LIVES LOST - NUMB THE PAIN (STREAM VIDEO)

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NUMB THE PAIN
WRITTEN BY TANIS PELLEGRINI, LIVES LOST
PREPRODUCTION BY LEE FENSTAMAKER
ENGINEERED BY EVAN SEEBERGER, JEFF MCKINNON
PRODUCED BY JEFF MCKINNON, LIVES LOST
MIX/MASTER BY JEFF MCKINNON
about the song:
NUMB THE PAIN is a song about my personal struggles with addiction. Through an involuntary committal to a Mental Hospital on the eve of my 18th birthday. I was then introduced to prescription painkillers from another person on the adult unit I was placed in, and began a descent into substance abuse.
My teens and early 20s were filled with struggles with my mental health due to an unstable environment at home which lead me to Combine my already existing Alcohol use with traumatic brain injuries, and my tumultuous homelife, I was heading in the wrong direction. I began acting out, and doing whatever I could to risk take.Leading inevitably to several involuntary commitments and being kicked out of my parents' house right after my final inpatient stay.
For me, this song is incredible personal, and as with most of our lyrical content is rooted deeply in my reality. We all struggle with something, and this is a song about how this manifests physically and mentally. I am so blessed to be here. Thank you for reading, and please enjoy
LYRICS:
Verse 1
I think I've lost my nerve
My mind runs in circles. I can't shake this curse
I've learned to hate myself
Feel the shame
Buried in memories that hurt
vocal turnaround
I look inside. What do I see
This person I hate staring back at me
(Pills won't set me free)
Chorus:
Medicate
Let the mirror lie (i see that im not fine)
Numb the pain
I close my eyes
Nothing left
There is no place to hide
Numb the pain
I close my eyes
These pills aren't working
My face flushes red
So much for coping
Fuck what you said
The voice inside my head
"Burn it now flip it all upside down "
Drink up Blackout again
Out again
out again
I look in the mirror what do I see
This person I hate staring back at me
THIS HELL IN MY HEAD
AM I BETTER OFF DEAD
Chorus
Medicate
Let the mirror lie (i see that im not fine)
Numb the pain
I close my eyes
Nothing left
No place to hide
Numb the pain
I close my eyes
Burn it down burn it down hope my life will turnaround
Im blacking out my feet wont touch the ground
Addicted to fame
Prescribe me some pain
Prison inside
My vision will fade
Everything
Everything
Pills won't set me free
Chorus (x2)
Medicate
Let the mirror lie (i see that im not fine)
Numb the pain
I close my eyes
Nothing left
No place to hide
Numb the pain
I close my eyes
Am I better off dead

[@DystopianApocalypse]

Wow i have a similar testimony, God willing i got better only to fall off again. Now it's just alcohol, but yeah. Meth induced psychosis, abuse, violent fits of rage, jail, rehab, homelessness...list goes on. Almost attempted s*****
I'm still here, struggling, but I'm still alive and breathing so that's ultimately great.
The disease still has me in it's grasp bit I'm alot better than i was in my 20's.
May Christ be with you, keep you, and give you release from pain.
God bless everyone in the fight against addiction and poor mental health issues.

[@hyraxing]

I've just found another banger🔥 Love from Japan❤🇯🇵

[@liveslostband]

Thank you so much, welcome to the Lost Family

[@codyb6849]

Man you don’t know how much l love you guys for what you do and the love I have for metal core and metal music this is beyond amazing magical an beautiful an glad you got your self on the right road an helped your self an the support for you to an I’m happy to be one of your supporters to an glad you doing awesome now making the best music ever on the planet earth an hope you get more comments on this song cause I went though things to in my life I wasn’t happy about either but I got myself back the way I need to go an thanks for this song

[@liveslostband]

That is truly wonderful. Thank you so much for saying this and sharing. We appreciate you in the lost family

[@liveslostband]

a thank you 🦋❤️

[@codyb6849]

@@liveslostband your very welcome my friend and friends an music is my happiness my therapy to am healing an I’m glad to be part of your band family to love Cody an can’t wait to hear what else u guys got coming up much love guys

[@supasyze8453]

I've been in recovery from opioids since March 18, 2018. Yeah. It's true. Living with Complex Regional Pain Syndrome (CRPS), had 9 spinal injections, 9 surgeries, a spinal stimulator, and fusion. I struggle daily, but stuff like this is powerful. Thanks.

[@liveslostband]

We do recover. Thank you for sharing your experience, and I hope that your struggle with pain becomes more bearable. We are so glad you're here and in recover 🙏❤️🦋

[@dennishaley5348]

all you do is drop bangers!!! love it!!

[@liveslostband]

Thank you so much Dennis 🙏❤️

[@LouiseBaxter-ld7ok]

Awesome track. New subscriber ❤

[@liveslostband]

Thank you so much for saying that, and welcome to the family lost one ❤️🙏

[@UnadeAnime]

First time listening and, I really like it! Hope to hear more of you soon. Keep going guys 🔥

[@liveslostband]

Thank you so much for saying that, and welcome to the Lost family

[@yuiitsu4595]

Love this! Gotta sub from me

[@liveslostband]

Thank you so much 🙏❤️🦋