I freaking LOVE your monologue at the end about being able to struggle with the kids you currently have while simultaneously wanting to have another. Just like you said, it doesn’t matter if you have 1 kid or 15 kids, it’s gonna have hard times no matter what. Parenthood is a long game and those early years are ROUGH. Gotta keep your eyes on the big picture and tough out the hard times while you work toward your dream ❤️ By the way, i conceived my first three kids super easily but my 4th (currently baking) took me 5 entire cycles and I miscarried 3 of them. And I also had those feelings of utter exhaustion and doubt. But like you, a few days would go by and the urge to keep trying would take over, so I kept following my body and my heart even though feeling all the feels in the moment made it all seem doubtful. Because the reality is, TTC suuuuuuuucks and it’s so hard!! It’s like losing weight. Major ups and downs and doubts and struggles and wanting to give up. But (and you know this!), once you reach your goal, you realise just how important the journey is. It’s sometimes not even so much getting what you want in the end, but really all the ways you changed for the better while walking over hot coals and pushing through the pain. It changes you. You develop a new dimension, you gain a type of empathy you only can earn by overcoming deep struggle. This is just part of your next baby’s story that it will share with you forever one day ❤
😭😭😭 wow you just spoke directly to my heart. I completely agree with everything you said and ugh you’re so right! The journey has lessons and challenges and PURPOSE. I think it’s so easy to want to give up when things get difficult because no one wants to hurt but you really have reminded me to go past that and go deeper. Thank you so so much, this what exactly what I needed to hear ♥️♥️♥️
First of all, thank you for sharing your life with us. The ups and the downs! We love you and support you through all of it, the positives and the negatives. I’m so sorry you’re going through it girl! This will ALL be worth it once you do get that positive. You know what, it’s actually going to make that positive test feel ever BETTER 💕 I’m over here cheering you on 🫶🏼 sending you all the love!
😭😭 you’re so freaking sweet, thank you so much. I seriously love you guys and you all just get it! You’re right, it’s only going to be that much more sweeter and special when that time comes 🥹♥️
💜 I feel you girl, have faith that’s it’s coming and hold onto that. All these frustrations and worries will likely become distant memories soon. I felt the same on our 1st, 2nd, 3rd and 4th cycle feeling like we did everything perfectly. So frustrating, thought it would never happen but then we conceived on the 5th cycle and all those worries seem so small now. It’s so hard when you’re in the thick of it! Baby dust ✨
Yup you’re so right!! It’s all emotional now but eventually it’ll be part of the story and be that much more sweet. Thank you for sharing, gives me hope 💜💜
I had 2 chemical pregnancies back to back I literally tested and got a faint positive and had my period the next day or 2 days after and this last cycle I said I wouldn’t test early but it would be hard not knowing if I miscarried or it was my period but point being I kept testing and the lines keep getting darker thank God 🥺💕 I’ll be praying for you don’t lose hope❤
I have 4 kids and still wanted one more 13 months of trying on top of the fact iam 39 negative after negative with 3 chemicals in between I almost gave up but iam blessed to say that at 40 now with 13 months of trying am 6 months pregnant with baby girl it's OK to get mad it's OK to get sad and it's OK to want to just give up but your heart knows what it wants baby dust to you girly the hope it still there
I totally get it! I do the same thing with the tests. I also say I’m done trying/worrying and I still do every month. I have been ttc 2 years and had 2 mc 💔 still waiting for my rainbow.
Sending you so much love and positivity!! I feel you on the slang/cheesy sayings haha. I even feel like what I just said can be cheesy, but I swear it's genuine 💜
Girl I agree about the hard times! Any parent wether 1,2,3...or more is gonna have a hard time at some point...and praying you get your BFP 🙏🍼 It will happen in God's timing 🙏 Take care and you got this...I. having that hard time tonight...one is teething and one is recently home from the NICU so I totally get it ❤️🙏
💜 I’m sorry it didn’t happen again hopefully it’ll happen next cycle. I understand having a hard time with your kid or kids and still wanting more. I was told I was crazy for wanting another child by a OB because my daughter was tired during my appointment and was cranky. Hopefully we will both get pregnant again.
I can remember the feeling of not getting pregnant, it took 1,5 year with our first, with 1 chemical in between, 4 cycles after the chemical was when i became pregnant with my son. The time in between was s**t... because i knew i was able to get pregnant, and i wanted it so badly. But the month before we conceived my son, i was like, oh well, screw it, let's just focus on something else, and keep our minds occupied on other things than ttc, and it did help. The mindset and shift is what was needed. When the time is right, it will come.
I don't know why, but I love testing. Even opk testing. I like knowing what's going on. That everything looks good. When I was pregnant before my miscarriage, I took a first response everyday to make sure the line was progressing. Honestly that's how I found out something wasn't right. At 5 weeks 4 days my lines didn't progress and they started getting lighter. So im glad I did it because I knew something wasn't right. It's so hard to ttc. We want that sense of control, even when we don't have much control even when we do things as perfect as we can. Currently waiting on my cycle after. I have no idea what's going to happen this month. 😕
You’re soooo right. Testing gives you that control to some degree and that’s why I test a lot and early. I would/will do the same thing and keep testing if I ever get a positive. I need to know so I can prepare myself of something goes wrong. I can’t just not think about it 💜
It's really up to you at the end of the day if you want to have another child. I honestly believe you will get pregnant soon as you're not expecting it. ❤ sprinkling baby dust your way hun. ✨️
I hate taking the cheaper ones because i took two of them and they were positive and then i took two more they was negative so i took a clear blue test a few days later and it was positive i was so confused so now I’m expecting baby number 2
I hate them too 😂 I would just buy first response tests only but I’d be spending a small fortune monthly 🙃 awwww congratulations I’m so happy for you!!!
I have been trying for 8 months with my husband and i think the month it happened we didnt have sex during the implantation window. Idk perhaps you know it already but i didnt know this little trick. As always baby dust to you ✨️
I swear I felt your disappointment through my phone I'm at work watching.. I understand where you're coming from Still commenting while watching bt the way...
Ok… what sign are you?? I’m new to your channel but I’m TTC also and we are very similar. Female Aquarius here 👹lol… also I just got my period and I’m going through it so this video is very in the mood with my feelings … told myself I’ll move forward and keep trying ❤
💜 sending baby dust ur way! its perfectly normal to have those harder times with the kids and still want more. I have a 7yo son and a 1yo son and I'm currently having problems out of both and some days seem almost impossible! It does get better tho so stay strong u got this.
I freaking LOVE your monologue at the end about being able to struggle with the kids you currently have while simultaneously wanting to have another. Just like you said, it doesn’t matter if you have 1 kid or 15 kids, it’s gonna have hard times no matter what. Parenthood is a long game and those early years are ROUGH. Gotta keep your eyes on the big picture and tough out the hard times while you work toward your dream ❤️ By the way, i conceived my first three kids super easily but my 4th (currently baking) took me 5 entire cycles and I miscarried 3 of them. And I also had those feelings of utter exhaustion and doubt. But like you, a few days would go by and the urge to keep trying would take over, so I kept following my body and my heart even though feeling all the feels in the moment made it all seem doubtful. Because the reality is, TTC suuuuuuuucks and it’s so hard!! It’s like losing weight. Major ups and downs and doubts and struggles and wanting to give up. But (and you know this!), once you reach your goal, you realise just how important the journey is. It’s sometimes not even so much getting what you want in the end, but really all the ways you changed for the better while walking over hot coals and pushing through the pain. It changes you. You develop a new dimension, you gain a type of empathy you only can earn by overcoming deep struggle. This is just part of your next baby’s story that it will share with you forever one day ❤
😭😭😭 wow you just spoke directly to my heart. I completely agree with everything you said and ugh you’re so right! The journey has lessons and challenges and PURPOSE. I think it’s so easy to want to give up when things get difficult because no one wants to hurt but you really have reminded me to go past that and go deeper. Thank you so so much, this what exactly what I needed to hear ♥️♥️♥️
Honestly 3 cycles is no time. I know its frustrating, but in the big scheme of life, 3 months is just a blip. It will happen when the time is right. 💕
You’re right 100% I know many people who try for much longer. I think I was extra upset because I was comparing it to my last pregnancy
First of all, thank you for sharing your life with us. The ups and the downs! We love you and support you through all of it, the positives and the negatives. I’m so sorry you’re going through it girl! This will ALL be worth it once you do get that positive. You know what, it’s actually going to make that positive test feel ever BETTER 💕 I’m over here cheering you on 🫶🏼 sending you all the love!
PS. 💜💜💜💜💜 we all knew you were going to test early lol. One of the reasons why we love you.
😭😭 you’re so freaking sweet, thank you so much. I seriously love you guys and you all just get it! You’re right, it’s only going to be that much more sweeter and special when that time comes 🥹♥️
💜 I feel you girl, have faith that’s it’s coming and hold onto that. All these frustrations and worries will likely become distant memories soon. I felt the same on our 1st, 2nd, 3rd and 4th cycle feeling like we did everything perfectly. So frustrating, thought it would never happen but then we conceived on the 5th cycle and all those worries seem so small now. It’s so hard when you’re in the thick of it! Baby dust ✨
Yup you’re so right!! It’s all emotional now but eventually it’ll be part of the story and be that much more sweet. Thank you for sharing, gives me hope 💜💜
I had 2 chemical pregnancies back to back I literally tested and got a faint positive and had my period the next day or 2 days after and this last cycle I said I wouldn’t test early but it would be hard not knowing if I miscarried or it was my period but point being I kept testing and the lines keep getting darker thank God 🥺💕 I’ll be praying for you don’t lose hope❤
That’s exactly why I test early. I am so sorry btw ♥️ I’m the kind of person that likes to know then rather out of sight, out of mind.
I have 4 kids and still wanted one more 13 months of trying on top of the fact iam 39 negative after negative with 3 chemicals in between I almost gave up but iam blessed to say that at 40 now with 13 months of trying am 6 months pregnant with baby girl it's OK to get mad it's OK to get sad and it's OK to want to just give up but your heart knows what it wants baby dust to you girly the hope it still there
That’s so amazing!!! Congratulations 🥹💜
Try to remember 3 cycles is nothing in the grand scheme of things. We tried for 2.5 years and now I’m 6 weeks with our miracle. Just give it time.
Definitely agree with your talk about both being able to coexist. 💜 I had a feeling you wouldn't wait 😂 Also, what is on your lips? I love the color!
You know me 😂💜 my lip balm is this one! rstyle.me/+pauwmKxKWQ9Nj7nKRVbFEQ
I totally get it! I do the same thing with the tests. I also say I’m done trying/worrying and I still do every month. I have been ttc 2 years and had 2 mc 💔 still waiting for my rainbow.
Praying so so hard you get your rainbow! 🥹♥️
Sending you so much love and positivity!! I feel you on the slang/cheesy sayings haha. I even feel like what I just said can be cheesy, but I swear it's genuine 💜
Same girl! Cheesy but real! 🫶♥️
Girl I agree about the hard times! Any parent wether 1,2,3...or more is gonna have a hard time at some point...and praying you get your BFP 🙏🍼 It will happen in God's timing 🙏 Take care and you got this...I. having that hard time tonight...one is teething and one is recently home from the NICU so I totally get it ❤️🙏
Thank you so much ♥️ oh wow, I’m hoping everything is okay with your nicu babe! That life is rough props to you mama! In it together 💕💕
@@ChristaHorathVlogs ☺️ Thank you ☺️
💜💜🤣🤣🤣 I tell myself not to test early every month but it just dont work!!! lol
Hahaha I’m glad I’m not the only one 🙃💜
💜 I’m sorry it didn’t happen again hopefully it’ll happen next cycle. I understand having a hard time with your kid or kids and still wanting more. I was told I was crazy for wanting another child by a OB because my daughter was tired during my appointment and was cranky. Hopefully we will both get pregnant again.
Thank you 💜💜 omg that is so rude! I get where people are coming from with that comment but yeah the two can coexist I believe
I have my fingers crossed for you 💕
Aww hun I've been there myself take a break for your own mental sanity ❤
Definitely feeling that 💗💗
I can remember the feeling of not getting pregnant, it took 1,5 year with our first, with 1 chemical in between, 4 cycles after the chemical was when i became pregnant with my son. The time in between was s**t... because i knew i was able to get pregnant, and i wanted it so badly. But the month before we conceived my son, i was like, oh well, screw it, let's just focus on something else, and keep our minds occupied on other things than ttc, and it did help. The mindset and shift is what was needed.
When the time is right, it will come.
I completely agree! Thanks for that reminder 💗
I don't know why, but I love testing. Even opk testing. I like knowing what's going on. That everything looks good. When I was pregnant before my miscarriage, I took a first response everyday to make sure the line was progressing. Honestly that's how I found out something wasn't right. At 5 weeks 4 days my lines didn't progress and they started getting lighter. So im glad I did it because I knew something wasn't right. It's so hard to ttc. We want that sense of control, even when we don't have much control even when we do things as perfect as we can. Currently waiting on my cycle after. I have no idea what's going to happen this month. 😕
You’re soooo right. Testing gives you that control to some degree and that’s why I test a lot and early. I would/will do the same thing and keep testing if I ever get a positive. I need to know so I can prepare myself of something goes wrong. I can’t just not think about it 💜
I’m wishing you all the best 💕
💜 💜💜🤣It will happen, don’t think about it so much!
I freaking love you not one but three 🤣😭💜
I feel ya girl. I had a feeling you were going to test early. It would either be test early or drive yourself crazy thinking about it.
Exactly! I can’t just forget about it and wait 😩
💜💜💜 So sorry things didn't work out this month, have you thought about seeing if your tubes are still open or doing any other testing just to see?
💜💜 I’m not at that point yet and honestly wouldn’t probably even go down that route. If it’s not meant to be, I can be at peace with that 🤍
@@ChristaHorathVlogs That's understandable, well I'm wishing you all the baby dust!!! 💗👶
💜sending some TTC love and support
Thank you so much 🥰💜
It's really up to you at the end of the day if you want to have another child. I honestly believe you will get pregnant soon as you're not expecting it. ❤ sprinkling baby dust your way hun. ✨️
Thank u so much!! 🥰
I hate taking the cheaper ones because i took two of them and they were positive and then i took two more they was negative so i took a clear blue test a few days later and it was positive i was so confused so now I’m expecting baby number 2
I hate them too 😂 I would just buy first response tests only but I’d be spending a small fortune monthly 🙃 awwww congratulations I’m so happy for you!!!
@@ChristaHorathVlogs 😂 and thank you 🥺❤️ baby dust sprinkles 🥰❤️ for you because pregnancy is very tricky and it hit us so unexpectedly
I have been trying for 8 months with my husband and i think the month it happened we didnt have sex during the implantation window. Idk perhaps you know it already but i didnt know this little trick. As always baby dust to you ✨️
No, I’ve never heard that before!
Testing early to know doesnt help because if its negative, you keep testing and keep stressing :(
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I swear I felt your disappointment through my phone I'm at work watching.. I understand where you're coming from Still commenting while watching bt the way...
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Ok… what sign are you?? I’m new to your channel but I’m TTC also and we are very similar. Female Aquarius here 👹lol… also I just got my period and I’m going through it so this video is very in the mood with my feelings … told myself I’ll move forward and keep trying ❤
I’m a cancer sun Leo rising and an Aries moon! My son is double aqua!! I’m sorry you’re feeling similar, it’s such an emotional rollercoaster!
I’m hoping it happens for you soon 💕
You’re so pretty I just want to die lmao
Caitlyn Neijer has a discount code to a lab that measures your fertility chemicals. It was accurate for her.
I don’t think I’d ever get to that point but you never know! Thanks ☺️
You are trying to hard, just let it happen, I used to try to get pregnant, than I gave up and it happen. Good luck
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You know me very very well 🤣♥️
@@ChristaHorathVlogs I would be the same way. I have no patience at all.
💜 sending baby dust ur way! its perfectly normal to have those harder times with the kids and still want more. I have a 7yo son and a 1yo son and I'm currently having problems out of both and some days seem almost impossible! It does get better tho so stay strong u got this.
Yes! Thank you! ♥️
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It took me 8 years to get pregnant with 1 miscarriage sprinkled in there. It’ll happen at some point if it’s suppose to.
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Maybe giving yourself a break will take the pressure off of you?
That’s what I’ve been feeling..
And it is not Gods timing either. Stop stressing that don’t help you get pregnant. Good Luck
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