WHATS IN MY BAG (autism survival edition)

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  • @laikapupkino1767
    @laikapupkino1767 3 роки тому +466

    In the early 70's my dad would get mad at me for carrying a backpack everywhere I went. Books, notebook, pens, markers, sketchpad and a heavy oversized homemade walkman (real ones weren't on the market yet) with 4 hours worth of music cassettes. It seemed practical to me but it was yet another thing about me he was disgusted with me over; making him yell "You carry that thing around like a security blanket. None of the other boys your age do that- Stop being WEIRD!!" That was the extent of my diagnosis back then; and it didn't stop me; especially after I moved out. I've taken a day pack (w/ a series of cassette/CD/MP3 players as each became available) to every job I had (got fired from few due to what I now know were meltdowns...), on every bus I rode (I never drove), everywhere I went in this century or the last. I'm now in my 60's and only in the past decade is it clear to I was controlling my sensory environment out of necessity. My latest one is white with irregular black spots like a Holstein cow and I LOVE it! We find ways to survive even without the benefit of an official diagnosis. I don't know what I am neurologically but whatever I am, I'm good with it.

    • @DeLaSoul246
      @DeLaSoul246 3 роки тому +55

      I think it's awesome you kept bringing it anyway instead of forcing yourself to suffer. I'm in my 30's and undiagnosed and I have gotten a lot of shit in my life too for carrying around a bag everywhere. "You're so WEIRD!" Yep, thank god because "normal" is horrifying lol

    • @buteverythinghurts
      @buteverythinghurts 2 роки тому +9

      Sounds exactly like my dad. And he (and his wife( has kept bullying me for my entire life…for being who i am. All i have learned is that im obvi very hard too love…because im too weird

    • @furiouscalel6971
      @furiouscalel6971 2 роки тому +12

      I honestly loved this story, it was quite touching. Definitely related to the "stop being WEIRD" bit because I'm always called weird for things I do.. However, at least I am never called normal, I think being called normal is the worst of insults, I'd rather be myself :D

    • @maryalicesawesomevids
      @maryalicesawesomevids 2 роки тому +7

      Your amazing keep going I don’t really understand how carrying those things are weird it’s normal to carry stuff around these days people need to be respectful also I love your confidence

    • @rachymarie
      @rachymarie Рік тому +3

      When i was at uni i had to lug a whole lot of photography equipment around (and walk it to and from uni about 30-45 minutes walk each way!) and there was too much to carry, so I started taking it all in my suitcase (with something even strapped against the handle). I think it was something the faculty hadn't seen a student do before lol

  • @ami_forte
    @ami_forte 2 роки тому +294

    For my fellow autistics, I couldn't wait to figure out everything that Chloe had. Here's a list!
    •The backpack to hold them in
    •Noise cancelling headphones
    •Sensory/Fidget toys
    •Packet of gum
    •Sunglasses
    •Loop earplugs
    •Snacks
    •Phone charger
    •Sunflower Lanyard
    •Wallet

  • @qnterval4028
    @qnterval4028 3 роки тому +357

    What's in my backpack? Anxiety and OCD edition
    • First Aid Kit
    • Pads/Tampons (of all sizes in case friends need them)
    • Rubber bands (for fidgeting)
    • Spare money
    • Paracetamol/Ibuprofen/Hayfever Tablets
    • Hand Soap (some public bathrooms don't have it)
    • Hand sanitiser
    • Spare socks
    • Stretchy unisex jogging bottoms (in case a friend needs them or i leak)
    • Essential Oils for anxiety attacks
    • Bunch of plasters and sterilising wipes
    • Adjustable clean masks in case someone needs to borrow one
    • Vaseline
    • Hair bands/bobbles
    • Enhalers (asthma)
    • Tissues
    • ID cards and phone numbers of friends and family in case i have a panic attack in public or I get injured and need to be taken to hospital
    • Earphones
    • Usually some sort of travel game (uno deck, playing cards, etc)
    • Reusable shopping bag
    • Pullover jacket (usually XL so that it would be able to fit anyone if needed)
    • Reusable cutlery
    • Metal straws
    • Suncream (if summer)
    • Tiny plushie (for anxiety attacks, helps with grounding, or i can hand it to a friend to fidget with if they seem anxious)
    • Water bottle
    • Hand cream
    • Phone charger (iphone and android)
    If u can't tell, I'm the group mum
    And my back hurts

    • @tamberjune
      @tamberjune 3 роки тому +23

      I've been this way since I was young, I can't remember not having something for extra or not needed to have something. Also, I'm the group mum too! Luckily, I now have a man to carry my bag. 💕

    • @qnterval4028
      @qnterval4028 2 роки тому +5

      @@tamberjuneYES, you never know when you might need something, better just to have it all just in case lol 💕

    • @qnterval4028
      @qnterval4028 2 роки тому +1

      @@NEONrayne I don't know, I just like to know that if I'm going to get a drink and the top of the bottle is a weird shape that feels weird to use I just like to have straws with me, it's also easier to drink from straws if i have had a panic attack or anxiety attack (both of which i get) when I'm all trembly, a friend could hold the bottle whilst I drink because cold water is a grounding technique that works for me

    • @HaruDoneYet
      @HaruDoneYet 2 роки тому +9

      My bag is very similar:
      - multiple lip balm/oils
      - 2 different types of hand sanitizer (spray/gel)
      - these things called seat belt adjusters that hook onto your seatbelt and help position it in a more comfortable position
      - gum/mints/sometimes straight up candy
      - foldable hair brush/mirror
      - solar battery pack
      - regular battery pack
      - small bottles of favorite body spray
      - wrist bands for nausea
      - list of current medications tucked into wallet
      - 2 types of sunscreen (spray/lotion)
      - floss
      - multiple types of cables
      - multiple hand creams
      - tissue
      - first aid kit
      - pads in case someone needs it
      - keys
      - wallet
      - pepper spray
      - multiple masks
      - nail clippers/tools
      - motion sickness pills
      - Tylenol
      - notepad + pen
      - small scissors that fold/have a cap
      - earbuds
      - teddy bear keychain
      - phone
      - disinfectant wipes
      I feel the need to add a few things to my bag though like a fan, water bottle, reusable utensils, and probably some other bits and bobs. Sometimes I get the idea I need to bring a lighter because despite the fact I rarely leave my house in a populated area, you never know when I'll be stranded in the middle of no where and need to build a fire.
      Don't even get me started on what I bring when I travel for even a weekend.

    • @furiouscalel6971
      @furiouscalel6971 2 роки тому +3

      What backpack do you have/use? It must be pretty big to hold all the stuff
      And also I'm the mom friend so like- I need a larger backpack than the one I currently have xD

  • @werbnaright5012
    @werbnaright5012 3 роки тому +440

    Random NTs overusing fidget toys kinda helped to normalize it.

    • @MarysAwesomeVideos
      @MarysAwesomeVideos 3 роки тому +153

      They also got them banned though making it harder for neurodivergent kids to relax and focus on class

    • @fishfish7985
      @fishfish7985 3 роки тому +34

      Yup they are all banned for a bit bit then cheap and in pretty coulors about 3 yrs after the trend

    • @BcOriginal
      @BcOriginal 3 роки тому +48

      not all types were banned. Though tbh it's not the kids fault, that schools are so boring and can't keep them engaged. If schools actually engaged kids in their natural curiosities about the world, and helped the individual. And didn't teach them like they are computers then they wouldn't have such a problem with kids "interrupting" class. And for the most part I think sensory toys/fidget have always been something that pops up as a fad once in awhile it's not the Frist time, take Tangles for instance... Because actually I think most people enjoy things like them from time to time even if that's not how they used to be viewed. Though I think there is a better understanding now about them in the public and it's a lot easier to get your hands on something marketed for adults, to help them with their Fidget/sensory needs now then it was before. But that's just my opinion... Sorry for the book lol if anyone reads this. 😅

    • @bri-qk2nz
      @bri-qk2nz 2 роки тому +29

      it’s a love hate relationship. yes they get them in all these stores so they’re more easily available (like at five below, target, etc) but many times nt ppl have gotten fidget toys banned at my school n i wasn’t able to use em which was really inconvenient

    • @xSwordLilyx
      @xSwordLilyx Рік тому +3

      @@bri-qk2nz couldn't you 5150 it?

  • @Ttoxx
    @Ttoxx 3 роки тому +95

    Hi Chloe! I am only 11 and on he spectrum. You have really helped me so much! Btw I love ur flower crown!

  • @borderline2K
    @borderline2K 2 роки тому +82

    ive always loved what’s in my bag videos. now i realize it was because i wanted to know 1) how to make sure i didn’t have any uncomfy situations 2) so that i could imitate what other people do so that i could be more “put together” and “normal”. autism + what’s in my bag video obsessions go hand in hand

  • @kikibplays
    @kikibplays 3 роки тому +115

    Additional stuff from my own bag I'd recommend anyone add to theirs: a small basic first aid kit (bandaids, ibuprofen, nail clippers, a dose or two of any essential meds, etc), sunscreen, emergency period supplies for people who menstruate, foldable shopping bag (good for more than just shopping!), hand sanitizer, small notebook and pen, a favorite reusable straw, and some hand cream and lip balm. For longer trips I'll definitely throw in my Switch Lite and/or iPad. I also always have a mini bicycle pump and a small folding multi-tool with various sizes of allen wrenches and screwdrivers, which is great if I'm out on my bike and something happens to it. I am always prepared.

    • @merrymerrymead7749
      @merrymerrymead7749 3 роки тому +2

      I have a massive backpack with very similar.
      I need all the things. Change of socks and underwear and baby wipes make me feel happy too.

    • @littleautibatsfantasybooks7593
      @littleautibatsfantasybooks7593 3 роки тому +6

      I could not bring this much stuff with me on the daily. I used to but recently have downsized ALOT in order to not be bogged down by unnecessary weight in my bag. Being autistic and also with ptsd the heavier my bag is the less spoons I have throughout the day so finding a balance between bringing what I may need and also not carrying around a HUGE bag is crucial for me.

    • @maddigrace9535
      @maddigrace9535 3 роки тому

      I..I don’t even carry my phone half the time. Seriously how do you remember to grab your bag I’m a scatter brained mess lol

    • @merrymerrymead7749
      @merrymerrymead7749 3 роки тому +1

      I have a problem leaving without my bag, even if i know i don't need it that day, as it is my safety. The feeling of needing it and not having it will ruin anything i am trying to do and i'd need to go home.
      I once lost a backpack with all my things in it. Took ages to get over it and keeps me from doing it again.

    • @littleautibatsfantasybooks7593
      @littleautibatsfantasybooks7593 3 роки тому +1

      @@merrymerrymead7749 see for me I love backpacks. I’ve tried a purse and other types of bag but the mini backpack seems to be what works best for me. I also find I’m actually less likely to lose a backpack when I’m out because it’s on my back and I can feel if it’s there or not as supposed to a purse that I’m likely to drop or put down somewhere and walk away from. I’ve lost soooo many purses and other bags but never a backpack so now I switch backpacks frequently as it’s kind of a stimmy balmy thing for me to switch to a new bag every so often but I never use any other style than a backpack.

  • @Lillyluvsanime
    @Lillyluvsanime 3 роки тому +126

    Realizing that an autism survival bag is something I've been doing like... my whole life before I even knew that I'm autistic.
    I recently got a set of Loop Experience Pro earplugs! I use them at work (I work in retail) and sometimes just to go to the store.
    I wish I knew about your coupon though, I'm still paying mine off😅

  • @lionmuesli4321
    @lionmuesli4321 Рік тому +19

    This is what is in my backpack for autism and adhd:
    - chewing gum
    - a case for my glases
    - sunglasses
    - hair ties
    - period bag (with various period products, pain meds and spare undies)
    - a book (your girl does not leave her room without a book lol)
    - hand lotion
    - sanitiser
    - chapstick
    - masks
    - fidget toys
    - earplugs
    - anc headphones
    - water bottle
    - snacks (safe foods)

  • @kendrasmith4661
    @kendrasmith4661 3 роки тому +39

    I have to buy new Loop earplugs because I lost the ones my friend bought me for my birthday 😭
    I have started carrying "thinking putty" and/or some pretty rocks in my bag lately! I have some nice smooth gemstones (just cheap ones, like from souvenir stores) that are great to fiddle with in my hand or stare at the sparkles or how they catch the light. Tactical and visual stim in one!

  • @aritoutou
    @aritoutou Рік тому +13

    What’s in my bag ADD, anxiety and hypersensitivity version :
    - A drawing book
    - A book to write
    - A pencil box or at least a pencil, an eraser and a sharpener
    - My chargers
    - My noise cancelling headphones
    - A survival kit, so :
    -> lipstick
    -> Nail cutter
    -> Nail file
    -> Cream
    -> Toothbrush
    -> Mouthwash
    -> Dental floss
    -> Mirror
    -> Many types of pills
    -> Bandaid
    -> Hair ties
    -> Essential oil’s
    -> Tweezers
    -> Hair brush
    -> Tampons
    -> Hand sanitizer
    -> Soap
    -> Tissues
    -> Deodorant
    - Food and candys (I like to keep tender bars, mint or anise hard candy, or chocolate)
    - A kindle, cause it takes less space then a book
    - Some money in my phone case
    - My keys
    - My water bottle
    - A pair of socks
    - Mascaras, in case that I can’t stop pulling my lashes
    - Gum, for if I am clenching my jaw too much
    - A peace of silk, to calm me down
    I think that’s it is it.

  • @pw510577w
    @pw510577w 3 роки тому +28

    I personally don't feel safe walking around in public wearing headphones. Thieves and people with ill intent can creep up behind you, and you're oblivious. Traffic is also a danger, you can be lost in your own world, walk in front of a tram, and splat.

    • @ghostknight4147
      @ghostknight4147 3 роки тому +11

      I saw one vid by a professor who is autistic. She advised to limit ur use of those headphones and only use it when necessary like supermarkets (don't think anyone's gonna Robbed from from there)
      I'd prolly wear it on streets when I'm really frustrated and need to calm down. Find a place to sit on a bench and cool down, take off the headphones then slowly adjust to the change in sound environment.

    • @ReineDeLaSeine14
      @ReineDeLaSeine14 3 роки тому +6

      Mhmm I’m visually impaired and have to be careful. When I used to go out in my power wheelchair I would only wear one earbud so I could hear stuff still. I only use my AirPods at home but like that they have a transparency mode too

  • @notsoperfectmeaes
    @notsoperfectmeaes Рік тому +9

    My bag as an neurodivergent person with POTS:
    - Loop earplugs (Engage and experience)
    - Noise canceling headphones
    - Water bottle filled with water mixed with electrolytes
    - Medication and painkillers
    - (salty) snack though I usually forget one
    - Phone
    - Wallet
    - Keys
    - Gloves (if it's cold)

  • @kaylanek1
    @kaylanek1 2 роки тому +10

    Hi! I loved the video!
    Here is my what's in my bag-
    - Sketchbook
    - Pen/drawing supplies
    - Whatever I am hipper fixated on (sewing, crochet, etc)
    - Feminine products
    - Phone
    - Earphones
    - Portable charger
    - Pocket knife
    - Flashlight
    - Chapstick
    - Braces wax
    - Medicine (Advil, tums)
    - Wallet
    And this one is not going to fit in my bag but I ALWAYS have my water bottle with me. It holds 2.5 liters or 85 OZ in it.

  • @kattscratchfvr
    @kattscratchfvr 3 роки тому +31

    this is great cause i JUST got a new bag and need some extra ideas on what to bring that might help out in public ❤️

  • @xSwordLilyx
    @xSwordLilyx Рік тому +5

    I do this and I suspect I have ADHD and I have migraines. My purse got bigger and bigger and now I have just accepted it's a small tote bag. And my back hurts less.
    Always snacks, water bottle, meds, hairties, claw clip, bandaid kit, lip balm, belt bag (can keep my wallet on my belt, can leave the rest in the car), cough drops, dry mouth lozenges, headphones, mini hairbrush, and kindle. Gum whenever I haven't chewed through it all and planner, spare underwear, period underwear, fidget doughnut half the time.
    My one consistent mistake is not always ensuring a way to seal snacks and getting them spilled in the bottom way too much. I need to get another of those small stasher bags.
    I also have interstitial cystitis and have considered taking essentially a diaper with me when the cold makes it really hard for me to hold my bladder. Been hard for me to commit to that one, I can usually still hold it.

  • @beebleboo.7493
    @beebleboo.7493 2 роки тому +7

    Calmer pro&night, prescription sunglasses, light blocking mask, swimsuit/flip flops, my favorite pen & paper, external battery, hoodie, chew toy on lanyard, physical fidget, stone(s) to hold/rub, over ear headphones, toothpicks, lip balm, lucky money/colones/coin, non fiction book, smell good, biofreeze patches, spiral hair tie, q-tips, arnica, daily medications (including "as needed"), fabric to rub (usually on bag exterior), molle patches for external storage, spotify app, Pimsleur language learning app, story notes/r&d (I'm a writer)... & light projector & light blanket if overnight... 😁💟🐙

  • @aardbeimilkshake
    @aardbeimilkshake 3 роки тому +27

    So happy UA-cam offers the option to play videos in a slower pace. I love Chloe’s videos so much but my brain can’t process what she says when she talks so fast… I’m so glad I can still enjoy her content this way :D

  • @MarysAwesomeVideos
    @MarysAwesomeVideos 3 роки тому +10

    I keep a weighted lap pad,gum, a backup chewerly necklace, stim toys, tea bags with hot water, water bottle, sunflower lanyard, and thats it really lol I have hard sensory needs so it can be challenging for me to go into public.

  • @MkR2398
    @MkR2398 3 роки тому +7

    Here in the first five minutes of uploading let's go

  • @Notcomingbac
    @Notcomingbac Рік тому +4

    My friend gave me bose headphones when he broke my wire ones and I’m so happy he did because I wear them everywhere and they are so useful for dealing with how loud my neighborhood is.

  • @catherineraper
    @catherineraper 3 роки тому +9

    Yes, headphones are a must. I’ve just bought new wireless ones because music helps me cope when I’m around people. As long as don’t make eye contact with people, they leave me alone. Other that stimming stuff, baby wipes, water bottle, sketchbook, iPad and reading material.

  • @DifferentReader
    @DifferentReader 3 роки тому +9

    I bring my backpack almost everywhere. I have a North Face daypack, and it has a chest strap which is helpful when I need deep pressure input. I can use it like a weighted compression vest! I keep all kinds of things in it, some because autism, some because I like to be prepared, and some because my parents have split custody and either house may be out of things like medications at times. Here’s what’s usually in there:
    - iPad
    - iPad charger
    - Bluetooth headphones
    - various fidgets/stim toys
    - water bottle
    - snacks
    - first aid kit with acetaminophen, ibuprofen, anti-diarrheal, cold medicine, antibiotic cream, band aids, gauze, medical tape, etc.
    - lotion
    - oxygen-activated hand warmers (I use these in the winter because I live in Canada)
    - glasses strap
    - hair ties
    - carabiners (in case I need to attach something to the outside of my backpack
    - masks, both disposable and fabric
    - wallet
    - compass
    - sunglasses
    - blue pen, black pen, pencil, and sharpie
    - Kleenex
    - house and mail key
    - notebook
    - hand sanitizer
    - menstrual products
    - inhaler
    - clear nail polish to fix a snagging broken nail
    - cornstarch for chafing
    Sometimes I add a few other things, including:
    - book
    - switch lite
    - carrying strap for iPad
    - deodorant
    - visual/picture schedule
    - markers
    - power bank

  • @Autistic_Pixie
    @Autistic_Pixie 3 роки тому +10

    6:10 I don’t give a sh*t what people think, if I need one of my chews in public, imma use one.
    I’m 20 but nobody can stop me doing what I need to feel calm. Anyone gives me a dirty look or says some dumb sh*t? I’ll tell them to mind their own business.

  • @madelineaguilar302
    @madelineaguilar302 Рік тому +3

    I personally have both a backpack and shoulder bag with me and I have a lot of sensory items like sunglasses, and my snapback and I do still get a lot of weird looks even by my own hairdresser

  • @mythologyalt3966
    @mythologyalt3966 Рік тому +2

    What I put in my kit:
    Headphones
    Phone
    Note pad and pen(because my brain never stops and something might be important)
    Crystals ( to look at and I like them)
    A glove (for my left hand because sometimes to many things are on the right of me)
    Tissues.
    ( Btw I’m not diagnosed with anything yet but I’m going through an autism assessment and if I do have it I hope this might help someone :))

  • @lauraloves
    @lauraloves Рік тому +7

    i watched this around when it came out but came back because im going to a concert tonight and im soooo stressed. thank you so much chloe

  • @NukaChloe76
    @NukaChloe76 3 роки тому +11

    For me sometimes its just having a bag thats a comfort. Could be empty and its still calming.

    • @Youtube_user_nhvrxdhn
      @Youtube_user_nhvrxdhn Місяць тому

      I totally get it. It’s our form of a protective vest. A nice extra wall between us and the environment.

  • @wantingoneangel8976
    @wantingoneangel8976 3 роки тому +12

    Chloe, I so LOVE your super cute Dumbo Bag:)!! And I LOVE how the extra compartment with the zipper is a pink and white tent:)!! And I so LOVE that pink floral crown you wear:)!!! As for "fidget toys" I know this is old school, but you could get a Rubix's Cube because it is relaxing and you are so smart I think you would love it:)!!! I could never solve the Rubix Cube, but I always enjoyed playing with it:)!! However, I so LOVE your Unicorn cloth with the maze and little ball in it because when I feel anxiety waiting in a Doctor's office or I am in some physical pain, I would to solve the maze :)!!! And although I am not Autistic, I too forget things and misplace things. And I LOVE soft things like plush toys:)!! I have a small Harmony Care Bear clip that I could bring with me, but my larger Toys like my Pusheen and my Rolbie Lamb made by Jelly Cat, I would have to wait until I come home:)!! Mostly I like to collect Stuffed Animals and Dolls ( which are my hyper fixation) whether they are super soft or not, but I also like that softness because it is comforting, especially today because I was experiencing physical pain. And I can sympathize with you with all the construction noise and that headset looks good because I am unable to wear ear plugs due to sound that happens in one ear from time to time. And Chloe, a suggestion is that you could download video games and play them, like animal crossing, which a few You Tube people have recommended:)!! Thank you Chloe for sharing all your survival stuff to get through the day:)!!!

  • @Vamp1re_m0ney
    @Vamp1re_m0ney 2 роки тому +2

    What's in my bag- OCD/SPD/Anxiety edition
    Noise cancelling headphones
    Regular headphones
    Sunglasses
    Lip balm
    First aid kit
    Pop it fidget toy
    Tanglez fidget toy
    Chew necklace
    Pads
    Hand sanitizer
    Hand wipes
    Compression gloves
    Extra pair of fuzzy socks
    Reusable straws
    Small stuffed animal
    Self defense keychain
    Gravity Falls book(My fav)
    Ibuprofen
    Tums(Acid indigestion)

  • @BekaEllen
    @BekaEllen 3 роки тому +11

    “..to cope in a world that is not designed for me..” We say this all the time and I feel like it’s doing harm along with the good. Obviously, when I went to a party the other day and it was too much to walk through the door without immediately leaving to hide, let alone stay all night without having a meltdown in the next few days, that party was not designed for me. It was the most overstimulating environment I’d been in for a long time if not ever. But if I go around with a constant reminder in my head saying the world is not designed for me how does that really help when my goal is to be a respectful adult in the world who isn’t socially a monk that never leaves the monastery.

  • @kkuudandere
    @kkuudandere 3 роки тому +6

    I'd wear my earplugs everywhere if I wasn't so paranoid about being run over by a speeding car, or just a person on a bike with no bell😅 Instead I wear my regular bluetooth earbuds, but with the sound off or just one ear in.
    I like having soft squishy keychains on my bag, because they also just function as cute accessories! One's a tiny red crochet heart, and the other is a pink bunny (my favorite color AND animal😗)

  • @Hannahleigh_b
    @Hannahleigh_b 3 роки тому +50

    Are you a mind reader, Chloe?
    I was just thinking earlier today how cool it would be if you made a video like this!

  • @helenalena6193
    @helenalena6193 Рік тому +3

    I'm sorry for late comment. I had already watched your vid and now I'm changing things in my bag and decided to "steal" Ideas. I was just thinking about how they should make chewing gum that doesn't completely kill the stomach. Really!

  • @RobinPalmerTV
    @RobinPalmerTV 3 роки тому +11

    Transitions lenses are amazing if you need optical glasses all the time.

    • @ReineDeLaSeine14
      @ReineDeLaSeine14 3 роки тому

      Unfortunately mine don’t work in the car and they don’t get dark enough (I also have albinism which causes my eyes to not filter light properly

    • @RobinPalmerTV
      @RobinPalmerTV 3 роки тому

      @@ReineDeLaSeine14 they’re problematic inside annoyingly. Do you tend to wear sunglasses a lot of the time?

  • @shadowfox933
    @shadowfox933 3 роки тому +7

    I would love to use earplugs like those but putting things in my ears is an absolute nightmare for me. If I ever find something like that but made to fit over my ears I would probably buy 3 of them at that exact moment

  • @jasper_the_techie
    @jasper_the_techie 3 роки тому +10

    Exited to see what you carry around! Maybe it’ll help me tooooo! 💛💛

  • @mariaconnell610
    @mariaconnell610 3 роки тому +2

    Ngl, I clicked on this video because of the pretty colours, but this was actually very informative. Thank you.

  • @borderline2K
    @borderline2K 2 роки тому +2

    also, i get so carried away with my gum chewing. i have to chew my gum so aggressively in order for it to feel good and when i can’t do that i have to suppress it and it makes me so angry

  • @itsmads.
    @itsmads. 3 роки тому +18

    Hi Chloe! Just gotta say how amazing your talk with the Yellow Ladybugs was! I was there myself, (my name is Maddy) and I have to thank you for doing that!

    • @auroraswarriors
      @auroraswarriors 3 роки тому +1

      I missed it because my mum got a new phone and didn’t have the notification in her calendar 😭

    • @itsmads.
      @itsmads. 3 роки тому +2

      @@auroraswarriors Aw, thats so sad!! :

    • @auroraswarriors
      @auroraswarriors 3 роки тому +1

      @@itsmads. I was very sad, but I really hope I can meet Chloé in person one day, she lives only an hour away from me!

    • @itsmads.
      @itsmads. 3 роки тому +1

      @@auroraswarriors Thats cool! Its my dream to meet Chloé also!

  • @jeffaroche
    @jeffaroche 3 роки тому +6

    Are you going to review the newest season of love on the spectrum??? 💗💗

  • @IggiePuff
    @IggiePuff Рік тому +2

    Where I live a lot of places have signs on their doors stating "No backpacks allowed in the store. No exceptions!". So, almost pointless in having bags/backpacks in my town expect for going to school.

  • @awesome-dp1oo
    @awesome-dp1oo 7 місяців тому +2

    WOW, that is a perfect title.
    I've been asked that question countless times.

  • @LittleADHDGremlin
    @LittleADHDGremlin Рік тому +2

    whats in my bag: auditory processing disorder edition
    1. noise cancelling headphones
    2.fidgets that make satisfying noises
    3.mini plushie for public overstimulation (loud noises)
    4.phone charger (obvi)
    5.airpods or wireless headphones (to listen to calming music>

  • @izabellaramirez4911
    @izabellaramirez4911 2 роки тому +2

    neurotypical getting tips on what to pack in my backpack because I usually carry almost nothing and sometimes it can be useful to have this kind of thing. in my painting classes I usually bring,
    -painting material (of course).
    -cell and phone (to listen music on the train).
    -Wallet.
    -jacket (when it's cold).
    -mask.
    -bottle of water
    -sweet candys.
    -knife(my home country is kinda dangerous but overall it can be useful for a lot of things)
    normally this is what I take but your video gave me good ideas like having a first aid kit.

  • @Shenanigans_333
    @Shenanigans_333 Рік тому +2

    i really hate wearing backpacks! If I can’t get the straps perfectly even, then I’m not wearing it lol. So i bring a tote bag to school! It had been working well, I’m starting to transition myself over to wearing small backpacks because I want to do lots of travelling in the future and I know that tends to require backpacks!

  • @JaynaEM
    @JaynaEM Рік тому +2

    waiting for the day they invent comfortable smell-blockers. lol smell is my worst sensory trigger!

  • @junezs
    @junezs 3 роки тому +7

    Oh how I need this.

  • @caitlinwhiteshaw1401
    @caitlinwhiteshaw1401 3 роки тому +10

    I love your videos you have such a good energy and you have taught me so much about autism and my understanding of how to support my autistic friends and fam!! ❤️ Thank you!!! anyway got a bit side tracked but my question is, I have complex PTSD and so I tend to carry around fidget toys and sensory items to help with my PTSD symptoms, is that considered bad as I am not autistic nor do I have ADHD?

    • @Lilyboxes
      @Lilyboxes 3 роки тому +2

      I think it's fine, whatever helps you cope! c-PTSD and autism have overlaping traits.

    • @theoistrying9904
      @theoistrying9904 Рік тому

      Sensory toys are for everyone!

  • @Nighteyes_14
    @Nighteyes_14 2 роки тому +2

    my backpack includes:
    -my headphones (one pair for music and the other are sound-cancelling for when i want to hear nothing)
    -water bottle
    -journal/planner
    -pen
    -wallet
    -keys
    -fidget/s
    -snack
    -deodorant
    -mask
    -sometimes a book (depends what one, theres a special series i have that i don't want to risk taking outside haha)
    And my phone goes in my pocket

    • @Nighteyes_14
      @Nighteyes_14 2 роки тому

      oh and i forgot hand sanitizer

  • @EmMakesMusic123
    @EmMakesMusic123 2 роки тому +2

    Where did you get the marble blanket from???

  • @rainbowstarks
    @rainbowstarks Рік тому +2

    My friends call me "the bag lady"... I'm adding that to my list of traits 😆

  • @aether413
    @aether413 3 роки тому +5

    I LOOOve my loop earplugs!!! They're so helpful esp. bc I have misophonia so I can just pop them in during meals and nobody even notices

  • @jcothers1
    @jcothers1 3 роки тому +4

    I have a loungefly HP bag and I love it. It’s my little bag for easy outings. I have a much bigger backpack for bigger days where I need more items like my AAC device that takes up more room.
    So my big bag which I use the most often has my Snug ear defenders, sunglasses, water bottle, gum, pouch of sensory toys that range from little squashy animals to the newer bubble pop toy. I don’t mind when things I need become popular because it just means I can get them easier and at a better price! I have a piece o cloth too. Mine is courdoroy on one side and a velvety texture on the other. Then I have a little tin of Cheerios and a little tin of dog treats for my Service Dog. Then of course my wallet which is also a sensory fun time as it’s a fuzzy velvety Niffler.. and finally my phone and my iPod with headphones. I know I am one of the few people in the world who still has not gotten a smartphone. 🌟🌟

  • @autumnridenour9006
    @autumnridenour9006 10 місяців тому +1

    In my bag I have Noice canceling headphones, Bluetooth headphones, a lil teddy bear, a portable charger, fidgets, and Rubik’s cubes

  • @Movies_downloads
    @Movies_downloads 5 місяців тому +2

    Love the astroboy sweatshirt

  • @CursedChildOfTheFae
    @CursedChildOfTheFae 10 місяців тому +1

    What's in my bag Anxiety and autism edition:
    Water
    a snack
    fidget toys
    headphones (I don't have noise cancelling ones, but these sort of work)
    jacket/hoodie
    Band-Aids
    hairbands
    pads/tampons for emergencies
    gum (Sometimes)
    tissues
    tiny notebook & pencil (I find drawing really calming)
    lip balm
    little bag of lavender (For anxiety attacks)

  • @Maddy-dh7xv
    @Maddy-dh7xv Рік тому +1

    Here’s what is in my what is my bag
    A cute Disney princess bag to carry the stuff in
    .ear defenders
    .little horse stuffed animal
    .sensory bottle I made
    .sunglasses
    .playdohg
    .sand timer
    . Snack
    .something to drink
    .handsanatizer
    And of course I put my phone in it

  • @spontaneousarts6959
    @spontaneousarts6959 Рік тому +1

    Oh my godddd i have those EXACT earplugss the same color and everything!!

  • @queenieevergreen
    @queenieevergreen Рік тому +1

    If I wore headphones like that outside… I would honestly be terrified that someone would mug them right off my head… Sucks living in an American city… Just realising that anyone would be comfortable is shocking to me. Must be nice…

  • @Stormbrise
    @Stormbrise Рік тому +1

    Sunflower Laynard has come to Denmark this last fall. I carry my headphones, planner, ear plugs, battery charger, and a ton of colorful pens, and a book. This is I am not going to university. I carry an extra laynard all the time. I am giving them away to people who do not have them, so I have to pick up more at the local mall or IKEA. Though in Denmark they are not giving out the card with it. Maybe I should look online and find some of the ID cards that attach to them.
    I got mine when I traveled back to Denmark from the States in July 2020. I was stuck at home with my family (not crying here about that!!, though I missed my husband), for 3 extra months. I refused to pay 25,000 USD to fly home before that. It was a relief getting through security at the airports. I had one on in IKEA, and this lady with a screaming kid for over 10 minutes, was behind me in the store, caught up with me. I was looking at something and she just brought herself and her screaming kid in the cart right up to me. I asked her to please give me space, I have sensitivity to noise. She starts screaming at me, and well ADHD impulsivity from there it got into yelling back at her. The guy working the section sided with the lady with baby, even though I have a disability. Yeah, I get people look at you and make comments with screaming kids, I have over 20 nieces and nephews I have watched and taken shopping before, some of them also neurodiverse. Yet, if someone with a disability asks nicely, I never got in their face about it. I think it had to do with the “complaining American, how dare they ask me to do something with my kid” which is a big cultural no-no in Denmark. Kid about to kill themselves cycling down a hill after a blind turn into a road, do not tell me that my kid is being unsafe. Yeah that happened, I came to a screeching halt within a meter of that one. Long story short, I told management that the guy in that section needed to know and be trained about neurodiversity on my way out the door. Yes, that was the one time I forgot my headset, and needed to stop to pick something up.

  • @Superbean605
    @Superbean605 Рік тому +1

    i have loop earplugs too, but everytime i wear them, i get a pimple in my ear. I've cleaned them while alcohol swaps, but apparently that doesn't work. I clean my hands before i put them in :/ If i wasn't so worried about getting another ear infection, I'd wear them more when i go out. (thankfully thats not very often lol) any suggestions? i'd really appreciate it 🙏

  • @5minutesofyourtime
    @5minutesofyourtime 3 роки тому +5

    In love with the shirt

  • @ellalouise1048
    @ellalouise1048 2 роки тому +1

    Ok I'd like to have absorbed more of that but my asd got stuck on Dumbo... I need that bag...

  • @JennSmart
    @JennSmart Рік тому +1

    Omg I wore sunglasses in the grocery store made me feel so much better ❤😂🎉 I am so happy 😁

  • @DogLover1718
    @DogLover1718 Рік тому +1

    People still try talking to me with my headphones on so I just ignore them 😂

  • @Renado009
    @Renado009 2 роки тому +1

    So good vid im happy i find you after the netflix serie bc your ut Channel is a life saver

  • @jclyntoledo
    @jclyntoledo Рік тому +1

    Just saw this and definitely getting those loop earbuds.

  • @AyyEmTea
    @AyyEmTea 3 роки тому +1

    WATER!! not just an autism thing obviously but I always bring a water bottle with me super super good habit to pick up!

  • @pofieofie
    @pofieofie 2 роки тому +2

    I recently got a pair of loop earplugs and they are one of my absolute favourite things

  • @Zane-It
    @Zane-It 7 місяців тому +1

    As someone with autism i didn't know channels like this existed until now. I also had no idea what a fight toy was until now I speculate this is why im so obsessed with pressure flaking it makes perfect sense.

  • @Elotron
    @Elotron 3 роки тому +2

    I like Dumbo, my favorite animal is the elephant 🐘, I have alot of elephant stuffed animals

  • @chantellekaro4344
    @chantellekaro4344 3 роки тому +2

    Can you do an ndis essential Assistive technology that you have claimed

  • @Idkim_just_here_
    @Idkim_just_here_ Рік тому +1

    I've started doing this, and it's helped so much

  • @sarahschmidli8320
    @sarahschmidli8320 3 роки тому +2

    Do you put a water bottle in your bag as well does it fit

  • @kazzzzzzzzzz6
    @kazzzzzzzzzz6 3 роки тому +2

    Aaaaa the fit in this video with the sweatshirt and the lil bag looks so comfy and cute I want it sm

  • @cryptic_sunflower
    @cryptic_sunflower 3 роки тому +2

    I use my sunglasses twice as much in the winter, because of the brightness of the snow reflecting in the sun, it is so overstimulating

  • @delilah4879
    @delilah4879 3 роки тому +2

    I wish I know about square space because wix is so hard to use

  • @hatorigirl1202
    @hatorigirl1202 2 роки тому +3

    A new item I've been loving is just a soft beanie. I get very disoriented with bad headaches on windy and cold days, and just keeping my head warm and unassaulted is major. Keeps the wind out of my ears too, which is nice. People kept on buying me hats that were too constricting so I never wore them. I have a big head. I just wanted something soft, and I finally got it.

  • @annabellechenoweth9469
    @annabellechenoweth9469 Рік тому +1

    I have a crossbody bag so I also cannot lose it.

  • @madelineaguilar302
    @madelineaguilar302 Рік тому +1

    Also I carry my jewerly everywhere with me

  • @lucysnowe9974
    @lucysnowe9974 2 роки тому +1

    The decibel earbuds sound incredible.

  • @Hannahleigh_b
    @Hannahleigh_b 3 роки тому +1

    In my bag:
    Stuffed Animal, Book, Wallet, Extra Socks (I hate the feeling of the floor on my bare feet!), Personal Info/Contact Cards, Fidget, Anxiety Rings, Water Bottle, Earbuds, Phone, Mask, Bandages, Hand Sanitizer, Pads, Eyeglass Cleaner, Chapstick and Cotton Balls with different essential oils on them 😁

  • @jurjenbos228
    @jurjenbos228 2 роки тому +1

    I walked around with a shoulder bag with a box with paper tapes with my own computer programs on them (in 1978). Now I finally understand why I did that.

  • @zoemikayla3212
    @zoemikayla3212 3 роки тому +3

    Where’s your sweatshirt from? I loveeee it xx

  • @shafaest
    @shafaest 2 роки тому +1

    where can i get the tactile blanket??

  • @that_pineapple154
    @that_pineapple154 2 роки тому +1

    I actually have a bag like this too. I call it it my travel bag but tbh its really my "I need theses things to cope with being out in public" bag. In mine I always keep earplugs, a powerbank, dramamine and headache relief, wireless earbuds, gum or something i can chew on, at least 1 fidget toy, pencils erasers and my notebook, a regular book, and a plushie. sometimes ill put snacks or a portable gaming system(my 3ds or switch lite) and whatnot in there too ^^

  • @minecraft_bee_2685
    @minecraft_bee_2685 3 роки тому +5

    just took a autistic spectrum test and it said my traits are high, but my parents have shamed me into thinking i can’t self diagnose. it kinda sucks but unless i have it on paper i’m not autistic ig…

    • @Autistic_Pixie
      @Autistic_Pixie 3 роки тому +9

      If you get the chance, speak to a professional.
      Even if you go through diagnostic stuff and it turns out you’re not autistic, it could possibly help to figure out if something else is the reason for your traits.
      But in a society where it is so difficult to get diagnosed, researched self diagnosis is valid.

    • @maxbarker8625
      @maxbarker8625 3 роки тому +6

      You can self diagnose, but I'd highly recommend trying to seek a diagnosis as it allows access to greater support

  • @hannahlomas5435
    @hannahlomas5435 2 роки тому +1

    Where is the bag from its so cuteeeeee

  • @t_m20
    @t_m20 Рік тому +5

    Is it ok to stim a lot more at just random times to feel comfortable and then the rest of the day not stimming as much as I did before? I struggle a lot in school and because I do that I get called an attention seeker by my teachers 😊

    • @dysfunctional_autodidact
      @dysfunctional_autodidact Рік тому +2

      Of course its ok, You do not need ANYONE'S approval to stim!! - and what you described is a perfectly natural part of autism/ADHD, ( Sounds to me like ur teachers don't know what they're talking about, feel free to give me their emails and I will happily educate them >:)) )

    • @t_m20
      @t_m20 Рік тому

      @@dysfunctional_autodidact thanks and if anything happens I’ll definitely give you their emails lol 😭 but I have met this new teacher and he is there for me and a lot more has happened and it’s getting easier for me now ☺️

    • @a_little_demon
      @a_little_demon Рік тому

      it is totally okay and valid ! so go ahead, stim to your heart's content like there's no tomorrow ! :D

  • @LaceyMyriah
    @LaceyMyriah Рік тому

    Oh my GODDESS when you said you coded tumblr blogs - ME TOO. I love squarespace bc I was good at coding tumblr… but that was about it, too lol.

  • @vesuviuscat2319
    @vesuviuscat2319 2 місяці тому

    I should get noise cancelling headphones since I get overwhelmed in busy places due to all the noises at the same time

  • @cravingmortalsouls
    @cravingmortalsouls Рік тому

    I also have a Disney bag!! It's from Hot Topic and it's 101 Dalmatians and the STRAPS HAVE SPOTS!!!!
    And in my bag is my phone, my noise canceling headphones, chargers, my Tangle, and that's all I remember

  • @TheRubberDuckCollector
    @TheRubberDuckCollector 4 місяці тому

    Guys, THANK YOU for both video, and for everyone’s comments! I’m compiling a bag to take with my everywhere, a lot of my friends are on the spectrum/etc and I wanna be the friend who is always prepared :) this is very helpful!

  • @cecilycohen7333
    @cecilycohen7333 3 роки тому +1

    Could you make a video on those ear plug decreasers? I'm kinda sad that there is no accessible ear plugs of these here in Brazil, but still interested in case any brand decides to include us at the shipping list

    • @nl3087
      @nl3087 2 роки тому

      They sell them on Amazon if this helps

  • @skiziskin
    @skiziskin Рік тому +1

    I just discovered your page. your energy is so amazing even though I am not able to match even one percent of it. I can type more effectively than I can communicate verbally, so sorry if this is too long. If I did make a video, I suppose this would be my script. Nobody has to read it if they don't want to and I won't be hurt by that.
    As for my bag, I am a 66 year old male of the species, retired and living in Japan with my spouse. I have always carried a purse to have my necessities with me at all times. People say, "Oh look, you have a man-purse!" which only makes me cringe. It's just a purse. I tell them to deal with it. I have a lot of the same things that you have with a few differences:
    Headphones, not noise cancelling because I have tinnitus and if I wear noise cancelling headphones, that only amplifies the ringing in my ears. I need some level of ambient noise to provide interference. Too much ambient noise, however, and my auditory processing disorder means I just get overwhelmed with all the information assaulting my brain and I shut down. I have no filter for my attention to what I want to hear when there are many voices trying to enter into my brain. I carry ear plugs but only use them for concerts that are too loud.
    Medicine. I am allergic and have to carry an epipen with me at all times. I also have a conflicting diagnosis of idiopathic anaphylaxis, both of which mean I can drop dead at any moment if I don't have my epipen so it has to be with me always. Too many close calls so I never forget it now. I also am asthmatic and carry an albuterol inhaler.
    I don't have a badge but I have a RoadID on my wrist that has contact information in English and Japanese for my wife and her uncle in case of emergency. It says that I am allergic (listing my food allergies), have a history of anaphylaxis, and am autistic. I don't like the feeling of anything touching my skin that isn't soft and loose, but I wear it on my left wrist most of the time, which is less uncomfortable than the right. But if I am wearing a watch (I hate wearing a watch but I have one that is very light) then my RoadID moves to my right wrist. I just have to deal with that discomfort.
    I'm clumsy and always getting cuts and scrapes, so I have a small first aid kit with bandages and Neosporin,
    Extra tissues and masks. I love wearing a mask in public because it provides me a partial barrier from the prying eyes of others. I also have a weakened immune system and since the pandemic, I have not had as much as a cold, so the mask is a life saver and security blanket for me. Some of them are uncomfortable, but I have a supply of masks that do not bother me enough to want to take them off in public. I am generally ok with eye contact, but when I am talking with another person, I do a lot better if I can see their mouth. So if they are not masked, I reflexively focus on and read their lips.
    I have my wallet on a retractible cable inside the bag because I have dropped it without realizing before and lost it. Also clipped to my bag and easily accessible in an exterior pocket are my keys and my public transportation pass.
    Glasses in a case that are trifocal, prisms, and so light sensitive that they can become nearly opaque on a bright winter day. They are also very lightweight and I am always wearing either them or my reading glasses, one of which is in the case while the other is on my head.
    A hand towel for drying my hands after using public restrooms.
    Hand sanitizer for sanitizing.
    Hand lotion.
    CHEWING GUM YES!
    A shopping bag that folds into its own pocket.
    An electric shaver because one of my very embarrassing stims is when my facial hair is a little bit long, I grab the hairs in my teeth and pull them out. It's a horrible habit that I am completely unconscious of but if I catch myself doing it, I can give a quick shave to the area under my lower lip where I do this. TMI but if we're being honest, there it is.
    I carry a little notebook with all my passwords in it.
    My bag, a Montbell dog owner's shoulder bag, has two pouches for water bottles and I also carry snacks inside and two external pockets for items of less than critical importance. The strap is nice and long so it hangs down by my left hip. My arthritic neck prefers to carry a backpack and I have several that I throw this bag into if I am going to a concert or someplace where I will need more volume. But carrying a backpack all the time seems to get in the way of other people and that makes me anxious, so I try to be as compact as possible. When we are going swimming in the sea I carry board shorts and a towel, also if we are going to a hot spring. In winter I have all my ski passes in a little pouch because there is a different RFID card for every ski resort. I am the most obsessed skier you will ever meet, especially about backcountry skiing and if you were to meet me you would not be able to get me to shut up about backcountry skiing, avalanches, and climate change. I don't realize when I am in that zone that people might not care about those subjects and I can't stop.
    Finally, I have a pouch with all my health care information in it, including my national insurance card and all the registered patient cards for all the doctor offices I frequent. Also my "kusuri techo" or a booklet that contains receipts for every medication I have been prescribed over the time since my last one filled up. It is one of the great things about the Japanese health care system because every time I go to a new doctor and they ask me about my medications, I can just hand them the book.
    When I was a child, I didn't have a backpack big enough but my junior high school was a one hundred year old building with bars on the windows and locker rooms with a single door at the end of each hall. I was terrified to go in there because there were fights, bullying, and extortion going on. So I carried all my books with me to every class the whole day and also to and from my home to the school in the morning and evening. By the time I reached high school, I just left all that shit at home. I never studied during study hall. I just went out in the woods to smoke weed with my best friend to calm my nerves.
    I have always felt this need to be completely self-contained, which makes me particularly well dialed as a backcountry skier and mountain athlete. I have three different backpacks for skiing with redundant gear (climbing and avalanche equipment, first aid and repair kits) in each one. I just grab the pack most appropriate for the day and I always have my gear obsessively organized so there is no chance of forgetting something important. The forest and the mountains are my happy place.

  • @nicolah.6481
    @nicolah.6481 3 роки тому +2

    Ahh I just ordered a set of loop earplugs yesterday, timing lol! Keen to get them. Love your videos

  • @transboi4754
    @transboi4754 Рік тому

    Im ND and I have sensory issues and im trying to find ways to help me cope and deal with it before going to college later this year

  • @abbystephens5516
    @abbystephens5516 3 роки тому

    I have high functioning Aspergers and I carry around plushies to give my comfort

  • @peekaboo7424
    @peekaboo7424 11 місяців тому

    Hi Chloe please help me out. Can you tell me where you got your small double sided blanket with the marble inside? I’m going on a trip & I’d really love one. Did someone sew it for you? What is it called? How would I search for it? Please help me if you can!!!! I love soft tactile things & really think something like this would help me out. Thank you in advance 🌻