This isn’t a joke for people who have to deal with. It’s hard to explain to people who don’t deal with it. Love ya’s as always... You can go right here and stream or buy the album 👇🏻👇🏻 onerpm.lnk.to/BillyGOAT Or I’ll be posting every song on here, so you can listen to it right here🤘🏻🇺🇸
@@kicknit3935 sold out as in basically gave up there rights to do or say anything by selling out to a record company. Merk, church, demon jones, tom MacDonald, and adam all made it on there own. They didnt need someone to promote them and they didnt wanna answer to anyone about what they can do or say. If they wanna make a diss track they can and aint shit no one can do about it.
I live with anxiety, depression, and PTSD. It never goes away. I first time I was rushed to hospital I thought my heart was going to explode. Hours of testing to find out it was anxiety attack. Triggers there isn’t enough space to write it all down. Everyone handles it differently. My son smokes weed. Others drink and mix different cocktails of meds together. Staying in your head is the most dangerous place to be. This quarantine I know has to be affecting everyone with any type of mental stresses! Due to sensitivity to medication I can’t take most prescribed meds. Wish I could on very bad days. Thank you Adam
The devil Made me say it Fuck off man! You don’t have anything nice to say then just shut the hell up! Nowhere did she say SHE did any drugs! She said her son smokes weed (which is legal in a lot of states) and that OTHERS make a cocktail of pills and alcohol. She said SHE gets lost in her head....meaning she fights it within herself with no drugs! Damn some people are such assholes.....
fiesty redhead19 Girl hang in there! We’re all dealing the best way we can with all that’s going on in the world right now. Sending you so much love and light and letting you know you’re not alone ♥️
Lol let's jump on calling people going through depression, anxiety, and PTSD as druggies. I suffer from all 3 too and that's what many people are seen as that have it. Like Adam said in his comment unless you know what it's like you don't know how it feels. It is utter hopelessness and feeling of being vulnerable. It really takes trolls to say that lmfao just cracked me up.
I served my country ended up with some "issues" smoking makes it bearable but in true American fashion what's legal in one place will get you a record in another. It's legal to kill a born child in some states but can't smoke weed in others WTF? You can take pills or drink all day but to smoke weed you have to pay the state and have a "license" and pay outrageous taxes but big pharma is free to do as they please. Welcome to America.
As a person who has dealt with this over 10 years and just got diagnosed with PTSD/anxiety/depression this song really hits home. Music is the key that can help relax the mind this song will go as my number 1 to ease my mind. Thank you bro. Keep it up. It's a daily struggle and not everyone will understand or know.
I love Adam Calhoun and know I am not the only one! I am a nurse and deal with psych patients. Psych patients are difficult to deal with. I can only imagine how difficult it must be to be the one struggling with mental illness. My heart and prays go out to you, Adam.
I have bi-polar and manic depression as well I know the pain I can be up one second the next I am so down it feels like I could just die I cant afford the meds because my job dont offer insurance to part time employees which sucks so I use music
@Mark Stein is it a competition? Some people handle things differently and yes every day is a struggle for ME! So you cope with your illness in your way and I'll cope with mine. Didnt realize commenting on a fucking video and showing support for others with mental illness, would cause me to be talked about in the way people are talking about me on here. You dont know me and you definitely dont know how my mental illness effects me.
@@flashbamf0771984 yes it does!! I can't stop taking them because i have horrible PTSD and anger issues. Hopefully one day I'll be able to sit them down...
@@kimking72 same here. People dont understand OUR invisible enemy is ourselves and our experiences. I pray WE dont need them one day in the future.. but I've got anger issues too and it either pop a pill or hide or fight.. I got SICK of hiding.. clonazepam HELPS and it don't fuck you up like xanax. And I would rather take it than paxil which was my other script for over 5years.
Former paramilitary guard here, PTSD as well! I'm sure millions suffer from this Just in our country alone. None of us are alone but seems that way sometimes. "If I don't take my pills I ain't going to feel right" same brother!
Be careful my brother...feels funny saying this. Cause I've fought so my times with cops. Now!!! Cops I respect!!!! I've been tased.. maced...hit. but everytime I deserve it. No matter what they ask I do. I have had zero trouble with law enforcement. Matter of fact.....they no longer bother me.
“I let things build up And I don't know how to let shit go I guess I'll let it go till it explodes My minds fucked up, I lost control Lines get crossed like electrical Probably something wrong with my mental I never thought I'd let it come and get my soul I'm too far gone, never come back home” 28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” Matthew 11 28-30
Acal you the man but hold up...how bout stop doing fuckin drugs mark! When I was 20 I had been fucking with bullshit meth for like 4 years already...I got my angel of a wife(gf at the time) pregnant and said:”I’m never gonna be a fuckin spun out loser of a dad”....never touched the shit again. Just call it. Find a reason, swear a fuckin blood oath to god and fuckin stick to it.
I just found this song and it speaks to me on every level. Alot of his songs I can relate too. But this one hits the nail right on the head. I struggle with anxiety panic disorder PTSD and manic depression. I take klonopin 3 times a day just to be normal and have a functional normal life along with xanax and lexapro. It's something that's not curable and you will always have it in your life no matter what. Doesn't make you a bad person it's just an invisible sickness that people can't see from the outside. Wish people understood the pain battling with your own head everyday. You can't escape yourself.
I feel u brother! I've had panic disorder my whole life! It doesn't go away ever! U just have to deal with it.makes everything u do in hard even everyday simply thing u do everyday! It's not easy! Just lost my dad 3 mths ago. I didn't just lose my dad I lost my best friend. He was a great person and loved his country and fought for are freedom in vietnam! Miss u dad! Keep ur going adam ur helping a lot of people throughout hard times! Ur making a difference!
So am i. 3 1mg a day for the last 10 years. I get embarrassed to say it but it was it is. Sht works for me. Lets me function during the day without i dunno what id do
@Peekaboocrew When I first got prescribed them my doc at the time quit taking my insurance and I couldn't afford out of pocket long story short I cold turkeyed off of them. And went a year without them it was rough but I eventually brokedown and had to be put back on them shit sucks man.
You, Jellyroll and Upchurch is all I’ve been listening to! Keep making REAL music and I’ll will continue to support! God bless you sir and God bless America
@@MemphisFilkins10 Yeah madchild upchurch adam calhoun tom macdonald jellyroll and joyner also yellawolf i like the mid 80's to mid 90's rap and hip hop when the industry had real artists. Major metalhead too
So true and So touching.. So many times I have swerved to that other lane.. Forcing myself to stop and take that walk in the woods to go sit against that tree and fight demons only the ones who been there know about.. This is in my top 3 A-Cal songs.. Touching and True.. Thanks From the 616 -- GR MICH
I dont think ive ever related to a song so much in my entire life this shit brought back old memories it also spoke to my heart growing up without a dad an a mom that had to raise 2 kids by herself an growing up this way built that anger it built that outlaw attitude Adam you aint alone out here skin keep your head up an voice your life voice your opinion fuck what everyone else says period 💯🙏
I use to be on a lot of drugs. Some prescription. Some not. Joined the delayed entry program for the Marines on 9/11. Trained till my 18th birthday. When I left for Paris Island. Always a smaller built guy. Always pushed myself more and more. Ended up hurting myself right out of boot camp. Put on drugs. Couldn't get a waiver to stay in. Got an honorable medical discharge. And no help. Took to the streets. Drugs. Only illegal thing I did was street racing for money. Now 33. If it wasn't for finding my wife when I did. I wouldn't be here. 9 years clean. Hard to even take something prescribed to me. This song is so powerful. Thank you for the fire tracks. They help people in so many ways. Keep the fire tracks coming.
I have to take a bunch of those, for seizures. Never had anxiety until i started having seizures from head trauma. All that shit is related. Another banger song.
@@ASH12781 Yep, those and bikes got me. Dumping 4 wheelers with no helmets. I haven't been the same since the first seizure, they cause head trauma too, concussions. Ive had abt 20-25 bad ones. My head is fucked. I have no memory at all from day to day.
I listen to this song at least 2/3 times a week. It’s almost a ritual. I know I’m not alone with this PTSD ish. You put the feeling soooooooo well into words bro !!!!! Keep doing the DAMN THING 💯. You got a fan for life brotha. 💯. Hopefully one day we can get record something !!! ☝️
I'm just now hearing this song, but it really spoke to me. I'm a combat veteran, and I struggle with anxiety due to PTSD. The pills I was given messed me up more, though. I spent the better part of a month crying uncontrollably until my youngest son said he was worried because I cried so much, and he was 9. They took me off the meds and put me on something different but I just never took them because I wasn't going to chance it. What sucks more is that while my husband, also a combat veteran, wasn't asked to prove what happened to give him PTSD, the VA wants me to prove it. It sucks but I keep it together for my kids on a daily basis. There's enough going on with my degenerative disc disease and migraines. I just wish I wasn't so broken for their sake. Listening to your music and a few others really helps.
I will never understand how this song isn’t platinum?! 🤯 maybe I just think that cuz I relate to this song so much. All I know is this song is amazing.
YEEZY POLICE , YOU ARE EXACTLY RIGHT EVERY SONG FROM JUST HOLD ON , WHITEBOYZ , WILL BE PLATINUM SOON ADAM IS A GENIUS AND ALL OF HIS ARTIST TOO FROM JELLY ROLL FALL IN THE FALL, AND LIFE, TOO BRODNAX STAY DOWN WE JUST ALL OF THEM WE ALL WITNESSING TO LEGENDS IN MAKING JUST INSTANT MEDICINE NOW AND LATER ADAM LYRICS IS SO DEEP
Adam my beloved Son;Joseph sent me the down load;and I throughly.,enjoyed it.Plus connected to it,as well.I use Cannabis and no prescription meds for my BI polar on”ptsd and have sleep apnea BI cardiac disorder and was 33 then,now 64..He’s 45 married and happy.Proud of you both.Sincerely,Melinda REINKE
I love this song. It's hard for people to understand when they can't go through. I suffer from mental illness and this song hit my heart. Love from MD!
PLEASE NEVER STOP SINGING ADAM.. ever since I heard you the first time I've NEVER stopped you brought me back to listening to REAL music again. Thank you. #therealGOAT
I can't tell you how many times I've listened to this song. In less than 8 hours it will be one week from the day that my dad died. I've listened to this song a lot more this week. I don't have meds to help me with any of the things going on in my head. I have a GREAT fiance and 2 children 17 and almost 2 and if it wasn't for them and the music that you guys put out there I know for a fact that I would have been the next one that the family had to bury because I would have been gone last Saturday morning right after I got that call. I know that I am not ok and I am trying to keep in mind that I will be at least partially ok again one day but damn it's hard. This is by far the hardest thing I have ever been through and I didn't think anything could ever hurt this bad. I live with headaches, arthritis and back pain among other pains and the entire first 3 or 4 days I didn't really feel it all I have just been numb af and now all the pain is back and worse.
I live with anxiety and depression everyday.. and working EMS has definitely too some extent have given me PTSD after my first two pediatric deaths.. I get some days where I’m pissed off for no reason and try too lay down and nap and have nightmares and very few people can talk too me when I get that way. Thank you Adam for this awesome song It helps me relax so much
brother, as a vet it took years to admit how I felt. there have been those days when you can't break out of the darkness, but God has blessed me with a good wife that tries to keep me above water. It's an everyday battle but you gotta look to the next day for strength no matter where that comes from.
When men talk about their broken homes without a father. Y'all have me in overtime making sure my boy knows he's loved by the rest of the family and God. He's 8 and only knows him by a couple pictures and 2 online chats. He ran to another state when I was pregnant.
Didn't meet my dad till I was 12. He's was around for a year. Would of been better if I've never meet him. If he runs once he will run again. Surround him by good people. Your son isn't missing nothing
@@csalas9694 my boys father has a hair trigger temper. I didn't bow down to that's why he left. If he did want to see his son I wouldn't trust him alone with him anyway. He turned out to be a jeckle and Hyde personally.
My favorite from Mr. Colhoun. He gets it. I also have anxiety/panic attacks. I suffer from these afflictions but will not play victim! You inspire me Adam
I've been saying this for years, I am tired of shouldering the weight simply by being cis and white. I'm done apologizing for my Irish heritage. I'm a proud 🍀 woman!
No Irish has anything to apologize for on that score. We were nearly wiped out, our population reduced to less than 10,000 world wide. The only reason we survived was because the architect of our genocide, Oliver Crombwell had us drug across the world as forced labor. As the english lost territory we were left behind and free to repopulate.
Y'all bitchin about she wrong or this and that I'm Irish and polish. And a female. And I grew up in Vegas. Talk about struggling. God bless and sending love and respect from the WESTSIDE 702 & 775
The wife and I suffer from anxiety, I can only afford her medication so I find other ways to cope but I couldn’t do it without her. I am my own worst enemy
I spent 14 years locked up and I see a mental health specialist who told me I have PTSD from being locked up!! I get anxious and stressed and I get aggressive so I’m on two different meds to keep me level. I’m white so I guess I’m supposed to have some privilege but all I ever saw was my dad working from can’t see to can’t see 7 days a week on someone else’s farm to provide for his family. Your music speaks to me and I like what you got to say.
Adam, I have followed you for years and constantly feel inspired by you, but this song, I felt this in my soul. Mental Health is a dangerous thing our society ignores and I'm thankful you were so willing to open your heart to help those of us that have mental health issues. Thank you ❤ Much love from Central California
Man Adam you killed it with this track that was my life in 4 min keep doing you when this bs ends can't wait to see where your tour is so I can figure out how far I'm driving
Clinical depression and anxiety made far worse by chronic Lyme disease. Some days it's only God who stops me from taking a long walk off a short pier. Just had stop self-medicating with alcohol because I have a serious problem. This helps.
0:18 send COVID ADAM CALHOUN'S way, Adam kills everything he touches. Homeboy would end covid just like "that"!! Congratulations on all of your success. It is well deserved my brother. Thank you.
As a Army Veteran who suffers from PTSD and went to jail after for self medicating. Who comes from a family that went through a lot and grew up pretty poor. I feel this song so deep in my soul...I'm gonna be banging this the rest of the day.
One thing is for sure. When we are young and think we know it all. Peer pressure is something. I use to think poppin pills and drinking smoking and going to clubs was my cure for my depression. Hell I even drunk lean. Until I realized I have kids that depend on me now and I have family and house hold. Left the game changed my ways but it built me into the man I am today. My dad suffers from a chemical imbalance and pops pills like candy and drinks like a horse. Hes 53 but it looks like he is 70. Depression is real. Sometimes we say fuck it and drift off with out caring. What I'm saying is you can become someone your not proud of or you can stand up be a man and fucking put your set up and go out swinging against your demons. You can beat them. Have faith. Can't never could cant never will. 💯💯💯🤜🤛
@Kidd Rebel yup then they die of o.d or get they ass killed over materialistics. 80 percent of these guys put on for the camera. And are fake as barbie dolls ass.
This is hands down the best song out there. Love all your music. You are an inspiration to me and believe it or not you have definitely helped me from going back to prison! I appreciate all that you do for us!
@@Been25510 So upchurch just gave him some skills dumbass? Did you really even listen to the Hooligan CD when its easier to compare? So glad Upchurch kept the war paint on my ding ding line to himself and gave all Adam the actual skills. That actually would explain why Upchurch has changed and fallen off lately. I don't hate Upchurch.....I support both but just because you don't understand the lyrics, you imagine that upchurch is better? Clearly you need some Q-Tips for your ears. Also don't troll Adams songs just because you know in your heart that he is better and you hate it because Upchurch is your boy. We're MEN over here.
Thanks Adam. I have been on Klonopin for 25 years. Couldnt function without it; now that i am terminally ill i need it even more. Ppl look at me weird i just keep moving on
You may not see this but were not strangers, we're all your friends and we love to see you, I just seen you in Belvidere and that made my entire year just being able to see you live since that's the first concert I've been to In a few years!! We all love you!
Dude man if you only knew how much your songs mean to a lot of people like I love them because you speak nothing but the truth and a lot of your songs Hit me hard like you say exactly what I'm feeling or want to say about every issue in America keep it up bro you rock
This is one of my favorites. I can tell when an artist actually experiences depression and/or anxiety I can always tell when they’re full of shit. This song resonates so deeply with me and I can feel exactly what he’s talking about. Ugh….SUCH a great song! I just wish none of us had to experience this.
Love the music! I can relate to this. There's no advice to give someone with ptsd. You can explain it 1000 times. Unless you face this, you will never know how dark and powerful it actually is. Your music helped me through this, I also hope to beat this.
This isn’t a joke for people who have to deal with. It’s hard to explain to people who don’t deal with it. Love ya’s as always... You can go right here and stream or buy the album 👇🏻👇🏻
onerpm.lnk.to/BillyGOAT
Or I’ll be posting every song on here, so you can listen to it right here🤘🏻🇺🇸
Absolutely no joke!!! Especially when you have an extreme anger problem and PTSD mixed together.. Love your music🐐🐐🐐
Straight🔥🔥 I can relate 💯 anxiety is terrible, keep dropping 🔥 on 🇺🇸
I take them too and Zoloft it is a real struggle every single damn day.
Dude you never disappoint. Love your music. Thank you for sharing your life story through your music and videos.
When this Plague shit is over bro ya gotta hit us off with a tour. Come through Roanoke VA!!!🔌🙏🔥🔥🔥
Upchurch and Adam Calhoun are legends for the simple fact that they keep it real and never sell out
Add NF to that list
What does it mean to "sell out" cuz I been to 2 of Adam's shows that were sold out?!
@@keiththiering8871 what has nf done?
Cant forget demun jones
@@kicknit3935 sold out as in basically gave up there rights to do or say anything by selling out to a record company. Merk, church, demon jones, tom MacDonald, and adam all made it on there own. They didnt need someone to promote them and they didnt wanna answer to anyone about what they can do or say. If they wanna make a diss track they can and aint shit no one can do about it.
I live with anxiety, depression, and PTSD. It never goes away. I first time I was rushed to hospital I thought my heart was going to explode. Hours of testing to find out it was anxiety attack. Triggers there isn’t enough space to write it all down. Everyone handles it differently. My son smokes weed. Others drink and mix different cocktails of meds together. Staying in your head is the most dangerous place to be. This quarantine I know has to be affecting everyone with any type of mental stresses! Due to sensitivity to medication I can’t take most prescribed meds. Wish I could on very bad days. Thank you Adam
The devil Made me say it Fuck off man! You don’t have anything nice to say then just shut the hell up! Nowhere did she say SHE did any drugs! She said her son smokes weed (which is legal in a lot of states) and that OTHERS make a cocktail of pills and alcohol. She said SHE gets lost in her head....meaning she fights it within herself with no drugs! Damn some people are such assholes.....
fiesty redhead19 Girl hang in there! We’re all dealing the best way we can with all that’s going on in the world right now. Sending you so much love and light and letting you know you’re not alone ♥️
Lol let's jump on calling people going through depression, anxiety, and PTSD as druggies. I suffer from all 3 too and that's what many people are seen as that have it. Like Adam said in his comment unless you know what it's like you don't know how it feels. It is utter hopelessness and feeling of being vulnerable. It really takes trolls to say that lmfao just cracked me up.
@The devil Made me say it the way you troll just shows you're the worst kind of "junkie" out there. You should probably be medicated yourself bubba...
I served my country ended up with some "issues" smoking makes it bearable but in true American fashion what's legal in one place will get you a record in another. It's legal to kill a born child in some states but can't smoke weed in others WTF? You can take pills or drink all day but to smoke weed you have to pay the state and have a "license" and pay outrageous taxes but big pharma is free to do as they please. Welcome to America.
Seeing him today he has learned to live life on life's terms. Thx for your service adam. Then and today.
I suffer PTSD and I don’t take medication for it. I listen to your music on my bad days and it helps. Thank you
CALHOUN FOR PRESIDENT 2024!! 🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸
YEA ALL THE WAY
bailey bryant fuck yea
bailey bryant upchurch first Adam is a fake
Brobro really they both are good Upchurch and Adam are amazing
Eli Fouty I don’t think they compare at all everyone has their opinion tho I don’t think Adam is all that good Mediocre at best
As a person who has dealt with this over 10 years and just got diagnosed with PTSD/anxiety/depression this song really hits home. Music is the key that can help relax the mind this song will go as my number 1 to ease my mind. Thank you bro. Keep it up. It's a daily struggle and not everyone will understand or know.
Man listening to this song was like my life being sung to me
I love Adam Calhoun and know I am not the only one! I am a nurse and deal with psych patients. Psych patients are difficult to deal with. I can only imagine how difficult it must be to be the one struggling with mental illness. My heart and prays go out to you, Adam.
This song speaks volumes to me suffering from anxiety and panic disorder sometimes "klonopin" is the only way I make it through a day!
"You can hear a pin drop when I'm pissed off " 💪🔥🔥🔥💥felt this whole song .❤🇺🇸💪
Same here
Bi-polar II and Manic Deppression. Everyday is a struggle. If you suffer from mental illness, you are not alone!!
Those two are the same thing...so you say this...never been diagnosed...smh
I have bi-polar and manic depression as well I know the pain I can be up one second the next I am so down it feels like I could just die I cant afford the meds because my job dont offer insurance to part time employees which sucks so I use music
I Was Diagnosed At 13 With The Same Shit Girl It Is A Struggle..I Feel This ❤💯💯
@Mark Stein is it a competition? Some people handle things differently and yes every day is a struggle for ME! So you cope with your illness in your way and I'll cope with mine. Didnt realize commenting on a fucking video and showing support for others with mental illness, would cause me to be talked about in the way people are talking about me on here. You dont know me and you definitely dont know how my mental illness effects me.
Manic depression sucks anxiety a MF 💯 we ain't alone!!
Being prescribed these is a love hate relationship. Ruins but also saves my life
I hear ya feel the same... been on it for years...
@The devil Made me say it To all the Trump haters out there.....doesn't it feel GREAT to know he's gonna be our president for another term!😁👍
@@scfinisher1355 they're probably gunna need a Klonopin prescription themselves bahahahahaha
And it's hard to keep up with everything going on when your meds aren't working for you.i just cry alot more now than ever
The devil Made me say it bitch
Im prescribed those 3 times a day for my PTSD, and anger issues... 7 assault charges😳 but then sobriety💪💪
You're my absolute favorite Adam🐐🐐🐐🐐
Kim King I had to stop taking them it sucks living in a dream state
@@flashbamf0771984 yes it does!! I can't stop taking them because i have horrible PTSD and anger issues. Hopefully one day I'll be able to sit them down...
@@kimking72 same here. People dont understand OUR invisible enemy is ourselves and our experiences. I pray WE dont need them one day in the future.. but I've got anger issues too and it either pop a pill or hide or fight.. I got SICK of hiding.. clonazepam HELPS and it don't fuck you up like xanax. And I would rather take it than paxil which was my other script for over 5years.
They are feeding you speed.
@@rusty1491 don't be a weirdo dude..
Calhoun-Upchurch 2024 for president 💪 🇺🇸 😎
I'm a cop with PTSD and I have to take this to help. Thank you for this song. For the people struggling at least we know we aren't alone.
#AMERICA
Do you prefer it to other benzos?
Former paramilitary guard here, PTSD as well! I'm sure millions suffer from this Just in our country alone. None of us are alone but seems that way sometimes. "If I don't take my pills I ain't going to feel right" same brother!
Thanks for your service 🫠
Be careful my brother...feels funny saying this. Cause I've fought so my times with cops. Now!!! Cops I respect!!!! I've been tased.. maced...hit. but everytime I deserve it. No matter what they ask I do. I have had zero trouble with law enforcement. Matter of fact.....they no longer bother me.
Benzodiazepines worsen PTSD.
Always know when he drops something it's going to be fire.
“I let things build up
And I don't know how to let shit go
I guess I'll let it go till it explodes
My minds fucked up, I lost control
Lines get crossed like electrical
Probably something wrong with my mental
I never thought I'd let it come and get my soul
I'm too far gone, never come back home”
28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
Matthew 11 28-30
Amen
Thats a reference to the poppy plant
Amen
#JesusMatters
I’ve struggled with addiction since I was 18 I’m now 38 and I’m still fighting!
mark sgarlata 🙏🏻
Adam Calhoun Thanks man!! Keep on keeping on!!
Keep up the fight
Acal you the man but hold up...how bout stop doing fuckin drugs mark! When I was 20 I had been fucking with bullshit meth for like 4 years already...I got my angel of a wife(gf at the time) pregnant and said:”I’m never gonna be a fuckin spun out loser of a dad”....never touched the shit again. Just call it. Find a reason, swear a fuckin blood oath to god and fuckin stick to it.
Keep moving forward
I just found this song and it speaks to me on every level. Alot of his songs I can relate too. But this one hits the nail right on the head. I struggle with anxiety panic disorder PTSD and manic depression. I take klonopin 3 times a day just to be normal and have a functional normal life along with xanax and lexapro. It's something that's not curable and you will always have it in your life no matter what. Doesn't make you a bad person it's just an invisible sickness that people can't see from the outside. Wish people understood the pain battling with your own head everyday. You can't escape yourself.
I mean drug's and medication are simply inevitable. It's part of our environment and history.
I feel u brother! I've had panic disorder my whole life! It doesn't go away ever! U just have to deal with it.makes everything u do in hard even everyday simply thing u do everyday! It's not easy! Just lost my dad 3 mths ago. I didn't just lose my dad I lost my best friend. He was a great person and loved his country and fought for are freedom in vietnam! Miss u dad! Keep ur going adam ur helping a lot of people throughout hard times! Ur making a difference!
I'm on klonopin and every word every bar hit home. Thank you for this ACAL! I really needed this.
So am i. 3 1mg a day for the last 10 years. I get embarrassed to say it but it was it is. Sht works for me. Lets me function during the day without i dunno what id do
@Peekaboocrew When I first got prescribed them my doc at the time quit taking my insurance and I couldn't afford out of pocket long story short I cold turkeyed off of them. And went a year without them it was rough but I eventually brokedown and had to be put back on them shit sucks man.
@The devil Made me say it You have Trump Derangement Syndrome. lmao. 😂🤣💀
Seriously this song is so amazing I wish his music was everywhere he should be having like 30 million subscribers the guy is a Legend!!
You, Jellyroll and Upchurch is all I’ve been listening to! Keep making REAL music and I’ll will continue to support! God bless you sir and God bless America
Yeah buddy i listen to madchild and tom mcdonald when im listening to the rap music.
Same and joyner only rappers I listen 2
@@MemphisFilkins10 Yeah madchild upchurch adam calhoun tom macdonald jellyroll and joyner also yellawolf i like the mid 80's to mid 90's rap and hip hop when the industry had real artists. Major metalhead too
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So true and So touching.. So many times I have swerved to that other lane.. Forcing myself to stop and take that walk in the woods to go sit against that tree and fight demons only the ones who been there know about.. This is in my top 3 A-Cal songs.. Touching and True.. Thanks From the 616 -- GR MICH
I dont think ive ever related to a song so much in my entire life this shit brought back old memories it also spoke to my heart growing up without a dad an a mom that had to raise 2 kids by herself an growing up this way built that anger it built that outlaw attitude
Adam you aint alone out here skin keep your head up an voice your life voice your opinion fuck what everyone else says period 💯🙏
Fuck ya skin, same here.
Anyone else notice how Adam's recent music has been so personal and deep? I think it's amazing. Some of my favorite tracks from him.
Just want you to know... we all got your back acal!
Nobody has/ever will have mine
@@anthonyattaway7424 I got ya back
@@anthonyattaway7424 I got your back bro. Go easy on yourself. My wife always tells me "Be nice to you."
What's a acal
@@ProudWhiteBoy adam cahoun... acal...
Dealt with this my whole life. You can't feel what he's saying till you actually live it. Preach on brother! It does help us out here to listen.
I use to be on a lot of drugs. Some prescription. Some not. Joined the delayed entry program for the Marines on 9/11. Trained till my 18th birthday. When I left for Paris Island. Always a smaller built guy. Always pushed myself more and more. Ended up hurting myself right out of boot camp. Put on drugs. Couldn't get a waiver to stay in. Got an honorable medical discharge. And no help. Took to the streets. Drugs. Only illegal thing I did was street racing for money. Now 33. If it wasn't for finding my wife when I did. I wouldn't be here. 9 years clean. Hard to even take something prescribed to me. This song is so powerful. Thank you for the fire tracks. They help people in so many ways. Keep the fire tracks coming.
Much Respect from East TN 🇺🇸🦅💯
I have to take a bunch of those, for seizures. Never had anxiety until i started having seizures from head trauma. All that shit is related. Another banger song.
I have the exact same problem seizures from head trauma and now i have really bad anxiety on top of everything got to love car accidents
@@ASH12781 Yep, those and bikes got me. Dumping 4 wheelers with no helmets. I haven't been the same since the first seizure, they cause head trauma too, concussions. Ive had abt 20-25 bad ones. My head is fucked. I have no memory at all from day to day.
Are you in a THC legal state? If so have you looked into THC oil to help with the seizures?
What kind of seizures do you have i have grand mal
@@The85F0X Im in NC, no legal weed here lol. I still smoke though. It's ok for the anxiety and seizures. But is a great pain killer for RA.
Yo Adam man this song speaks volumes, for myself and my wife,
Thanks for putting yourself out there like you do.
I listen to this song at least 2/3 times a week. It’s almost a ritual. I know I’m not alone with this PTSD ish. You put the feeling soooooooo well into words bro !!!!! Keep doing the DAMN THING 💯. You got a fan for life brotha. 💯. Hopefully one day we can get record something !!! ☝️
I'm just now hearing this song, but it really spoke to me. I'm a combat veteran, and I struggle with anxiety due to PTSD. The pills I was given messed me up more, though. I spent the better part of a month crying uncontrollably until my youngest son said he was worried because I cried so much, and he was 9. They took me off the meds and put me on something different but I just never took them because I wasn't going to chance it. What sucks more is that while my husband, also a combat veteran, wasn't asked to prove what happened to give him PTSD, the VA wants me to prove it. It sucks but I keep it together for my kids on a daily basis. There's enough going on with my degenerative disc disease and migraines. I just wish I wasn't so broken for their sake. Listening to your music and a few others really helps.
The Big Homie is Criminally underrated! Salute Adam Calhoun! 💪🫡✌️
Dude, I can relate to this song on so many levels. You're right, it's no joke. Love ya back man! Thanks.
I will never understand how this song isn’t platinum?! 🤯 maybe I just think that cuz I relate to this song so much. All I know is this song is amazing.
Well.....any song that expresses what a white man deals with isn't going to get air play. Liberal media ain't tryna deal with the truth.
YEEZY POLICE , YOU ARE EXACTLY RIGHT EVERY SONG FROM JUST HOLD ON , WHITEBOYZ , WILL BE PLATINUM SOON ADAM IS A GENIUS AND ALL OF HIS ARTIST TOO FROM JELLY ROLL FALL IN THE FALL, AND LIFE, TOO BRODNAX STAY DOWN WE JUST ALL OF THEM WE ALL WITNESSING TO LEGENDS IN MAKING JUST INSTANT MEDICINE NOW AND LATER ADAM LYRICS IS SO DEEP
I'm actually on these too for PTSD bro hope you get some relief and great song dude.
Adam my beloved Son;Joseph sent me the down load;and I throughly.,enjoyed it.Plus connected to it,as well.I use Cannabis and no prescription meds for my BI polar on”ptsd and have sleep apnea BI cardiac disorder and was 33 then,now 64..He’s 45 married and happy.Proud of you both.Sincerely,Melinda REINKE
VOTE ACAL 2024!!!!!! Your amazing Adam! Keep up the good work!
I love this song. It's hard for people to understand when they can't go through. I suffer from mental illness and this song hit my heart. Love from MD!
Lived in MD for little over four years, might be moving back though
When i say i felt this i felt this adamn thank you for this right here ive herd this atleast 4 times back to back allready.
Adam, keep making this dope Hip Hop. Glad to see an MC who respects the artform and does it their own way.
PLEASE NEVER STOP SINGING ADAM.. ever since I heard you the first time I've NEVER stopped you brought me back to listening to REAL music again. Thank you. #therealGOAT
I can't tell you how many times I've listened to this song. In less than 8 hours it will be one week from the day that my dad died. I've listened to this song a lot more this week. I don't have meds to help me with any of the things going on in my head. I have a GREAT fiance and 2 children 17 and almost 2 and if it wasn't for them and the music that you guys put out there I know for a fact that I would have been the next one that the family had to bury because I would have been gone last Saturday morning right after I got that call. I know that I am not ok and I am trying to keep in mind that I will be at least partially ok again one day but damn it's hard. This is by far the hardest thing I have ever been through and I didn't think anything could ever hurt this bad. I live with headaches, arthritis and back pain among other pains and the entire first 3 or 4 days I didn't really feel it all I have just been numb af and now all the pain is back and worse.
What a dope track and your flow is amazing Adam...
It has been over a year and I still listen to this Damn near everyday
Dammit brother you have been a busy man! We appreciate your hard work and find our release in your music!
I live with anxiety and depression everyday.. and working EMS has definitely too some extent have given me PTSD after my first two pediatric deaths.. I get some days where I’m pissed off for no reason and try too lay down and nap and have nightmares and very few people can talk too me when I get that way. Thank you Adam for this awesome song It helps me relax so much
brother, as a vet it took years to admit how I felt. there have been those days when you can't break out of the darkness, but God has blessed me with a good wife that tries to keep me above water. It's an everyday battle but you gotta look to the next day for strength no matter where that comes from.
Adam Calhoun is murdering every track n every other artists he's on a whole NOTHER level #SALUTE CALHOUN
When men talk about their broken homes without a father. Y'all have me in overtime making sure my boy knows he's loved by the rest of the family and God. He's 8 and only knows him by a couple pictures and 2 online chats. He ran to another state when I was pregnant.
He's worthless
Didn't meet my dad till I was 12. He's was around for a year. Would of been better if I've never meet him. If he runs once he will run again. Surround him by good people. Your son isn't missing nothing
@@csalas9694 my boys father has a hair trigger temper. I didn't bow down to that's why he left. If he did want to see his son I wouldn't trust him alone with him anyway. He turned out to be a jeckle and Hyde personally.
Favorite song on the album!!
Been on Klonopin for years and you touch on every part of the disease of depression and anxiety. Thank you for saying where we come from
My favorite from Mr. Colhoun. He gets it. I also have anxiety/panic attacks. I suffer from these afflictions but will not play victim! You inspire me Adam
I couldn't take you seriously as a musician until I watched this..
You're on to something..
Dig deep..🇺🇸❤💪
I've been saying this for years, I am tired of shouldering the weight simply by being cis and white. I'm done apologizing for my Irish heritage. I'm a proud 🍀 woman!
Agreed a fellow Irishman keep your head up and fuck em
No Irish has anything to apologize for on that score. We were nearly wiped out, our population reduced to less than 10,000 world wide. The only reason we survived was because the architect of our genocide, Oliver Crombwell had us drug across the world as forced labor. As the english lost territory we were left behind and free to repopulate.
Y'all bitchin about she wrong or this and that I'm Irish and polish. And a female. And I grew up in Vegas. Talk about struggling. God bless and sending love and respect from the WESTSIDE 702 & 775
Aye I'm of {partial) Irish descent too
The wife and I suffer from anxiety, I can only afford her medication so I find other ways to cope but I couldn’t do it without her. I am my own worst enemy
This hits home, struggle myself, 20yr retired Army 100% disabled veteran. Thank you ❤️
#mental health awareness
I spent 14 years locked up and I see a mental health specialist who told me I have PTSD from being locked up!! I get anxious and stressed and I get aggressive so I’m on two different meds to keep me level. I’m white so I guess I’m supposed to have some privilege but all I ever saw was my dad working from can’t see to can’t see 7 days a week on someone else’s farm to provide for his family. Your music speaks to me and I like what you got to say.
I take it for anxiety, and panic attacks, love this song ❤
2 and half minutes of unforgiving truth....I might need this new album more then Everlasting Country!
This was lit Adam, much love
OUTSTANDING!!!!!! As a combat wounded Marine this hit home like a mac truck! Thanks for everything you do!
Adam, I have followed you for years and constantly feel inspired by you, but this song, I felt this in my soul. Mental Health is a dangerous thing our society ignores and I'm thankful you were so willing to open your heart to help those of us that have mental health issues. Thank you ❤
Much love from Central California
Man Adam you killed it with this track that was my life in 4 min keep doing you when this bs ends can't wait to see where your tour is so I can figure out how far I'm driving
I love this song
Really feel this one off the new album glad we got a solid visual
Timbo Music you’re disgusting that’s no even funny joking about incest
So sorry that was ment for some one else so sorry
@@amandacarr5366
It's ok lol
Timbo Music thanks ✌️🏴
Thanks for making this song Acal, I feel it on every level.
Clinical depression and anxiety made far worse by chronic Lyme disease. Some days it's only God who stops me from taking a long walk off a short pier.
Just had stop self-medicating with alcohol because I have a serious problem.
This helps.
Thanks for another great one! Stay safe. God bless America!
0:18 send COVID ADAM CALHOUN'S way, Adam kills everything he touches. Homeboy would end covid just like "that"!! Congratulations on all of your success. It is well deserved my brother. Thank you.
As a Army Veteran who suffers from PTSD and went to jail after for self medicating. Who comes from a family that went through a lot and grew up pretty poor. I feel this song so deep in my soul...I'm gonna be banging this the rest of the day.
One thing is for sure. When we are young and think we know it all. Peer pressure is something. I use to think poppin pills and drinking smoking and going to clubs was my cure for my depression. Hell I even drunk lean. Until I realized I have kids that depend on me now and I have family and house hold. Left the game changed my ways but it built me into the man I am today. My dad suffers from a chemical imbalance and pops pills like candy and drinks like a horse. Hes 53 but it looks like he is 70. Depression is real. Sometimes we say fuck it and drift off with out caring. What I'm saying is you can become someone your not proud of or you can stand up be a man and fucking put your set up and go out swinging against your demons. You can beat them. Have faith. Can't never could cant never will. 💯💯💯🤜🤛
@Kidd Rebel yup then they die of o.d or get they ass killed over materialistics. 80 percent of these guys put on for the camera. And are fake as barbie dolls ass.
Exactly what I feel. Im 29 and ive been locked up for a long time. Maybe 11 year of my life. Last bid was 37 months. Love you man
This is hands down the best song out there. Love all your music. You are an inspiration to me and believe it or not you have definitely helped me from going back to prison! I appreciate all that you do for us!
🤘🔥 Stay Blessed big Homie...... Dem 💊 ain't no joke. Watch your intake. Mad respect and love 💯👑
This song is amazing and so relatable!
Adam Calhoun Is The Angel Of War On The Mic. 🤔🇺🇸
I've been prescribed Klonopin for 10 years now I'm only 27.. its definitely something hard to get out of your life.. I felt this song bro...💯
I take meds I struggle with the thought in my head I deal with alot. Love you Adam ❤💕💕💕
Needed this I felt like I was alone taking clonzepam.... I suffer major panic attacks. 😔 much love Adam 🇺🇸
His Rap Style is Unique. Damn good lyricist!
Dope as always, Bro!! No.1 Independent record of the year!
paul cavaliere lmao number 1 huh got low standards ? bc he’s not that good and got most of his skills from upchurch bro
@@Been25510 So upchurch just gave him some skills dumbass? Did you really even listen to the Hooligan CD when its easier to compare? So glad Upchurch kept the war paint on my ding ding line to himself and gave all Adam the actual skills. That actually would explain why Upchurch has changed and fallen off lately. I don't hate Upchurch.....I support both but just because you don't understand the lyrics, you imagine that upchurch is better? Clearly you need some Q-Tips for your ears. Also don't troll Adams songs just because you know in your heart that he is better and you hate it because Upchurch is your boy. We're MEN over here.
Thanks Adam. I have been on Klonopin for 25 years. Couldnt function without it; now that i am terminally ill i need it even more. Ppl look at me weird i just keep moving on
You may not see this but were not strangers, we're all your friends and we love to see you, I just seen you in Belvidere and that made my entire year just being able to see you live since that's the first concert I've been to In a few years!! We all love you!
Best song I've heard by you.
Holy fuck this shit hits home. Adam you truly have helped so many people with what you’re doing keep that shit up man!!
You can hear a pin drop when I get pissed off.. I don't want to talk, I just wanna ball my fists up..
Makes me think of me
Sounds like me. I've struggled with controlling my rage my entire life.
I know just were you are coming from for the ones that don't know your lucky ! Love your music so just keep it real just as you have been !!
This room needs to be labeled as legendary since it shared the likes of yours and struggles greatness!!
Not afraid to "Like" before the song has even started.
I feel your pain here bro. Honestly do.
He just keep dropping fire🔥🔥
I love a cal and upchurch...they have helped me feel better about myself over the past few years thank u dudes
Dude man if you only knew how much your songs mean to a lot of people like I love them because you speak nothing but the truth and a lot of your songs Hit me hard like you say exactly what I'm feeling or want to say about every issue in America keep it up bro you rock
I needed this helped me
Who still listening
Still
This is one of my favorites. I can tell when an artist actually experiences depression and/or anxiety I can always tell when they’re full of shit. This song resonates so deeply with me and I can feel exactly what he’s talking about. Ugh….SUCH a great song! I just wish none of us had to experience this.
As we speak Skin 💪🤬
We never stop listening
Here!
Just liked it... Soon as I clicked 🤷🏽♂️
Love the music! I can relate to this. There's no advice to give someone with ptsd. You can explain it 1000 times. Unless you face this, you will never know how dark and powerful it actually is. Your music helped me through this, I also hope to beat this.
Love this jam, have PTSD and been on for over 15 years. Lyrics are 🔥! Cheers 🍻 brother