Just remember, jesse, in the wise words of our very special modern day bard: "its a pendulum eternally swaying from the dark to the light, and the brighter the light shone, the darker the shadow it cast." Its an eternal dance. Us renegades are all very grateful for your reactions, keep up the good work my guy 😊💜💜
If you haven't watched it, Ren's 1 Million subscriber video is truly worth a reaction. It really gives you insight into Ren and why we all love him so much.
What you will find as you continue down the Ren journey is that he has a way with his lyrics to hit home and connect in a way no one else can - he has an innate ability to be able to describe exactly what you feel or have felt inside and do it so empathetically that so many have felt that they are not alone. He truly is a voice for the voiceless. It's always important with Ren to sprinkle in happy cheeky Ren along with the more dramatic and tougher Ren songs. Just on this video, there was no budget and Ren spent hours on the cold damp floor on a cold day (at a time when he was really suffering with his illness). The man is a martyr to his craft.
I'm here watching your reaction because I want to hear your words. For me, you don't need to rush to get back to the "reaction". There's a lot of insight you give and I'm here for it. Thank you. Such a gift you have with your art. 🎉
I appreciate the positivity very much ☺️ I try my best to give you all what's on my mind but it seems I get lost from time to time in my own freedom of expression. Thank you for allowing me to do so and still returning for more ❤️
Ren was freezing here, according to his own account about it. He also thought he was dying, and this was a real life interpretation of his emotions at the time. Bib I was apparently his real-life girlfriend at the time. I find it almost painful to watch.
OMG Jesse I couldn't even get passed the intro without shedding a tear 😭 me and the family loved this powerful reaction! We truly love you and the message you provide ❤ God Bless you
Ren IS that beacon of light we all needed. It’s mind boggling how many he has helped with his art. And you’re amazing also. Keep going, we’re glad you’re here 💜
Thank you! I agree REN is just one of those lifetime originals that comes once in a lifetime. Thank you all for having me here 😊 I look forward to giving you all more Cinematic content 🎬 stay tuned my friend
jessie please don't ever think we don't care about your projects, i watch your reactions as i love your perspective. your light truly shines and draws me into your orbit. Crutch really touches me as i am 57 with a degenerative disease that has stole my mobility, i was married for 30 plus years till he had an affair with his brothers wife and imploded our families, i now live alone with my 2 furry friends but sometimes i wonder what it was all for and feel so lonely. But finding Ren and his music has helped me feel less alone and also finding such beautiful people like yourself. lets keep frolicking 🤣
You are never truly alone! ❤️ We are all here with you, we may all experience different trials/tribulations but we all bleed and cry the same way. It's time we fight back and look more towards the future....no more holding ourselves back. And yes Frolicking is a must ❤️ Stay awesome God Bless
This song always brings tears to my eyes. Ren was so sick at the time of shooting this video. Why he was so thin. Talk about being vulnerable. He is a beacon of hope. Look how far he's come. Hearing your story, I'm proud of how far you've come ❤. I lost my family, one by one, lost hope, but I had to let go of worries and concerns. I'm here for a reason, I believe we all are. Be kind, not just to others but to yourself. Thank you for your lovely reaction ❤
Good to hear from you! Yeah it's crazy to think how sick he was and still is. Hopefully there has been major improvement to his health. ☺️ As always, I appreciate the support! I'm truly sorry to hear about your family. ❤️ God bless you and yours. And yes you are here for a reason, I'm glad to know you. 🙌
This is such an underrated gem, for the video and the song both. The final shot and line where she vanishes is so compelling and challenging…did she leave, was she ever there to begin with, did he lose his mind after all, did one lead to the other? Ren is as brilliant a storyteller/actor/director as he is a musician/singer/ rapper. 🔥🔥🔥
My imagination runs wild with the idea that she was never there . . .very haunting to think that we crutch on the memories that are of the ones we love. 💔 thank you for watching!
The still Jesse, we care, we feel the synchronicity. Part of why we're here. This video is a gut punch, and not one necessarily requested of most reactors. So I'm glad I'm here, glad you feel it, glad your art reflects the knowing how it can feel.
I appreciate you all more than you could ever know ☺️ and yes I felt every bit of human emotion invoked in this video. My heart broke because that was me on the ground...telling myself I'll never get up. But that crutch of was all I needed to get back just like REN did. Now we are here standing on our own two feet once more, it's going to hurt for sure but eventually we get stronger and keep moving forward ❤️ Thank you for watching and the kind words 😊
Much love back! ☺️ It's my pleasure. I wanted to help others out there who need to hear that its ok to not be ok. But that they are not alone. Thank you for watching. God bless you ❤️
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE do Domino's by Ren next. It has a message that is incredibly relevant to what's going on in society today. It doesn't get enough attention.
I agree. I love this song so much, but it always breaks me, I always cry. I rarely watch it, but I cried a lot today anyway, and I liked the reaction. This video also showcases Ren's talent for directing.
Loved it. Great job as always. And that is very cool about the similarities of your 2018 footage. I just had a serendipitous encounter this weekend, which is the 30-year anniversary of my father’s untimely death. I met a young woman who is a harmonic player like my dad was. I shared a video of him in his prime with her and she was blown away and wanted to share it with her band. It was such a special moment to see her eyes light up and I thought of Ren’s line, “When I am gone I’ll rise in the music that I left behind.” Very thankful for the community Ren and the RENegade fans like you have been cultivating. Much love from California 💔❤️🩹❤️
That's sooo crazy how your still from your film looks almost identical to this image in CRUTCH 😮 I just love your storytelling voice! ❤ You've grown so much friend. Me and the family just love your channel. Thank you for sharing this amazing reaction. Love you Jesse ❣️
Another amazing reaction. This song always makes me cry, but hearing your story layered on top of Ren’s really hit me. Thank you for your vulnerability. You’re a beautiful person, Jesse. 💜
Thank you for that heartfelt response ❤️ I always look forward to speaking with all of you! I share my life with you all in the hopes that it will help others out there. I'm paying it forward ☺️ I'm humbled to be part of such an amazing community!
Honoured to be a teeny (but hugely loving) part of your “Up” Jesse 🙏❤️ Wonderful reaction to this heart wrenching beauty (with breath taking cinematography)from early Ren when he was in the depths of his darkness, now it’s his turn and yours and ours, to bask in the warm & glorious light for a while xxxx
Thank you for this 🖤 This is one of my absolute favourite Ren songs and it really doesn’t get as much attention as it deserves. It’s a perfect expression of fear and agony in lyrics, vocals, music, and even the video. And never has distortion sounded so emotional! Just stunning. The vulnerability Ren shows is beautiful 🖤🐰🕳️
It truly was an amazing experience! A rollercoaster of emotions and heartache but I'm really glad I got to finally watch this. Thank you watching along ☺️
@@Cinematic_Jesse yeah it might not be the sort of song that makes it onto many playlists with how emotional it is, but it is something very much worth experiencing. And there’s nothing else like it in his catalogue. A very special piece of vulnerable and authentic art.
Anyone correct me if I’m wrong but I feel I can confidently declare that you have the most dramatic intro’s to any Ren reaction on UA-cam! I think it’s a testament to the passion you have for what you do Jesse! where most would have a set channel intro, which is totally fine I’m passing no judgement, you put down some serious time into creating each episode intro individually. You truly have a knack for the cinematic artform, This one was really heartfelt
I'm truly humbled for that heartfelt comment! ❤️ Doing these reactions is truly my therapy, and it's a BONUS knowing that you all give me your time/energy so I feel compelled to return a favor and give you all a great show. 🍿 But it's not just a show....this is my Life's Rabbit hole and I'm grateful to have you here with me. ☺️
I have to say without a doubt Jesse, you are absolutely my favorite UA-camr! ❤ My son came to me today to tell me he wishes to follow in your footsteps! He wants to be a counselor/Filmmaker/storyteller just like you. I almost cried because ever since we started watching you, it's brought my family together ❣️ I cannot thank you enough for the amount of influence you have on us! I even have my friends-co-workers watching you. I bet your ears are ringing with how much we talk about you lol. Keep up the amazing work, you beautiful man ☺️❤️
Your reactions are a different gravy, thoughtfully and beautifully compiled. If your film making reflects your personality then the future is bright and worth the struggle to get to that point you're happy.
I appreciate the positive feedback! Ill be happy regardless of whatever life brings me. ☺️ All in due time . . .thank you for reaching out and tuning in. Much love from Texas.
This video and song is so beautiful and absolutely crushing at the same time. What a brilliant piece of art and vulnerable performance. It makes my heart ache for young Ren. I’m so glad he’s gotten so much better and can enjoy life again. I think I need to go watch a video of him finding out his album hit #1, again. It’s a great antidote for this video 😊
When I saw this song and video I thought this should have been awarded a Grammy! My best wishes my friend be strong! Make sure when you’re movie comes out let us know I definitely would watch it as a creative person. I’m a amateur photographer, video editor.
This song always breaks me, every single time... Thank you Jesse for a beautiful reaction ❤ Have a look Ren "Children of the moon" song, one of the first Ren and Sam video 😊
What a beautiful and insightful reaction. Thank you for sharing your own vulnerability, it mirrors so many of our own, which is also why Ren’s music touches our souls. Love your content and appreciate your commitment to yourself. 🩷
Thank you! 😌 I just take things one day at a time...it's a challenge but it's worth it in the end. I'm in a much better place. I can only wish the same for my community ❤️ Again, thank you for watching and showing support
I look forward to seeing your Ren reactions so much. You are amazing Jesse! Much love and hugs to you. ❤ I'm so glad I stumbled onto your page...I believe in fate and feel we have all been pulled together for a reason. Ren's music has changed my life and brought me to this amazing community of people which now includes you Jesse. Thank you for all you do! ❤
That means the world to me! I'm so humbled to be apart of this community. ❤️ Let's keep this movement going! Yes fate has definitely brought us all here together. I'm a firm believer that everything happens for a reason. There are no coincidences! As always, thank you for the support and feedback. I enjoy having these chats with you all. ☺️ God bless you and yours
It's my pleasure new friend! Welcome to the channel. ☺️ I only wish nothing but the best! Thank you for being here and I much appreciate the feedback 🎬
Awake again st 3:30 am. Guess it was for this. How very personal and vulnerable your reactioms are. Thank you ao much for adding so much that is good from your artistic soul to the reaction. Thanks for doing Crutch. Love from another Renegade. ❤🎉❤🎉
I'm normally woken up at 4:44 here lately 🤯 not sure what's going on with that. Thank you again for watching! Loving the feedback ☺️ much love RENEGADE family. ❤️
Crutch perfectly captures the beauty and devastation that is love. Thank you for sharing so much with us, and for your thoughtful and compassionate reaction to this. I've wanted you to see the video ever since first seeing the still for your film, which is so reminiscent of the beginning. You and Ren see powerful emotive moments in the same places. ❤
I'm still in shock at just the synchronicities alone! I actually had a dream that I met REN and we collaborateed on my film 🎬 It felt so real! Thank you for watching ☺️ and taking the time to chat with me in the comment section. I appreciate the support and feedback ❤️
Synchronicity means you're on the correct path ❤. Thanks for allowing us to see your vulnerability through these reactions... it definitely helps us all feel like we're not alone.
Thank you for reaching out! I always enjoy having these deep conversations with you all. If I can help at least one person out there, I know the Universe has put me on the correct path ☺️ then Ive done my job. I appreciate you
Thank you for this reaction! I know you appreciate different and creative forms of storytelling. Try the Big Push's, Ren's former band, Oh My Woman! Two hands tell an entire story. Ren is the director, videographer and I think shows how his brain is so truly cinematically wired.
Fantastic reaction to this! One of the best I've seen, I love how you are so respecful towards the artist (and his fans). The song is truly heartbreaking and horrifying. To feel your mind and body slowly die, with no answers to why, at such a young age. Jesus Christ, that is frightening. Many hugs to you Jesse, when sharing your own struggles you become a beacon of light. It creates a bond with people. Beautiful intro, as always.
Yes very heartbreaking 💔 but also it shows growth/love/compassion. It shows the true nature of our minds during their breaking point. That we can only Crutch on a memory for so long before we have to eventually start walking on our own REN, myself and others out there show that we are all capable of getting back up. Especially when we stand together, we can do great things! ❤️☺️ Thank you for watching and reaching out. I hope you and yours have a great rest of your weekend. 🍿
This is a beautiful pre message. I recently had somebody say that, instead of saying hurt people, hurt people. You should be saying healed people heal people. And that’s what you’re doing by sharing your message so thank you. Since Covid, I’ve been diagnosed with several autoimmune diseases which keep me in my bed a lot. But luckily, I found reaction channels and the whole community people that have helped me through this situation. I went from a working mother of 5 and a high paid business position. To spending probably 20 hours a day in bed. I also hope to be a beacon of light. And show that even though my life harder than it’s ever been, my happiness depends on me. I thought I already knew that, but as it turns out, sometimes you gotta go through the trenches to learn the real stuff. Anyway, hope you’re having a great day. Love your content. Keep being a beacon of light and I’ll keep watching. Thank you ps love this video. Feel like I can really understand this song
Yes I believe we spoke last time ❤️ you still have my spiritual support through God and the Universe 🙌 you can definitely count on me making more reaction videos! I not only do this for my therapy, but for others like you my friend ☺️ please take care of yourself and drop in time to time when you are well and able to. I appreciate you sharing your life story with me and others. It's because of your strength/courage that helps others keep fighting!you will be in my prayers tonight. 👏
This video took me several tries before I could finish it upon my first encounter. It hits hard at the core. You did well to be vulnerable yet analytical enough to bring both viewpoints to the reaction. Reading that description afterwards in such an empathetic tone is the most sensitive reaction to this difficult but epic piece of art. And your closing comments are beautiful. Best of hope and peace for your future days.
I'm right there with you, this one hurt me to watch...the entire time I kept reflecting on my pain/struggles with similar situations I've had in the past with relationships. I had to hold myself together so that I could articulate to my audience my thoughts ❤️ Thank you for reaching out and showing support. Best wishes to you and yours from Texas ☺️
Thank you for this excellent reaction. Ren seems to be helping you and I think that is the greatest gift of his music. He is a beacon of hope along with a lyrical and musical genius. Looking forward to your next reaction.
Him along with others have helped me so much! Music has and always will be my remedy for hard times. Thank you for watching and for the kind words 😊 Hope to see you on the next one
Love this one so much! It's powerful, heartbreaking, courageous, honest and visually stunning! Thr lyrics are pure and relatable! The fear Ren portrays is so real and agonizing because when you are in a state of mental, emotional and physical turmoil, you feel like you are alone and no one understands what you are going through! A crutch is only temporary and in the end you have to stand on your own two feet! Thank you for reacting to this amazing song and for your input on a personal level! And yes, very interesting that Ren's location looks exactly like yours in your film! I'm loving your Ren journey 🎉❤
I couldn't have said it better myself ❤️ this one was truly a rollercoaster of emotions! My body honestly went numb after I was done watching, my mind kept wondering and going back to all those times I was left on the ground...not getting up. Basically being left behind. We go through so much individually and it's heartbreaking to visually see this representation on screen, REN is a true master at his craft for capturing the human vulnerabilities. Yes a Crutch is temporary and we must eventually learn to stand on our own eventually...we learn to move forward ☺️ Thank you for watching and reaching out with such moving insight. ❤️
Beautiful reaction dear , and keep going you can do this ❤ have you seen patience the song he did . I listen to it lots and it makes me fight to keep going ❤
❤ #ren Only at the intro & in tear's! Needed to hear that after trying to take myself out 4 time's in past week but reached out for help ❤ still going through it now but don't feel so alone now ❤ sending love 💕
I am here for you....we are here for you. ❤️ You are not alone my friend! You belong here...you are loved. I will have you in my prayers tonight 👏 God bless you
LOVE is Ren's biggest message in most of his songs, that and courage... Especially in difficult times. AND... I love YOU and the heart you show in this reaction. Can't wait to watch more!! I'm a forever subscriber now!
Jesse , I am so happy and glad you are here. I love your reactions, thoughts and comments. Love, Light and Prayers 🙏🏻. Ren has touched so many people including myself.
Many of us saw your picture for your own film and immediately recognized the similarity to Ren's Crutch - beautiful, right?! You had me when you said: Ren.. maybe if I move... and for me it was: maybe if I don't move... That's exactly how I felt too! Ren's music brings so many people together and creates awareness of how we treat others but also how we treat ourselves, which is so phenomenal. That was a warm, respectful and perceptive reaction to this video.👏👏👏 Jesse, all the best to you and have a great day! ❤️greetings from Germany👍🤝🙋♀️
The synchronicities are just blowing my mind right now! When I made that post and you all reached out telling me this, i believe the Universe is trying to tell me something. I guess we will find out all in due time. . . And to go off your response to my comment in the video, I've always told myself if I just sit here paralyzed, maybe my troubles will just move on but I found out real quick that this is not the case. They are still right there, I knew I had to get up eventually and face them. Been fighting back ever since ❤️ Thank you for watching! I appreciate the positive response ☺️ Much love from Texas
This one gets me visually because he was so fricking young- audibly it's the segment after Bibi because that discordant nails on a chalkboard scream is what it feels like inside my head when it all goes to crap. That f*ing helpless place where the cacophony and chaos is inside and you just can't move and you can't make it go away. Take care down there
I know the feeling my friend...the chaos that runs wild inside and physically you aren't moving at all. It's like you are falling down but in reality your just standing still. Much love from Texas
@@Cinematic_Jesse You mentioned you were a bit of a metal head back in the day- if you haven't seen it check out Disturbeds A Reason to Fight - official live video ... the 2019 3 million view one. Just for yourself I'm not suggesting a reaction unless you really want to. Cheers from Colorado
Actually truth be told I'm still kind of a metal head. I love me some Disturbed...I actually have some videos Ive been wanting to react to. Thank you for the recommendations 🍿
@@Cinematic_Jesse Well shoot then - look at some of the cool collaborations that Lzzy Hale (Halestorm) has done (The Hu 'Heart of a Woman' - Lindsey Sterling 'Shatter Me' - David Draiman/Device 'Close My Eyes Forever' - Chris Daughtry 'Separate Ways (Worlds Apart) ) just because they are different and I've not seen them done a whole lot. -- and if you've not listened to it - another Linkin Park archive track is 'Lost' that released last year. (LP, Halestorm, Disturbed, NiN and now Ren are my constant go to soundtrack) Take care and fuss the gorgeous little pupper!
You always give such insightful reactions, not only from your cinematographical pov, but from your own personal experiences. Thank you for continuing to share both. 😊💕
It's hard to stay on task during these reactions...I really try my hardest to give you all my thoughts. REN pulled on my heart strings with this one 💔 but I'm glad to share this moment with you all. ☺️ Thank you for watching! See you all soon 🎬
My interpretation of the ending is that the people who are with you are important source of strength, but at the end of the day your struggles are yours alone and it’s on you to surpass them. Wonderful reaction. Thank you ❤
Very well said! I was thinking the same thing....a Crutch is just temporary hold but it's up to us to push forward and carry on. ❤️ Thank you for reaching out and checking out the video. Much love from Texas
You're very talented Jesse. You're young so don't give up. For Ren there was NO OTHER OPTION. He had ONE JOB that he got fired from. Busking, shows, etc so hang in there. You'll get there.
I always wonder what Ren & his ex gf Bibi think nowadays because Ren is in better health & his music has become successful. There’s probably plenty of second guessing & it will be there for life. I know how sickness affects a relationship, I’ve been there. My wife passed two years ago very suddenly. I’ve struggled with loneliness & the survivors guilt. One thing I’ve learned about myself is taking people for granted. I got professional help & I forgave myself. I am in the light now…but there are still dark shadows.
I'm sorry to hear about your wifes passing ❤️ I've never been married but I can only imagine what it feels to lose your lifes partner. That love is still there so hold onto it my friend. Life can be so mysterious at times...it can hurt and sometimes be a beautiful place all at the same time. We are here momentarily....then gone the next. I am humbled to be speaking to you brother. It's never an easy road to forgiving ourselves but it's a necessary one to keep moving forward for those that are here for us. I took people and situations for granted. . . But I'm thankful that I could fix my mistakes by acknowledging that I was in the wrong and that's ok my friend. One day at a time . . . God bless
Love your reactions Jesse ❤ And yes, when you showed that still for your upcoming film during a previous Ren video, I immediately thought of Crutch. I can't remember if i suggested it or voted something but that was definitely what spurred me to think you should do it. Poor Ren in this video was already very underweight and clearly suffering so much. Tbh it feels like the 'not knowing' what was wrong was making everything so much worse. Of course taking anti depressants and anti psychotics for years instead of actual treatment for Lyme's Disease wasn't helping! Im just so glad Ren has such resilience and the amazing ability to express himself and uses that give others a voice we wouldn't normally hear. For your next Ren video may I suggest something a bit more fun; Losing It is a retake of an EDM song that originally just had the titles words only as the lyrics. Needless to say Ren's 'rendition' is a bit more complex 😅 That and the fact it's filmed with a fish eye lens in it's entirety makes it a very interesting watch. I would love to take the opportunity to introduce you to a different artist. She is a Spanish artist called Rosalía. She is currently more known nowadays for her more latin style music but her earlier work was incredible and so original! You would love her visuals, they're like little works of art. Like Ren, Rosalía is a very intelligent artist, able to write, compose and produce her own music and play various instruments. Her album El Mal Querer was written as her final year project at Uni and it won her a Grammy. She did it on a laptop with a the help of her friend. The album is in the style of a book, with each song a chapter and tells the story of a young lady who is seduced by a man and marries him despite having a bad feeling about him. If you do check her out, please start with Malamente (Badly). She uses so much symbolism in her videos that you could write an essay about it. It helps if you understand Spanish but regardless, I think you will appreciate the filmography. Here's the link: ua-cam.com/video/Rht7rBHuXW8/v-deo.htmlsi=ZjJnvFRRF2Cka3Ce Sorry for the lengthy comment. 😅
You sure did reference my still looking similar to RENS crutch video!!! 🤯 Wow this just keeps getting stranger and stranger! Not to mention I was compelled to reach out to him about scoring a single track for that very film. I'm all about synchronicity! Wouldn't that be something if he actually reached back out to work with me. It would honestly be thanks to you all for placing me in front of him. 🙌 I'm really glad he was able to figure out what was going on with his health. He's definitely a fighter! Mine was on the mental illness side mainly but I finally got the help I needed to heal my broken mind. So I checked out your recommended artist Rosalia...I saved the video to my upcoming reaction playlist! Might I add she is very beautiful ❤️ and I cannot wait to check out the video. I actually understand Spanish more than I can speak it lol And no worries about the lengthy comment! I always enjoy talking with you all here in the comments 😊 Thank you for watching and for the recommendation!
I'm honoured you will be checking her out upon my request! Thank you ❤ Just a side note. At the end of the video you will see a man dressed in purple robes. He is not representing a KKK member, so don't worry, there are no racist connotations. For over 400 years Spain celebrates Easter with parades and among them walk the penitent who are dressed in these robes. In Rosalía's video they represent someone with conservative views which is in opposition to what he seems (a cool guy on a skateboard). She's just trying to say that he seemed one thing but was another.
YES YES YES. I was watching one of your other reactions with the still from your film. I immediately thought that it reminded me of Crutch. Here I am watching it and you put the still up. And YES, I do believe very strongly in synchronicities. It annoys me when people comment about pausing and commentary… if they don’t like it, they shouldn’t watch reactions. You bring something special. Keep going 💜💜💜💜💜💜
An amazing intro, my friend, and an amazing reaction. Thank you! You are a warrior of light. We need such people in this world. Keep on keeping on, brother!
I loved every second of it! Although heartbreaking...we all have to face some sort of pain throughout our time here 😔 but eventually we get through it. We are stronger from it.
What a stunning introduction. You are so special. So glad you are here, being vulnerable and transparent and being a light for others. Keep going my friend. Your life matters and you are making a positive impact in the lives of others. Every time we share out struggles we become a vehicle of hope for others. Much love mate ❤
If you find out the story behind what happened to him at age 19. The health problems physical and mental were due to misdiagnosis resulting in Ren not getting the appropriate treatment for the actual disease he had. In Hi Ren you get a picture of some of the battles occurring for him during this process
I've heard from many of his fans about his misdiagnosis 😔 thats such a tragedy especially at that age. But I'm glad they were able to figure it out. Now he can be treated accurately! Thank you for watching
Wow! Your still of They Still Linger, and Crutch are so telling. I too, have been where you were, where Ren is/was. I have been battling an unknown illness for over a year now. Its taken over my life, and I'm desperate for answers. Not giving up.
Music heals so many wounds. Music is therapy in so many ways. Synchronicities mean you are on the right path. This was at the height of his psychosis. You can see how thin he is. This is right before he got the correct diagnosis. After his first psychotic episode. Recommend you watch Patience | Ren Gill | M.E. which is from the documentary "Unrest" about Chronic Fatigue Syndrome where Ren features as a story. On the streaming services its listed as by Bear McCreary and Ren, Bear did the soundtrack for Unrest. That video is so powerful and helped get him the correct diagnosis. She helped him to get back on his feet. Bibi, the only collaborator that Ren has slept with. She wasn't a singer until this video. She had to exit for her own mental health. She started the go fund me.
@@Cinematic_Jesse The most important question for me here is always whether I can be a crutch for someone, and I don't know the answer. Sure for my child, but for others?
The Universe is a strange/mysterious but I wouldn't have it any other way! I'm a firm believer in going with the direction the wind takes me. But that's just me....it's worked so far. ☺️ Thank you for watching 🍿 have a great rest of your weekend!
Man, there are so so many Ren tracks in the future, from light to dark…. Many and honestly your not going to watch any and be disappointed, I’m so glad you are on this journey Can I say…. If you want to see something not music but just from Rens heart (which I know all his music is) then watch his 1 million subscribers YT vid, and see a man that doesn’t have to answer to any record label or financial entity, REN is a once in a generation artist….. just my opinion 😅
Crazy right?! Then what's really insane is that I've gravitated to reaching out to him about collaboration on my film scoring 🎬 🤯 that would be out of this world if that happened
Heartfelt reaction ❤ Thank u for being so gentle with this one. And I love that u had a similar shot and picked up on it in Ren's video. Synchronicity ❤ I believe the universe provides for us and there are no coincidences as far as receiving messages when we need them. Take care out there and love yourselves 🤗
Just remember, jesse, in the wise words of our very special modern day bard: "its a pendulum eternally swaying from the dark to the light, and the brighter the light shone, the darker the shadow it cast." Its an eternal dance. Us renegades are all very grateful for your reactions, keep up the good work my guy 😊💜💜
Twisted minds, lovely person - I was thinking just the same
I always appreciate your legendary support! Those words come home to me like truth. ❤
If you haven't watched it, Ren's 1 Million subscriber video is truly worth a reaction. It really gives you insight into Ren and why we all love him so much.
Yes please, this one ❤
I agree! 💜
Ditto❤
I guess I should have checked the comments.😂 yes this absolutely
A must Watch!
What you will find as you continue down the Ren journey is that he has a way with his lyrics to hit home and connect in a way no one else can - he has an innate ability to be able to describe exactly what you feel or have felt inside and do it so empathetically that so many have felt that they are not alone.
He truly is a voice for the voiceless.
It's always important with Ren to sprinkle in happy cheeky Ren along with the more dramatic and tougher Ren songs.
Just on this video, there was no budget and Ren spent hours on the cold damp floor on a cold day (at a time when he was really suffering with his illness). The man is a martyr to his craft.
He truly is! Thank you for taking the time out of your day to write such an inciteful message. 👏
I'm here watching your reaction because I want to hear your words. For me, you don't need to rush to get back to the "reaction". There's a lot of insight you give and I'm here for it. Thank you. Such a gift you have with your art. 🎉
I appreciate the positivity very much ☺️ I try my best to give you all what's on my mind but it seems I get lost from time to time in my own freedom of expression. Thank you for allowing me to do so and still returning for more ❤️
Ren was freezing here, according to his own account about it. He also thought he was dying, and this was a real life interpretation of his emotions at the time. Bib I was apparently his real-life girlfriend at the time. I find it almost painful to watch.
It was painful to watch but at the same time I needed to watch this! I feel like we all need to ❤️
Someone that finally did this justice. ❤
I loved every minute of this video. Thank you for tuning in ☺️
OMG Jesse I couldn't even get passed the intro without shedding a tear 😭 me and the family loved this powerful reaction! We truly love you and the message you provide ❤ God Bless you
Much love to you and family for always showing up and tuning in! I couldn't do it without you. I hope you all have well ❤
Beauty is not found in appearances, but in the kindness of our souls. A beautiful soul has the power to change the world.❤
Ren IS that beacon of light we all needed. It’s mind boggling how many he has helped with his art. And you’re amazing also. Keep going, we’re glad you’re here 💜
Thank you! I agree REN is just one of those lifetime originals that comes once in a lifetime. Thank you all for having me here 😊 I look forward to giving you all more Cinematic content 🎬 stay tuned my friend
jessie please don't ever think we don't care about your projects, i watch your reactions as i love your perspective. your light truly shines and draws me into your orbit. Crutch really touches me as i am 57 with a degenerative disease that has stole my mobility, i was married for 30 plus years till he had an affair with his brothers wife and imploded our families, i now live alone with my 2 furry friends but sometimes i wonder what it was all for and feel so lonely. But finding Ren and his music has helped me feel less alone and also finding such beautiful people like yourself. lets keep frolicking 🤣
You are never truly alone! ❤️ We are all here with you, we may all experience different trials/tribulations but we all bleed and cry the same way. It's time we fight back and look more towards the future....no more holding ourselves back. And yes Frolicking is a must ❤️
Stay awesome
God Bless
This song always brings tears to my eyes. Ren was so sick at the time of shooting this video. Why he was so thin. Talk about being vulnerable. He is a beacon of hope. Look how far he's come. Hearing your story, I'm proud of how far you've come ❤. I lost my family, one by one, lost hope, but I had to let go of worries and concerns. I'm here for a reason, I believe we all are. Be kind, not just to others but to yourself. Thank you for your lovely reaction ❤
Good to hear from you! Yeah it's crazy to think how sick he was and still is. Hopefully there has been major improvement to his health. ☺️ As always, I appreciate the support! I'm truly sorry to hear about your family. ❤️
God bless you and yours. And yes you are here for a reason, I'm glad to know you. 🙌
Wow, what an incredibly beautiful comment. Got me a little emotional to be honest, I think because it’s so full of compassion. 🥹
This is such an underrated gem, for the video and the song both. The final shot and line where she vanishes is so compelling and challenging…did she leave, was she ever there to begin with, did he lose his mind after all, did one lead to the other? Ren is as brilliant a storyteller/actor/director as he is a musician/singer/ rapper. 🔥🔥🔥
My imagination runs wild with the idea that she was never there . . .very haunting to think that we crutch on the memories that are of the ones we love. 💔 thank you for watching!
Dominos, Depression, Insomnia, Dear God, and Penitence are some of my favorites!
I've added them to my upcoming reaction playlist 🙂 thank you for the recommendations 🍿
Insomnia. 🩷
The still Jesse, we care, we feel the synchronicity. Part of why we're here.
This video is a gut punch, and not one necessarily requested of most reactors. So I'm glad I'm here, glad you feel it, glad your art reflects the knowing how it can feel.
I appreciate you all more than you could ever know ☺️ and yes I felt every bit of human emotion invoked in this video. My heart broke because that was me on the ground...telling myself I'll never get up. But that crutch of was all I needed to get back just like REN did. Now we are here standing on our own two feet once more, it's going to hurt for sure but eventually we get stronger and keep moving forward ❤️
Thank you for watching and the kind words 😊
Thanks , best reaction I’ve see to this beautiful work of art
This was absolutely brilliant work of art! Thank you for the amazing comment 😊
Stay strong my friend. Stay safe. My prayers are always with you.
Always! God bless you friend
1:30 much love to you my friend, thank you for that beautiful intro ❤❤❤
Thank you for sharing this with us
Much love back! ☺️ It's my pleasure. I wanted to help others out there who need to hear that its ok to not be ok. But that they are not alone. Thank you for watching. God bless you ❤️
God bless you Jesse, you really are doing a great job 🫶🏽
Great reaction! I love the way you found a similar shot that you did. Great minds! Don't be afraid of sharing. I think it's cool!
Thank you for watching! I appreciate the conversation. Much love from Texas
Love all of Ren's videos but "Penitence " with Molly McKinna is so beautiful. Love your channel.
I'll add it to my REN upcoming playlist 🙂 thank you for watching/reaching out.
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE do Domino's by Ren next. It has a message that is incredibly relevant to what's going on in society today. It doesn't get enough attention.
Domino's. . .thats a new one I've not heard of. Thank you for the recommendation! I'll add it to my list. Thank you for watching 🎬
@@Cinematic_Jesse you are very welcome. I love your style of reacting, and how honest you are with your audience. Keep up the amazing work.
One of my favorites by Ren
@@Jadedxx mine too,, unfortunately it doesn't get the attention that some of his other songs get
Yeah
100%
Dominoes
And Humble
Fark it’s actually off the charts how many unbelievable tracks from years ago Ren has
Thank you for your vulnerability ❤ I'm glad you're feeling better! We Renegades will be here for you, you're one of us ❤
Thank you! I'm feeling great ☺️ much love to my Renegade family ❤️
I've also always said this song should be in a movie as well. It is so good and powerful. Love the reaction and break down ❤
I agree. I love this song so much, but it always breaks me, I always cry. I rarely watch it, but I cried a lot today anyway, and I liked the reaction. This video also showcases Ren's talent for directing.
Loved it. Great job as always. And that is very cool about the similarities of your 2018 footage. I just had a serendipitous encounter this weekend, which is the 30-year anniversary of my father’s untimely death. I met a young woman who is a harmonic player like my dad was. I shared a video of him in his prime with her and she was blown away and wanted to share it with her band. It was such a special moment to see her eyes light up and I thought of Ren’s line, “When I am gone I’ll rise in the music that I left behind.”
Very thankful for the community Ren and the RENegade fans like you have been cultivating. Much love from California
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Thank you for sharing! I am thankful for you all. My Renegade family ❤️
Much love from Texas
That's sooo crazy how your still from your film looks almost identical to this image in CRUTCH 😮 I just love your storytelling voice! ❤ You've grown so much friend. Me and the family just love your channel. Thank you for sharing this amazing reaction. Love you Jesse ❣️
I actually did kind of take notice during this reaction but Its just odd that I did not say anything lol the Universe is a crazy place. 🤯
Man, your crazy talented. Love ya man!
Much love and respect to you and yours my friend! God Bless
Another amazing reaction. This song always makes me cry, but hearing your story layered on top of Ren’s really hit me. Thank you for your vulnerability. You’re a beautiful person, Jesse. 💜
Thank you for that heartfelt response ❤️ I always look forward to speaking with all of you! I share my life with you all in the hopes that it will help others out there. I'm paying it forward ☺️
I'm humbled to be part of such an amazing community!
Honoured to be a teeny (but hugely loving) part of your “Up” Jesse 🙏❤️ Wonderful reaction to this heart wrenching beauty (with breath taking cinematography)from early Ren when he was in the depths of his darkness, now it’s his turn and yours and ours, to bask in the warm & glorious light for a while xxxx
Yes basking in the warm light! I love that my friend ☺️ it's a pleasure to be here with you all. I'm truly humbled ❤️
@@Cinematic_Jesse the pleasure is all ours 🥰 Thank you for sharing your true self, I am humbled by you, much love always ❤️
Thank you for this 🖤 This is one of my absolute favourite Ren songs and it really doesn’t get as much attention as it deserves. It’s a perfect expression of fear and agony in lyrics, vocals, music, and even the video. And never has distortion sounded so emotional! Just stunning. The vulnerability Ren shows is beautiful 🖤🐰🕳️
It truly was an amazing experience! A rollercoaster of emotions and heartache but I'm really glad I got to finally watch this. Thank you watching along ☺️
@@Cinematic_Jesse yeah it might not be the sort of song that makes it onto many playlists with how emotional it is, but it is something very much worth experiencing. And there’s nothing else like it in his catalogue. A very special piece of vulnerable and authentic art.
What a beautiful intro. You are so talented and I hope you feel inspired to continue adding your own art to these reactions. I really love them.
It's a deal! 💯 Thank you for watching along. I will definitely keep making these reactions for you all. I appreciate you all ☺️
Beautiful reaction, thank you Jesse.
Although heartbreaking 💔 I still wanted to bring some positivity to this already amazing piece of Cinema Storytelling ☺️ thank you for watching.
Anyone correct me if I’m wrong but I feel I can confidently declare that you have the most dramatic intro’s to any Ren reaction on UA-cam! I think it’s a testament to the passion you have for what you do Jesse! where most would have a set channel intro, which is totally fine I’m passing no judgement, you put down some serious time into creating each episode intro individually. You truly have a knack for the cinematic artform,
This one was really heartfelt
I'm truly humbled for that heartfelt comment! ❤️ Doing these reactions is truly my therapy, and it's a BONUS knowing that you all give me your time/energy so I feel compelled to return a favor and give you all a great show. 🍿 But it's not just a show....this is my Life's Rabbit hole and I'm grateful to have you here with me. ☺️
Your introduction killed me. Sending love and peace to you, my friend. Love is the answer.❤❤
I have to say without a doubt Jesse, you are absolutely my favorite UA-camr! ❤ My son came to me today to tell me he wishes to follow in your footsteps! He wants to be a counselor/Filmmaker/storyteller just like you. I almost cried because ever since we started watching you, it's brought my family together ❣️ I cannot thank you enough for the amount of influence you have on us! I even have my friends-co-workers watching you. I bet your ears are ringing with how much we talk about you lol. Keep up the amazing work, you beautiful man ☺️❤️
Well that comment just made my whole year! ❤️ You all keep shooting for the stars . . .much love to you and your family. Great things are coming!
Your reactions are a different gravy, thoughtfully and beautifully compiled.
If your film making reflects your personality then the future is bright and worth the struggle to get to that point you're happy.
I appreciate the positive feedback! Ill be happy regardless of whatever life brings me. ☺️ All in due time . . .thank you for reaching out and tuning in. Much love from Texas.
This video and song is so beautiful and absolutely crushing at the same time. What a brilliant piece of art and vulnerable performance. It makes my heart ache for young Ren. I’m so glad he’s gotten so much better and can enjoy life again. I think I need to go watch a video of him finding out his album hit #1, again. It’s a great antidote for this video 😊
It truly was an amazing experience! Heartbreaking 💔 but none the less Phenomenal
When I saw this song and video I thought this should have been awarded a Grammy! My best wishes my friend be strong! Make sure when you’re movie comes out let us know I definitely would watch it as a creative person. I’m a amateur photographer, video editor.
That's a deal! Once we start production 🎬 you will all get a more in depth look at how my Cinematic brain processes ☺️ God bless you friend
This song always breaks me, every single time...
Thank you Jesse for a beautiful reaction ❤
Have a look Ren "Children of the moon" song, one of the first Ren and Sam video 😊
It's coming up soon! 🍿 Thank you for watching
Keep going man! Thanks for this reaction. This video is pure art❤Yep I am a RENegade🙂
Done! And done my friend! ☺️ Thank you for the support Renegade family.
What a beautiful and insightful reaction. Thank you for sharing your own vulnerability, it mirrors so many of our own, which is also why Ren’s music touches our souls. Love your content and appreciate your commitment to yourself. 🩷
Thank you! 😌 I just take things one day at a time...it's a challenge but it's worth it in the end. I'm in a much better place. I can only wish the same for my community ❤️
Again, thank you for watching and showing support
I look forward to seeing your Ren reactions so much. You are amazing Jesse! Much love and hugs to you. ❤ I'm so glad I stumbled onto your page...I believe in fate and feel we have all been pulled together for a reason. Ren's music has changed my life and brought me to this amazing community of people which now includes you Jesse. Thank you for all you do! ❤
That means the world to me! I'm so humbled to be apart of this community. ❤️ Let's keep this movement going! Yes fate has definitely brought us all here together. I'm a firm believer that everything happens for a reason. There are no coincidences! As always, thank you for the support and feedback. I enjoy having these chats with you all. ☺️ God bless you and yours
I'm so glad you have found Crutch. It is definitely powerful. You did a great job. Thanks so much 💜
Thank you for watching ☺️ I'm grateful to be here
Great reaction and also a very deep and personal commentary. I wish you all the best. And thank you for a brilliant reaction. New sub ❤
It's my pleasure new friend! Welcome to the channel. ☺️ I only wish nothing but the best! Thank you for being here and I much appreciate the feedback 🎬
The sentiment of being his crutch and the reality of living it.
Sometimes, you just have to save yourself as heartbreaking as this is.
Awake again st 3:30 am. Guess it was for this. How very personal and vulnerable your reactioms are. Thank you ao much for adding so much that is good from your artistic soul to the reaction. Thanks for doing Crutch.
Love from another Renegade. ❤🎉❤🎉
I'm normally woken up at 4:44 here lately 🤯 not sure what's going on with that. Thank you again for watching! Loving the feedback ☺️ much love RENEGADE family. ❤️
Crutch perfectly captures the beauty and devastation that is love.
Thank you for sharing so much with us, and for your thoughtful and compassionate reaction to this. I've wanted you to see the video ever since first seeing the still for your film, which is so reminiscent of the beginning. You and Ren see powerful emotive moments in the same places. ❤
I'm still in shock at just the synchronicities alone! I actually had a dream that I met REN and we collaborateed on my film 🎬 It felt so real!
Thank you for watching ☺️ and taking the time to chat with me in the comment section. I appreciate the support and feedback ❤️
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Thank you man
Thank you
Crutch always gets to me! love it....... Thanks
Thank you for tuning in! I really enjoyed this one very much 🍿💔
Synchronicity means you're on the correct path ❤. Thanks for allowing us to see your vulnerability through these reactions... it definitely helps us all feel like we're not alone.
Thank you for reaching out! I always enjoy having these deep conversations with you all. If I can help at least one person out there, I know the Universe has put me on the correct path ☺️ then Ive done my job. I appreciate you
Thank you for this reaction! I know you appreciate different and creative forms of storytelling. Try the Big Push's, Ren's former band, Oh My Woman! Two hands tell an entire story. Ren is the director, videographer and I think shows how his brain is so truly cinematically wired.
I do have Big Push on my upcoming reactions 💯 thank you for the recommendation! I look forward to checking it out soon. Thank you for watching ☺️
Fantastic reaction to this! One of the best I've seen, I love how you are so respecful towards the artist (and his fans). The song is truly heartbreaking and horrifying. To feel your mind and body slowly die, with no answers to why, at such a young age. Jesus Christ, that is frightening.
Many hugs to you Jesse, when sharing your own struggles you become a beacon of light. It creates a bond with people. Beautiful intro, as always.
Yes very heartbreaking 💔 but also it shows growth/love/compassion. It shows the true nature of our minds during their breaking point. That we can only Crutch on a memory for so long before we have to eventually start walking on our own
REN, myself and others out there show that we are all capable of getting back up. Especially when we stand together, we can do great things! ❤️☺️
Thank you for watching and reaching out. I hope you and yours have a great rest of your weekend. 🍿
This is a beautiful pre message. I recently had somebody say that, instead of saying hurt people, hurt people. You should be saying healed people heal people. And that’s what you’re doing by sharing your message so thank you. Since Covid, I’ve been diagnosed with several autoimmune diseases which keep me in my bed a lot. But luckily, I found reaction channels and the whole community people that have helped me through this situation. I went from a working mother of 5 and a high paid business position. To spending probably 20 hours a day in bed. I also hope to be a beacon of light. And show that even though my life harder than it’s ever been, my happiness depends on me. I thought I already knew that, but as it turns out, sometimes you gotta go through the trenches to learn the real stuff. Anyway, hope you’re having a great day. Love your content. Keep being a beacon of light and I’ll keep watching. Thank you ps love this video. Feel like I can really understand this song
Yes I believe we spoke last time ❤️ you still have my spiritual support through God and the Universe 🙌 you can definitely count on me making more reaction videos! I not only do this for my therapy, but for others like you my friend ☺️ please take care of yourself and drop in time to time when you are well and able to. I appreciate you sharing your life story with me and others. It's because of your strength/courage that helps others keep fighting!you will be in my prayers tonight. 👏
This video took me several tries before I could finish it upon my first encounter. It hits hard at the core. You did well to be vulnerable yet analytical enough to bring both viewpoints to the reaction.
Reading that description afterwards in such an empathetic tone is the most sensitive reaction to this difficult but epic piece of art. And your closing comments are beautiful.
Best of hope and peace for your future days.
I'm right there with you, this one hurt me to watch...the entire time I kept reflecting on my pain/struggles with similar situations I've had in the past with relationships. I had to hold myself together so that I could articulate to my audience my thoughts ❤️
Thank you for reaching out and showing support. Best wishes to you and yours from Texas ☺️
@@Cinematic_Jesse ❤️
Thank you for this excellent reaction. Ren seems to be helping you and I think that is the greatest gift of his music. He is a beacon of hope along with a lyrical and musical genius. Looking forward to your next reaction.
Him along with others have helped me so much! Music has and always will be my remedy for hard times. Thank you for watching and for the kind words 😊
Hope to see you on the next one
Love this one so much! It's powerful, heartbreaking, courageous, honest and visually stunning! Thr lyrics are pure and relatable! The fear Ren portrays is so real and agonizing because when you are in a state of mental, emotional and physical turmoil, you feel like you are alone and no one understands what you are going through! A crutch is only temporary and in the end you have to stand on your own two feet! Thank you for reacting to this amazing song and for your input on a personal level! And yes, very interesting that Ren's location looks exactly like yours in your film! I'm loving your Ren journey 🎉❤
I couldn't have said it better myself ❤️ this one was truly a rollercoaster of emotions! My body honestly went numb after I was done watching, my mind kept wondering and going back to all those times I was left on the ground...not getting up. Basically being left behind. We go through so much individually and it's heartbreaking to visually see this representation on screen, REN is a true master at his craft for capturing the human vulnerabilities.
Yes a Crutch is temporary and we must eventually learn to stand on our own eventually...we learn to move forward ☺️
Thank you for watching and reaching out with such moving insight. ❤️
Thank for your heart felt to this sad, beautiful song. 💜😊💜
Beautiful reaction dear , and keep going you can do this ❤ have you seen patience the song he did . I listen to it lots and it makes me fight to keep going ❤
I've not seen it but I will add it to my upcoming reaction playlist ☺️ I appreciate you reaching out. Enjoy the rest of your weekend. ❤️
❤ #ren
Only at the intro & in tear's! Needed to hear that after trying to take myself out 4 time's in past week but reached out for help ❤ still going through it now but don't feel so alone now ❤ sending love 💕
I am here for you....we are here for you. ❤️ You are not alone my friend! You belong here...you are loved. I will have you in my prayers tonight 👏 God bless you
We love you brother ❤❤❤ A beautiful community and following Ren has!! Changing lives worldwide 😇🙏🙏🇬🇧🇺🇸💙
Much love and respect to you all ☺️
LOVE is Ren's biggest message in most of his songs, that and courage... Especially in difficult times.
AND... I love YOU and the heart you show in this reaction. Can't wait to watch more!! I'm a forever subscriber now!
I appreciate you! Love is needed now more than ever. Thank you for being here with us ☺️
Much love from Texas
Jesse , I am so happy and glad you are here. I love your reactions, thoughts and comments. Love, Light and Prayers 🙏🏻.
Ren has touched so many people including myself.
God bless you! I'm humbled to be here with you all. Only good vibes and good intentions to you and yours ❤️ thank you for watching ☺️
ty for being the great man your are. we are not our past we are who we strive to become
Wise words...I love it! Thank you for being here with us. Keep sharing this love with the rest of the world. Much love from Texas ❤️
Loved your reaction. Welcome to the RENegades ❤ thank you for your loving words.
Thank you for having me fellow Renegade family ☺️
Another wonderful reaction, thank you. Keep doing you, and stay gold yourself ❤
Always my friend! Thank you for watching. Take care of yourself. God bless ❤️
Many of us saw your picture for your own film and immediately recognized the similarity to Ren's Crutch - beautiful, right?!
You had me when you said:
Ren.. maybe if I move...
and for me it was: maybe if I don't move...
That's exactly how I felt too!
Ren's music brings so many people together and creates awareness of how we treat others but also how we treat ourselves, which is so phenomenal.
That was a warm, respectful and perceptive reaction to this video.👏👏👏
Jesse, all the best to you and
have a great day!
❤️greetings from Germany👍🤝🙋♀️
The synchronicities are just blowing my mind right now! When I made that post and you all reached out telling me this, i believe the Universe is trying to tell me something. I guess we will find out all in due time. . .
And to go off your response to my comment in the video, I've always told myself if I just sit here paralyzed, maybe my troubles will just move on but I found out real quick that this is not the case. They are still right there, I knew I had to get up eventually and face them. Been fighting back ever since ❤️
Thank you for watching! I appreciate the positive response ☺️
Much love from Texas
@@Cinematic_Jesse Keep fighting, it's worth it (I'm still in the process too).
I’ll always be happy to come back to your channel 🤝🫶
Thank you Jesse. We understand struggles. We are here. Thank you.
Thank you! The same goes to you all. I'm here for you as well! We got this 💪
Thank you for sharing such a beautiful reaction with us!
It was my pleasure ☺️ thank you for being here with me!
This one gets me visually because he was so fricking young- audibly it's the segment after Bibi because that discordant nails on a chalkboard scream is what it feels like inside my head when it all goes to crap. That f*ing helpless place where the cacophony and chaos is inside and you just can't move and you can't make it go away. Take care down there
I know the feeling my friend...the chaos that runs wild inside and physically you aren't moving at all. It's like you are falling down but in reality your just standing still. Much love from Texas
@@Cinematic_Jesse You mentioned you were a bit of a metal head back in the day- if you haven't seen it check out Disturbeds A Reason to Fight - official live video ... the 2019 3 million view one. Just for yourself I'm not suggesting a reaction unless you really want to. Cheers from Colorado
Actually truth be told I'm still kind of a metal head. I love me some Disturbed...I actually have some videos Ive been wanting to react to. Thank you for the recommendations 🍿
@@Cinematic_Jesse Well shoot then - look at some of the cool collaborations that Lzzy Hale (Halestorm) has done (The Hu 'Heart of a Woman' - Lindsey Sterling 'Shatter Me' - David Draiman/Device 'Close My Eyes Forever' - Chris Daughtry 'Separate Ways (Worlds Apart) ) just because they are different and I've not seen them done a whole lot. -- and if you've not listened to it - another Linkin Park archive track is 'Lost' that released last year. (LP, Halestorm, Disturbed, NiN and now Ren are my constant go to soundtrack) Take care and fuss the gorgeous little pupper!
Just goes to show that Ren has been a musical genius long before we knew him
You always give such insightful reactions, not only from your cinematographical pov, but from your own personal experiences. Thank you for continuing to share both. 😊💕
It's hard to stay on task during these reactions...I really try my hardest to give you all my thoughts. REN pulled on my heart strings with this one 💔 but I'm glad to share this moment with you all. ☺️ Thank you for watching! See you all soon 🎬
Only positive vibes and prayers to & for you! 💔❤️🩹♥️💞
God bless you my friend ☺️
My interpretation of the ending is that the people who are with you are important source of strength, but at the end of the day your struggles are yours alone and it’s on you to surpass them.
Wonderful reaction. Thank you ❤
Very well said! I was thinking the same thing....a Crutch is just temporary hold but it's up to us to push forward and carry on. ❤️ Thank you for reaching out and checking out the video. Much love from Texas
"Do you believe" is an amazing song as well. Love your thoughtful reactions. Its obvious youre a talented producer.
I'll add it to my list! I appreciate the kind words 😊 I absolutely enjoyed this but man was it gut wrenching 💔
You're very talented Jesse. You're young so don't give up. For Ren there was NO OTHER OPTION. He had ONE JOB that he got fired from. Busking, shows, etc so hang in there. You'll get there.
I always wonder what Ren & his ex gf Bibi think nowadays because Ren is in better health & his music has become successful. There’s probably plenty of second guessing & it will be there for life. I know how sickness affects a relationship, I’ve been there. My wife passed two years ago very suddenly. I’ve struggled with loneliness & the survivors guilt. One thing I’ve learned about myself is taking people for granted. I got professional help & I forgave myself. I am in the light now…but there are still dark shadows.
I'm sorry to hear about your wifes passing ❤️ I've never been married but I can only imagine what it feels to lose your lifes partner. That love is still there so hold onto it my friend. Life can be so mysterious at times...it can hurt and sometimes be a beautiful place all at the same time. We are here momentarily....then gone the next. I am humbled to be speaking to you brother. It's never an easy road to forgiving ourselves but it's a necessary one to keep moving forward for those that are here for us. I took people and situations for granted. . . But I'm thankful that I could fix my mistakes by acknowledging that I was in the wrong and that's ok my friend. One day at a time . . .
God bless
Great reaction
But yeah, chat sometime. Watching you is like watching myself. And who better to carry on a liivid conversational
Love your reactions Jesse ❤ And yes, when you showed that still for your upcoming film during a previous Ren video, I immediately thought of Crutch. I can't remember if i suggested it or voted something but that was definitely what spurred me to think you should do it. Poor Ren in this video was already very underweight and clearly suffering so much. Tbh it feels like the 'not knowing' what was wrong was making everything so much worse. Of course taking anti depressants and anti psychotics for years instead of actual treatment for Lyme's Disease wasn't helping! Im just so glad Ren has such resilience and the amazing ability to express himself and uses that give others a voice we wouldn't normally hear.
For your next Ren video may I suggest something a bit more fun; Losing It is a retake of an EDM song that originally just had the titles words only as the lyrics. Needless to say Ren's 'rendition' is a bit more complex 😅 That and the fact it's filmed with a fish eye lens in it's entirety makes it a very interesting watch.
I would love to take the opportunity to introduce you to a different artist. She is a Spanish artist called Rosalía. She is currently more known nowadays for her more latin style music but her earlier work was incredible and so original! You would love her visuals, they're like little works of art. Like Ren, Rosalía is a very intelligent artist, able to write, compose and produce her own music and play various instruments. Her album El Mal Querer was written as her final year project at Uni and it won her a Grammy. She did it on a laptop with a the help of her friend. The album is in the style of a book, with each song a chapter and tells the story of a young lady who is seduced by a man and marries him despite having a bad feeling about him. If you do check her out, please start with Malamente (Badly). She uses so much symbolism in her videos that you could write an essay about it. It helps if you understand Spanish but regardless, I think you will appreciate the filmography.
Here's the link: ua-cam.com/video/Rht7rBHuXW8/v-deo.htmlsi=ZjJnvFRRF2Cka3Ce
Sorry for the lengthy comment. 😅
You sure did reference my still looking similar to RENS crutch video!!! 🤯 Wow this just keeps getting stranger and stranger! Not to mention I was compelled to reach out to him about scoring a single track for that very film.
I'm all about synchronicity! Wouldn't that be something if he actually reached back out to work with me. It would honestly be thanks to you all for placing me in front of him. 🙌
I'm really glad he was able to figure out what was going on with his health. He's definitely a fighter!
Mine was on the mental illness side mainly but I finally got the help I needed to heal my broken mind. So I checked out your recommended artist Rosalia...I saved the video to my upcoming reaction playlist! Might I add she is very beautiful ❤️ and I cannot wait to check out the video. I actually understand Spanish more than I can speak it lol
And no worries about the lengthy comment! I always enjoy talking with you all here in the comments 😊
Thank you for watching and for the recommendation!
I'm honoured you will be checking her out upon my request! Thank you ❤ Just a side note. At the end of the video you will see a man dressed in purple robes. He is not representing a KKK member, so don't worry, there are no racist connotations. For over 400 years Spain celebrates Easter with parades and among them walk the penitent who are dressed in these robes. In Rosalía's video they represent someone with conservative views which is in opposition to what he seems (a cool guy on a skateboard). She's just trying to say that he seemed one thing but was another.
YES YES YES. I was watching one of your other reactions with the still from your film. I immediately thought that it reminded me of Crutch. Here I am watching it and you put the still up. And YES, I do believe very strongly in synchronicities. It annoys me when people comment about pausing and commentary… if they don’t like it, they shouldn’t watch reactions. You bring something special. Keep going 💜💜💜💜💜💜
An amazing intro, my friend, and an amazing reaction. Thank you!
You are a warrior of light. We need such people in this world. Keep on keeping on, brother!
We need others out there like you as well! To keep spreading that truth of Love and acceptance! Stay strong brother 💪 God bless you and yours
Such a powerful video and song! Love it so much!
Thank you for watching
This is such an amazingly powerful song!
I loved every second of it! Although heartbreaking...we all have to face some sort of pain throughout our time here 😔 but eventually we get through it. We are stronger from it.
What a stunning introduction. You are so special. So glad you are here, being vulnerable and transparent and being a light for others. Keep going my friend. Your life matters and you are making a positive impact in the lives of others. Every time we share out struggles we become a vehicle of hope for others. Much love mate ❤
Great intro. Great message. I wish you continued success in the journey.
If you find out the story behind what happened to him at age 19. The health problems physical and mental were due to misdiagnosis resulting in Ren not getting the appropriate treatment for the actual disease he had. In Hi Ren you get a picture of some of the battles occurring for him during this process
I've heard from many of his fans about his misdiagnosis 😔 thats such a tragedy especially at that age. But I'm glad they were able to figure it out. Now he can be treated accurately! Thank you for watching
Loved your intro. So raw. Sending love ❤️
Wow! Your still of They Still Linger, and Crutch are so telling. I too, have been where you were, where Ren is/was. I have been battling an unknown illness for over a year now. Its taken over my life, and I'm desperate for answers. Not giving up.
I agree...at the end: Naked and alone.
Wonderful insightful reaction, Jesse. High quality. Take care.
Thank you friend 😊 same goes to you and yours!
Music heals so many wounds. Music is therapy in so many ways. Synchronicities mean you are on the right path. This was at the height of his psychosis. You can see how thin he is. This is right before he got the correct diagnosis. After his first psychotic episode. Recommend you watch Patience | Ren Gill | M.E. which is from the documentary "Unrest" about Chronic Fatigue Syndrome where Ren features as a story. On the streaming services its listed as by Bear McCreary and Ren, Bear did the soundtrack for Unrest. That video is so powerful and helped get him the correct diagnosis. She helped him to get back on his feet. Bibi, the only collaborator that Ren has slept with. She wasn't a singer until this video. She had to exit for her own mental health. She started the go fund me.
I knew you would appreciate this for what it is. The cinematography is spectacular and the song is so powerful. Thank you for reacting to this 💜💜
My heart was pounding at the end when she disappeared 😭 I knew this feeling all too well. Thank you for watching
Thank you💕👍🦇
Thank you for this reaction. I really like this song, but I rarely watch it because I always cry. But you are a good reactor and I really liked it.
Thank you for watching! I agree, this is a powerful video but has a deeper message behind it.
@@Cinematic_Jesse The most important question for me here is always whether I can be a crutch for someone, and I don't know the answer. Sure for my child, but for others?
Yes, definitely synchronicity. Been happening ever since i started listening to Ren and friends. Sometimes downright strange. Love your content!!
The Universe is a strange/mysterious but I wouldn't have it any other way! I'm a firm believer in going with the direction the wind takes me. But that's just me....it's worked so far. ☺️ Thank you for watching 🍿 have a great rest of your weekend!
Proud to be a Renegade 🖤
Outstanding Jesse!!!
I'm truly humbled ☺️ thank you for watching.
Man, there are so so many Ren tracks in the future, from light to dark…. Many and honestly your not going to watch any and be disappointed, I’m so glad you are on this journey
Can I say…. If you want to see something not music but just from Rens heart (which I know all his music is) then watch his 1 million subscribers YT vid, and see a man that doesn’t have to answer to any record label or financial entity, REN is a once in a generation artist….. just my opinion 😅
I've added it to my upcoming reaction playlist 🎬 I look forward to watching it soon! I keep hearing great things ☺️
Thank you for the recommendation
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8:25 🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯
Crazy right?! Then what's really insane is that I've gravitated to reaching out to him about collaboration on my film scoring 🎬 🤯 that would be out of this world if that happened
that would be an epic collaboration! And yeah it’s crazy, I guess faith sometimes leads us to gravitate to people with the same energy
Couldn't agree more! Kind of the same way I've gravitated to this amazing community ❤️
Heartfelt reaction ❤ Thank u for being so gentle with this one. And I love that u had a similar shot and picked up on it in Ren's video. Synchronicity ❤
I believe the universe provides for us and there are no coincidences as far as receiving messages when we need them. Take care out there and love yourselves 🤗
The Universe speaks volumes 😊 crazy how things work out. Thank you for watching. 🍿 Take care and God bless you ❤️
Love you sir 🫡❤❤🇬🇧🇺🇸🇬🇧🇺🇸🙏🙏🙏 a fan across the pond 🇬🇧🙏🙏🫶🏻🫶🏻
Much love to you as well ☺️