Wow Pook. I am so blown away by your openness and honesty. It’s never easy confessing out loud our biggest mistakes or bad choices. I admire you for so many things Alex. You are a beautiful woman inside and out and I am so blessed to be able to call you my friend. Thank you for sharing this in depth the way you did. I pray it helps many people. ❤️ Love you so much ❤️ (See you soon!)
Pookie thank you 😭 Your support means SO much to me. No one knows me quite like you do and you still love me dearly and unconditionally, forever and always. Love you SO much and can’t wait to seeeee youuuuu eeeeeeeek!
I had no idea you feel like abortions are a mistake. I didn't realize you have such right winged out there views. It's heartbreaking to know this woman is one of your best friend. She wanted to open a pregnancy crisis center when those places are well known to be disgusting places. It's ignorant and just pathetic to have this type of mentality. I really thought you were so much more enlightened Christina. I am one of your patrons and I'm heart broken to know you support her agenda.
I speak with a medium and she has been very open about our life missions. She once said that when you abort your baby, or have a miscarriage, their soul is sent back up until you are ready for them. And the soul will stay up there until you have a baby. So in other words your first baby you had was actually the three abortions you have had. It’s the same soul. She waited until you were ready. I’m sorry if you don’t believe in that. I don’t mean to force it on you. It was just a thought , a comforting one at that ❤️ But great video! I’m sure it will def help many women!
I love that you feel the freedom to express what you believe while also honoring that others may believe differently. This sort of peacefulness is so needed in the world!
What an amazing testimony. I hope this helps many women. May God continue to bless you. As someone that never had an abortion, but miscarried multiple times, I never understood why someone could willingly have an abortion. Thinking about it, made me angry. Your testimony really softened my heart, this must have been a heavy video to make, but I’m thankful you did.
I’m so sorry I missed this comment somehow! First of all, I’m so sorry for your losses and pray you’ve found healing from those traumas. 💚 I knew when I shared this there there’d be women who had miscarried and felt anger over the choice to abort. I’m so thankful to hear that this was helpful in softening your heart in some way. Abortion is still tragic and heartbreaking, but we really never know the story behind the decision and often knowing those details can help us feel more compassion, not just in the area of abortion but in life in general. It was definitely hard to share, but I’m thankful for the grace and compassion I’ve received as I’ve opened up about it. Thank you for being here and for taking the time to hear my story. 💚
Women can do it because one we can be scared. And then two we believe a lie. People can be so compassionate leading us down that parh. Then the door shuts after us and it is hell after. That's how pro choice works. Listen to how compassionate they are leading women into the one and only option they really discuss with them.
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I have had 4, and i am also an addict. I tried to block them for most of my life, ive just recently been thinking about what i had done. Its not easy
Enjoyed watching your story, I know exactly how you feel. I found you through Christina R and plan to binge watch all your videos. You 3 girls are amazing and Through watching you 3 girls, let’s me know god is so real and can change a person no matter what kind of life they have lived. Your beautiful inside and out. 🙏❤️
I also found you through Christina Your story is mine unfortunately I am still dealing with this and addiction I believe I found you through my faith also
I missed so many comments somehow, I’m sorry yours was one of them! Thank you so much for your grace and kindness and support. It means so much to me! 💚
You seem like an amazing person, intelligent and compassionate. 💞 The women I know who have had abortions regret it now so much. Great video made. So helpful to so many people. God bless you and your family 💞
Sorry for the delay in me reply! I apparently missed quite a few comments somehow. Thank you so much, your kind words mean a lot to me. No stranger has to take the time to comment with positivity - I’m so thankful you did. 💚
I really haven't been in or had any of these issues but your video is very inspirational and I feel so much for you and what you went through very nice video I know it will help people in need to make it through bad times they are living
I can’t tell you how much this impacted me! I have always had a strong feeling towards women who have had abortions, Christian women who I want to follow. But abortions was always a strong no for me, i had a miscarriage and I couldn’t see where people could go to abort a baby. But I wasn’t exposed to the life you lived. And I sincerely thank you for opening my eyes and sharing your story!!! You are an amazing mama and woman!
I’m so thankful to hear it was impactful for you! You taking the time to comment and share this perspective shift with me is encouraging to ME as well. Abortion is absolutely horrible. But compassion heals 💚
I took a lot of benzos thru out my drug use. I cannot remember so much of those days. It's very frustrating!! I'm so jealous of people who can remember details!!😏
Yes, benzos were often in the mix for me. Really anything I could get was in the mix, but benzos were usually present. So much I don’t remember! And yet, so much I DO remember. 😬
Same. My memory is horrible and when people talk about those years I have completely forgotten or I need reminders. It sucks but it is what it is. 3 year clean which is what counts now.
Did you have to detox in jail or prison? Can you make a video about that if so... I've had 3 too.. I don't tell people because I'm ashamed..first was when I was 19.. my daughter was born at 29 weeks because of my stupid decisions and having a prolapsed cord!!
Rachel, wow! Thank you for sharing that. I understand the shame. I hope you found some encouragement here - you are not alone! I did have to detox in jail, but it’s sort of a blur (what else is new lol). I’ll consider doing a video about it but I’ll have to think about how to share it all without having tons of details.
Two days ago was Mother's Day and I have had a really hard time with it because I also had one. I believed the lie and somehow thought I could have this baby later. THIS baby, not just another baby. Somehow that's what they make it to seem like. I was 24. I could have done fine. But I didn't want to be tied to that guy. It was more about him. Well I am now 51 and I was never able to get pregnant again. And I was divorced at 49. And I am too old now to birth a baby plus no where near ready for a relationship. I keep hearing in my head "a baby on a shelf" meaning I can just put that baby up on a shelf for later when I am ready. And that I can have THAT baby when I am ready. I actually named her and took very good care of her up until the very moment. She didn't go on a shelf. And I never got to have her. It's all an evil lie. And people were so nice and supportive until "the moment." Then that door slams and a new one opens up to the evilness and the chastisement of what I did. And people hate me for it. It took me many years to forgive myself. But then I sometimes feel ashamed that I forgave myself for that. I can't stand when I hear about "choice" because they don't explain. I know other women are hearing something similar, like we can plan to have our baby later when we are ready, like putting this baby on a shelf and when we are ready we can go to that shelf and just resume where we left off, like we marked our spot in a book or something. It doesn't work like that. And I don't think as dumb as at sounds that women realize they can't just pick up with THAT baby when they are ready.
Thank you for being so open and candid. This is what it's all about. Sharing experiences and supporting each other. Videos like these are so important and therapeutic. Much love to you!! (.. and to the giant Monstera next to you. Would love to see more of it. Haha)
I’m sorry I missed this! Thank you SO much for your kindness and support. And for your love of my giant monstera haha! It used to be 3x that size 😳 it was overwhelming so I cut it back quite a bit. But it’s very quickly taking over again hahaha!
I pray that anyone considering abortion sees this video and chooses life for both their unborn child and themselves. I pray that every nonbeliever who sees your video or hears your story accepts Jesus as their Lord and Savior. Thank you for your faithfulness.
Lexi, just I saw your prison at 21 video from Christina’s channel. I don’t know if you found anything for your daughter’s RA yet, but, I’ve had RA for 40 years, Daughter got it at about 19. We are both on Xeljanz and it is amazing for us. I think I’ve been on it for about three years or more and daughter about a year and a half.I think it can be expensive, but the company does work with you and I believe it’s going generic in 2021 if I’m not correct; best wishes.
She’s on Actemra now, and we have an appt tomorrow to see if it’s working. Last time it wasn’t doing much but now she’s been on it 8 months or so, so we’ll see! I’ll keep Xeljanz in mind, I’ve definitely heard of it! I’m so glad it’s working for you and your daughter! 💚
Thanks for speaking up The grief doesn't leave. "Jesus met the woman at the well" This song comes to mind I didn't get to have a baby. That would have been me looking down at my baby in gratefulness and feeling complete.
The abortion doctor more than likely wanted you to have a higher dose due to concerns of a high tolerance he thought you may have had. Not because he/she thought you were a junkie that would appreciate the extra high.
Great question, thanks for asking. I’ve definitely considered that, but what makes me feel that wasn’t the case is how flippantly and....weirdly...they asked me if I wanted to see the baby. It all felt very apathetic. I could of course be wrong, so I can’t say for SURE they were “catering to me”, but it did feel very off, and in context I do remember feeling like it was something they shouldn’t be doing (giving “extra” drugs). Also, I don’t know that my drug use would affect my ability to respond to anesthesia anyway, but I haven’t researched that at all!
@@Theslowandsteadyhomestead I'm sorry all of that happened. But I can't help to think this was the way you had to go to be where you are at now. Like do you think you would have went to religious school if not for your story. I hope that comes across how I mean it, in love and kindness and respect
@@crayCray420 it definitely came across respectful, and I agree - it all happened the way it did for a reason! It’s hard to think about what-ifs because there are so many factors haha, BUT I know that my story has made me who I am and I’m thankful for that, despite the painful things I’ve experienced in the process!
Consistency is so hard for me, but I’m working on it! I have more things I want to share but it’s a lot to do with three kids running around haha! However I got a ring light so I can record at night after they’re in bed. That should help a lot! 😅
Did you pay for each of the abortions? That might have something to do w the level of care you received I feel the one I had paid for was a better experience from what I gather from your story. Also curious if you were on birth control at any point
Great question! Although I wasn’t living at home, I was still under my mom’s insurance, and it covered it all three times. And I was on birth control once for a short period of time at 15. I haven’t been on it at any point since!
Because what does it make sense to actually go through the birth pain just to end up childless. Don't forget that giving birth alone is a 50/50 life or death situation. A lot of women would rather not go through that for a child that they don't want.
Wow Pook. I am so blown away by your openness and honesty. It’s never easy confessing out loud our biggest mistakes or bad choices. I admire you for so many things Alex. You are a beautiful woman inside and out and I am so blessed to be able to call you my friend. Thank you for sharing this in depth the way you did. I pray it helps many people. ❤️ Love you so much ❤️
(See you soon!)
Pookie thank you 😭 Your support means SO much to me. No one knows me quite like you do and you still love me dearly and unconditionally, forever and always. Love you SO much and can’t wait to seeeee youuuuu eeeeeeeek!
I cannot wait for another video of your amazingly beautiful friendship 💗
I had no idea you feel like abortions are a mistake. I didn't realize you have such right winged out there views. It's heartbreaking to know this woman is one of your best friend. She wanted to open a pregnancy crisis center when those places are well known to be disgusting places. It's ignorant and just pathetic to have this type of mentality. I really thought you were so much more enlightened Christina. I am one of your patrons and I'm heart broken to know you support her agenda.
@@NormaJean951 God is love.
I speak with a medium and she has been very open about our life missions. She once said that when you abort your baby, or have a miscarriage, their soul is sent back up until you are ready for them. And the soul will stay up there until you have a baby. So in other words your first baby you had was actually the three abortions you have had. It’s the same soul. She waited until you were ready. I’m sorry if you don’t believe in that. I don’t mean to force it on you. It was just a thought , a comforting one at that ❤️
But great video! I’m sure it will def help many women!
I love that you feel the freedom to express what you believe while also honoring that others may believe differently. This sort of peacefulness is so needed in the world!
Very good job at presenting your story. My heart aches and rejoices with you. I pray this will help heal some women.
Thank you for both aching and rejoicing with me. I’m really grateful for you.
And that is my prayer, too!
What an amazing testimony. I hope this helps many women. May God continue to bless you.
As someone that never had an abortion, but miscarried multiple times, I never understood why someone could willingly have an abortion. Thinking about it, made me angry.
Your testimony really softened my heart, this must have been a heavy video to make, but I’m thankful you did.
I’m so sorry I missed this comment somehow!
First of all, I’m so sorry for your losses and pray you’ve found healing from those traumas. 💚
I knew when I shared this there there’d be women who had miscarried and felt anger over the choice to abort. I’m so thankful to hear that this was helpful in softening your heart in some way. Abortion is still tragic and heartbreaking, but we really never know the story behind the decision and often knowing those details can help us feel more compassion, not just in the area of abortion but in life in general.
It was definitely hard to share, but I’m thankful for the grace and compassion I’ve received as I’ve opened up about it. Thank you for being here and for taking the time to hear my story. 💚
@@Theslowandsteadyhomestead, You’re welcome! I wish you the very best.
Women can do it because one we can be scared. And then two we believe a lie. People can be so compassionate leading us down that parh. Then the door shuts after us and it is hell after.
That's how pro choice works. Listen to how compassionate they are leading women into the one and only option they really discuss with them.
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I have had 4, and i am also an addict. I tried to block them for most of my life, ive just recently been thinking about what i had done. Its not easy
There is so much forgiveness and healing for those decisions. I pray you are well and that you have felt some relief of the heaviness. 💚
Thankful for the Grace and Mercy of God! You are a living testimony of that Grace and Mercy.
Hi Pat, thank you for commenting. Amen to all of that!
Wow I didn't think I would like your channel enough to go from video to video and not get bored !!!I'm here from grandmas channel 🤣
Enjoyed watching your story, I know exactly how you feel. I found you through Christina R and plan to binge watch all your videos. You 3 girls are amazing and Through watching you 3 girls, let’s me know god is so real and can change a person no matter what kind of life they have lived. Your beautiful inside and out. 🙏❤️
Thank you so much! Yes He is and yes He can!
I also found you through Christina Your story is mine unfortunately I am still dealing with this and addiction I believe I found you through my faith also
Why has this not had more views honestly you are a blessing you've come through the bad time an changed your life around it takes alot to do it 🥰🥰🥰
I missed so many comments somehow, I’m sorry yours was one of them! Thank you so much for your grace and kindness and support. It means so much to me! 💚
@@Theslowandsteadyhomestead aw thankyou it means alot that you noticed your are awesome just like christina says you are much love an hugs 🤗💖
Thx for sharing 💗💗😘 you are so strong! Found you thru Jess Kent, pls do more story times. 😘
Thanks for being here and watching!
And I hope to! I’m horribly inconsistent but want to get better at it lol.
You seem like an amazing person, intelligent and compassionate. 💞
The women I know who have had abortions regret it now so much. Great video made. So helpful to so many people. God bless you and your family 💞
Sorry for the delay in me reply! I apparently missed quite a few comments somehow. Thank you so much, your kind words mean a lot to me. No stranger has to take the time to comment with positivity - I’m so thankful you did. 💚
Thank you for sharing! This is very moving. I've missed you!
I really haven't been in or had any of these issues but your video is very inspirational and I feel so much for you and what you went through very nice video I know it will help people in need to make it through bad times they are living
I can’t tell you how much this impacted me! I have always had a strong feeling towards women who have had abortions, Christian women who I want to follow. But abortions was always a strong no for me, i had a miscarriage and I couldn’t see where people could go to abort a baby. But I wasn’t exposed to the life you lived. And I sincerely thank you for opening my eyes and sharing your story!!! You are an amazing mama and woman!
I’m so thankful to hear it was impactful for you! You taking the time to comment and share this perspective shift with me is encouraging to ME as well. Abortion is absolutely horrible. But compassion heals 💚
Only you can wear your shoes.
No one can walk in them or tell you how to walk in them.
We all have a path to walk. 🕊️💜🕊️
Thank you for sharing your testimony it gives me hope❤
Thank you so much for sharing your story. ❤️
I took a lot of benzos thru out my drug use. I cannot remember so much of those days. It's very frustrating!! I'm so jealous of people who can remember details!!😏
Yes, benzos were often in the mix for me. Really anything I could get was in the mix, but benzos were usually present. So much I don’t remember! And yet, so much I DO remember. 😬
Same. My memory is horrible and when people talk about those years I have completely forgotten or I need reminders. It sucks but it is what it is. 3 year clean which is what counts now.
Thank You for Sharing Your Testimony it takes courage. Thankful for the Restoration Love of Jesus💕🙌🏿 ~ Margarita
Did you have to detox in jail or prison? Can you make a video about that if so... I've had 3 too.. I don't tell people because I'm ashamed..first was when I was 19.. my daughter was born at 29 weeks because of my stupid decisions and having a prolapsed cord!!
Rachel, wow! Thank you for sharing that. I understand the shame. I hope you found some encouragement here - you are not alone!
I did have to detox in jail, but it’s sort of a blur (what else is new lol). I’ll consider doing a video about it but I’ll have to think about how to share it all without having tons of details.
Nurse Rachel RN just remember it's not how you start .......... it's how you end your race ........,, blessings
Two days ago was Mother's Day and I have had a really hard time with it because I also had one. I believed the lie and somehow thought I could have this baby later. THIS baby, not just another baby. Somehow that's what they make it to seem like. I was 24. I could have done fine. But I didn't want to be tied to that guy. It was more about him. Well I am now 51 and I was never able to get pregnant again. And I was divorced at 49. And I am too old now to birth a baby plus no where near ready for a relationship.
I keep hearing in my head "a baby on a shelf" meaning I can just put that baby up on a shelf for later when I am ready. And that I can have THAT baby when I am ready. I actually named her and took very good care of her up until the very moment.
She didn't go on a shelf. And I never got to have her. It's all an evil lie. And people were so nice and supportive until "the moment." Then that door slams and a new one opens up to the evilness and the chastisement of what I did. And people hate me for it.
It took me many years to forgive myself. But then I sometimes feel ashamed that I forgave myself for that.
I can't stand when I hear about "choice" because they don't explain. I know other women are hearing something similar, like we can plan to have our baby later when we are ready, like putting this baby on a shelf and when we are ready we can go to that shelf and just resume where we left off, like we marked our spot in a book or something.
It doesn't work like that. And I don't think as dumb as at sounds that women realize they can't just pick up with THAT baby when they are ready.
Thank you for being so open and candid. This is what it's all about. Sharing experiences and supporting each other. Videos like these are so important and therapeutic. Much love to you!! (.. and to the giant Monstera next to you. Would love to see more of it. Haha)
I’m sorry I missed this! Thank you SO much for your kindness and support. And for your love of my giant monstera haha! It used to be 3x that size 😳 it was overwhelming so I cut it back quite a bit. But it’s very quickly taking over again hahaha!
God bless you Alex.
I pray that anyone considering abortion sees this video and chooses life for both their unborn child and themselves. I pray that every nonbeliever who sees your video or hears your story accepts Jesus as their Lord and Savior. Thank you for your faithfulness.
Lexi, just I saw your prison at 21 video from Christina’s channel. I don’t know if you found anything for your daughter’s RA yet, but, I’ve had RA for 40 years, Daughter got it at about 19. We are both on Xeljanz and it is amazing for us. I think I’ve been on it for about three years or more and daughter about a year and a half.I think it can be expensive, but the company does work with you and I believe it’s going generic in 2021 if I’m not correct; best wishes.
She’s on Actemra now, and we have an appt tomorrow to see if it’s working. Last time it wasn’t doing much but now she’s been on it 8 months or so, so we’ll see! I’ll keep Xeljanz in mind, I’ve definitely heard of it! I’m so glad it’s working for you and your daughter! 💚
Thanks for speaking up
The grief doesn't leave.
"Jesus met the woman at the well"
This song comes to mind
I didn't get to have a baby.
That would have been me looking down at my baby in gratefulness and feeling complete.
I'm so sorry, sweet one. And you're right- the grief remains. I hope you know you're loved in the midst of it.
@@Theslowandsteadyhomestead thank you
You are so strong!! Sending you love and ligjt!!
The abortion doctor more than likely wanted you to have a higher dose due to concerns of a high tolerance he thought you may have had. Not because he/she thought you were a junkie that would appreciate the extra high.
She's very delusional. Unless she was super far along there was no baby pieces. That's just insanely stupid.
I love the way you talk about this. So healing.
Thank you! That is such a kind thing to say. I’m so glad you feel that way!
Question at 14 minutes you spoke of the doctor. Could it be because to get the same effect you had to have more meds? I guess I am just hoping.
Great question, thanks for asking. I’ve definitely considered that, but what makes me feel that wasn’t the case is how flippantly and....weirdly...they asked me if I wanted to see the baby. It all felt very apathetic. I could of course be wrong, so I can’t say for SURE they were “catering to me”, but it did feel very off, and in context I do remember feeling like it was something they shouldn’t be doing (giving “extra” drugs).
Also, I don’t know that my drug use would affect my ability to respond to anesthesia anyway, but I haven’t researched that at all!
@@Theslowandsteadyhomestead I'm sorry all of that happened. But I can't help to think this was the way you had to go to be where you are at now. Like do you think you would have went to religious school if not for your story. I hope that comes across how I mean it, in love and kindness and respect
@@crayCray420 it definitely came across respectful, and I agree - it all happened the way it did for a reason! It’s hard to think about what-ifs because there are so many factors haha, BUT I know that my story has made me who I am and I’m thankful for that, despite the painful things I’ve experienced in the process!
Your amazing your beautiful and you deserve to have a great life !!! You've done the work !!!
I've missed you!!!! Where have you been!!
Consistency is so hard for me, but I’m working on it! I have more things I want to share but it’s a lot to do with three kids running around haha! However I got a ring light so I can record at night after they’re in bed. That should help a lot! 😅
@@Theslowandsteadyhomestead good I'm excited to see future videos. I know the kids keep you really busy.
Beautiful story 😍🙏🏻
You have made mistakes but God forgives you
Amen!
I’m pro choice if you keep or abortion it’s your body your choice
All three were surgical abortion or medical abortion?
All were surgical.
@@Theslowandsteadyhomestead so did it affect your future pregnancies
@@As-de3ee it has not, no. I have four children, most recently had a baby last September. 💚
Did you pay for each of the abortions? That might have something to do w the level of care you received I feel the one I had paid for was a better experience from what I gather from your story. Also curious if you were on birth control at any point
Great question! Although I wasn’t living at home, I was still under my mom’s insurance, and it covered it all three times.
And I was on birth control once for a short period of time at 15. I haven’t been on it at any point since!
Hellow ,after that all situation of aborting 3 babies are yu having babe now?
Yes! Four wonderful babies. 💚
Glad to hear that 🥺🥺♥️@@Theslowandsteadyhomestead
Does having multiple abortions cause infertility? I’m talking bout the abortion pill
Jesus loves you
❤❤❤
❤️🌸
How can a abortion be a right decision when adoptions is a thing
Because what does it make sense to actually go through the birth pain just to end up childless. Don't forget that giving birth alone is a 50/50 life or death situation. A lot of women would rather not go through that for a child that they don't want.