so happy if my boyfriend was a nurse magazine editor & thought I was beautiful enough to be in said magazine. Especially that magazine being Playboy back in those days…ahhh I wish
Buzzing for this Holly! Can we invite Bridget next time? 💜💜💜
That would be amazing!
@@natasaantoniadou9955 yes!!!
Yesss please invite Bridget! :)
Yes our two favorite girls 👏
Omfg yes plsss
It always baffled me that Bridget was never made a Playmate, the pictures they show in the episodes from her first test shoot are absolutely gorgeous, such a natural beauty.
Awesome as always Holly, thank you for sharing. Can't wait for the next one 😁✌️🖤
You HAVE to react to the Halloween episodes, especially being that Halloween is right around the corner. I remember those being my favorite as a kid
I dunno if it was Halloween or Mardi Gras but that episodie when she rocked up dressed as Chris angel. And bridgett was just like are you being serious right now 👀👀
Agreed! I love a Halloween episode!
@@hannahbellxoxo2414 it was Mardi Gras
Yes! I so wanna know the details behind that whole episode!
Me too!! I always admired and loved how creative Bridget and Holly were with their costumes!
This series is fascinating! I remember watching this show when I was probably in my late 20s. I definitely watched it because I thought the dynamic of Heff's "girlfriends" was so weird. While probably a good portion of the audience watched it as if it was a cartoon and that everybody was happy, many of us were paying attention and we could see how uncomfortable and how forced some of the situations were. I definitely remember you & the other women in a positive light however, so do not feel bad that you thought you were representing something that nobody was picking up on. It was there and we could see it. The people who are giving you backlash for your book want to believe in a fantasy. It's definitely OK to own your reality and promote the idea of taking a critical look at whatever situation you have to be in. Keep up the great work. I can't wait to watch the rest of these videos and the upcoming series based on your book.
I wondered about Hef’s reaction at the restaurant. That was my first clue how self centered and uncaring he was about other people. There were a lot of people there ahead of him And he just wanted all his needs met no matter that anyone else had to wait. It’s an uncomfortable scene to watch, I can’t imagine how bad it was to be there
I remember watching this show and loved it so much. I had so much internalized misogyny and was in an abusive relationship. Thank God those days are over. I really appreciate you telling your story. It makes so many women who have been through abuse feel less alone.
"That was the most humiliating thing for me because I hate being wrong about stuff" 😂😂♑
Caps unite
I needed a break from following the Petito case. Glad I can see this in real time!
Same.
Omg you can always tell what a person is like when they are rude to wait staff. They fit a certain mould and those things line up with you have been alluding to for years 🌟🌟I loved this holly ! ! ! Living for these episodes ❤️❤️❤️
This would be an amazing podcast!!! You could bring in guests too to share their thoughts on the show/life at the mansion
I remember this episode. You didn't look bad at all for not working out. I recall feeling quite envious that you looked THAT good and didn't work out haha. You spent your time differently and always attempted to make things/conditions better in the mansion. I liked that episode where you upgraded/redesigned the gym.
I loveee watching anything Holly talking out GND. Yayyy. Can't wait : )
omg how do you only have 82k subscribers?! this is so wild to me. you're one of the most monumental celebrities of my life. it's so amazing to see you. i found your channel a few days ago and binged every episode of TGND so i could know exactly what you're talking about in these reaction videos. and i've been binging all your interviews on youtube. LOVE YOU HOLLY!!!!!!
I was obsessed with this show back then! I've rewatched them recently, and they take on a whole new perspective. Thanks for doing this video
I used to watch this in college and always thought what a glamorous life these ladies led. I would love to be there and live like them! Thank you for sharing your truth and stories with us. Hopefully it helps other girls make better decisions.
I’m glad you’re doing this. I think most people didn’t realize how bad it was back then because it was a very young audience. I used to watch and love this show and I was in my early teens. I used to argue with my mom who used to tell me how miserable you girls probably really were and I’m like no way mom, they are living a dream life. I was so naive and gullible. When your book came out, my mom bought it for me and after I read it, I felt so bad for you girls. I rewatched the episodes here on UA-cam and was able to see so much of the obvious, as an adult.
I agree I think how the show sold is because most of the audience (like myself) were pretty young and older people were not really aware of playboy or those who were were just happy there was no nudity on there!
I watched every episode back when it originally aired. I loved the show so much! I watched your first reaction video and it made me want to go back and watch so now I’m totally back into it. It’s so interesting because all the things you’re saying are really things I’m seeing and noticing now that I’m rewatching but never thought anything about before. Keep doing these videos, I love them!
You should make a podcast and bring some old playmates in and BRIDGET!!! Doesn’t have to be centered around playboy but it’s be cool to have some of that sprinkled in!
Yes!!!!! Love this idea!!!
I love this idea too!!!
YEEEEEEES! TOTES! DO THIS!XXX THEN THE MINI SERIES
bridgett has a podcast i believe!
Holly you were my favorite on the show and I love your books! It’s so fun hearing your perspective on the episodes!
I actually just re-watched the entire series…
I was obsessed with the show when it came out. Knowing there is a playboy special airing soon I wanted to go back and rewatch the series to see if I could see some of the things that you have been talking about. It’s amazing that from the first and second season to the end of the show you can see a night and day difference and all three of you and that you were all ready to get the heck out of there. I love that you are doing these behind the scenes analysis of the show. Love you Holly, one of your biggest fans.
That’s what I am doing now.
Holly I gotta tell you that I’m really enjoying your commentary on the GND episodes. It’s honestly priceless because it’s from your point of view and there’s no way they would’ve included this raw honesty on the show. Like you said yourself, everyone will form their own opinion about what they saw on the show and each of y’all’s individual interviews, but you yourself lived this life and the rest of us are just an audience to what they wanted us to see. I know there was thousands of hours filmed but only minutes of it was shown after it was most likely heavily edited to make it look cute and like a perfect world. Keep telling us your truth because it looks like we’re all enjoying rewatching this show with you and knowing your honest opinion about everything you are seeing again. Thanks Holly!
These reaction videos are everything, holly! I appreciate the tea more than you could ever imagine. And you're spot on about Pamela Anderson!
I've always known that Holly was extremely smart, but that's how you know when someone really is an intellectual is when their most embarrassing moment is being wrong about a fact. ☺️💕 I couldn't relate more, Holly!
Wow that’s so eye opening, Holly. I always felt bad for Bridget when she teared up about wanting to be in the magazine. So interesting you had to say the safe things and not be honest w yourself. I have your book and now feel like re-reading it again ❤️ keep doing these reviews! And I never got the sense that you were lazy or looked bad. You all have your personalities and there’s nothing wrong w not working out or working out, whatever floats your boat
Been rewatching over and over and re reading your first book now. I love hearing your side from all aspects❤️
I've always wanted this to happen and now its happening 1 episode at a time. Thank you so much for doing this!
Holly this is fabulous, Im now rewatching each episode followed by the related youtube video. I wish we had Bridgette and Kendra's commentary as well there is so much that was going on behind the cameras!! Your side of it is fascinating and you explain so well what was actually happening. My 14 year old brain is mindblown lol.
I understand why you can’t include actual clips of the show, so thank you for including still photos and stuff. It enhances what you’re talking about quite a bit.
Holly, I wish you had an Audiobook for Down the rabbit hole
Holly I was this black gay teenager when the show first aired and thought white blonde and living in the mansion was the best thing someone could ever wish for. I still wanna live in LA though.
PS: Thank you for sharing all this background, its good to be seen you again weekely!
I’m really loving your commentary on 2000,s culture in regards to attitudes towards women. As somebody who was a young teen in that time and hugely influenced by the cultural milieu it’s absolutely fascinating to see it deconstructed like this. I feel like it helps us understand ourselves better to analyse the soil we grew in. Thank you for doing this. Xx
I grew up on the Girls Next Door and I’ve rewatched all the seasons on Tubi, I LOVE that you’re doing these commentary videos. I was a teenager then and thought it was so interesting so now as a 30 something it’s like watching a whole different show. Much love Holly!
Holly I love the new podcast with you and Bridget! I read your book like 3 times. Thanks for the reviews and thanks for your honesty....
I felt sad when they showed Brigette in episode 2. I could feel her sadness of the reality of her situation. She had always dreamed of becoming a playmate but her photos were turned down. Brigitte has the most beautiful personality and is a sweetheart. So I felt sad. I think she always felt she was going to miss her opportunity because she was getting older(I think she was in her early 30's toward the end of the show). And seeing younger women testing and becoming a playmate did not help. But in the end her dream did come true!
She was in her 30’s the start of the show!! She was 31/32 in season 1!
Thinking about this now we all had the most unhealthy views of aging from this show. Of course when I was a teenager when this aired I thought being in your 30s was old. Now I think it’s so young! Now when I watch the replays, Bridget seems normal age and everyone else feels literally like a child lol.
I’m so happy your reviewing this, it shows how much strength you have to relive conflicting times in your life. Really enjoying hearing your experience x
Holly - I so appreciate the articulate and thoughtful way in which you describe your experiences in the mansion and on the show. Like many viewers of your UA-cam channel, I watched GND when I was younger and absolutely adored it. It never occurred to me to think about any of the personal costs or the complex interpersonal dynamics that you all experienced in the mansion, at least until I read your book. It's extremely interesting to look at this with a 2021 lens and more nuance. If going through these episodes and reliving this time is not harmful to you, I join the many people on here who would love to see and hear more from you - these videos are super fun for us to watch. I also love seeing you with Bridget - if she is willing, it would be so awesome to see you watch an episode together. Thank you for all you do - love the videos and look forward to the next one!
You guys can watch the episode and pause when she gets to the part she’s talking about, that’s what I do. I watch Holly on my phone and I watch GND on my iPad then I just pause when she gets to the point. I also agree 100% about Pam. Same with the supermodels their all like I was walking down the street in Paris and a recruiter from vogue spotted me and the next thing I knew I was on the cover of Vogue living in Manhattan. 🙄
The pictures really help me remember the episodes and who you're talking about. Love the series Holly ❤
I am SO for this! I always have GND on in the background when I'm getting ready and hearing your reaction is the best thing ever! The 'There's Something About Mary O'Connor" is one of my favorite episodes and hope you can do a reaction for it!
The clip when holly notices the reflection in the viewfinder is priceless 😂
These are really interesting. Please keep them coming! I can't believe you were studying real estate and they never shared that. It shows that they were definitely giving you each your own "character" and not truly showing you.
Holly, I love your social commentary and intelligence! it adds so much insight into the industry
Appreciate you adding the title of the episode to your video title, makes it easier to remember
I’m loving these. I can see the episode play out in my head. Love the BTS and you are speaking on how difficult it is to explain the trauma and abuse a narcissist inflicts on a person. It’s hard to get it unless you have experienced it. It’s especially important in the wake of the murder of Gabby Patito.
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I remember watching all of these episodes, you were and still are my favorite. It's crazy what actually went on behind the scenes. I'm sorry you had to go through and feel the way you did. But you're an awesome and beautiful woman, never forget that Holly!
I’m watching the podcast with Bridget and of course I had to backtrack and see all of these two. I just adore you Holly and wish you and your family nothing but the best always
Such nostalgia! The show got me through rough times in my life. I even got a playboy bunny tattoo on my shoulder blade because I idolized y'all so much. Hugs from Florida, Holly!
I also have the playboy bunny 🐰 on my pelvic bone area….I also got it basically bc I loved the show and the girls and thought they were living the best life etc
I need all the times the camera is caught you rolling your eyes, packed into on video. Lol I love that!! Like the only one I catch you was when he called you all into the master to watch an old movie. I think it was second or third season. But I live for your eye rolls. 💜
Love anything you post! Life’s Crazy! It’s fascinating to know while you were bringing us so much joy & happiness in our lives - “thinking you were happy & living the life) You were actually miserable & sad - that makes me feel badly 💔🥀but now we see ur true and authentic personality shine ✨💖🌈🦄…
I love this ...it’s like chilling with you in real life, you are so easy going just like a friend in real life would be talking to me chilling on the bed.
18:00 KNOW THYSELF!!! Girl! I would love to chat with you about my perspective of this show. I will NEVER forget the "know thyself" part. I still say "know thyself" in that context.
Really looking forward to this! Thank you Holly for choosing to continue this playlist 💕
I’m glad you’re doing this, going to tune in to all of them.
Love that your telling your story❤ me and my bestie she and I were addicting to your show loved it so much. But as a person who has been in 2 narcissistic relationships it is now easy to spot the love bombing and triangulation used. I still love the show but I am happy you and Bridgette are telling your story (just started ur podcast and binged listened to it) and now found this.
Can’t wait for new podcast episodes love you and Bridgette together, you ladies are so lovely. Ty for sharing and for making the 2000’s fun despite the drama behind doors you were a gem to watch Holly ❤
I bought all the seasons of girl next door on DVD and was OBSESSED with this show watching religiously. Being in my 20’s at the time this was popular, I was definitely sucked into thinking how glamorous and amazing the “lifestyle” was and as I grew older and read your book 📖 and By then I was mature enough to realise that world was a facade for the show and I really loved reading down the rabbit hole. I haven’t watched the series since, so watching your reaction to the show is so interesting and it makes me want to watch back each episode to analyse for myself. I shake my head now how I looked up to that kind of life. I admire your strength for coming clean about what it was REALLY like and your experience. Thanks so much Holly. You’re absolutely gorgeous by the way. #AussieFan 🇦🇺
Thank you for being so down to earth!
YESSS MY QUEEN YOU ARE LITERALLY FLAWLESS!! I can’t wait to watch this 😘🙌🏻
Thank you for saying what you said about introverts and how in the past it was looked down upon. ❤️
really insightful reactions Holly! definately makes me re-look at how i felt about the series when i first watched it!
Thanks for Filming this for us Holly! I really enjoy your BTS commentary and tea! I’ll keep tuning in :)
I LOVED the show i still rewatch my box set dvd of it ALL THE TIME . Love you so much Holly ! anyhow.. I always noticed how being in the magazine was held over your heads, or saying. " Im just a gf..." it very much at the time seemed to me he kept it hanging above your heads as something as a maybe someday...as long as you stick around WAITING for years and feeling bad enough about it... and when you DID all get to be in the magazine i was like WOW WTF- i mean i def think you deserved it and the photos turned out SO BEAUTIFUL and you all looked so stunning...but it definitely seemed like an upper hand control move....
I think so too
I can't wait for down the rabbit hole series it's going to be awesome
Yes, you 3 girls saw other women come in and him girl them the cover and centerfolds but he gave you 3 a TELEVISION SHOW, that's how awesome you girls were as individuals all on your own. After you 3 left I quit watching and plenty of women had come through Playboy doors or aspired to be apart of Playboy but you 3 will be forever hard to forget. I'm watching you on youtube because of it in 2021. You women have worked hard for your successes and continue to succeed.
Holly I am so thankful that you are doing this. I used to watch the show all the time with my mom and wanted to be a playmate so bad. Now looking back and watching the show I can see where it was sometimes abusive and toxic. Thank you for doing these types of videos to show all of us that it wasn’t always so glamorous at the mansion.
Looking back, I can’t believe we didn’t realize how messed up this “relationship “ was :(
We did. But they said they were happy. So as the mottos goes, “Hey if you like it, then we love it.”
What do you even mean 😂 it was a show about 20 year old girls dating a man their grandfather’s age…. I was like 10 and grasped that concept.
I'm so glad you are making these. I hope it is cathartic and helpful for you to process what you went through and survived.
I'm so glad you're doing these videos and would definitely love to hear more!!!
Loving your Nirvana shirt girl. Where do you find all your amazing tees? Can't wait to see this. Yay! My reminder is all set.
Hi, I’ve seen a similar T-shirt at Target 🙂
@@baby5968 Hey cool, thx! Def picking one up
We still have that Nirvana shirt in my walmart :-)
Ok Holly, I’m committed now… I’m starting from the beginning with you.
I LOVED the show but I haven’t seen the episodes in probably 15 years too!
So I’m joining you. I’m watching the episodes from the beginning then watching your commentary after.
Committed
I'm really enjoying this commentary so far! If you're happy to do more, I'd love to hear more. It's also really cool to see the contrast between how you were then and how you speak now - you seem so much more comfortable and sure of yourself. I really enjoyed listening to you.
YESSSS!!! We love the re-caps, it's honestly fascinating and we are so lucky for such a close inside look into this!!! Keep 'em up girlie! 🤗👍😀
Thank you for doing another reaction video. It's interesting to hear your perspective 15 years later. I love hearing what was reality and what was set up.i hope you do more if you are comfortable.
You will always have fun content reacting to this show. This video went by in a blur and I was entertained so much. I can’t wait for the next one!
I love that you included pictures! Please continue and add more!
Girl, you literally look the same lmfao haven't aged a day. Thanks for doing this though. I remember being a young teen watching the show and always thinking y'all were so cool and fun and glamorous and that must be what adulthood is really all about 🤭😂🤣💀 sheeeesh! how we've all grown and our minds change...I can only imagine how uncomfortable it must've actually been. How weird and awkward. Dark and lonely. I'm definitely not built for that life. Hugs to you.🖤💚🖤
So like almost everyone else…I just finished binging GND and I ironically had the same feelings as I did when initially watching early 2000s. I thought the energy was strange between everyone. I thought the entire concept was strange, really. But I will say, I enjoyed you on the show. Especially the 2nd time around, you had a light about you that I felt was dimmed or stifled. Love you’re doing this ✨
Omg I just binged this and Holly's world and your evolution was great to see!
I’m so glad to see you watch GND and laugh and just have some positive reactions! I just started the series over the other day so perfect timing! Lol
I love love LOVE this little series you’re doing with re-watching the show! It’s so cool seeing you discuss the real and the staged and diving into how living there really was, both the good and bad.
I was definitely WAY too young to watch the show when I discovered it lol, but I grew up watching you three and rewatching the seasons now as an adult is so nostalgic.
I have yet to read your books but this is super cool too ❤️ love you holly!
I'm so glad you have this channel! Love hearing your insights on the show and your makeup tutorials. Thanks for making my day brighter!
I'm loving this Holly thank you so much for sharing! I was totally obsessed with GND when I was a teen I even got a PB tattoo when I was 15 🙈 I now see all the problems with it but I'm so proud to see how you've grown and come out the other side! You were always my fave ❤️❤️
I’m so happy you’re doing this. I was in the 6th grade when the show was first airing and my mom and I loved it. I even got the DVDs and watched the episodes with the commentaries. I vividly remember Bridget saying she was forced to lay down in bed in a full face of makeup and pretend to go to sleep. 😂
The show was such a comfort show for me oddly, it’s the only way to explain it. I’d watch every new episode with my mom. I was basically a preteen and my life was nothing like you guys’ but I just really admired you and Bridget and even then I think i could tell something wasn’t quite right behind the scenes. I stopped watching after the three of you left because it just wasn’t the same. I’m really glad you’ve been able to speak out about your truth and I just ordered Down The Rabbit Hole.
Thank you for doing these reactions, Holly! I know it has to be uncomfortable rewatching them, but it's nice to see that not everything was sunshine and roses.
You are really an inspiration to many knowing what you went through in the early 2000's to now where you look so beautiful and healthy. It also looks like you are in a much better mental state because you are living with so much less stress.
Anyone else think Holly’s voice sounded just like Pamela Anderson when she did an impression?
This was fascinating to watch as a long time fan. Please continue to do more episodes if you're up for it!
I love your videos Holly! Feels like a chat between friends. So happy you made a UA-cam channel.
Thanks for the video love your commentary!
Okay… just realized Hollys World is on Tubi…. 😍😍😍 now this I’m excited for
Please keep doing more! These are so great with your modern day perspective and social commentary about that time vs today’s views. I love the tea ofc too.
Thank you for doing these reaction videos. The bts details are truly fascinating. One thing I find so interesting is how different you sound now. Your voice on the show always sounded forced into that high pitched baby timbre - which after reading your book, and watching these videos I know it was. Kudos to you for moving on and becoming stronger as a result. You & Bridget were the backbone of that show, and are truly role models. 👍