its funny he came to my city but i didn't know who he was then... So i didn't go! The next day everyone at school was talking about it... so i started listening to him and now i regret not going... Worst mistake in my life.
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mom just died a couple hours ago to an overdose. Told her I was listening to this song and crying months ago and she promised me this would never happen. Thanks for helping me get through this dude. God bless.
You have a point there, but I'm saying that songs that are on the radio now have lyrics that either have absolutely no meaning, or that have a meaning that's absurd. I'd rather some NF song be playing then another shitty Drake song that's on there just because it has "Drake" as its artist.
why isn't this good for the radio? because most people are afraid of their emotions or showing sadness at all? when most people are depressed but pretend they feel fine, that isn't healthy. The music on the radio just aids in the cover up of their actual feelings by listening to meaningless bullshit
In the end of the song where Nathan does his monologue you can hear all his anger and frustration toward his mother to the point where he's crying but what really got me was the very last sentence "wish you were here". you can really hear Nates inner child that just wants to be held by his mother. It's so vulnerable and pure because even though he's frustrated at his mom, in the end, she's still his mom and he loves her and he still has that little kid inside of him that wants to be like the other kids with both of their parents being able to support them at their graduation and other important events. And just that little piece was just so powerful to me. God Bless you Nate.
Wow, this song hit so close to home for me. Got a little emotional at work. My mom died getting hit by a car while walking into work :( She was into drugs too, so it was a perfect song to relate to. Thanks NF.
...wheres the relation...she got hit by a fucking car and did not overdose! ...what drugs was she into...she still had a workplace to go to...thats lucky...other mums prostitute themselves for a few bucks just to get some heroin or crack...it can always get worse...
@@insel8131 jeez man a mothers death is hard for anyone whether she was addicted to drugs or not you don't have to be toxic to someone that said the song hit so close to home and why don't u tell us how hard ur life was Mr.sadlife
I can barely survive listening to this song without shedding a tear and I've never had to go through a death in my close family, so I can't imagine what its like if you have had to go through something like this.
this song touched me in the Heart it's the same with my dad I needed him and he had to go I hated when he left and he left my mom all alone for 8 years then we found out he died 😢😢😢😭😭😭😭😭
I literally cried . this explains my life right now and the struggle of my mom going crazy. and left me when I was a little kid. and pills controlling everyone in my life . thanks man this song really makes me happy and helps me know im not the only one struggling with this stuff.
Same hun... the opioid epidemic is so real.... praying for all the children watching their parents wither away to those pills... some days I’m weak some days I’m strong some days I’m numb completely....
if you listen close, you can hear the pain in his voice. the lyrics scream it. and I relate to it so so so much. I don't have parents. I have a rare voice on the phone and a cold absence.
It's a horrible thing to endure I'm sure. I've almost lost my mom to drugs many times, she just can't seem to find a reason to quit for good. I hope you know you're not alone. I'll be praying for you, man.
Lyrics How could you leave us so unexpected? We waited, we waited For you but you just left us We needed you, I needed you Yo, I don't know what it's like to be addicted to pills But I do know what it's like to be a witness, it kills Mama told me she love me, I'm thinking this isn't real I think of you when I get a whiff of that cigarette smell, yeah Welcome to the bottom of hell They say pain is a prison, let me out of my cell You say you proud of me, but you don't know me that well Sit in my room, tears running down my face and I yell Into my pillowcases, say you coming to get us Then call a minute later just to tell us you not, I'm humiliated I'm in a room with a parent that I barely know Some lady in the corner watching us, while she taking notes I don't get it mom, don't you want to watch your babies grow? I guess pills are more important, all you have to say is "no" But you won't do it, will you? You gon' keep popping 'til those pills kill you I know you gone but I can still feel you Why would you leave us? Why would you leave us? How could you leave us here? How could you leave us? Why would you leave us? Oh Hey I got this picture in my room and it kills me But I don't need a picture of my mom, I need the real thing Now a relationship is something we won't ever have Why do I feel like I lost something that I never had? You shoulda been there when I graduated Told me you love me and congratulations Instead you left us at the window waiting Where you at mom? We're too young to understand, where you at huh? Yeah, I know them drugs got you held captive I can see it in your eyes, they got your mind captured Some say it's fun to get the high but I am not laughing And what you don't realise and what you not grasping That I was nothing but a kid who couldn't understand I ain't gon' say that I forgive you 'cause it hasn't happened I thought that maybe I feel better as time passes If you really cared for me, then where you at then? Why would you leave us? Why would you leave us? How could you leave us here? How would you leave us? Why would you leave us? Oh Hey Our last conversation, you and I sat in the living room Talking 'bout my music and I brought you something to listen to You started crying, telling me this isn't you A couple weeks later, guess you were singing a different tune You took them pills for the last time, didn't you? They took you from us once, guess they came back to finish you Crying my eyes out in the studio is difficult Music is the only place that I can go to speak to you It took me everything inside of me to not scream at your funeral Sitting in my chair, that person talking was pitiful I wish you were here mama but every time I picture you All I feel is pain, I hate the way I remember you They found you on the floor, I could tell that you felt hollow Gave everything you had plus your life to them pill bottles You gave everything you had plus your life to them pill bottles Don't know if you hear me or not, but if you still watching, why? Why would you leave us? Why would you leave us? How could you leave us here? How would you leave us? Why would you leave us? Oh Hey Sometimes I think about like Sometimes I think about things like, you know When I have kids, I'm like You won't be there, you know? You won't be there for any of that And I'll never get to see you again Sometimes I wish I would've just called you I wish I would've just picked up the phone, wish you were here I mean you should've been there for us, you should have been here Them pills got you, right? Them pills got you, right? I wish you were here
@@baublesanddolls what are those emojis!?! also, its for people who cant hear the lyrics in case theyre unclear. in this case, nate didnt have many background noises, so it wasnt very necessary. still appreciate it though!
lolkhdj bfbdbd He compares himself to Eminem actually (he says he grew up on him, like I did). Regardless, it was a complement about an artist I had just run into.
He does, because it makes sense. Eminem inspires a LOT of rappers. Eminem is the "rap god", so to be compared to him, or say Eminem inspired him, it just shows that he's normal.
You don't find it odd that God allows this kind of pain to exist? You ever questioned whether all the suffering in the world is something a caring God would allow?
Daniel White Nope, God allows suffering because otherwise we wouldn't have free will and we all would be controlled by God. He says that he will not give us a burden that is too big for us. So that is why he allows suffering.
David Michael "Daniel White Nope, God allows suffering because otherwise we wouldn't have free will and we all would be controlled by God. He says that he will not give us a burden that is too big for us. So that is why he allows suffering." So people committing suicide (which is a thing, you might want to look it up) is not evidence of God giving people a burden they can't handle. Have you ever met an addict? Do these people strike you as capable of handling their burden? Have you seen someone hurt the people around them, know that they are doing it and yet seem unable to stop? It is very generous of God to only burden us with things that we can handle but you would think a truly loving God would, you know, not burden people with crushing depression for example.
Daniel White A lot of people who kill themselves don't believe. My dad almost died in the hospital. He was going to die. He had a blockage in his intestines in many many places. He barely had a chance to survive. He had cancer on top of that all. My mom came home crying, knowing she's going to lose him because he had limited time. The doctors were positive he wasn't going to make it out of that hospital alive. The next day, I took a day off of school to go visit him. All of the blockage cleared up except one small spot. It was safe to do surgery to remove that spot in the intestines. We got more time with him. He made it out alive unlike what doctors thought. He passed away about two weeks ago from the cancer. But we got longer time. He wasn't suppose to make it out of that hospital alive. But he did. You may say "But he still died," I get that but he live longer. He fought stage 4 colon cancer for almost 2 years. He was given the strength to fight it until the cancer had spread too much. He was in pain his last few days. He was relieved from it but in a depressing way but he made it a longer time than the average. We were able to go on the last vacation that he wanted with us. He didn't complain of pain once. He was given strength and he believed in God.
Daniel White I stopped believing at one point and during that time, I was diagnosed by a doctor with depression. I slowly began believing again for personal reasons and I started feeling happier with myself. I felt happier in general. I have the strength to make it though everything that's going on. I still have moments where I cry just like everyone else. But I still know that I'll get through it.
He cried, real Tears, real, raw emotion. poured his heart, soul, and his tears in to this. respect cant encompass the way i feel towards you Nathan. dude, i just wanna give you a hug. your doing great, and wherever your mom is now, pills arent affecting her there man, she's proud of you, im sure of it.
cause if she's not, i know we, the audience, we love and respect you man, God is proud of you. best of wishes man, and please, dont you dare stop what your doing. its truly a gift, and your incredible at it.
You can hear him crying if you listen closely. I feel like this is my son talking to me when he gets older. I've OD'd a few times and I'm trying to get my life together and this song really helps me.
Hannah Ritz I hope you've done it ✨ my moms an addict, been clean 2 years now. Please keep pushing for your son and for yourself. One minute at a time 💕
i came across this song yesterday and im already in love with it.....my birth mom is addicted to drugs and other stuff and she isnt dead yet but i feel like she is cause shes so far gone. Thank You Nate for making songs for people like us.Stay Strong everyone it gets better.
My heart is broke... You made me cry so much,i feel your pain,lyrics, emotions evrething from this melody...i want to hug you in this moment. I can't stop of crying...😭
Makes me realize how fortunate my life is and how we take the basics for granted. Love our moms cause you never know what day is there or your last. Thank you NF...............
this took guts and vulnerability, humility simply to release... I was thinking like 'how was it like to fake crying into the mic' then thought 'nah he's too real for that, he was most probably/likely crying for real', I bet in his attempt to rap this song while recording, he broke down a few times, and instead of deleting those bits out like many others probably would... he put them in, instead. I think this is one of those songs that with words it was made but with words it can't be explained, or at least not with justice... it has both depth and emotion, it has realness with effective talent, it tells a story but you can actually feel it despite never been through it. I'm kinda lost for words, I may not have cried but I can understand why somebody would.
"I HATE THE WAY I REMEMBER YOU" that's where I lost it 😕 holy this is pure emotion and dedication expressed through love and passion from Nate! STAY STRONG 💪 !!
I lost my mom when I was 8 years old. She's been missing 18 years. I don't know what happened to you or where you are but I know she got taken away from me because of the drugs. My whole life I've watched my mom, dad, uncle, aunt, cousins, brother, my kids dad, and old friends struggle with the addiction to pills or meth. I feel your pain about losing your mom. Its a pain we will never get rid of. I pray this world opens its eyes to the epidemic going on all around us. I pray for the ones struggling with addiction or the ones dealing with the ones that are addicted. Its a horrible life to live on both sides. I proud of the ones that have overcome this. Thank you for letting us feel your pain and you experience with this horrible event that many of us experience. Your not alone, I'm not alone. God bless.
I am not talking to Ha080, talking to Abigail. my mum went in rehab, and it does not always work like that. She died 2 months ago, and.. rehab really did nothing.
My sister is addicted to heroin.... I watched her overdose one night... I swear I saw her die. She was blue, she wasn't there... The ambulance saved her life... but they didn't save her soul... This song said a line, (and man it hit me like a bag of bricks) *you took them pills for the last time didn't you, they took you from us once, guess they came back to finish you* *The drugs got you held captive I can see it in your eyes they got your mind captured* these lines got me in my heart... The most beautiful part about my sister is dead. I can see it... She is an open hole and I can feel it... we use to be so alive together... our relationship was thriving and she was always the closest thing to me... She started using blues and it got to actual heroin... But all the positivity and tears can't stop someone who needs their fix... My sisters drug dealer name was Carl.. and he lived 2 streets away from us, and he died even that didnt make her wanna stop. Outside of his house his family put a homemade sign saying, it's your drug dealer or your family. She still uses and I'm so scared she's going to pass away... I don't know what I would do if I could call her and try to convince her to come home to the people who love her... I never even thought it would come to this... Everyday I pray she wakes up... Everyday I hold her closer and closer to my heart... Even though the best part about her is lost, that doesn't mean she can't fix herself and find it again. Come home 😭
As a person who lost their dad at 13 stuff like this gets to me cause I'm reminded I'm not the only one who's going through tough situations like this and to everyone out there I'm sorry, stay strong.
Marty Myers it could be because this has happened to them and they hate hearing it cause it reminds them of their lives or someone that's gone that's why some people dislike it it's not they don't have a heart it's because they have to much of a heart for the ones they lost
I don't remember my dad, only remember him by a couple pictures, he was so depressed, he shot himself right in the head. Every single line of this song hits me hard, "Why would you leave us? How could you leave us?" Whenever I'm alone or miss having a dad, I think about these things... I don't tell many people about it because I didn't think anyone could even relate with me... well not until I heard this song. Reading these comments, seeing all this support... this is what today's world needs more of. Bless you all.
This song saved my life when I lost rights to my kids.. I'm not on drugs but I was suicidal because my kids were/are my everything.. this song made me see how they'd feel when they come home and I wasn't here.. it kept me alive.. thank you NF ❤️
I was training today when I heard this song. I had to stop focusing on training and on the song... I'm speechless at how he can tell such a deep story in such a small amount of time. God bless you man...
Just image you treat her like trash then she dies, no way of telling her your sorry and you carry that burden for the rest of your life..... I would know
I told myself I would never go back to this song because I've lost my family, leaving me alone. I couldn't celebrate my mom's birthday after not hearing her voice for three years now. But I needed this after I found closure. I miss you, Mom😢 I just wished I could've said goodbye to you...
It was even better hearing him live. He was at Creation Fest 2016, and the emotion was deeper than I could have imagined. Left me in tears when the performance was over, and many others around me :'(
Pills took my Brother away from us 2 months ago...that and Heroin...I know how you feel to a point...he was only 24...this song hit me hard because it's the same way I feel about my Brother...
i can relate to this song to a point as well. My dad had taken his divorce with my mom pretty hard. He started drinking and doing drugs and lost himself and me and my little sister and brother. Eventually he committed suicide. my siblings were too young to understand but i was old enough to know and it hit me hard and the things after that made things worse. Because now my mom chooses boyfriends over her own kids. its like she has forgetten about me and my siblings. Put me through a lot of rough shit at 13. Still it affects me even though its been 5 years
Damien Noftsier stay strong I'm in the same position. My mom is on drugs for 6yrs. My dad is a registrated sex offender. and my sis has been living in another state with her dad for 10yrs. I know how it feels to feel like your forgotten, or just a thought. Things get rough sometimes... just remember to keep your head up.
Hi Nate, I know you probably wont see this but, I know how you feel. Its never easy loosing a parent. I lost my mom 2 years ago right after she beat cancer. I miss her and your song helped me. Even though she didn't go like your mother did, the song made me thing about the memories with her and realizing that she's in a better place. I cried a little listening to this song. I thank you for writing it. You're an amazing and talented person. I bet she's up in heaven looking down on you and smiling about who you have become. Keep your head up. God is always with you.
I am 39 years old and this song describes my childhood to a tee. It is incredibly powerful. You are gifted. Thank you for sharing your story with us and I hope that your music inspires change.
Am I the only atheist that loves this guys music? I feel like he may be a Christian rapper but he could bring atheists like me and Christians together through the power of music
there is nothing more painful then losing your mom and watching her die and suffer in pain ever day and you not be able to do anything about it but you smile and make like everything is okay but it is not and you can never say goodbye because one day it is to late so now her pain that you saw truns into hate but this time it is yours and it is making you into someone you are not someone dark but you still to the world seem happy
This song is inspiring I am only 12 but everybody can learn from the songs he does.I know people go through worse than me. But I think sometimes I wish my life was different and then I remember people do go through stuff like this. This guy is a inspiration to me because he doesnt care what people say he just expresses himself. I may only be 12 but think about what people go through before you act.This song proves there are people that can understand what people can go through or what they do go through. Nobody should say these songs are a bad influence they are just the truth. This just shows the truth hurts and It pains me to know people go through stuff like this in life. I cant even think about losing my mom. And I cant even picture if I would lose her to pills. This song and every other song he does proves how our world is. So learn and bo knowledged about his videos.
Idk if that would be right pr wrong to put a music video for this up on mothers day... It feels right because it's the truth of what happened because it is his mom but it feels wrong because it's so sad and some might see it as disrespect.
+DeepVoiceBryan00 The song is just about his mother so I think it will be fine. It would be genius to have a music video for this song come out on Mother's Day.
Praying for you! Know that God will never leave you! Read Isaiah 49:15! It's beyond beautiful it gives me amazing renewed hope and such peace reading it! Also, you got a mama, her name is Mary. She's our Savior's mom. Know your your not alone, I love you in Christ sista! I'm here if you need me. 💒😊
+Leslie Gallegos thank you so much! I just read it right now. Those words are very moving and dear to me and I will always keep that in mind ❤ love you in Jesus name sister! 👭
+jrdevildog 123 I'm so sorry you had to go through that. Please know that God was there as you witnessed all of it, all that you feel right now, God feels. I can't explain it in just a message where everyone can see, but, I know your not alone. God is with you, I'll be praying for you. What's your name and hers if you don't mind me asking for last name too or send me a message here I don't know how to. God loves you and right now all you really need to focus on is being filled with God's love and letting Him in even if it's baby steps. The situation you're in I don't know personally, but, I can only imagine what it's like. If you're not okay, it's okay not to be. Honey, you have A Divine being waiting for you to embrace Him so He can hold you, His name is God, in three Divine forms. You even got a momma and Oo let me tell you, those saints are your brothers and sisters in Christ who living in Heaven praying for us. I genuinely care, this isn't some fake thing. I hope and pray you know
This song is straight real you can hear the passion as he holds back the tears.. this is real music passionate and dedicated to being real not holding anything back.. as a Christian or not he got mad skill and you should respect real music like this
I relate to every single word he speaks in this song. My mom overdosed once, was put on life support, came home and overdosed again three days later and passed away. Every word he says hits me on a deep level. I never thought I'd find a song I relate to so deeply. No song has ever touched me the way this song has.
I love it when people tell NF that he "Talks about himself too much", or "brags too much". I'm just like, "Yeah, because opening himself up with all of his deepest struggles in his life to the world, like grief over his mom, being physically abused, having relationship issues... Is all bragging. Nice."
I really want to give NF a hug. I just listened to this song right now... and I feel for him. I think many times we want to believe that when you become a Christian, God removes your pain and struggles in an instant. However, I believe the Lord lets us embrace our struggle and loss for a season. Not only because it makes us stronger Christians in the end... but because we become a walking testimony to those that don't know Christ. Christians aren't perfect. We are still messed up people, but with a new hope in our life through our Lord and Savior. We are-- and always will be a work in progress. Nate, if you ever get a chance to read this... I just want to thank you for your honesty, and faith in Christ amidst your pain. You are an inspiration to those that struggle with ANYTHING-- and I'm praying for complete healing and blessings on you and your family. God bless you, bro.
I Dealt with depression And God has helped me through a lot and I have a connection with NF.... I tried-to harm myself... Even tried to end my life but Then I started going to Church and I went on my missionary trip And God changed me I thank you NF I'm sorry for your lost NF
I just ran across this song and my heart literally shattered. The fact that I can relate to EVERY word breaks my heart. This song makes me feel every ounce of pain my mom has ever made me feel once she left my brother and I for drugs. I love how you could share this message with us because more people that I could think was imaginable can relate.
this is how I feel about my uncle. so addicted to heroin until it eventually took his life. never understood why dope was more important until I myself started using. not the lady but my own things. Stay real Nathan! mad respect for you man.
Backwoods Rider thank you so much! Its been a hard journey but Jesus gives me strength. I also learned watching my parents and seeing my uncle pass that its something you dont wanna do until death calls your name :/ I'm deeply sorry about your mom!
Mona Skylynn wish i could say the same about my mom. my step dad died right next to her. he OD. his heart exploded and it still didnt change who she is
Backwoods Rider oh my, maybe thats how she deals with the pain? Ive always tried jumping inside the heads of addicts but frankly its impossible- unless you've been in their shoes themselves. If its a hard drug and shes willing to try to quit I know there are many clinics that can give her therapy, and help her whine off. If she doesn't want to quit then I am so so very sorry, I know my sorrys dont mean anything to what's happening. It cant fix the problem, but I understand loving someone who is a drug addict is one of the worst pains a person can feel. Slowly watching them slip away. My advise is do what the Lord wants you too and try your best to do what's the best for you. If they dont want to quit there is truly nothing you can do to help, but something would have to happen to make them change, or you'd need to find the root of the problem and did it out from there. I know a lot of times, different coping skills just dont hold as much satisfaction as using so you dont want to quit- if you ever EVER need to talk, or vent or just get your mind away from things or talk to someone who understands than I will and always will be here for you. I watched my dad go to prisiom for some awful things when he was addicted to meth & huffing paints & stuff. My step dad & uncle actually laced my mom with Herion so she got addicted and the three of them would use. Then they used pills they bought from my aunt and then when my uncle died my mom, step dad and aunt would use together. I rememeber finding xanax all over the place and oxy all the time. When my parents tried quitting Heroin they just went to pills and would lie constantly about it. Its a cycle, but I believe God can help you, and youll need support to break the chains with users because although its so extremely painful, its not good for your mental health to be around that. Believe me I know its hard, thats your mom, and it won't happen for a while until you can finally love her from a distance but do what's best for you and not be so pained by watching someone slip away. :/
The saddest of this song and the comments are just so powerful I'm only 12 but I can feel the pain of all these suffering people that need help. I'm learning all of this in school and this really opens up my eyes. I just wish that more people could feel this pain and understand this is no joke this is pour sadness...
Man, I know the pains of losing people, being abused, and being bullied. Man, I just want to tell you that don't wish that on someone man. This is coming from someone who has seen too much stuff in his life.
+MrPhrenchfries i just want to say that these things happen because we have free will. when given free will, some people abuse it. it's power. and power corrupts. if we didn't have free will, we would all be slaves. God gives us the choice to follow him.
+MrPhrenchfries I can see what you are trying to say it's just that you really got to know what hell is to know what heaven looks like. like if Hitler didn't do what he did it will always be someone else because people learn from mistakes,. If NF's mom didn't die, which is a hard truth, then he probably wouldn't be a rapper and touch other people going through hard times or he would be a rapper that would be a secular music writer because he found god through his mom dieing.
+MrPhrenchfries And yet you wonder why god doesn't stop sin? to be honest a world with god stopping every sick child every mother on a death bed is a world without god. You don't get a life when you are born knowing you can get everything you want if you just pray because a world without evil is a world without good also. So what im saying is as much as you can complain about god for not asking your prayers you have to wonder what god wants you to do with all of your hatred.
When I heard this song, I curled up in a ball and cried my eyes out. I lost my mom to pills too, so this hit me hard. I love you mom, I wish you could be here with me, rest in peace ;(
Jesus is there for all who call on Him. when therrs nothing left theres always Jesus. what do you have to loose. the strongest prayer ever prayed is Jesus help me. may Jesus help and deliever all
NF is the realist rapper there is rn he puts the most passion in to his music then almost everyone else he is absolutely amazing. God definitely blessed him with a gift
This song made me cry so much. This is a purely powerful and amazing song. It hurts to know that kids and even adults go through this. If you do go though this I give you my prayers and I deeply hope things work out. I love you all.
hearing him crying literally broke my heart
Sweet Books i know it broke my heart my family listen to this they all cried
I know me too, my heart is broken 😭😭
Sweet Books
same
Mine broke too 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭💔
I just wanna meet him and give him a hug. Stay strong Nate!
i want to too :(
Me to
its funny he came to my city but i didn't know who he was then... So i didn't go! The next day everyone at school was talking about it... so i started listening to him and now i regret not going... Worst mistake in my life.
My brother did :(
You didn't go?
listens to one NF song
*Starts crying*
Thee Doggler bet
Facts but I’m too numb to cry
I love I this song
Thee Doggler I feel you
YES
"if you really cared for me where you at then" I can relate to this line so much
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So very familiar..the anger and the pain the loss!
my mom works for life i relate so much
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I can relate to the whole song but my dad
mom just died a couple hours ago to an overdose. Told her I was listening to this song and crying months ago and she promised me this would never happen. Thanks for helping me get through this dude. God bless.
Wow. Idk who u r, but take care
Psychoticgamer I'm sorry, hope you found peace.
im sorry. take care of yourself bae
Sorry dude
Psychoticgamer woah that’s how nf mom died too
I love how "Hotline Bling" is playing on the radios instead of this. What a disgraceful world we live in.
You have a point there, but I'm saying that songs that are on the radio now have lyrics that either have absolutely no meaning, or that have a meaning that's absurd. I'd rather some NF song be playing then another shitty Drake song that's on there just because it has "Drake" as its artist.
so just because you don't like it,it shouldn't be played on radios,that sounds crazy dont you think
agree
why isn't this good for the radio? because most people are afraid of their emotions or showing sadness at all? when most people are depressed but pretend they feel fine, that isn't healthy. The music on the radio just aids in the cover up of their actual feelings by listening to meaningless bullshit
this is one of the most genuine songs I have heard but I think it's best that it's not on the radio
In the end of the song where Nathan does his monologue you can hear all his anger and frustration toward his mother to the point where he's crying but what really got me was the very last sentence "wish you were here". you can really hear Nates inner child that just wants to be held by his mother. It's so vulnerable and pure because even though he's frustrated at his mom, in the end, she's still his mom and he loves her and he still has that little kid inside of him that wants to be like the other kids with both of their parents being able to support them at their graduation and other important events. And just that little piece was just so powerful to me. God Bless you Nate.
Amen
Neema topia dang that hit hard
Exactly 😭
I started crying 😭😫
Poor kid....no one deserves this! I cried just listening to his pain and his anger. I can't imagine what it would be like in his place.
Real men cry.
Doesn't mean they're weak.
It means they're strong enough to battle.
I needed this right now, going through some crap and seeing this means a lot, thank you
Thanks you 🙌
I love u for ur real talk
Preach. Thats true. Idk why that so hard to understand for most girls. This song was deep asf.
THANK YOU
*"They say pain is a prison, let me out of my cell."* if that ain't me...
l munoz This Hits me Hard
I think of Genetics and predisposition to addiction and or The Vicious Cycle .....
(CELL/CELLS/PRISONERS/PRISON'S/IMMUNE SYSTEM ) LÊS MISÊRÅBLÈS
Son 2 factores de los 8 qué existe por probabilidad es menos probable que sea la razón @@MsLaleeLoo
"They took you from us once, I guess they came back to finish you".... damn
You right
For everyone who's going through this, I hope it gets better! I'm praying for you all!
God bless you all!
Same i went tho this when i was a littls girl now i dont have my brothers or my mom
Its not a nice thing to go tho
+Juana Pena this song hits hard
Thanks brother. It's a hard road trying to get your mother to stop and it's like speaking to a wall.
you right on that
One of the only songs that made me cry. I'm soo sorry
Timmo Plays listen to Last Letter
fernando ordonez wow i just listened to that song very deep song;(
help the animals ur welcome bro
This song reminds me why I should be grateful to have parents. Never will I take them for granted
same. I can't really relate to the song, but it makes me realize that I'm fortunate and I am grateful for that
that's good man :)
+Mike Hernandez Same here
good at least someone understands it's hard for us
Neither will I... except for my dad. He's a dumb shit.
How can anyone dislike this song?This is REAL emotion here. those who disliked the song something wrong with them.
Kiva Gordon you are right
to nothing is wrong with them those are the people whodont have or like emotions;(
Kiva Gordon yessssssss
no those people are heartless
Kiva Gordon totally agree so ungrateful for what they have
Wow, this song hit so close to home for me. Got a little emotional at work. My mom died getting hit by a car while walking into work :( She was into drugs too, so it was a perfect song to relate to. Thanks NF.
shit. im sorry
...wheres the relation...she got hit by a fucking car and did not overdose!
...what drugs was she into...she still had a workplace to go to...thats lucky...other mums prostitute themselves for a few bucks just to get some heroin or crack...it can always get worse...
@@insel8131 jeez man a mothers death is hard for anyone whether she was addicted to drugs or not you don't have to be toxic to someone that said the song hit so close to home and why don't u tell us how hard ur life was Mr.sadlife
Matt I'm sending you love and light....I know this was posted 6 yrs ago but still.....❤
Im so sorry for your loss I hope you are better now
Coming here after he released ''MAMA'' from ''Hope'', the journey is so amazing
I can barely survive listening to this song without shedding a tear and I've never had to go through a death in my close family, so I can't imagine what its like if you have had to go through something like this.
ShockWave the lose of a family member and watching a family member with a drug addiction.. very hard!! :(
ShockWave the lose of a family member is like someone is taking a knife and stabbing you in the heart
ShockWave it hurts to lose someone in your family that's close I lost my great grandfather about a year ago
ShockWave both of my grandpa's are dead plus 1 my grandma's I know what to feel so I feel happy for you I hope you don't have someone die for a while
ShockWave I watched my dad die when I was 7 and I didn't cry listening to it
That moment when you listen to one NF song and end up downloading two of his albums o-o this dude is legit
For real for real
ME RN OMF
literally me right now
I do it right now he's not normal thing you listening to :o
Same
God bless you NF, you have been through so much agony, I am so sorry.
Jacob Tyler amen man
Jacob Tyler Amen
this song touched me in the Heart it's the same with my dad I needed him and he had to go I hated when he left and he left my mom all alone for 8 years then we found out he died 😢😢😢😭😭😭😭😭
I'm sorry for your loss
its worst thing can happen to any 1 losing your maker. there is nothing worse than that
I literally cried . this explains my life right now and the struggle of my mom going crazy. and left me when I was a little kid. and pills controlling everyone in my life . thanks man this song really makes me happy and helps me know im not the only one struggling with this stuff.
I've never related to a song so much
Respect bro
I'm sorry hope you life turns around. Just remember to stay strong
same here :)
Same hun... the opioid epidemic is so real.... praying for all the children watching their parents wither away to those pills... some days I’m weak some days I’m strong some days I’m numb completely....
if you listen close, you can hear the pain in his voice. the lyrics scream it.
and I relate to it so so so much.
I don't have parents.
I have a rare voice on the phone and a cold absence.
Porcelain Soldier
I am so sorry you don't have parents there is something better in store
Donald Francett
I know... And I'm waiting. If nothing happens, Imma work hard for that greatness.
Porcelain Soldier how's life going for you, bud? any better? best wishes to you
So sorry man, Just know that God loves you no matter what happens yo, he has something in store for you!!
never cried to a song till this one
VideospelletjesVerslaafde i get emotional every time i hear it...
BattlefieldRotterdammert shit had me balling my dude
BattlefieldRotterdammert listen to Geazy everything will be ok live
BattlefieldRotterdammert ikr
me too
My mom died yesterday from a drug overdose. Your music is helping me grieve today.
I'm so sorry man God bless you
I am really sorry to hear that man, keep your head up, you will be in my prayers.
It's a horrible thing to endure I'm sure. I've almost lost my mom to drugs many times, she just can't seem to find a reason to quit for good. I hope you know you're not alone. I'll be praying for you, man.
Samuel Madden why
sorry for your loss, stay strong
Lyrics
How could you leave us so unexpected?
We waited, we waited
For you but you just left us
We needed you, I needed you
Yo, I don't know what it's like to be addicted to pills
But I do know what it's like to be a witness, it kills
Mama told me she love me, I'm thinking this isn't real
I think of you when I get a whiff of that cigarette smell, yeah
Welcome to the bottom of hell
They say pain is a prison, let me out of my cell
You say you proud of me, but you don't know me that well
Sit in my room, tears running down my face and I yell
Into my pillowcases, say you coming to get us
Then call a minute later just to tell us you not, I'm humiliated
I'm in a room with a parent that I barely know
Some lady in the corner watching us, while she taking notes
I don't get it mom, don't you want to watch your babies grow?
I guess pills are more important, all you have to say is "no"
But you won't do it, will you? You gon' keep popping 'til those pills kill you
I know you gone but I can still feel you
Why would you leave us?
Why would you leave us?
How could you leave us here?
How could you leave us?
Why would you leave us? Oh
Hey
I got this picture in my room and it kills me
But I don't need a picture of my mom, I need the real thing
Now a relationship is something we won't ever have
Why do I feel like I lost something that I never had?
You shoulda been there when I graduated
Told me you love me and congratulations
Instead you left us at the window waiting
Where you at mom? We're too young to understand, where you at huh?
Yeah, I know them drugs got you held captive
I can see it in your eyes, they got your mind captured
Some say it's fun to get the high but I am not laughing
And what you don't realise and what you not grasping
That I was nothing but a kid who couldn't understand
I ain't gon' say that I forgive you 'cause it hasn't happened
I thought that maybe I feel better as time passes
If you really cared for me, then where you at then?
Why would you leave us?
Why would you leave us?
How could you leave us here?
How would you leave us?
Why would you leave us? Oh
Hey
Our last conversation, you and I sat in the living room
Talking 'bout my music and I brought you something to listen to
You started crying, telling me this isn't you
A couple weeks later, guess you were singing a different tune
You took them pills for the last time, didn't you?
They took you from us once, guess they came back to finish you
Crying my eyes out in the studio is difficult
Music is the only place that I can go to speak to you
It took me everything inside of me to not scream at your funeral
Sitting in my chair, that person talking was pitiful
I wish you were here mama but every time I picture you
All I feel is pain, I hate the way I remember you
They found you on the floor, I could tell that you felt hollow
Gave everything you had plus your life to them pill bottles
You gave everything you had plus your life to them pill bottles
Don't know if you hear me or not, but if you still watching, why?
Why would you leave us?
Why would you leave us?
How could you leave us here?
How would you leave us?
Why would you leave us? Oh
Hey
Sometimes I think about like
Sometimes I think about things like, you know
When I have kids, I'm like
You won't be there, you know?
You won't be there for any of that
And I'll never get to see you again
Sometimes I wish I would've just called you
I wish I would've just picked up the phone, wish you were here
I mean you should've been there for us, you should have been here
Them pills got you, right?
Them pills got you, right?
I wish you were here
What is you point of posting lyrics when they’re in the video??? 🤪🤔
@@baublesanddolls what are those emojis!?!
also, its for people who cant hear the lyrics in case theyre unclear.
in this case, nate didnt have many background noises, so it wasnt very necessary.
still appreciate it though!
I need to stop cutting onions when I listen to this
😂😂
+RealGenesis not funny. this song is deep.
+Zero Deww lol i got it
+Lacie Allen I wasn't joking but ok
This song is deep but you have to admit this comment is funny 😂😂😂
I haven't heard rap this good in a long time. It's like a young Nas and Eminem
Nas*
Woody Hartwick
Thanks, didn't catch that
+crick1952 never compare him to either of them
lolkhdj bfbdbd
He compares himself to Eminem actually (he says he grew up on him, like I did). Regardless, it was a complement about an artist I had just run into.
He does, because it makes sense. Eminem inspires a LOT of rappers. Eminem is the "rap god", so to be compared to him, or say Eminem inspired him, it just shows that he's normal.
For everyone that is experiencing this pain I really hope that God speaks threw you and that I hope that it will get better!
You don't find it odd that God allows this kind of pain to exist? You ever questioned whether all the suffering in the world is something a caring God would allow?
Daniel White Nope, God allows suffering because otherwise we wouldn't have free will and we all would be controlled by God. He says that he will not give us a burden that is too big for us. So that is why he allows suffering.
David Michael
"Daniel White Nope, God allows suffering because otherwise we wouldn't have free will and we all would be controlled by God. He says that he will not give us a burden that is too big for us. So that is why he allows suffering."
So people committing suicide (which is a thing, you might want to look it up) is not evidence of God giving people a burden they can't handle. Have you ever met an addict? Do these people strike you as capable of handling their burden? Have you seen someone hurt the people around them, know that they are doing it and yet seem unable to stop?
It is very generous of God to only burden us with things that we can handle but you would think a truly loving God would, you know, not burden people with crushing depression for example.
Daniel White A lot of people who kill themselves don't believe. My dad almost died in the hospital. He was going to die. He had a blockage in his intestines in many many places. He barely had a chance to survive. He had cancer on top of that all. My mom came home crying, knowing she's going to lose him because he had limited time. The doctors were positive he wasn't going to make it out of that hospital alive. The next day, I took a day off of school to go visit him. All of the blockage cleared up except one small spot. It was safe to do surgery to remove that spot in the intestines. We got more time with him. He made it out alive unlike what doctors thought. He passed away about two weeks ago from the cancer. But we got longer time. He wasn't suppose to make it out of that hospital alive. But he did. You may say "But he still died," I get that but he live longer. He fought stage 4 colon cancer for almost 2 years. He was given the strength to fight it until the cancer had spread too much. He was in pain his last few days. He was relieved from it but in a depressing way but he made it a longer time than the average. We were able to go on the last vacation that he wanted with us. He didn't complain of pain once. He was given strength and he believed in God.
Daniel White I stopped believing at one point and during that time, I was diagnosed by a doctor with depression. I slowly began believing again for personal reasons and I started feeling happier with myself. I felt happier in general. I have the strength to make it though everything that's going on. I still have moments where I cry just like everyone else. But I still know that I'll get through it.
I’ve never cried so hard
He cried, real Tears, real, raw emotion. poured his heart, soul, and his tears in to this. respect cant encompass the way i feel towards you Nathan. dude, i just wanna give you a hug. your doing great, and wherever your mom is now, pills arent affecting her there man, she's proud of you, im sure of it.
cause if she's not, i know we, the audience, we love and respect you man, God is proud of you. best of wishes man, and please, dont you dare stop what your doing. its truly a gift, and your incredible at it.
@@puncakes2876 these comments gave me the goosebumps…
so relatable it hurts. I can feel this guy's pain.
yup
you can't,trust me bro
+To é doido YOU can't, we can
+Lameηtations am tired of internet brawls,soo keep thinking you can feel somebody pain because of a song
To é doido If you're tired of Internet brawls keep your thoughts to yourself. We feel his pain because we can relate.
You can hear him crying if you listen closely. I feel like this is my son talking to me when he gets older. I've OD'd a few times and I'm trying to get my life together and this song really helps me.
Hannah Ritz you don't have to listen closely because it's out loud
Hannah Ritz so glad your trying to get better. Mad respect. That takes a lot of strength. Praying for you💕
Please get clean and stay clean. Your son needs you to be there for him.
Hannah Ritz I hope you've done it ✨ my moms an addict, been clean 2 years now. Please keep pushing for your son and for yourself. One minute at a time 💕
Get involved in meetings.. Work the steps.. Please. Your life matters
i came across this song yesterday and im already in love with it.....my birth mom is addicted to drugs and other stuff and she isnt dead yet but i feel like she is cause shes so far gone. Thank You Nate for making songs for people like us.Stay Strong everyone it gets better.
Is she okay now I hope so.
It's gonna be ok friend my mother is the same way. We gotta rely on our street family/friends. They care and so do I.
Just found your music and I'm here to stay!
Well to the fam
@Tom Alexander Listen to Manison and can you hold me. since that before this
+Isaiah Jairam *Mansion XD
Me too and wow is all I can say one of a kind
I been with nf since last year 2015 and I am 10 and I will stay with nf forever!☝️by the way I feel bad for Nate we are all here for you😢
NF is one of those artists you listen to, then cry, then listen to another deep song
Cryptic true
Flare Cryptic You should listen to Witt Lowry, he's like NF too a little they both write deep songs
Flare Cryptic ikr!
I do listen to witt from time to time,I just prefer NFs flow and bars tbh
Flare Cryptic ok got ys
I am a corrections officer and it brakes my heart when people come in so messed up on drugs! I pray over them everyday I go home and sleep!
My heart is broke...
You made me cry so much,i feel your pain,lyrics, emotions evrething from this melody...i want to hug you in this moment.
I can't stop of crying...😭
I'm a grown ass man.. so I'm crying.. BUT it's not that far from happening though...
I'm old an old ass man though.. lmao
I rap about my feelings... how broken I am... it's on my channel, but nobody will get my message...
This is the realest song I've ever heard. But I should stop listening so I can stop feeling so bad
NF needs to stop making me cry.
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+Tera Sigaføøs I-/ :( same here...Hearing it with a tissue
Makes me realize how fortunate my life is and how we take the basics for granted. Love our moms cause you never know what day is there or your last. Thank you NF...............
+Kenneth Quintero hey, I have the same last name as u
May his mum's soul rest in eternal peace, forever and ever. Amen.
he didnt have a good mother anyway, she chose drugs over her own son, and allowed her boyfriend to beat him
this took guts and vulnerability, humility simply to release... I was thinking like 'how was it like to fake crying into the mic' then thought 'nah he's too real for that, he was most probably/likely crying for real', I bet in his attempt to rap this song while recording, he broke down a few times, and instead of deleting those bits out like many others probably would... he put them in, instead. I think this is one of those songs that with words it was made but with words it can't be explained, or at least not with justice... it has both depth and emotion, it has realness with effective talent, it tells a story but you can actually feel it despite never been through it. I'm kinda lost for words, I may not have cried but I can understand why somebody would.
+Philip Williams Beautiful comment! That's exactly how I felt
"I HATE THE WAY I REMEMBER YOU" that's where I lost it 😕 holy this is pure emotion and dedication expressed through love and passion from Nate! STAY STRONG 💪 !!
currently balling my eyes out... i mean my eyes are sweating
Saaaaammmmmmee 😭😭😭😭
+mickdaniel Is someone cutting up onions in here? I just want to give the man a hug.
+Raydan116 Dude i feel the some way his new songs are touching our hearts
+DJB Gamings Touching, though? He's Grasping mine. Im mesmerised.
Yeah it's making me cry
I lost my mom when I was 8 years old. She's been missing 18 years. I don't know what happened to you or where you are but I know she got taken away from me because of the drugs. My whole life I've watched my mom, dad, uncle, aunt, cousins, brother, my kids dad, and old friends struggle with the addiction to pills or meth. I feel your pain about losing your mom. Its a pain we will never get rid of. I pray this world opens its eyes to the epidemic going on all around us. I pray for the ones struggling with addiction or the ones dealing with the ones that are addicted. Its a horrible life to live on both sides. I proud of the ones that have overcome this. Thank you for letting us feel your pain and you experience with this horrible event that many of us experience. Your not alone, I'm not alone. God bless.
Song truly gets me emotional. My father is an addict and there's nothing I could do to change that
Ha080 get help put him in a rehab at least he'll live
that's not how it works exactly sweety
+aaraya vizl What the heck dude?! This person is opening up and you're just being a jerk.
I am not talking to Ha080, talking to Abigail. my mum went in rehab, and it does not always work like that. She died 2 months ago, and.. rehab really did nothing.
I'm sorry... But you don't have to be patronizing. it's better for someone to go to rehab to try to get help than just do nothing. Don't you agree?
Dang, imagine the music video for this one...oh, please do. Make us feel this even more, if that's humanly possible.
would be an Eminem "Headlights" kinda vid!
+JT POETICALREALISM Sorry, I don't listen to Eminem. I won't get any secular rap references. :P
+All For Christ Videos That's cool, didn't mean to offend, I totally understand! #GodBless ✊✌
+JT POETICALREALISM I'm not offended, no worries man. All I'm saying is I'm not going to understand the reference. 😂
+All For Christ Videos oh ok glad to hear your not offended 😊 glad we both can at least agree on NF's music! 👍
My sister is addicted to heroin.... I watched her overdose one night... I swear I saw her die. She was blue, she wasn't there... The ambulance saved her life... but they didn't save her soul... This song said a line, (and man it hit me like a bag of bricks)
*you took them pills for the last time didn't you, they took you from us once, guess they came back to finish you*
*The drugs got you held captive I can see it in your eyes they got your mind captured*
these lines got me in my heart...
The most beautiful part about my sister is dead.
I can see it... She is an open hole and I can feel it... we use to be so alive together... our relationship was thriving and she was always the closest thing to me... She started using blues and it got to actual heroin... But all the positivity and tears can't stop someone who needs their fix... My sisters drug dealer name was Carl.. and he lived 2 streets away from us, and he died even that didnt make her wanna stop. Outside of his house his family put a homemade sign saying, it's your drug dealer or your family.
She still uses and I'm so scared she's going to pass away... I don't know what I would do if I could call her and try to convince her to come home to the people who love her... I never even thought it would come to this... Everyday I pray she wakes up... Everyday I hold her closer and closer to my heart... Even though the best part about her is lost, that doesn't mean she can't fix herself and find it again. Come home 😭
I'm sorry for what you're going through.
Stay strong❤❤
Thank you both so much.. Sephiroth766 Ega | Natureous
It hard, but we have to push on. Thank you for reading. It kinda makes me feel like I matter 😔
Just because I know it's hard, but if there were never troubles in life you'd never know what the good in life is. :)
be thankful she is alive for now. Do you guys talk? Addiction is very powerful but you can still fix her. Hope for the best
As a person who lost their dad at 13 stuff like this gets to me cause I'm reminded I'm not the only one who's going through tough situations like this and to everyone out there I'm sorry, stay strong.
anyone that put thumbs down. why thats real music
everyone doing that doesn't have a heart
Marty Myers it could be because this has happened to them and they hate hearing it cause it reminds them of their lives or someone that's gone that's why some people dislike it it's not they don't have a heart it's because they have to much of a heart for the ones they lost
+Lucid Bambino well said
I don't remember my dad, only remember him by a couple pictures, he was so depressed, he shot himself right in the head. Every single line of this song hits me hard,
"Why would you leave us? How could you leave us?"
Whenever I'm alone or miss having a dad, I think about these things... I don't tell many people about it because I didn't think anyone could even relate with me... well not until I heard this song. Reading these comments, seeing all this support... this is what today's world needs more of. Bless you all.
Afu_soccerman I'm sorry 😞
Same for me but my dad was shot by another man
Ricky Butcher You are in my prayers. God Bless!
Afu_soccerman this comment has made me cry. Stay strong ❤
Afu_soccerman omg i am so sorry
This hit me, it hurts... What a masterpiece NF
+the _chopblock ik dude, like I can semi relate, and him crying made me cry
+Jordan Reigel same 😖
Same :'(
This song saved my life when I lost rights to my kids.. I'm not on drugs but I was suicidal because my kids were/are my everything.. this song made me see how they'd feel when they come home and I wasn't here.. it kept me alive.. thank you NF ❤️
A lot of people need you never leave us for something you can’t stop
Stephanie I pray you are striving and doing amazing things today.
I hope you're doing well 💗
I was training today when I heard this song. I had to stop focusing on training and on the song... I'm speechless at how he can tell such a deep story in such a small amount of time. God bless you man...
Southern Patriot. J
Im wotking out too
Lets make NF by sharing each and every song of his on social media and suggest everyone to listen to his rap.Y'all with me?
Jebesh John I'm with u
this man lost his mom and I am angry at my self that I treated my mom like trash all my life.
me too man ..feels really bad :(
Just image you treat her like trash then she dies, no way of telling her your sorry and you carry that burden for the rest of your life..... I would know
thing is you'll continue to treat her like shit. Crazy how you realise what you're doing is wrong but still do it? :/.
Emmanuel T I'm so sorry. Stay strong okay.😢
MeMe The Unicorn Queen omg so sorry
I told myself I would never go back to this song because I've lost my family, leaving me alone. I couldn't celebrate my mom's birthday after not hearing her voice for three years now.
But I needed this after I found closure. I miss you, Mom😢 I just wished I could've said goodbye to you...
Rip to your mom my prayers go out for you
Oh damn this song Is bursting with emotion, You can almost feel his pain.
ACE Song
Almost can taste the pain, like his words are dripping with it
Right!!!
It was even better hearing him live. He was at Creation Fest 2016, and the emotion was deeper than I could have imagined. Left me in tears when the performance was over, and many others around me :'(
Same bruh, I decided to remix the song. you should check it out. not as good as the original though.
+Glorious Ambitions this type of song really should not be a song to be remixed
this song is so sad. the fact that he stays strong in his faith through all of his pain. Amazing. God is good
Amen
All the time
God didn't give his mom pills, she did. He's speaking from his heart, god didn't write this for him.
+Jay Tayria stfu u ignorant atheist
Pills took my Brother away from us 2 months ago...that and Heroin...I know how you feel to a point...he was only 24...this song hit me hard because it's the same way I feel about my Brother...
I'm really sorry about that man
my mother actually died from pills tried my whole life to sober up i failed... hate myself everyday for failing
+TheFUButton Shamp sober her up
Iam sorry to hear that!
Sorry bro 😔
Stay strong, God's on your side, you are strong and you are going to make it
i can relate to this song to a point as well. My dad had taken his divorce with my mom pretty hard. He started drinking and doing drugs and lost himself and me and my little sister and brother. Eventually he committed suicide. my siblings were too young to understand but i was old enough to know and it hit me hard and the things after that made things worse. Because now my mom chooses boyfriends over her own kids. its like she has forgetten about me and my siblings. Put me through a lot of rough shit at 13. Still it affects me even though its been 5 years
Damien Noftsier I'm sorry man, God bless.
Damien Noftsier hey I sorry really am
Damien Noftsier sorry to hear. May God keep you.
I know the feeling man. The emotions of going through stuff like never goes away. No matter, it just becomes a part of who you are...
Damien Noftsier stay strong I'm in the same position. My mom is on drugs for 6yrs. My dad is a registrated sex offender. and my sis has been living in another state with her dad for 10yrs. I know how it feels to feel like your forgotten, or just a thought. Things get rough sometimes... just remember to keep your head up.
Hi Nate, I know you probably wont see this but, I know how you feel. Its never easy loosing a parent. I lost my mom 2 years ago right after she beat cancer. I miss her and your song helped me. Even though she didn't go like your mother did, the song made me thing about the memories with her and realizing that she's in a better place. I cried a little listening to this song. I thank you for writing it. You're an amazing and talented person. I bet she's up in heaven looking down on you and smiling about who you have become. Keep your head up. God is always with you.
I feel like someone read my heart and put it into a song
darker than you same here man
agreed.
I am 39 years old and this song describes my childhood to a tee. It is incredibly powerful. You are gifted. Thank you for sharing your story with us and I hope that your music inspires change.
you can feel his emotion coming through the song... this... this is art!
I agree! He's awesome
I KNOW! HE CAN COMPETE WITH EMINEM
woah there not that good but i agree he is pretty great eminem is still the best tho
^
Am I the only atheist that loves this guys music? I feel like he may be a Christian rapper but he could bring atheists like me and Christians together through the power of music
nic holland You're definitely not. I've seen multiple comments like yours on these videos. :)
nic holland Nope. I'm an Atheist, but I love his music so much.
Well considering most of his songs aren't christian at all, I'd say you're not the only one. I mean I'm here so.. yeah
nic holland he is Christian lmao
I really would not call this Christian music
There is nothing more painful thin losing your mom,
how about losing your keys?........
+gokugohan9000 what the
+gokugohan9000 lmao
there is nothing more painful then losing your mom and watching her die and suffer in pain ever day and you not be able to do anything about it but you smile and make like everything is okay but it is not and you can never say goodbye because one day it is to late so now her pain that you saw truns into hate but this time it is yours and it is making you into someone you are not someone dark but you still to the world seem happy
I lost my sister
First time hearing this song & it has me in tears. Daughter of an addiction mother here. Lost her in 2019. Still haven’t coped with it.
NF is amazing his songs are beautiful and this song is so touching
+Trishana Mungal right
yessir.
I couldn't agree any more
Man.. this made me emotional. This guy has an amazing gift for transforming his pain into a form of pure art with raw emotion. Praying for you man.
I never experienced what he has but I could feel it in this song, so much pain and hurt very emotional.. i cried, he is so strong
yes it is
bellacristii The pain and suffering hurts I know but it's a beautiful thing to have empathy
why i cry like a baby? 😭
lol
Because you have a heart like almost anyone who listens to this music
all but JP Wapachee
Martina Tribulikova
Lmao we all cry like the same dw 😂
Who wants to see this as a Music Video????
I would cry..
Kamrie Johnson I think we all would...
yes please
Heck yeah!!!
***** I'm not sure if any of us could.
This song is inspiring I am only 12 but everybody can learn from the songs he does.I know people go through worse than me. But I think sometimes I wish my life was different and then I remember people do go through stuff like this. This guy is a inspiration to me because he doesnt care what people say he just expresses himself. I may only be 12 but think about what people go through before you act.This song proves there are people that can understand what people can go through or what they do go through. Nobody should say these songs are a bad influence they are just the truth. This just shows the truth hurts and It pains me to know people go through stuff like this in life. I cant even think about losing my mom. And I cant even picture if I would lose her to pills. This song and every other song he does proves how our world is. So learn and bo knowledged about his videos.
same but makes me think of me dad
Preach
Omg you are soo right, Everything you said here is 100% right.
If he ever did a music video of this... It would be heartbreaking and super emotional but an amazing piece of art.
On Mother's Day
+Joe Turner this comment has completely killed me
+Joe Turner Literally the saddest comment ever.
Idk if that would be right pr wrong to put a music video for this up on mothers day... It feels right because it's the truth of what happened because it is his mom but it feels wrong because it's so sad and some might see it as disrespect.
+DeepVoiceBryan00 The song is just about his mother so I think it will be fine. It would be genius to have a music video for this song come out on Mother's Day.
When I heard the cry in the background I almost broke down😔
Yeah that was Nate😥
wow this one reminded me of my mom ... wish she hadn't left us either. she's still here but not with us. man. straight feels right here
+Karina Montez Thats tough
I'm sorry to hear about your loss. Hope you're doing okay
Praying for you! Know that God will never leave you! Read Isaiah 49:15! It's beyond beautiful it gives me amazing renewed hope and such peace reading it! Also, you got a mama, her name is Mary. She's our Savior's mom. Know your your not alone, I love you in Christ sista! I'm here if you need me. 💒😊
+Leslie Gallegos thank you so much! I just read it right now. Those words are very moving and dear to me and I will always keep that in mind ❤ love you in Jesus name sister! 👭
+jrdevildog 123 I'm so sorry you had to go through that. Please know that God was there as you witnessed all of it, all that you feel right now, God feels. I can't explain it in just a message where everyone can see, but, I know your not alone. God is with you, I'll be praying for you. What's your name and hers if you don't mind me asking for last name too or send me a message here I don't know how to. God loves you and right now all you really need to focus on is being filled with God's love and letting Him in even if it's baby steps. The situation you're in I don't know personally, but, I can only imagine what it's like. If you're not okay, it's okay not to be. Honey, you have A Divine being waiting for you to embrace Him so He can hold you, His name is God, in three Divine forms. You even got a momma and Oo let me tell you, those saints are your brothers and sisters in Christ who living in Heaven praying for us. I genuinely care, this isn't some fake thing. I hope and pray you know
I Cant Stop Listening To Him..His Music Sooo Touching..
+Lilly Mercado Same
yup
Samme
+Chelsey P and keep loving him sis!!!
This is the most genuinely sad song I have EVER heard in my life...
How does this man survive performing this on stage?
He’s broke down on stage before, hasn’t preformed it since the therapy session tour.
this shit hits me hard asf...
Same
Same
you don't know what he been threw so shut up hater
Edwin Sanchez how was that hateful
Where you talking trash about him ?
This song is straight real you can hear the passion as he holds back the tears.. this is real music passionate and dedicated to being real not holding anything back.. as a Christian or not he got mad skill and you should respect real music like this
I relate to every single word he speaks in this song. My mom overdosed once, was put on life support, came home and overdosed again three days later and passed away. Every word he says hits me on a deep level. I never thought I'd find a song I relate to so deeply. No song has ever touched me the way this song has.
This song is so heartbreaking! So much pain is in his voice! Praying for you NF!
Thanks
I love it when people tell NF that he "Talks about himself too much", or "brags too much". I'm just like, "Yeah, because opening himself up with all of his deepest struggles in his life to the world, like grief over his mom, being physically abused, having relationship issues... Is all bragging. Nice."
amen man
+AnimalManA yea man
AMEN .
what he going to rap about anyway if you do not like what he saying then bounce no one asked you to be here or stay goodbye
+AnimalManA Sure he does brag but when you think about it in every song he even says hes not the best and thats only like 5% of his songs
omg this song had me in tears
ts amazing huh
same
me too :( And yet he has overcome it and has such a strong Faith that is helping other people in this same situation know Christ. He is amazing.
same..
me too
I really want to give NF a hug.
I just listened to this song right now... and I feel for him. I think many times we want to believe that when you become a Christian, God removes your pain and struggles in an instant. However, I believe the Lord lets us embrace our struggle and loss for a season. Not only because it makes us stronger Christians in the end... but because we become a walking testimony to those that don't know Christ. Christians aren't perfect. We are still messed up people, but with a new hope in our life through our Lord and Savior. We are-- and always will be a work in progress.
Nate, if you ever get a chance to read this... I just want to thank you for your honesty, and faith in Christ amidst your pain. You are an inspiration to those that struggle with ANYTHING-- and I'm praying for complete healing and blessings on you and your family.
God bless you, bro.
+Jason Flores reading this made me so happy because i feel the exact same way. god bless that man
same.
I Dealt with depression And God has helped me through a lot and I have a connection with NF.... I tried-to harm myself... Even tried to end my life but Then I started going to Church and I went on my missionary trip And God changed me I thank you NF I'm sorry for your lost NF
I just ran across this song and my heart literally shattered. The fact that I can relate to EVERY word breaks my heart. This song makes me feel every ounce of pain my mom has ever made me feel once she left my brother and I for drugs. I love how you could share this message with us because more people that I could think was imaginable can relate.
this is how I feel about my uncle. so addicted to heroin until it eventually took his life. never understood why dope was more important until I myself started using. not the lady but my own things. Stay real Nathan! mad respect for you man.
been 4 months clean! praise God:)
Mona Skylynn good job im proud off u. i no its a really hard thing to do cuz of my mom. but so proud of u please stay clean❤
Backwoods Rider thank you so much! Its been a hard journey but Jesus gives me strength. I also learned watching my parents and seeing my uncle pass that its something you dont wanna do until death calls your name :/
I'm deeply sorry about your mom!
Mona Skylynn wish i could say the same about my mom. my step dad died right next to her. he OD. his heart exploded and it still didnt change who she is
Backwoods Rider oh my, maybe thats how she deals with the pain? Ive always tried jumping inside the heads of addicts but frankly its impossible- unless you've been in their shoes themselves. If its a hard drug and shes willing to try to quit I know there are many clinics that can give her therapy, and help her whine off. If she doesn't want to quit then I am so so very sorry, I know my sorrys dont mean anything to what's happening. It cant fix the problem, but I understand loving someone who is a drug addict is one of the worst pains a person can feel. Slowly watching them slip away. My advise is do what the Lord wants you too and try your best to do what's the best for you. If they dont want to quit there is truly nothing you can do to help, but something would have to happen to make them change, or you'd need to find the root of the problem and did it out from there. I know a lot of times, different coping skills just dont hold as much satisfaction as using so you dont want to quit- if you ever EVER need to talk, or vent or just get your mind away from things or talk to someone who understands than I will and always will be here for you. I watched my dad go to prisiom for some awful things when he was addicted to meth & huffing paints & stuff. My step dad & uncle actually laced my mom with Herion so she got addicted and the three of them would use. Then they used pills they bought from my aunt and then when my uncle died my mom, step dad and aunt would use together. I rememeber finding xanax all over the place and oxy all the time. When my parents tried quitting Heroin they just went to pills and would lie constantly about it. Its a cycle, but I believe God can help you, and youll need support to break the chains with users because although its so extremely painful, its not good for your mental health to be around that. Believe me I know its hard, thats your mom, and it won't happen for a while until you can finally love her from a distance but do what's best for you and not be so pained by watching someone slip away. :/
The saddest of this song and the comments are just so powerful I'm only 12 but I can feel the pain of all these suffering people that need help. I'm learning all of this in school and this really opens up my eyes. I just wish that more people could feel this pain and understand this is no joke this is pour sadness...
i feel you dude
RedRooBee i agree but you souldn't be wishing people to go through this pain.
Man, I know the pains of losing people, being abused, and being bullied. Man, I just want to tell you that don't wish that on someone man. This is coming from someone who has seen too much stuff in his life.
his past has made him into a great person and rapper. beats everyone out there god bless you man
Amen to that
this song makes me cry 😭
Man, until the end this song touched me inside. NF we are all here to support you, and especially God's here with us.
+MrPhrenchfries
i just want to say that these things happen because we have free will. when given free will, some people abuse it. it's power. and power corrupts. if we didn't have free will, we would all be slaves. God gives us the choice to follow him.
+Delilah Wahlund good reply
+MrPhrenchfries I can see what you are trying to say it's just that you really got to know what hell is to know what heaven looks like. like if Hitler didn't do what he did it will always be someone else because people learn from mistakes,. If NF's mom didn't die, which is a hard truth, then he probably wouldn't be a rapper and touch other people going through hard times or he would be a rapper that would be a secular music writer because he found god through his mom dieing.
+MrPhrenchfries And yet you wonder why god doesn't stop sin? to be honest a world with god stopping every sick child every mother on a death bed is a world without god. You don't get a life when you are born knowing you can get everything you want if you just pray because a world without evil is a world without good also. So what im saying is as much as you can complain about god for not asking your prayers you have to wonder what god wants you to do with all of your hatred.
***** needs to read the bible a bit more I see.
WHO ELSE IS BALLING THERE EYES OUT????😢😭😭😭
Everyone
i am g very deep
This song came out 3 days ago 😕
Bawling*
+April Mingucci lol
I feel everytime I listen to this.Stay strong NF
When I heard this song, I curled up in a ball and cried my eyes out. I lost my mom to pills too, so this hit me hard. I love you mom, I wish you could be here with me, rest in peace ;(
Jesus is there for all who call on Him. when therrs nothing left theres always Jesus. what do you have to loose. the strongest prayer ever prayed is Jesus help me. may Jesus help and deliever all
This guy has gone through so much. Wow, this song explained too much of his dark past. Now i'm officially crying ;(
Basically happened to me and my siblings but she didn't die I don't think but I don't know
+Ace Jordan she overdosed on drugs, she did die😕
NF is the realist rapper there is rn he puts the most passion in to his music then almost everyone else he is absolutely amazing. God definitely blessed him with a gift
This song made me cry so much. This is a purely powerful and amazing song. It hurts to know that kids and even adults go through this. If you do go though this I give you my prayers and I deeply hope things work out. I love you all.